I’ve always been creative and I’ve always had big dreams. I want to leave my mark, my legacy in this life some way, somehow and maybe inspire and change some lives along the way.

Instead, like everyone does, we have to face the realities of life.

I work 10 hours a day 5 days a week at a soul crushing retail management job with a boss who only cares about key metrics and numbers day in and day out. Who makes me feel guilty for taking my paid vacation time, leaving me dreading the conversations of my own work life balance and mental health. My days off I attempt to start projects around my passion, but usually end up cleaning and doing the whole “life is maintenance” thing.

I had to have back surgery last year due to a persisting previous work injury and years of fearing the monetary repercussions of seeing a doctor. The bills won’t stop coming. I manage them, but it will take quite some time to be debt free again.

This is my reality and I accept what it is, but I will not accept that it cannot change. I will not accept leaving my passion for artistic expression on the table.

After all, at least I feel, chasing your passions is the meaning of life. To find fulfillment in what you do and find purpose in the world.

What I’m asking for isn’t pity money for my problems, they are of my own design and the will of the world. What I am asking for is freedom from my jobs creativity crushing restraints and the ability to exist and maintain a stable life at home with my girlfriend while I pursue my dreams.

She supports any decision I make and has even offered to put herself through financial hell to support me trying to pursue my own happiness and self fulfillment. I of course could never ask her to make such a sacrifice. I want to secure a future for us both and make a living doing something I love.

What I am essentially begging for is enough money to quit my job and take a year to make something to be proud of. Whether or not I become successful will depend on my abilities put to the ultimate test, but I want the opportunity to try without the restraints of my current situation. I want the opportunity to produce my own show and see where that takes me.

$50,000 is what I’m asking. A little less than what I make a year.

Insanely humble I know. Maybe my ego has gotten the better of me?

That money would pay off my debts and allow me to pay living expenses while I dedicated my heart and soul to my work.

I would be able to build my set, buy a better camera, finish costume design, finish script writing, pay my monthly fee to adobe creative cloud, and begin filming the adventures of the last man alive trapped in space with a rather inquisitive AI. A wild and wacky insight into our planets history, technology, and media, as well as an introspective journey into our place in the universe and our search for meaning. All packaged together with crude humor and a unique style.

I don’t want to give too much away about the project, but it’s something I’ve been working on for years and have always put on hold for what life demands.

If you care to donate it would be much appreciated. Anything will help go towards getting this project moving and getting my life moving towards my dreams.

Paypal me at       paypal.me/Connor1990

I recently had to sell my car after getting a oil change and they noticed that when driving the vehicle inside that it was idling real hard. Once they got done and drove the car out and I paid what was owed, i got into my car and tried to turn it on only to find out it would no longer start. I knew someone who could tow it for me at a low cost and another person to attempt to fix it. He told me one of the cylinders wasn’t firing but managed to get it to work long enough for me to run it over to a place to purchase it. Told them what happened and got offer $400 for the car. I then went to my bank to attempt to get a loan to purchase another vehicle and i have 715 credit but got denied because my cresit history in to short (11 months). My job pays me enough to keep up with rent and other bills but not enough to save for another vehicle that will need both car payments and insurance. I’ve never had a car that wasn’t already fully paid off due to the fear of being in immense debt so I look for cheaper cars. I’m tired of not having something reliable as this is the 3rd car I’ve had to get rid of within 2 years. I’m not sure how long I can go with paying for rides through uber/lyft due to it eating at what I want to save for another car. I’ve debated walking to work but it’s about 15 minutes driving on the highway and based on Google maps it’d be about a 1 and a half hour walk. I do a lot of heavier lifting at my job and end up exhausted by the time I get done and am unsure how long I’d be able to keep up with walking to and from work. I love my job and what I do but without a vehicle I am afraid I might have to quit and look for a job closer to me so I wouldn’t need a car. The downside to that is I’d be most likely getting paid less than what I’m getting now. Any amount would help and I would only need to accumulate around $5,000 to be able to continue with my job. Please help me out and Thank you to anyone who does help me.

Paypal.me/JJ20213

Hi there! My name is Ash. I’m an 18 year old and I’ve been trapped in what feels like rock bottom for a few months now.

I’ll be perfectly upfront with you; I don’t have any physical ailments bringing me to this site. The money I need isn’t for rent or to pay for any debts that are holding me down in this slump. All I’m searching for here is a chance at giving myself something to look forward to.

I am severely depressed. This has been a fact I’ve known for man, many years. I also have been diagnosed with psychosis as i entered my teen years. Both of these mental illnesses have taken an enormous toll on me and my health for a long time now, and over the last few months I’ve felt as though I have been stuck dissociating and feeling empty nonstop. If you don’t know what dissociation is like, I’ll try my best to explain it for you.

BetterHealth calls it “a mental process of disconnecting from one’s thoughts, feelings, memories or sense of identity.”

For me, it feels like never knowing who I really am, or what I am truly feeling at any given moment. It means that the things that have made me happy in the past tend to have no effect on me anymore. I’m stuck feeling empty and sad and scared all of the time and never knowing when that feeling will end and my smile won’t feel forced anymore. My hallucinations have been going haywire because of the lack of belief in myself or my surroundings, and for the first time in my life, I feel trapped in a black hole that I’ll never give up on.

Until today, I got a spark of hope.

You see, whenever any voice in my head got too loud, I’ve found that podcasts often help me calm down. One podcast in particular has been a ray of light through all of my dark days, helping me stay grounded and in the present no matter how far gone I may be. Today, the men behind that podcast have released the news that they’ll be going on two in the next two months and it just so happens that they have planned a show in my town!

This is the first time in far too long that it has seemed like something was working out for me, and I really want the opportunity to have something good and exciting to look forward to.

I am unable to find this money for myself because being un-medicated with these illnesses have made it impossible to hold down a job, and the people I’m surrounded by don’t take my mental health seriously at all. I have told them multiple times that I’ve been going through a mental decline and all they have done was tell jokes or make me leave the house I’m in when I get to being “Too Much” for them to deal with.

I know this may seem silly, but I need something good for me right now. I need something to stay focused on and give me hope as I continue to try and pull through this.

All I need is $150 dollars to get me a ticket. I will be able to walk myself there when the day of the live podcast comes in April.

Thank you for reading my story, and if you don’t choose to donate to me, please consider donating to anyone else here. I appreciate your time! Have a nice day.

paypal.me/ashbbaugh

To whoever may be able to help,

Never did I think it would come to a site for begging for money heck I didn’t evenknow they’re was one.! I was looking for a loan and found this site. I can’t even qualify for a lone since I have such bad credit but I thought I’d give it a try! That’s how I found this site!

I don’t know the most creative way to grab the attention needed or what someone is looking for in order to gain help, however I can tell you anything you would like to know. I’m also willing to tell my story even though I’m embarressed to admit what a terrible spot I’m in. I’ve never even mentioned anything to anyone I know even though I know everyone talks about me and my problems.

A few years ago (10) to be exact I lost everything that gave me any reason to live. The love of my life was taken in the most tragic way. I’ve always put the brave face on but I fell in a deep depression. I’ve never really came out of it and still struggle. Things progressively got worse I’ve since lost my car and have been without one for a few yrs. now. I’ve lost multiple teeth due to health conditions with no insurance and just trying to get by as best as I can. I’ve lost my job a few yrs back due to a business closing and was around the same time I lost my car. It broke down around the same time as everything else with me “broke” . Ive since had a job but due to a lack of car must take cabs almost every day. It cost me about 300 maybe a lil more each week. Thats just to get to and from work. Its a just barely getting by thing. I don’t really have much and I don’t really complain it could be alot worse. But my health is getting worse I need to see a Dr and a dentist badly. I had an infection in my mouth that I went to the er for but haven’t been able to go to a dentist and its getting worse. My car had broken down and I didn’t have the money to fix it so I let it set. I didn’t know about turning in tags and now have a fine of 2500 I must pay to even put a car in my name. I can barely save with taking a cab so much but need my job.

The help I’d be asking for would be with the fee. I could find a cheap car then to get me on my way. I’m not asking for a car or my dental work or anything like that. If there is someone anyone who could help me with that fee, that if you would like I can provide photos of the mva fee in its current date.! I’d be so greatful if I can just get this taken care of. It would save me so much money and I could start going to the drs. Slowly and get things back together. I’d be willing to even pay you back within a few months. Anything would help and again I’d be so greatful. I again can provide the mva documents and would send you updated info on the payments made after. I’d do anything you’d request. I don’t want to “beg” even though its the name of the site. I am truly desperate and would do whatever you would like to prove my story. ! Please consider me and thank you even for the consideration.! I know its a shot in the dark but its worth a shot.

Thank you for your time.

Paypal.me/gerrig926

I have been teaching college-level English since the 1990s and despite being chronically underemployed have managed to get on and live my values as well. More and more it has been difficult for me to get the extra employment needed to keep my bills covered. I have one less teaching contract this Spring and it led to a shortfall, which on top of unexpected expenses this summer for the car ($1900) has led to a very difficult situation. I have denied myself many “extras” over the years, including the vacations and big events I see other people blowing money on. I have not had health insurance since I was 25. Thankfully my health is good. I always tell people, if you have your health you can make more money, but you can’t get the time back. Well, I have my health but I am tired.

What really upsets me is that someone to whose job posting I replied on Craigslist the other day took me to task for doing things “wrong”, not networking more, not “solving big problems to make big money”. It was a housekeeping gig and I can do that, and liked the idea of making $100 for a hard day’s work, but the person scolded me and said “you are a professional” etc. I know that I am a professional. I also know that I am sorely underpaid for my talents. Also I think ignorance is the worst problem we have right now.

I don’t drink or do drugs, I add value to the world. A mere $4,500 would have me almost entirely out of debt and I could stop biting my fingernails over the rent. Some more on top would give me some time and mental breathing space to create more opportunities for myself. Maybe even solve some “big problems”. I will always find more work, but I am tired of having to borrow to pay modest bills, then work to pay those off, lather-rinse-repeat while being undervalued by a society I am doing my level best to add something to.

My immediate needs are this: after paying the light bill, phone bill, and credit card bills with my paycheck tomorrow, I will go with almost no money until the following paycheck, which is slated entirely for rent. Then I will call the light company so I can delay the bill again, until I have the money for it, and the car insurance company ditto. I am sick of this. I am doing and will continue to do everything I can to improve my situation. If you can help me, I promise I will pray for you and also pay it forward on this very site as soon as I am able. If you are wondering what dollar amount would help, anything is certainly appreciated. $273 would pay off one of the bills from the car repair. $430 would pay the other. $770 would pay off the credit card. $2,600 would pay off the other credit card. $575 would get my jewelry out of hock.

Anything would help. Bless you.

Amber

paypal.me/amber59392

Hi there,

Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I’d like to tell you a little more of my story and why I’ve come to this site.

I’m currently 26 years old, and I’m just trying to figure out where I need or should be at my life right now. I know that they say 20’s are when you’re discovering yourself and 30’s are when you know who you are, but ever since I was 17, I’ve had a challenge.

When I was 17 years old, my mom passed away. She was in and out of hospitals, but ended up spending more time in. She kept having strokes, which ended cause her to have Aphasia. That where it effected her speech and writing. Her time in the hospital helped us realize that she had a rare blood disease that only 5% of women get.

After she passed away, I’ve always struggled with myself fighting/battling the depression that I gained over time. I’ve come a long way since being 17. I’ve seen therapist, I’ve battled against low points in my life.  I’ve learned to grow and adapt as best as I can or could. I’ve learned that I’ll have happy times and sad times as any would. But the sad times are much harder since the depression adds on to it.

I’ve always struggled with money after my mom passed away, and I don’t know why that is.. Maybe because I lost part of my happiness, money can bring me some.. I know there’s a cliche saying that “money can’t buy you happiness”, but to me, it can provide some at times.

I struggle with money because I feel like I’ve put myself in “debt”. My car is my biggest thing that holds me back. The payments are high for me, and I always struggle to pay them on time. I usually send them in late but within in a grace period. I can’t seem to ever pay rent on time, and thank god I live with my brother because he understands that I am trying or that I do try. I’ve always help/had a job, but you only get paid so much. I have two credit cards that I feel like I’ll never pay off. Whenever I start to pay one off, something always seems to come up where/when I need to use it.

With all my bills, I pay them all. But it’s just that never get paid on time or at the same time. I some how manage to spread them out and figure a way to pay them. I feel like the poster child for making it work.. Somehow.

I just need some help or a little extra cash because I feel like I can’t breath at times or that the stress is never ending. I wish I could start over or go back in time and give myself advice or a chance to not be where I’m at now.

The funny thing is that I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke, and I don’t drink unless is an occasion or social environment. I don’t have any criminal background. I just the “normal” or “typical average person” but just come with some baggage.

I would be lying if I didn’t say I feel desperate, but I just need some help to relieve what feels like the wait of the world on my shoulders.

I see the good in every person and always try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I don’t believe life is a fairytale, but I know there is good in the world. I’m just tired and feel stressed. Thats why I’m hoping someone on here can relate or understand.

I feel like I had to grow up really fast since my mom passed away and had to compensate for the happiness that I lost, but somehow I ended finding myself struggle with money and how to manage/budget it.

I’m not going to ask for a lot because it not anyone fault for where I’m at or responsiblity to help me..

But I do deeply and truly thank you for even coming here and reading my message. To even consider or think about helping me out.

I’m not sure what to categorize this under.. As in “debt” or “bills” but maybe under wishes because we all have wishes that we hope to come true.

Again, thank you.. I truly appreciate your time.

paypal.me/pmarcelo92

Hi there!

My name is Hannah and I am so close to paying off all my debt – which includes student loans, a car loan, and some CC debt.

I am 27 years old, living in Columbus, Ohio and I work for a Christian nonprofit. My work includes spreading the hope and love of Jesus Christ to 200,000 in Central Ohio. I LOVE what I do, but as you can imagine, the nonprofit work life does not do much in regards to salary.

I have been working hard since I graduated college in 2014 to pay off my student loan and I am ALMOST there. Just about $3,000 left (yay!). I did purchase a car in 2014 and I have just $1500 left on that to go, and as many millennial’s have, I fell into the the trap of the infamous Credit Card and acquired debt there as well. I have been throwing money like a crazy person at that debt and I have it down to $2500. So in total, I have roughly $7000 in debt left and I can taste the finish line.

I’ll be honest, I am exhausted from this debt pay off experience. I now know that Credit Cards are not for me and I have cut mine up. I want to praise Dave Ramsey (well known financial coach) for teaching me his ways – I have a profoundly new perspective on what it looks like to respect my budget and this respect myself.

I need your help to get me across the finish line into financial freedom. I will dance and sing and shout praises to the Lord when that day comes. I am PRAYING it is sooner rather than later.

Thank you so much for considering helping me and bringing me closer to that freedom. :)

Hi, my name is Hunter I’m 20 years old and at this moment in time I’m going to college and paying my way I do get financial aid, but all of it goes to my savings account for my bachelor’s degree for later down the road.  I have a huge interest in social media marketing and its something I do on the side. I just don’t have the extra funds to start my business. I would have to buy a domain name to host a website, buy products I can sell, pay for advertising, and pay monthly to have a Shopify store. On top of the other little things that come with the learning process. I have made a Shopify store already and I plan to sell Items from Alibaba.  I would definitely love to start an Amazon store but that’s even more expensive, and I would like to get some marketing experience before I head in that direction. My hopes are that I’d be able to bring in $1000 or more passive income a month which would help me in so many ways and lower my stress that comes with being a student and working a part-time job. At the moment I make around 600 every two weeks. $80 of that goes to gas, then $540 for my rent. I also go grocery shopping which you know is like $50-$100 or more if you plan on getting enough food for a good couple of days. And I pay for my own internet which comes out to $270 every three or so months. At the end of the month, I’m left with hardly any money to spare for anything other than food, and gas. I’m hoping someone actually sees this post, all I need is a little boost. I know social media is a risking business to get into because you could fail over and over again. But I have put tons of time aside to learn as much as I could and I feel confident enough that I won’t fail. Even if I don’t bring in $1000 plus monthly I’ll still be happy because it’s Just the beginning for me. In good hopes, that someone sees this I just wanna say thank you for giving this post the time of day and thank you for reading. If you do decide to donate just know I appreciate any amount! And rest assured that It won’t go to waste because I have a mission and an agenda. I didn’t know what type of image to post because I don’t know what could prove I’m telling the truth, but instead I could give updates on my progress. My paypal link is

https://paypal.me/joshuahunterjohnson

Think you could lend a hand for love?

I mean…I must be a bit desperate for sending some random person on the internet a heartfelt message asking for money but…well yeah I am.

Here’s the thing, I met my husband three years ago online. He was smart, funny, handsome, and oh! that accent. See, David (my mans) is Australian. So skip forward a couple of years and I packed two big suitcases and moved to Perth, Western Australia to live with this hunk.

Things were great! But….as I’m sure you know, Visas have expiration dates. So come February 2018, we started realizing I’d have to leave soon. Then….he popped the question. And duh, I said yes.

I’m not trying to bore you with this backstory I promise but it’s important!

So, May 8, 2018, we got married without a dime to our name. It was a simple, romantic, and perfect day. Then…May 10 (yep, two days later) I flew back to the States and we started working on his green card application.

It’s January 2019 now. I haven’t seen, hugged, or kissed my husband in 8 months. I miss him more than typed out words could ever say. We originally thought his application should be approved by May, but turns out even just part one won’t be complete until our anniversary.

Look, I’m broke as hell. I work 40+ hours a week and deliver Postmates on the weekends and I’m still just making ends meet. I want to see my husband for our anniversary, May 8th. And I really want to surprise him with my arrival by February 19th (his birthday).

Again, this is slightly embarrassing but I’m running out of options and at this point, I’m willing to do what it takes to just hold him for a little while again. I really do miss him so much and the distance isn’t helping our marriage.

The ticket is $950. I realize that’s WAY too much to ask of you. Anything would be incredible (plus tax returns are soon so I’m hoping for the best there). Please…please let this reach you. And I hope you understand how incredibly important this inquiry is.

Thank you for reading my super long and romantic sob story!

Paypal: paypal.me/rebekahjg

First of all I want to say hello to everyone out there that will take time out of their lives to read what I am about to write and thank those as well that consider helping. I honestly did not know that there was a site like this that existed. I don’t even know where to begin with all this. How much does anyone out there want to hear about how screwed up things have gotten?  I always tell my friends that I’ve been to hell and back two times and fought the devil herself and made it back to live another day lol.

First off let me say I am a forty five year old single dad who is proud to say that I have the best kid a father could ever had asked for. He is my world. He is what gets me up each and every morning and makes me want so much for him to succeed in life. He is nine years old going on thirteen it seems like and although he will always be my little buddy, I am finding it harder to call him that since he has already grown almost to my shoulders and I’m 6’1”. I’ve had my share of ups and downs over the past fifteen to sixteen years and I know there are many people out there in the world that have gone through so much and are as deserving if not more. My son is what makes my heart beat  and I do try very hard to not let him down. He relies on me so damn much that I feel sometimes like I’ve let him down because of the breakup and not being a family.

So I guess now I will start with my first ex. I honestly did believe that she was it but to be honest, the way things went down, I guess prove I’m just a bit too nice. I met my first ex when she walked across the street one evening many many years back and asked for a cup of sugar. So cliche I know but it did happen that way and we were together for about five years.  My dad had gotten very ill at that time and I was going back and forth to the hospital to see him every day. Well within about two weeks he lost his battle. My dad was my dad and unfortunately  while the problem with my father was occurring, I had come home one evening from seeing him at the hospital and who do I find outside my home getting pretty chummy with my wife? Her supervisor from work. Not exactly something I want to see after coming home depressed from dealing with my dad who is dying. It was a bit devastating. My dad would lose his battle soon after and the relationship went sour. I pretty much called it quits the day I came home from work and saw that the house we shared was completely cleaned out. All the furniture was gone, drawers left open and even all the $400 worth of groceries we had just bought from Costco not two days before were removed from the cupboards and from inside the refrigerator. I mean really who does something like that. Insane stuff.

My current ex I met at work about a year and a half after splitting with the last one. Now believe it or not I did truly think my dad was looking out for me from up above and wanted me to be happy again. That’s why we were able to come across each other and end up dating  Yes everything was great for the first few years then again went sideways and we ended the relationship. But I did receive one awesome and priceless godsend and that was my son. That is the one great thing I could tell you came out of all the mess I have been through. My boy means so so much to me. I wish I could’ve had things squared away by now but I have not been that fortunate. My son does great in school, gets a lot of praise from his teachers and always tries to help in anything he does. Those are the kinds of things that makes a dad proud.

Let me end by saying a few things. When I went through my divorce I also ended up losing the house to foreclosure which was the start of my downfall. I tried hard to maintain but it became impossible. I went from having a mid 700 credit score to ending up with something like a very low 510 score and all my credit was pretty much shot. I had to let mostly all my accounts become delinquent. I’ve worked very hard to build that score back up but I’m not good enough to get a loan from my bank even with a score about 755. All I’m asking for is a second chance. I truly hope that I do get one and I can get my life back on track with my son. I hate struggling from paycheck to paycheck but unfortunately it is life sometimes.  I have no problem paying the bank back or even those that do consider helping me out. It is very hard for me to accept the generosity of strangers because I feel embarrassed about it. I will say this though.. I do believe in returning the favor and giving back  if it takes me the next ten years to pay everyone back then so be it. I know that what I ask for may or may not happen or it may only be fulfilled a little. I can’t control fate in this circumstance. All I can do is write out my thoughts and hopes and see what happens. The amount I need is $54,263.69  Yes it is a specific amount and it is not all of my debt. I still have a little more but if I could get assistance with this then my life could change so much better and I would be able to prosper instead of living from check to check. One last thing..I do realize no one out there will know who I am not whether they want to believe me or not. All I can hope for is that people do hear me and understand that I am a real person and not some scam artist. I’m not looking to just receive it. I give my word that I will pay back every last cent even though I don’t know how long it will take. I don’t really prefer to post pictures because I don’t even know what to post aside from selfies but I do not think it is safe to put a picture of myself or especially my son on this site.  I do apologize but I don’t feel comfortable doing it. Thank you again for taking the time to read this. It is long but it is all on the up and up. I promise you I would never waste anyone’s time in this matter. If you decide to donate to my cause please note I only use the post office box for all correspondence. My paypal link is

PayPal.Me/Hoping4a2ndChance

Thank you again for your time and consideration.

Sincerely

Rick

Our true problems arose Jan 2018, I was laid of from my former employer doing carpentry and living at my girlfriends uncles out of desperation. Considering it was a very cold winter in Yelm, Washington and my truck didn’t hold heat very well. Immediately after getting laid I applied for unemployment and did not qualify, so I went to work for an older man down the road who had owned his own company, so now I’m an Iron worker, getting paid monthly, commuting 2 hours one way to Bellevue, and working 12 hour shifts. Furthermore, I worked for about three months until I lacerated my tendon in my thumb.

MY THUMB, thumbs are truly the most important body part when it comes doing basically anything, like putting on your socks, playing Xbox, and swinging a hammer. Next was my girlfriend lost attraction I guess, being verbally shamed by her uncle, a long surgery, a split to keep my thumb from dangling, and physical therapy for the next 6 months. That’s really just a brief explanation, but by far the worth part of the whole thing was having to exercise, stretch, ice/heat repeat, and massage the scar tissue every hour every single day and each exercise took 30-45 min. I’m grateful to still have thumb, although movement is tight and cold weather make it ache. What ruined me was the fact that the old man never paid me for any of the work I did and when I tried to file a claim with L&I his company didn’t exist and his name was a John Doe.

So here I am June 2018, no money, in a crazy amount of debt from medical bills, and depressed out of my mind. BUT suddenly everything panned out, I got out of my splint, graduated from Physical therapy, and got a job working for a pipe supply company driving a forklift handling material for underwater utilities making $16 hr, still driving one hour to Auburn but I had to make something work plus they had so many benefits that helped me with medical expenses.

Now a change of course, my girlfriend which I’d been dating for 2 years, fought a significant amount of battles with, and helped her through HARD times. Her mothers suicide was the most difficult battle we faced, and this was 2 months before our relationship so I wasn’t in a splint or unemployed or anything, not that it matters anyways. BUT MY GIRLFRIEND, come to find out now after all this time together trying to support one another, getting into our own APARTMENT, and getting ENGAGED. She fucking CHEATED with THREE different guys while I was injured, and one more 3 months into our relationship.

To wrap all this up now, it’s not the injury that tore me apart, it’s the infidelity and the worst part about it is she lied about it. Even after I showed her the old phone she had been using before she insisted on upgrading to the latest IPHONE. NOW January 23, 2018 here I sit with an unemployed girlfriend, now currently laid off due to seasonal slow down, stuck on a 1 YEAR lease with nowhere to go, or should I say run and hide. This is the most I have vented to anyone about my emotional and physical hardships and the amount of pain I have felt. I missed Christmas day at my moms, spent endless hours on the suicide hotline crying my eyes out, blaming my injury or attitude at the time, or even my depression. BUT REALLY after everything I have learned one thing, don’t trust anyone.

SO HERE I AM. 21 YRS old sitting in an empty apartment with my laptop from 9th grade begging for money for my financial ruin, and also searching for jobs on indeed. I owe another $1300 in medical bills, $900 for rent at the end of the month, $788 for my car payment and insurance, $153 for our phones, food and electricity, OH and gas to get from A to B. All due at the end of this month, or I lose the last bit of positive outlook on my life, and probably go clinically insane. My wish is for happiness, not just for me but for my FIANCE as well, its truly a difficult situation, and everything has been putting me down so I figured I would BEG for money considering I don’t have much to lose AND continue having this roof over my head, and a place to sleep.

Thanks for hearing me out, if I don’t get the cash its okay because it felt good to express all my feelings and emotions.

THANK YOU,

TODD

Hello my name is Rylah I am going to do my best to sum up my situation in this box. I have been busting my ass to make money doing my arts and streaming but being an artist is rough unless you’re hitting it off right away. I have always been obsessed with Japan and it’s culture and people. I met my girlfriend over a language tutoring app for Japanese. She lives in Japan and I live in the US. We both hope to meet each other some day and she plans on visiting the US first and I’m hoping to go back with her and visit Japan. This woman is amazing she treats me with such love and care more than I could imagine and makes me feel like I can do and overcome anything and always keeps me pushing. Recently she has fallen very ill and been admitted to the hospital. We haven’t been able to contact each other for about 4 weeks due to hospital rules of no devices and I’m sure her phone is dead by now. She would always give me little updates when she could and even was sent home but her sickness got worse and she returned to hospital care. I haven’t heard from her since… As you may think this situation is driving me absolutely crazy not being able to message her or talk to her for such a long period of time.. Even though she wants to visit the US first I feel like I need to go there and be by her side in this dire time. Maybe I’m over reacting? maybe she’ll contact me soon enough once she’s better? I don’t know all I know is I want to support her with bills and be able to be by her side no matter where I am I want to be by her. Please if you have anything to spare even a dollar helps I want to be able to meet the woman of my dreams and help her more than I already do. Thank you.

My beautiful fiancee and I want to start living. Both of our lives have SUCKED due to our parents and mental health issues. We finally started to learn how to live THIS year. My dad died and it changed my world. It made us wake up. IT was so sudden…I don’t want to waste my life anymore. I can’t. We have been scared for so long to take the leap to move out and FINALLY do the things that are healthy and good for us.

US

We are two 23 year old women, madly in love since high school. We have now been together for 7 years. Not one huge argument. Not one breakup. We hold each other up and I never knew I could have something so beautiful in life.

We are a**holes, but the kind that loves to roast their friends but also shows up at their doorstep with soup and medicine when you need us.

We do EVERYTHING we can for our siblings and friends. Both of my siblings are struggling to pay for college, and I have been trying to help them make payments because I want them to follow their dreams, they are SO TALENTED. My brother is an AMAZING cinematographer. Only 19, but we all truly think he can make it. Want to see his stuff? let me know.

OUR PROMISE:  I get it. Why us? Well, because I SWEAR to you, we won’t let you down. We just want to enjoy life and that starts with starting to pay off our debt. We want to TRAVEL, we want PETS, we want to ADOPT, we want to GIVE BACK, we want to VOLUNTEER, we want to EXPLORE.

OUR PLAN

Pay debts, save money, move out within the next 6 months. We are both currently applying for higher positions jobs since we just graduated, and currently doing interviews. And…cat. We want to adopt a cat to love.

DONORS

Want updates? Want to know more about us? E-mail us. MunozTiwari at gmail.com

PAYPAL paypal.me/MunozTiwari

Hello to anyone reading this and thank you for taking the time to do so.

My name is Jesse, I’m 25 years old and to be honest, I’ve never done anything like this before. Back in October of 2018, I was really sick for the whole month and was nearly hospitalized. While I managed to get better towards the end, I ended up losing my Seasonal job that paid me $14 an hour 8-5pm Monday-Friday and had to make my dog walking side job into my full time job to pay rent. While my body was better, my mental health sank more and more until the stress of finding a new job, living on very little paychecks, getting behind on payments, house moving issues, car issues between my roommates and myself, and countless of other little things which eventually caused me to enter into a very dark place. On December 7th, I tried to commit suicide. I was officially hospitalized in the Psychiatric ward specifically to help with victims of trauma (which is a backstory not really needed here).

While I was hospitalized, I was informed that along with being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Major Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, I was going to have to be on 4 different kinds of medication and see a therapist to help. I no longer have the health insurance to pay for these medications anymore or for visiting my therapist/psychiatrist. After being released, I tried bouncing back into the swing of walking dogs again until my number 1 client canceled his dog services with me and all the available walks are atleast 9+ miles from my location and I cannot currently afford the gas to use most of it for just one dog (if I get so lucky now since business has really died down due to the holidays and snowy weather).

Most recently, our city had a major snow storm which caused over 800+ people to lose power and you guessed it, I was one of those “lucky” people. I’m still hunting for another job, but I really need some help just getting caught back up after this terrible storm and turn 2019 around.

The following is just a few of the major things I really need help with:
-Car payment is $900
-Credit Card is $1800
-Car Insurance due at the end of January which is $500
-Rent that is due at the end of the month is $110
-Utilities round to $150 because of needing to use heat
-Replacing the food lost in the snow storm which can be $50-100
-Gas for Car would be $40 for a full tank

Any kind of sent amount would help out a lot and you can use the paypal link below! Even just having $5 sent can help put gas into my car or be able to get some cat food for my sweet kitty who lost his homemade kitty foods. Thank you once more for your kindness in reading this, and I hope you have a blessed day. <3

paypal.me/misswitchraven

Hi.

I’m not quite sure who might come across this request, if anyone, so I hope it’s understandable if I keep identifying information to a minimal. I’m like everyone else here, as far as I can tell. You never expect yourself to end up in the position of begging others for money until that time comes. And I’m sorry. I can assure you that none of us would be here if we weren’t desperate.

So, why am I here? To be truly honest with you, I feel like a fool for making a post along with all these other people with serious issues. I do not have any medical bills that need to be paid, no lawyers that I need to hire, I wouldn’t even consider my family that poor off financially. However, I am a minor. I am still in High School, and it’s reached a point where I can no longer ask my parents for help with this. They don’t think that it’s worthwhile, and I can understand why. I’ve not let on how serious my condition has become.

A few months ago this year, I tried to kill myself. Then, I met the most amazing boy I have ever seen in my life. He was perfect, and soon he was mine. However, he was also abusive. He made me feel worthless. He’d tell me one day that I was the love of his life, and the next that I should end it. He drained me of all my energy with the holy trinity of abuse I’d go through everyday and I effectively ruined my life because I stopped caring. Now, I’m trying really hard to care again. Which is why I need the money. It’s my last hope. I need it for a lot of things, so I won’t get into that, but in the end it all surmises to a form of personal therapy. Whether that be some hobby that requires funding or literal therapy, unfortunately most of the things that can bring you joy in life require the assistance of money. And I know that if I cannot find a way to fund myself for that joy that I will very soon meet my death by means of my own hands.

I wish I could offer something in return. I’d get a job if I could, but that’s a process that takes far longer than I’m able to wait. I’d write anything, but there’s not really a service out there that accepts writing in exchange for currency write off the bat. I’d do anything, but I do not have access to anything. I don’t expect anyone to give me anything, not even a dollar or two. Hell, I don’t even expect anyone to read this. But if you do, whoever you are, wherever you, whatever your own circumstances are: I hope you’re okay. I hope you’re happy. If you are, treasure that. Treasure all that you have and I know it sounds cliché, but truly be thankful for that happiness. And if you’re not happy, I’m so sorry. You’re not alone, and I know that means nothing, but do know that I understand. Maybe not the exact situation you’re in, but I understand how even waking up is a struggle when it feels like you have nothing to wake up for. I sincerely hope one day you’ll have a reason. I wouldn’t wish the torment I’m in upon anyone. I believe we’re all fundamentally good people, so do forgive yourself for any mistakes you have made. That does not mean to pretend that they never happened, but if you cannot learn to forgive then you will never be able to move on. I hope the world has and will give you all you deserve and more.

Thank you x

https://paypal.me/forforeverme

Hello, I am thankful to have your attention. Even if you do not donate, thank you for your time. I’ll give a quick run down for those that don’t wish to read my story fully, and then tell the story in full detail.

Quick rundown: I have mental disabilities, I came from a dysfunctional family, was never taught how to be an adult, ended up homeless, started going to college and was living off my financial aid, I was then placed on academic suspension and lost my apartment despite trying to save it by working at McDonalds, needed up living with my Aunt who tormented me, I was trained to be a CNA, injured myself while working as a CNA, ended up homeless once more, I now live with my boyfriend but we’re both completely trapped in his parents home as we are very isolated and both of us are unable to drive.

Goals: I want to move IN town with my boyfriend so we can be independent, ie go shopping on our own, get a job or go back to school (maybe both), and take care of bills…

paypal.me/MissYennon

Okay. If you want to know more, I’ll better explain now.

I have mental disabilities that have made my life difficult. Growing up, my family had their own business, so I dropped out of school to dedicate myself to their business. I foolishly believed that we would always have our business and didn’t bother with an education, or even thought about the possibility of other careers. My family unfortunately became addicted to drugs, and we fell apart very fast. We lost our business, our home, all our nice things. We starved. We became homeless. When we got back on our feet, that’s when my mental issues worsened. I developed a panic disorder that was debilitating, and caused me anguish for the next three years before I finally got the help I desperately needed. I eventually found the strength to start up my education again in my late twenties. I earned my GED, went to college, and with my financial aid I got myself a little apartment. For the first time in my life I felt free and comfortable in my own skin. I even got healthier, working out and eating healthier! School was amazing, and I did pretty well at it. Until all I had left was math… at first, I was decent at it. But of course, it get harder, I just couldn’t understand it, and no matter how much I studied, I didn’t get it and ultimately failed two quarters in a row, placing me in academic suspension. Since I lived off my financial aid, I knew this was really bad. I did everything I could to keep my apartment, keep food in the fridge, and keep the lights on, but I completely failed at it. Despite trying to work at McDonalds, my anxiety got me in trouble and I wasn’t given anymore hours. I was forced to move in with my aunt, who made me hate myself even more. While living with her, I attempted to kill myself twice. I was so miserable, and I felt so unloved.

Things turned around a little when I decided to train to be a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant). At first, I did okay at it. But after three months of work, I injured myself assisting in lifting a resident. My employers and co-workers proceeded to treat me like garbage while I was on light duty, until I quit. I ended up homeless because I couldn’t stand living with my aunt anymore. Thankfully, I met the love of my life and I moved in with him and his parents almost two years ago.

As much as I love his family, I can’t stand living so isolated. I am stuck on a hill ten miles out of town, can’t go on long walks because of wild life, I don’t drive so I can’t go into town to do my own grocery shopping, and I can’t rely on his parent to drive me into town for events or work (even if I offer to pay for gas), because they complain if we want to leave. If there were a bus system, we would take it, but there isn’t (and no, there’s no Uber or Lyft service in our area).

I would very much like to have a fresh start so I can tackle my debts and student loans, and start a family with my boyfriend. If you choose to help me, I will be forever grateful, and pay it forward!

paypal.me/MissYennon

Hi there. My name is Morgan but you can call me tired because that’s what I can mostly identify with right now. I’m 25 years old, I’m full time mom and wife and part time waitress. I have two wonderful little and one amazing big kid (husband). Just like any new married couple and new parents we have made our financial mistakes. Unfortunately when your young you don’t realize you could be paying for those mistakes in years to come. On days where I want to be enjoying my family and reading my babies bed time stories and cooking hot meals for the family, I’m waitress most nights so we can afford to pay off debt. Not bills, rent, groceries, just debt. I have to sacrifice precious fleeting time with my growing babies and my husband and give it to debt. If you have debt you know it’s like a endless weight on your shoulders and you can’t ever seem to take that deep breath because it’s always there reminding you of what you can’t do because of it. It follows you around, it holds you back, it makes you live a life you might not have chosen for yourself but have to lead. My plee to whoever reads this, is help set my family free. Help me break the chains of debt and high monthly payments that could be going to a savings fund, college fun, emergency fund! I just want to be set free. Free to be with my family day and NIGHT, free to be a traditional yet uncommon family where I can be with my kids and raise them and not feel so held back by something so shackled as debt. I’m here because I’ve been doing it on my own, on our own for too long. And sometimes you just need to ask for a little help, a little forgiveness and a little faith. Help me and my family have a fresh start and take our first deep breath in the new year debt free!!

My goal is 50,000 to pay off all credit cards, debt consolidation and cars!!

paypal.me/mamabearkemplin

Hello, My name is Tim and I’m 30 years old and recently went back to school.

I don’t really know where to begin because I feel like this is a last resort that I can turn to.

I’m currently in a total of $10,000 debt due to negligence my past years. I stopped going to college for a while because my parents wanted me to pursue Nursing or something in the medical field ( I’m asian) . I didn’t want to to pursue that so for a few years I just decided to work and got stuck working at server jobs because I didn’t learn any new skills.

I want to be a photographer. A lot of my friends believe in my talents, and I recently went back to school last semester to get into event photography and also learn motion graphics. My mom wanted me to go back to school and do dental assisting but as I was signing up for classes I asked myself if I’d be happy in the long run and I know I won’t by living out my parents wishes instead of mine.

My grandfather passed away two years ago right after having a conversation with him through FaceTime, telling me that whatever I do I should do it and no matter what I should be happy for myself. A year ago, my father recently got in contact with me through facebook. I have never met my father since he left when I was born, but I learned to forgive him because we’re all human and make mistakes in our lives. But he told me to pursue my passion which is why I went back to school and study photography. My grandfathers last words telling me to live my life and my father whom I’ve never met telling me to pursue my passion is what’s driving me to get my life together. I was raised by my grandparents until I was 10 then moved to America with my mom and my step father was very abusive to me when I was younger so I don’t have a steady relationship with my family.

I have learned this past semester that I have the ability to be great in my craft and other professionals and classmates acknowledging it, but I’m still working two serving jobs back to back, living paycheck to paycheck, and feel like I would never get out of debt and pursue my dreams.

I made it my goal this year to try and get signed with an artist and use my photography to travel and hopefully visit Germany where my real father is and see him for the first time. Helping me clear my debt would give me more time to learn more skills and be a full time student to fulfill my goal sometime in the future. Part of the money would also go to helping me claim my business name so I can start doing freelance photography once im out of debt so I can earn money through photography. Any amount would be greatly appreciated.

Please and thank you and have a safe new year and I hope your goals and wishes are answered this year as well.

https://paypal.me/tjardiel13

Hello, I am asking for any donations to help me fund a food/clothing pantry for my community. I know firsthand how it feels not to have enough food for my family. I am almost certain someone else is going through this. I also know that most community food/clothing pantries run out of supplies or they are not doing right by their donations. It hurts my heart as a mother to think that some children are going without proper food, clothes, and shoes.  I know this is a big donation request because this is a big dream for me to do. Also, donations will be used for Christmas and another holiday help. This is a desire placed in me from God; so, I take this project with great responsibility. I will use this money to follow the necessary steps in making this happen. I just need like-minded people who believe in this as much as I do. I plan on eventually adding other things to help the youth succeed in the neighborhood. Like networking with summer job options and helping them through the application process. They may need interviewing clothes, and I want to be able to provide that for them with your help. Simple things to some people mean the world to another. For example, haircuts for boys. Those are some of the things your donations can go towards. This will start in my home and grow to a location. The question is, will you be a part of it? It is going to happen because God put this in my heart to do. Once in an actual location, more things are possible. For example, an after-school study spot on a scheduled day of the week. One day we may have a game night. Or depending on the type of building, a sleep-in; where they can watch movies eat and just be kids. Some kids live amongst stress and heaviness causing them to miss out on being a kid. Donations could help community kids see and experience things they may never experience at home. I believe in this so much, and I am willing to dedicate my energy to this. Some people are down on their luck and needs a little push. And some children are lacking proper food, clothes, and good childhood memories. The youth are our future, and if you decide to donate to something donate to the future success of the community and the children. Thank you for your time and consideration and I hope to hear from you soon.