Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I’d like to tell you a little more of my story and why I’ve come to this site.
I’m currently 26 years old, and I’m just trying to figure out where I need or should be at my life right now. I know that they say 20’s are when you’re discovering yourself and 30’s are when you know who you are, but ever since I was 17, I’ve had a challenge.
When I was 17 years old, my mom passed away. She was in and out of hospitals, but ended up spending more time in. She kept having strokes, which ended cause her to have Aphasia. That where it effected her speech and writing. Her time in the hospital helped us realize that she had a rare blood disease that only 5% of women get.
After she passed away, I’ve always struggled with myself fighting/battling the depression that I gained over time. I’ve come a long way since being 17. I’ve seen therapist, I’ve battled against low points in my life. I’ve learned to grow and adapt as best as I can or could. I’ve learned that I’ll have happy times and sad times as any would. But the sad times are much harder since the depression adds on to it.
I’ve always struggled with money after my mom passed away, and I don’t know why that is.. Maybe because I lost part of my happiness, money can bring me some.. I know there’s a cliche saying that “money can’t buy you happiness”, but to me, it can provide some at times.
I struggle with money because I feel like I’ve put myself in “debt”. My car is my biggest thing that holds me back. The payments are high for me, and I always struggle to pay them on time. I usually send them in late but within in a grace period. I can’t seem to ever pay rent on time, and thank god I live with my brother because he understands that I am trying or that I do try. I’ve always help/had a job, but you only get paid so much. I have two credit cards that I feel like I’ll never pay off. Whenever I start to pay one off, something always seems to come up where/when I need to use it.
With all my bills, I pay them all. But it’s just that never get paid on time or at the same time. I some how manage to spread them out and figure a way to pay them. I feel like the poster child for making it work.. Somehow.
I just need some help or a little extra cash because I feel like I can’t breath at times or that the stress is never ending. I wish I could start over or go back in time and give myself advice or a chance to not be where I’m at now.
The funny thing is that I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke, and I don’t drink unless is an occasion or social environment. I don’t have any criminal background. I just the “normal” or “typical average person” but just come with some baggage.
I would be lying if I didn’t say I feel desperate, but I just need some help to relieve what feels like the wait of the world on my shoulders.
I see the good in every person and always try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I don’t believe life is a fairytale, but I know there is good in the world. I’m just tired and feel stressed. Thats why I’m hoping someone on here can relate or understand.
I feel like I had to grow up really fast since my mom passed away and had to compensate for the happiness that I lost, but somehow I ended finding myself struggle with money and how to manage/budget it.
I’m not going to ask for a lot because it not anyone fault for where I’m at or responsiblity to help me..
But I do deeply and truly thank you for even coming here and reading my message. To even consider or think about helping me out.
I’m not sure what to categorize this under.. As in “debt” or “bills” but maybe under wishes because we all have wishes that we hope to come true.
Again, thank you.. I truly appreciate your time.