Hi there to all the other dreamers out there. I’m newly disabled after years of a mystery illness. It took 6 years to diagnose and I thought my life was over at 41 years old. My mother died at 38 years old so I figured it was my time. She had a very rare disorder called Pheaochromacytoma. A rare tumor on her adrenal glands. We didn’t know and she was gone within 72 hours. Fast forward to 2010 and I’m diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I was never able to have children and nobody wanted to marry a broken woman. In late 2019, I began having major issues with slowing down, profusely sweating with a tiny movement, brain fog, fast weight gain. To shorten the agonizing tale, 6 years later they figured out it is Secondary adrenal insufficiency. Slowly I’ve begun feeling a bit like a human. My family took me on a cruise for the first time and I met someone. I still feel sickly and feel ugly and fat but this person made me feel incredible. He works on a ship though. We’ve been seeing each, we’ll as best as long distance like that can possibly do. We’re falling in love but it’s incredibly complicated. As a disabled person, I am on a ridiculously limited income. I’m here begging and I mean begging to get some funds to help facilitate our rare chances to be together in person. I can visit him more often but not without help. And it’s only for a day or 2 at a time. This is no fantasy. He’s a beautiful man from another country and we’re trying to make our own magic. I’m just started to feel alive again but I can’t do it alone. I stopped believing I’d ever find love and sort of stopped believing in love at all. I want desperately to believe in magic. In fact he’s actually a magician as wild as that sounds. If you still believe and want to bless someone, I could never be thankful enough. I could never say words to fully express my gratitude but I vow to keep spreading love and positivity. I’m 47 now and probably never felt joy like this in my entire life. After years of surgeries, injuries, medical drama, traumatic deaths, it feels like maybe the universe is ready to let me breathe.
For those still here, I’m Tina and here’s my link