Hello.

I’m in a pretty terrible spot, and I need to ask people for help.

A quick run down of this year. I moved to a new city with my partner and our dog. Shortly after the move both my family life and my life with my partner started to go south. My dad got diagnosed with cancer. There was hope at first, but over the course of six months he got worse and worse. During the same time my partner started to gaslight me and manipulate me. We briefly broke up and had to get separate apartments around the time my dad was diagnosed with cancer. After a brief trip to see my dad, we got back together, but they began to use my weakened emotional state to get money out of me, even in times when I was struggling to pay my own rent. This continued for months, and while I was so worried about my Dad and my fragile relationship they took more and more money from me.

In January my dad went into hospice. I took an expensive trip back to see him in his last days but arrived a day late and he had already become unresponsive and passed a few days later. When I returned my partner broke up with me, but still convinced me to continue helping them. I was so broken and depressed that I was holding onto anything I could. They continued to use me for six more months, but as I healed from the death of my Dad I began to realize what my ex-partner was doing to me. I fought against it, but the gas lighting got worse. They made me believe I was the one that was wrong. I was the one that was awful and I owed it to them to keep helping them. I finally broke free last month, but the damage to my financial health is too deep. And in the course of breaking free they took our dog and stopped letting me see her.

I don’t know where to turn for help. I recently got a promotion at work that will help, but I’ve got several hurdles to get over before I can stand on my own two feet.

I currently live in an empty apartment with an air mattress and a couple chairs and books.

In the course of the breakup I had to get a new, separate apartment in the matter of a couple weeks. I got stuck in an apartment I could not afford. My lease is up in a month and I’m seeking a cheaper solution. But I’m currently behind on the rent for the place I’m at, and have no money for a deposit and first months rent for a new place.

I currently owe my current landlord almost $2,000 dollars. I estimate I’ll need close to a $1,000 more to secure a new apartment.

I don’t know what to do but start asking strangers on the internet to help, and hope that someone feels moved to help me get back on my feet after the worst year of my life.

Thank you for hearing me out. My paypal link in below as well as a screenshot of what I currently own in back due rent.

paypal.me/jdrake429

To make a long backstory short- my mother has been disabled since 2008. Between then and now, we have had many instances of living with no food, no electricity, and have even been homeless more than once. As soon as I turned 16, I was able to get a job and start supporting the family (younger brother and mother) and have been doing so ever since.

For the first time in my adult life, I was unemployed for almost a month from December 2017-January 2018. Considering I work a low wage job and support 2 adults and a teenager, I did not have the means to have developed any sort of safety net to prepare for that. During that month, I had no income whatsoever. The loss of income resulted in rent and utility payments owed that even working 45+ hours weekly has not been able to help me catch up on. Disregarding all other debt (medical, car, phone) that I accrued during that period and its aftermath, I am about $3000 in the hole. I owe my landlady- who has been gracious and understanding during this trying time, accepting any partial payment I could offer- $2500. I owe my utility company $367.

I accepted a second job with a local school district, but I am physically unable to work over 60 hours weekly, as I am also a college student. I have nowhere else to turn, and I’m terrified of the uncertainty that comes with unpaid bills. Anything helps to put a chip in the debt.

Thank you.

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I’m responsible for the situation I am in.  There are so many moments in the past few years where I could have made a different choice and didn’t.  Like most people who find themselves at rock bottom, I wasn’t putting the blame on me.  It was someone else who caused my struggles.  Victimization isn’t easy, but it’s much easier than recognizing you’re the only one to blame.  My story is simple.  I married the wrong guy and when I figured that out and attempted to leave he became a monster.  I attempted to get support from my family and that caused even bigger problems.  I’ve learned psychologically unhealthy people (Class C Personality Disorders & CoDependents) tend marry other psychologically unhealthy people, and they then raise children who are psychologically unhealthy.  If you’re unlucky enough to be born into such a family, your only way to break the cycle is by figuring out what psychologically healthy behavior looks like and establishing boundaries to protecting yourself from the crazy-making you knew as “normal” growing up.  I was blessed in that my life left me in so much pain I knew something was wrong.  Through therapy and time I began getting healthy.  Unhealthy people who rely on you playing the part you play in their dysfunction greatly dislike it when you stop doing “the dance” they know so well.  You can try and give them the same knowledge that lit your way out of the dark… and if you love them, you’ll likely try very hard, for a very long time… but such knowledge is impossible to share with those who can’t hear it.  But my psychological dysfunction was always based on me not being good enough. I was always doubting my own judgement and fretting I did something wrong.  I allowed other people to treat me terribly because I felt I must have deserved it.  Things I’d never do to anyone, even my worst enemy, I tolerated from those closest to me.  So, I was in a lot of pain already.  My psyche was starving for the knowledge I tried to share with those close to me.  They, however, had different coping mechanisms they’d employed their whole lives, and as such, their dysfunctional thinking is built upon a reality where they are never wrong.  They’re confident in their choices and actions.  When those choices or actions lead to unwanted outcomes they have an exceptional ability to reframe it so it wasn’t any error on their part.  They’ll like that outcome more, point to an innocent factor for the blame, or even rewrite history so they can maintain they’re “I’m okay, I’ve done nothing wrong” mentality.   My therapist said, it’s like trying to plant a seed on concrete.  She said my ex and my mom would never walk into a therapists office to seek help.  In fact, the only time therapists meet people like them is when someone around them has been going to therapy and the therapist finally says, we should have them come in.  Some unhealthy psyches have developed such a good defense they aren’t miserable or unsettled by their relationships.  It’s just the people they’re in relationships with that feel that way.  

My life gave me an opportunity to learn and grow.  That opportunity came in the form of both a betrayal and an injustice.  I had to remove my ex from my life and in so doing I ended up discovering I had to remove my mom from it too.  Do you know how hard it is to lose your spouse and your mom?  By choice?  Because they demonstrate they don’t even care about you enough to respect your boundaries or treat you the way they want you to treat them?  It’s brutal.  And I did a really, really bad job dealing with it.  

I knew I was doing the right thing, but it tore me apart at the heart.  I lost my faith in love. Lost my faith in God.  And I never had very much faith in me.  When my ex turned our divorce into a war, and my blood was all he wanted, I did my best to minimize the damage.  He was financially far more powerful and he was fleecing me of what little I had.  For almost a year I kept saying I’d sign over everything, I just wanted the divorce.  He refused to even meet with mediators, filed claims full of lies about me, and kept saying he wanted it all in court. 

I am so responsible for all of this.  I never took my power back.  I was weak and foolish.  I was stupid and still entangled.  And when I learned my mother had given him money to hire an attorney to divorce me, I felt the only suicidal thought I’ve ever had in my life.  It was devastating to every molecule in my body.  A dark night of the soul.  That’s the only thing I’ve read about which comes close to describing what it’s been like.  A dark night of the soul.  

I’m to blame for all this because I could have done different and I didn’t.  I didn’t stand up for myself, or recognize the ways I was still engaged in the game.  It’s all so shameful.  I’m to blame for this, and I hate that I wasn’t better at navigating this.  I’m not alone though. Others have found themselves where I am.  Other people make poor choices they regret.  Not everyone copes well with heartbreak or love loss. 

My divorce is final.  I gave him everything and spent thousands on legal fees protecting my custody rights.  We have two kids.  They’re the reason I filed for divorce.  One healthy parent is enough to break the cycle.  If they grow up and marry psychologically healthy people it will be my greatest accomplishment.  Freeing them from the cycle of hurt people hurting people. 

I share custody with their dad.  Anyone reading this who can relate must know as long as there isn’t physical or sexual abuse in the home you should never take a parent away from a child.  Those relationships are their God given rights.  And from a psychological stand point bad Dad is way better than NO Dad.  If you have a parent that wants to be in their kids’ lives, step away and let them be.  Feeding them fast food and letting them stay up late are not reasons to fight against their custody.  Even if they try to stripe you if your custody rights, after you gave up your career to be home with them, don’t lash back in kind.  Don’t ever go after their custody.  I didn’t.  And it’s one of the only things I know I did right.  Yes, coparenting sucks.  But it’s mostly my misery.  Taking their other parent from them would have made my life easier and theirs worse.  Don’t do that.  Don’t ever do that.  

I’ve shared all this because I need financial help and my divorce has destroyed my credit and ruined my finances.  I’ve been working and am scheduled to take my RE license test next month.  I gave notice to my landlord on the 1st after everything was finalized in court last month.  I’m downsizing because I must.  Hopefully it will only be for six months as my income will grow once I get my license.  I’m packing right now and I keep trying to figure out how I’m going to afford a moving truck or the deposit on my next place.  I’ve got furniture posted for sale on offer up and craigslist but it’s been 3 weeks and nobody follows through despite lots of interest.  That’s why I’m here.  And it feels stupid to be doing this, but I need help, and I’m responsible for this mess I’m in… so I’m trying everything I can think of.  

PAYPAL.me/HollyBlac

I moved in my home 1 year and 5 months ago. At that time I had a job as a customer service representative making 11.40 an hour. I have a 5 year old son named Waylon and a 4 year old daughter named Kendall. I also have a 22 year old daughter named Emily, who lives on her own. I had to get FMLA at work because Kendall has asthma and is allergic to dust mites, trees, grass, mold and nuts. She sees her pediatrician as well as a lung specialist 3 times a week to receive her allergy shots. I was approved for 465 hours (FMLA) and that was to be used for appointments and any time Kendall became sick. Kendall has been in and out of hospitals since birth making it hard on our little family. She does breathing treatments daily and takes 5 different medicines a day.  It was obvious the employer didn’t like the fact I had a sick child but I was able to hold on to my job for 2 years then in 4/2018 I was told by my supervisor the whole department was shutting down. There were 6 of us ladies that took inbound calls. I was never really given too many details about the situation but I just knew I was no longer going to have a job. My last day of work was 5/18/2018. I went to the department of Social Service to sign up for EBT assistance. I also got Medicaid for the children. I instantly begin applying to every job I saw. I interviewed for a work from home position. I received an offer letter for a work from home position beginning 7/12 ( I can show the document) however the training date has been moved. My pastor has helped me with the majority of my bills and I have received a little help from family members. My rent is $700.00 a month and I have paid $200.00 towards it for the month of July. I am fighting to keep a roof over my children’s head. We have a 3 bedroom home with a fenced in back yard that they absolutely love. This is the first time they have a yard to play in.  They depend on me for everything. I have also enrolled in school and am going to major in office administration. ( I can show those documents as well). I am trying my best to ensure they have a bright future by changing our situation drastically. I will begin my classes next month. I am looking forward to a 2 year degree so that I can begin a successful career in something I love. Making that step will ensure my children have a mom they can depend on and will not have to worry about any more financial issues. My son will start k-5 in August and Kendall will begin pre-k. These children are amazing and deserve the world.   I am so thankful to anyone that can help at all. $500.00 will pay the remainder of the rent and we will certainly keep our home. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to tell you about my situation. God bless you and have a great day.

Elizabeth

Waylon & Kendall

Me/ElizabethMartin375

I recently relocated to Colorado from El Paso, TX.  In hopes of bettering my life.  Unfortunatly, it has not entirely worked out.  In my first living accommodation, I was scammed by someone that I thought was a friend.  Without telling me, he planned on having his female felon friend move into the house that we were renting.  Talked me and one other friend, who is on disability, into moving there.  Then got my friend living in the garage in Commerce City, CO.  the landlord made the decesion to give a hard deadline of January 19th of this year to be moved out.  Said former friend, stated that I had to go as well because my dog, who rarely left my room, made too much of a mess in the backyard.  While said felon’s dog, really made the mess.  After scrambling to locate a place, we rented a garden level apartment in Aurora, CO.  Now we normally manage to make everything work out but this past month, I’ve had to make repairs, a new transmission, to my vehicle.  because of this, I am behind on this past months rent.  My current landlord has given me until 07/18/2018, to come up with the rent, well past the normal deadline of the 5th of every month.  Normally, my two paychecks a month allows me to make my share of the rent.  But now I am $900 short.  All of the programs near me, state that they must have an eviction notice before they can help.  I can’t let it go that far because I will be short the following month and so on.  Because my income is not large enough to warrant a payday loan or any short term loan, I’m desperate.  I can’t even receive a title loan for my vehicle because they are not permitted in Colorado, and it is registered in Texas.  Please help a struggling guy out.

paypal.me/mjchewning

Hello my name is Becca and I am 41 yrs old. The last 3 years havevbeen extremely hard for me. 3 yrs ago, I was making good money and had been with my employer for 11 years when my life did a complete turn around in less than a week. Due to the company selling, I lost my job, which led to the loss of my home, my daughter, and car. Eventually, I found myself roaming around Calif living in my car. After 10 months, my dad helped me by loaning me the $ for a deposit and 1st months rent. My daughter came home and I was almost on my feet, when for a 2nd time, I lost again. I was in a car accident and was hurt badly.  I was in the hospital for 9 days. I wasnt able to work for 6 weeks and lost my house again. I went and stayed with a friend, found a job at a deli in november. In 8 months, I’ve been promoted to manager and have gotten a small raise. My friend I was staying with had to move and I have been staying in motels since 5/20 and barely getting by. Every penny of my paycheck literally goes for the room cost and a bus pass for work. I have managed to somehow not touch the little bit of money I’ve saved up ($600) and have found a studio apartment that I can afford comfortably every month for $500 p/month. The problem I am having is the $500 last month rent and $500 security deposit. The landlord need the cash up front and has given me until Friday to come up with the funds. As of tonight, I am still $560 short. I’ve sold most of my clothes and furniture that I’ve had in storage. Im doing everything I can to try to make this money so I can finally be stable again. I won’t ever have the security of knowing tomorrow will be ok until I’m out of these motels. I desperately want this little studio apt to be that first step for my future. I hate asking for help. My dad usually would help me, but he passed away in may. I don’t have anyone that I can ask. If someone can help me with even a tiny donation, every penny counts.  I’d be forever grateful.

Paypal.me

paypal.me/gypsysoul76

Good morning,

I am a single father with 2 amazing children ages 7 and 10. A couple months ago I had lost my job and have always been good saving money and setting up just in case there are hard times. I was out of work for almost 3 months and just recently was able to find a new job. I have run into a serious issue. I was not able to pay for rent this month waiting on receiving my first check for employment. I have just received an eviction notice and have to pay immediately before the process moves forward. I have asked friends and family for help and financially nobody was able (I did get some great food donations from friends and family and also had someone watch the kids while I was at work because I did not have the money at this time for daycare or a sitter.
I do not like being in this situation especially with my children if I was alone I cold sleep in a car and be fine but with children I need to have a roof over there head. With late fees and filing cost I owe $2,132.76. I just want to be able to get this covered so we can have a place to stay. Any help would be amazing. Thank you for your consideration.

paypal.me/ryancolindavis

Hello,

My name is Charles. I’m currently trying to raise $10,000 before the end of August to help with moving expenses, and additionally help provide a little extra for some living expenses until I can find a job. Things have gotten pretty tough for me and my children over the last couple of years. I have had to have multiple surgeries due to the wear and tear on my body from old war injuries. During that time I also lost two brothers that passed away. Following this my son was hospitalized for over a month due to mental illness and depression. This added so much extra strain to my relationship at the time, which caused my wife to leave me and my children.

After my wife left, hurricane Harvey trashed southern Texas. Although the house my kids and I were living in wasn’t a total loss and repairs were minimal, it didn’t matter because I could no longer afford all the bills on my own. While all this was happening I was in the middle of a career change. My surgeries and own mental status forced me out of my job as a criminal investigator. So many times I wanted to give up, but I didn’t. I stayed in school and managed to finish my associates degree, before transferring into a bachelors program.

Following the heartache from my son, my ex, a hurricane, having to move, and the mounting pressures of school; I just kept pushing forward. I did what I had to do and I just kept being the best father I knew how to be, all while attending my classes, driving my kids to school, making dinners; really just everything a parent should do.

I finished my bachelors degree and am set to walk the stage August 4, but now we need to move. I feel like I pretty much have to, this is the goal that I’ve been working so hard towards over the last couple of years, so how could I not? My dream and goal is to move to California and enter the film industry, but in all honesty I’m broke, so I’m asking for help. I’ve tried and tried to save money, but my modest veteran’s disability only goes so far.

Any help that anyone could give me and my children, I would be beyond grateful for. We need a break, I need a break. The money provided will help with any moving expenses, in addition to helping to cover some living expenses until I can land a job. I know it’s going to be hard, but I don’t think it’s impossible, I just need someone to give me a chance.
Thank you
-Charles

Okay, so… I’ve never done this before- on a number of levels. I have a hard time even asking my family for any sort of financial help, yet I find myself desperate enough to beg strangers on the internet.

My sister and I moved from California to Virginia in August of last year (2017). We had $15,000 between us and figured that would be enough to last us until we found work. We thought wrong. By the time we did get a job, our money had already run out.

To make a long story short: we befriended our neighbor who had fallen on hard times. We still had a decent amount of money left so, trying to be good friends, we helped her out here and there when the leasing office was threatening to evict her. The first time we helped her ended up costing us about $2,000. “It’s worth it!”, we thought, but now… we see it wasn’t. If things ended there, it likely would’ve been for the better for all involved. Alas, we just continued making mistakes.

By now, my sister and I did at least have a job (we lasted 3 months before they let us go): full time, customer service, $9 an hour. Things were looking up! The company was even nice enough to give us the exact same schedule so we didn’t have to waste money on gas.

Our neighbor, our friend, was not so fortunate. Every now and then, she’d need groceries- name brand groceries, and would come to us for help. When my sister and I got shopping, we go to the cheapest place we know, look for good deals, and spend about $80 on a cart full of food, which will usually last us at least 2 weeks. When our neighbor goes shopping, she spends more than twice that and it apparently only lasts one week. All those shopping excursions (because, yes, there were many) ended up sucking up at least $1,000 (probably more to be honest, but I’m trying to round down… way down).

Of course, it didn’t end there. She still lacked a job and bills were piling up once more. Instead of asking for money, she’d talk about how little money she had and how lucky we were… but all of our money was made from working for minimum wage at jobs she wouldn’t go near. By the end of the month, she outright asked for our help again. Of course, the bill was about $2,000 again and, like idiots, we complied.

I do want to make it known that this wasn’t a completely one-sided friendship. I don’t think our neighbor held any sort of animosity toward us or intended to put us in this situation. She seemed to think we had much more money than we actually did, which may have been our fault because we never explicitly told her how much we had in our bank until we had literally nothing. We had fun, honestly, but there comes a point when “asking for favors from” becomes “taking advantage of” and, whether she was aware of it or not, our relationship had come to that point.

She had a habit of asking us for money so far after the deadline that the price had been doubled so, being proactive, I decided, “If we’re going to be paying it anyway, we might as well do it before the price gets any higher!”. It was stupid, as many people tell me now, but I just didn’t want to pay another 2 grand when I knew we wouldn’t have it. When I told this to the neighbor, she insisted that she “would’ve been forced to leave” if I hadn’t paid and, because she did end up leaving anyway, it would’ve been better to save that $1,000.

She has made it clear that she has no intention of paying us back, mostly because she also doesn’t have a job and, even if she did, most of her money goes towards child support. I’ve accepted that, which is partially why I’m here in the first place. I have no other options. This is about more than just rent. I need funds for classes, books, electricity, and food for both my sister and I as well as our cats.

I don’t like asking for money, but I do like helping when others need it, so I guess I’m just… hoping the people here might be the same. My sister and I try so hard to spend as little money as possible and I can promise you that any donations will be used ONLY for bills and tuition (and maybe some food so we don’t die, but only the cheapest food will be bought!). We have learned from this experience and will be more careful in the future, both with money and in choosing friends.

If you’re at all interested in donating, my PayPal is paypal.me/jschnurpel

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, have a blessed day!

I don’t even know where to start or how to do this so I’ll just be 100% honest. I recently got the courage to leave an abusive relationship even though everyone told me I should stay. He was abusive in every sense of the term… physically, mentally, emotionally, financially.. in a matter of 3 years and 4 months he managed to ruin my credit, leave me 4,000 in debt, and paying for a car note that I didn’t even want. I can’t sit here and say that I had no fault because i did… I let him manipulate me and take advantage of me. I let him cloud my judgement and change me. My friends, my family and even my own mother told me I should stay because I would be dead broke having to pay rent and the car and the debt by myself, since he had finally gotten a stable job. I couldn’t take it anymore! Now after a couple of months of being on my own and borrowing money from everyone in the family, I’m asking the internet. I’m asking the one person who’s reading this and wants to help make life just a little bit easier for someone who’s completely defeated. I can’t move back in with my mom because my stepdad won’t allow it. I have no other family members or friends with the resources to be able to help me. I am currently extremely behind in rent for my tiny efficiency. I just need 680 to cover last month while I catch up on this month. This is extremely out of character for me as I am very prideful, but being 21 and alone in Miami is really taking its toll on me. Also, if anyone knows how to reach me with any kind of job offer for evenings and weekends I would be very thankful!

Hi everyone, thank you for taking the time to read this.

I’m a gal who lives alone in a studio apartment in the city. Late last year I had to get surgery on my spine as I had a herniated disc that was pressing into my sciatic nerve. The pain started out small and slowly grew until I could barely walk or function, due to the pain and damage. (I could show you some of the procedure pictures if any potential donors are interested for truth’s sake, but I don’t think it’s entirely appropriate to plaster here on the site. Please reach out if you’d like to see.)

Now, fast forward and I am struggling to make ends meet due to all of the physical therapy bills and other medical expenses I had to pay. I can finally walk and feel like a human again thanks to my surgery, but I am now in debt and do not have enough money to pay my rent, groceries, utilities. I’ve burned through all of my hard-earned savings and cannot make it back quick enough. I am in the process of getting a better job but I’m in a terribly frightening place right now and won’t have a roof over my head if I can’t pay. I don’t know what else to do now.

My new lease has also recently gone up for my apartment to 738$ a month, and I have to pay my electricity and Internet bills, as well a phone bill. I’ve been through so much in the course of a year and it just feels like I haven’t been able to catch a break. (And, if you guys want to see more proof or want to see any utility bills I can also show you those)

I feel ashamed in a small way that I’m reaching out to strangers like this. I’ve worked hard to be where I am, to be independent, and support myself, but at this moment in my life I really just need a helping hand. I need to get back onto my feet, but it’s difficult when I haven’t even been given a chance to try. Donating will help me have some breathing room so I can properly get back on track.

1,000$ would be a miracle goal for me but with any help I can get, I would be so grateful to all of you. Thank you for taking the time to read this and consider donating. 

paypal.me/melodiva

In the beginning I grew up lower middle class and had a okay life. My dad though was quite mean, neglectful, controlling, and lazy. I always had food and somewhat sanitary live conditions though.

As time went on it all got worse, my dad would yell all the time and make everyone do everything for him. My mom eventually got tired of this, so she left. She wanted to take us too, but at the time I was too young to understand and my father manipulated me into staying with him along with my brother.

In my highschool years I still had faith. I would clean the house for friends to come over and have somewhat of a normal life. I tried to keep up with it but my dad wouldn’t work with me. I gave up and the fights stopped and now I barely even talk to him despite living with him.

The house went to hell. Roaches, animal feces (although this is better now), mold, dirt, dust, and trash is littered every where. We have an non-functioning washer/dryer, and a broken dishwasher. My father let’s things break and never gets them repaired. There’s almost never real food in the house. The worst part is he doesn’t know how to manage money. My dad got laid off from his job and now works at a grocery store making less money then me. He has zero saved and lives week to week waisting money constantly. Nothing I say or do gets through to him so I’ve given up and need to excape this life.

Now I am 20 years old in school, working full time, and trying to just be happy. I’m working to build my life up and move out but, I won’t be able to afford that for years. The longer I stay in this house the more depressed and ill from the lack of cleanliness I become.

Any donations will be used to help fund my education, or save up for an apartment. I appreciate you taking the time to read my story, there’s much more to it so if you would like to hear it please email me. Thank you so much.

paypal.me/Cofelice

My name is Gabriel Ramos and I have been let down down recently at my old job, in which I was an office worker and my main issue at the moment is how I will be able to pay for rent. The cost is currently $14,320 and I don’t have nearly enough and I have to pay by the end of the month, I just need some time for me to get a replacement job and so I beg that anyone who comes around and sees this could spare a buck or two in my time of need.

My paypal link is paypal.me/GabrielRamos1

Hello

I am a father of 4 wonderful kids and I have been unemployed for the last 3 months and was rejected to receive unemployment benefits. I just recently found a job but still it is not enough to pay all of the past rents, I just need help to catch up and not get evicted. I will lose everything and so will my children. My youngest are 3 year old twins, one of the twins has autism, my second oldest is my 6 year old boy who loves to play with his younger brothers, and my oldest is 10 years old my one and only girl, she is the most helpful and she is my precious princess, She watches her brothers while I was trying to find a new job, and now that I have a new job that I work from home she helps me even more. I do not want to take away her childhood I want her to be the little girl that she deserves to be. I am asking for help in this great time of need as I do not want my kids to go through losing what little they have. I am ashamed for having to do this and it is really my last resort, I am really trying to prevent any of this from happening but while being unemployed it really difficult. Many people have helped with food and extra clothes for my kids, as I do everything for them. They are my life, the only reason I even get up in the morning. My kids are the reason I have not given in to my depression, my reason for breathing. Please help me keep a roof over their head. I do not what them to go through what I went through when I was their age, with constant moving and basically a broken home, I do not want that for them. They deserve better, better than what I had. It is not my children’s fault for what is happening they don’t deserve to live in a minivan being homeless, and I do not want to lose them either. They are my saviors my reason to live and to keep going. I have never failed them and right now that is all I feel, Failure. I try to keep my composure around them, because I do not want to see them suffer. Please from the bottom of my heart I beg for help.

Hi my name is Andrea and im 16 years old. I’m in the 11th grade and I live with my mom and my 3 sisters who are 14, 11, and 7. I’m kind of embarrassed asking for help even though i shouldn’t be because it’s not my fault. My mom has been struggling please paying the rent and I’ve been looking for a job and applying to different places and i think  a lot of them won’t hire me because I’ve never had a job before and I’m still not done with school. I just don’t want to see my mom struggle anymore because she has a boyfriend who does it have a job that pays well and she’s always stressed. Sometimes I come home and there are papers in the door that they that were behind on rent and sometimes I feel bad and cry because my mom is basically doing all this by herself because she pays most of the bills and I don’t want to get put out again because we don’t have anywhere else to go. In 2015 my mom and her husband split up and we were homeless for about a year staying in and out of relatives houses before going to stay at her boyfriend’s dad’s house for about 2 years. At the beginning of 2017 around February we moved to this apartment and I didn’t really celebrate my birthday that was on the 20th but I really didn’t stress about it because I was just happy that we were in our own space even though this apartment could be better and I don’t think the rent here is worth it because sometimes the air conditioning leaks there’s mold in the window that grows back when it rains. I’m not really asking for too much but my goal is at least $1,000 because i remember the paper saying 1,000 something but i also know that my mom is behind on her car payments and that’s our only ride but that’s the least of my worries because i just want to make sure me and my sisters have a roof over our heads. Please help me. paypal.me/AWilson596

I would like to thank you for taking your time to read our story. Lets begin in February 2017, our roommate Alex hadn’t yet returned from work and it was getting late. Aurora and I didn’t think much of it since there had been times that he came home late from his work before. Having to stay an extra hour to help out for someone who came in late or cover a part of the shift from someone being sick. So we decided it wasn’t a big deal and went to go lay down.I placed on my sleeping mask and quickly had fallen asleep, but Aurora had a bad feeling and was having trouble falling asleep so she played on her phone. Around 1:30am or so, Aurora received a call on her phone from Alex. I woke up when her phone started ringing since it was on such a high volume. She almost immediately jumped out of bed and said I’ll be right there. I was a little confused on what was going on as she ran around grabbing clothes and packing a bag. She had informed me that Alex was in the ER. She told me to go back to bed and she’ll take care of him, but I wasn’t going to go back to sleep until we knew what was wrong. I got up out of bed and started to get dress. We let the dogs out before we left, not knowing how long we were going to be gone. Thankfully we live right next to the hospital so it was only a few minute drive. We got to the ER and they directed us to his room. When we arrived he told us what had happened. He started to feel a pain in his side at work and thought nothing of it, then the paid started to get worse. He waited to finish his shift and then realized he was in so much pain that he wouldn’t be able to drive so he called an ambulance. We waited in the hospital for a few hours laughing and joking with all the nurses and doctors. Trying to keep a good vibe even though we knew something was wrong. After he was given three bags of saline they realized that he was retaining fluid and had to reverse the effect. Making him have to pee a lot! After a little while his mom showed up asking how he was doing. Eventually after many tests that were done we had found out that he had heart failure. I had to go to work later that day but Aurora stayed with him. Keeping him company and joking around keeping the good vibe going. Later that day he was admitted to the hospital and they were trying to keep his heart stable. The whole time Aurora never left his side, she was there every single day he was at the hospital. He had an ejection fraction of 15% and if you aren’t familiar with medical terminology that means the amount of blood the heart is pumping out and an average low is 60%. I had to go to work later that day and just prayed he would be okay that this wasn’t it. Returning later on that day there was more bad news. We had found out that he can’t be seen by OHSU because that is in Oregon state and his insurance only covers Washington state. This meant that he might have to live in Seattle to be able to go to the doctors. On top of having the stress of him almost dying we were now facing the decision of having to lose him as a roommate. He stayed in the hospital for a week constantly being monitored and seeing if there was improvement on his heart. After the week they tested him again to see if the heart had changed, no change. At this point they told him that he can go home, but he has to follow strict rules until they see him up in Seattle for his first visit. He was excited that he was finally able to be released, but now we had the burden of trying to make sure he was cared for as well as taking care of his part of rent. We had a decision that if he did move to Seattle we would save him his room because we couldn’t lose him. In this time of him settling Aurora was going through issues of her own. A few weeks before he went into the hospital she just started her new job at Charter Communications. Her new work had 5 weeks of training to be in the call center, but she started feeling sick. Almost every morning she would trow up and feel sick all day. It started getting so bad that we went into the ER and Urgent Care multiple times. Each time them saying that it’s probably a kidney stone since there was blood in her urine. But the symptoms weren’t going away so they ran a bunch of different test. She went to her doctor to find out that there was a fracture on her spine. She was also sent to an OB for pain in her lower stomach that the ER doctors kept saying was a kidney stone. She had many visits and eventually through all the different times had to quit her job. She didn’t have a choice it was either leave now or stay and miss one more day and she’s fired. So she took the safe route and quit to figure out what has been causing the pain. In the end after the many visits and one exploratory surgery, she was sent to physical therapy. Once everything was settling down, I knew that my part time job wasn’t going to cut it anymore for rent. I had to get a different job and Charter communications was hiring for full time. So reluctantly I applied at Charter to be able to get the money that was needed to support my family. They needed help and I was going to provide for them. I got the job and shortly before my training, Alex was leaving for Seattle. We all tried to hang out as much as possible before he had to leave, but how time flies when you’re having fun. He was gone and we just had to wait to see what the doctors said. Not knowing when he’ll be back, we just waited. It started to get a little late so we texted him asking how everything went. We found out that he was at his mom’s house which isn’t that far away from us. He let us know that he didn’t have to stay up there in Seattle, he just had to make sure he made it to all of his visits. Which we were going to make sure of that! So he was able to stay home and just make sure that he kept himself on the correct diet and monitored himself. Aurora was able to start working on herself and help Alex as well. Then it was just me going to work starting this new job at a call center. I didn’t think that it would be too hard to figure everything out, but there was a lot that was shoved in our faces to try to swallow as quickly as possible. Just as we thought that things were settling down, Auroras mom went into the hospital. They had told her that she was being place on hospice care. The next day she had died, just like that in a blink of a day. She was up a few days prior yelling at some nurses and then, gone. Its crazy to just think life works that way. When its your time you’ll never know. The funeral was planned and I got time off of work to go, at this time Alex wasn’t feeling very well. He was feeling very light headed and just sick, but he wanted to make it to the funeral. They had a viewing for the first hour and in that time I rushed Alex to the ER because he just wasn’t doing well. I left him there seeing that there was going to be a long wait and he called his mom for company. I went back to be able to sit through the funeral, listening to all the different songs and stories told. Then to finally carry that pink casket all together as a family to be placed into the ground. We left shortly afterwards to go to Alex and see how he was doing. We found out that he had bronchitis which with his heart failure was going to make him feel 20 times worse than someone who is healthy. So he had to suffer through that for a few days at home just taking it really easy. Meanwhile Aurora and I were trying to figure out how to pay rent, thankfully we were able to get a loan from my mom and did some Uber Eats driving to make up the rest. We had another month to be able to stay, the next month came around and we were $200 short for rent and we were starting to run low for the animals food. We reached out to Aurora’s dad who needed some yard work done and would pay us. After a full 8 hour shift mowing and Aurora raking we earned enough to pay rent and get all the essentials that were needed. At this time Aurora was going through a lot of emotional hardships and was going to therapy. Which she was then told by her therapist that she can not work. Then I started to get sick, I started saying how I feel sick all the time, but I would still go to work because we need the money. Now I’m here at home, having to leave work early for feeling light-headed and now gone to the ER two times and was told I might have a viral infection and that I have vertigo. This is the worst part, being told to stay home and rest. Its not like I don’t mind staying home and resting all day, but then I think who is going to pay the rent. How are we going to be able to stay in our home. How am I supposed to support my family when I can’t work. I don’t want to lose all of my fur babies because I can’t support my family. So I’m writing this to who ever is willing to listen. Alex, Aurora and I need help to be able to live in our home. To be able to make sure our fur babies don’t have to go to some other family and be broken up. I’m asking please will someone help me keep my family together. Thank you so much for your time to read my sorrows and I hope if you are going through hard times as well to remember to keep your head up and that every storm runs out of rain.

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