Wishes | Begging Money

Last Updated: June 28, 2019

Help With a Musical Purchase

Hello! My name is Conrad and I live in the American Southwest. I’m very sensitive to the fact that my request doesn’t have the same gravity as others in terms of being hungry, needing a place to live, having a medical bill, or otherwise being in a similarly urgent situation, and I don’t wish to minimize those situations. This being said, I would be extraordinarily grateful for assistance.

I’m currently in my mid-20s, and the last several years have had many trials. I began my college career by shifting into the honors program at my university and immersing myself in all aspects of life at a big school. In late 2012, my grades began to suffer for reasons I couldn’t totally explain; I was more tired, I lacked a lot of the drive I had to succeed, and generally experienced a downward shift in my mental health. The next year I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, and after a short break and unsuccessful attempt to return to school after a semester away, I decided to take a longer amount of time away and work on my health. Four years later, after learning an incredible amount about myself in the company of my family, gaining work experience, and becoming healthy, I was able to go back to school! Now I’m only approximately a month and a half away from graduation.

Now to my request: I’m a musician who specializes in Brazilian music and jazz in general. I fell in love with the music of Brazil about 10 years ago in my teens, and spent a good amount of time playing it on the electric bass and guitar. About six years ago, I picked up a mandolin on a whim and have slowly realized how much playing it means to me as an expression of my love for music. I had the opportunity to acquire a wonderful acoustic instrument made by a Brazilian luthier; I’ve been improving through playing every day and have started to post videos on Instagram.

About two months ago I put in an order for an electric mandola from a very nice luthier in England. I look forward to being able to play with other musicians at gigs without having to mic my acoustic instrument, as well as exploring more of the possibility of an electric one. At the time, I anticipated I would be able to pay for this instrument along with my expenses; as I write this, the now-complete instrument is ready to ship and I am about $400 short of my final payment. I’m still in the limbo of pre-graduation yet needing to pay for my living expenses, and after learning lessons on how to spend my money in the past, I don’t want to divert money for bills to this.

If there is a kind soul or kind collection of souls reading this that is able to help me make this purchase, I would be eternally grateful. I’d like to share more playing with the world in the way of videos and eventually music; I’d be happy to share more with anyone interested!

Thank you for taking to time to read.

http://paypal.me/kkamka

Last Updated: June 27, 2019

A new start – Help me get my family back

I am John from Greece, 42 years old married with a child. For the last 15 years i was working as a computer programmer. Since i remember myself i was always stressed. Had lots of family issues with my parents being at war all the time. I was the best student in my class. I have graduated with distinction from university with a BSc In IT and Computing. I have worked since then as an ERP consultant/Programmer. Unfortunately after having my kid my stress levels went skyhigh. I was not very competent in my work then. Someone offered me some hard drugs (heroine). It was a revelation for me then. All my anxiety has gone. I had lots of motivation and found meaning in everything. I was great at my job. These came first. After some years i only got to cope with it. I was sick if i did not have my fix, i began changing jobs, my family learned all about and kicked me out. My relationship with my wife is broken. I have reached the bottom of the barrel. Finally after many years i took the big step. Started psychotherapy and ended my drug abuse. The most difficult thing of all is that i could not feel happy again. Everything that i used to love was dull and uninteresting. It took me almost 2 years to feel normal. I have started to show a clean face to my family and friends and parents. The thing is i have created many debts and even though i am a new man i have these all burdens on me. I wish i could repay all these so that i could offer to my wife and daughter what i took from them. I wish i had a second chance. I have a job now but i live paycheck to paycheck and its a struggle because my anxiety still exists. I fear that i m going to break. If any of these touches you please help me and if i can i promise i will give everything back some day. Anyway thank you very much for your time and i wish you the best from my heart. paypal.me/ykorom

Last Updated: June 27, 2019

Fix only one room in my house

Hello ! Life seems very difficult especially when you live under the roof of a dilapidated house, we are a simple family: me, my mother, my sister and my brother. We have a house that has only two rooms, one of which is completely worn out and a small bathroom

I am a 25-year-old man working in the internet but my salary is not sufficient to achieve my ambitions and dreams. Did you know I might wait 3 months to make $ 40! I can not draw the smile on my mother, my sister and my little brother

I just ask you to help me fix the roof of the room. It is a very bad and worn out house. Its foundations are weak. It was built with soil and water only with some heavy wooden pillars. The room must be completely repaired because it is not based on strong walls

Did you know that the second room where we cook and sleep in person, and sometimes we all sleep, my mother, my sister and my brother in the first room because if the winter is resolved the rain seeps through the holes and the dust falls on us

In the summer I was forced to sleep and the sun burned because the door of the second room was broken and sometimes the scorpions entered through the holes and gaps of the ruined ceiling

I only want $ 2000 to fix the ceiling of our room and complete the rest of the repairs Please help me and I am ready and will give you all the necessary information to confirm the authenticity of my words including pictures of the roof of our dilapidated room and its bad shape

We put all our supplies in the second room: clothes, refrigerator, gas pipe, household appliances, computer … This is very disturbing because my mother cooks, dirt and insects fall on cooking

Help me just to build the ceiling and repair the room fully and make my mother and sister and my little brother proud of me even once in life because my mother tired a lot

paypal.me/TAZICHOUAIB

Last Updated: June 26, 2019

Back to my roots

This may be my last chance to go to back to Greece with my father. He is 88, and an amazing man. Born and raised in Greece, he moved to the U.S. in 1956, with hardly any possessions to call his own. He eventually started his own business and together with my mother raised our family; their struggle and story are remarkable. The original trip this year was supposed to be both my mother and father, but unfortunately due to my moms illnesses she is unable to go. His siblings have all passed away, but the rest of my family still lives there. I’m hoping to raise money to join him, in what may be his last trip, in the place he was raised. Any help is much appreciated.

http://paypal.me/gotogreece

Last Updated: June 25, 2019

Trying to buy a home

Hello, I am 28 and from Romania and I am struggling financially.

From a young age the only thing I could understand was fear, fear from the bullies at school, fear from a good old beating I had coming for not scoring a good enough grade, and probably the straw that broke the camel’s back, my alcoholic dad. He never really hurt me physically, no that part was reserved occasionally for my mother, the psychological trauma tho, it haunts me to this very day, the countless nights which sometimes turned to weeks of waiting for the late hour in the night my dad would eventually come home, intoxicated of course, and bust the door in and terrorize us for 1-2 hours…

Eventually my parents got divorced although the damage was already done, my mother became very spiteful at the world due to all the traumatic years she endured while I just remained my own fearful inhibited self, struggling to form the most basic of bonds. My appearance may fool some or maybe not, so far nobody told me “hey, you’re a weirdo” but I am pretty confident I can fake my way through society without raising too many eyebrows.

My parents continued their toxic hate/love relationship, hate being the strong point, even after their separation, for financial reasons as well as my sake I assume. I had mixed feelings about this at first, not knowing whether to be happy or fearful of this seemingly peace treaty and I eventually understood that it was ultimately a bad thing, my dad never quit his alcoholism. I know most people get strength from these type of situations and push through and have successful careers and families, I wish I had the strength to overcome this anxiety sooner and try to build my life, sadly the only coping mechanism I had was to alienate everyone and shut down completely, immersed in fantasy worlds where I felt I had some control.

I am ashamed to do this and expect anyone to give me money for my selfish/insignificant wish of moving out of the apartment where I am currently living with my mother so I can start my own life, but I just can not save up enough from my current job in order to afford or sustain a long term bank loan, not that any bank would even grant me a large enough loan on my current salary. Even with a program the government initiated ‘Prima Casa’ which loosely translates to ‘First Home’ I would be engaging in a 30 year loan that I would not be able to sustain and end up homeless.

I know my situation sounds insignificant but I am begging anyone that has anything to spare to help me fulfill this dream of owning a home which will serve as the building blocks of getting my life on track, away from all the stress inducing arguments and fights so I can worry about less stressful things like paying the utility bills for my new home.

My goal is to only save up enough money for my very own apartment, a current target of 60000 €, and I will be posting weekly updates with my progress!

Anything you can spare is a blessing and I would be eternally grateful!

paypal.me/startingmylife

Thank you for viewing part of my life-story, it has been therapeutic to share some of it for the first time, even if its just text on a wall!

Last Updated: June 25, 2019

Chasing my dream

Where do I start? I love helping people a little too much to the point where I forget to help myself. It doesn’t help that I wanted to be an artist (a sculptor to be precise) when I was younger but life and mostly bills made me face a harsh reality that I cannot survive with my ideals, my unknown name, my unknown face and artistic inclinations so I took to the corporate world, sales and retail. You name it, I’ve done what I can to make an honest living but still just barely breaking even. Being stuck in cubicles facing a computer screen did very little to nourish my soul. Until one day I decided to cook professionally and I simply fell in love with it. I felt like an artist again but this time my medium is good food. I was an apprentice for a few years and that means barely earning a reasonable wage but I pushed on and proved to myself and to naysayers that I have what it takes to make it in this industry- That I can be one of the best chefs this world has ever seen. The only problem I have is that I am not equipped with a good credit score or a big bank account. I made plenty of mistakes in the past and it was mostly “love-related”. I want to make it right. I want to start something small but not diminish the quality of food. I want to buy a double decker bus and convert it into a mobile restaurant that’s highly seasonal and sustainable. I want to serve art on a plate that takes your senses on a culinary journey. I want to introduce my country’s cuisine to every destination I could possibly drive to. I want to share my grandma’s wisdom over soup while breaking bread with customers and people in need. I want to create a dialogue about food and what it means for art sake, culture, ethics and learning how to give back. Eventually the goal is to be able to feed the hungry but for that I need a name. For that I need to be successful and right now, I just need a hand. $50,000 would do the trick. That would ensure a great future for what I believe in- I need a platform and these are the avenues I’m going to take for now. I will make it. I just need a little nudge. If there’s anyone out there who chooses to help instead of ridiculing a girl for trying- Thank you. Thank you so much.

paypal link:

paypal.me/adigail

Last Updated: June 24, 2019

Repairing an old bike

Hi, my name’s Lea and riding has been my dream since I was like 13. Unfortunately before I could save up for my first bike, the person who offered it (dad’s friend) decided to keep it. I’ve used the saved money to move out from living with my dad. That was around 6 years ago. Since then I’ve worked through several jobs which paid less than appropriately and I’ve never really managed to save enough to consider buying a motorcycle.
I’ve also moved again since then, to hopefully get a better paid job, which unfortunately didn’t work out very well as I had to leave the job because it was very physically demanding.

Last year I got this old Yamaha in not-running condition as a gift from my girlfriend for Christmas. However she had an accident on the bike and it needs some repairs before it will be road legal (and safe) again. So far I am learning on the go and have managed to get it running to a degree.

What does the bike need?

New steering as it now has bent handlebars, brake overhaul – it has original brake lines from 1985, adjusting the carburators, new tyres (currently it has wrong size which won’t pass MOT) and MOT, fixing the fairing as it is cracked in several places from the fall and general maintenance. I am trying to learn as much as I can to decrease the costs by doing the maintenance myself, although some of it also requires special tools which I will try to either borrow from someone or need to buy.

I want to use the bike to ride to work, especially as public transport doesn’t have good connections everywhere and the sooner I can put it back on the road, the better.

I am currently unemployed, and although I am hoping that I will find a new job soon, my health is limiting me in the range of jobs I can apply for. I also have type 1 diabetes since I was 15 and also other medication which I have to pay for which is why it’s been rough to keep up financially, especially now without a job.

Having my own means of transport would greatly help in job selection since I wouldn’t have to rely on connections via public transport or could even work out of the city.

I would be very grateful for any financial support I can get, I will probably need somewhere between 500-1000 € to get the motorcycle fully operational but it is still cheaper than having a car at least.

If you’re considering donating or already have, thank you in advance and may you have a wonderful day!

Link to donate here: paypal.me/CZbike

Last Updated: June 23, 2019

Michael Jackson Documentary

MJ fam – here we are in 2019, the 10-year anniversary of MJ’s passing. We all knew this would be a difficult year for so many of us worldwide. Instead of being able to mourn and properly celebrate and honor Michael Jackson, we are, again, being forced to educate the media and the general public with the evidence-based truth about him.
Once again, we have to defend Michael Jackson’s name and legacy from vicious and calculated lies. We can no longer sit back and wait for the ‘right thing’ to be reported or for someone else to step in and champion our cause. This is on us – fans, friends and family. I know that the unanimous acquittals and the FBI’s 10-year investigation should have been enough. The worst thing we can do is let this continued slander go unchallenged.
I know that when we as a group are united, we are unstoppable.
So I need your help.

BACKGROUND:

Michael Jackson was arguably the greatest musical entertainer of all time. His success and influence was felt all over the world, from the US to the UK, from India to Egypt. He broke down racial barriers and changed culture forever. He was one of the most famous human beings who ever lived. For the last 15 years of his life he was subjected to false, malicious allegations of child abuse. He successfully defended himself against those allegations and died an innocent and exonerated man, but they took their toll nonetheless.

Years after he was killed by his doctor, two men who had resolutely defended Michael’s innocence in life, tried and failed, to win financial settlements from his posthumous estate. After having their bogus abuse allegations (undermined by a wealth of evidence demonstrating the contrary) dismissed by the court, they have now turned to HBO, the UK’s Channel 4 and the Sundance Film Festival. These three reputable organizations have sadly compromised their Brand’s integrity by announcing they will provide a platform for a ‘documentary’, through which these two accusers – who have accrued large legal debts to the estate they tried and failed to extort – are still seeking to profit from their already discredited stories.

Michael Jackson died an innocent, vindicated man. The world needs to understand this most important and basic fact. The world also needs to understand the damage that is done to legitimate victims of abuse when self-confessed liars are not only allowed to profit from false allegations, but are given a platform to pontificate their fraudulent claims.
In an effort to settle this injustice – and to create a historic tome that will be a resource for anyone interested and willing to learn THE TRUTH about Michael Jackson’s indisputable innocence– I’m creating a documentary series that explodes the myths once and for all.

ABOUT THE DOCUMENTARY SERIES:

This explosive documentary series will conclusively destroy decades of salacious myths which have been told and sold about Michael Jackson ad nauseam. In doing so, we will shine a light on the corruption within the media and entertainment industries which conceived and perpetuated them. Falsehoods like:

“I heard Michael Jackson paid a settlement to avoid a criminal trial for child abuse” Wrong.

“I heard the boy described Michael Jackson’s genitalia accurately” Wrong.

“I heard Michael Jackson paid over 200 million to as many as 20 victims” Wrong.

Almost everything the public thinks it knows about Michael Jackson is wrong.

For decades, the media has dealt in sensationalized stories about the King of Pop. Could you blame them? He is, quite simply, the biggest celebrity the world has ever known. Those sensationalized stories earned the media billions of dollars.

But at what cost?

Michael has been dead now for almost a decade, but many of the most damaging fake stories remain part of the public consciousness, causing continual damage to his legacy – not to mention his children, who have had to grow up watching the world embrace and perpetuate these horrific falsehoods. Tarnished again by HBO, Channel 4 and the Sundance Film Festival, all of whom have gone into business with two proven liars and purgers who are seeking to personally profit from already discredited abuse allegations.

The time has come to take action and formally correct the record – before it’s too late. The history books are already being written and many of them read like grim fairy tales. Provable falsehoods are recycled time and again as facts. Remember, we only know Mozart, Bach, Debussy or Beethoven by what we have read from available resources. Hundreds of years from now, people will look up Michael Jackson’s name and music. We owe it to future generations to provide a resource, built on evidence-based facts, that will stand the test of time.

This documentary series will be the definitive historic record of the most discussed aspects of Michael Jackson’s private life, placing the most controversial stories under the microscope, tracing their origins and dissecting how and why the media’s narrative diverged from the truth. Unlike decades of sleazy tabloid stories, which were propped up by washed-up former friends and employees in return for fat paychecks from the media, this documentary series will feature exclusive interviews with first-hand witnesses who have never spoken publicly before and are doing so now purely out of a desire to set the record straight, not because somebody has offered them $50,000 to say something controversial. The series will also draw on thousands of pages of official, legal documents, which tell a completely different story then the one which played out on tabloid newspapers’ front pages.

The episodes will not sugarcoat Michael’s difficult life. He experienced a lot of physical and emotional pain and that had sad repercussions. To deny that would be just as dishonest as the media’s sensationalist version of events.

Equally, this series will not shy away from pointing the finger of blame for many of Michael’s darkest hours where it truly belongs. It will reveal how Michael was betrayed, entrapped, extorted and abused throughout his life> You will hear the stories that the media never bothered to tell you about because of their obsessive preoccupation of mercilessly bullying and ridiculing him.

What’s the real story behind the 1993 sexual abuse claim?

What is the real truth about that 1994 settlement?

What really happened in the courtroom during his 2005 trial?

What is the real motivation and who are the players behind Wade Robson and Jimmy Safechuck?

And, crucially, how – and why – did the media mislead you at every turn?

The answers to these questions will shock and disgust you. In fact, this series could prove to be the most searing exposé of media and showbiz corruption that the world has ever seen.

FUNDING:

“Why should I donate? Can’t so and so fund this?”

While trying to secure funding, I have looked into several alternative opportunities and scenarios. Unfortunately , any corporation and/or outlet with the available funding would, most probably, want creative and editorial input. The purpose of this project is to present a factual delivery of events from people that lived it and knew it – including me.

As a sexual abuse victim, I know what it means to be a survivor. I also know what kind of damage sexual misconduct leaves upon the victims. This unique position makes me even more determined and qualified to make the truth.

WHEN WILL THIS BE DONE:

My plan is to start immediately and have the series completed as quickly as possible. However it is also my absolute honor and I feel duty-bound to dedicate 2019 to setting the record straight with this series.

WHAT ARE WE GOING TO USE THE MONEY FOR:

As many of you will know, a documentary of this size and scale will not be cheap.

What will your contribution help to fund?

– Hiring key players for the production team.
– Travel expenses for filmed interviews and meetings.
– Verifying stories and new information.
– Securing licensing and video clips.
– Video and audio editing.
– A comprehensive, international marketing and PR campaign (live and digital) that will make it impossible for audiences, targeted and otherwise, to ignore.
– Distribution, locally and internationally.

https://paypal.me/DiamondTaylor1

“Lies run sprints, but the truth runs marathons.”—Michael Jackson

Last Updated: June 19, 2019

Helping Homeless Gay Teen

Two years ago, I met a teenager who saved my life. He was a shy, good mannered kid with a 3.9 GPA with dreams of becoming a lawyer. His parents kicked him out, took his car and haven’t spoken to him in a year. He was left homeless, sleeping at a friends house. For a while, I was buying him essentials as a parent would. He is taking college classes so I’ve been paying for his books and supplies. But it’s become too much for me to take care of him. We live in a rural area south of Seattle. The closest public transport in the area is 15 miles away. He wants a job and to stay in school and I want to make sure he does. I want to raise a bit of money to get him a used car so he can get a job and learn to become a responsible adult. I also want to help more with his school. I may not be able to save everyone in this world, but I can save him. I know he will grow to become someone more special than he already is, helping others and being a happy adult. Please, help me help him. He’s been through so much and if anyone deserves help, he does.

* Note: Because he is 17 and I do not have legal custody of him, I can’t post his photo or personal identification. I can give information privately.

https://www.paypal.me/markryaniversen

Last Updated: June 18, 2019

Dream Ticket to My First Music Festival aka Tomorrowland 2019

Hi there!

I have never been to anything like this, so this would be a dream come true.

My name is Ella. I am 24 and I have a goal to go to my first music festival this July, Tomorrowland 2019, in Belgium. I obviously don’t have $600 to buy a ticket on my own that’s why I am here writing this message. The tickets were sold out online in seconds anyway, so even if I could afford it, I doubt I would get one. Attending Tomorrowland has been on my goal list for a few years now, and again this year I don’t want to miss it. I am not going to tell you my life story because I feel weird sharing things that nobody cares about anyway. I could lie if I wanted to and tell a sad story about how I have three months to live. But, nobody cares or would believe a stranger on Internet when she is asking for money.

My dream is straightforward, I want to experience the culture and community of people celebrating electronic music.

If you would like to donate and support my goal, your act of kindness would change my life in incredible way.
My ideal plan would be to work at the festival for one of the sponsors or artists in exchange for the opportunity to attend the festival. To this day, I can’t find a way in, so maybe this can be my lucky ticket. If you know anyone who needs ANY extra help or assistance before, during, or after this festival please shoot me an email. I know this sounds weird, trust me I know! I am taking a risk writing this here too, BUT if I don’t ask, the answer is always a no. Maybe, I am exactly what somebody is looking for.
If you have any other ideas for me how I can achieve my goal, I am all ears!

I am not ashamed to ask for help or work hard to reach my dreams. I genuinely believe in good people and anything is possible. Today, you help me and in a year I might help someone who is in need.

Thanks for reading this post!

– Ella

paypal.me/ellamosspaypal

Last Updated: June 12, 2019

Transgender Artist

My name is Jaye Harrod, I’m currently 17 years old, and I’m an aspiring concept artist. The photo for this post is my most recent, yet unfinished, piece. I am proud of my art, and I believe I still have much more ahead of me to learn.

Suffering from different mental illnesses, including gender dysphoria, I’m learning to get through life. Things have been getting better, but I would still like to get my life a bit more stable. I’m asking for any amount of many that can be contributed to my health and to a potential career. For my health, I plan to one day get both top and bottom surgeries done, which can be pretty pricey. Even to get to that point, I would need to be able to afford Testosterone prior. I’m currently communicating with people, trying to start new therapy, and also figuring out what my insurance will cover. Many surgeons do not accept insurance, and will only perform with payment. Costs for myself will include travel as well. And even before any of this well get done, I would like to give my mother a hand in having to pay for my therapy/psychiatric sessions They’re becoming a bit much, and she cannot work physically without being in pain. If possible, I’d also like to help her recover her body through the surgery she would like to get for her hand and back problems. With only my father working, my brother who might be leaving for the military, and medical fees for my dog who we recently found out has AIHA, money has become short. I’ve been trying to find a job for a long time, but it’s difficult when I only have experience with a company that has now shut down, and cannot be contacted for reference.

As for a career, I want to be a concept artist. I’ve been drawing for as long as I can remember, and when I was younger, my art was quite something. I never used to like my art, tending to dispose of my drawings and hide them from others. I have occasionally posted on social media to share my artwork with people who may enjoy it. Furthering my career is my main goal after my transition. I would like to spend whatever is leftover on new art supplies, such as hardware, classes/lessons, traditional supplies such as paints/canvasses, and eventually, college tuition. I have an idea of what college I would like to go to, and my major would most likely be illustration and/or animation. I’m entering my senior year in the fall of 2019, and I will be applying to colleges shortly. Any help is appreciated. Thank you so much.

My paypal is https://paypal.me/jayeharrodhunt

Last Updated: June 12, 2019

For my family and friends.

Hello thank you for reading this and taking your time out of your day too. My mom is a nurse and is going to school for a better degree. My dad is a physicist and he works all day everyday. I want to give my parents some gifts for all that they have done for me. I want to give my dad a new chair and desk for his office and I want to give my mom something that she really needs. I want my parents to know that I care for all that they do. My mom raised me up to be a very caring person and I would love to just give her something that says thanks for helping me with everything. My friend is having a hard time with money right now so I want to try and help her as much as I can. I hate seeing my family and friends struggling with life so I want to help them. I want to also get my sisters a gift because I want them to know how much I truly care about them. My older sister is currently moving houses and I want to buy her something to help out with the move such as furniture or a candle, etc. I am currently not working and not able to work at the moment so I cannot help my family with things that I think our family needs. Right now I am trying to find ways to earn money so I can help out with everyone however, it’s not going well. I also want to get my mom a special birthday gift that she would adore. I am also currently in some student debt right now and I would like to pay that off as soon as I can. My Grandma I want to give her some things that could be useful around her house as I want to try to help her out and spend the time I have with her. I also want to help others that are not my family such as homeless people, orphanages, etc. I just want to help people because I hate seeing people struggling like I don’t like homeless people just sitting there in the snow get hypothermia. I also want to help my mom pay for her schooling that she is doing right now. Thank you for reading that and I would appreciate any type of donation for example if its only 1 dollar or 5 dollars I would be so grateful. Any type of donation would be useful and I would appreciate it a lot.

If you would like to donate my papal is this:

paypal.me/Jazzyjazz1227

Last Updated: June 11, 2019

Chronically Ill Caregiver striving to keep Disabled Mom at Home

Hello, I am a 47 year old caregiver striving to take care of my disabled 67 year old mother on my own. I have been chronically ill, both physically and mentally, since the day I was born, but was fortunate enough to have a mother who, though often unwell herself, regularly put my needs ahead of her own. Although my father was emotionally vacant to me and emotionally abusive to my mother, my Mom always made sure that I was well cared for and loved- even at great expense to herself. Because I was often too ill to go to school, I had few friends and spent many days at home in Mom’s care. She never complained. She was, and still is, my best friend. Because of my illnesses, I was unable to get a driver’s license of my own so she drove me literally everywhere I needed to go until she became too disabled to drive herself. She always looked after her family’s needs to the exclusion of her own. When her body inevitably began to give out and her physical condition began to decline, my narcissistic father abandoned her- just before their 40th wedding anniversary. So, for the last 11 years it’s been just Mom and I, and now she is wheelchair bound and rarely leaves the house as she is in chronic, debilitating pain. In addition to fibromyalgia and diabetes, Mom has degenerating discs, a disintegrating hip and shoulder joint, a honey-combed femur bone, and failing knees, so she desperately needs a walk-in bathtub for bathing and therapy. She also has developed a hernia because she needs an adjustable bed to sit up and tore a stomach muscle. This month she was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and now can barely use her hands for anything- so caring for her needs has become a huge challenge for me as my own health condition continues to decline. But I can’t imagine putting such a loyal, unselfish, lovely human being as my mother in the dubious care of strangers in some facility as long as it is in my power at all to care for her needs myself. I won’t throw her away- she’s worth too much. But I need help, and so I’m asking. I would buy these things for her myself in a heartbeat but I have already had to put myself into debt just to care for our daily needs and special care items for her. I have asked Medicaid/ Medicare for help with these two items but they won’t pay. $10,000 for a tub and adjustable bed would increase the quality of my mother’s life so much and help keep us together. If you would like to help us with that it would be so incredibly appreciated. Thank you.

PayPal.Me/returningthefavor

Last Updated: June 11, 2019

Desperately waiting for help

Hello,

So..I don’t know where to start. It’s really hard to ask for help from strangers, but at the time I don’t know anymore what to do.

I’m a student in media field and an artist. I will get my degree on December 2019, or that’s what i have planned – my situation now isn’t good.

Two years ago after struggling with severe depression and traumas from being bullied and being a child of an alcoholic, I was really close to get my life back together. I got an apartment, part-time job and I got into my dream school. I was really happy to start living my life. Then one day, I was about to go to work and I got a massive panic attack. Never had experienced that before. It lasted over 1 hour, and i needed an ambulance. After that first panic attack the feeling of panic lasted. I didn’t go away, I couldn’t leave my apartment, I was too afraid to even fall asleep.

Well, when you are a student and have a job, problem with leaving your home is a real problem. I got an appointment to the doctor – had to wait for 4 weeks for that. So I ended with loosing my job and my being a student. That means I didn’t have an income.

Going back to current time, I have overcome the panic disorder – It haunts me everyday but I can live with that. The issue is that years ago, when this started I couldn’t pay my bills – now, i’m in a huge knot, I can’t pay my living. I can’t pay my rent, electricity – anything. Today my phone stopped working, cause of the problems with paying phone bills. I’m trying to get a job – any job, but know one can get in touch with me, they can’t call me.

So what I’m asking for is help, it doesn’t matter how much you can help me, any financial help is needed. All i hope, is to get my degree, keep my apartment, get a job and help others who are in this situation.

I am really thankful for you to read this desperate letter, If you can help me, thank you.

paypal.me/amawk

Last Updated: June 9, 2019

Help my father, a Vietnam-warchild, find his peace

Dear readers,

My name is Van and despite I always have been a person with a closed personality, I decided to open up my mind and try reaching out to seek help and tell about my story.

Before I was born:
My parents fled from Vietnam due to the effects which the Vietnam war brought to them.

About my mom:
It was just a regular day when my mom was walking with my half-sister in her arms when persons from the neighborhood pulled her onto a boat. It was no abduction, but of being afraid my mother saw them and not letting her be able alarming the neighborhood since they all tried to fled Vietnam that day with a small boat.

So my mother was sort of abducted in her opinion because my half-brother and other half-sister was still home in Vietnam at my grandmothers place having no idea about their mom and sister transformed into boat refugees in one single moment.

Mom told me sometimes it was a miracle they survived the boat flight, she did not care about where they would have ended, as long she could see again her son and daughter(my half brother and sister) who were still in Vietnam.

About my (grand)father:
My grandfather was a Vietnamese soldier who fought together with Americans against the North Vietnamese Army. He got shot in the back and died in front of my fathers eyes. My father, a war-child living half his life through the Vietnam War, survived that day and my grandmother borrowed money from the neighborhood letting my father, her only child, fled Vietnam in order to live a peaceful life.

Then I was born in 1988:
My parents met each other in The Netherlands. My dad helped her reuniting with my half-brother and sister in The Netherlands. I heard we were a happy family back then, till family on the other side of the world expected help from my parents, they asked more then my parents could afford, yet my parents always helped them. They did everything they could so our family in Vietnam could create a living for themself. In the end they got backstabbed by their own family and in 1999 my parents even divorced each other. My father ended to be lonely and we as half-siblings were living with my mom. I missed my dad, as my half-siblings could not know how much since he was not their real father. My father told me it would be better for me not seeing him anymore and forced me to live with my mom, so I did.

Reunited with my father after 18 years:
In 2017 I finally found my way to his home and when he opened the door, I saw a man being happy for seeing me again but sad at the same time.

What happened after he divorced my mom and lost the family is that he felt into depression and also had to carry for my grandmother in Vietnam who was diagnosed with bone cancer.

He sent money to a woman who claimed taking care of my grandmother, he always funded the living of my grandmother since he was her only son but living on the other side of the world. He worked hard just to be able to take care for my grandmother. Finally he found out that not all money he did sent to Vietnam was used for the care of my grandmother, but for self-enrichment by that woman who claimed taking care of my grandmother. Then I asked about my grandmother how she is doing, he answered that she passed away in the end of 2016. My father now is 62 years old and he mentally seems to be broken and stuck in a depression, he still need to work 5 years till he can retire but he will have nothing left when his retirements starts. He worked his whole life in metal-industry just to take care of his mother, who first helped him fleeing from the Vietnam war, that was his only life goal.

My Request:
I asked my father what he desires now grandmother is no more. He is a lonely man with no more goals left in life. He is even not thinking about taking care of his own life and future. I asked him whether he would like to live a life in Vietnam till his death? He answered positively but knew he can´t afford this wish since he saved nothing and spend everything he had for the caring of my grandmother. Even the house of my grandmother in Vietnam has been sold by the woman who claimed taking care of my grandmother. And we as foreigners can´t do anything about it.

I beg everyone who read this to reach out and help my father to be able returning to Vietnam, where now is peace, no more war. Half his life he first struggled in the Vietnam war and other half he spend on caring for my grandmother. Any help and donation will be used for his ticket and humble living in Vietnam. I wish he will be able living near my grandparents spirits and have a chance experiencing a peaceful Vietnam. And may he find his peace and rest where he was born knowing that he is not alone anymore.

I created a paypal-link for my father, your donation and help in any range is appreciated, and may you be blessed and live a life full of peace and joy.

paypal.me/dadyouarenotalone

Regards,

Attached picture: Our daughter in the arms of my father

Last Updated: June 5, 2019

Start living again – not only existent

Hello and thank you for giving me your free time to read this.

I hope you all doing well guys.

My name is George i am 28 years old and i come from Cyprus a small european island. My story until my 23 years was good enough , my parents had their jobs , i could afford anything that i wanted , i studied in Athens for 3 years and i came back to Cyprus by the age of 23. I start working in my family business and everything was cool that time because i had clear mind and i did a lot of good work, i made good money and i started a new chapter company selling wooden items , i rent a new small shop and start working 12-13 hours a day everyday including Sundays. My goal was to work hard, stop going out to clubs bars and parties and slowly slowly make a fortune . I had a plan in my mind and i still have it . By the age of 33 i wanted to have at least a million euros savings and start working for real estate business. I never ask for a help anyone during all those years , even when my family business start to lose money year by year after the economical crisis. My new company was the biggest lost and i am so sorry for this until now… i started something cool but when i had to stock , pay the rent or the electricity i was giving the winnings of the company and couldn’t afford new stock. i am only 28 years old but i deeply know that a normal 9-5 job won’t make you a millionaire, i chose the hard road (be my own boss).

If you have bills to pay but no work you have to do something , so i started working as an employer and they was paying me around 700 euros per month for my 8 hours per day work. this is something that i clearly wouldn’t do if i had at least 650-700 euros per month from my own (company).

I had depression and i still have (i am better now tho) cause i found a girlfriend two years ago and now i am waiting for my 1st baby boy , he will be born on November.

I could write more and more about my life , but it will be useless.

All i am asking for is 50.000 euros at least , to rebuilt my life again and start working again for ME and not for anyone else. I want someone with a lot of money but with poor past to understand me and help me with this. I believe in my self , i believe in my powers and i believe that we do not need anyone to help us if we want to work for ourselves and not being employed by sharks that fool us and steal our gift from God, our TIME .

Thank you guys , god bless you all !!!

PayPal is : https://www.paypal.me/GeorgeFylaktou

Last Updated: June 3, 2019

18-year-old boy trying to move forward

Hello! I am a boy of 18 years currently living in Latin America. I am here to ask for help to start an investment business which would give me the opportunity to help at home because in Venezuela it is a bit difficult to move forward when you can barely eat. I wish I could pay for my studies; learn programming, photography, music and learn a third language, have a future and a normal life. I have the knowledge and the ideas, but I do not have the money. The idea of the business that I have starts with $ 5,000 and it is all that I will need for myself to multiply that money in investments. Such as learning to program to work online, invest in PTC page to help it grow. I’m not asking for money to fix my life, I’m asking for money to give me the base, the first step to start my life. All help is not much will be very well received. I would appreciate it a lot.

I can not thank you enough.

paypal.me/sykodoom

Last Updated: May 31, 2019

I wish to be with the love of my life

(this is my second time doing this, I forgot to add my paypal link on the other one)

I’ve had a hard life. Things from depression, nervous breakdowns, suicidal thoughts. I never had a close relationship ever in my life. I have no family, no friends. Toxic relationships with adults in my life, emotional abuse from loved ones. Always spent my life alone and loneliness had always been second nature to me.

I was beginning to fade, beginning to give up, beginning to end it all until I found someone amazing and I fell in love. He is the love of my life. The light in my darkest of days. He is my soulmate. The person I want to spend the rest of my life with. He is my angel. My biggest supporter, the one who always makes me laugh and smile. My biggest wish is to be with him. To spend my last days with him. To grow old with him and never leave his side. He makes me so happy, he is my happy place. He’s the only good thing to ever happen to me.

This reason I’m on this site is because we have financial difficulties in the way of being together. I live in the US and he lives in Europe. I want to get enough funds to cover getting a passport and airplane ticket expenses. That’s my only wish in life, to be with him. All of my hopes, dreams, and wishes never came true in the past and the only wish I want to come true is to be with the love of my life. i just want to start a new life with him, erase all of my pain from the past, forget all the bad things and people in my life, move far away and just start over. I don’t think its never too late to start over and live the life that you want to live.

So random but one of my favorite songs is Fast car from Tracy Chapman. One of my favorite song lyrics is “We got to make a decision; leave tonight or live and die this way” and i don’t want to live and die this way, I want to make a decision to leave my painful past and be with my love.

I will forever appreciate anyone who donates to my paypal. I will be forever be grateful to you. It will mean more than you will ever know. I will personally thank you with an email as well. My email is dorea63@gmail.com. I know its crazy that i’m begging people online and its also pathetic and embarrassing but i’m so desperate to be with him and start a new life. I’m tired of living this way. I want a new beginning. Not the same old ending.

Also, I have cashapp too $rosegirl63

PayPal.Me/rosegirl63

Last Updated: May 31, 2019

A girl trying to save her family

Hi, let me start off my saying thank you for taking the time to read about me and how I would so kindly like your help.

I have been looking after my disabled partner for the past 5 years Day In day out helping him with his pains and aches, back in 2017, once I had my partners illness in remission I thought I would be able to return to work just on a 2 night a week basis leaving my son with my partner who could cope with his disease in remission. I started work everything was going fine I was working as a care assistant as I have done since I was 18 (now 24 with breaks for caring Inbetween) as a result of me working 22 hours a week we had our benifits cut which we was expecting due to the extra money from work but to have them stopped all together was something I did not think they could do, with a child of the age on 2 years we was living off my £500 a month wage & my child’s £20 a week. Hence to say we/I got in a lot of debt just to survive and pay bills.

some people have family to help them I just had family to take the mick out off me and get me in more debt. Getting my friend to be a guarantor to help my mum would be the worse decision of my life. 3 years later I now have a ccj of 6500 and my mother denying she owes me.

I stuggled living off loans for the next year my partner at this stage could still not go to work as he is still in constant pain and was deteriorating at this point. Once the benifits was resolved my partner was back out of remission due to stress. Which lead me to quitting work my son missing a lot of nursery and our general lives falling down around us. And we have been living on the edge of life since. I’ve felt so useless as I’m the one that is responsible for these humans welfare and I can’t provide basic care for them.

They said to ask for an amount but to add all my debts up and face them is a scary thing to face on my own

we are currently struggling with no food in the house due to debts coming out of the benifits and no food in the cupboards

any donations to help me get food in the cupboards or clear the debts is greatly greatly appreciated.

Thanks for taking time out to read this again.

PayPal.me/bannon95

Last Updated: May 29, 2019

Ambitious Woman Requesting Your Assistance

Good day

I am an accounting clerk who works 9 1/2 hours per day, six days out of a week and gets a salary of 595.47 USD per month. It’s not in my nature to complain about circumstances but when the burden is to much to bare it just is! I’m a very diligent worker and I hate the fact that it goes unnoticed while the workers who sit and do nothing most of the day gets to take home a fat cheque because they have better qualifications. If you are reading then you maybe saying to your self why I haven’t taken the step to being more qualified. Truth is I have had opportunities to be in a better position yes but something has always been holding me back and it was recently confirmed by a Psychiatrist I visited. I was diagnosed with Severe Social Anxiety Disorder and if you have any idea what it is then you may know how it affects a person’s daily life. At times I feel like committing suicide but when I think of my family and my 4 year old son it changes my mind but the feeling still lingers.

I really don’t want this to be the reason for not being successful for the rest of life. I know I have a brilliant mind and my biggest dream is to have a business of my own. I’ve actually made a start in which I borrowed some money from the bank to build a property hoping I could gain additional income through renting but unfortunately the amount that I could get based on my salary was not enough to complete it. So instead I’m deep in debt that I am praying to get out off. Between me and my spouse we are approximately USD $45,000.00 in debt. Therefore, I’m putting all my pride aside and I am seeking your assistance in making my dreams become a reality. I know you are kind-hearted person and so am I and just like you I want to be able to give back to the less fortunate. All I need is a push from where I have already started.

I pray and hope you will see this message and offer your help.

My contact is paypal.me/ambitiousone434

Last Updated: May 29, 2019

To help my Mom

When I started my college life, I thought I was set, and this was the perfect school. When I continued my education, I saw that this was starting to lose what I wanted in life. What I wanted to do. Time change, I change to a point where I go into darkness. My parents divorced and I had to comfort my mom. Learning that my dad decides to go with a more unstable woman is what I will never get in my life. But my mom who tried her hardest got hurt the most out of it. She loved my dad for 20+ years and she still loves him now since he is my dad. But his GF is what I am scared for. She does things I don’t like, and she was the one who broke not only my family but hers as well. She has two kids one is mentally impaired while the other is spoiled to shit. There was a time where I thought I knew my dad, but it turns out I didn’t know him at all. I lost my trust and it is still taking me time to trust him again all these years later. But the one thing I do appreciate is my mom she has been there for me when I was in the dark. If she wasn’t there I wouldn’t be here. I want to give her something for helping me out when I was in a dark place. Where I thought the only way out was to end it all and go onto the next life. Life can be hard, but I want my mom to have something nice in this life. I do want to take her on a nice trip to Hawaii or get her something nice like a new desk, better tools for her woodworking. Something to tell her that she means the world to me. I want to thank her for getting me out of that dark place to continue my life and struggle more. She means a lot to me and I want to treat her better than I can with what I am doing. She is the best mother any man could have I want to give her something. Anything helps and would be appreciated. If she didn’t talk to me about my mindset I would not be here. I really want to give her something for helping me.

https://www.paypal.me/c0o1ey

Last Updated: May 28, 2019

Aurelijus and his family second chance in life

Our Story:

In 2016 we came in United Kingdom expecting for better life and brighter future. We decided to leave our country because of the economical situation at that time, also leaving a debt we couldn’t afford to pay off. We expected that once we will start to work and live in United Kingdom than we could pay off all the debs we left and will start a better life.

Everything started much harder than we expected. For the first month we couldn’t get any job at all. We were struggling with the money we had we us counting every pence.

Finally when we got the jobs we were working as many hours and as many days, as it was possible to have to pay for rent, food and traveling expenses to work. We tried to save money, we didn’t bought anything, were sleeping on the mattress.

Then we both got slightly better jobs, but we had to travel quite far so we were forced to buy a car to earn more. I remember we bought first car for £400, for all money we managed to save till then.

In first one and a half month we were happy working hard, but earning slightly more than before, when one night I had an accident at work. The injury was to my hand. When surgeons made a surgery I couldn’t move my fingers at all for three months. Only after three months I slightly started to move them with physiotherapist help.

I could only start to work again after six months since I had an injury and with restrictions. I couldn’t work a lot due to my hand, and my wife was earning the most money to our family. The hard times started again, we were struggling with money, some of the weeks we couldn’t pay for rent.

Due to injury, I had, it was really hard to get any job after my hand became stronger. Took me about ten months to start to work without any restrictions.

I remember, how I was feeling good again when I got a job. I worked twelve hours shifts, days, nights, weekends – as much as it was possible.

Still was really hard because we had to pay back for rent, car has broken, had to replace and etc. First clothes we bought after we spent two years in United Kingdom and it was only because the old was badly worn.

Last year in November my wife told me that she is pregnant and we will be parents. I felt like happiest man in the world, I was full with endless happiness and emotions. I thought: no matter that there isn’t easy to live but our little one will change that all, that our life becomes brighter.

Everything seemed to be going to a better side, when suddenly after night shift I fainted at home. My wife called to emergency services and ambulance took me to hospital. The doctors made tests, exanimate me, said that I had “Vasovagal syncope” and let me home. Doctors advised me to slow down, reduce working hours and stress.

So now we are again, trying to live counting every pence, trying to save, but nothing remains after we have pay for everything.

All that hard life we had so far seemed to be not that bad until one evening my wife mentioned to me that she want to go back home. Home – back to our country. At that moment I felt like I had heart broken. I started to cry, I couldn’t explain to my wife why, just one thought was in my head that we can’t afford.

We will have our little one shortly, we will be parents and it is the best thing in our life that could happen.

We are hoping that our baby will be a new life, new beginning for us. Maybe we will get a second chance to start our life together again.

We really want to go back to our country to start everything from the beginning, but to do so we need to clear out our debt.

Any help would be absolutely incredible to we can finally start our new life.

Paypal.me/APiluckis

Last Updated: May 27, 2019

Still paying off big loan caused by debt caused by mental illness

Hi kind strangers,

I’m a 21, soon-to-be 22, year old from Germany. Ever since I started making a little bit of my own money through an apprenticeship in 2015 I’ve had extreme difficulty managing my money. I have never before thought about asking for help from strangers because I know it’s my own fault that I got into this money mess.

Ever since I was a kid (around 8 y.o.) I’ve had issues with my mental health. Back then it was severe, crippling (but during that time undiagnosed) anxiety and depression which even then caused me to miss a lot of school.

I barely managed to get through school and in my late teens I started my apprenticeship. After a while of working full-time, I suddenly started getting worse again. My depression got way worse and at the end of 2016 I couldn’t take it anymore and had to go on sick-leave (even though I really like my job, I just really can not work full-time). At first I wanted to just rest for a few weeks but weeks turned into months and my health was just terrible.

During this time, my depression was so severe that I started slipping money-wise. I thought “shouldn’t my health be more important than my money?” and spent money that I didn’t have for things that brought me very short-lived, temporary happiness. When an items happiness subsided I already wanted to buy something new. I call it depression-induced shopping addiction. I also had almost no friends to help me or to cheer me up.

When this started, I only made very little money because I only got a bit of money from my health insurance company. Fortunately I only had to pay my parents a little bit of money for still living with them.

Slowly things got better. Shortly after though, in late 2017, I had another fall back. This was worse than anything I’ve ever experienced.

I had to go to a mental health clinic for almost three months after which I realized many difficult things about me and my past which made me go into a deeper depression for a while. I was also dealing with some love sickness. I have never come so close to killing myself than last year in spring. I even wrote a note.

After all, I did give life another chance. Since then things have been looking up. Even though I had to take on a loan, I’m now making an income and am at work steadily. However, I can only work part-time which is not helping my situation at all. Adding to this: for the sake of my mental health I had to start living in my own place. This cost me a lot of money as well.

After living in my own place for 6 weeks, I discovered I got scammed. The apartment was a mold hazard and I had been breathing in the extreme mold behind my bed for weeks. I had to move out again quick but had to still pay rent monthly. It was seriously a horrible experience.

Luckily, I found a new place and am now living in a new apartment which brought it’s own costs.

However the loan is still a big burden on me and I have around -200€ debt in my account right now. It drives me absolutely crazy. I’ve been looking for ways to make more money everywhere. I wish I could work harder but I know that if I work too much, I will sink into depression again and lose the balance that I have found in life right now.

I have to monthly pay 80€ for another 2-3 years. My loan is 4000€ and I still struggle so much monthly. Any help would be so very much appreciated and lift some of my worries!

To anyone even considering helping me: I want to say thank you.

https://www.paypal.me/ErnstMichelle

Last Updated: May 23, 2019

Looking to Set Down Roots

I have a very long and complicated tale about how screwed up my life has been over the last five decades. Things like alcoholic, drug addicted parents. Foster care, adoption, sexual and psychological abuse along the way. An absolute ton of expensive, ongoing therapy.
These things led to my own struggles with drugs and drinking and horrible relationships, and jails and institutions and yes, almost death by overdose and suicide on more than one occasion. It is not a unique tale by any means, but it is mine, and I am proud to say that I have been clean and sober since January of 2006. I went to college, followed my dreams, mended all the burned bridges I could remember and have been fairly happy. I do stay moderately medicated with anti-depressants to help deal with a major depressive disorder, and PTSD, but I am grateful for that as well. My life has been fairly uncomplicated for awhile.

About a year ago, I lost birth mother to suicide and I am still feeling and dealing with all of the feelings and repercussions of that. I began to look into her life, and then to look into the history of my birth father. She had told me he had killed himself when I was very young, which turned out to be true. A lot of the things she told me about the family were not so true.
I paid for DNA, I paid for all of my dad’s birth records and military records and made contact with all of my family in Ireland, which is where he was born. Another true fact from my birth mother.
My heritage and my family legacy and all of the things that have come with it have been the way that I have dealt with my grief and my sorrow. Applying for and receiving Irish citizenship has been the fuel that has kept me going for the last year. I am waiting in my Irish passport to get here and am contemplating a move to my father’s town, Drogheda, in County, Louth Ireland. I am a team leader at a small non profit mental health center where I live at and do not make much money at all. I have been living paycheck to paycheck for a long time, but the work I do with people, and children living in all of the same situations I did as a kid, keeps me going and satisfies my soul.
I am here to solicit some help raising some funds to get to Ireland and to live and work in the places where my father and his family did. I’m not sure what will happen, but I can tell you that given the chance, I would do the exact same thing for someone else.

paypal.me/misterwelch

Last Updated: May 21, 2019

Looking for help to make my child’s life a little easier

My name is Jessica and I have a beautiful 7 year old daughter that we call KK. In 2014 our lives changed when I found out I would need multiple surgeries to remove my entire large intestine. I have ulcerative colitis. I was diagnosed with it when I was pregnant with KK. I was sick in a flare, and no matter what treatments I was given, my body became progressively worse. I was at a point where I was incontinent and had to wear Depends because I had bowel accidents daily. Life revolved around my illness. I spent my daughter’s 2nd Birthday in the hospital. I came home long enough to celebrate, and ended up right back in the hospital. By my third trip, we discovered that the meds I was being given had caused me to get pancreatitis. I was frustrated, and felt hopeless that I would ever get better. I had 4 surgeries that year, one that was an emergency to repair perforated intestine. My last surgery was on 12/31, as I needed to get the surgery in before the year was over, to avoid additional costs. My hospital bills are well over $100k. I lost my house because I couldn’t keep up with the mortgage. We moved in with my mom temporarily until I could finally get an apartment for us to live in. But my daughter has certainly suffered. She has lost out on things normal kids her age get to experience because “mommy can’t afford it”. I’m just looking for a little relief. A bit if breathing room, where maybe i can give her something she’s never had. I’d love to take to an amusement park. Maybe get her to a beach for a few days. Can you help me make her dreams come true?

Paypal.me/jmg102879

Last Updated: May 18, 2019

Please help me live my dream and conserve elephants in Africa!

I am emailing to ask the biggest favour I have ever asked of anyone. My name is Rebecca Saunders (Bex) and I live in the Forest of Dean in England. All of my life I have wanted to work with people and animals in Africa. I have been given an opportunity to move to Malawi to work on a reserve. My role would be to help with research to conserve the environment, helping to protect the elephants on the reserve and working with local communities to minimise human/elephant conflicts. I have a degree in animal science and a Masters of Research in Anthrozoology (human-Animal interactions). Using this could help with the data analysis of the research they already have and with setting up other research projects to help conserve the environment, elephants and to help the local communities by minimizing negative effects and helping to involve them where possible with their local wildlife.

I have spent 6 months over the last year and a half in South Africa, learning how the running of a reserve works, important research methods for the environment and learning anti poaching techniques. I have learnt that to help with the conservation of African animals and to work with people is my absolute dream. To get the experience in South Africa I had to take out a loan. The only reason I am being offered this job in Malawi is because I volunteered in South Africa and was recommended by that reserve. Unfortunately the only reason I cannot currently take the Malawi job is because I have this loan. I have worked throughout my education and still am. This job is a once in a lifetime opportunity for all of my dreams to come true. If this would come up again then I would continue working in England and pay off my loan and then take the opportunity when I could afford to. But this is really a now or never opportunity for me to live the life of my dreams.

The job would be unpaid for the first 6 months as a trial period and then after this would be paid at a local rate. So I would never earn much money from it (enough to pay a loan off at the same time) but I am happy to live a simple life in a mud hut in Malawi if I am doing what I love. What I am asking is for you to to help me pay my loan and cover the amount I would need to make this a possibility for me; so that I can take this opportunity. This would be a total of £10,000. If you can help me with it all of it that would be amazing but if you could even do some this would help so much. If this opportunity were to not work out, or if I was ever in the position to pay this back I would. All I want is a chance to conserve animals, to help the planet and others and to live my dream.

Why should you give me this opportunity? Why do I deserve it over someone else? I don’t know. But I have worked so hard to be given this chance. And I want it to help the environment, animals and for local communities. If I didn’t exhaust every avenue I could to take this chance I would never forgive myself. I really hope you will read this and give me this chance.

Thank you so much for your time.

Last Updated: May 16, 2019

For my Wife and Kids!

I know this is a long shot but I believe that the greatest gift that anyone can have is hope….and that’s what this is providing me.

I’m a 39 year old father of 2 boys, 15 and 11 and have the most wonderful wife in the world. In 2017, we ran into some major health issues and it has absolutely drained us financially. I don’t want to go into details because I’m not looking for sympathy but through this ordeal, my selfless wife has only cared about how the boys and I are holding up and it has come to the point where we have had to do without the essentials for her to get the care she needs.

Before it’s too late, I want to be able to surprise her and fulfill her dream and take her to California to the Warner Brothers Studio and sit on the “Friends” couch. I know that sounds silly but that is her dream and I’m hoping that someone out there can help me accomplish this because nobody deserves this more than my wife. I work full time at a major theme park in Orlando but because of the unexpected expenses, we aren’t even able to make ends meet, let alone afford anything extra such as this.

I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this and if you knew my wife, you would know that NOBODY deserves to have an experience like this more than she does!

I’m hopeful that someone out there will appreciate my honesty and lack of going into a full sympathy story because believe me, it’s a heartbreaker, but at the end of the day, I’m not asking for financial assistance….I’m asking for someone to help put a smile on the face of the most deserving and greatest person I have ever met. (Through financial assistance!)

Thank you again for taking the time to read this and here’s to blind generosity and caring of a fellow human and to the greatest mother and wife out there! (And biggest Friends fan!)

PayPal.Me/jawnmallon

Last Updated: May 16, 2019

We Just Need to Catch Up

It was mid October 2018 when we had to rush our sweet furbaby Panther to the emergency vet. They preformed blood work, admitted her overnight, and administered medicine and fluids, for the next 18 hours. Panther’s blood results were off the charts and it was determined that she was having kidney failure. We had taken Panther in as a stray, fed her boiled chicken daily, had her fixed and loved her every day of her life with us. It was to our dismay that even with the vet’s help she showed no improvement and seemed worse than before. We made the hard choice of having our 5 pound , loving, sweet, Panther put to sleep. Today we face the struggle of catching up on the bills we fell behind on due to the emergency vet bill. The bill was $978. This put us behind on rent, and every other bill we had, which resulted in late fees piling up. We had just moved into our current apartment and had not even finished paying the security deposit of $650 when this happened. My Fiance and I both work full time. I also work a second and third job, waiting tables and pet sitting. It feels like we are doing all we can and not making a dent in any of the bills we got behind on, because of the late fees and overdraft charges. If someone can please just help us get caught up we would be extremely grateful. We currently are behind by $198 on our car payment, $315 behind on the electric bill, and are still behind by $650 on rent. In addition to that we have medical bills of our own that amount to $806 as well as credit cards that are $155 (total without late fees each month). We are not asking for a lot, we just need help getting back on our feet. We’ve cut costs everywhere we possibly can, we use prepaid phones, food banks, we have no internet or cable, we never go out to eat or drink, we don’t smoke, and we don’t do drugs. I’ve also deferred my college loans, but that will not last forever. all we ever do is work and it isn’t enough. I am only 25 and my Fiance is 30. Bless you for reading our plea for help, and thank you for everything. Literally any amount helps.

https://www.paypal.me/dillardkm

Last Updated: May 12, 2019

I’d appreciate any assistant becoming self-sufficient again. $500 or more would be a great help.

I’ve been having a troublesome time becoming self-sufficient again. For some years, it seems as if everything I attempt fails. I once leased my own apartment. I owned my own vehicle. I saved up and paid it in full. I was working as a laborer for a contractor after I left college. The company began failing, and there would be months of no work as bills piled. I left and began to work at a local retail store in a mall an a small business retail store. I wasn’t receiving many hours at the mall, and the retail store was such a small business in a non-populous town the traffic wasn’t abundant (I wasn’t aware of that in the beginning.). I was making more at the small business part time than the mall, so I decided to go full time and leave the mall. What I didn’t foresee was the little store would lose costumers soon and the owner would fall ill. So, of course rent became due so did utilities and soon enough I became in debt. I scrapped what I could together to offer what I could and ask for extensions. I reached out to a temp work service and began warehouse work. I nevertheless had debt and back pay; my vehicle started to show problems, problems I didn’t have the money to spend on (though part of that comes from my being young an inexperienced with car maintenance). One day I went signing in at the warehouse, and my name wasn’t on record. I wasn’t informed prior. They completely dispose of you from roster when they let you go. All of these events happened in one year. I should add I was at these jobs for months not a year. I was out of work for some months after the warehouse soon to be evicted in a somber, depression. My relationship was falling apart and I was being cheated on which added to the gloom. But an old friend came back to town and offered me a place to stay at his parents old home for free and work. I moved in not a week after the eviction. Things started to improve. I was working with my friend as a driver making tips, nothing extravagant but it was inflating my negative bank account and I was helping other people out who needed a little cash when I could. Months had passed, and my friend began tiring of our job and the way our boss conducted business, he began to look for other work and stop showing up. One day after my shift I returned home and our boss called me yelling. She was asking about my friends attendance, as he sat in front of me I relayed messages between them. What happened next puzzles me to this day. She terminated us both as if we were a bundle. Soon after his parents said he could remain living there, but he’d have to pay on bills and many these bills were bills they’ve paid that they said he owed. In addition to ones that were upcoming so my spending became paying on that with him. We both went to work at Amazon for awhile. But the commute from our rural town to the closest Amazon warehouse was wearing on both our sleep schedules and we had to just let it go. I chose to work at a closer warehouse for another company through a temp service, and he had military jobs to fall back on. The money I was trying to save up became impossible since I had debts from college, my old apartment, old utilities unpaid, car insurances, phone bills and credit cards. I couldn’t keep up with how fickle my job career was becoming. I have no lavish interest an I’m known for being a miser, so I don’t spend what I don’t need. My car began having transmission issues and needed new tires. This was money I didn’t have. I was working in “in the whole,” as they say.). I had to leave the warehouse the first week. My car tire would go flat as it sat outside.I’d have to ride flat to the nearest gas station to input air which was wearing on my car. I don’t have A close family or wealthy to ask for much help. Everyone has their own problems as they say.But my brother helped me get a used tire. To make this short eventually I became an electrician apprentice through word of mouth. I was there for some months and it allowed me to pay on the house (And get another tire that also went flat on me quickly and transmission slipped became worse.) the commute was rather far but the hours were manageable.I lost that job also. During a drive on the highway, on my way to work, the exhaust running under my vehicle split in two. I had to pull over as it dragged hitting ever dip and bump. In my area, to work you’d need a vehicle. If you do not, you require some income to pay some form of transportation or someone for transportation. This left me out of work for months.Most of my checks were going on the house and back pay. I didn’t possess the funds to repair a car. I began developing a mental illness that also made work impossible for about a year. I’ve couched surfed for quite some time now, doing trade jobs utilizing the skills I have to build my own employment. It makes it difficult not having income to keep these short-lived jobs fruitful of course it takes money to make money. I learned stocks and made a try at day trading with dollar stocks. I stupidly had sold my shares before a company went from $3 a share to $24, but I digress. If anyone could assist me in obtaining some form of transportation (moped, etc.) that would be great. I would like having $500 an invest in getting a job an ultimately involve my skills applying that into more income. But to work for myself or another starting from the point I am starting from is getting rougher and rougher. I would genuinely appreciate a nice boost of help. With all I’ve learned through my mistakes, I don’t entertain doubts I can turn a couple hundred or so into more. I could stop sleeping on couches. I no longer have my car to sleep I junked it for some money.

PayPal link : PayPal.Me/chrristoph

Last Updated: May 12, 2019

To help people through yoga and meditation

Hi everyone!

I’m 22 years young girl whose dream is to help people through something I love – YOGA. Since yoga was the thing that saved my life I truly believe that people will come to heal there. Since I live in Estonia, the country where mental health is slowly growing its importance but hasn’t yet reached the suitable level, I’d like to be a part of it’s growing and help people find themselves through yoga and meditation. Sadly I have really few options here to learn since even yoga started growing in Estonia just 10 years ago. Yet I managed to find a perfect course for me, taught by 2 wonderful women who have had the chance to learn under masters in Infra Yoga Studio.

I would get the chance to study meditation, yoga philosophy, yoga history, body’s anatomy, officially all the poses and anatomy in the poses, how to build up a yoga class and to teach different people. I’d get the chance to learn all about breathing, energy and it’s anatomy, about mantras and mudras, plus yoga for pregnant women and besides I would get real practice. I’d have to pass exams and then I’d get my name up on the Yoga Alliance plus I would get the worldwide certificate to do yoga classes.

This would be the first official step on my yoga-journey, but I’m in real need of help since the course costs 2500 €. I had saved a little on the side and I was able to pay the first payment. The salary I get working in a photography shop is not enough to pay it before it starts and I thought I’d ask for help first, before going to banks and getting a loan for years and not being able to do anything else with my life. I will do my best to collect as much as I can by myself, but it’s not physically possible for me to do it alone. Yet it is my dream and I decided I will find a way and I will do it.

the 2000€ I have to have by the end of September 2019.

The price includes all the materials I have to go through, the certificate, 200h course, 35h classes of different yoga styles, teaching and learning by others, 25 hours of taking the teachers classes they offer in their yoga studio. Everything to become the first step 200h yoga teacher.

Please help my dream to come true! I would be so thankful and it would actually help me save me and then later others.

Here is the Facebook event for the course

It’s my fresh Instagram, but you can find some of my yoga posts I have made public.

Last Updated: May 9, 2019

I’m asking for help to pay my rent while I recover from heart surgery

My greatest wish is to spend my last few years I have left in my little apartment spending time with my grandchildren.

life has many struggles I spent most of my life raising my children and taking care of my sick mother we struggles with those but we managed okay I was always grateful and thankful for what we had and for my loving family, even when times were toughwe loved each other and we may do and we were happy.

but when my mom passed away of kidney failure in 2016 we lost our house or 25 years now I find myself alone and in a desperate situation I eventually found an affordable apartment I’ve been here for almost 3 years unfortunately my health has deteriorated immensely I need a third heart surgery my lungs are in really bad shape I need to use oxygen most of the time I also need three to four breathing treatments a day needless to say I’m overwhelmed and very afraid of my future. I am no longer able to go out and earn money for food toiletries and household items my disability check pays for my rent but nothing is left over I am no longer able to go around to the food pantries now that I’m usually attached to my machines, I’ve reached out to many government programs with no avail I can’t seem to qualify for anything unless I’m homeless which is what I fear will eventually happen to me. I can’t afford a lot of the medication I need I’m so overwhelmed and scared and I don’t know where to turn in anymore I’ve started to lose all hope I was very embarrassed and ashamed to put my story out there and ask for help it’s not something I’m proud of but my friend who told me about this program assured me that people who donate to these causes want to help people like me going through hard time so I agreed to write about my situation. I was hoping to raise $4,000 to pay for months rent I would be able to make that money loves me over a year and I would have benchley be able to start making and selling crafts again after I recover from my heart surgery.

My rent is due today and I’m afraid to pay it because I won’t have money for food or medication yet I don’t want to be late with my rent in fear of being evicted.

to be able to stay in my apartment for a few more years would mean the world to me I’d be able to spend time with my grandchildren without any help I really don’t know what will happen with my life and where I will go I wish I was able to get some help through the state but that hasn’t worked out for me. any help would be greatly appreciated even any information on resources in Orange county California feel free to email me with any information you think might help.

I’d like to think anyone in advance who thinks my cuz might be worth donating to I will forever be grateful I know this might be a long shot but I’m praying for a miracle.

Thank you and God bless

Sincerely Lisa Jo

http://www.paypal.me/myheartmyhome

Last Updated: May 7, 2019

Damage Control

Hello, my name is Alvin Brown. I have two children. I am a professional boxer. I don’t have the sponsorship like other fighters. My efforts are met with great criticism because of my age. I will turn 33 in August. My son encourage me all the time to not give up. He’s only 9. My daughter is 4 with heavy hands. My mother’s passing away lead me to find this path where I also found myself soul searching for the very light God placed in me since birth. I used the sport of boxing to show my family I am a man. To show my kids to fight for what they love, and my Heavenly Father how I recognize the gift and I’m very thankful for his grace. From the amateurs to the pros I been at his mercy. As of now I have achieved many goals and would like to earn my income from hard work outside the ring. I am willing to be a service to the community. I love people. I am interested in, Uber, Lyft, DoorDash, Uber eats. I’m asking for help. I have to get my drivers license renewed. I use public transportation such as the city bus and Lyft and it makes me want to be in the drivers seat. The truth is Boxing don’t happen enough for me to live off of in the city of Baton Rouge. I sacrificed so much and learned even more. I cultivated a better understanding of my true nature. And it’s not beating people up or vice versa. Will some one please help me. I will pay it forward. I can’t afford the coaching and the nutrition plans but I am willing to pass down the knowledge I gained as I move on to the next chapter of my life. God will you please bless the hearts of your children. I never committed a crime or been in trouble with the law. Thank you all for reading.

$AyePrince

Last Updated: May 5, 2019

Help me get back on my feet!

Hi everyone! I am writing to ask you for some kind help. I am in a mess economically-speaking and I think now it’s time to put my things in order.

Due to an obsessive-compulsive disorder and a depression that I have been suffering for the past 5 years, I have had problems controlling my impulses and managing my bank accounts. Forgive me if I am not too detailed, but it is something that’s fresh and I am still recovering from its consequences. As a result of these past crazy years, I have a debt with my bank and each month it gets more difficult to face my responsibilities (rent, debt, food). I am in therapy now, but this is the only thing that is keeping me from moving forward and buying my first apartment, for example. My family can’t help me and, even though it’s quite an easy option, I don’t think applying for another credit card would be a smart long-term solution.

That is why I am humbly asking for your help. As little as it may seem, every penny counts. I am afraid I can’t give you any rewards, but I can assure you that your kind donation will be put to good use: paying off my debt and starting again; this time with better mental health, hopefully. 1$ from each of you would mean a lot. Thank you so much for your help and God bless you all.

This is the PayPal link where you can send your

donations: https://paypal.me/ismalonso88

Last Updated: May 2, 2019

Beating Addiction Moving towards a Better Life

First let me introduce myself. My name is Beth. I’d like to start by saying Thank you for clicking on my link and taking the time to read about my story. Before I begin I’d like to ask that anyone that has anything negative to say please either keep it to yourself or please private message me on FB to Beth Krites. Please do not comment on this campaign because my 3 children will be reading this and well….it’s just not necessary really. Now on with the story of ME. So this is my second attempt at this GoFundMe page today lol. Why? You ask. Well for a few weeks now I have been struggling with whether it would be a good idea for me to move out of state or not and after a lot of thought & discussions with my family and friends I decided that it was indeed the right choice. You see I am a recovering drug addict and by recovering I mean about a week in. This is not the first time I’ve been sober but I hope that it is my last time getting sober. Anyway I had finally made up my mind about moving and started putting my plans into action. Well if you’ve ever planned a move to another state you know it’s not cheap and being a newly sober drug addict I don’t have much money saved up. My job doesn’t pay a whole lot but what it does pay went to keeping a roof over my head and supporting my habit. I’ve started the daunting process of selling things I have accumulated over the last year that I just see no reason in dragging across several states and I’ve been saving part of my paychecks as well but it’s just not enough. I don’t want this move to be for nothing. I want this to be the start of the life God had intended for me to live all along. I want to be able to survive until I find a job and be able to pay for my own food and the essentials on my own without adding any extra burden onto my wonderful friend that is taking me in when I get there. Let me go ahead and tell y’all real quick just how hard it is to be doing this GoFundMe right now. For me being an addict is just something I’ve always been and I had resigned myself to the fact that I was always going to be a failure. I had given up trying to be a good mother, a good daughter and a good friend a long time ago because I just assumed no one cared. No one was offering me any kind of help or way out so I just sat in my misery until one night in November the man I wanted to be with the rest of my life was killed during an attempted robbery. Now some of you may be saying “well he got what was coming to him”, or ” That lifestyle is bound to get you killed so what did you expect”? But to me he was anything but deserving of death. He was the love of my life but he was also an addict. It’s not an excuse it’s a fact. And fact is that addicts will do whatever to get well. Especially when you’re a heroin addict. Fast forward to about 4 mths after his death and I sat in my room crying again for endless hours about how my life had gone so terribly wrong so fast. Just a year earlier I was 3 yrs sober and doing great until I wasn’t. And I sat crying praying for a way out when I thought to myself “Beth, you have a way out, it’s in the bag on the table”. That night I thought about dying and how wonderful it would be to see Ralph again and how I would be free of all this shit on earth. Then it was like God was talking to me because at that moment my phone had slipped out of my hand and hit the floor and when I picked it up I had obviously hit the gallery button on my phone and a picture of my 3 perfect kids was on the screen and in that moment I knew I had to make a change. I still struggled for a few more months with heroin until about a week ago when I finally said enough is enough. I talked to my babies and they were all for me doing what I have to do to get Me back. So that’s what I’m doing. I’m on a mission to save my life. So if any of you could put your faith into a worn out junkie filled with a bucket full of hope I’d be forever grateful. You will be doing me a service that I could never find the words to express my gratitude. The only way I’ll be able to say thank you loud enough is by showing you the new Me once I’ve reached my 1 year sober mark. I will do this for Me, I will do this for my kids, I will do this for every struggling addict still suffering. And I won’t ever be afraid to ask for help again. Not asking kept me stuck in my addiction and dying for way too long. So if you’d like to donate please feel free and know it means the world to me and if all you can do is hit the share button well that shows you care enough to give someone else the opportunity to help. Either way I’m grateful for you. Thanks all for reading. Pray for me please and for all the struggling addicts that haven’t found the courage to ask for help.

Last Updated: April 27, 2019

A gift for the best mother

This is my papal so if you are giving money give it there. Thank You!!!

https://paypal.me/c0o1ey

Last Updated: April 27, 2019

Addiction(Changed)

From Ireland , at the age of 23 i came addicted to alcohol . I was completely against drugs of any type unless given by a doctor for sickness.

But in this country alcohol is seen as the normal even up to a few years ago an alcoholic was known as a person that liked his drink. Alcohol done damage to everyone around me nobody was left unaffected . As for myself i lost everything including my family . It was years of being stuck between life and death God or the Devil did not want me and i survived so many things that would have killed everyone else.

I was unable to accept being so young that i could not do the things that others could. I felling into the darkest depression and self destruction. After 3 treatments a total of 9 months i got sober 3 years. Im now 31 i have got everything back from hard work and appreciation ” Do the right things in life and the right things will happen.

Why am i looking for donations ? Im an intelligent person with an IQ 141 but i have never got any breaks in life our opportunity and im struggling . From alot of research there is a drug in America that will stop any pleasure from alcohol i want to go there and get this as a back up so my life is not lost to this horrible disease.It costs the economy the normal tax payer more then another disease and kills more then cancer.

I dont just want to make help once off i wanna start to make a real difference and with the donations set up a company in the medical equipment field. Where i will have funds to regularly give to research which i will over see and send addicts for treatment after which with time and hard work i intend to set up a privet hospital system firstly in this country.

This will provide a good life for myself and change the life of others. These are good people stuck in limbo and studies show alcoholics to have higher intelligence then non alcoholics which means that others out there may also make a difference in life.

Please give me the opportunity a break in life as its so difficult . Thank you very much. I Hope to raise $500,000 Kind Regards

Brendan

Last Updated: April 24, 2019

My wish is to be able to help others, by being helped first that is

Greetings if you’re interested on what I’m about to write. Ill try to make it simple so you don’t get bored, but at the same time explain some points while being honest.

First my mind: I don’t know to be honest if this is gonna work, nor who’s reading this, or even if there’s really people this site claims to have who wants to help, although chances are there’s a bunch of high tier, economically people wanting to help the best causes (and i would become one of them tho).

My meta: Maybe it will be an awkward one, or it could be a common one, who knows with the lots of peeps in need, but trust me when i say, it’s not a fake one.I want to be doing something i could enjoy to make money, but why do i want money in the first place? to help causes like mine at this moment and to help my family. I want to get a proper build setup to stream, so make myself a streaming career or YouTube, it’s no news that, money goes high on those careers. Somewhat i would like to become a modern Robin hood i guess, i would love to help low economically people, but i also have more in mind, to expand my help to animals in need etc, to be honest i have a lot of wishes i would like to accomplish, with the helping topic.

I know there’s some streamers (a very slow portion) or Youtubers who helps, but to be honest, not in the grade i would like to do, or they help the wrong people, now some example would be the Mr beast. He does help, but other streamers who already have everything to do a proper work, just lacking viewers in that case, or he donates to other high money streamers, i mean, hes not helping guys like us in the first place, not a noble accomplish in my book.

About me: I’m 26 years old, probably the most uncommon one you would ever see, I’ve this dream since i was very young, but my family problems made my life a lot harder. I’ve a lot of skill to do everything i would propose to do (not an exaggeration), i like gaming and it’s not an exception to my skill, so that’s why i want to give it a try, i mean doing what you like, being someone and at the same time, doing a noble cause, i think it’s just perfect.

Yeah cute story, but how much you need?: I think ill keep it on the minimum wich would be about 5000usd (it can even go higher but a start is all i need) , any help would be appreciated. Even if i don’t succeed on here, i would keep on trying the hard way, hope my post got into you, if you want to hear more, you’re more than welcome.

Thanks for reading, if you like to help here:

https://paypal.me/Asuilo

Last Updated: April 23, 2019

A Finacial Position that i cant find a way out of.

Hi There

Thank you for taking the time to read my plea. This is something that I’m finding difficult to do because I never thought I’d be in a position where I would need to rely on the kindness of strangers, but I feel this may be the only way to improve my situation.

I’m a 28 year old man living in the UK. My financial problems started five years ago. I was renting a property with my ex partner and another couple. This started well and life seemed to be going great for me. I had managed to get my best friend a job where I was working and we were living together with our partners and everything seemed good. After a couple of months things started to turn sour. My partner started disappearing and behaving strangely. There was always an excuse and I never had reason to doubt her. During this time I started having issues with my friend at work, he started not showing up and became lazy. He very suddenly quit and I found myself needing to pick up his rent and some of his living costs. After a couple more months of my partner behaving strangely, things came to a head. She came out to me that she was homosexual and had met a girl. I suddenly was in a position where the past six years of my life had all been a lie and I found myself questioning everything, My mental state took quite a battering. Shortly after this my friend decided to leave and within a matter of days he was gone. He had no way to pay for the house or the bills and I had to shoulder the Burdon. I lived alone in that house trying to reach the end of the contract but I was relying on credit cards to pay for bills and groceries so was forced into terminating the contract which cost me a lot. Although my now ex originally helped me she very quickly left me to deal with it on my own. After finalizing the termination fees I found myself in around £5000 pounds worth of debt.

I’m now working at a different job and life really has improved for me. I’m blessed enough to have met the most amazing girl in the world and we look forward to getting married and hopefully having children. She is a student nurse and hasn’t been able to make a set wage during the last three years of her Degree. So I haven’t been able to pay off the debt of my past life.

I haven’t been able to go to my family for financial support because unfortunately they just can’t provide it so I’ve kept my problems from them to not cause them upset.

My experiences have taught me a lot, but I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Through the pain and struggle of my past I have manged to meet the most amazing person. I just am not able to extinguish my debt whilst renting and trying to support my partner.

I’ve been transferring my debt to help with interest rates but it just seems every time I make some progress something goes wrong, like car bills and garage costs.

I always believed I would be able to deal with this on my own, and I never dreamt I’d be turning to others for help. I’ve always tried to be the one to help others, but I’ve found this has started to give me sleepless nights and I’m finding it hard to see a way out of this rut.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story .Apologies for the length of this, but it’s been a rather humbling experience writing about my past.

If anyone can help me at all please know that I will truly be forever in your debt and you be helping a young couple move away from an unpleasant past.

Indebted & Humbled

Jamie

Last Updated: April 21, 2019

Sleep and Memories :-)

Hello, I am at a point in my life where I am physically, mentally and financially drained… I wake through the night with mind numbing thoughts that my son deserves so much better than a mother like me.

I have worked full time ever since I left High School but I managed to get myself into quite a lot of debt trying to keep up with friends and family’s lifestyles I could not afford. I took out overdrafts, credit cards and payday loans to try and keep up with them.

I only ever made the minimum or interest payments and one day couldn’t even afford to do that, so everything built up and spiralled out of control. I buried my head in the sand and tried to just ignore it all.

When I fell pregnant with my little one, I finally sat down and worked everything out. I sought financial assistance and now have 1 loan and 1 (very large!) monthly payment to make towards paying all of this off. I want to have a clean fresh credit file to build up so I can offer my son the financial assistance he will need later on in life.

I currently work full time for an animal charity, 12:30-10pm at nights as this is when my father in law can look after the little one for me. I feel like I miss out on so much of his little life but I know I have to work and to teach him that it is a very important part of growing up.

After paying all our living costs and my loan every month, we are left with £82 to ourselves. We can just afford 1 day out somewhere nice on one of Mummy’s days. I hate that I cannot spend quality time with him taking him to new places to explore and learn and make some lasting memories. My little one doesn’t understand why Mummy can’t get him a new toy or buy him a McDonalds when he asks me.

I have 3.5 years remaining on my loan and a little under £12,000 to pay off until I am completely debt free!

I decided to write on here to see if there was anyone out there in a position to give me and my little one any assistance at all, so we can start our brand new lives a little earlier =)

Thank you so much for taking the time to read our story xx

paypal.me/hillis87

Last Updated: April 21, 2019

Struggling on disability benifits

For the past 2 years I have had many a struggle with Universal Credit in the UK. It began when I was sectioned under the mental health act over Christmas and new year in 2017. Since then I have been diagnosed finally with being on the autistic spectrum as well as suffering from depression and anxiety.

It took over a year for me to be placed on the correct benefits and during that time I was sanctioned 4 times for none attendance to work focussed interviews even though I had been handing in my sick notes. I was also placed into ‘supported accommodation’ where things only got worse for me. The majority of other individuals in need were addicts of some nature and unfortunately I got dragged into that world. For 4 months I was using both heroin and crack cocaine as well as being rinsed for every penny I had. The majority of my most prized items were stolen and it just spiralled further and further for me. People would remember my pay days and be knocking on my door or ringing me. They would be begging for money, promising to pay it back, making me feel guilty and if that didnt work threaten me.

Fortunately I am a strong willed person and after several months of this horrible situation I managed to pack my remaining items and get out of that place. I stopped all of the drugs on that same day and I am now a year on.

I spent the following months submitting all necessary mandatory reconsiderations and appeals to get my sanctions lifted. At one point I had one sanction lifted to be given another the following day! My mental health was at some of its worst still but I had to just keep battling through it and jumping through as many hoops as I could. A year on from being in hospital I was finally awarded the benifits I am entitled to with 18 months until it is reviewed.

Although all should be good now, the amount of money I recieve is just more than I need to get by. It is around the same amount as working a minimum wage job 40 hours a week. I would like to get back some of the items that were stolen from me.

I am a keen musician and would like to get a computer, software and some new instruments so that I can start recording my own music with the view of one day selling it. It will cost around £5000 to buy those items. I know that it is a substantial amount of money and would only ask for a small contribution towards it.

If you can make a small contribution then my PayPal is:

paypal.me/kieranplummer

Last Updated: April 16, 2019

Mental, life and financial rut

I want to start off by saying thank you kindly for taking the time to read this. I greatly and utterly appreciate it.

I’m not the type to confront others let alone ask for help. I am the helper. The one people can go to for help and rely on. I don’t think I’m entitled to anything, don’t regret anything, and there’s always people worse off than myself. So I don’t complain, and am apprecitive of the little things. Also I’m a true believer in that everything happens for a reason.

I was always able to support myself, and was slightly cautious with my money. When others needed financial help I was more than welcome to help loan out with them paying me back.

I always had a nice buffer and blanket in savings. It wasn’t until my one job change that I noticed too late that my income was drastically less, and that caused my savings to deplete rapidly unbeknownst to me. I was young(early-mid 20s), but it was a lesson to be learned. After my grandma passed I moved back in with my parents. I did this for financial (with some personal) reasons, because while she was alive I lived above her in an apartment. That apartment I would later learn was one of the culprits to my savings deleting rapidly. I don’t regret it happening, because it was to help look after her. After moving back I then was able to get out of the red by cashing in some of my 401k. All to start fresh.

Flash forward to present…

After years of living with my parents again it started to weigh on me mentally and financially. Once again no complaints or regrets. I don’t have a bad household one bit, and I would always help where needed. I wasn’t charged rent, but I earned my keep elsewhere where needed. My parents foster children so I would help around house, take care of kids, etc. Whenever they needed money I would give, because they were doing so much for me as it was. Especially since they were hurting in the financial department and filing for bankruptcy.

Over there years though my sense of self was biting at the bit. The sense of my life barred up in storage, and I only had a little room to call my own started to eat away. My job at the time was not mentally fruitful and I needed change.

I tried countless times to do so, and many different ways…

I tried to go get another degree, but I was unable to. I needed loans that would cover my bills, because I couldn’t physically have a job while there. My bills monthly were too great for government help. So I unable to break free from my rut.

I tried to buy a nice little house to call my own. Unfortunately I got denied pre-approvals, because my debt to income was too high.

I am a single 30 year old female with school loan debt. I have no kids, I’m a working middle class employee, and I don’t qualify for any government terminology alloted help. I’m literally stuck in the middle and all I want to do is better myself. Getting knocked back down time after time is frustrating. But it grows character.

I’ve tried everything to see if I could get help with anything. To get out of debt again, to help my family that I help support. To get out of my rut so my creative juices can flow freely without worry.

I have had these universes in my head since I was a child. My brain was constantly creating stuff, and working. Ideas would pop in and run rampant. I enjoy it. I recently decided that I wanted to get them out to the world. I’ve compiled my stories, but unfortunately I get little motivation every now and then to write. All because I worry about other things.

I have these business ideas, but I can’t bring them to reality. They aren’t ill ideas, because I believe they would prosper in the area I want them to be. Unfortunately any assistance I was able to find on it, I didn’t qualify for. They are just ideas, and not physical yet.

Sorry for the long post. I wanted to give you a slight glimpse into my history and mind set.

In short I am asking for help so that I may get out of this rut I’m in. Currently I am mearly surviving. Bobbing in a pool of life, and wanting change. I’ve tried countless ways over the years. Countless times I try, but every time I hit the same hinderance: Money.

Though it pains me. I am asking for around $500,000. I hate asking that of others, especially that much. I plan on using it to help pay bills myself, and others that rely on me for support. I want to guarantee that my family is taken care of and won’t loose anything from the bankruptcy.

When all that is said and done I will be able to spread my wings, and bring my creative juices to the world.

I utterly am blessed and words can’t describe for all the kind souls out there that help. It brings tears to my eyes at the thought.

Thank you kindly for taking the time to read my long post. I greatly appreciate it beyond words and the universe. Bless you, and all that you do.

paypal.me/moonprncss

Last Updated: April 16, 2019

Stress is killing me :(

I would like to start off by saying hello to everyone who is reading this :) My name is Krystal, my story goes like this. From a very young age I was full of anxiety and stress. I grew up in a home with and alcoholic father. Actually all his family were. So things were always pretty rough and me being the oldest child I would feel this and it made me extremely stressed out from as long as I can remember. When I was 13 years old my life changed drastically. My father passed away. It was very unexpected to me and my family. At the time my parents were split up. And my father’s family had a very nasty plan in place so they had desired they were not gonna tell my mother or us kids that he was in the hospital dying. I was leaving to go on a school trip for a week and my father was gonna give me some money and his cell phone. After a week trying to get a hold of him with no luck I went on my school trip. But I had a feeling something was wrong. I get back a week later, and my father died that night. His family did not want us to know or to see him because they wanted to take all his money. My grandmother had his this information for her to become his next of kin. My father was in the hospital for just over a week, alive and asking to see his children and his own mother denied him that on his death bed just do she could gain a couple hundred thousand dollars. That should have been ours. She robbed me of my father. So I became a really angry stressed out teenager. I couldn’t understand why my own grandmother would do that to me and my siblings. As a result of her actions my mom had to work multiple jobs just to keep us in a decent house. And what we needed. So I had to pretty much grow up and help take care of my younger brother and sister. We moved around alot. Never had a stable place to live. My grandmother made sure we had no money to buy a house or nothing. As so as she got his money which was 4 weeks after his death she took off out of province. She was to guilty and the rest of his family. Which was my closest family left too. Leaving us with not just losing are father but all are aunts uncles cousins grandmother. All because of money. It was a really hard thing to go threw but my mother made sure we had what we needed. Now as I progress threw life in finding no sort of break in stress for me. I have live a simple life. I don’t ask for much I just don’t want to struggle anymore. I’m 30 years old now and I have never felt a stress free day in more than half my life. I am constantly worrying about something and I’m slowly realizing what kind of effect this has had on my health and just my ability to live and enjoy life. I’m not asking for much but I’m in need of help. I’m a mother of a 3 year old who is working and trying to go to school so my future is brighter. But I’m currently in desperate times and looking for a kind soul who would be able to help me just live stress free foe a bit. I want to enjoy life for once and show my daughter how fun it can be :) I have tried to but it’s so hard when every day is a constant struggle just to even get out of bed. I appreciate everyone who stops to read some of my story. Any information you would like to know just ask. I’m looking for $20,000 to $50,000 to help restart an awesome life for me and my daughter but anything is appreciated. I look forward to hearing from you thank you very much and god bless you all :)

Last Updated: April 15, 2019

I so wish..

Hi my name is Karissa and I’m 27 years old and I’ve been living in a house with no electricity and no hot water for the past year or so… It’s taken it’s toll on me mentally and physically but recently seems as though it’s picking up the pace.

I moved in with a family friend of over 20 years approximately 3 years ago. She was renting a single bedroom with a back house. Her daughter already occupied the back house so I made the living room my own. Rent was/is 1100 monthly plus whatever utilities. I give her 200 monthly and I used to pay 1/3 of the electric/gas utility bill. I saw the bill personally the first few months of living here but because my payment remained the same for the most part I stopped looking at the bill and just trusted her with the amount I owed and because I’d known her so long I never second guessed the bill was actually getting paid. Well somewhere down the line I guess she stopped paying the bill but was still collecting my portion of the utilities every month.

The day I figured out she wasn’t paying the utilities AT ALL was the day the electricity was shut off. I got an idea of how long she hadn’t been paying the electricity bill when Edison informed me how much she owed them; A whoppping $5,239.63 😩 how She managed to get the bill that high before they shut us off is beyond me.

Long story short, the electric company was so fed up with her ‘tricks’ that they made it literally impossible to get the electric turned on unless someone else moved in after we moved out or if she gave them at least $3000 towards her insanely high bill 😥

Not too long after that , the gas was shut off also(she only hadn’t been paying the gas bill for a couple few months cause it’s a measly $324. Unfortunately, both bills are too high for any or all of us to pay off at any given time since we only get a set amount monthly and thank goodness that we remain caught up on rent.

I just stumbled on this site and figured it couldn’t hurt to give it a shot since im outta ideas and am at that point where I truly need help… Depending on how well this works out I will either pay off her bill then switch the account to mine for future payments or just move out and find another room for rent where utilities aren’t an issue….

If you’re willing to help, any amount would be so very much appreciated. Those who help me, I thank in advance.

PayPal.me/karissajordan

Last Updated: April 15, 2019

Making a difference by helping a family

I am hoping that many people read this and decide that my family is worth helping. For the past 20 years I have been a single mom that worked a lot and did everything I could to make sure my children didn’t do without a roof over thirty heads and all the extras that come with being a parent. My children are grown now and have children of their own which I love very much. Nothing like being a grandparent. We still live together because it makes it easier for all of us to be able to survive with the economy the way it is and the prices of rent these days. I’ve been in the home I’ve been renting for 15 years now and the house has needed some major repairs but they never got taken care of. One day my landlord called me and told me he was coming to discuss the issues in the home that needed repairs and he wanted me to do those repairs and he would deduct that off my rent but the day he was due to come talk to me he didn’t show up and I never received a call from him letting me know why or that he needed to reschedule. I tried to reach out to him with the numbers I had for him with no luck and this went on for months, at this point I was getting worried because my landlord always came and picked up the rent, that was the only way to get it paid to him. Two months after I had last spoken to him I found out by my oldest daughter that he had passed away and that’s why I hadn’t heard from him. With this news I proceeded to try and reach his family to try and pay my respects and find out who I needed to pay rent to now and where to send it. I knew his family wouldn’t have time to come pick it up as he used to do, but I could never get the information I needed to reach anyone and no one has offered to try and reach out to me either. So now my rent is falling behind after 15 years of good standing with my previous landlord even though the house needed major repairs in all areas including plumbing and electricity as well. I was talking with one of my neighbors which has been a good friend to me and he told me he had ran into the new owner and they said they were going to come talk to me about everything in a few days and yet again I never heard a thing from them. I tried to reach out to the other neighbors down the road that rented from the same person as I do and they had came and talked with them and allowed them to catch their rent up and stay and when I asked for the number to reach the new owner I was told they couldn’t give that information out. So here I am trying to get my rent up to date and work with the new owner to be able to stay even though the place needed major repairs. It’s all I have known for so long now. Instead of getting a call or a knock on the door I got an eviction notice from her instead through a lawyers office in the mail giving me only 2 weeks to leave the premises which is impossible with how long I’ve been here and in my opinion unfair. I feel I deserved the same offer as the neighbors when they were just as far behind as I was in rent and I’ve been here longer but I didn’t get that offer. Now that I’ve explained some of the issues I’m now gonna talk about where I stand now that I’m trying to get out of this house and running out of the to do just that. On a side note I did request till the following month to get all of my stuff and be out but again I am still waiting on her lawyer to contact me back. Ok now this is where my family stands now with everything. We have been packing and home searching and have been having major issues finding a new rental that we can afford and that will allow our family pets to come with us. On top of that the places we have found have either been to small for all of us or the rent is through the roof and the income we do have coming in the home has been to low to afford those homes. It’s not that we haven’t looked we just don’t have the funds to afford the rent to the homes that actually have the space we need. So as a family we talked about options to prevent this from ever happening to us again and this is what we came up with. What if we tried to buy a home instead, so we started searching homes big enough to accommodate everyone and after long searches we found a home the was big enough and in the location we were trying to stay in. The owner is only asking $165,900 for the home but is willing negotiate if we can get as close to the asking price as possible. So we started with trying to get loans but we’re rejected due to lack of credit or bad credit. We found one company willing to give us a loan but only with a down payment which we do not have due to having to take what money we did have saved back for rent to get storage units and have vehicles moved else where as well as having to get moving vehicles to pack everything in to take to those storage units. It adds up quickly and we didn’t realise this until it was too late. We still have stuff to move and cash has gotten tight now. I’m a proud person and don’t normally ask for help at all and always find solutions but this time I’m out of ideas except for seeking the help we need to secure this home for our family so we never have to go through this again. This home would be left to my kids and then their kids and so on. I feel this could make a huge difference in my families lives because for once in our life we have something that is ours and not someone else’s we will finally have a home to call our own. This would take the stress of rent off my family as well. When we reached out to others we have helped over the years when they were on the verge of loosing everything and they got back on top for help they said they couldn’t help us so that means we are on our own and starting to worry we are going to be without a home period. This scares me due to the grandkids which are below the age of 7 years old right now. I want to secure this home for them and their future, to make sure they keep the stability they have been used to. It breaks my heart knowing that it’s not the adults that will suffer as much as the children involved. I know we can’t do this on our own so I’m seeking help, I’ve let my pride go to try and make this possible for them. Even a penny will make a difference for my family right now. If you can help or want to help I thank you in advance and my family will be forever grateful for your help. We will be forever in your debt. Please think about helping and if you can’t I thank you for taking the time to read this. I haven’t gone in full detail of everything due to how long I knew this was already going to be. Again thank you.

Last Updated: April 13, 2019

Help a young couple struggle

Thank you for taking the time to read this i am very grateful and any outcome from yourself will be very appreciated.

Firstly let me introduce myself, my name is Holly and i am 22 years old from the UK. I am currently expecting my first child in September and me and my partner are struggling mentally we have a lot of anxiety and depression between us and we are have a huge debt on our shoulders. we are also trying to save for our own home as at the moment we are in a cycle of renting with a family member and not being able to save. any advice / donations are massively received and appreciated , i also have an amazon wish list for the baby items as we need everything for a baby.

My partner is struggling especially with some form of anxiety he gets very stressed and gets himself sick constantly meaning he misses work. he does not feel he can speak to a GP as it does not make him feel like the stereotypical man. He constantly does not come to bed and will sit in the living until ridiculous hours not knowing what to do. it is a vicious circle that we are not sure how will end.

With the baby due in September we are trying to get all our finances in place so we can give the baby the best possible life and situation we can! But with debt and not being able to afford very much we are finding this very hard , we would hate to not be able to provide for our child and it is very hard and upsetting to have this on our shoulders.

if you would like to get some more information i will be happy to provide. i really want to do this especially for my partner as i want him to be in the right state of mind when our baby comes as it is causing such suffering.

If you do have any advise you can give me.

https://paypal.me/hollyrestel96

Last Updated: April 12, 2019

My desire for success!

I am a medically retired veteran with a desire to succeed! I have started a job as a Licensed Insurance Producer and I am seeking licensing in all 50 States.

My entire life I have worked hard for what I have. I have worked rebar fabrication, construction and 11 years Active Duty Army as a mechanic. I injured my hip a few years ago and have had one unsuccessful surgery, and pending another surgery in my future. With my current situation, everything I have known how to do I can no longer perform physically anymore. Job placement is difficult for me as I cannot crouch, bend, stand for long periods of time or lift things like I uses to. My benefits pay the bills now that we only have one vehicle, but sometimes we still fall short. I dont have the funds to purchase my licensing and appointment for additional states at this time. And because I did a voluntary repossession of our second vehicle, credit is not good enough to receive a personal loan to cover the cost of licensing. And now that I pay for my families health coverage I cannot afford a loan anyway.

My desire to succeed is for my family and myself. Its for my family because my three girls and wife have only ever know living paycheck to paycheck. I finally found something that has the potential to put money into savings and eventually be able to afford not to rent a home. And my desire for me is because it breaks my heart every time my oldest daughter asks for a $15 doll, I have to tell her to wait for Christmas or her birthday because I wonder if i will be able to buy food or gas later. Or how it seems everyone can save for a Vacation and I have never taken my family on one. I desire to succeed for them! So for once in their lives they can feel like their friends and other family. But I am held short right now by my ability to expand my reach to other states.

I am asking for help so I can get licensed in the rest of the States. Whom ever helps me just know you will be forever in my heart, and you will have provided me something that would have take me years to achieve on my own. Though my daughters will not understand now. They will know about who helped them later in life.

paypal.me/TylerMGarner

Last Updated: April 12, 2019

Mental Health

I want to share my recovery to help others I have suffered from mental health most of my life my story is getting made into a short film I want to travel around the world doing talks playing my short film about mental health and suicide prevention it’s time to talk 1 out 4 people will suffer from mental health in uk

I started to struggle with my mental health from young age. I got diagnosed with ADHD, I was very high, I couldn’t sit still and was always getting put out of class.

The teachers didn’t know what to do for me. People would shout at me and say I was badly behaved, but looking back I understand it was my mental health and I couldn’t help it.

At home I was taking medicine about 3 times a day to keep me calm, but I hated it and felt like a zombie.

When I went to high school my anxiety was getting bad, I was put out of class most days. Teachers just looked down at me and said ‘you’re never going to make it, you’re too loud you’re not doing your work.’ In the back of my mind I kept saying to myself ‘I wish I was normal, why do I act and feel this way?’

I felt like the school let me down big time. I just felt I was treated differently from everyone else. So I left school and then my mental health started getting worse.
I started drinking and smoking cannabis every day, I was just trying to block everything out, but every day was a struggle. I started going to more appointments with GPS telling them how I was feeling, but I got told there was nothing wrong with me, I needed to get a grip there is nothing they could do for me!!

It was very upsetting and I was angry that no one was giving me any support, so the drinking got worse and I was getting into trouble with the police.

I wasn’t getting on with my family so I left home and was stayed with friends. I went on to the homeless list, after 1 year I got a flat in Lanark. It was great having somewhere I could call home, but my mental health was getting worse. I was going from extreme lows to high.

I started taking a new medicine that would stop all these horrible thoughts. I went to see physiologist they started doing some CBT to manage my feelings and thoughts.

But I was still struggling, so I didn’t go back after a few months. So the drinking and taking drugs got worse. I started going to addiction services but they kept saying there’s nothing they could do because it’s my mental health. Then I would go to the psychiatrist and they would say it was addictions.

By time I was 18 I was living by myself. Days would pass where I struggled to get out of bed, wash or eat. Everything just felt like one big struggle.
I felt like there was a big dark cloud above me. I had no self-worth or hope, so time went on and I stated getting into trouble with the police. One time I was very low and was sitting on bridge and the police came. Rather than taking me to a hospital they locked me up.

I kept thinking maybe it would better if I killed myself all this pain would go away, I wouldn’t have to put up with this.

I went back to the hospital and was kept in for a few days to detox and clear my head. Once I was discharged I had CPNs coming to see me. I started going to the Hope Café, a small charity that was set up around peer support. Everyone was so friendly and what I loved about it was that everyone that was there had lived experience of mental health.

I began to volunteer there, I built my confidence up, meeting new people getting to listen to people stories.

I wrote down my own story, then for the Scottish Mental Health Arts Festival my story was turned into a play. I felt amazing.

I took part in the first Walk a Mile in Edinburgh with See Me, and in Strathclyde Park, where I got the chance to walk with Chris Young.

By the time I was 20 my mental health was in good place, I was volunteering most days I was meeting new people trying to tackle stigma and sharing my recovery to help others. Yeah, for the first time I was happy. People treated me like a human.
But at 21 I was still drinking and occasionally smoking cannabis to self medicate. I wasn’t getting much sleep so I used to get very tired and angry. I would take it out on friends and family.

After a few months the Hope Café came to an end. I was upset because my life was finally back on track.

Fortunately, a couple of volunteers started up a new charity called Esteem Clydesdale. It was based on peer support and offering people a place to come and chat and feel safe and not judged.

We started to do more events. We got the word out there that no one needs to suffer in silence, we are here to help. Life seemed to be still back on track.

I believe everyone should be treated as an equal, the way I see it, it doesn’t matter if you have mental health, physical health different colour of skin if your straight or gay, we should all be treated the same and not judge .

I am a 22 year old man, I have a partner and he is just amazing and he understands my mental health. I still have good and bad days,

but I have the right people in my life and life’s good

Now I want to help others, tell people that it’s okay not to be okay and this shall pass. We are human, we all have struggles and problems.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story.

paypal.me/beertokenss

Last Updated: April 12, 2019

Since I was a kid I wanted to become a psychologist

First thing that I remember is my dad punching my mum for some random reasons that today seem very immature. My mum escaped to another country and took me with her. I remember it like it was yesterday. She found a taxi cab and we just took off. Soon after that what I remember is that we are in a flat, I’m going to school. We didn’t have a car, that is, she didn’t have a car and she was taking me to school every single rainy day. Since the beginning she was paying for my education and spend 95% of her life for me, most possibly even more than that just so I could have a future. Soon after that I was growing and becoming more and more a man, but it wasn’t easy not having a man’s influence in the family. Mum tried to replace my dad’s influence of a “strong fist”, losing her motherly instincts in the process. A mother cannot be a father. Yelling couldn’t accomplish anything and that kind of raising a child left some scars on my soul that I’m still trying to overcome. Throughout the years of attending psychologists and psychiatrists she has been labeled as a narcissistic mother and she is still struggling with her condition. It is causing her a lot of pain and she cannot control it. I also found out that I have inherited the same curse, making me unable to fully engage in emphatic conversations. I cannot help my friend, schoolmate, coworker, stranger to feel good because the nature of how I was raised has control over my emotions and even though I am aware of the beautiful energies that beautiful people emit, my instincts make me steal, drain that energy instead of giving it and healing a persona in need. Since I recognized my nature of flow of being, I have been trying to find a way to change that… but my instincts have been hardwired into my brain and the ego is too strong. As I have been making progress in self-analysis and self-development I have tried to implement that knowledge to cure the woman who brought me to this world but no progress has been made. Even though I have helped my friends find some wisdom from the solitude I have, no matter how small that solitude of mine is, my knowledge is still not sufficient. I still cannot help my friend who has been molested by her ex husband or my cousin who cannot get away from drugs… or most importantly, my dad who has the need to punish his new kids and his new wife because they are not good enough and my mum who cannot get away from her haunting beliefs. Right now I’m in a new place in this world trying to make a living without any work experience, trying to become something valuable enough and benefit the world that we live in. In this capitalistic system you cannot do anything without money. I have been trying to find ways to make residual passive income but, again, you need money for the investments. While working as a construction laborer I can barely have time to eat anything appropriate. I wish I could pay for university so I can get a decent job and get the necessary skills to help anyone who needs it. I also wish that I could start a business no matter how small or big it is, at least something that can make me a living and possibly to pay off my further education. Great things never came from comfort zones.

God bless to anyone who wishes to help me on my quest as it will be repaid to the lost souls in need.

https://www.paypal.me/dulgiq

Last Updated: April 10, 2019

this thing called life

Hi,

My Name is Julie and i am 31, I am facing financial problems. I’ve never asked for help, and not sure what all i should say, so i’m just going to write what is honest and from my heart.

I guess i could start by saying i’ve not always needed help at one time i was able to take care of myself, now i am barely surviving, can’t afford food, and on the verge of being homeless.

For those you who clicked on this, i would like to say thank you and give you my story.

I am a single 31 year old women from SE Ky. I have no children and no family to help me.

At the age of six my father was murdered and stabbed 36 times, My mother had a nervous breakdown when i was 14 and suffers from mental disorders as well as substance abuse.

I was mentally and sexually abused as a child. I do not blame these reasons for why i am in the situation i am in, but i do feel these add to my sense of hopelessness.

I grew up always wanting to be someone, to attend college and to have a family one day.

Then my dreams were quickly crushed when life happens and i had to grow up at a young age. I grew up witnessing my step father use drugs, and mentally abuse my mother.

I was a straight A student although i had to miss a lot of school, due to not sleeping because of being kept up all night from listening to them fight.

At fourteen my step dad left, and my mother gave up and had a nervous breakdown. I use to beg her to get up, that i needed her, but she would stay in the bed. I never had anyone to lead me in the right direction therefore i learned a lot of things the hard way.

I finally found a good job for my area and started at the bottom as a call sales rep. It was a temporary job, unless you scored high at the end of season. You were then hired on. I was so proud of myself that i landed the number one spot for call agents, i was hired on and later promoted to manager.

I got my own home, car, and was paying my own bills. I felt i had succeeded and finally had a safe place to live without terror.

Then in 2014 I was driving and pulled out of a bad spot, i turned left , and from the right a minivan came over hill going 70 mph and hit me directly on the driver side.

It was horrible. Scariest event i have ever went through. I thought i was going to die.

It took them what seemed like hours with the jaws of life, to extract me from the vehicle.

Once taken to hospital, i learned, my brain was bleeding, i broke my back in two places, along with my hip and leg. I also had to get a bone graft in my foot leaving me with a metal plate, and eight screws. I was in trauma unit in hospital for over a month.

I came home in shock, i wasn’t able to walk for a year. In that time frame i lost my home.

I moved in with my mother, and my autistic brother who has asperger’s syndrome.

My mother has never been a caring person, and didn’t give me much empathy. She let it be known i was now a burden on her. I feel into a complete depression. At the time i had no idea of how disability worked or the sign up process nor did i have anyone to help me with it.

I haven’t been the same since. My mother would not take me to my follow up appts or to physical therapy, which has left me in worse shape.

I am now trying to put all the pieces together. Although at first accepting this change was very hard for me. I tried to go back to work was unable to sit for long period, as well as focus. My mind isn’t as sharp. I got put down everyday, and told i wasn’t in that bad of shape, and humiliated and criticized for something i had no control in by my own mother.

I could no longer take it, i decided to give up. I reached out to family, and community but got no help in return. I couldn’t even make it to doctor appt, because i wrecked my vehicle. I could not apply for public transportation because there was a vehicle license to the home, whom was my mother.

I felt like i had no hope. So i contemplated suicide, and acted upon it. I took a whole bottle of sleeping medication and took off walking down the road, only to pass out in someones yard, who called 911. I was brought back to life and taken to the hospital, no one showed up, and i figured as much. I was sent mandatory to a hospital for 72 hours. Then released.

I have tried as hard as i can to beat this depression, i read books, watch videos i have started to meditate. I finally went back to work two months ago, and felt great about myself.

Then 2 weeks later when i finally had enough to rent a cheap apt and get away from my mother i did. In the process of moving with no help, i was trying to pack something and fell.

My same foot i had surgery on was throbbing in pain, i went to hospital and found i had shattered and broke the top of my foot again. I am in a cast now. I had to take a leave from work, and unfortunately move back into my mother’s home.

I stay in my room like a jail cell because i stay in constant fear of being screamed at for no reason, or put down. It is a very unhealthy way to live, i just want peace, structure and safety back into my life as far as a living situation.

I don’t know when i can return to work as of now because im having to keep my foot elevated a lot during day, and the doctor is thinking i may have to have surgery again once cast is taken off. Which will keep me down atleast another six months.

I am in a rut, with no one to turn to. If anyone could help me, anything will count. I will be ever grateful, as well as gain back my serenity and peace of mind, by getting out of this atmosphere. If i can get enough to get me thru six months, i can then start working again.

I know my story isn’t over yet, i am trying to stay optimistic and i feel like there has to be some good people in this world. I hope i can turn all this around and not be just another sad story that could have achieved if only i received help in time of need. Please if you can help pray and think on it and know you will in return get blessed for being such a great soul.

Thank you for reading,

Julie

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Last Updated: April 9, 2019

Need help for home

Hello, everyone!
We are a couple of young artists to build their own way in a country that does not offer too much.
We have dreams that we can not currently meet because of material difficulties and although it sounds cliché, we would like to be able to help in our turn. I recently found out that we will not be able to live in the current location (because the owner wants to sell), where we paid an ok rent for our small incomes. Rents have risen all over, and we have realized that it is impossible for us to find a place for our needs with a decent budget. We have very much attached to this place, it is a kind of sanctuary where we can create and live at the same time. Because we always have to work on little money to cover the monthly expenses, we have neglected our artistic career, which is still at the beginning. And because all the heavy things are gathering at the same time, we can not even invest in things that could help us evolve in our field, to produce the necessary amounts for a decent life. I do not want this to sound a complaint, but this site could help us, and I said, why not, we can manage to get a balance. We thought to make a loan to the bank, to buy the apartment so dear to us. But again, income does not allow us … So, you can help us enormously through any small donation to realize our dream and have our home. As long as we try to make an advance, with the prospect of investing more in our talents, maybe we will be able to make more money.

Thank you so much for all those who help us! I also send good energies and I hope you all wishes come true!
PS: We have a cat will thank him with all his heart!

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