Begging Money

Financial Hardship Help

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You could literally change our lives

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I’ve never done this before, i don’t really know where to start. I realise that asking for money from people can be pretty frowned upon, and there is always people a lot worse off than you. So thank you to anyone reading this, whether you decide to help or not.

I met my wife 5 years ago, and she immigrated from Canada to be with me. We had a plan to build a life together, and instead we’ve only managed to get in to more and more debt and i can no longer see a way out that will see us actually starting out and building something. It’s an endless cycle. Immigration fees, credit cards that i got, thinking they’d help us out, instead of burying us deeper.

We have no possessions, i work two jobs, she works one, both “frontline workers” in the health service, which sounds fancy and amounts to minimum wage and struggles. If we could find someone kind enough to help pay off our debts so we could make an actual start of things together, we’re both in our 30’s and even if we did make it out we’d be too old by then to build anything together.

I don’t know what else to do, she’s such a wonderful person and tries so so hard, never gets upset with our situation and is the most loving, caring person i’ve ever met. She deserves better than what i can currently give her. But if we could start fresh without any pressures, and an actual way out… well i have to try anything i can. Which includes, begging for help.

I know likely most people on here will be in much more need than us. But debt is just leading to more debt and any way out of that spiral i need to try.

Your help will literally change our lives, pull us out of a whole that i cannot see ending.

Thank you so much for reading, whether you decide to give or not. I really mean that.

David

(The picture of our wee dog is posted because i didn’t really know what to put as a picture, sorry)

paypal.me/ddaf84

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Requesting £1,000

Hello! My name is Skye and I live with my Mum. This is not a sob story, but my Dad passed away when I was 13, so now that I am older I would love to be able to help my Mum out with some finances since my Dad’s job provided the main household income. So, I am requesting £1,000 to purchase one or two 25kg bales of vintage clothes from Vintage Wholesale UK.

With these bales, depending on exactly how many items of clothing are in them, I will sell them on at individual prices from a boutique, which I am confident will be successful! In the attached photo are the wooden clothing hangers, which I will hang the vintage clothes on and take photos of them to sell. The boutique will be mainly online and will be managed via Instagram and Facebook. I also believe that running a small business of my own for a while will be great experience that I can put on my CV for later life!

I would be running this boutique alongside studying A levels, so a little extra money would help fund my student finances too; and if it is triumphant (which I’m sure it will be!) It would be a great little business to get me through university without having a lot of money worries.

I have mentioned this idea to my Mum and my friends, and they have all been supportive, which only made me want to go through with it even more! I know this is only a small idea, but I am genuinely excited to see how it will turn out – and I know that I will enjoy doing it!

By donating, you will be helping me, a young person, to focus on my aspirations and become more independent, as well as enriching my lifestyle.

Finally, if you would like, you will be able to see what this money will enable me to do via Instagram! My handle is @s.kyeparker and if/when I start my boutique I will make a business account for it, which you will be able to follow and watch it’s progress. The only thing I have left to think about is a name for my boutique!

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my request, I really appreciate it. Here is my paypal link, I hope you consider me!

https://www.paypal.me/skyeparkker

 

 

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I need help to protect my children’s wellbeing

This is heartbreaking to write, as I have to openly admit my failings and literally beg for people to help me put things right.

I am about to lose everything and my biggest concern is my children. They may lose their home. I have been told that I must leave the house that I’m renting, which doesn’t sound like a big deal but it really is. I have CCJs against my name and can’t secure a tenancy without paying six months rent upfront or having a guarantor. Unfortunately I don’t really have family to turn to. I’ve lost both my parents and have no other siblings I could ask. As much as I try to sort things out I’m getting no where. Please don’t think I haven’t tried other options – I’ve sold everything I can on eBay, taken on extra work, everything I can think of, but nothing has been enough.

There is no doubt that my money problems were self inflicted, but at the time I got the debt I was young and didn’t really get how big an impact this could all have on my future life. So now I am having to ask for help. My mental health is being seriously affected and I have nearly lost my job this past year because of the complete breakdown I’ve been having. Fortunately I sought help and came clean with my employer and I’m hoping that things will begin to improve, even if it doesn’t feel that way now.

I need money to be able to secure a tenancy near to my current house. My son is about to go in to his final year at high school and I worry that if I am forced to go to a hostel or similar, because I can’t get a property, that it will have a big impact on his life. He needs these exams for his future. I don’t think I will ever forgive myself if my failings cause an adverse effect on his life. My other son should be applying for high school this year. Again if I have to move out of the area he will have to go to a different high school and lose all his friends he’s spent years trying to make. Both of my boys have social and communication difficulties, also known as high functioning autism. They find it very difficult adapting to change and making new friends. The result of having to move and leave people they know could have a serious impact on their wellbeing and mental health.

I realise how bad it is to have to ask for help and I’m sure many will read and think I’m not deserving of help. I’m prepared for that. But if you do think that you could help by making a donation of some sort then I would be forever grateful and humbled by your support.

PayPal.me/financialhelp567

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A Shed full of Wishes

I’m not one to ask for help let alone money, but being in my fifties, it’s now or never …

Before I explain what my wish is for, let me give you some back ground information:

I have always worked for a living. Over the years I have scrimped and saved until five years ago was able to buy a tiny* (although rundown) two bedroom bungalow in Wales UK.  Since then I have been trying to do a little renovation when I can (no, I don’t want money for that) but as years go by our income seems to cover less and less.

I try to save but something crops up to empty the pot time and time again. I stopped drinking and smoking four years ago to save a few pounds (still tea total and smoke free to this day … I am so proud of myself!)  I’ve also sold all my good jewellery just to pay for the last heating oil bill we had (we’re determined not to get in to debt) but my dream keeps getting further and further out of reach.

So this is my wish …. I would like to build a shed.

Yes I know, out of all the wishes in the world … I wish for a shed!

I was brought up with the notion that if you can’t afford it you go without and I have been quite happy to live that way. I love the simple things in life, I make do and mend when I can and over time have picked up many skills in the process. I have also picked up an array of hobbies, if it’s creative I probably do it! I make jewellery, crochet, macramé, Pyrography a little painting, photography …. You get my drift.

Remember I mentioned the size of our home?* Well this is becoming an issue, we have no room to manoeuvre with all the craft stuff and tools everywhere, and no extra cash to create more room!

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It’s a catch-22 situation, if I could make and sell enough of my creations I could make the money to build a shed, but I don’t have the room to work and store enough creations to sell to make this much money quickly. I made the pieces pictured above along with a few other items which are stored in a box in the wardrobe at the moment. I am in the process of itemising everything  so that I can create a website, but it’s difficult working with a board on my lap in the living room!

This shed will give my family their home (and sanity) back; It will also give me my space to concentrate and develop my skills further then eventually start selling my work as a side line, resulting in a better income and in turn we’ll be able to afford to finish renovating this little rundown house of ours before I retire from my full time job. Therefore this shed needs to last.

You’re probably wondering where my family are financially in all this. My partner is disabled and had to retire due to his illness when he was in his thirties. My son, who is 20, was due to finish college this year until the lockdown, he is now unemployed with no income because we’re shielding … did I mention my house was small?

The Shed

I will need to employ someone to lay a base, build, treat and fully insulate the shed, add shelving and add an electrical power point.

From information I have collected online, the estimated cost of the build is £5,000 – this includes everything except for the electric (I can’t for the life of me find an electrician to come and give me a quote, so I shall have to just make do with an extension lead to start with!)

I really hope you will be able to donate towards this project so that I can get on with doing what I’m good at … creating.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post.

In anticipation,

https://paypal.me/DTpyrography?locale.x=en_GB

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My daughters wedding

Well i never ever thought i would turn to this in my lifetime. I am at the stage right now where i am about to end it all.

Last year i lost everything, my wife, my house, my car, everything that i had good in my life. My wife was diagnosed with cancer earlier in the year and it was diagnosed too late. They tried chemotherapy to no avail. I quit my job as a head chef at a pretty high class restaurant to look after her and spend the time she had left together, making memories, doing everything in my power to make sure she was treated like a princess and happy. It killed me knowing the outcome of it all and seeing her health decline, knowing there was nothing i could do to take this horrible disease away!! I just had to put on a brave face and smile. She did the exact same, but i could see in her eyes she was so scared.

In her final days my daughter Olivia and i would visit for hours on end just reminiscing about all the amazing times we had and what the future holds for Olivia as got engaged November 27th 2018, so she talked about her wedding and what she had planned for it and who she was inviting. It was nice to see her still laughing and smiling.

But before we knew it she was gone. So quickly.

All my savings went to funeral costs, i had to sell the house and car to pay off all of our debts, so i now rent a one bedroom flat in the town. I cant get a job due to coronavirus. I feel like my life has just been blown to pieces and i have no way of getting back on track whatsoever.

My daughters wedding is in 9 months time, and i have no way on earth of getting money to pay for it. I cant afford to keep myself going nevermind a wedding!! I feel totally ashamed of myself for being in this situation. My wife would never in a million years thought i would end up like this.

The only thing that matters to me more than anything is walking my daughter down the isle and bringing happiness to us both after this horrible horrible time. It would truly be a special occasion and would mean the absolute world to her!.

If any of you amazing people can relate to me, and find it in your hearts to help me make my daughters dream come true, i will be eternally greatful and in your debt for the rest of my life.

I feel so ashamed of myself for doing this. But i know that there are truly special people in this world.

I reall dont know how to thank anyone that helps me. But if i can in the future i will repay you somehow!!!

I am looking to try and raise £15-£20,000.

If anyone can find it in their hearts to help me fulfill this dream of mine my paypal is

https://paypal.me/Grega2488

I am eternally thankful

God bless you all

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Requesting Money For Rent(Urgent)

Hi there.My name is izhabel. I’m 18 years old and i’m writing here today because i desperately need help to pay my Rent bill. I am currently £-15 into an unarranged overdraft and i do not get paid for another 3 weeks. I Recently have been struggling to Manage my bills and as a result i have ended up owing nearly £100 to my rent which i cannot pay as i have no money.I know this is a big ask but i assure you that your kindness would be very much appreciated and would mean the world to me. If i get evicted then i will become homeless and that is something that really scares me.I don’t get paid much from my job and nearly all my money goes towards bills and this month my bills were too high for me to pay and i face eviction if i do not pay my Rent, I have tried to look for better jobs but it is so hard right now especially where I live and i have tried several ways to earn more money but have had no success hence why I am here today to ask for help to pay my rent. It’s been so hard recently to keep up with bills and with a donation then i’m sure it will help me for the near future and allow me to stay in my Flat. I don’t know how long this takes to go through or if it is even legitimate but i felt that i had to do this because i have no way of Finding or making money at all to pay off my Bill. If anyone is willing to help me then i can promise that you won’t regret it and you will have put a smile on my face.If You decide to not donate then it’s fine and i can totally understand because at the end of the day, it’s your money. It says that I have to write 400 words but i can’t think of much more to say regarding this. I know there is probably people out there who deserve a donation more than me but I’m going to try anyway because the thought of being out on the streets and homeless is so scary and it’s definitely something that has kept me up at night a lot recently. I don’t have any contact with my mother anymore as she moved to live with my uncle after her split with My Dad who i also don’t talk to anymore.I had to move out at 18 because of the hostility in the household and it was evident that we didn’t have a good relationship as a family. I wasn’t really prepared or had the funds to do so but i’ve been trying my very best to make ends meet since then which means some days i have to go without food etc. if anyone could donate anywhere between £60-£100 then you will have helped me massively for this month.

Thank you For your time and Take care. if you would like to discuss any of this then please email me

paypal.me/Izzymozgov20

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Help my nan

Hiya, I’m not much of a person who normally asks for help but I guess here I am asking for it.

I didn’t have a normal childhood, my dad used to abuse my mum and left when my mum was pregnant with my sister (I was 2 at the time) my mum developed serious mental health and was unable to look after us. My great nan then decided to look after us. She shortly passed away in 2014 and my nan has taken over the role. She has done so much for me and now I wish to do something for her. My mum got her into so much debt and looking after me and my sister is not the easiest when I am in uni and she is in a level and things are expensive to buy such as books, clothes etc as well as paying for the bills. We all work but it just isn’t enough.

I want my nan to be debt free. Which is why I’m requesting £20k this is a lot of money yes… however anything helps. I thank you in advance. Here is my paypal link:

https://www.paypal.me/laurynwood19

Thank you 🙏🏼💓

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Emergency money

Hi, I have got myself into financial trouble which is making me severely depressed. I am £2,000 in debt and my job is about to end in 2 months as it is temporary. I know it’s a big ask but any help would be much appreciated. Thank you in advance.

https://www.paypal.me/caz509

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Aiming for a brighter future

I have a problem of not being able to say no to my family, and that has got me into some financial difficulties…

I’ve been brought up with the understanding that family is incredibly important.

6 years ago both my parents had lost their jobs, I was still living at home and I only had a part time job, at the time I picked up any overtime I could, sometimes starting at 8am and not finishing til 10pm. Which enabled us to be able to pay the bills. After showing hard work and willing I was moved into full time hours which was great! A year or so later, my parents were sleeping in separate beds, and had ended their relationship. Shortly after our landlord decided to sell the house, and I was the only one with a job and decent credit score, so I took out loans to help with deposits and moved in with my mum.

I was in a fair bit of debt, trying to support my family, falling deeper into debt and struggling.

Then I met the absolute love of my life. We got engaged almost two years ago. I had never thought to think about my future when supporting my family, but now I’d love to be married and start a family, he’s in his late 30s and I’m in my late 20s, so time is ticking. With the level of debt I have at the moment, it would take me at least 5 years to pay it off. I’m paying out over £700 a month purely to debt. And the rest of my wage covers normal bills.

My two sisters have since disowned my dad as he had a temper growing up, and as much as life would be easier if I did the same, however he has been suicidal and is in great financial difficulty since splitting from my mum, so I can’t bring myself to cut him off, no matter how abuser he can be, as if something happened, I could never forgive myself. he asked for money often, just to buy food, and I’m all he has so I feel like I can’t say no.

I was finally making some head way with my debt last year, however my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer and had to undergo surgery, a mastectomy, and took 4 to 5 months off work, I used my holidays from work to look after her, and worked overtime to help support her whilst she was in sick pay.
But it wasn’t enough and I took on more debt to help see her through. (She doesn’t know this as I don’t want to stress her).
My older sister visited once for a day to help, and my younger sister helped in her half term from uni.
It’s been incredibly hard, but I’m so lucky to still have both parents and won’t take it for granted. I would just love to be able to put some focus on my future, but it seems impossible and I can’t see a way out.
Any help would be incredible.
Thank you.

https://paypal.me/brighterfuture20

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Help funding education!

Hello,

My name is Nadine and I’m 26. Ever since I was young, I’ve had a fascination with the weather and wanted to study it further. My dream was to be a storm chaser and I used to watch the TV show every day after school!

But after a lot of bullying in school, that caused me to completely lose my confidence and drop out it meant that I did not pass any of my exams, and I have no formal qualifications. I did not go to college or university when everyone else graduating from my school did. After moving to the city and financially struggling for a while when I had no family support I ended up doing admin work, which paid the bills, barely. I now work for the emergency services and have been doing so throughout the Covid pandemic, when I have realised that life is short and I am not satisfied with what I do and need to be in a better place financially also. I am now trying to earn qualifications in a field that will help me support my family better.

I’ve wanted to further my education for a while but I also have a 4 year old child who was born when I was 21. My partner stays home full time to look after him, and I am the main money earner in the family, so unfortunately we don’t have the money for me to study and any money we make goes back into paying for our child and our home. 

I’m hoping to raise enough to be able to take an online course and get a degree in Meteorology. I have already undertaken several free online courses for this and it is a field that I find incredibly interesting, however, I need a certified version in order to apply for related jobs. I will also hopefully be able to live my dream one day of seeing a real tornado!

Therefore, any donation at all would be greatly appreciated, even (0.01!) and my family would be very grateful. I’m not close with my own family for their financial support and I dont have a wide social circle to ask for donations. However, I strongly believe in paying it forward and if I receive any donations I’ll be sure to put them back in to others who need them when I am able to. 

Thank you for reading!

paypal.me/nadinenhw

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crazy time

hello, hello anyone there,

with a good heart and willing to care,

times are hard in these desperate times,

so hard have started talking in rhymes,

never has a year given so much stress,

cant pay my bills, feel like a test,

this a plea for me to say,

if you could help me financially in any way,

you would be a legend and save the day,

I am so distraught on what to do,

i will forever be grateful because of you

https://paypal.me/kennedy642

 

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when does it get better

hello there,

I am a 32 year old who suffers with bipolar personality disorder along with stomach scaring from a hysterectomy making my mobility limited and get around using a mobility scooter or a walker. Last few years life has truly been difficult escaping domestic violence and starting fresh with my daughter. During these desperate times i have become in debt and truly starting from nothing including broken mobility scooter.Enough of all the doom and gloom though although times have truly been testing me I am on medication and much more settled in life. My only issue is i have so many debts and do not want to loose another home any help to get me in a place am more stable again would be a dream come true. If any money is not going towards bills or a new scooter i am desperate to see my youngest sister who is pregnant but lives in new mexico. I have never asked for support before like this. whoever you are even if it 1P it would truly help. I had to borrow a laptop to even write this. I am Determined to begin a future instead of being stuck in the past. Thank you for taking the time to read and i wish you every luck for the future

https://paypal.me/kennedy642

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PLEASE HELP CHANGE MY LIFE. I WOULD BE SO GRATEFUL

Please help me, I would actually love you forever because of the situation I’m in is very hard to get out of. I’m 18 and I’ve always had a passion for music.

However my whole life has been a constant depression, bullied for as long as I can remember up until this year, for literally nothing, or just the fact that I’m me, an easy target. My mental illnesses have made me think I’m worthless and I had no idea what I wanted to do with myself, because I had a constant feeling in the head that everyone is better than me and I can’t do what I want without people thinking I’ve done wrong, and therefore I cannot even interact or communicate with humans properly. I have no idea what facial expressions to make or what emotion to show when I’m being spoken too, because I haven’t had good experiences with other humans.

It’s such a horrible way to live, I’ve lost everyone, because I can’t trust anyone. The things that people have put my mind through are fucking disgusting and I wouldn’t wish anyone to go through the same stuff. And most of them haven’t even said anything about what has happened, so I’ve got to live with all that shit. And even my family don’t support me, they just love themselves to much to even give me a thought. Been stuck in my mind for ages.

So I’ve been going at this alone now for so long and I’ve realised I’m going to need to ask for peoples help because I can’t do it. And I’ve tried therapy and medication and none of those things work, meds make me feel reckless, they help with depression, but they make me not care about living, like I don’t have emotions. And that’s worse than depression, because it’s scary.

And therapists don’t understand the way I think, I’ve been too a few and they make me do stuff that makes me have panic attacks and sweat like mad, literally do the opposite of help. And I know it’s not their fault, I’m grateful for them trying to help, it just isn’t for me. What I need is to get my life on track and is why I’m making this.

I need to get started making music, I’ve had the trial version of FL Studio, and I literally make songs that I’d listen too everyday, and I’m sure other people will as well. I was able to play piano without even being taught, and I’ve been using music as a way to cope for as long as I remember, and there was a day when I realised, I should just do music, I’m a very musical person, I understand everything about it. Did it in my GCSE and got an A and didn’t even do the theory exam, just the practical. I rely on music more than I do other people literally.

Music literally controls my moods. So if I’m able to do that for a living, I don’t know how happy it will make me, but it will be better than the way I’m living now. I don’t go out or anything so it will be so good for me if can start. I just really need help because I have no hope alone.

Ive had jobs, but one was literally given to me when I was 16, but they under paid me. Was getting more from my college EMA and I had another job in a factory, they didn’t do interviews, was more like a group activity, no idea how I got hired tho cos I literally didn’t say a word to anyone. But hated it, didn’t speak to no one when I was working either and then the factory burnt down like 2 weeks after I started working so lost my job there.

I wanted to get another job so that I could save up to get a home music studio so I could live my dreams, but because I can’t have a simple conversation with anyone, no one wants to hire me, so I can’t get a job, or it is very difficult too, even more so because of this lockdown. So I’ve been sat in my room for weeks not knowing what to do with myself.

If you can help me, I will be so grateful you don’t understand. I’m not used to asking people for help, but it’s literally come dowm to last resorts, I’ve got nothing going for me, no one wants to hire me, and I’ve got no one to turn too and speak to for help. I’ve literally only got my ability to create amazing music. So I’ve got to go on the Internet and ask people I don’t know to help me but I’m hoping that I can reach someone with a big heart and someone who understands my situation.

I understand if you can’t help, don’t feel like your doing a disservice by ignoring this. I’m grateful for you just taking the time to read tbh, haven’t said any of this to anyone. But if you can help, I appreciate it so fucking much you, and when I can, I will give back to everyone who has helped, because I will not forget, as you will have changed my life around.

Thank you for reading.

Tyler

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Enbarrassed

I am usually not the type of person to do this, as I am very independent, and don’t want to burden anyone. But I am losing sleep over this, and I work in a airport as security. So that means early morning shifts with hardly any sleep.

My situation is that I just need money to pay off my three credit cards and one loan. I send my money that I earn to a family that is abroad, but ever since I told them I have no money for myself or to pay my bills, and asked if the could help me a little, they didn’t like that I asked and cut me off completely. I was very shocked to say the least.

So I have been using my credit cards, even a little before the pandemic and also during. This is because I was still working. And it also didn’t help that my job cut our pay too. I didn’t get furloughed and was putting my health on the line to get people back home to their countries. And I have been trying so hard to pay them off every month, but they keep piling up. The one loan that I have, I just want to get it off my shoulders honestly.

I will, of course, happily pay you back and set up a direct debit, if that is what you would like to do. After being rejected for a unsecured loan many times just clear the balances, and pay one monthly payment instead of four. I wouldn’t even mind you being my guarantor. I just want to get these payments out of the way. So I can enjoy my life. Oh, I failed to mention, I am 25 years old.

I will not mind showing my credit utilisation either, just so you know I am not pulling the wool over your eyes and I can also show you my loan that I need to pay off.

I always make payments on time though, so there is no missed payments at all. I just want to have a better credit score so I can look towards my future. But my family didn’t have my best interests at heart.

Here it goes, I would like to borrow £4442.62($5600)

I know it is a lot that’s why I wouldn’t mind you being my guarantor because I can make the monthly payments. Or getting the money borrowed and then paying you back through a direct debit, you know?

I completely understand if it is not do-able because it is a lot. I have tried everything. From unsecured loans, to asking my mum, who is a single mother of 2, to my Grandad who is retired, but doesn’t get a lot pension. I am very self-less and independent, and rarely ask for things. But I have tried everything that I could do, and it was a fail, but I don’t plan on giving up.

I just want to move on from this and be free.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I appreciate your time.

paypal.me/SelflessZ33

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Please help – Homeless and alone

Hello,

I wouldn’t normally do this but when life has turned 360 on you, you don’t really see any other ways out. I don’t have any luck or hope left.

Going back 7-8 months ago now, I was working at a bank, happily with good people, a relationship that had its ups and downs but we was working, good friends around me. I always suffered with my mental health since I was 16, I am currently 25 years old.

My childhood was rough – dad use to hit me as this was a normality from where we came from, mum use to watch and let it be as maybe she feared the same would come for her and brother just used to run away as this was easier. The abuse was always there at home but I tried to stay strong throughout. Then by 14, I’d got in a relationship with an older man, not noticing how wrong this was. My innocence had gone – this went on for 2 years. I barely passed my GCSEs. By 16, I’d ran away from home, slept on the streets until my mum found me and took me home promising thing would get better. For a while it was good – The man who took my innocence was no longer around after posting pictures of me and sending to friends and family, punishing me for not wanting a life of drugs and alcohol and living on the dole. I wanted to be better and not let this destroy me. But it had given me something I could never get rid off – Panic attacks, paranoia and depression.

17,18,19 – Life was ok, college was okay, my mental health had got better. I was trying to get my life back. 20, Id met another man, wonderful at first but physically and mentally abusive down the line – once again the past was repeating itself. I’d started studying again to better my future – a degree that proved to be useless down the line :/

So, out of Uni, I get a job, not the best money but something to live on, then another job in a bank – My life was looking a little brighter – Id thought maybe just maybe, the storm was passing and the rainbow was finally shining through.

Just before Christmas last year, they tell me my contract is ending and they have to let me go – 2 weeks before Christmas – I felt my life slipping from my hands and self-destruction was the only thing on my mind. My medication was not working like it did 3 years ago when it was prescribed to me. It had not been as useful as it was before.

They say bad luck comes in 3’s right – well, it sure did for me. I couldn’t get another job during Christmas as ofcourse there was hardly anyone hiring. It had come to Feb – I’d attempted suicide because my weak mind couldn’t take the pain anymore. There I was in a mental health unit wondering where did it all go so wrong?

I couldn’t celebrate my birthday as there was nothing to celebrate. Lockdown was here and there was even less chance of finding a job now. Months go by and still no hope. Living at home with my father, mother and brother was becoming unbearable.

He was never a supportive man, unlike some fathers (from what I’ve heard from friends and my ex partners fathers) – get an interview to be told you could have done better and look for more money – Imagine a dad who never hugged his children or told them hes proud – fondest memories are only a smack in the face or a kick in the belly- thanks dad. I was not born cold or bitter. Sometimes the world makes us this way.

Lets fast forward to now, sorry I have gone on, I just wanted to get my point across and for some reason this is helping me feel at peace in a strange way letting out my pain to strangers. I’ve never done this before.

Arguments had got worse and the storm was now a hurricane – they told me to leave, chucked me on the street with no where to go. Cold and alone, I turned to the mental health team that I was with during Feb time. I had stayed in a park for a few days and considered all sorts for money. sometimes your mind won’t think rationally when your’e hungry.

I am currently in a temp accommodation in a nasty area. I fear for my safety every day, according to the council I am not a priority need. I look for accommodation or a job day in day out with no luck what so ever. :(

I contemplate suicide but I know it will not help anyone in the future as I’d rather show my future child or someone who ended up in the same position that – it is not the right way.

I ask for your help today, for any funds, I am on universal credit, I have a little room in this hostel without a kitchen so I cannot cook any food. I ask for any support please as I am running out of money and not sure where I will end up soon due to the lockdown being eased and they may not be able to keep me in this hotel for the foreseeable future – have been told I may have to leave end of July.

I’m doing this as my last resort as I have no family around, I’m really alone here and frightened for the future. I hope one day I can help people that have gone through a similar thing to me – whether they have mental health or not, been made homeless, had a traumatic past.

I will save it and if the worst was to happen, It may buy me a few nights for somewhere to stay or just to buy some food for now. Sorry this was long, but I hope there is someone out there that could please help me with anything, anything will help. Thank you. G

ps. Sorry I didn’t know what to put as the pic.