ok so for 2 years I was in a abusive relationship well I finally worked up the nerve to leave after two back to back suicide attempts I  had forced my self to live before how was I allowing someone to make me wish I was dead and by that I mean I used to be a iv drug addict I made myself get clean cold turkey and I did it alone and no help I was proud of my self but then than man I had feel in love with would use my past to hurt me when he would get drunk and take all his frustrations with the world and his life out on me he loved accusing me of being high when I wasn’t knowing I was going to defend myself against his words then that would give him a reason to physically assault me and I had no help to get away he had basically cut me off from the whole world I wasn’t allowed to leave my house but 1 hour a week when he would take me to the grocery I walked on eggshells Dailey hoping not to get beat up each night I was so depressed I tried to end my own life twice after the second time I packed a bag of clothes got a tent out of the closet and got my dog walked out the door hoping and praying that because I had finally left life had to get better right wrong I’ve been homeless since I can’t catch a break anywhere from the abuse I suffered not only in those two years but basically my whole life has caused social anxiety so severely that if I’m around more than three or four people at a time to have panic attacks severely so I can’t get a normal job i tried working in construction and the loud noises would cause anxiety and panic attacks I need to go to the doctors for mental health cause mine is at the worst it has ever been I’ve been diagnosed with serve depression PTSD serve anxiety social anxiety  just to name a few in the past but now I can’t go to the doctor because I can’t take my dog every were with me she’s my world and really the only reason I get threw the days I put her wellbeing way ahead of my own but I need to worry about me now also but I have nowhere to take her noone to watch her while I go to a doctor because I can’t leave her alone in my tent while I’m gone I don’t trust that she would be there when I returned I need help getting started in life again some kind of housing so I can get the help we need I make sure she’s ok Dailey she will somehow have food and water even if I don’t and I’m fine with that but she look so sad sometimes it breaks my heart that she’s suffering because I was suffering and left our home sometime I wonder if I should have just stayed and just kept dealing with it at least we would have a home and I wouldn’t worry so much about how we were going to eat and she wouldn’t look at me so sad but I also know if I would’ve stayed I’d probably be dead or end up dead when I left I had noone no kind of help and I should had tried to find help before hand but I thought I’ll leave and life has to get better right just has to I didn’t realize how messed up I was from everything I’ve been threw and I’m at the point of giving up and just relapsing so I don’t have to deal any more and I know for both our sakes that’s not what I need to do so this is my last option is to ask for help and I don’t know if this is the right way or not and I hate asking people for anything and I wouldn’t if I didn’t truly need it I don’t know how much longer I can keep forcing my self to get up daily I desperately need some kind of housing so I can get the mental help I need so I can hopefully function as a human again because I’ve been made to believe I’m less than for about my whole life so if anyone can help or will help please it won’t be for a lost cause I promise thank you I’m advance for even just reading this paypal.me/bugsy201987

Hello, I am a 34 year old woman with PCOS , so I do not have any children and probably honestly never will. I’ve kind of given up that hope. I’ve always wanted kids but  its doesn’t seem to be in the cards for me. When I was 14 years old my mother kicked me out of her home for standing up for her against her abusive boyfriend. I mean as soon as I started working at 14 I was no longer allowed to eat the food he bought because it was theirs. You would think why would a 14 year old stand up for her adult mother. Well, my mother is like a saint she is a kindergarten teacher and she never has said a cuss word in her life. She stayed with this man because honestly he had money and when it came to us or her money. Money always won. So she kicked me out for fighting him when I came in one night when he had her on the floor kicking her. She got up and brushed herself off and told me I disrespected them in her house and I needed to leave.  Your probably wondering what does this have to do with me needing money. I’m getting there sorry. So, I left home that day and never went back. I tried a few times but was never welcome. I was not ready for that at that age. I made terrible decisions and I honestly felt like no one cared about me, so why should I. I ended up dating a guy starting when i was 15 who was 4 years older than me. He was into selling drugs and got busted and because I was there and wouldn’t tell on him in unfortunately our little racist town they gave me the same charges as him. This was right when I turned 18. I say racist town because the lawyer and DA literally told me little white girl dating a black man in this town see how good a judge treats you. I didn’t care I was in “love”. He was the only person who was always there for me and always cared for me. At that point it changed my life forever. I got felonies for distribution. They were going to give him 5 years but because I wouldn’t tell on him they gave me half of his time exactly. Same charges. How can to people sell the same drugs? I don’t know. I had a court appointed attorney and just did what he said. Not realizing at that age how much a felony would impact my life. After him and I got out, that’s when everything changed. The man I loved became the monster I swore I’d never be with like my mom. He physically and mentally abused me constantly. I stayed with him for 5 years after we got out and they were completely 5 years of hell. I mean it took about 6 months after we came home and we got a place before he started it. I have a scar on my face from him slamming my head into a counter. He verbally abused me everyday. Physically abused me at least 3 or 4 times a week. Spit on, Beer Dumped on me, Hand prints around my neck, black eyes, broken noses  all of it. Why stay? How did I end up in a situation like my mother? I was scared to be alone. He was after all the only person who really loved me. Finally at the end of that long five years I got pregnant. Not intentionally. I would never be irresponsible enough to bring a child into that world. Since I was though I was hoping he may go back to the man that treated me good.  No he was forever gone. He ended up physically abusing me when I was pregnant and I lost the child unfortunately. Only good thing that came from that was the strength to leave. I would never forgive him for that. He didnt just hurt me he hurt my child. Anyhow, sorry for the book just wanted to give you a honest true background. After I left him he got back on drugs and ended up in prison for ten years… Karama huh? Well, Ive been at the same job since then and haven’t been able to find anything better in this little town that will hire me still for that. I’ve tried I work forty hours a week. I am in a new relationship and we are at the five year mark. Well, guess what? Verbal abuse all the time just starting the last few months. We live in a two bedroom town home and hes moved his parents in and gets so sloppy drunk every night he cant remember what he even does much less says. He treats me this way because he knows if I don’t stay here I have and cant afford no where else to go. I’ve never in my life had any opportunity to have even 5,000 dollars to try to build off of on my own. So, here I am asking for help. I just want to be able to get a place on my own and have some savings and then I can add the money I work with. I am broke every week and struggling. He works but refuses to help me since his family moved in. I am miserable. I am to the point where I’m hitting a brick wall and wondering what my purpose is and praying and knowing I am a good person and god has something in store for me. All I’ve ever really wanted was t be happy and I love with all my heart and its gotten me hurt my whole life. Anything would help, if not thanks for listening and if so you really are an angel.

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Hi I am reaching out in order to ask for help to improve the value of my home so that it may be left and better shape for my daughter. It needs guttering and roof at the moment. It is vinyl siding but a good cleaning would certainly help as well and the decks need restaining. All of this is normal maintenance and up keep which you’ve done properly helps from the deterioration of the home itself.

As of 2011 I was removed from the workforce due to a head-on collision while I was on my job. After 8 long years of battles I was finally given my disability but sadly that amounts to less than $1,200 a month. I do not know hardly anywhere that you can live on such a small amount but up until this point I have made it.

Again I’m asking just to help get these improvements made on my home so that when my time comes and due to emphysema and COPD it will certainly be shorter than hoped for. I have just finished my third battle with covet as well in each of those have taken their effect on my lungs. I would like to say and see that I could live another 25 years but I don’t know that none of us do. I would just like to leave our home indecent shape instead of run down and broken for my daughter when I am gone. She deserves something. I don’t care for the fact that I am dependent on disability I had rather be working myself. And many a time when I was working I definitely believed in the payment forward system and if I ever found myself again in that situation I would give before I would take. Any and all help would be greatly appreciated.

@opusopus my PayPal account name.

Thanks to anyone that can help.

I’m not sure how to start this off. So.. I’m Sam, a veteran and a person used to surviving on little. And I’ve come to a point in life where it’s no longer “Just me”. My gal (Who will be moving down here soon), my cat, and my parents are a part of my life now so I’ve been struggling care for this “Home” I took over.

This “Home” is a trailer, 1980’s model, doublewide. It belonged to my Step-father, and since he fell ill several years ago (Heart Attack with an onset of RA), he was unable to maintain it.

I’ll be blunt, it’s a mess. The floors are buckling, the electrical (While I got it up and running) needs an overhaul, and there’s holes where rodents can get in.  It’s a roof over my head, but it feels like being a squatters in a warehouse.  For the past year I’ve put a majority of my money into it, though it’s not enough. Plywood sheets that are 1/2 Inch are up to 50 USD now where I am.

After bills, I have enough for some groceries and gas, then very little for myself which either gets spent on something needed for the trailer, or for replacing hygenic supplies.

And so… I’m reaching out, asking others for help. I can’t do this project alone due to the financial undertaking it is for me, and I want to make this a real home to live in till I’m 6 feet under.  Moving isn’t an option as that’ll just be more expensive.

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(A person note: If I get help, I will show receipts of materials bought and of the repair process itself assuming I can post updates here.

Hi, my name is Mike, 64 years old, widowed for over five years now. married for 26 years, mostly happy years. terrible loss to cancer, i still miss her everyday. she was taken too soon from her life. i’m semi retired, trying to stay busy enough to keep my mind off of that past somewhat. earlier this year, late january i had a long time friend reach out on a instagram hunch seeing my name and profile asking if i was the same person from years past. she wanted to say hi and maybe reacquaint. after seeing each others pictures and a few video calls, we had a special few months of chat. she lost her husband some time ago also. without todays technology, we probably would have never crossed paths, so to speak. the problem is she is in a province of france (yes france). we have put away enough funds for airfare, almost $3000. the travel agency has to affix her/us a 10800 euro travel insurance policy on top of airfare. the 10800 euro is refundable on landing at the u.s. airport. we don’t have the money even as short term as it is to get the insurance. we can pay the money back almost immediately upon her arrival. vera will have to get adjusted to a place she hasn’t been in many years. she was married to a military man, which they landed and stayed overseas. we will have plenty to catch up on and i will get to reacquaint her to a new chapter in our lives. we both deserve to be together to close a chapter as well. this will not be considered an emergency or urgent issue by any means, but is a request to maybe help a couple older friends reunite. at my age, waiting is tough and the 10800 is just out of our means right now. i lost my wife in 2016, i waited 5 years to try the online dating thing. after a handful of fairly awkward dates, this probably was not going to be my particular means of meeting someone.
i have copies of the travel insurance and refund information if necessary. please consider our dilemma for a couple good people just wanting to share time lost. doing things together has so much more meaning than being alone.
our spouses left us all too soon.

Thank you.

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Hi, my name is Candace and my husband’s name is Ben we have 5 children and currently living in different states. We had to move closer to family because I was having severe medical conditions due to my  pregnancy. I have an enlarged heart with fluid around my lungs from having Severe Preeclampsia with my last two pregnancy’s. My husband went back to North Dakota to go back to work he has been with the same company for 13 years. Me and the kids are in Arkansas alone trying to get back up there. Finding a place to rent has been almost impossible with no luck. We are approved for a home lone but Because of my husbands laps and work due to my medical issues and pregnancy we have to have 15% down which comes to 25,700 we are working hard to try and figure out how to come up with the funds and can same a small Percentage of that before closing  but because of the laps in work and income from him having to take off to take care of me and baby and our other 4 children while I was in the hospital. We are Quite behind on everything and trying to catch up. Right we are looking for a miracle to happen so we can buy our home. I’ve never asked for help or money from any before this is new to me but I’m desperate to have my family back together and to be able to get settled before school starts back.  If anyone was willing to help our family we would be forever grateful.

Hello, as the title states my fiance and I have come into a little bit of an unfortunate situation in regards to our wedding and with some wishful thinking was hoping we could possibly find some help here.

My fiance and I met in 2015 on a blind date through mutual friends/family (her cousin was dating my buddy). We hit it off immediately and it felt like we had know each other for years. In 2017 I proposed to her, to which she obviously said “yes”. The next few years didn’t really allow us to set a date for the wedding, cause in early 2018 we briefly moved out of our home state for work. We then returned at the beginning of 2020 only to have the Pandemic start a few months later, pushing any thoughts of a wedding back to a further unknown.

In that meantime though, we did look for possible venues, talked over ideas and just brainstormed your usual wedding stuff so when the time came we would be somewhat ready and hopefully have an easier experience. In the spring of 2021 we decided that we would find a place and set a date for the Fall of 2022. After visiting a few venues, we came across one that seemed perfect. It was a new place, it was beautiful and most importantly, it “was” affordable. We’ll call it The Barn. As most people know, weddings aren’t cheap. We explored all kinds of options. Even having everything at a local park and just serve pizza. But after seeing The Barn, we came home, talked and decided that’s where we’re going to get married.

You might be thinking, “why didn’t you just do the park and pizza option then?”. I wanted to, but it wasn’t just about me. My fiance wasn’t born here in the US. She was born in Europe and lived through some trying times, until her family was lucky enough to move to the US at the age of 12. Obviously no one reading this truly knows this woman and her life story like I do, but she is the most compassionate, caring, generous, thoughtful, helpful, loving person I’ve ever met, which is why I love her with all my heart and why secretly went and signed the reservation contract for The Barn without her knowing so I could surprise her. She deserves so much more, but this was just one thing I could do to give her and I, that one special day to remember forever.

So I reserved The Barn in October 2021 for a wedding in November of 2022. We had went over all the costs associated with event and they were right within our budget. Everything seemed to be going to plan and on schedule until we received an email about a week ago from The Barn(pic below). With about 5 months left til our date, they inform us that they are increasing prices on a few things which are…

• Food- has increased an extra $7 per person which adds $840
• Beverages- were $9 per person, now increased to $20 per person which adds $1320
• The Event planner- which was supposed to be complimentary is now a $1000 mandatory fee

That’s a total of $3160, but since those prices increased, it also caused the taxes to increase as well as their mandatory 15% gratuity. So the taxes added another $156.60 and the gratuity added another $126.

The complete total added to our bill is $3442.60

These are costs we were not prepared for and now exceed our budget. We are now put in a troubling situation of either trying to come up with the money or cancel the venue and try to find a new place with short notice. Obviously we’d like to keep our current plans which is why I’m here asking anyone who can, to please help us out if possible. We can’t tell how much it would mean to us and how appreciated it would be. Thank you so much for your time.

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