Hi my name is Joshua I am married and I have 3 kids all of which are still very young they are very precious to me as should anyone’s children be but anyways on a further note we have 3 vehicles 2 of which aren’t drivable due to mechanical issues I’m working on fixing and of course money is tight especially nowadays with this virus going on and me losing my job because of it we have fallen behind on payments severely with our newest car that we have had for almost 2 years that when we got things were a lot different then how it is now but the bank recently issued me a letter saying if I don’t come up with the owed money soon they will repossess our car that we use to drive just about everywhere we owe 25,000 on it it’s a 2015 Jeep renegade that we got suckered big time into getting and now are wishing we did not get it it would be nice to just fully pay it off and get this debt off our heads and still have something that doesn’t have mechanical issues due to being lower mileage and newer it’s especially rough with Christmas right around the corner and having no money I hope this gets to someone who can possibly help my family it would mean the world to me to be able to keep this car and not struggle paying for it due to my job situation thank you and god bless.
Please help clear debt so I can Teach English as a Foreign Language (TEFL) in Poland
I was employed for years with a good airport management job. That came to an abrupt end last May because of the dire situation in the travel industry related to Covid-19. Since then, I have had to reassess my priorities and mull over what I want to do in the next phase of my life.
I was an exchange student in Krakow, Poland back when Solidarity was fighting the communist government at the time. I chose Krakow based on my Polish heritage but didn’t realize what that time in history would really be like to see first hand. It turned out to be the most impactful experience molding the rest of my life and allowed me to appreciate everything we take for granted.
I have traveled to Poland every chance I get and even was able to obtain dual citizenship. That gives me a great opportunity to live and work in Poland and throughout the EU. I am currently getting my TEFL certification and would like to teach English as a Foreign Language in Poland. Being a TEFL teacher does not provide the best pay but there are other ways to get job satisfaction seeing the similes on students’ faces when they see progress while learning a new language. When asked as a child what I wanted to be as an adult, I would always say “a history teacher” so I have teaching in my blood already.
I want to teach English in Poland but first I need to clear my debts in the USA totaling $67,300. When I lost my job, I really wasn’t prepared for the new reality. If you want to be a Secret Santa or have been blessed in your life and believe my aspirations are worthy, I would appreciate your assistance in clearing my debt burden so I can be free to move to Poland and pursue my TEFL career.
Thank you for your generosity.
Sincerely, Ken
paypal.me/krakowbound
Former foster youth
This is a duplicate post because I didn’t post my PayPal. My PayPal is PayPal.me/ThatCookieMonster
My name is Patricia and I am 24 years old. I was placed into the foster care system when I was 5 years old and aged out at 21 years of age. Though most of my life I was moved from home to home and school to school I still managed to go down the right path. I graduated high school early and even enrolled at a junior college. I was on the path toward adoption but was quickly asked to move out after my attempted suicide. I’ve been on my own for the last three years and though I feel blessed to be where I am, I am drowning in debt because I was never properly shown the reality of credit cards. I’m trying my best but with the pandemic hitting it feels like I can’t seem to catch a break. I took a leap of faith and quit my full time job to give my all into my externship for medical school. I was able to get by with credit cards & of what little savings I had. However, now that I’ve been hired on after graduation it just seems like I can’t catch up with everything. On top of my credit card loans, I also had to get another loan to get my car out of repossession. I only did this because it’s my only way to get to and from work. When I’m not working, I do DoorDash, but again that costs money. Christmas is coming up and in a way I’m blessed since I do not have a family to gift to. I spend what other time I have left studying for my classes. After graduating from medical assisting school, I enrolled into a junior college in hopes of qualifying for financial aid but due to not meeting the deadlines, I won’t be seeing anything until the Spring semester. I have people messaging me every week asking for the money that I borrowed from them which ranges from $25-100. I did what I could to get by but now that I have this $12hr job as a medical assistant I can’t seem to pay much of anyone back. Between my credit card bills, the loan for my car being repossessed, my new car payment, car insurance, groceries, and rent, I just don’t know what to do. I do not have family to go to since I was in foster care. I’ve reached out to my siblings but they don’t respond. No one will give me a loan, so I guess that’s why I’m here. If I had this second chance with someone to help me, I’d feel eternally thankful.
Not as Planned
Thanks for your generosity no matter whom you choose to help!
No one ever thinks they will be on the receiving end. I was the one always helping others. I had six biological children, adopted a six yo girl, raised my cousins 12yo daughter after she passed and had a foster daughter whom Im still close to.
I gave up my career for 15years while raising and homeschooling the children. After a nearly 35 year marriage I went through an horrific divorce. I lost $40,000.00 in attorneys fees but I did get full custody of my two minor children. I was left with $18,000 in CC debt as a result of my ex being out of work for over a year and then him being under employed for years.
I am now unable to work in my profession, hair stylist, due to arthritis, carpal tunnel and herniated disc and arthritis in my back. I am currently seeking treatment for my back, not sure what that will entail. there is nothing I can do about my hands that will heal them.
I have a small pension and just started collecting my small SS payments. I wish I could ask my children for financial help but they are either young or raising their own children on one income. I moved to Texas a year and a half ago for the lower cost of living but it is still a struggle.
I have been renting a room from a friend but she wants her house back as she is not used to living with someone. I would love to get my own apartment but my income is not adequate. If I had the money I could purchase an RV or mobile home. I do not need much and I live very simply.
Thank you for taking the time to read this!
Need help getting apartment and car.
So hello I’ll introduce myself, My name is Bailey. I grew up in a not so good home I didn’t get the future I wanted at all and neither did my Boyfriend Troy. We both grew up around drugs and alcohol and didn’t have access and help and guidance that what needed. Once I got old enough to understand things I tried to get away from the negativity in my home but my dad was controlling and also had a girlfriend that was controlling and abusive mentally and physically. I tried calling cops and CPS but they never did anything about it I was concerned unruly. Then I ended up meeting Troy the love of my life and got pregnant at 17 (I am now 18 and our daughter is 2) I thought things were gonna get better because I was a mom and thought I would be considered an adult and wouldn’t be controlled anymore but I was wrong they ended up kidnapping our daughter 3 times and the cops did arrest them or let me press charges and then my dads girlfriend beat me up in her house and my dad still continued to be with this women and choose her over his daughter, they would call my a whore and a bad mom and say I’m never gonna succeed in life because of my social anxiety and depression and make fun of me about my mental illness my dads girlfriend would also beat my dad in-front of me and also got my dad jumped in the road and then blamed it in on and this is how I got here. I am now living with my boyfriend and daughter because I got thrown out of my dads because in there eyes everything that went wrong with their relationship was my fault. At my boyfriends we struggle very bad we don’t really have family that supports us and wants to help they are all mean and greedy towards us and harass us and we don’t know why our lives are like this. We try to get jobs but can’t keep them because we have no transportation or help we Hardly have food in the house and sometimes don’t eat on days and it’s extremely hard when you have a 2 year old daughter we have some assistance through the government but limited and it’s not possible to live off of. We try getting loans but also don’t work because no credit and we have had to pawn items that were all that we had. I hate asking for help but it’s all I have left in me we are so depressed and anxious and worried all the time, we just wanna be blessed for once and have good luck for once so we can get a car and get an apartment and start over and have the best life ever together and have an amazing family and raise our daughter in a good environment and a healthy environment so she don’t have to grow up like we did. I’ve tried everything at this point to make some extra cash to hold this house and family together I’ve went to the extinct of spending ours on inbox dollars and swag bucks but it never works to be enough to live on. I just really wanna be blessed and have the ability to finally do something with our life’s! It’s really hard starting from nothing and it feels like your in hole and can’t get out and every step you take your pushed back like 20 more. But I guess that’s all if someone read this THANK YOU for taking your time to read this and I hope you have a blessed day!
PayPal.me/mollyburge
Once again THANK YOU even if you don’t give anything thank you for reading my story💛
Beautiful two and a half year old girl needs a good Christmas 2020
Hello to all my name is Mary morrow I’m 28 years old. I have one biological daughter who is 2 and 1/2 years old her name is Lydia. I also have three stepchildren Holly whom is 19 Sarah who will turn 16 3 days after Christmas and are one sweet boy Timothy who is 12. I’m sure there’s no lack of creativity on this blog but in my life experience I have found honesty brings the best results. So here it goes nothing keeping my story as honest and simple as possible I am a loving caring mother to all four children not just the one I gave birth to, but I’m suffering from addiction. I have been to rehabs I’ve been to meetings I’ve been clean and sober multiple times but as all addicts know it only takes one mistake to fall back into active addiction. When Lydia was born but I and my precious newborn tested positive for marijuana I did actively smoke marijuana my entire pregnancy and self-reported that drug use to my prenatal physician every appointment that I saw the baby doctor it was the only way I could hold down any food at all during my pregnancy. My physician advised me that in his personal opinion it was acceptable but by medical standards of his profession if at the time of birth the child test positive for marijuana DHS would immediately become involved. When I gave birth both me and my precious newborn tested positive for marijuana so in the great state of Arkansas in which I live we have a Garrett’s law which states any child born with any illegal substance and their system must go through the necessary measures to definitively prove the child would not be neglected or put in a harmful a situation in order to maintain custody well I did what I had to do I stopped smoking marijuana I got DHS out of our life or so I thought when Lydia was 6 and 1/2 months old DHS came over one evening around 7:30 p.m. to do a truancy call on the other children in my care I open my door welcome the caseworker inside knowing that my case was Lydia had already been closed. As the caseworker step through the threshold of my door she immediately States that there’s a strong odor coming from my residence she asked what it was and immediately admitted that the smell she was referring to was marijuana that my parents had just left a few minutes before she arrived and while my parents were at my house we smoked a joint so there was still an odor remaining inside that’s when the caseworker informed me that even though my case was Lydia had technically been closed for several months because she was born under a Garrett’s law case that the department of human services retains the right to reopen a case as they see fit within the first year of life and saying as my daughter was only six and a half months old she felt it necessary to not only reopen my case but remove the children from my care. My daughter was placed and I foster home within 24 hours the other children were taken and their biological mother was contacted to come and take possession of the children. So for a year and a half I did everything I noted to do everything they asked of me in order to gain custody back of my daughter and which I did January the 20th 2020 she was just over a year old at the time I was getting custody almost perfect the first words the first two but she kept every first that I so longed to see I was not there and it breaks my heart now she has separation anxiety from the experience she is attached to me from the time she opens her eyes everyday until we lay down to go to sleep each night. Somewhere along the road of recovery I slept and fell back into addiction this time instead of simply smoking a joint to calm down I found myself immersed in the presence of methamphetamines it pains me to admit this especially the strangers but I have been through treatment I’ve been down the road of recovery clean and sober so many times and still somehow find myself leading a life of addiction I don’t spend much money on the drug but only because I’m a beautiful very social woman and as any woman can vouch things simply or given to women in my position therefore by the grace of God I don’t spend the money my children need on the drug but being an addict does take a toll mentally physically and emotionally this year 2020 has been a roller coaster of ups and downs for everyone with this pandemic and the financial hardships everyone is facing how do I even begin to ask for money when so many others are trying and probably doing better than I but I am trying I do deserve a chance and even if I don’t deserve a chance if I don’t deserve someone to give to me my wonderful innocent children do they deserve everything that this life could give them even if I cannot which is why I’m breaking down and no longer staying silent and that is why I’m reaching out to strangers for financial help I just want to provide my babies even though some of them aren’t babies anymore they’re still my babies I just want to give them a Christmas that they will remember Christmas together full of all the little things in life that the wealthy take for granted it’s a little toys and trinkets and gifts that most wealthy individuals or upper class tax bracket families buy throughout the year is what I would like to be able to do one time a year for my babies Christmas is said to be the season of giving and I’m giving in and asking for help I know God hears me and he wakes me up every day knowing my full potential knowing the plan that he has made for me and all the bumps along every path that I will take it gives me hope knowing that the God above is with me through all of my triumphs and my defeats but I don’t want my children to have to pay the price for my downfall my contact information is joy.mom.7218@gmail.com or via text or call phone number 501-520-1517 thank you all or to all him have stayed to read this pathetic request of mine that means a lot even if one person takes the time to read what I have written and it weighs on them enough to help God bless stay safe and healthy I pray for all those out there thank you and remember they do deserve to have gifts under their tree even if I don’t have a good day hopefully I’ll speak to someone on this matter if not I will still praise God everyday he wakes me up as I hope you all do.
Decreasing debt and buying a car(Veteran)
Hello! My name is Relmilio J. Ortiz and I suffer from Bipolar ll disorder and anxiety disorder. I served 3-4 years as a combat engineer in the U.S. Army and now I am a college student at the University of Texas at El Paso. I am currently in the scariest place I have ever been at financially and as a last resort I ended up here. Never in a million years did I think I would be in this predicament, but here I am. I am $10,000 in credit card debt and struggling financially because of this. This year has not been the best for me with the pandemic hitting so unexpected, riots across the country, school, personal reasons, and my mental state coping with all these hardships with manic episodes or depressive states. During manic episodes I experience a high frequency of enjoyment and pleasure that takes over for a couple hours or days, and in extreme cases weeks or even a month. This is how I am in this situation unfortunately, but I have been getting help for the last year and my mind is clear and ready to tackle the mess I have created from these manic episodes. I receive help through the VA (veteran Affairs) and a veterans one stop center I go to for therapy. Currently I am working with my therapist and psychiatrist to battle my financial problems, so I can be debt free and finally buy a car, so I can be more independent. While in the military there where a lot of stressors that contributed to my conditions and when I served my time and separated honorably there was a good year of battling what I went through while in-service. I would be grateful for any donations that could help me decrease the amount of debt I am in, so I can start saving and eventually buy a car. This is an embarrassing situation to be in and it sucks when you must explain to people your condition and situation without them realizing its not your fault, but rather the aftermath of something you could not control! Through my therapy and medication over the past few months I have improved and learned to control these manic episodes. It is a beautiful thing to be able to say you have control and you are no longer blind. It would mean the world to me to receive a small amount of help to clean up and fix the financial mess I have created. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read all of this and possibly considering contributing to my cause/situation. I am thankful for whatever is donated.
In Need of a Christmas Miracle
This year has been rough for many, my family is no exception. I lost my job in March, we lost our home in May and now my husband, our 3 children (ages 8, 6 and 2 months) and I are sharing one room in an unfinished basement trying to get back on our feet.
We don’t qualify for assistance in our area as we either make to little or too much money (depending on the program). I’ve been applying for jobs since my youngest was 2 weeks old, but have had no luck, even after lowering my standards dramatically. My husband is working, but over half his paychecks go to his ex-wife, even though we share 50/50 custody and she makes more than he does. So this leaves us with roughly $600-$800 a month for bills, food and any other expenses that come up.
We are almost $20,000 in the hole, not including medical bills from my pregnancy when I had no insurance. This isn’t a lot to many in perspective, but when you don’t have a pot to piss in, it’s everything.
This Christmas I’m hoping for a miracle! I’d love to give my family something to look forward to when they wake up Christmas morning. The gifts they deserve, a nice Christmas meal and for my husband who is trying so hard to support all of us, money in our bank account. (Which is currently sitting at $1.09)
I’m a very proud woman that has never asked strangers for help before, but I’m on my knees hoping and praying someone is willing to sprinkle a little holiday cheer over us and make this year one that we will remember for a positive reason.
Thank you for reading and considering helping us, even that is more than I could have asked for.
Missy
Paypal.me/McHenryFamily
I’m finally happy enough to move on with my lif
Hi,
I’m coming to you today with complete transparency. I think that’s the only way to live nowadays. Our world is in turmoil and this trying time has allowed me to finally find the joy I’ve sought for so long.
I grew up with an abusive, drug addicted, alcoholic father. I became a pro at hiding bruises and coming up with clever stories too strange to not be believed as to why I had them. Shortly after my father was no longer in the picture my brother followed right in his footsteps and put me in the hospital as the result of him being angry when high.
At that point I left, I couldn’t deal with being hurt constantly anymore. I ran straight into the arms of a man who ultimately cheated on me and was emotionally abusive, but, true to my upbringing, I made excuses and stayed far longer than I should have. Eventually though, I found the strength to leave after I found myself afraid of him and his reactions.
After years of taking jobs that barely paid the bills as I was unable to finish college, I finally settled into a position I enjoyed with a company that valued me. Nearly 20 years after joining the workforce, I finally felt like I had found somewhere to grow. Two years after starting an entry-level position, I was promoted and thought things were finally looking up.
Then, I started to get sick. I was in excruciating pain every day and finally, after six weeks of putting it off, I went to see the doctor. That same night I was sent for an ultrasound. The next day I received a call to see a specialist. A week later I had an exam. The following week I had another exam to check the results of the first one. The next week I had an appointment with an oncologist.
I was diagnosed with endocervical adenocarcinoma and was told that the best course of treatment would be a full hysterectomy. I knew that was the only way to really find out how far the cancer had spread but it also meant I couldn’t have children. I honestly thought I didn’t want kids so it was an easy decision in the moment but then, as I waited months for the surgery to be scheduled, all while suffering extensive bleeding and pain, I realized that I’d never explored the idea of having children from within a loving relationship. I knew I couldn’t risk my life for a possible “what if” and eventually had a total hysterectomy.
It would take some time to learn the results that the margins were clean and in this time I was recovering at the home of my best friend. It was there, in the presence of a friend so good I refer to him as my brother, I decided if I had to fight, I was going to do it with the people I loved the most, my friends, the family I chose.
I left my job on good terms terrified but hoping for the best and four weeks later was told the margins were clean and that I was cancer free! I moved three hours away and into my best friend’s basement. All was great for a while, I found a job I loved that I was good at and spent time with great people while rejoicing in my second chance.
Two months after I moved in, another friend moved into the attic dormer area. At first I thought this would be fantastic, living with two of my favorite people, but the newest friend was going through a messy divorce and was abusing alcohol. Considering my history with my father and addiction, I tried to talk to her to let her know I was concerned and that her happiness was the most important. She didn’t take this well and began drinking even more. Several times doors to the home have been wide open and I have awoken to unwelcome guests all over the house. I fear for not only her safety but mine as well.
In late 2018 I had to had an emergency gall bladder removal without health insurance and ended up with a bill for almost $20,000 as a result. I took on additional jobs to help chip away at the debt incurred from both surgeries and the autoimmune disease I was diagnosed with in 2014 but ended up working myself into the ground. I was getting sick all the time because I was too busy working to actually heal and take care of myself.
Finally, putting myself last took it’s toll and I became severely depressed. I was angry all the time and wanted to just lie in bed. Finding the will to go on was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I did it. I struggled so hard but through focusing on changing my habits and mindset along with an antidepressant has turned my life around. I now have goals and am trying to better my life.
I’ve lived through difficult situations yes, but so have many others. I’ve struggled with mental illness, but so do millions of others. I’ve been the victim of physical, emotional, mental and sexual abuse, but so have TOO many others. I am no more deserving than anyone else and this story wasn’t to get you to feel sorry for me, but to tell you of the joy I’ve finally found in my heart in spite of everything.
My life may be hard at times but there is so much beauty in it. I am hoping to be able to help that joy inside me and the beauty in my life grow and that involved taking a deep look into every facet of my life. I need to remove myself from this situation where I am confronted by alcoholism daily. I need to live on my own again and prove that I am worthy of my faith in myself. I need to feel that good friends, my beautiful cats Annabelle (16) and Isabelle (14) and each day i am given are more than enough to help me find the happiness I seek.
I’m hoping as you read this you are blissfully happy or are on your way there. If possible, would you consider helping me in goal of home ownership? I don’t need much, I’m thinking a used manufactured home for under $30,000 or even less would be a palace to me and allow me the independence and joy I’ve been relentlessly seeking. Anything you would be willing to give would be appreciated more than I could possibly say and I guarantee that I will do my absolute best to be kind, live joyfully and pay it forward the best I can at every available opportunity.
https://www.paypal.me/crystalriehl
Thank you so much for your time and for being a part of my journey.
Please give a Helping hand to help me make my mother stand again
Hello my name is Danny
and i am here today to share my story with the world.
i was a college student in my first year studying science in business and this was something that my mother really wanted for me, My mother is a sergeant of police in the JCF “Jamaica Constabulary Force”.
My mother recently got sick and is diagnosed with having a brain hemorrhage.
she undergo a stroke during her surgery i thank God that she is here with us today,
right now she is recovering at a convalescence home in black river Jamaica, her entire left side cant move properly when she smiles only half of her face smiles.
i had to quit college and get a job and trust me it is not eay doing it on my own because minimum wage in Jamaica is like $7000 JMdollars and JMD to USD that is like working for $55 USD a WEEK!
Most of the times my mom medication kills me because they are really expensive, i hated begging and asking for help out of desperation even up to now.
my family members show me their true colors.. they thought my mom wasn’t going to make it and they want to take my mom credit card and debit card, her car and her accessories but the moment i stood up as a man and say no i heard from none of them and i am currently still doing everything on my own even right up to this very current day.
i might not have been the most perfect son to my mom but i am putting all my pride aside sharing our personal needs and problems with the world asking for a helping hand.
the reason why i set the goal that high is because during my mother Absence from work alloootttt of stuff lapsed on her but she does not know that i cant have anything happen to her again so i am taking on all of her burden… that is why i am here today. please share this with ur family or friends or anyone that u may know, if you even have just a penny to offer really,
i would utmostly appreciate that penny because it is better than having nothing at all.
and for proof this was my mom after her surgery
this is her now slowly recovering
i was reading her a happy mothers day card that i home made for her because i couldn’t afford any professional card.
if you want to donate through PayPal here’s my link and again even if its a penny i really really really really appreciate it www.paypal.me/Dannokun
thank you so much for your time and even if you cannot donate at all its ok thank you for atleast reading to the end, but at least donate a prayer to God for us i would be happy to know that people out there that is spiritual that cares and is praying for us :)
thanks again God Bless.
Family need help
Hello
Really thank you for taking the time to read this. My name is Nathalie from Sweden so I apologize for poor English.
I have come to a point in my life where I really have to ask for help, I usually sort it out but this time it does not work. 2 years ago I got through my long-awaited debt restructuring of 5 years was completely overjoyed and have done everything I could to keep it but due to the fact that both I and my partner are currently unemployed and I only have the unemployment fund about SEK 9,400 a month and Kent has no compensation at all, so the bills pile up. Trying to split up and push forward but it no longer holds.
And the debts to friends and family are only getting bigger. I do everything I can to maintain the debt restructuring as it will change my family’s life later on and I may finally be able to buy my own house for my family where we all have a place. Due to the fact that my partner is also in debt, this is not possible at present. My debt is over SEK 500,000 and if I manage the debt restructuring, I will be debt free in 4 years.
Then we have child allowance and housing allowance plus maintenance. The rent plus electricity, water, heat and garbage now under colder conditions goes up to 12,000sek a month. Then we have a lot of other bills on it and the food. There is rarely any money left over to pamper the children with new things.
To tell you a little about myself and my family. I am 31 years old and my name is Nathalie and I live with my partner Kent 31 years and our 4 wonderful children Cassandra 11, Lukas 9, Melizza 6 and Nelly 2 years plus we are expecting a son in March 2021. Due to the pregnancy I have huge problems especially but constant migraines and started getting back pain. We are both constantly looking for work, but unfortunately my partner does not have a driver ‘s license, I am a carpenter, I am an assistant nurse but no one wants to hire a pregnant woman.
On November 25, my oldest daughter will be 12 years old and it is so heartbreaking when you do not know how to get something for her, she is absolutely not picky and has a heart of gold. After I / we never catch up, there will also be no money left over for more than just food.
Then comes Christmas where you should try to get some Christmas presents and Christmas food for all four children, it is an equation that I unfortunately can not solve without asking for help.
I’m not asking for lots of money, I’m just asking for a helping hand to catch up with debts and bills. And a helping hand to have a memorable Christmas for my wonderful children with Christmas presents. This year, Christmas will be at home with us as the rest of the family and their cohabitants and children will be about 20 people
My mother always helps but right now I have so much debt to her that I can not ask for more help she does not have much myself.
It would have been so nice to get rid of the anxiety that constantly hangs over you when you do not know where to turn. Avoid crying in the evenings
Had this been resolved, we could have started a whole new start next year.
Thank you for all the people you help. And even if you do not want or can help me, I wish you a really Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Christmas for my son
My son is disabled with a rare chromosome deletion and we are struggling this year financially due to COVID-19. My wife lost her job and we have spiralled further and further into credit card debt. I just want my son to have a great Christmas. He is 4 now and that is the first Christmas I remember from my childhood so would like some help to make it extra special.
People out there need your help, I just want it
Hello, thank you for reaching out.
My name is Denise, I am 41 years old living alone in London.
I always worked very hard. From the age of 15 I had my first formal job but had my obligations at home since I was 9 or younger. My parents always worked very hard and could never afford someone to look after us and our house. Being the older sibling, I was responsible for keeping out rented place clean and to feed my brother.
I grew into a bossy controlling person and have several social issues due to this earlier responsibilities. I was married for 6 years but it didn’t work. I’ve been single for four years now. The older I get the pickier I get. I never felt maternal, I probably just didn’t want to take care of anyone as I felt (emotionally) neglected as a child. I don’t really have happy memories as a child when it come to family, I don’t even have many photos as my parents couldn’t afford buying films, when they did it would sit in the fridge for ages before they could develop them.
I came to London in 2008 full of hopes that my life would be better, I would be happier. I did in fact achieved a lot, I have a nice job which pay my bills, a few selected friends which I don’t see very often (everyone is busy and now during pandemic, keeping to their own) and got a mortgage.
So, why am I here asking your for money if I don’t need it? I am not ill, I am not in debt, I don’t have to care for a family member and I do not have a business plan at this moment. Well, I am here because maybe you have already donated to several of the REALLY IMPORTANT requests, but you still have some budget for charity and you just want to change someone’s life, you just want that person to feel LUCKY also.
I never got anything for free (and most of people, I now). I do believe in meritocracy and worked very hard to purchase a share of my flat (shared ownership scheme). I was so happy that I found a top floor flat and I could afford that share (55%), I pay rent for the rest. I wish I knew better, I wish I had someone to help me when I saw this place, to tell me the issues I would face, but what is done is done.
I am very sensitive to sounds and vibrations, I had not idea how much problem this building would bring to my sanity. The train line is on the other side of the road (I got use to it because it is predictable), but my walls are so thin, I can hear my neigbours, their day to day life, TV, music, conversations, doors banging in all floors, water pipes etc. Two days ago the local government gave permission toa developer start building up 3 blocks of flats in front of mine and it will be good 2 years of hell from the moment they start. What puts me really down is that I worked so hard to get my first place and I feel miserable in it, obsessively thinking on improvement possibilities or moving out. The market is not good to sell now and even if I did I would need to pay Stamp Duty (as I am no longer a first time buyer), estate agent, solicitors and the housing association etc. I am employed now but I am always afraid that the economy can get worse and I could lose my job and not even be able to pay for my mortgage.
I’ve contacted a company specialised in soundproofing interiors and they came up with a ridiculous quote of 18K GBP. I could use this money for a deposit for a new quiet place together with the sale of my share instead putting into this flat.
So, I would like to make some improvements on my one bed flat (not a 18K one), to try to minimise the sounds and impacts that come into it. It doesn’t even have rockwool in between walls and I was told that the external walls should be at least 30cm (according to regulations) but my one is 20ish.
I have enough money monthly to pay the mortgage for my share, the rent share, service charge, utility bills and my food, but not for home improvement.
If you feel this is a cause you would be happy to contribute, I would be even happier to receive it.
I am working from home and being all day in my place hasn’t been very nice. I do find joy in DIY and small projects, this would be the highlight of this not so nice year.
Thank you for your time.
https://paypal.me/denisemarcondes
Big game
Hello,
not sure how to start, so just will do it.I have really big dream and purpose and actually I try it like from 18 teen, but professional like 5 years ago, now
on Christmas I will be 31.
So I always want more, not just like a work from 8 till 5 do and be where I don`t like. And I try poker, and from 18 years I understand that it`s skill
game. So at beginning I start read what I get, my English was very bad, at that moment so it was long process, but later I do process start read books about poker
and improve by little. So at this point I understand what I want from my life and I start do everything for it.
I was young with big dreams and poor. So after school 19 years old, from my country and mothers house, I go work to Netherlands, and agriculture work,
job was really bad, and I work hard, and my next few years was like this, I try first deposit to poker, of course lost everything and so on. When I get some
more brains, from 24 years old, I understand that need start make really seriously. Maybe 1 or 2, small try`s, nothing seriously, till 26th years old. Where
everything change.
I move again work to Netherlands, had big plans, was very seriously, was ready for long time to work, savings, and comeback for my biggest chance for
poker. And I did it, and before 2 days my travel for me write on Facebook a girl. She was then 14 years old, and I 26. So she accidentally write me, that recognize
on my profile picture my friend, witch she “in love”, yes my friend my age, so I understand its stupid. So I just write something back, short, never try go to
discuss or something, on the second day she offer for me go to meet with her and bla bla bla… It was my last days, I think maybe never comeback to my country,
or after long time, and I saw that actually her need like some friendly help. She was really upset about the world, unhappy, actually she the inconvenience of your
cutting. I self always was very depressed, so good understand her feelings, start talking with her, wan`t to show that world can be really nice place, not always,
not always easy, we need everything, to get everything. So we start talk and could not stop, day after day, every hour, just wake up`ed, always when I`m not at
work, and we both very like it. And it was really extraordinary, also strange, also many different minds, like what I`m doing, she is just a girl, special
after like 2 months, when I self start recognize love feelings from me to her, and from her of course.
After 3 months in Netherlands I win so money from poker, about 5k in total, unexpected. So I could comeback much faster than I think and go for my dream.
Rent a flat, found poker coaches, they also stake me. With girl we start met, she start stay in my place after some time, poker study also goes good, I improve
everything looks easy, and on my way.
I always say, that if you try to rich something big or bigger than just a work, then the kids, family is like a break, and they stop you a lot. So
after few months we notice about baby, not big shock, cause I really love her, and never scared like parents or problems like this. And always think will do
everything to make them both happy, and give best life. And don`t forget what I promise in beginning that life can be nice. Actually just now remember it, and it`s
very sad… We live together now near to 5 years, we have a kid, 3 and a half year. And I`m 30, and she 18 at this moment. We marriage when she was 15, it`s
not normal we also, have to win court, and many things for our happiness.
So I finish my stake with coaches, try to play on my self, but did not have savings, because of understanding reasons. I was also few times, go to
Netherlands work, try to save my bankroll for poker, but all this is very hard. You can understand that all my family, we life only from my money, and
if I work, I cant save a lot, and comeback and make good start for my dream, for poker, for my family. And when I play its also hard, cause I start from to
small bankroll. And actually I`m tired, and now I`m again, on same way, where I have to move, but its so depressed for all of us, I forgot about my promises,
happiness, actually don`t believe in my self, of course not always, but when need move.
I want that you all understand thank I study very very much, I play so much tournaments every month, and I beat my limits, and I`m winning player,
but still I never had this good start, what a dream so much, for what I was living, and the worst thing is to move from my family, to Netherlands, cause its
again will be very hard, again very risky, with minimum bankroll, its hard to save, when I need pay rent for family, send for living, also rent in Netherlands,
for my self, and save, and travels and comeback. I never had simply holidays, or just that I could week, just sit at home with family and no worries about problems.
It`s just little of my story, for me its really humiliating to ask some help even my mother or friends, and if I do, they can`t… So write here is also
big challenge for me. But I always know about websites like this. So it looks better, than move again – its worst. Its also so hard to look at my wife, I know
she also wanna help with money for me dreams, and us. But she cant. And this feeling witch hit my head, that I never reach my goals, never get my chance, and
much much more…..
I I first time ask for some help, also not expect much, but I get atleast 1% more chance of my family fcccck it… I just write, I don`t care, what I
will lost. Its hard time personally for me. If no response soon I move work, will not give up, wake up again, and one day will reach my goals, we again will be
happy, just sad its not that moment, its far away at moment……
Thank you…. :(
P.S.
I`m not asking for gambling, we live only from poker near to 5 years, so I`m like near to professional, but I can`t achieve it, also from this time and now this
moment where I have to go work, I work about 1.5 year in Netherlands, but this process looks endless, go work take very much and hurt time…
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Weight Loss surgery for better quality of life
Hi there,
First I’d like to start by saying thank you for taking the time to visit my request. I have never reached out for help like this before but I am just not able to manage it financially on my own and more than likely won’t be able to for a long while. I in no way have made the decision to pursue weight loss surgery overnight. Nor have I reached it without trying to lose the weight on my own (successfully and unsuccessfully).
The surgery would be life changing and would allow me the quality of life I have only briefly had. It would extend my life and ensure that I will have the best shot at sticking around for my daughter as long as (healthy) humanly possible! If you research life after weight loss you will see that it is not the ‘easy way out’ it will be life altering in many ways but the benefits outway the risks in my situation.
Okay if you have reached this far it’s only fair I share a bit of back story so that you do in fact see that I am deserving of assistance…I have been independent, self driven, and ambitious my whole life. I did not have an ideal childhood, nor did I have the luxury to graduate on time but that didn’t stop me from getting that diploma at 21 and starting my entrepreneurial journey shortly after! By 23 I was a successful business owner who was crushing her personal goals. That all came to a halt when I found out I was going to be a mother after a break up.
I was left to raise my child alone and because I was self employed I did not qualify for any kind of maternity leave. I worked my but off during my high risk pregnancy, when I certainly shouldn’t have, to ensure that I could maintain my overhead for as long as possible. The money ran out faster then I could have anticipated and childcare was not available in my town so I had to bite my pride and turn to the government…
I am grateful and it has been a humbling experience, but life is just really hard in my situation. I went from making a good living to rationing food/food banks/tracking mileage to save on gas/using bill money to make car payments and the list goes on. I realize that many don’t even have some of the things I do and please know that I can see the positives within my situation but it doesn’t discredit my hardships..
I have still been working my butt of though! I am 1 month away from finishing a 16 month program that will allow for me to work school hours and have that job security I long for so nothing like this ever happens again. I will eventually be going for my teaching degree I just need to get my butt back to work for a while first. Live and learn right! Things will change, but my child will always be where my money goes. There will always be more urgent expenses needing my attention and my health will remain on the back burner.
I would be forever grateful for any help in making this dream happen for myself sooner then later so that I can live my best life and be the healthiest me I can be for my daughter and most importantly for myself.
Thank you for your consideration in helping me!
My deepest regards,
- D
paypal.me/bossmomxo
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