I’m not a negative person! If you met me, you would discover how cheerful and     positive I am. I’m usually not angry at those who have cars, houses and country    houses. In fact, most of me (I would say 90 percent of me) completely ignore money and status.
But when money and  life status become what one is treated as a human being, then even I can not ignore this.

I have always believed that there is a meaning to everything you get to experience in life, that we end up in trials that will strengthen us for the next challenges. This has helped me to be strong over the years.
I was raised not to ask for things and not to acknowledge shortcomings and show weaknesses in public, a belief or ideology that I held tight to because it is a sin and extremely shameful to fail.

A year ago I had a good job, a job that many people probably wrinkle their noses at but I was happier than ever because I felt appreciated, my family appreciated me, I was good and could pay my bills and rent.
I lost my job due to covid and the company had to make savings. Since then, I have hung loosely on a thin rope.

I was devastated, like a carpet was pulled under my feet and I fell into an endless  hole. How can something like this happen and how can an innocent person end up with such consequences, I never understood.
I applied for unemployment insurance and was granted this, SEK 200 a day.
I could no longer afford to stay in my apartment and had to cancel it, in a panic I     sold everything I owned to have a small buffer for necessities.
Time passed and I could no longer pay my bills in full. I incurred a debt, a debt built from my previous life with a normal everyday life. I had taken out a loan to help    my parents, now I could no longer repay the bank and my parents distanced themselves in the same vein as I lost my job, I no longer had any value for them.
This debt ended up with the authorities and from then on I will never being able    to move on.
I have nowhere to live, as long as I have debts, I am not trusted with any lease and no one wants me as a resident.
I have applied for hundreds, if not thousands of jobs, a few I have been interviewed, but when they are to check my credit rating, I have to turn in the door, as long as I have a debt, I am more worries for them than help.
I have unemployment insurance for another 125 days. A sum every month that I   can afford to get food on after the authority has taken what they can.

The other night I was awake and regretted not buying a condominium when I was younger. I tore my hair over the fact that I did not go to college instead that funny part-time job in the kitchen that did not lead to a proper job. I resented the fact     that I had always been so gullible and always thought that goodness pays off

The thing is. I do not want you to buy me a car, I’m not looking for extra money for pleasure. I am not interested in a single krona in addition to what must be paid in this debt.
Every day and every night I have spent trying to find a solution, but all the doors   are closed.
I have written so many letters, so many words to municipalities, authorities, the    church, the Prime Minister, all the richest people in the world without any                answers or help. I have applied for all the jobs that have emerged, both those for which I am qualified but also those for which I could have learned. I have tried to   sell myself to get help with paying, but there is no help to get.
I can not even afford to ask for help, how crazy is that?

Sometimes I think of this thought..if everyone was willing to send 1SEK, we could solve this together in a day.

So can I, with the help of you, unknown people gather so that I can pay off this debt?
For me, it would mean that I can get a job, eventually get a home, get a reason to   continue living, sleep at night under a roof, get a belief that it is not wrong to ask for help, to be vulnerable, and above all that it is never too late to believe.

An opportunity, a chance to have a life. The words are torn in both my thoughts and my mouth – Is there anyone who can help me start over?

Just over two weeks ago, I tried to take my life. After many months of toil and cries for help, I realized that there is no way out. I have no value, I am a lone individual who is just burdening right now.
I decided the second I woke up again in the exact same place, that I should try one last time.
The debt needs to be paid off as soon as possible.

I will be forever grateful to you and I will always continue to help others.

If I come out of this, I will be the one to help when there is people who is stop believing.

All papers and documents are available to anyone who wishes.

Paypal.Me/bellaekne

<span;>Hello, I am a 21 year old student, and live with my sister who is two years younger and also a student, and a single mother. My parents have divorced about six years ago due to my father being an abusive alcoholic and bringing our family in danger because of money he owed to a lot of shady people. He spent most of his money and stole my mother’s money for alcohol. He moved abroad after the divorce, and got a job as an engineer. He left us with his debts, and we almost lost our home and got kicked out on the streets by the government twice. We managed to pay that off and somehow get out of it, but in turn spent most of the savings we had, and my mother has a minimum wage job that just barely covers monthly expenses, and we’re behind on some bills. My father hasn’t payed child support while my sister and I were still underage, so technically we can sue him for years of unpaid child support, but since the last time we heard from his boss he wouldn’t give him money because he either buys alcohol or gambles it away. He only gets a part of his pay every day for food and water.

I have a part time job, I’m a freelance tutor. I’ve been working to the point of exhaustion and I ended up neglecting my studies in the process, just because it’s on me to pay some of the bills and because my mom can’t do it alone. My sister goes to a university in another city, and it’s a very good university and she gets a little money from the government since she’s an excellent student, but it’s barely enough to cover a part of her yearly expenses for the dorm and classes.

My grandfather payed for me to get a driver’s liscence from the money he got after my grandmother’s funeral a few months ago, and we don’t even have a car anymore because we sold it.

The heating bills over the winter are criminally high here, so it’s pretty tough to pay them in whole. Besides this, I would love if I were able to get a car so I can drive my sister to her uni, so I can see my girlfriend who also lives in another city, and to just use it to help us around, because due to the pandemic situation and due to this city not being the richest, transportation is limited.

I would greatly appreciate any amount of help, I would give part of the money to my sister to help her out with university and dorm fees, to my mother to pay all the bills and any expenses she has, and I’d leave a part for myself to pay for my phone bill, my family’s internet bill (it’s essential for me because I work online) pay my university fees and save up to hopefully buy an okay used car. Thank you if anyone reads this and decides to help.

My country doesn’t offer much help with anything, due to poor economy and really low currency value. I hate that I have to turn to this and ask strangers for money, but for two months already I’ve been running on minimal amount of money and waiting for the next time I get payed with an empty bank account and wallet and I don’t know what to do anymore and don’t want to burden my mother. Thank you so much.

paypal.me/pmarija999