To make a long story short, I’ve been stuck and held financially hostage in a volatile relationship for over three years. My son, who is the absolute sweetest little boy you could ever meet, will turn four in December. Not only do I sacrifice, but this pure innocent little boy who deserves the entire world, always ends up sacrificing even when he doesn’t know it. Not that he begs for toys or other things anyway, he’s easily pleased. My point is….I want to splurge on him. I want to get him a big slide or something he can play on outside with me. I want to go buy him brand new clothes instead of hand me downs from his cousins. I want him to have one pair of shoes that fits him right and that we don’t have to squeeze his foot into. My heart absolutely breaks when this little boy will rarely ask for something and gets his hopes up only to be disappointed. He really has been asking for a costume. That’s all he wants is a costume. But I want to give him more. What he deserves. The worst part about being stuck in this violent relationship is the fact that his father is a police officer, I’m sure you know they don’t have much of an income. $12 an hour. That’s it, and I have gotten jobs but like my latest one he came into my office and got me fired by calling me a “b word” and slamming my glass doors in front of the president of the company. If I have 5 dollars to my name and he has 5000, he will spend my 5 before dipping into his 5000. I would never normally ask for money like this. It’s degrading to say the least. But I just can’t take watching his own father break his heart repeatedly. I want to get out so badly as well. However with him being the police, I don’t get much help when calling for it. And I wasn’t sure if I was going to add this in, but I need for someone to understand why I just need money to splurge on him. I’m telling the truth 100%. I can show documents and records if necessary. Late last year I went to the er with what I thought was a bad reaction to poison ivy. They thought I was having a stroke after being unable to speak for periods of time, and gave me a head ct. my scans came back abnormal, showing advanced cortical atrophy of my brain. In simple terms, it means I’m very young with aggressive dementia. They have no idea how fast it will progress so I’m not given an idea of when I will lose myself completely. I really just want the rest of the time I do have with my sweet boy to be what he remembers most about me after I lose more and more of what makes me his mommy. I’m crying as I write this, so I hope it is not a scam or for nothing. I’m stuck…..and want to be happy at least for a little while. Thank you for reading and considering.