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Financial Hardship Help

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I’m so tired.

Hello everyone. I hope this message comes off well. I’m Em. I usually don’t do this, but I hope someone can help.

I come from a low-income, broken home. Both of my parents are deceased. We lost them at a young age. They were both extremely abusive and left mental scars that will never heal. It’s like covering an already healed wound with a bandaid. Me and my twin were able to attend college but struggled every step of the way. Our “family” was envious and never help. Whether it was sending “care packages” or just a little money for food for late night studying, nothing. Once we left, we were abandoned. But we did it! Once we graduated, we practically didn’t have anywhere to go. No “home”. Nothing. Having no home was usual for us. Our parents struggled to take care of us. We were in and out of homeless shelters. Sometimes we could stay at a relative for a few weeks before kicking us out. Other times it was sleeping in a car or a public bathroom. The idea of a “home” was foreign to us.

I don’t want to continue on with this tangent. I would like to fast forward to now. This very moment. We both work and we’re currently staying at a friend’s house. They are the most kind hearted people that I ever met. They’re practically a family I never had. But it also feels like we’re overstaying our stay. I work two jobs and some gigs during the weekend if I’m able. My sister does the same if she can. We’re both saving up for a place but it’s hard with such little pay. I’m exhausted. Completely burned out. I don’t know where to turn but to here. With paying student loans and medical prescriptions, I need help.

I appreciate any help. Anything. Enough to get me back on my feet with saving and therapy.

http://paypal.me/hamzed

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My One Wish is to make something of myself

Hello to everyone reading this! I hope this finds you well-

my name is Anna. I am a young girl who is twenty four years old and am in need of financial aid urgently. Ever since I got laid off my job it has been really difficult to keep up with my payments. I have applied over and over to several of  jobs without any luck. I still need to pay my phone bill, car insurance, rent, tuition  and buy food. I need my car  in order to go to job interviews and school.  I have been trying my best with dog walking and babysitting but ever since covid not many people are looking for babysitters or dog walkers since lots of people are working from home. Here is a looking for my payments.. my car insurance is $130 a month. My phone bill is $50 and on food I spend about $200. I mostly eat ramen since it’s the cheapest and i try to save every penny i have to pay for living.  I am also a student at my local community college which I am struggling to come up with money for the next semester.(I really want to continue my education) I am currently in school for associates degree. After my associates degree My goal is to study medicine. The reason I want to study medicine is to help people who are in need.  I have been buying my school books and paying for my semesters for school with my credit cards and trying my best to pay them but without having a job and being a student full time its very very difficult. I am worried to fall into financial destress… well honestly, I am there already and that’s why I am writing on here. This semester is nearly over and I have managed to pull through this time. Thankfully. I am truly doing my best, but I need a little help to be able to keep going.  My wish is ….if anyone at all (please please please) would be so kind to donate any dollar amount to my cash app $arauzanna to help me stay afloat in these difficult times. I am trying my best to make something of my life and Any dollar amount would be amazing and I thank you in advance.

Thank you so much for reading my request.

My cashapp is linked down below⬇️

cashapp $arauzanna

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Need help getting a vehicle.

Hello, my name is Jerrod, and I need help of getting a car. I’m 24 years old, I been asking for rides awhile now, to get places I need to go (Work, Dentist, Doctor) This job I work at is retail, and I don’t get paid much for part-time. Some days I have to work extra, just to get enough money to live where I’m at. The apartment I live in, is costing me $550 a month, cheapest I could get in the area. This job I have only gives me $9.15 an hour / part-time. I am looking at other jobs at the moment, but I need to have a car to get to these jobs, that’ll pay more than my current job. Where I live don’t have a washer, or dryer. I have to carry my clothes to the laundry mat to get them clean, luckily the laundry mat isn’t far. I had an old car that got scrapped, because the transmission on it broke, that was a year ago. Ever since I been on my legs or been asking anyone I can to get a ride. I feel odd asking someone for help, I wish I didn’t have to. I also have a cat, seems like cat food and litter have also gone up in prices lately. Crazy how economy works, inflation and such. I’m just here to take my chance to see if anyone could help. Even a dollar means much to me seriously, some people don’t, but I do. I was grown up in a low-class income family, I really had to look out for myself, basically my whole life. I been saving up for a car, I just don’t want to end up getting another very old car, breaking down on the side of the highway. That towing price was hefty on me too, but anyway. I hope you understand my situation, and I appreciate you reading this. Thank you for your time.

https://paypal.me/Zemlynn

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Home modifications needed for disabled toddler Humble Request

The purpose of this request is to enable us to have some much needed things for the development and disability of our 4 year old who suffers from a rare genetic disease as well as non verbal autism.

We are struggling to pay bills with all of his needed medical care. For The holidays, we would love to be able to share with the children that we are able to make accomadations for them  converting the garage. We need to provide safe play equipment for or backyard , a chain link fence and monitoring equipment for babysitting services . Our goal is to provide more needed space that allows ABA care and also for the older teenagers. We have exhausted all other resources from the last 4 years.

With the holidays approaching, the effects are most extreme now.. We hope to be deserving of a generous donation, and our family would be entirely grateful for your support,peace of mind, and trauma recovery.

We are very proud, humble and appreciative people who have never reached  for help but we really need it now.

Blessed Holiday season to all .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/proudma514

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A little help over the season

Hello anyone reading this post. My name is Ryan, I’m 33 years old and in full time work in retail.

I am currently around £15000 in debt through credit cards and a loan. The debt is of my own doing, I’m a family man and over the last few years whenever my partner or daughter has wanted/needed anything I have bought it for them. Through any means possible, I’ve never been able to say no to them. I have always felt like I needed to provide for them, that was my job.

I kept my debt troubles away from my partner until recently when the stress and anxiety of it all has taken me to anti depressants. Now she knows the full extent of it and I can now feel like I’m able to say no to things if they aren’t needed.

I thought i would be fine and will be able to pay it off in a decent time, but i got into a debt spiral or using loans and a balance transfer to stem the interest. Now my repayments for these debts and house bills are just about as much as my wages. I would like a new job but with my current one I am able to work  around my family and be off when they need me to.

I’ve not come to ask for people to pay my debt off as it is my own doing and I’m slowly working my way at it. A financial advisor has recommended an IVA but I don’t feel like it’s right to do that to the companies I have borrowed from.

I’ve come to ask any charitable persons for a little help with being able to give my daughter a Christmas she deserves. Even if it’s enough to cover a single debt repayment then I can put it towards her Christmas.

Thank you for reading and I hope everyone has a wonderful day.

Ryan paypal.me/ryanfinley1

 

 

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Becoming Debt Free

Life has had a really peculiar way of helping me move forward. When I was younger, I would never have believed I had a future of any kind. Now, I finally feel as though I have a future, but one of the major barriers to moving forward right now is the debt I have accrued in getting here.

At the start of the pandemic, I was working as a teaching assistant in a primary school. My long-term plan was to save as much money as I could from the extremely low wages, so I could fund my education. While student loans are offered to Master’s students, they barely cover the tuition fees. So, if I wanted to get to further my education to take the next step towards working a job I believed to be right for myself, I needed to save.

The Master’s degree did not put me into debt, but it did demolish my savings degree. A large part of this was down to, quite literally, living costs. My Master’s was taught entirely online, so I still lived with my parents for an unfairly cheap price. However, my mental health was still in a dangerous place. Instead of attempting to commit suicide, again, I decided to commit to therapy. Unfortunately, the NHS has little support for people who appear functional, so I had to go private if I wanted to get the support I needed.

My savings quickly evaporated, but it was one of the best decisions I ever made. Almost two years later, I still see my therapist once a fortnight to check-in and continue working towards a state-of-mind where I feel safe and want to continue living. Life hasn’t stopped to accommodate this healing process though, so when I was offered my first job as an Assistant Psychologist, I took the offer with a deep sense of hope and gratitude.

This is where I would appreciate your help. After my education and therapy, my savings are now non-existent. I have had to take out multiple personal loans in order to complete the moving process and it is now hindering my ability to save for that next hurdle in my life: either continuing my education and committing to the doctorate, or allowing myself to continue saving so I may begin to settle somewhere and try to build a more stable life.

My student loans need not be covered. That’s something I can manage over time. In fact, I’m fortunate enough to be in a position where I’m safe and have a place to fall back into if my financials deteriorate amidst the recession. My parents are loving and have always supported me throughout life, but they are not able to financially support me without worsening their own burdens.

If you are able to support me, then know that my only intention is to clear as much of my debt as possible (if not all of the £8,000), so that I can finally get myself to a position where I no longer have to save every penny just so I may receive the mental health support I need from therapy.

There are many other situations on this website far more in need than myself, so I would urge you to give to them first if you have the means! But on the off-chance you are able to support myself, just know I will be forever grateful for your support.

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A sad story

My story so far.

Ok for starters I really don’t see this working but it’s worth a shot. Where to start though is the question. I will tell you a bit about myself to start with, I have 3 kids (living) and on and off partner (mother to all of my kids). I was once in a bad relationship (not the current one) where I was abused mentally and sometimes physically I was with this person when my mother died and couldn’t even go to her funeral.  this person also stabbed me 3 times and when I had enough and managed to finally leave I got left in huge amounts of debt which I have carried on for years now but always falling behind on them. I left the state I grew up in to get away from her and had to leave my 2 kids at that time which hurt so much. I went off the rails for a long time but eventually got myself together and came back to where I’m living now with my partner and one thing led to another and we ended up pregnant with twins so there was a lot of going to and from docs and all the things that come with twins. Fast forward a bit and I’m getting ready for my 3rd night shift at work and I get a call from the opposite side of the state 3 1/2 hour drive saying I have to get down to the hospital because there has been complications with the twins so I call work and say I won’t be in and race down. By the time I got there they were both born on the 24th of may but my little girl had bad heart issues and sadly passed away on the 30th of may I never knew I could feel this amount of pain and not die. The pain I felt from loosing my little angel I wouldn’t wish upon anyone ever. During all this happening I got lost into debt again because I was down there for over a month without work so I took out more loans to try and cover everything but it’s left me barley being able to go week to week just scrapping enough to get the kids everything they need and food on the table I’ve had debt collectors chasing me for a while but I’ve just tried to avoid them because I don’t like talking about all this. I’ve often thought about just ending it all I’d be lying if I said I didn’t but I would never leave my other babies. Honestly I’m just looking for help to get out of this cycle of loans and more loans. I’m not one to ask for money but I’m at the end of my rope and don’t know what else I can do. Just know if you do decide to help it’s not just me your helping it’s my whole family

my PayPal.me/brodie1986

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Covid took my chance, politics are bed, I’m suffocating and oh, I just got robbed

Not much showing it more how much desperate I am right now than posting this here. I’ve been always realistic about my situation and right now I also know that there are more people who are much more in need than I am. But mentally I reached a point where I am not sure how to go any further, not less where. One thing is for sure: away.

I’m in my mid 20s in Budapest, Hungary. If you know anything about my country, chances are that you know politics here are getting more and more awful and living a decent, fair life is getting impossible. People are disappearnig, getting into jail for no reason for at least a few months, and when they get out, their life work is gone. Education and cultural life is in its ruins and what’s worse, most of the people do not care. People who care and dare to step up, shortly after go down. I can go into details about bts facts if you’d want me to, but for now, it should be enough to say that every sane person is about to run away from here. It is a society that cannot cheer. We become more and more bitter and most of the people are only happy when it is worse for you somehow.

I stayed quite long even after realizing this. I did my BA and my MA as well. I studied international relations, and worked my butt off to get a scholarship to my dream destination, to one of the most prestigious universities in Japan. And I won. I won it all. A full scholarship, acceptance by both sides and an internship. And guess what then? Yes, Covid. It is so true, how this pandemic changed lives. Turned everything upside down. And it hurts, still hurts so much. I have waited more than one year, postponing my departure up until the point where I could not do it anymore. Japan did not open the borders and I had to finish my studies as there was no option for me to finance any more semesters. A dream disappeared. One I was working towards for 5 years. Like someone would stab into your guts. I got depression not long after, and started to work. Luckily I got a job paying well, but after a few months I found myself exhausted and with 40 degrees fever because I had no days off in 3 months, working 4 persons roles at the same time. I not only had no time for my own creative ideas which was plan B after Japan, but also worked myself sick and had to quit my job. Depression got worse.

But I want to get out. I want to heal, I want to do all the things I had no chance to do so far and finally become the owner of my life. I would like to find some help to kick off. Family and friends are not option at this point. So here I am speaking up and hoping that there are ears out there hearing and listening. I would appreciate any help from anyone kind enough.

My plan is to enroll in courses that can help me into the new chapter of my life and learn cinematography and photography, to tell my stories to the people, as well as creative marketing and intercultural studies. After my major, I am pursuing the ability to work on international cultural and educational challenges from individual and community levels and helping our societies to better understand each other and heal from a miserable system.

 

If you think you could help me fulfill my dreams, or at least to get back on track, I would be forever grateful for your generosity and would definitely thank you in person, too, if possible!

 

Best,

G

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Trying to give my daughters the life they deserve

I recently left my twins’ father a few years ago. He was very abusive mentally, verbally, emotionally, and towards the end, physically. We were together almost 14 years. I’ve tried many times to get away, before things finally got uglier than they already were over the years. He decided to put his hands on me in front of our children, and that’s when enough was enough and I gained the courage to get out, instead of giving him another chance after so many other times of giving in. Our girls would always hear the arguing and the end result of me crying, almost every night. Everyone always asked me why I kept staying, and honestly, I don’t have a legitimate reason. Other than, I didn’t have any family to turn to besides his, and even then, with his family aware of his behavior, they didn’t help much either. When I left him, I started hitting a downward spiral of losing everything. I have always had custody of my children, but when I lost my house from no fault of my own, my children went to stay with their father’s mom because that was the safest alternative there was, due to the fact that I was bouncing around. I have always held a job, consistently, but ended up losing my job of 5 years after some misunderstandings. After speaking with my kid’s grandmother, I decided to move from Indianapolis to Bloomington, where a friend offered me a new job and a room to rent till I was able to get back on my feet. I have been in Bloomington for a little over a year now, and have held a job consistently, accomplished getting my GED, and also my license. Bloomington is a very expensive place to live because of it being a college town, so I have not been able to find my own place yet, but my friend has allowed for me to have my girls back home with me where they should have been all along. I have some money set aside that I have been saving, but living paycheck to paycheck, pulling my own weight where I’ve been staying, and now having my girls, money stays tight. I don’t normally ask people for money because I believe wholeheartedly I can do this on my own, but times are tough and sometimes a person really does need to set their pride aside and ask for help. My girl’s have been through a lot in their short 14, almost 15 years of life, and I know for a fact that they deserve better than what life has already shown them, and im determined to make this happen. Unfortunately, they are having to attend therapy for anger issues, PTSD, and depression from all the narcissistic abuse they have been exposed to. I probably should be attending therapy as well, but it is hard to do so when I am constantly working. All I am asking, is for anyone to help with anything, even if it’s just one dollar. I have always been the kind of person to help another out, without any repayment expected. I have always told anyone that I have helped that offered to pay me back, to just pay it forward when they are able. I’m just hoping all of my good deeds will eventually pay off, and someone can help me out with my goal of finding my own place so my girls can once again have a place to call home, that is ours. If you can help in any way, this is my link…

paypal.me/kimmieg0214

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I want to attend university

Hi everyone, I’m Rob from Italy, I live in a small coastal town where there’s no expectation in finding a job. I have big trouble finding something.

So my goal is to move to Milan where I can be helpful to my family (my mother doesn’t work and my dad struggles with the high bills we have here).
Plus with that I also have the dream to attend a University bachelor’s degree, this summer I submitted to an entry test and this October I got in! I’m fully in the course but I’m not there physically, I’m trying to study from home, from the site where they put some video-lessons and pdfs but it just isn’t enough.

Plus with that, in this period, my dad is going to have performed a surgical operation right in Milan because he has a Type II Achalasia and I’d like to be there for him.

Basically what I need is just some quick boost before the end of the semester which is in February so I can find a home in Milan and start a life in there, probably something like 3000 €.

I really want to change the Earth, I have big dreams and I want to take off, I’ll thank you and remember forever if you’ll let me.

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/RNushii

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An Unorthadox request

Hey there , I hope whoever you are wherever you are , you’re having a much better day than me .

The past few weeks have actually have been hell on earth for lack of a better description. I’m not even sure I can describe much of anything anymore , sleep is but a dream, and when I do sleep the dreams are quickly turned into nightmares , as lucid as reality . Thoughts of waking up in the back of a van , being approached on the street and stabbed …. It’s really something else and a horror I wouldn’t wish upon even the most evil downtrodden minds on this beautiful earth.

In an attempt to set my life straight in the past weeks (since the end of September) , I have been trying to pay off an old debt and arrears on rent. The old debt was from a so called friend who has now laden me with threats of serious violence and has people who are coming for me in the most unimaginable ways thought of, and well the rent , it can be quelled with a small payment each week . Tomorrow (Friday, 21st , Oct, 2022 (UK time) is my due date for both . I have 24 hours from now (21:00 hours, Friday 22nd , Oct, 2022) to pull something out of the bag and as I have nothing left but myself and one friend who is worried sick but could in no way lend it himself.

This is why I am here asking , praying and simply just hoping that with the very little hope I have left , that there someone out there , anyone who can relate to my situation .

Without trying to match Emily Bronte or Hemingway as a writer here , as my mental capacity for energy is just depleted to the maximum; what I am in need of and asking for any kind saving soul who could in their deepest of hearts help me or contribute to my plight is £775 total.

It’s a huge ask I know, considering there is undoubtedly people who are in equally if not worse situations than myself, but what I would be able to promise with all my integrity is pay back or helping the next person on here within a fortnight of tomorrow.

This is a genuine SOS for anybody who is in the slightest bit capable of saving me from my fate. If I don’t meet the time tomorrow , then I guess what happens to me happens, but just know , one good deed will always be passed and proven to another in serious need of help. This, is I vow with my Soul.

One other thing my fellow humans. If you have a family that is close and caring , that looks out for you and never stops keeping tabs on you; hold them tight and do everything in your power to love them back and inspire them. Family and real friends are everything…. everything.

– Sean James B. paypal.me/SJB001

 

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Family in Need (Repost)

I am 17 years old, and my family and I need financial assistance.
  My family consists of myself, my grandmother, a cousin, and my grandfather.   Unfortunately, my grandfather is no longer with us because he was believed to have died from his bad heart.  This was probably preventable on his part had he been careful and listened to the doctor’s advice about lifting heavy objects.  At the time of his death, my grandfather was trying to do people favors for a small amount of money to save up for a small truck to get him to a job he was doing for a good friend of his who owned a lawn mowing company without depending on the family vehicle for when we needed it because it was being used constantly to take my cousin to football practice, taking me to baseball practice or my work, getting groceries, and so on.  My grandfather had to be careful because he had surgery on his heart and wasn’t supposed to lift anything heavy (nothing exceeding 25 pounds) – but in his mind, we needed the money and tried to hurry this specific favor he was doing for our neighbor.  This might’ve been because he had a job to do right after and didn’t want to risk delaying the favor for the woman next door any longer.  He forgot to put on his “heart shocker,” which we called it, which gave his body jolts of electricity if he had lifted an exceeding amount – however, this probably would not have been enough to save him anyway.  We miss him a lot, and although he was hard on my cousin and me, we can see and appreciate his commitment to raising and caring for us as if we were his two sons.  There is no doubt he is in Heaven right now; he spoke a lot for our church and educated himself with the word of the Lord.  He recently got his ministry degree not long before he passed away – but God had other plans for him.
 We never got the truck my grandfather was saving up for (which was being given to us, but he had to repair parts of the vehicle {Head gaskets, radiator} before it was able to be driven). Still, hopefully, we could somehow get enough saved up to get it fixed by an engineer.  This would help me get to where I work, which is out of town, so that my grandmother doesn’t have to drive me 20 minutes there and 20 minutes back when she has something to she’s busy doing.  Our family vehicle broke down but fortunately, somebody from our church was willing to give us one of their vehicles.  My grandmother is burdened with an even higher car payment to worry about paying off on top of everything else. ‘
‘  Although with a total monthly family revenue of ~$1,700 prior, we struggled with bills, car payments, and things.  Now that revenue has come down to maybe ~$1,100 or less (Before bills) – not that I know for sure because my grandmother doesn’t want us to worry or stress about it, but we’re doing everything we can to help her.  She now struggles to get groceries (let alone pay bills) – FoodStamps rejected her request, although she’s mentioned why we needed it.  Most of our income came from our grandpa, but we struggled to have any money even then – now it’s a lot worse.  The funds will be used to pay off our car, repair the truck, pay the bills, groceries, etc.  This will help release the burden of my grandmother and cousin and so much more.  I feel guilty for begging, but we need it!*

— I also want to add that currently we are behind on 3 rents, owing 500; 700; 400. .  and it’s likely going to worsen and we may have to even move out…

I am currently working as a Pharmacy Technician and I am in the Eleventh grade.  I do currently have an Academic and Sports scholarship and I am going to college straight after Highschool..  However, I really do not want to leave my Grandmother with the stress she is going through, as I am currently helping her now.  It’s still good to know that my cousin will be here for her when I leave, however.
Truthfully, I don’t know the exact number we need but any amount that you would be willing to give will help us.  If you really are willing to help then please send it to my Paypal (or make a request and tell me another method — preferably cashapp..)
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/huntercastlee

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Financial Relief Opportunity – £80,000.00

Good Day,

 

I hope this message finds you well?

 

I am contacting you today to explain my current financial situation. I am not exactly asking for money but I am looking for someone or people to help clear my current financial state in which I CAN and WILL pay back or alternatively I can pay forward to a charity of your choice monthly or in bulk payments there after.

My name is Nathan and I am in £80,000 GBP worth of debt spread over loans and credit cards. This debt, admittedly has stemmed from the past 5 years and entering covid managed to spiral into the above figure. This has accrued due to previous bad financial decisions which includes investing and helping others upon where I didn’t get paid back.

I have a secure well paid job (circa £40,000 GBP) a fiancé and a little girl who is 2 years old and inspires me daily.

I am looking for someone who can help me clear the above or a very large portion of it to help me get back on track as I dont want to lose my house or my family due to this. I know there are thousands of other people out there who could benefit more with the money BUT I am and will pay this back OR forward as mentioned above.

I please and beg someone to trust me this once and help me turn my life around.

I am an honest, genuine hard working individual who has made some silly mistakes in the past which will never happen again!

I am happy to discuss the debt in more detail should the opportunity arise but i ask this once to please please consider me as an investment to helping me and others.

Kind Regards, x

https://www.paypal.me/NathanMunday

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Help us fix our home

I have a wonderful husband and 2 kids. We are incredibly happy and hardworking. My husband wanted to restore his childhood home, so at first we thought we move in and start one room at the time. I am a gardener and he is a construction worker. We have food and all essential but I can see how stressed my hubby is. He works so hard and takes care of us as well, but with some bad financial luck, we don’t have money at the end of the month to repair house. It needs water toilet and shower. We have a sauna next to our house and outside toilet with a hole in ground. That requires huge amount of money all at once. All we have is love and each other. Our kids are so well behaved and sweet. We are really really lucky with love. I think that’s why we don’t have luck with money. I really really want to make my husband stress free. He is kind, with big heart, hardworking, my best friend. He deserves the World!!  Also we need a New roof. Some places already had holes in, my husband fixed it with what ever material he found. He is a smart and handy man! I am actually a little afraid that if my husband finds out, I started a fundraiser, he feels a little embarrassed. He is proud and wants to manage by himself.

https://paypal.me/Kerlikene92

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2 Black Sheep and 1 Doggo

I started off with this title because it defines the feelings my father and I lived and continue to live but now the title should be 1 Black Sheep and 1 doggo.  August 8th 2020 I lost my father due to a Massive Heart Attack.  I found him lying facedown on the bathroom floor having to spring myself into gear while calling and doing everything i could until the team of medix came inside our house to relieve me and try understanding what, why, how and so on that my best friend and in many ways my only true friend and the only person I love unconditionally was lying dead in front of me.  My father and I from my young age of 12 only had each other.  My mother who is still alive and since the next day of him being gone text messaged me, “Thinking of you.”  Explaining the years of abandonment she set forth in doing right after I graduated and high school and didn’t want anything todo with my father and I. Jumping forward to where I am now at the age of 35 and this happening at 33 where life was actually going really great for my father and I.  Living in Seaside, Oregon with him living in the front house and I in the back house we had built for my grandfather who passed 2 years prior to my pops passing.  But I have always lived near my father as I’m trying to explain how close we were.  In this family and don’t speak with anyone, especially now I am the youngest of 3 brothers and 1 sister.  Which is all twisted being everyone is half siblings.   Not one of them would call and say hi to us nor when it was birthdays or holidays anyone reaching out. “Family “to me and pops stopped along time ago.  And I promise you we are both really great people with the community and people we know only having good things to say about us.  I started writing my book and still have sometime left but when it’s done it will explain everything that this little message is trying to relate and share with whoever reads it.  So life was great until August 8th 2020, not even 24 hours after he took his last breath my family was already talking with lawyers about putting the house I lived in since I was 12 years old up for sale.  I mean my siblings live all around from Utah to California to here in Oregon and everyone had plans without me knowing anything to come up and take everything out of the house and I mean everything.  To then being on board with cleaning up the house to get it ready to sell but I wasn’t doing everything fast enough for them and them saying I’m living rent free and having a lawyer send me a EVICTION NOTICE  stating I am supposed tobe out by Christmas Day 12-25-2020 .  My father passing away in August 2020. Yea my “family ” is absolutely disgusting.  Here I am writing this in tears.  So I get evicted from my house, to then have my car get taken from me because he helped cosign, my inheritance somehow I only received 1/2 of what everyone else got and to stop this here.  I couldn’t hire a lawyer, somehow the lawyer who was there for us all sent me a letter saying I wasn’t able to contact her for anything professional advice related because my family did everything in there power knowing now if I had professional legal advice I could’ve fought and had everything but honestly from that day tell now I’ve been in a major depression that as of now It’s extremely hard for me to say but I have lost everything.  I have been flat broke for a year and have lived in my buddies garage.   No joke. A garage that for w year have been trying to empty and make into the room and when I first started could barely open the door to get in and lived in a spot smaller then a jail cell to renting the biggest uhaul and filling it up with a dump run 2 times.  I am so low right now and why I even searched for something like this is because I absolutely need help.  I’m not one to want to just except money without something I can do to give back so if there’s a possibility where I can pay back please let me know.  I also am writing this book so that people can read it and hopefully I can share the power to keep moving forward because there’s good still awaiting me and suicide isn’t the way out.   I can’t tell you how many times the thought has came to me but I believe in God and the path he is telling me Togo and do.  My father is and was always there for me, advice to just fatherly love and support,  unconditionally without fail.  I need help so I can make him happy and to show people they can hold on and be strong also and if it’s time to ask for help we’ll go and ask because there’s good out there, just believe and strive forward.   I love you’ll for taking the time to read this and help me out.  I hope you’ll in the future see I have finished my book and read it.  God bless you.

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