I have been teaching college-level English since the 1990s and despite being chronically underemployed have managed to get on and live my values as well. More and more it has been difficult for me to get the extra employment needed to keep my bills covered. I have one less teaching contract this Spring and it led to a shortfall, which on top of unexpected expenses this summer for the car ($1900) has led to a very difficult situation. I have denied myself many “extras” over the years, including the vacations and big events I see other people blowing money on. I have not had health insurance since I was 25. Thankfully my health is good. I always tell people, if you have your health you can make more money, but you can’t get the time back. Well, I have my health but I am tired.
What really upsets me is that someone to whose job posting I replied on Craigslist the other day took me to task for doing things “wrong”, not networking more, not “solving big problems to make big money”. It was a housekeeping gig and I can do that, and liked the idea of making $100 for a hard day’s work, but the person scolded me and said “you are a professional” etc. I know that I am a professional. I also know that I am sorely underpaid for my talents. Also I think ignorance is the worst problem we have right now.
I don’t drink or do drugs, I add value to the world. A mere $4,500 would have me almost entirely out of debt and I could stop biting my fingernails over the rent. Some more on top would give me some time and mental breathing space to create more opportunities for myself. Maybe even solve some “big problems”. I will always find more work, but I am tired of having to borrow to pay modest bills, then work to pay those off, lather-rinse-repeat while being undervalued by a society I am doing my level best to add something to.
My immediate needs are this: after paying the light bill, phone bill, and credit card bills with my paycheck tomorrow, I will go with almost no money until the following paycheck, which is slated entirely for rent. Then I will call the light company so I can delay the bill again, until I have the money for it, and the car insurance company ditto. I am sick of this. I am doing and will continue to do everything I can to improve my situation. If you can help me, I promise I will pray for you and also pay it forward on this very site as soon as I am able. If you are wondering what dollar amount would help, anything is certainly appreciated. $273 would pay off one of the bills from the car repair. $430 would pay the other. $770 would pay off the credit card. $2,600 would pay off the other credit card. $575 would get my jewelry out of hock.
Anything would help. Bless you.