Begging Money

Financial Hardship Help

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My Own Place To Live

I just turned 70 years old and find myself in an unhappy situation.  When you think about you only have so many years left on earth you really want to be happy.  My happy place would be a cottage in a small but modern town where all the shopping is within walking distance or a condo in a nice, safe city that I can also walk out the door to the shops for things I need.  I have only a small amount of money and I cannot afford the prices for a safe, decent home to call my own.  I have a home but it is not in my name but my husbands name and I don’t want to be controlled by that anymore.  We’re fine together and he is good to me but I want my own space that I can call my own.  He would not like that and may create some drama.  I’ve been traveling with him for twenty years with his kids back and forth to Europe as he is from there.  I am tired of traveling and don’t want to get on a plane across the ocean if possible ever again.  I am about to go back there tomorrow and don’t want to.  I live there with him because I could not afford to buy a house here. I’ve been in the states for a visit with friends and family for three weeks now and don’t want to go back but I have to because he supports me so I have no choice.  If I just had enough money to buy outright a home and a car I think I could survive on my social security and an IRA that will last me for about 5 years before running out.  My income would be about $2300 per month but that would be without medical insurance, -car insurance- (if I couldn’t fine a city with easy access to shops for necessities) and all the things one has to pay for each month to live on.

I need $350K to  achieve this.  I am healthy and wouldn’t mind getting a job at a local hotel if anyone would hire me.  I have a happy spirit, still very young minded and a wonderful personality and everyone who meets me tells me how much they like me.  I just want my own place and not have to depend on someone else.  I would divorce my husband because he has some pretty bad habits that I don’t want to live with anymore nor the lifestyle.  I want to be the happiest I can be with the little bit of life I have left.  I want some animals to love. I would volunteer at an animal shelter, have animals myself and do whatever I could to help them.  They are so grounding.  So, with that I will close.  I have never done this before and I am embarrassed to write this but I thought why not?  It can’t hurt. My legal name is Sherrill Stulz.  The Howell name, I could never get Yahoo to change it nor Paypal.

paypal.me/mywish27

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We really need help

I am 17 years old, and my family and I need financial assistance.

My family consists of myself, my grandmother, a cousin, and my grandfather.   Unfortunately, my grandfather is no longer with us because he was believed to have died from his bad heart.  This was probably preventable on his part had he been careful and listened to the doctor’s advice about lifting heavy objects.  At the time of his death, my grandfather was trying to do people favors for a small amount of money to save up for a small truck to get him to a job he was doing for a good friend of his who owned a lawn mowing company without depending on the family vehicle for when we needed it because it was being used constantly to take my cousin to football practice, taking me to baseball practice or my work, getting groceries, and so on.  My grandfather had to be careful because he had surgery on his heart and wasn’t supposed to lift anything heavy (nothing exceeding 25 pounds) – but in his mind, we needed the money and tried to hurry this specific favor he was doing for our neighbor.  This might’ve been because he had a job to do right after and didn’t want to risk delaying the favor for the woman next door any longer.  He forgot to put on his “heart shocker,” which we called it, which gave his body jolts of electricity if he had lifted an exceeding amount – however, this probably would not have been enough to save him anyway.  We miss him a lot, and although he was hard on my cousin and me, we can see and appreciate his commitment to raising and caring for us as if we were his two sons.  There is no doubt he is in Heaven right now; he spoke a lot for our church and educated himself with the word of the Lord.  He recently got his ministry degree not long before he passed away – but God had other plans for him.

We never got the truck my grandfather was saving up for (which was being given to us, but he had to repair parts of the vehicle {Head gaskets, radiator} before it was able to be driven). Still, hopefully, we could somehow get enough saved up to get it fixed by an engineer.  This would help me get to where I work, which is out of town, so that my grandmother doesn’t have to drive me 20 minutes there and 20 minutes back when she has something to she’s busy doing.  Our family vehicle broke down but fortunately, somebody from our church was willing to give us one of their vehicles.  My grandmother is burdened with an even higher car payment to worry about paying off on top of everything else. ‘

‘  Although with a total monthly family revenue of ~$1,700 prior, we struggled with bills, car payments, and things.  Now that revenue has come down to maybe ~$1,100 or less (Before bills) – not that I know for sure because my grandmother doesn’t want us to worry or stress about it, but we’re doing everything we can to help her.  She now struggles to get groceries (let alone pay bills) – FoodStamps rejected her request, although she’s mentioned why we needed it.  Most of our income came from our grandpa, but we struggled to have any money even then – now it’s a lot worse.  The funds will be used to pay off our car, repair the truck, pay the bills, groceries, etc.  This will help release the burden of my grandmother and cousin and so much more.  I feel guilty for begging, but we need it!*

— I also want to add that currently we are behind on 3 rents, owing 500; 700; 400. .  and it’s likely going to worsen and we may have to even move out…

I am currently working as a Pharmacy Technician and I am in the Eleventh grade.  I do currently have an Academic and Sports scholarship and I am going to college straight after Highschool..  However, I really do not want to leave my Grandmother with the stress she is going through, as I am currently helping her now.  It’s still good to know that my cousin will be here for her when I leave, however.

Truthfully, I don’t know the exact number we need but any amount that you would be willing to give will help us.  If you really are willing to help then please send it to my Paypal (or make a request and tell me another method — preferably cashapp..)

Also I want to add that I’ve made a post on here a few months ago and the people who reached out to me were all scammers and all they’ve done was give me false hope and wasted my time to somehow convince me to send them money instead, which I didn’t.  It’s sad that people really try to prey on those who really need help just to make a quick buck.  I know there are really kind people out there willing to help those who really do need it so I want to say to whomever reading this to please be careful and do not be tricked by these weirdos who sit online all day looking for targets to be their victims.  Anyways, thanks for reading this and God bless you.

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/huntercastlee     – paypal

$phirez    – cashapp

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Car to commute to work daily for a Doctor in Pharmacy. (cost of car: around 20k)

Dear Donor,

Hello, I am a 25 years old freshly graduate pharmacist, I got my Bachelor degree with a very excellent grade: 18.13/20 in 2015, got my first degree: Master in Biology with honors in 2017, and then 5 years later got my PHD in Pharmacy. And now it’s been a year since I started working in a hospital. I shall say that I am so proud with what I have accomplished, it was not easy, I have worked really hard to get my dream job, you see I am very passionate with what I do now, I love my job as a Pharmacist, it is very noble and very humanitarian, and I want to give more in this, I know I can.

Unfortunately, when I wanted to move on to the next step of my career which is my Specialty training that takes up to 4 years, i found myself facing struggling finances, the situation devastated me physically and mentally on daily basis, and I really don’t want to give up on this, I want this I need this but I just couldn’t keep feasting on my sharp mindset, big ambition and the huge hunger to be successful in my field, because these were my Fuel for the last 10 years, but just can’t anymore , I need minimum condition to push myself.

So, the problem is that the job that I got is in a hospital that’s unfortunately in another city that’s two

hours away from where I live, which is my parents’ house. It takes me each day four taxis and a two 40-minute subway trips in total. A daily routine that I can’t escape from.

Because of my current salary, I couldn’t rent myself a place near work, so I started saving up for a car, it’s been a year now and still far away from the budget needed.

Here’s an insight of my five days per week routine, so I wake up at 5 :00am in order to be at work by 7 :30 am, and then I finish up at 5 :00 pm to be at home by 19 :00 pm five days a week. I barely have time to have dinner and go to sleep and maybe go for a run or walk to keep healthy, but never have enough time to get to my studies. On the weekend I side hustle online (captioning, subtitles, data entry jobs.) for extra bucks and try to study as many pages as I can. But the Degree exam is very close I couldn’t keep up the amount of work to do, studies to have, and the little time and money.

If only you can help me afford a car , any car, if possible a truck so i can move my stuff whenevr i move which it happens a lot with my job, and maybe get a place to rent in the city, I can do so much better, I have big potential that I really don’t want to go to waste, I can’t regret this and I beg you for your help.

I will finally be able to focus perfectly on work and studies and my research, and become the woman I’ve always dreamt of.

You are one click away from making this unfortunate pharmacist, a Clinical Pharmacist with a lot to offer. Please help me out

Thank you.

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/pharma97

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I am an honest woman

looking for honest help NO solicitation, please! I am in dire need of a car my financial well-being counts on it. I was married 27 years to a narcissist who left me for a gross fat woman who was extremely nasty and willing to do anything for our money I guess that is why he divorced me leaving me penniless at a time when we were set. He took the business we just started and is now a 10 million business as we speak seems he still doesn’t Have enough money and that’s where my story begins Mary 27 years divorced I got nothing out of the marriage and when I say nothing I literally got not enough to even pay the rent on my apartment it abuse that I suffered from him and his mother caused me PTSD not being able to work this is sincere this is not the story I made up one day he was my best friend we were supposed to grow old together and kick her canes out from underneath each other but it seems that would not be happening now I’m on my own and bills are piling up even the bills that he left me to take care of after the marriage was over well in October I loaned my car to your friend he brought it back to me on a tow truck I haven’t heard from her since then luckily I had insurance right you would think so nope I still have the same insurance as my ex-husband and Geico paid the wrong beneficiary him do you think he would give me the money back no way he spent it immediately it’s left me wondering did I do something wrong I didn’t I was the one who worked hard to make the marriage work I did everything so he wouldn’t have to do you didn’t he didn’t do anything I did everything so he didn’t have to and he stole my insurance money so now I’m still left without a car this is my only hope in gathering finances so that I can get a good vehicle so that I can get a job which is pretty hard to do without a car so I put the mercy in your hands I hope to hear from people I heard from one person once on this site he wanted to know what I could do for him I have never been so humiliated in my entire life so if you’re looking for something in return please don’t message me I have rewritten my post hoping to get a little more attention from good people who are willing to help me not some scumbag who’s looking for me to help him!

 

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Struggling mentally

Hello I am 22 years old, my name is Zack. I’d like to tell my story so you can get an idea of who I am. I was born in Washington state, infact I have never left the state all 22 years have been lived here. I was born into a life where my father was abusive and often drank at bars and would have violent outburts he kicked me across the room when I was a 1 year old. My mother took me away from him and lived with her parents for a while till she met her husband. I never got close to him or my mother really, I always question if thats my fault or not. I was a shy kid but would open up if you approached me first, still am that way. I had made friends in elementary school but going into middle school we moved and I had to leave all my friends. Being the shy kid who isnt exactly the most comfortable reaching out, I never stayed in contact with any of them. Middle school is when my depression issues started manifesting. My mom never really checked up on me much and had me be really independent from her. No lunches made, no laundry done, no checking up on me. I felt more and more alone, luckily early on in middle school however I made some friends, not the best ones but I had them atleast. I met one kid in 7th grade who was alot like me, we both liked video games, both shy but both open up after a while. We were good friends up until 9th grade in high school where yet again we moved and I lost all my friends including him. This is were depression wasnt just manifesting, it was in effect. New high school, 10th grade so no one is trying to make friends cause most people already had some. Not me, I sat alone every single lunch, failed all my classes cause I would just draw and write little songs to try to ease my emotions. I never ate enough so my stomach always groweled and it was so embarassing I would stab my pencil into my stomach so it would stop. At home my mom and her husband still never checked up on me, I was never spoken to unless it was a holiday or I went out of my room first. But I would stay in my room cause I thought I was a waste of space and should die already. My head was in such a bad point that if I hydrated myself my head would just think worse thoughts and be more active, so I never drank or ate enough and was shy and was never talked to. 11th grade comes around and I switch to fully online stay at home high school. It was easy, ofcourse I was lazy from being so down so it still took me a while. Soon after that however my mom sat me down and said shes getting a divorce, She is taking my little brother and hooking back up with an old boyfriend she still had feelings for or something. She left me with her ex husband who I was never close with and worked all day so I never saw him. Basically I was alone everyday trying to cope with my depression with no one to talk to. Sadly I did eventually cut my forearm hoping someone would notice, I remember hiding my blankets crying with blood running down my arm. I just sat there lifeless and empty as it dried on my arm. Those scars are still with me today, they sorta blend in but im sure some people have noticed. My mom had but never said anything, this tore the hole in my heart even wider. I hoped if she saw she would finally try to help me. Eventually I push and push and finally graduate high school. But before I could my moms ex husband wanted me out the house so I had to move back in with my mom. I am 18 at this point in life, directionless since I never talked to anyone, never got advice, I did nothing with my diploma for a good 6 months. Finally my mom gives me an ultimatum of me needing to find a job in the next 2 weeks or else. So I find a job, no idea how I go on google maps and click on buisnesses and looked for a career tab on the websites. Up until I found Walmart and started working there, I didnt ever make any friends but definitely some decent acquaintances eventually my working conditions and my head get to me and I walk out with my girlfriend who also worked there. Who knows why she loves me but, shes my world. 3 months later with no job trying to cope with depression that was been building up more and more ever since I was 12 we reach present day. I am currently looking for a job, no opportunites yet. My car insurance and subscriptions are put me into the dirt and now my credit card is at 600$ and I got 80$ in my checking account. I just need a boost to get me going, I might be depressed but I have dreams. I’d love to be a video game designer one day and once I am back on my feet thats what im going to start working towards. Save money for college with a new job. Anyways if you read all this thank you so much for sticking through. I know other people have it alot worse then me however, I thought maybe this was worth a shot. Thanks again bye bye.

-Zack

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A Marines Sailing opportunity

Hello my name is Jon, 35 years old, got out of the Marines in 2009 and found a place finally here in Ohio.

I was hoping to get the opportunity to attain this boat that was abandoned. The slip was offered at a 2000usd price for the season and the boat would be free with the slip.

I’ve never owned a boat but always wanted to. I am in the process of learning as much as I can about sailing and even have someone willing to teach me on the water after their surgery. This would really be a dream come true as I do have a actual goal to sail the ocean and this seems to be an appropriate way to see what I’m getting into. The boat is still floating it’s a 30′ I just wouldn’t forgive myself if I didn’t at least attempt this new embarking of a future full of adventure. Of course it will take hard work to get there so here I am asking for a little help any at all and I’ll appreciate it greatly. Thank you for your time.

https://www.paypal.me/jgfarnden

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Self sufficient community dream

I have a dream that I would love to make happen. 

I am a Christian, a wife and a mother to two boys.

I have experienced darkness most of my life until I found Jesus, and discovered that he is absolutely the way, the truth and the life. I want to bring light into people’s lives and show them that there is another way. Not in a pushy, evangelical way, I just want to open a space and invite people to be apart of it, all people from all walks of life. I am getting ahead of myself, here is a little bit of information about me. I currently live as a caretaker and I am very lucky to have a home to live in, however I have a dream that I want to make a reality and the only thing stopping me is money. I have no spare money that I can put away, it all goes month to month. I home educate my boys so I work my business around my sons (I spin and dye wool for knitting) 

I want to buy a piece of land and a little home/base. I want to live a natural, self-sufficient lifestyle. I want to raise my own animals and grow all my own food. I want to pass this on to the next generation, and the next. 

I want to open this space up to a community to teach people these old forgotten skills. How to grow food, how to forage food, how to raise animals for food/ wool ect. How to make clothing, tools etc.

 

 

I believe we are so far removed from how we were designed to live that we now live in a society where everyone is depressed but they don’t know why. 

 

I am also a beekeeper and want to be able to teach people this too. Ways of living naturally and in harmony with the earth. 

 

It will be accessible to all people from all backgrounds regardless of money. I want people to have a space to come and grow veg, look after animals etc and work towards things as a community. Beekeeping workshops, all kinds of things. For example, If a family want to come for a holiday but have no money, they can come and help out in exchange etc. 

 

I want to help people struggling with their mental health that just don’t have access to natural spaces to have a place to come and find purpose, whether that’s looking after animals, growing food, or helping with workshops etc. 

 

The little farm will be open for families who have children with disabilities/ issues to come and spend time with the animals. I would run it as non-profit charity and possibly open a farm shop/ artist/ maker space to keep an income coming in. I want to make this world a better place. Thank you for reading this, if you have got this far. 

Amy

Here is my PayPal link:

 

https://paypal.me/AmyHymer?country.x=GB&locale.x=en_GB

 

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Trying to escape family with addiction and mental illness

2022 completely drained me financially and in so many other ways.

February 2022- my husband had a hard time recovering from COVID. He passed out and has a seizure at work in February during this time and couldn’t work fora few months. My brother was arrested at the DMV for getting angry the same day my husband had the medical emergency. My mom called to tell me as I was following the ambulance to the hospital with my husband. My husband was still testing positive for COVID so I couldn’t stay with him. I went to my brother’s house to let his dogs out and feed them since he had been arrested. When I arrived I almost broke down completely. My brothers house looked like something from the TV show hoarders. What’s worse is that it was actually my mom’s house. She was letting him stay there before she moved and hadn’t sold that house yet. His poor dogs were living in filth. Months old food, Pepsi cans stacked everywhere, trash piled up to the ceiling in some areas. I took the dogs back to my house. He got out the next day, but I quickly realized he was not ok. He had struggled with opioid addiction in the past and had been on methadone for years. I think he took too much and then ran out and was having withdrawals because he was in a state of psychosis. He was talking about demons and God and believed he was being sent visions of a past life or multiple past lives. My husband was released the next day, but struggled physically and cognitively for months after. I was afraid to tell my mom about her house and my brother. She had also struggled with psychosis in recent years. We now know it was because of withdrawals from pain pills after having a knee replacement. My brother got worse so I found a friend and we drove overnight to get him in a hospital near my mom. Once he was admitted I drove home to focus on my husband. Over time I noticed my husband got more and more depressed. He started drinking more she more. He was so used to being busy and working that it was literally killing him to stay home.

March 2022- I found a company to help clean up my mom’s house. She asked my husband to remodel the house so she could sell it. We spent a lot of time over the summer working on it.

July 2022-However, like my brother, she also went into psychosis due to stopping pain pills suddenly after being on them for months. She became paranoid and suspicious of me. She started believing I was a witch and had special powers. She thought my husband was actively trying to kill her.  I don’t know if you have ever tried to get someone admitted for this type of thing but it isn’t easy. It didn’t matter that she was seeing & hearing things that weren’t there or went weeks without AC in 100+ degree weather. Sometimes if your lucky you can get them to go to the hospital and then you can get them admitted by signing an affidavit but even that didn’t always work. It’s sad to think about all the other times that similar things had happened with her where I had to learn how the system works the hard way.

July 2022- my mom ends up in a psych unit after enough situations with her neighbors calling the police. Thank God she was in a city and not the rural areas where I live. Just three years before, a similar situation happened after her first knee surgery and she often became violent with me because she believed I was a witch. Any time I called the police they just wanted to arrest someone and it was so scary. Luckily this time they brought a social worker and took her to a hospital. She spent 21 days there.

August 2022- my husband was still dating with depression. He was working, but took a big loss with having to stop remodeling my mom’s house. And he started drinking more. My brother was more lucid than he had been but he was still talking crazy sometimes and with my mom and husband down I just started to struggle myself. I work full time but bills add up quick. My main goal became keeping my teenage daughter from going down with all of the stress. My husband went in for a medical detox but signed himself out after a day.

September 2022- my husband was starting to do better with the drinking but work was slow to non existent. We had started building a house before all of this happened but the delay in money and time left us living in a camper longer than expected. I took out a few personal loans to help temporarily.

October 2022- we moved into the garage/shop area of the house because we had enough finished to make it work.

November 2022- it was expensive to heat the shop. I had a $900 electric bill. My mom had started to do better but it’s always rough reconnecting after an incident life that cause her memories are clouded Ave even if she didn’t think I was a witch anymore, I could tell she got weird feelings sometimes. Plus my husband was still extremely depressed about the situation because she took so much out on him while she was sick, and I didn’t want him to go back down again.

December 2022- I realized my husband’s construction account hadn’t been paid and started working to pay it off in addition to the personal loan payments and other bills piling up.

January 2022- the rear axel breaks on my car. $2000 repair. I tried to sell our camper since we are in the house for the most part, but we are upside down in it and will have to continue making monthly payments. My credit is officially in the tank from maxed out credit cards and unpaid medical bills.

So, basically I’ve dug myself into a financial hole this year and I’m struggling to see the light. I’ve done everything I can to help my family but I’m just drained. I don’t feel like I can even begin to focus on myself out my daughter because I keep getting pulled down further financially. I’m not a fan of asking for money, but I really need help digging myself out of this.

 

 

 

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Just want to be free

Hello, My name is Koda I appreciate those who cared to spend their time on me and my story. I’m mentally and it’s been a hard struggle to live through it, I’m doing so much better then I ever have thanks to Jesus and God hearing my prayer and my serious attempt to go to the doctora praying for the right doctor for me who understands me and can help me. Blessed I was though I ran out in a panic cause I told God with his guidance I’ll do my part and try and was told I would see the doctor and the man I saw wasn’t the doctor frozen and stiffened eyes on the floor fear and anxiety becoming unbearable for I needed to leave and suffered from these symptoms and tried to be treated but couldn’t get myself to go forth. I would become trapped in a paralyzed stance not moving emotionless trying to not panic and make a scene adding to the humiliation of being stuck unable to move my body or have it act the way I wish and never understood what the feeling and cause was making it happen to me… I would scream beg and plead to myself to just do what I needed to do but unable to. If I needed to say something and I froze I knew that I needed to act and speak up to say something like I need to use the bathroom having the thought ahead of time going over how I would say it and freeze and go silent most times only a soft whisper would come out. I kept getting worse in age and used to love playing outside and going all over without a care and I didn’t feel the nervous anxious dread before I felt sketchy when k was little but not fear. But I hit my head and had to go to the hospital and had blood on my brain from falling off my skateboard flying down this huge hill one night coming home and got speed shakes seeing gum ball spikes and having to bail and failing hitting my head on the asphalt missing the grass and dirt and I was 14 I think and when I got to school I noticed a feeling I never felt before and it was unsettling and I got a lot of attention from everyone witch I never seen happen before but it terrified me to the frozen stiff body and my I couldn’t move on command anymore and knowing I needed to but the attention with anxiety felt for the first time caused what I would find out at a psych ward from a suicide attempt and broke down on the nurse having a panic trying to tell her I wasn’t okay and to say that scared me but was true I couldn’t move my body at times and I didn’t know or ever hear about it? And to me my body was betraying me and causing me to feel uncomfortable in my own skin and people asking if I was okay and I had no idea what was happening and when I got diagnosed at the ward the nice lady was correct. And I been suicidal since I was 12 thinking my parents were fighting cause something I did and I remember just knowing I caused them to be mad and fight and I was the youngest and even as a baby no one liked me and no one would play with me on a hill full of my cousins and brother and sister and brother and always unwanted a life time curse apparently….

See I have boarderline personality disorder and it intensifies emotions and abandonment hurts the worst yet only had the pain once when my mother moved out leaving me with broken promises and refused to stay a little longer with me cause I didn’t know this type of sadness and I couldn’t shake the depression witch I have major depressive and I didn’t know about myself until I was out into a psych ward but I was so happy I wasn’t just crazy and there was a reason I was the way I was and I was on celixa and it made me a fake happy happiness but my sister in my excitement to know told her what I had and she told me that boarderline personality disorder was a very bad thing and that she wouldn’t be wearing that around and I took it as the insult it was and did away with my medicine was making me poop liquid and fake concern about my happiness and weirded out by me being happy extremely so. But It wasn’t me and I wasn’t crazy as my sister said and distanced myself from the medicine unbeknownst I was gradually getting worse and worse freezing up and begging myself to move cause the humidity while keeping a blank face cause nothing is bothering me I tried to show while dying of humility flustered and upset. Cause I became no one not even a face or body I thought I was enjoying myself so many times of it happening. And truly no one understands and they can’t ever truly know and felt a bunch of emotions intensifying and trying to keep a brave face and not seemed bothered slowly fading away and becoming forgotten many many times to not being noticed and left out or being near by and overbearing conversations about me more times then i wanna remember and someone wanted to have my friend leave me behind because I wasn’t liked for not being able to say much or move around and saw as boring weird and bad kid having been blamed by others doings but unable to speak up or defend myself I always got chewed out taking everything frozen stiff and social anxiety and embarrassment from being stuck quite and never not feeling my skin crawling anxious for no reason and I became my worst going to the doctor and telling him I tried to kill myself having a panic attack and shaking uncontrollable not cause I was on anything but cause i been overdoing trying to overdose and hanging and more just trying to escape myself and the humiliation being seen and in public outside my house and it’s simple for us…. We don’t have major depressive disorder bpd and what else. But if I had more then one person around my body would lock up and I’d go silent and over long periods of time of agoraphobia people would see it on my face somehow knowing to ask me if I was okay and I would get sweaty faint throw up cause I never could get rid of my anxiety that shows and never left and I started to quite going outside stopped wanting anything for I couldn’t help my body wouldn’t move and I didn’t want to show a brother I started isolating myself to my room spending my time my dad liked to show his disgust by making signs when I came into the room or coming back… and it hurt and kept me in my room even more because I been feeling useless and a burden a failure fold to get over it it’s all in your head doctors more pysch ward….. I just want to die always feeling depressed and freezing up and becoming known as the big guy with the hunched back and my shoulders just was a sign I’m falling apart and giving up on life carrying myself around anymore I dunno why I even would follow Angkor s they did didn’t like that huh? I spent every day miserable and envious of everyone able to move freely and act so free but even in public and viewing from my area watching everyone have fun and play having fun and enjoying themselves and anyone ever tried adding me to and I just couldn’t move and I became a let down one to many times and it was harder and harder to want to laugh but don’t want to be seen or draw attention to myself it’s without even hiding a smile or laugh and I never was liked and I didn’t talk do anything bjt get suck and panic and I’m 6-6 260 and I was big as a kid and I wanted to play how everyone did me and I kept causing issues by accident and pointed out embarrassment stuck wanting to leave but couldn’t and it’s madness more so when you cast our what I had I remembered two but the third I didn’t wanna be scary or more awkward and I did and more depressed and forced to watch my dad die if Colin cancer watching him quickly wither away and I couldn’t act like it was okay any more and it was hurting me to see him and pretend everything was okay and mom being wicked evil and disrespectful saying crap behind his back telling me he looks disgusting and she couldn’t stand to sss blm and I was 24 hated my dad but   tried to convince him and he hadn’t a job but made 800 dollars a week from my sister who would know if he was sick and and said nothing did nothing but drop her kids off and dad tried to murder me for defending my little nephew from dad cussing him and yelling and he grabbed a tape gun and tried to shove the sharp teeth Into my throat and my elbow stopped it and started spasming and twitching after disarming him and poor nephew catch a hit on the head and I’m to be blamed das saying look what you made me do??! Not like he tried and said he was gonna kill me and attempted for standing up to him cussing his grandson and not long after that I yelled at him telling him to stop taking his anger on those babies cause he wouldn’t go to the hospital and he went that day…..and I went to visit him in the hospital and he wanted me and my sister to promise his inheritance of the property if sold goes to mom so she could get her a house she always wanted and he wanted to give her and he thought I would steal it mom did too and I knew not to trust my sister from her manipulation attempt to convince me to convince mom when she’s old to let Jessi invest her money…. Saying when she is old and deceptive… and when dad passed she shows up with the youngst child comes to me with a smile asking if I killed my dad and saying it was okay if I did as im looking at his body that she covered with a blanket having mom do the same and mom didn’t even care I was asked that when my father is dead and I prayed for mercy for dad I was falling apart and threaten to be kicked out if I didn’t stay and help watch over him and I had been by the man who attempted to kill me not long ago choked me as a child beat me and only me and made me feel worthless by being in his presence and I tried to comfort mom I heard her screaming and I must have just went to sleep and impressed God answered my prayer so fast and grateful his suffering was done and I was pushed away by mom told to go get uncle clay……. And I did and I wasn’t allowed to grief for my father  and was sent away trying to comfort my mother comfort my mother told to fetch his dick head. Brother and when I tried to talk to my mother and sister while they discussed things I was told to go play with the babies by my sister and mom agreeing I wasn’t allowed to be sad or be seen and told to play with a baby and my father just died I now been sent away twice not allowed to mourn with them or even try to help I wasn’t wanted around by my own family just used to help my father die and I remember mom never sat near him and sat behind him talking shit and my sister coming twice while he was on his deathbed one to watch a movie to say she did that with her dad? And she brought fui putting it in front of date at the table eating in front of the man who’s stomach has to be pumped and is withering into a human skeleton and no love of sympathy for him I spent most of the time with him and asked to sit with him one night cause he wanted to hold my hand and it was dark quite and the dimness of the tv in the dark painted a sad moment of realization he is dying and his wife is mad and bitter at him talking behind his back taking it as a joke it seemed calling her friend and her friend down from tienesse the night dad came home putting him isolated in there room and having me take care of him and he grabbed my arm and it scared me cause I was trying to keep calm and what I witnessed from mom and heard she needs someone for her and puts hospice dad isolated to hang out with her friends rather then her dying husband and I was the only one trying to help and comfort dad…. And I hated him yet seeing how he was being treated on his death bed left alone and mom out of his sight hiding and getting him out of bed super frail and laughing saying help when he has hoses coming out of him and he is skin and bones I need to sleep so I can properly take care of him cause it was me and mom and she already wasn’t taking it well or serious and I remember telling dad the drops was to help him enough said he didn’t want them but he didn’t need to remain awake and be held on very strong man and I had to give him the drops that could hasten death but I only did so for he didn’t need to be awake for this meaning alone with his wife behind him and I had to tell her to sit by him and be his wife and I had no medicine and it was killing me emotionally mom was forcing me to help or I would be removed couldn’t have a nurse one night and she is yelling this as I’m mortified crying unable to hide the pain of seeing him like that the day he did die and my sister made mom get her knowing dads dying and keeps mom away and dad asking where she was a lot an I’m telling her I think he might be ready to go he is calling for you and a hour later. Returning home just her  meaning she never mind….

So I’m not letting my sister manipulate me and I’m not taking moms money or after it but know my sister is and now moving mom out of the house that mom let fall apart and is complaining about it and becoming abusive to me with punches slapping my knuckles with a back scratcher when j try to talk to her and she’s ignoring me always does and I’d tap her and get slapped hard and she is careless grieving she says telling me and crying to me and telling me these things I don’t care to hear since I can’t talk about my feelings cause she has to much she’s going through and I been trying to help her and never allowed to talk about anything and attacked by her saying I hated him didn’t love him yet I took care of  the man who tried to kill me gave him peace by forgiving him as he asked giving mom my half of the inheritance when it comes and trying to protect her and make her see my sister is just using her and manipulating her and she held the title for years after saying she  really needed to sell my car she gavE me and taken away to sell and skts and the tag missing for years keeping me unable to even to drive mom telling me she has to much anxiety or next weekend x3 and then going with my sister on my drive days told to get uncle Richard to ride with me and he is dying almost did and he had diabetes and sister took my car for months saying she’s selling it and it sat there even longer and she moves mom out abandons me and didn’t keep her promises mom won’t even say with me for a minute and comes by telling me how pathetic I’m being to grow up after she had did all that sent me to jail cause she refused to admit Jessi did me wrong and siding with her clearly and moms offering me a car now but I want mom to admit Jessi has her controlled cause she’s a narcissist and been after the money and I say mine mama declares hers and I kept warning mom Jessi really is going to see papa it and doesn’t stop by I knew it mom didn’t see it until no one told her the land sold they just started moving out leaving me and mom for dead basically I was abused and jailed bones broke called such hurtful things and crude jokes towards me and hate and Jessi showed her self  and I told mom now she really sounds like it and I could have taken my sisters social security card number just there downstairs and box open yet I stopped my ways and had Christ even having to Write fear not for you are blessed message for mama who was throwing a fit and Jessi sent her to papas house showing papa I told you she isn’t what you think and he gave my sister and 15 other aires there checks  it not me and Chris a shit person just showed up grabbed it and left…… and clay Richard and papa decided not to tell me that Jessi stole the no money I already knew and Jessi I cried to papa on Christmas Eve and kicking me out thankfully I knew didn’t expect my sister to buy herself a house with moms money and mom’s devastated and I had to move her into her new house by myself along with take care of dad tey my best to tell her jessi wanted her money and mom told her sister is Jessi just asked for her half she could of had it?!?!!  That’s a fucking fact and I  couldn’t have My half at all yeah said that right in front of me a damn lie and disrespectful wicked thing to say after after I told her  and told her beat and broke my bones hurt my feelings treat me like shit ignore me and I have conversations with myself talking to you mom and I shave to listen to the mope years after about jessi and it was you trusted her more then me and probably have her my half so I didn’t touch it it was gonna mom and mom tells me jessi was w

Ringt about me? Yet I don’t do anything but tried to look out for my mother step by step and hated and used and told jessi could just keep her half fuck koda and still fuck koda yet koda could have done the same tk his sister two different ways and been easy and well when papa offered me the money first I told him I would do as dad said and give it to mom for a house anthe said never wanted mom to have money and broke his promise to Dads Me mom and Jessi and I took took off to skin papa cause he is lying g over the phone and I never done him bad or spoke to him but I was pissed and told him everything possible down to the facts one foot in the the grave and you choice is betrayal lies more lies wickedness and stupidity and gave the land away literally and now all the buzzards feasted off you cause they only showed when they wanted something and enjoy what life you have left alone in front of tbe tv in a 100 year old house that’s a piece of shit and 300k the amount you gave the guy who sold the land your fuckjng stupid and I told you jessi wasn’t good and a golden  child she’s just like you a narcissist enjoy burning of you make it to heaven you will smell of smoke you will die alone and no one is coming to your funeral hope you know that and that was that and he died a year later but I need help getting away from mom I want my independence and the life I finally can have one and never wanted one and the journey here was actually pathetic and I should’ve took sisters social but God and Jesus changed my life oath to God to never lie and mean it and if you …. Nesbit and seriously put your all a relax and breathe know your forgiveness was blessed.

I don’t want to ask for money I never cared for my life and wanted out here I make enough surveys for a living. I can’t be missing what never was and my brother out of prison and here cause I begged for him to be able to and be did get to come back and the. He began stealing my cigarettes and drugs every time and acting big and bad and I had enough and never touched him took his knife snd spun around my hand and caught it over and over and he got so scared he cried walking into the living room put his shoes on and walked out saying I mcrazy he tried to kill me and pressed charges trying to put me 10 years in after getting him out and drug stealing again mom let me choose and I still let brother back in and he told me when I get back your gonna be stealing half my stash again and lie and you tried lying and made a mess today risking my ass and stop Fucking stealing from me fucking always and half my shit I hardly had any of and again doubled up on it knowingly exactly wear it was now and I hope y’all Have a goodnight everyone

God Bless, I hope your family and life aren’t wasted as mine was I haven’t much to look for best of luck

Thanks for any donations and stopping by

 

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Debt Spiral

Dear Reader,

I would like to request your kind help to turn my life around.

Unfortunately, I have been caught in a never ending circle of debt due to some bad decisions I have made.

I have started taking out pay day loans when I was in need a few years back.

 

This now escalated to a debt of different kinds of GBP 10.000 and it’s incresing everyday due to the high interest rates.

I have no idea on how I could ever pay this back as I currently barely able to pay enough monthly to cover the interests.

I have 0 disposable income and just can not advance in my life in any way.

I am depressed and lost the will to lived or do anything.

I would like to turn my life around to be able ti enjoy it, to travel and to buy gifts for my loved ones.

I would be forever grateful for any donations sent to me:

paypal.me/zsoltitkd

I have attached a picture of my cats who are currently the only happiness in my life.

Warmest regards,

Zsolt

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Need 3000USD to test out this trading robot project

 

I am reaching out to ask for your financial support in testing my trading robot. As you may know, developing a trading robot requires significant resources and expertise. The funds I am requesting will be used to cover the costs associated with testing the robot, including hardware and software expenses, as well as any necessary data subscriptions.

I have spent the last few months researching and developing my trading robot, which I believe has the potential to revolutionize the industry. The robot is designed to automate a trading strategy that is currently performed manually, and it uses advanced algorithms and techniques such as machine learning and artificial intelligence to identify profitable trading opportunities.

I have a detailed testing plan in place, which includes metrics to evaluate the performance of the robot, such as the profitability and risk management. The testing will be conducted in a simulated environment, and the results of the test will be used to further develop and improve the robot.

I have already made significant progress on the project, and I am confident that the robot has the potential to achieve strong returns on investment. I have modeled the financials and the results are very promising. The robot has a clear path to profitability, and I believe that there is a viable market for the robot once it is ready for deployment.

I understand that investing in a project like this is a risk, but I am willing to put in the work and effort to make this a success. I have a strong team in place, with expertise in the relevant areas such as artificial intelligence, machine learning, and finance.

I would be grateful for any support you can provide as we work to bring this innovative technology to market.

In summary, I am requesting funding to test my trading robot. The robot has the potential to revolutionize the industry by automating a trading strategy that is currently performed manually. I have a detailed testing plan in place and a clear path to profitability. I have a strong team in place and I am confident that the robot has the potential to achieve strong returns on investment. I would be grateful for any support you can provide as we work to bring this innovative technology to market.

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Maine Billionaire Fan

I’m the biggest fan of the newest Maine billionaire. My wish, as the biggest fan of Maine’s newest billionaire, is to be donated $10,000,000 so that I can make my family happy. I’ve posted some nice information about Maine for you. I know the tax folks will take enough to just make you a millionaire but you’ll always be a Billionaire to me.

 

Maine is a state located in the northeastern region of the United States and is known for its picturesque landscapes, rich history, and friendly locals. One of the most notable features of Maine is its rugged and dramatic coastline, which stretches for over 3,500 miles and is dotted with lighthouses, rocky cliffs, and sandy beaches. The state’s coast is also home to numerous fishing villages, many of which have been around for centuries and are steeped in maritime history.

 

Another standout feature of Maine is its abundance of natural beauty. The state is home to numerous state parks, including the beautiful Acadia National Park, which offers visitors the chance to hike and explore its rocky cliffs, pristine beaches, and dense forests. Inland, you’ll find vast expanses of wilderness, including the mighty White Mountains, which are home to some of the most challenging hiking trails in the country.

Maine is also known for its delicious seafood, with the state’s icy cold waters providing an ideal environment for lobsters and other seafood. Visitors can enjoy the freshest seafood at local seafood shacks, seafood markets and restaurants. You can also find diverse cuisines that reflect the state’s cultural heritage.

Maine is also rich in history and culture. The state has a rich maritime heritage and is home to numerous historical sites, including lighthouses, shipyards, and forts. Visitors can also explore the state’s many museums, including the Maine Maritime Museum, which tells the story of the state’s rich maritime history, and the Portland Museum of Art, which showcases works by some of Maine’s most celebrated artists.

The people of Maine are known for their friendly and welcoming nature. The state’s small towns and tight-knit communities make it easy to meet new people and feel at home. Maine is also home to a vibrant arts and culture scene, with numerous music festivals, art shows, and theater productions taking place throughout the year.

In conclusion, Maine is a truly special state that offers something for everyone. From its rugged coastline and natural beauty to its delicious seafood and rich history, Maine is a destination that should be on everyone’s travel list. With its friendly locals, diverse cultures and beautiful landscapes, you’ll find that Maine is a great place to visit, live or retire.

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/mainebillionairefan?country.x=US&locale.x=en_US

 

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Please, help me get a car to drive my ailing mom and relatives!

Blessings to you all. Thank you for taking the time to read my post. I hope you can help me with what I need.

I used to have a FT job and I helped my mother and some of my relatives in need, but now I am the one in most need. Like many people, I lost my job during the pandemic, but I managed to survive with my savings while I could find another job, which I did… but tragedy struck: my mom and three of the relatives I look after got seriously ill, and two of them – my mom and her younger sister- almost died. Thanks God, they are alive, but they need special care: they are palliative care patients. I had to quit my job in order to take care of them, since it is only my sister and I. It has been really hard for the two of us because money is not enough to cover for all of our expenses. All four elderly need constant medical checks and therapies, and it is a nightmare to take them to a medical appointment: they cannot walk and the cab service is not reliable, not to mention their increasing costs. That´s why I need a car urgently, so I can have some relief amidst this stressful situation.  I love my mom and my relatives; all of them helped us when we were younger and had nothing, so I ´m really happy to be able to help them now, and I strive my best to provide them with whatever they need to have peace in their final years. A car would be of great help to save time and money; it would be more comfortable for my patients, too. And there is an additional pro: with a car, I could take them for a walk, too. We all live in a cramped house; there is not enough room for almost anything…and they just leave the house to go to medical appointments. We have been living like that for over three years now, and that has deteriorated their health, too. That is why, I´m begging you to help me: it breaks my heart to see them spend their lives just sitting there, in any corner of the house, like a piece of furniture! A vehicle will give me the opportunity to provide them with a better quality of life.

I have been checking prices, and most used cars in fair condition are around $4,000 and up, so this is the amount I expect to collect.

I want to thank in advance, to all of you, generous people who can help me achieve this goal. Blessings!

https://paypal.me/akcruise

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I want to help my parents

Hello everyone, I am a man born and raised in a poor country.

 

I’m from Romania and here I have lived until the age of 20 together with my parents and my other 5 younger brothers and sisters. My parents always tried they’re best to give us everything they didn’t have when they were our age and I really love and appreciate them for that. My dad was the only one working and earning the money in the house being self-employed as a mechanic for chainsaws, lawnmowers, bikes and other tools with small mottors in an open environment where when it was winter your body would freeze if staying too long there. Now after the years every inch of his body hurts cause of that damn work.

 

My mom has been every day taking care of us. But because of so many births she has problems with the health as well one being appendicitis. And even tho she should rest more and rely on us the kids more she still does so much then should. I’m so afraid that I soon will loose these blessed parents without having done anything for them.

 

And because of how much have they done for me I also wanted to do something in return for that I went and left them to have 1 less kid to worry about. And I though maybe I could help them by earning some money and save it to send thandas well to help them. Yet I am single and I live in rent faraway from my dear ones living paycheck by paycheck hardly able save anything at all. Fortunately I don’t drink or smoke so I earnmanage to earn something to put away but is very little and it takes too slow and I really need money fast right now to make my first ever present to my parent and buy them a house.

 

We were living (the reason I say “we were” is because now only they live there) in a house rented by the government not a physical person, and recently the government made a project in the are where that house is, including some other houses around to be demolished and make a new big supermarket. And they are to be moved in new places, most likely some flats but is not entirely decided where they gonna be moved.

 

I never wanted as madly as right now to earn money for a house as much as now, because I really want to see them living peacefully without worrying to be kicked out and them to be able to see all the kids big enough to get on in they’re life with a smile. It would be a wish come true for them to own they’re own house they could have never afford to buy one.

 

I would appreciate even a little so I can save to do this surprise for my dear parents.

 

paypal.me/Dysmorphic18

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Help me be together with the woman I love

So… i am trying this kinda as a last resource, i don’t know what else to do. I was sitting here and thinking “man so many people have so much money, and here i am sitting a few dollars away from my dream” being poor is heartbreaking, i hate that i can’t do what i want and give to the people i love most. Here i was thinking “man these random people online literally donate thousands to STREAMERS, for playing video games… i wonder if i share my story and objective if someone will maybe help just a little bit. If i was a big streamer i would be getting hundreds a month of donations, but just because i don’t share my face and stream i have nothing and no compassion, it just doesn’t make sense to me, it’s fucked up.

I have no idea if this will even get read by anyone but i have to at least try, i do believe in miracles and kind people. I swear if someone actually helps me i will cry and i don’t even know what i will do honestly i’ll be so so so thankfull for the rest of my life.

Here is the story: it is very simple, i am not starving. I have a big dream. I live in Europe and i met someone that lives in America. We have been together (“together”) for 2 years and know each other for 3 or more. You already know where this is getting… Our biggest dream is to see each other, and live together, we are aiming for 2023. But it. is. hard! Because the 2 of us are pretty poor. The plane ticket alone is around 700€… I worked and saved for 6 months straight to be able to see her. Now i got enroled in college and i can’t be working at the same time. She is doing the same, working and saving hard. But she basically supports her family of 4. She is 20 only and already almost supports her poor family. i have my mother and we live alone and my mother is very sick. She didn’t work for 2 years straight for health reasons. i have to come in to pay medical and other bills, which makes it hard to save.

Here is my situation: i want to hug her more than anything. i cry myself to sleep because we can’t hug and meet and we fall asleep together on call. We so very much want to be together, more than anything. It’s been going on for 2 years, and i don’t know how much more i can take. It kills me everyday that i can’t FLY TO SEE HER. Hug her and tell her in the eyes how much i love her. Guys, you have no idea how much she helped me these past 2 years. I owe her so much.

What’s worse, she has been working LIKE A DOG these past months, she works 12 hours sometimes and travels 1-2 hours to work, she cries out of being TIRED and has pain in her body from working so much. She has no time to do anything else, when she’s not working she wants to spend time with me so we make some time in the day for each other, usually we can manage 2-3 hours a day (we also have different time zones :((( i can’t do anything and hug her and sing her to sleep, simply because we are so cruelly far away.

Distance is so cruel
it’s been tough, and her tireness worries me. I tell her not to work so hard, but she’s decided to see me as soon as possible and we just want to hug each other. This hurts so much…. I’m worried about her health and stress, while i just want to fly to Brazil (her country) and HUG her and buy her dinner… Nobody has made me feel like her, i never loved anyone else. She is my world and we are together mentally everyday and we care deeply about each other in a beautiful way that i have never had before. Neither one of us care about being rich, we just want to be together.

Because i am broke, i can’t give her the world. So, my request. Help? haha I mean i don’t know what to say, my dream is for some rich guy to read this and be like “alright i’ll give her 1000 to see the woman she loves so much and then they can send me a pic for me to see their happiness” like, my god. For a rich rich person even a thousand would be NOTHING, and for me it would LITERALLY change my life and my world, oh my god. i will literally show proof of my travel and help the person that helps me in anyway i can, anyway i can! We both have poor families and can’t do nothing about it

I am from Portugal, she is from Brazil!
So… this is my story. i will literally do anything for a kind soul that wants to help, idk even a dollar man, idk. I am hurting and money is literally what’s stopping me from hapiness and leaving depression. Thank you for reading and if you know anyone that could help me, i will be forever, no joke, thankfull <3 i will answer any questions. and have a nice 2023

 

paypal : https://paypal.me/MaraCurto?country.x=PT&locale.x=en_US