I graduated from High School a few months ago, and everything was working in my favor. I had been working at McDonald’s, where I was offered a leave of absence while I went to the college of my dreams. I did one semester of college, and got a job at the McDonald’s there. The management wasn’t great and I was genuinely afraid of a few of them, but I needed the money. At first, everything was fine, but then family troubles started up back home. My father was abusive towards me, and I had told my older sister just before I left for school. She took matters into her own hands, and told everyone in the extended family (we’re unusually close) that he had abused me and that she didn’t want anyone to talk about him around her.I was told that by the time I came back for Thanksgiving, I needed to take a side. I’d already had depression for a few years, and I was no longer able to be on my Mom’s insurance, so I couldn’t afford my prescription anymore. The stress of college, my job, and all of the family drama exacerbated my depression. Eventually, I couldn’t get out of bed. I quit my job, and I flunked out after one semester. Both my parents moved when I went to school, and I had been told I’d have my job waiting for me in my home town, so I’ve been staying with a friend since December, but she’s still in high school and I’m really just a burden on her family. The manager who offered me the leave of absence was apparently breaking the rules and had quit, so I no longer had a job. With all the tension, none of my family will let me stay with them, and the shelter in town has a waiting list. I’ve been applying for new jobs and have had some interviews as well as being accepted for a part time position, but that doesn’t start for a few weeks and I’m running very low on gas money. Ironically, it’s to the point that I don’t have enough money to go to job interviews. I’m in debt from my semester at college, especially since I lost my scholarships, and I need to get an apartment as soon as possible. I’ll also need to buy a bed and other furniture once I get one, but that’s not nearly as high up on my list of priorities. For now, I’d just like to get back on my feet so I can take care of myself without burdening others. Thank you for any help you can give.
Hi, I’m Casey. I live in a small 2 bedroom with my partner, Sabrina, and our cat. We both came from very emotionally abusive families that were making our health spiral down. We managed to get a place, but this first month will be tricky. I used my whole savings on the deposit and first month’s rent, so I don’t have much to back me up. I work full time at an Amazon fulfillment center, and Sabina gets as many hours as they can at a local fast food place (usually about 20-30/week). I don’t have much opportunity for extra hours as it’s not very busy after the holidays. We’re getting a third roommate soon, but next month’s rent is coming up and we will most likely be short. I’m not asking for very much, just $500 to make sure we can cover rent and electricity. With your help I’ll also be able to make sure we can eat, and that I have gas in my car to get to work each day, and any other basic needs. I don’t have much to give in return, but I’ll be extremely grateful. And Jeff Bezos, if you see this, you have more money than god and I’m one of your boys. Could I get a little extra consideration (My humor)? We’re two young, hardworking people who just want some stability and peace of mind. I thank you in advance for any help you give.
I googled where you could ask for money and found this. I wouldn’t come here unless I had to. My name is Savanna I just dropped out of the Water and Waste Water Technician Program, I was so excited when I went into it but realized it was not the program I expected it to be. I moved 9 hours away from home to come to this school and the program isn’t too hard, it was quite the opposite; I just find myself bored with the work and it was always so repetitive. I miss my family a lot and I was a big part of our home so I was only gone for about a month when my mom told me she was moving with my siblings 12 hours away from me, and 10 away from where I grew up. She had been struggling a lot since I left and needed the support from her family. When it came time to move my father who does not pay any child support refused to pay for their move although previously had bragged he could pay for the whole thing. I sent my mom 1000 dollars of my OSAP money to her to cover moving expenses. I’ve been looking for a job since November but with plans to travel to see my family the only interviews I got, I was turned down due to the 3 weeks I would be away for the holidays. My mom has just moved into her new house with my siblings, and has a job she will be starting soon full time. We moved them in on December 26th, they’d been in the city for 2 months on December 20th when I was there. I was so happy we found them a house while they were there. I told her she could take as much time as she needs to pay me back but shes already given me 150 back because she knows I’m also struggling. I am applying everyday to new jobs and hope to get one soon but for the time being anything would help. I haven’t taken the time to look through other stories on this website yet but I’m sure I am not the saddest one so I understand if you can’t send much but anything would help honestly. The picture is of my mom in front of her new house!!!!! My link is
Hello to anyone reading this – thank you for clicking on the link!
I am a young woman in the UK and I am really struggling to stay afloat. Having had quite bad health for the last several years, my employment has been very stop/start and I have relied on credit cards to sustain my life and pay bills up to this point.
Now, I am at an all time low and can’t afford to keep going. Being fortunate to live in the UK, I am given free access to a GP but all other support is at a cost – therapist, counselling etc all costs and whilst I am too unwell to work, this isn’t something I can do.
I’ve recently been put on an additional kind of medication which is a sedative and the dosage is 4x per day, so most of the day I am either asleep or fighting hard to stay awake. This makes it impossible to find a job, even if I was mentally ready to do so. I am just such a burden on my family and friends and I can’t see how I can unburden them and contribute positively to their lives if I carry on like this.
My partner and I suffered two miscarriages in 2018 and I was then found to have pre-cancerous cervical cells. This has been hopefully sorted, but the miscarriages have taken a huge toll and I am lost.
Mental health is a a serious issue that affects a lot of people and I know that I am not alone in this situation, and I do not expect special treatment. If a little bit of financial help could be provided – if you are in a position to be able to help – it would quite literally save my life and give me the opportunity to get better and ultimately get back to work and pay it forward.
If you do feel that you would like to donate to me, for rent, food, prescriptions, therapy sessions etc. I would be forever eternally grateful.
The last few months have been harder in more ways than just financially. A couple of years ago, I was blinded by love and decided to make the move 10 hours south to follow my (ex) boyfriend. I guess the first red flag should’ve been the fact that he was able to convince me to do such a rash thing by threatening our relationship if I didn’t comply. Things really only went downhill from there. To keep the story short, I learned I had dutifully signed up as this boys full time caretaker and verbal punching bag. I had known for a few months that I didn’t want to be a part of a such a cruel, and unfair relationship but I wasn’t sure how to find the courage to walk away.
After too many fights, bruises, a black eye, a distraught puppy, and two accounts from girls that he had bedded while I kept more than just a roof over our head, I finally was done. He had fully committed to a life where only drugs, getting high, and making a quick buck to get another fix was more important than spending my 25th birthday with me or even writing a card, and so many other things that you would think are just common courtesy to offer to the woman whom you say you love so much. I, as well as the dog left to stay with my closest friend one day while he was at work. After three days of threatening texts and a million phone calls, he even went so far as to slander my work place and make multiple public (via facebook, yelp, and tripadvisor) accusations about my friends, coworkers, boss, and myself, he FINALLY moved himself and his things out of the apartment we had been staying in that was entirely under my name and I had been the one paying for everything. When I returned, I walked inside to all of my belongings either destroyed, covered in dirt, vinegar and cigarette ashes, thrown all over the place, or stolen. He took my area rugs outside in the mud, and then brought them back inside and threw the rugs on top of all my belongings. He continued to show up at my house after I was home to threaten me or just sit and stare at me from his car. In the first week following my return, I had 5 different interactions with him and the police.
South Carolina has squatter protection laws, so legally I had to jump thru hoops to prove that he didn’t pay rent, wasn’t on the lease, never had a piece of mail delivered here, EVEN THAT THE DOG WAS MINE AND NOT HIS. The dog is MY registered Service Animal!!!! Every day I realized more and more things that he had stolen, bottles of shampoo and soap, makeup, coffee and creamer, food, and so much more had been emptied but returned to their proper shelf spaces to make me believe I still had these things. I literally had to spend the last of the money I had worked extremely hard for on Thanksgiving to pay my rent and my bills and then on top of that, slowly replace my belongings by working every day for 3 weeks straight just to have some normalcy back. The icing on the cake though, my work in Myrtle Beach, gave us a two week heads up that starting January 2nd of this year, we would be closing until further notice for rebuilding and upgrading.
Not only did I lose a job for the time being, but I had to keep myself and my dog safe and fed all the while dealing with feelings of hatred and heartbreak from ending a relationship that was abusive in more ways than one but I still confusingly had feelings involved, all intertwined with having no money left because I had to pick up all of my pieces with virtually no help, in a place that I’m not very familiar with and haven’t spent much time in without Jay’s company. At this point, I’m a month behind on a few of my bills, I don’t have my rent for next month, I have all of my college loans on hold, I’m trying to figure out what I’m going to do and where I am going to go with no money when my lease is up in March… I feel as though I’m drowning and I’m not even sure where to go from here, hence why I have turned to this site. I’m only praying that things work out.
Thank you so much for your time in reading and maybe offering a hand.
My name is Tracy and I live in a 2 story house with 4 other young women as roommates. I’ve been having some financial trouble for a long time now, and I’ve finally gotten a new job this past week (Jan 14-18) and I fell behind on my share of the rent because I had lost my other job previously the week before.
I now owe $770 (2 months rent: $320 each and $130 Late Fee) and I must pay that ASAP or else me and roommates are all in danger of being evicted. If you can help me out at this time, I sure would be grateful to you all and will definitely pay it forward to somebody else way more less fortunate than I am. Thank you.
I never thought I would be in this position- asking complete strangers for money online. I’ve always had a strong work ethic, and believed in forging my own path- and being a completely resilient and independent person.
It’s not easy for me to even type these words, as I’m going to get really honest and pour my heart on the line and admit some of the biggest secrets in my life. But it’s because I need help, and I can’t allow my pride to continue being a burden to my family.
For the last 8 years I have been working full-time to support my boyfriend and our two pets- a small dog and a fat cat. I worked a lot of different jobs- sometimes two or three at the same time (everything from serving, film production assistant, liquor stores and more). It was a hectic lifestyle- but I made it work, because my boyfriend was never in a position health-wise to work himself.
We lived with his adopted family (more on that later) for about 5 years (contributing to rent, bills and groceries for the household), before moving on our own. His family is wonderful, and consists of two loving parents, another adopted sibling, and two biological children from the parents.
We moved on our own about two years ago when it became apparent his family couldn’t support us for much longer, due to their own financial hardships. Life was good for us at this point. Despite living in our first rather small & dingy bachelor/basement suite in a large & unfamiliar city- my boyfriend was consistently working for the first time in 8 years.
It was hard for him to work, and he never did for so long, because he was born with a crippling disability that was passed on to him from both of his parents. He never met his parents, they both died shortly after he was born, although he has been with the same adopted family nearly his whole life. His illness makes him tired and feel sore, he can’t gain weight like most people and he has 10 horse pills to take every single day, which leaves him nauseous & clutching his stomach in a ball on the bathroom floor, at times. Not to mention the constant trips to the hospital/ specialists we both frequently go to, to maintain his health.
Despite those hurdles, when we first moved out both of us were working at the same time, for the first time ever in our relationship. He was working doing hard physical labour / contract work with a friend, and I had a good job, on salary, managing a retail store in the city.
I watched him battle his illness and get up everyday to support us and provide us with a good life- testing his limits all the time. It wasn’t easy for him to work, and I often told him he shouldn’t go in when I could see he wasn’t up to it. Sometimes he would take a day, but usually he pushed himself and did it.
We were a good team, saving money and starting to build our own independent life together.
Within six months we were able to move out of that dingy basement suite into a clean and warm apartment (with an actual bedroom!), and everything seemed really good.
Then, one morning last year, we were just waking up & got a phone call from my boyfriends dad. His dad was sobbing hard. I couldn’t hear a lot, but my boyfriend’s face broke and he started bawling. I watched his heart break. And all I could hear was my boyfriends broken cries and his dads muffled ones on the other end.
When they got off the phone (his dad was coming to pick us up), I learned what happened. My boyfriend’s older brother, my brother-in-law, had passed away from a heart attack that morning & we were both crushed.
We spent two weeks with the family, taking that time off of work, and I got two small payday loans to help with the strenuous financial/ emotional circumstances. We did receive a lot of help in that time- my boyfriend was able to leave his contracting job and get a much less physically demanding job offered from their families church & we attended a free counselling session, too.
However, my job was less sympathetic then the church- and while not directly firing me for taking that time off, I was told how bad it was for the company that I took that time off, and was put on the chopping block for it. Within 3 months I lost my job.
We’ve been trying to make it work, but the two loans I got have defaulted (since I couldn’t afford to pay it back after losing my job) and my boyfriend’s job at the church is only part-time and with very random shifts/ pay dates. We’re also struggling with our day-to-day bills & rent.
I have a creditor knocking at my door, and the most work I’ve been getting is part-time serving work, not enough to make ends meet, hardly enough to keep food on our plates. Not to mention the grieving process for both me and him is still quite overwhelming, as the loss was unexpected and still pretty fresh. I can’t imagine what my boyfriend is going through, losing a family member while confronting his own health issues daily. I know for him life feels hopeless, and I don’t want this debt to be an added pressure on him.
We’re not in the hole by a lot of money, $800- 1,000 CAD is all that we need to get our finances straightened out, but anything helps in a situation like this. I know it seems like a small amount, but when you have bills to pay on top of that, and health issues & grievance… It starts to feel like that thousand dollars will always be hanging over our heads. (Posted a photo of some, not all, debts).
If there is anyone out there who is in a position to help a small family who has been through a lot over the last few months, there would be no way we could repay you in terms of what you will have given us emotionally. Thanks to all who read and God bless.
I want to start of by saying thank you for taking the time to read my story. I am a 26 year old going through an economic hardship, which is affecting my education and my work life. I am trying to go back to school , so I can obtain a professional career that will get me out of this financial distress. How ever, it’s hard when I have rent, bills, and school loans to pay for. Unfortunately I don’t live in a household with two parents who help me financially. My mother who has been a single mother my whole life, has tried her best to help me the first two years in college,, but i noticed that it wasn’t something she couldn’t do. She went from living in own her apartment to renting a room so that she can help me. So I stopped receiving money from her.
I graduated with an undergrad, but I want to go back to school and obtain and Master degree. The professional career I want to obtain requires I have a Masters degree. How ever, every time I want to go back to school, I can’t work full time. It is very important that I have enough time to even study. While being in undergrad i was barely passing my classes because I had to work so much. If I don’t work it will hard for me to pay loans back, my bills, and rent. Due to this I have maxed out the only credit card I had to help me, which is now taking me for ever to pay back. I currently have a job, which I am grateful for, but I am not paid enough. Regardless if I have a bachelors, they wont give me a higher raise. Also. depending on the census of the company. I sometimes don’t even get enough hours. Which really stresses me out
I am so tired of this, I wish I had the opportunity like most of my friends do. I currently feel so alone and feel like I am never going to make it. There are times where I only enough to pay for rent, and Im with no money for two week until I get paid again. I am not asking for something specific amount because I already feel bad enough asking for money. But anything would help. Even if its $5, $10, or $20. I am the first child from my entire family who is at least trying to go school. I pushed myself hard for so many years. But when you barely have enough money for to pay for rent and bills. How will I be able to pay for gas, food, and school supplies. Please help me, so I can fulfill my dreams, and help the next generation in my family also have this great opportunity. Thank you once again, and God Bless you.
Here is my Paypal account for those who would love to help
Hello. I’ll try to be simple. I really don’t like people feeling sorry for me but this site seems like a bunch of really nice people just looking to help out. I can see how scammers and people would try to take advantage here. Thats not my goal
I, like many other American millennial, I grew up under a big screen. I used the media to run away from my problems. From that perspective, it seems sad. But I truly believe that’s how some of the greatest artists of all time are made.
The problem and at the same time beautiful fact is that EVERYONE wants to pursue this life. Due to the dream being so public on shows like American idol, the pursuit for fame fueled me.
I wanted to do it all. Which I did. I wrote music in high school and won state awards for it. When I ventured into acting I brought my school its first state speech championship. I always had trouble finding balance between my band and writing music for it and my new found love for the arts. I was VERY good at both! I found some success in LA making my way onto Glee for a very small part. It was a taste of a life I knew I wanted, but could not emotionally or financially at such a young age.
10 years later, here I am. I fell in love with a girl and we currently live together. I want to marry her.
This past year has been the most productive I’ve ever had. I was severely depressed and diagnosed with extreme adhd. It was hard for me to do but I got healthcare because I was more depressed than I had ever been. The doctor explained that this is what could make me creative but this is also why I’ve had a hard time with follow through. Since seeking help I opened up my own business singing at parties and events. I got TREMENDOUS feedback and things were going so well and for the first time! I was bringing home the bills WHILE doing what I love. I even played at the prestigious London house downtown Chicago on Wacker Drive. I also launched my own podcast on Apple to reach out to others like me who have depression and love to play games instead of drinking or doing drugs. I want to spread a positive message to people and show them theres always another way.
In December I lined up a reoccurring gig at a very nice restaurant i my area. A week in I got a whooping cough and it gave me the WORST laringiits I have EVER had. My voice hasn’t been the same and I missed out on thousands if not more and buried my relationship with the owner. One day I went to see spiderman with a free movie pass I had with next to no gas, and my bank as it looked in the picture. I got to the counter and the girl asked if I had the dollar for tax. I went back to the car for change and thats when I broke down. Im SO done being in this position,
I know that I’m special. I have follow through I’m extremely talented and I can say this because Ive gotten bad feedback when I started. I know a fake compliment and 20 dollar tips have become A LOT more frequent.
I will never give up on my dream as long as I have my talent. While living with this mentality alone is ok, I need to give my girlfriend financial security. She’s the best thing I’ve ever had. Which is why im looking for an hourly job to hold us over.
Every support system in my life believes in me and I couldn’t be more thankful. I am drowning in debt and my rent is past due. I know I can get myself out of this with a push. Right now its hard to leave the house or record an episode because of the weight of these problems. Im an emotional person who bears a lot of feeling. Im hurting because I cant work right now the way I know how. If you can help, thanks. I appreciate you reading and if all you can spare is a prayer, that will do just fine. Have a nice day and thank you.
I am a stay at home mother to my three boys, ages 10, 7 and 2 and my two step children, ages 9 and 8, in all we are a family of seven. We live in a tiny town with barely 300 people and a serious lack of employment opportunities. My husband typically works 12 to 14 hour days for 5 to 6 days a week but during the month of December his hours were drastically cut back to practically in half of what he usually works. His check when it came in, was nowhere even close enough to cover rent let alone barely cover a couple smaller bills we had for the month plus food. Now we have till the 15th of January to come up with rent and also money to cover a couple more bills, food and gas. We are just looking for assistance for this month as I am starting back to college this month and will have financial aid coming in next month and then taxes to help us get back ahead with rent and bills.
We really cannot afford to lose the house that we are in. The living situation we had before was seriously not the best and if we lose this house, which will happen if we are not able to come up with rent by the 15th, we will have to go back to that. We had to move to our current town at the end of 2017 and move in with my mother and stepdad. My step dad is an alcoholic and not someone that children should be raised around. My mother is bipolar and un-medicated. Neither of them wanted or was willing to work and expected up to pay all their bills plus our own and buy all the food for the entire household. There was constantly fights within the house between my mother and stepdad and it was to the point that all the children were scared to be in the house, and eventually scared that they would come over and do the same things after we moved, but it was the only place we had to go unless we wanted to have seven people living on the street. We literally jumped at the opportunity to move into the house when it came open because it was the best thing to do for the children and now we are on the verge of losing it. Please if you can donate it would mean the world to my family and me.
This may sound naive but I think this is already helping because I also needed to take this out of my chest.
I live in Spain, I won’t say the exact place because this is kind of painful to share it would be worst to be pointed out.
Anyway, my life is not the biggest mess there is because I have my mother, some friends, and I am alive. But, cutting to the point, I have miscalculated entirely my economy, first by spending more than I should then trying to get back my money by playing online slots, yeah,casinos and all that.
The worst thing of those places is that sometimes you win some amount, then my mind fell in the trap so easily and I gambled more than 3 months of salary in 20 minutes (trying to get more) then lost it all.
I felt like I wanted to die, it’s like you become your worst enemy. With that said I am now in a kind of horrible situation, as my father lent me money to pay the rent and I lost it gambling, right now I cannot pay this month’s rent, bills and even food.
Tomorrow I will go to pawn all my valuable belongings (phone and so on).
It’s the last resource I think I have and I feel like all the people I could go to ask help is gone, so I really feel lost.
But maybe -if you are reading this- I am not alone at all.
If somebody could help me just a little, it would be a tremendous help and light of life.
I know there are people with worst things going on so I would understand not being helped at all but if you do be sure I would feel grateful and perhaps see the light.
Hi, my name is Robin. I’m 20 and have been making it on my own since 18. I worked for 3 years with a restaurant chain. Midway through, I had to change the store I was working at. I went from having a family at work to the atmosphere entirely changing. I coped with being a loner at this place for a year and a half until one of my coworkers began to harrass me in some unsavory ways. They weren’t going to fire him no matter how many other girls I had worked with complained about his behavior. I kept on trucking, making ends meet as I slowly leaked the motivation to create art and partake in the hobbies I love. I felt empty.
A friend had offered me to come live with him so I didn’t have to deal with the stress. We were very close, so I obliged. I put in my two weeks and began looking to jobs and interviews in the area. I packed up my things and moved them to his house. One day, he started getting weird and paranoid when I had misplaced my phone at a grocery store. When customer service had found my phone and I got it back, I had 33 texts stating my property had been set on his porch and that I wasn’t allowed to move in with him any longer. He said we were no longer friends.
I’ve since been looking into jobs in my area, unpacking my boxes once again. Honestly, I’ve been a happier, less stressed person without my old job. I have had free time to dip into my hobbies and found joy & improvement. I’ve started sculpting and traditional artwork too! I’ve been making digital art as my only medium up until now.
I should have stable income once again here soon, but in the mean time, I’m concerned about my rent. I need about $700 to make it to next month without stress. Anything would be a huge help. I thank you for your time reading my little tale of troubles. I wish you all the best and I thank you for your consideration. Feel free to contact me to chat further.
My rent for last month bounced and I am $1000 short when it comes to meeting that payment without risking an eviction notice and have limited time to get the cash without running into an issue. I am putting minimal funds toward food and can positively say I am living paycheck to paycheck to make ends meet. As this is the first time on my own away from home for a permanent ordeal, I am using this as a learning experience to better myself. That said, I am unable to function without getting a little bit of aid to make ends meet.
A little bit of background: I am working in a low income area as a teaching aid. I also have several medical bills and student loan bills that I have been paying on top of rent. I can admit I am struggling but had been perfectly fine up until the hiccup of rent bouncing back and my not being aware of the situation until it was almost too late. I am grateful to not have an eviction notice on my door but know it is a matter of time before it appears.
I usually would not go for asking for aid but I do not have the income this month in order to meet that due. I have tried everything from applying for a second job to applying for an emergency loan of credit and have not had any luck. The job hunt has been rough. Loans won’t take me due to student debt, and I am downright terrified because my family does not have the sort of money to toss into this since my grandmother died shortly before Christmas. This came just in time for the new year and I have never felt this down on my luck before now.
Any help I can get will be greatly appreciated so thank you for reading and considering me. I am truly in your debt. Please know that I am not exaggerating in saying that. I truly admire any and all help to be given during my time of need and am unable to ask direct family since they are unable to afford my needs on top of their own. I am disappointed to have landed myself in this situation and hope that a little bit of outside help will be enough to make the world seem a little less scary for the new year.
I feel incredibly embarrassed that I am on here asking for help – but I genuinely feel like there is no other option.
I am in my twenties (where you’re meant to be enjoying life!) and I can’t even afford to eat or see my friends or buy myself things or treat my parents, who are nothing but amazing to me. I am constantly at the end of my overdraft every month and I can’t get out of it and it upsets me no end, and I feel as if I’ll never get out of it.
I understand people are in worse positions and it’s awful – but I need the help. My mental health really does depend on it.
Long story short. A few years back I had a lot of savings and I was in good credit. I had an ex boyfriend who was extremely calculated and manipulative. He didn’t have a job, and he came up with all these suggestions and I was stupid enough to listen to. He promised the world to me – and maxed out my credit card, made me take out multiple payday loans and made me quit my job (of 6 yrs) on the promise of a new one and a better life.
I know that was my fault and I was so so stupid to listen to him. My parents ended up bailing me out and now I owe them thousands of pounds. Even sold my car (that I paid for all on my own) to give them some money back. And it still wasn’t enough. I have been almost suicidal at points.
Since then my finances have been in a downward spiral – and I cannot borrow as my credit score is extremely poor as you can imagine.
I’ve put my long suffering parents through hell – they aren’t rich at all and my dream is to pay them back. I have 5 nephews and I’d like to be able to treat them now and then. I’d like to have a life.
I have moved out and trying to live an independent life with a full time job I really enjoy (I also part time study) but it barely pays enough for me to make ends meet.
Anything I would be extremely grateful for. I want to be able to get a better paying job after I finish my degree and live a better life. But for now – I want to stop stressing everyday of my life and be financially and emotionally healthy.
I owe my parents about £4k now.
Thank you so much.
My name is Maureen, I’m 24 years old, I was born and raised in Las Vegas, Nevada but there is nothing lucky about the state I’m in. This is my turn to present my case of desperation. I’ll start way back at the beginning.
From the age of 4 I was a keen dancer. I enrolled in my first ballet class 1 week short of my 5th birthday.
I was a great dancer. Emphasis on the was. When I was 18 years old I was finding life really hard. I couldn’t keep up with the pressures of school, I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. I rarely socialised. I was so stressed all time. Riddled with anxiety and depression. It was completely unexplainable.
At age 19 my grandma who lived with us passed away at age 86. She had diabetes and had lost her sight. Well this was just the start of a downward spiral for me. My mental state was almost manic and I began to feel pain all over my body. The pain started in my hip, across my lower back and up my spine. It travelled all through my bones and muscles. I was dizzy, light headed, migraines and headaches galore. I had developed fibromyalgia. The stress of school, the immense pressure I was putting on myself with dancing and the loss of my grandmother had sent me off.
Since being diagnosed my life has changed. I don’t dance as much anymore. I dance now just to keep myself in shape and I barely enjoy it.
However, at the age of 21 I gave birth to my son and actually from that point things started to look up. Child birth really messed up my pain again but he was worth it. I had moved into an apartment with my boyfriend. I actually got a good enough job in an insurance company – nothing too major mostly just doing filing and phone calls. The pain was still present however I was finding ways to cope.
A year and a half ago things started to get bad again. My boyfriend and I split up and I was all on my own with my son. My parents and I speak often but they were quite disappointed that I hadn’t gone to college and had a baby without being married.
I lost my job at the insurance company as they had closed the branch. Since June 2018 I had been working two jobs and trying to balance raising a child. It’s been so difficult as you can imagine
I’ve been trying my best but lately things have got so bad that I really don’t know what to do. I’ve lost one of the jobs during the holidays due to over staffing and things have really started to take a bad turn I’m asking for $2,000 to afford my next rent payment and half of the next payment. Hopefully I will have means to support myself in February however for now I’m at the end of my rope and so close to calling it quits.
Never in my life would I have thought it would come down to this