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Financial Hardship Help

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My life is slipping away

Hello, I’ve never done something like this however I feel it’s my only option currently. I’m 18 and I feel like my life is already over. Currently, I’m almost $5000 in debt and have no way of making any money. My job hunt has left me with absolutely no follow-ups and my parents are not in any position to help me financially. Currently, the debt stems from a credit card (Approx. $500) and late rent payments (Approx. $2500) which I have been unable to make. I failed my first year of university due to the increasingly worsening mental health problems I was and still am experiencing. This has required me to withdraw from my program so I’m not eligible for the Canadian government’s CESB plan which provides support to students who need it. I also very recently had my phone stolen which is obviously a major problem as I’m unable to keep in contact with many of my close friends and family which has also been causing me incredible amounts of stress. I have nothing of value to sell other than my laptop which right now is the only things connecting me to anyone so it really isn’t an option for me to get rid of it and I doubt it would sell for very much considering it’s almost 5 years old and is basically falling apart.

Absolutely anything would help me and my situation even if it’s just a few dollars I would be forever grateful to those of you who choose to donate your hard-earned money to me. Please help me, I don’t want to ruin my life this early and at this point, it feels like there’s nothing left for me unless I get this sorted out very soon. If If I don’t clear this debt there’s a very real chance I could end up homeless or even worse, especially with my mental health getting worse and worse every day with this kind of thing constantly looming over me.

In my eyes, this is a hail mary as I really don’t know what else to do in this sort of situation other than to pray that the generosity of strangers is enough to help me out of what feels like an entirely hopeless situation.

Thank you to anyone who even decided to read this and even greater thanks to those of you who might be kind enough to donate, you’re wonderful people who have hearts of gold and I can only hope that some of you decide to open those wonderful hearts to me.
Spencer
paypal.me/Spxncer

 

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Asking for help

Where to begin, I guess first off I’ll first introduce myself and start by saying I am currently pregnant and on sick leave due to my miscarriage last year. My hubby lost his job last year due to depression and has since been working really hard on himself and hopefully a job soon but until then I am here asking for someones help with my current credit card debt.

Now I do want to clarify that this wasn’t an incident where I was irresponsible and just like to spend more than I have. I am actually the opposite of that, I love to save and get ahead. Most of the problems started with an accident I was in where my vehicle got totaled and I had to be off of work for awhile. Then it all seem to start piling up one after the other. My health problems, miscarriage, my sister becoming very ill (I was her travel, helped with bills and groceries etc.), insurance, vehicle breaking down and having to purchase a new one, hubby losing his job and so on.

It just seemed like everytime we saved and planned to pay it off, the money had to go somewhere else. Now to present, I currently owe $20,000 and they want it paid like “now”. I really need this gone because now I need my attention on saving for the baby, a house which we really need. We are currently renting and we need to move out because of the conditions of the building, which is very much unsafe to raise a child. As well as rent where I live is nearly impossible to find. On top of that we need a new vehicle and so on.

In order for me to even move on to these next important steps, I need my credit card gone. Just so you know the information better, here is a picture of my current bill. If anyone out there could help me/us I will forever be grateful. I Thank You in advance for your generosity and I hope to pay it forward someday when I am able to.

http://paypal.me/pooch87

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Boob job and debt relief

Hello I’m currently trying to save some money to enlarge my breasts and to play off my loans. I’ve been made fun of all growing up and I must say I’ve worked very hard to get where I am but saving money  for this surgery has been a struggle for me.

I always come so close to having the total and something seems to happen to where I’m stuck spending my savings. My father past away and I was stuck with alot of his debt then I decided I was going to go to college to get a good paying job so I decided to take medical assistance. The loan was 17 thousand dollars and I’ve had a hard time making payments then I went through a separation and had to put my savings on an apartment which I lost due to not making my payments on time. Ive lost my job and pretty much my way in life. I want to do modeling and the photographers love my face but my body they seem to have an issue with. …please help me achieve my goals I will be forever grateful!!! Xoxoxo I’ll even post before and after pictures

https://www.paypal.me/6d9bbycakes

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Begging for a chance to go to school.

I write this despairingly… With the already brutally engrained notion that there is no help for people like me. People who fall through the cracks and lose themselves to the inevitable repetition of ‘poor problems’. There is no safe platform that will not soon collapse under the weight of a hiccup… Which to many, is only a brief interception of normalcy. But for people like me, the tightness you feel in your chest never subsides. All you know is a life of fear, so nothing can scare away the involuntary myoclonic jerks that overwhelm you again and again until there is nothing left of you.

All of my life I have been poor. I have lost touch with the feeling of relief… because every time I feel like I can breathe again, I am reminded that bad things happen to you when you cannot afford to prevent them. I no longer allow myself to give in to that delusion; that something will soon get better. I try not to resent the life I was born into, as there has always been love there, but there has also been pain, addiction, illness, abuse… And I am left asking myself, how can I do better? How can I grow up to be a parent that loves my children enough not to lose myself to drug addiction? How can I prevent the cancer that I’ve begun to hope is coming to me? How can I offer myself to a humble child whose only dream is to go to school so she can someday help people just like her?

Even now, I am still that child. At least, a glimmer of her. In my twenty-five years of life, I have found a way to survive, but I long to find a way to live. This is my attempt. I have worked tirelessly to complete high school, a luxury that I could not have at a time where I needed to work, and at a time that I was ill. I have spent more than half of my life burning out to afford an education so that I could one day make something of myself and take care of my mom. I have now officially received my first offers to school, but because of the hiccups, the familiar delusion, and the digits that follow a dollar sign, I am met with ever-lasting notion once more; there is no HELP for ANIMALS like ME.

That is what the world has taught me. This is what I know. I could write endlessly about my hardships, but I suffer enough from the reminders. This is a pathetic plea for a chance to have a little time, even just a semester, to be reminded of what is good. That there are people who care about other people… That there are people not affected that too hate the systems that ruin us… Those of us who cannot afford to prevent it.

Any bit helps.

www.paypal.me/woundedjaybird

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In Dire Need of Financial Assistance

Hello my name is Matt and I have created this page to seek donations to help my pay down debt & past due bills that have accumulated due to a number of reasons. I don’t want what I’m about to share to come across as a “sob story” by any means. What I’m about to share is very personal & at times very difficult to talk about, even with those that I consider to be the closest to me.  

I have been unable to work since the fall of 2016 due to mental health issues I’ve been struggling with. These include diagnosis’s of Bi-Polar, MDD (Major Depressive Disorder), & insomnia.  Since the fall of 2016 I have worked my hardest to be able to manage and utilize the savings I had built up to continue to provide for my wife, pay for our Mortgage, bills,  and the bare essentials for survival. Despite my struggles which a lot of the time would put me in a position of distancing myself from friends, turning down a lot of life’s greatest moments, I still always focused on being able to give my wife the life she deserved.

Over the past 4+ years it has been a constant battle to be able to continue to provide as I had to rely on on my savings & credit to ensure my growing family was taken care of. I have put in such a valiant effort  able into being able to manage/cope with my mental health issues in hopes of being able to return to work. Since the fall of 2016 I have had regular appointments with my family doctor, psychiatrists, counselling sessions, & sought out additional help within the community that’s been available to me. I will continue to persevere in my battle with my mental health, with the hope I can return to the functioning, energetic, hard working individual that is deep down within me.

Sadly to my dismay in the summer of 2019 my wife, partner & best friend for almost 10 years decided to file for a separation/divorce. At this point my heart shattered, it seemed I lost everything I worked so hard to keep afloat. I felt that even though I did everything in my power to be able to make ends meet, give the love of my life the life she deserved, the struggles I have been facing proved to be too much for her to handle.

In summary the amount of donations I’m hoping to achieve is $22,500 CAD. This would allow me to pay off the debt and past due bills I have accumulated. By helping me achieve my goal this would hopefully provide me the ability to get my life back on track. 

I hope you can see from this testimonial I’m a young man at the age of 31 who has a huge heart, was raised with the right values, & has compassion for all those around me. I hope that in the future if I can get back to “me”. If you are able to help me with this goal, without a shred of a doubt I will look for ways to assist those who are struggling with their mental health, in addition do everything in my power to pay it forward.

https://paypal.me/MatthewWilson637?locale.x=en_UStd.jpgrbc.jpgscotia.jpg

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Money for Infant Daughter

Hi all! I’m writing this to ask for money to help provide for my infant daughter.
My name is Michelle and I’m asking for help in raising money to be able to purchase things for my infant daughter, Orla. We thought we had everything planned out. We tried for a few years, went through a few miscarriages, before carrying to term! I can’t even say to full term though, since she was born almost 6 weeks early, not terribly early but enough to require an incubator under special lights and tube feeding.
To top it all off, I ended up with retained placenta and required surgery to fix this issue.
Little Orla is 4 months old now and doing much better. She is almost 11 pounds, and close to fitting into size 2 diapers and 3 to 6-month clothing. I love watching her grow each and every day, but I sometimes miss the 4-pound baby we brought home from the hospital.

We have all the necessities – diapers, crib, car seat, stroller and clothing. We are also purchasing formula. Please no “breast is best” talk, I take medication just to produce 1/3 of what she requires. The formula she needs is $120 for a weeks supply. We are making it work. It is tight, and we are struggling.
There are things we never really took into consideration as necessities that we just don’t have the funds to purchase due to decreased hours related to Covid-19.
A swing, a jolly jumper or exersaucer, a high chair. Little baby toys for development and fun. Little bath toys, because my girl really loves the water! It would be nice to purchase these things for her. We never thought having children was an option for us, so we feel blessed to have such a happy, bright, healthy little girl!

Anything you could give would be appreciated. I feel like an awful person and mother, needing to ask for assistance. I know it comes across as pathetic. I’m sorry if this offends anyone. Our families have helped out as much as they can. We live in a rural northern Ontario town, so there are very few second hand options available to us. What we have seen is either in horrible condition, the same price as new, or snatched up before we can get to it.
Like I mentioned, we have the necessities taken care of. The money donated would be going towards the little extras.

My PayPal is:

PayPal.me/mb022002

Thank You.

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My chronic illness is making it hard to make ends meet

Hey there!
I’m Ally, I’m 27 come August and have been living with multiple sclerosis since my diagnosis 3 years ago in May, at the age of 22.

I had just entered into a post secondary school after having dropped out of high school at age 14/15 due to troubles at home, bullying, and a very bad decision on my part.
3 months into my program is when I had my first noticeable MS attack. This attack lead to a CT scan being ordered, an MRI, a neuro consult, an EMG test of the function my nerves, another MRI and a then a diagnosis of “aggressive multiple sclerosis”.

Because of my school’s policy, I was not able to take a medical leave. I had to keep pushing through, despite the symptoms and the heavy diagnosis that came out of left field.
Since then, I’m happy to say I passed my course with a 90+ GPA and found a job in my career choice, prior to doing my internship.

Since graduating, I’ve continued working at that same job. Because of a really bad relapse, I had to inform my boss of my health. While she was understanding at the time, I feel that has worn off.
I’m constantly being given extra work over the other employee and being asked to work more shifts and longer hours than the other employee as well. As well as this happening, the past month I’ve found my boss has become short, dismissive and extremely rude with me out of nowhere.

At the start of COVID, I had to reduce my hours and because of that, I’m struggling financially. I’ve also started having panic attacks due to work and many symptom flare ups due to stress.
While I enjoy my work, the office I work in has become a toxic place for me to the point where I’m worried about my health, as MS relapses are more common when stress levels increase.  In my lifetime thus far, I have never had a panic attack, now I get them a few times a week, and always when it involves work- whether it be at work, thinking about work, or on my way to work.

I’ve always been responsible with money, as my family didn’t come from much. However, I found you can only stretch things so far.
I’m asking anyone who has anything to give, if you feel you are able to help, please know I would appreciate it beyond imagination.

What I’m requesting help with is that I’m hoping to pay off what is remaining out of my $10,000+ student debt.  Over time I’ve paid off almost half already, getting it down to $5,200.  Along with this, my one in-use credit card which has a remaining balance of $2,600.  I’ve been balance transferring this one credit card for 3 years now, slowly paying it off, but its taking time due to my lack of hours in my workplace.

If I’m able to do this with the help of anyone who has it to give, I can leave my workplace asap without having to worry about paying my bills, while I look for another job.

I cannot include a picture of my credit card statement as the app won’t allow screenshots, but i will try attaching a screenshot of my student loan amount remaining.

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Thank you doesn’t even begin to cover how much I appreciate any help, that anyone can give.

paypal.me/allyk93

💛💛💛💛💛

– Ally

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Business Funding Needed

Hello Investor

Im a canadian dad,  married and father of 4 great kids,  one actually graduating with honors from her highschool in 6 days,  she worked hard under tough times, to be the best at making herself the best she can be in life,… the world is wide open to her to succeeding…

Im a guy that spent YEARS away from my family,  to work in the oil and gas industry,  and i missed alot…. i wanted to get my business funded,  but never had “extra” to put towards a fund… clothes,  dentist,  lifes regular costs always stood in the way,  and over the years,  ive always found boom or bust situations with small business owners,  who had shops, stores,  but were limited to “just their area” to sell,  be it they never thought of other options,  not being internet savy,  always thinking they had a location to sell,  but never got sales from the other side of the country or world,  because they limited themselves to a mom and pop situation. The quality of inventory,  be it homemade,  or “special” for their area,  or bulk lot buying from their suppliers,  alot of stores always have inventory they dont or cant sell,  because of a simple poor choice of knowledge of customers needs in their area,  or a downturn in the market for a said item… many NEVER think of a internet solution,  or a one stop website that can “auction” their overflow or special items for them at a more profitable solution than having it collect dust on a shelf nobody sees…. a store on main street wawa ontario,  or a specialty store in High level Alberta,  to a high end boutique on Robson street in Vancouver British Columbia…. all Canadian stores,  but each with unique sales faults.

Because of this global situation,  we all see stores boarded up in downtown Los Angeles,  Toronto,  Vancouver,  my area,  and store owners are struggling to sell products under the new rules of social distancing,  and rules on who,  and how many can come into a store… they couldnt always make it under normal conditions,  now they have to try and do more with less traffic,  and still run a profitable business…. and its tough if not impossible to achive a small business in todays new world,  and many have had years of building it,  to now have it go under because they mostly relied on foot traffic

Im looking to have a one stop website for every kind of business that wants a internet solution verses a walk up sales service… and give business owners a place where they can advertise through a google maps solution where when they list on my website,  the items or services they want to liquidate, post their location through a gps service on google maps,  and have the ability to have any local in their area that has a map based system in their specific area,pick the service they need…it can be a mom in Flint Michigan,  or Wainwright Alberta to look on my website,  find a service their looking for,  contact that person,  and have it shipped to them,  or look up what they want to buy,  and have a list of store owners that have that item in their inventory,  be it close to home,  or a thousand miles away.  ANY store or business owner can list their items they need to liquidate,  and get their walk up store to become a world wide web store,  without having to build their own website that they than have to try and promote…. they use our site,  and only pay for the app through google play or the apple store,…. one payment,  no commissioned costs to them,  but a in app purchase option where they can sell lot sales or use an “”auction”” type business where in a certain allotted time,  the highest bidder pays them directly through a paypal app,  or bank transfer. Their will be two services offered,  one a free service,  one a auction service where they pay for advertising,  and use our auction site.  I will be working on advertisers,  who want to be seen on my page,  and it can be direct suppliers,  or other corperations that send email alerts or direct marketing to each person that sees the site also

You say wait… theirs Facebook market place,  Amazon,  Ebay,  other platforms to do this…. yes their is,  but many only see a solution,  being they are just stuck with foot traffic in their area,  or a drastic sales campaign that STILL only foot and vehicle traffic sees as they walk or drive by…. someone in a town 300 miles away never knows this certain person has a item they need

Im looking for someone that can help me get a app,  and website site set up,  and a marketing platform going for individual business owners who need a different solution than the system that government says is the “”new norm “”…. is their already platforms out their doing this??… yes,  is their major companies,  titans in the industry that can do exactly this option??… yes,  yes their is,  but not EVERY business out their wants to use them,…. they want a simple solution with a local feel to it… and the platform is free,  my solution is a one time app purchae,  to be able to list anyfhing at anytime,  with no commissioned costs to them…. we simply make money on advertising,  and in app purchases for those that are willing to market their product further,  and be seen by an audience they ever had before

Competition ??… yup,  their is,  but that doesnt mean they are reaching everyone,… i want to start a platform that is specific to people,  who want a new fresh solution,  and get the word out,  on items they specifically want to market this week or month,  and make sales that they control directly through the contact source they choose to make public,  and a payment option they both trust to use

If anyone can help me,  id look forward to your ideas,  help,  and contacts to get a different solution of sales for small businesses out their that struggle in selling past their front door

Im going to be using this platform and business,  to give a new fresh solution to small business sales,  from a small mom and pop with overstock,  to a larger store with bulk sales items by the truckload through an auction system thst they control through our app

Contact can be made through my secure email at

vandermeyencrypted@protonmail.com

timvandermey@paypal.me.com

timvandermey1967@gmail.com

Funds needed are $200, 000.00 cdn,  and im willing to do a partnership of your choice to get started

Thanks for your help and i look forward to hearing from you

Tim Vandermey

250-569-4278

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Fixing critical mistakes made as an oblivious youth

Hello! I am asking for help from anyone who might possibly be sympathetic to my situation, or even just understands the small yet immovable hurdles I’ve set up for myself in the earlier part of my twenties.
I was born to a mother and father who were young and had no idea how to take care of themselves let alone two children.
I saw a lot of things growing up, but finance was sort of a taboo subject that whenever brought up in my house would incite anger and frustration.

Needless to say, I didn’t grow up around money, or people who knew how to deal with money. From what I could understand you got a job, they gave you money and that was the end of it.

I worked a lot of low paying, menial work and was being pressured to ‘choose a career’

So I did, I had always loved music and I had a background working with musicians so I went to school for recording arts.

This is the beginning of my financial woes.

I applied for financial assistance and got it! Since my family and myself could not afford the 14,500$ tuition fee, and on top of that they were going to give me money to live while going to school!

i worked for three quarters of my semester, and for the last quarter, I had to persevere, I wasn’t making any money, and the school was across town. I didn’t have a bus pass, but I had access to a car, so I would drive to school, not pay for parking as I couldn’t afford to, and pile tickets.

I finished the semester and found a job quickly, but it didn’t pay nearly enough to survive let alone to pay for a mass sum of parking tickets, so my license got suspended.

Honestly those are my two main concerns, other than some small credit card debt (never defaulted)

Basically what im asking for here is a clean slate. I’ve learned a lot in the last few years about what I would need to do to grow but I’m constantly feeling held back by these decisions I made.

If I were to add up everything I would need to make it happen I would need

 

20,000 to repay student loan

3000 to pay parking tickets

around 500 to get back my license

1000$ in credit card debt

and best case scenario 3-5000 to buy a car to drive to and from work.

total – I believe 30,000$ would help me get back to the view and opportunity I felt I had before these problems arose.

I feel like this is a lot to ask but I also feel like in the grand scheme of life or in any financially stable form of life this isn’t an insurmountable sum.

Hoping to hear from somebody one day if I’m so lucky.

thank you

edit: forgot to add PayPal link

 

PayPal.me/ryanbiddles

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Single Mother asking one time Emergency Help

Due to the current situation with the coronavirus, I have been struggling to make ends meet, and I am not the type to ask, I rather find my own way to support my family, but right now I don’t have a clue where or how to support my family due to this situation, and this is hard for me to ask but I am falling behind on everything and I never experience this in my whole life. I had a good working job as an event planner but this is where it gets super stressful for me due to I worked for cash so there is no EI for me or how other people who lost their jobs got help from the government if they have EI. And so I tried to see what else I can do but I never been super stuck. I am behind on my cell phone bill, my rent hasn’t been paid this month as I used all my savings on last month’s rent and I was couldn’t pay my other bills. All I am asking is this one time help to help me pay my bills and rent, I wouldn’t be able to pay this by myself, and I am trying to support 3 young children as best as I could but it’s hard to sleep and focus when I am needing to pay all of this.

You can either send a donation to me or you can pay the bill or rent directly to that company, either way, I will appreciate it.

I have attached a rent notice and on the bottom, it has the information of the owners and phone number, I did cross out my name as I am not sure I am supposed to show my real name here, but in any case, you can use “A.M. in unit 6” $1233.00

My cell phone bill is from Bell Mobility the account number is on the photo if you’re wanting to pay directly. $1197.58 it might be a bit more as this bill should be coming in soon.

My gas and the hydro bill I misplaced it I tried to find it everywhere but the bill is overdue in the amount of $850.55

Telus bill is an internet and television bill  $462.14 again you can either send a donation to me or pay directly to the company

I should be okay after hopefully, this pandemic has put me so behind and I am really really stuck, Things are looking like they are getting better but for my end still, we are not allowed to do events yet. I am just scared that my cell phone line will be cut off or me and my children being kicked out after the left is off I am just so worried and I have no idea what or who to turn to. I found this website online and Oh god I really hope someone can help me take this huge load off my back.

 

In total, I need $3743.27 or $4000 (new bills should be here soon)

Any help would be greatly appreciated.

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paypal.me/annamzs

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Need a little help during Covid

Hi! My name is Desiree and I am here asking for donations to help with groceries And bills, My younger brothers and I recently moved in with my sister and we’ve been having a lot of trouble getting money together since my sisters hours got cut at work and I have to stay home with my brothers since their not in school. My sister is already getting money from family and children’s services so she is unable to sign up for any other government help, Which is barely Enough for rent and I don’t meet the requirements for them since I am 17 and under the care of my sister. We’re finding it hard to keep food on the table for our brothers who are growing little boys and eat a lot, my youngest brother Josiah has cerebral palsy and needs around the clock care, so I couldn’t get a job because we wouldn’t be able to afford care. At this point we are trying to find anyway we can to continue to support our family and asking for help where we can. I hope someone sees this and would like to help as it would really mean the world to us. Me and my siblings have been separated over and over again through foster care and we are trying our hardest to keep our family together once and for all. We also know that there are people worse off then us and hope to pay it forward when we can. I’ll tell you a bit about my family. I’m Desiree, my sisters name is Jessica, she’s 20 years old and works at a gas station near our apartment. She is the most caring person I know and would stop at nothing to take care of our family. The oldest of my brothers is Isaiah, he’s 11. He loves soccer, baking, and the ninja turtles. And my youngest brother is Josiah. he’s 7, and even though he has a disability it doesn’t slow him down! He’s very energetic and loves art. He can draw all day long, and loves to try new crafts. We all have been in foster care for most of our lives but we know that we are better off from it. We hope to raise our brothers, so they grow up feeling loved and wanted and even though it’s been rough we know we’ll be able to get through it. Thanks for who ever read this, and I hope you are doing well through the virus. God bless. https://www.paypal.me/des0smiles

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A New Smile For Me

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Hello everyone! I would like to start by saying, my name is Aiana, and I’m 15 years old. When I was little, I was diagnosed with this rare dental disease called Dentinogenesis Imperfecta or (DI). It’s basically a disorder for tooth development, and it causes teeth to be discolored; (Blue-grey, or yellow-brown color) and translucent. It also causes teeth to be weaker than normal, making them prone to rapid wear, breakage, and loss. As it’s shown in one picture, I had to get my tooth removed due to experiencing excessive pain within the root of my tooth. I also have lost 3 molars due to the brittle-bone abnormality of my genetic condition. Considering immigrating from an underdeveloped country, I had very little access to aided health/dental care. Being said so, a big part of my life was spent dealing with society’s rejection of my rare condition, being bullied in my elementary years, and not being able to confidently be my true self.  I am now currently living in Canada, which now gives me the opportunity to get on with full rehabilitation for my teeth with the proper budget. I remember my eighth birthday when I had to make one wish, instead of asking for a toy, or some cool gadget, my wish had been to be in a world where I can smile and not be judged, up until today, it’s still my lifelong dream. Hopefully, you guys could help me achieve it. Big, or small donations, any amount will be greatly appreciated.

https://www.paypal.me/anewsmileforaiana

Thank you for your time. :)

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Expect nothing…appreciate everything!

https://paypal.me/lovelylace456

Hey all you lovely people…

I hope this message finds you well! I think we can all agree that 2020 has been a rough ride so far. Let me tell you though this pandemic is not getting me down! I made a promise to myself that 2020 was going to be different, that I would commit to being the best possible version of myself. I have created so many healthy habits and made changes that I am proud of. I really feel like I’m taking charge of my own life and I feel amazing about the direction I’m headed and my personal growth.

But let me tell you what brings me here! This pandemic has made me realize that life is way to short to not just flipping do all the things. In my case I have a bucket list a mile long of things I want in this lifetime. Many of this things are small or inexpensive or at least within my reach. Except one or two.Brace yourself…it might seem shallow, it might seem vain but no judging please! I’m looking to get rhinoplasty and a breast augmentation. I know it seems silly but I want my outside to match how I feel. Inside I am a beautiful women and I’m happy, kind and try to always be positive but when I look in the mirror what I see doesn’t reflect positively. I have worked so hard to focus on my own health and fitness but it only goes so far. I truly believe that if my physical appearance improved to fit the rest of me that more good thing would come my way. I’m tired of being so self conscious, and plastic surgery has always been my dream which I never realistically thought I would follow through with. But I’ve decided why not?! These are things that have always bothered me and life’s to short to not be happy!

I’ll continue to work until I reach my goal but I would love  any help to get me there faster! Maybe your perfect already but if you can relate with me at all consider helping me out! :)

https://paypal.me/lovelylace456

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In a seemingly endless hole

I don’t really know how to start this….

I am a 23 year old woman who is at the end of her rope. I feel so lost and stuck, and I honestly don’t know where to go from here.
I had been depressed all of my teenage years, I thought it would be something I grew out of. I thought it was a normal thing everyone went through. It’s not something we talk about in my family- they do not believe in mental illness. They can accept disabilities that regular doctors can diagnose, but having to see a therapist or psychologist was out of the question. I just wanted to know what was wrong with me.
When I was in twelfth grade, all my classmates were talking about college and university, and all I could think about was just wanting to be done with it all so I could breathe. I begged my parents to let me take time off, a leap year or something so I could get my head straight so I would be ready for post secondary, and really give it my all. They told me I HAD to go do post secondary right after high school. They always told me that they would help me pay for school, and as scared as I was of failing, I still went. I chose a school far away from my family so I could find myself a little bit. I was not quite happy, but I was better. My first year of college I asked my parents to leave, I told them it was too much and I couldn’t handle it. They said to me “it’s just 2 years, after that you’re free” and I did my best. At the very beginning of my second year of college, I was almost raped by a boy I thought was my friend. A colleague. I remember the night so vividly, I told him to stop and he wouldn’t. He stopped when I started sobbing- not just crying. I was so scared I couldn’t move, and I fell asleep in his bed. The next morning I went back to my room and got in the shower and cried until there were no more tears. It took me a month to tell anyone. First I told out bosses, and they called security, and security called the police. I had to repeat what happened 4 times, and then the police read it back to me… it took everything left in me to not cry more. Over the next couple of weeks I spoke to the police more, once again I had to tell my story, and they asked if there was any photographic or video evidence, and there was not. They told me something I will never forget- without evidence, it was his word against mine, and nothing could be done about it. I did what I was supposed to do, I told the right people, and this boy was still walking around the campus. The worst part of it was, he never denied it happening, not to the police… but he changed one detail, the fact that I begged him not to touch me. The school administration did something amazing then, and they kicked him out. It was the first time I felt heard. I wanted to leave that school, they did the right thing to try and help me, but I just couldn’t be there anymore. My back up school became the worst place for me, because that is where my attacker went. I was at a loss, I didn’t know what to do, and since I already paid, I stayed in the same school. I got to my lowest point, and was not going to class, or even getting out of bed most days. I didnt eat, I didnt shower, someone literally had to feed me. Since I wasn’t going to class, student loans cut me off, and I had to pay for second semester out of my own pocket. I finally started seeing a psychologist at a hospital behind my parents back, just to try and get better. It didn’t work. Overall school cost me $30k.
At the same time I was dating someone manipulative, and beyond controlling, and he took a toll. He never hit me, but he beat my spirit down, until there was nothing left to me. I forgot how to smile.
Over the years I’ve gotten what work I could, but nothing lasting, nothing substantial, and then I started dating another boy. He was from another country, and I thought I was in love. My family warned me to never give him any money, and I didn’t, but I did tell him that I would help him in any way I could. I ended up spending half of every paycheque on him. I never gave it to him in cash, but I bought him furniture, food… anything you can think of I helped pay for or paid for it outright. I have never moved to another country, but I know it could be financially difficult, so i tried to help him in any way I could. He bought himself a tv, new phone, smart watch, and more junk food than I can even believe. And then he left. He went back to his home country, and I had no money, no boyfriend, my credit card had been maxed out, and I really hadn’t healed.
I got a seasonal job over the Christmas season, and then it ended. I sent out resumes, and filled out applications, but didnt hear back, and then COVID hit and there was nothing available. Yes, I have applied to grocery stores, and post offices, and warehouses, but I haven’t heard back yet. My debt is looming, weighing heavily on me, and I have taken to selling my belongings online, it’s not easy. I take every cent of my sales to my debt, but it’s not enough.
I know, I’ve just told you a story that’s long, and maybe you don’t care, but I am almost at the same place in my life where I don’t shower. I’ve considered suicide, and I am trying everything I can to not feel the pressure, but I can’t. All I want is to pay off my debt, once that is settled, I think I will be able to breathe. I want to go back to school after this is over, I was going to start this October, but it all depends on this lockdown. I am not an on line learning person, I need to go into class and sit down and learn the old fashioned way. I would greatly appreciate any help, there is no minimum, there is no maximum. I’m just asking for help.
I’ve attached my paypal, thank you so much for anyone who can spare any money in a time like this. I wish good things upon all of you.
paypal.me/desperatelyseeking

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Money for life-changing surgery needed

Okay, I’m just going to be honest and say it: I need money for a nose job. I’m a 24-year old woman whose lived a decent life and I never before thought that I needed surgery but recently, my now ex-boyfriend has changed my entire perspective about me. I was happy with the way that I looked, or at least accepted it but then, he called me a pig when we broke up. He was referring to my nose and it made me feel like I was the ugliest woman on Earth.

This isn’t some kind of a revenge or anything because it made me realize that I’ve been shoving the fact that I have an unattractive nose underneath the carpet my whole life. I never take pictures of myself. Even if I do, I immediately delete it or ask to have it delete it because I’m embarrassed of how I look. I’m a 24-year old girl. 24-year old girls love taking selfies. They have taken hundreds, thousands of them saved on their phones. I don’t even have 5 pictures of myself saved on my phone. I just want to be a normal girl and get a nose job and take pictures or myself and like them while my youth still remains.

If you’d like to help, please donate here:

paypal.me/rhinoplastydonation