My name is Amy, I’m in my early 30’s and live in NE Lincolnshire. I moved up here several years ago to be closer to a few family members and am originally from the South of the country.
I have severe social anxiety and depression, and often isolate myself for days (this lockdown has been easier to deal with because of that, I’ll be honest). I also suffer from chronic fatigue which has damaged my immune system and leaves me vulnerable to COVID 19, I live alone and due to anxiety issues find it very hard to use the phone and so rely on email to contact mental health services (well, I have a hamster, but he’s not much for conversation and can’t be sent for shopping). I’d recently been getting better with going out and meeting people, and have been volunteering at a local market garden where I have made new friends for the first time since moving up here year ago, and with therapy I’ve been having less anxiety attacks and starting to value my life more.
I still primarily communicate with the world via the internet, and a lot via gaming online with friends from my hometown. Unfortunately, my laptop is dying at the moment. It overheats quickly, the screen frequently cuts out and it is not able to run most programs, with the ones it will open often crashing and freezing. It’s around 9 years old and is mostly held together with prayers and wishes. But at the moment is the only real link I have to family and friends, as well as my doctor and therapist during this time.
I’m hoping to raise roughly £300-500 to afford a medium quality laptop that will allow me to keep in touch with people critical to my recovery and keep on track with my mental health goals.
Ultimately I hope to be able to get back into the world, and in the future return to school to study for a degree, and I’ve been working hard and moving forward, but the continuing crashes and breakdowns have been taking a toll on my mental health, and heightening my anxiety to levels reminiscent of the beginning of my journey. I am terrified that losing this lifeline will cause me to slide backwards and undo months of successes.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. I know that times are tight at the moment, but thank you for reading anyway and I wish you the best of luck in your endeavours.