This may be a repeat because I had issues submitting my last post but here goes…

So I’m 26. Ive been married for 5 years to a real jerk and I’m so tired of it… I’ve been trying to get out of this relationship for two years now but every time I take the step forward he does something to hold me back.
I’be been going back and forth with week long stints of sleeping in my car because I just can’t take the abuse anymore… it’s been awful…

On the plus side I finally have an opportunity to be free for good!!!! I found an apartment in a new town away from my baggage and a new job that I start in just over a week and things are finally looking up!
However, I don’t have enough for the deposit for the apartment so I’ll be sleeping in my car AGAIN just so I can work…

I was receiving checks from my previous employer because the business closed, but they stopped two weeks ago and I saved what was left to try and get this apartment. I’m short $600 for the first month rent and deposit ($1400 all together but I have $800) and if I can get it, I’ll have my apartment before I start work!

Please help me break free from the abuse!

I am unsure of what to say, I feel immobilized by my dilemma and all the effort and energy I have been putting into resolving it. I will type and continue to type and apologize if it seems hard to follow as I am truly frazzled. Thank you for taking the time to read about my plight.

I am in an emergency situation and need $800.00 to cover the rest of my rent for this month (November) else the apartment will be filing eviction on me soon. I have paid partial $300.00 but $800.00 remains, because it is late they added on a late fee of which increased the amount I owe. I have talked to them and requested an extension, and I am near the end of that extension. 

I don’t expect one person to give me $800.00, I truly appreciate any amount you are able to provide to help towards resolving my dilemma.

I don’t qualify for any loans as my credit, which I have worked hard to maintain over the years, has taken a severe nosedive recently due to my credit cards being past due. I am unable to pay them due to not having steady work. And the balances increased as I had to use them to pay my utilities, medical expenses (I am a type 1 diabetic, insulin dependent, and I am currently going without one of my required insulins) until they were maxed. I have had to let so many things go and focus on literally just keeping a roof over my head. I am struggling to pay my gas, electric, water, and my cellphone in order to have some way to communicate with people. I do not have any “extra’s” no internet or cable or anything like that, no car, etc. I live very barebones right now. My family has already helped out financially as much as they could. I have been trying to come up with the money for weeks and I managed to pay them partial of $300.00 and just have the remainder of $800.00 to pay by tomorrow and I am exhausted with searching. I have spent the past weeks applying for loans, searching for charities, churches, financial/rent assistance and the few resources available either are outdated/no longer exist in my area or I don’t qualify due to my status (unmarried with no children)

I am honestly at my wits’ end and truly need help. I am grateful to those who find it within their heart and spirit to help me.

I am at the last leg of my journey in this place as my lease is up next month (I will be staying with family who graciously offered me a place to stay with them so that I can work on getting back on my feet) and I refuse to let the apartment I am at now ruin my name on my way out by filing an eviction. I have been a good tenant for the many years I have lived here, paid rent on time every month, it is only recently in the past few months I have struggled due to loss of employment and struggling to get steady income.

I am thinking long term, as once I am back on my feet, I will need to be able to rent/lease again and having an eviction on my record will negatively impact me greatly. I truly need help over this hurdle.

Thank you

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I finished my first year at college. I had a good scholarship, but I paid a lot of money I had saved up out of pocket because I had no financial help. Now I have a house with friends and I am job searching, but rent is due and I can’t make them cover my portion. Any help is appreciated, but $1500 would give me something to fall back on for 2 or 3 months in case I don’t have a job by then. It will also help me begin paying student loans back!

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Hi, this is a really hard. I have never done anything like this before but we need help bad. I was told to be honest on this site with your situation . I hope no one thinks bad because of it but things happen in life we just cant control unfortunately so here it goes.

My husband was in a bit of legal trouble early in September and ended up in jail. I was not able to bail him out for a month and a half. He was a maintenance man on a apartment complex and we lived their as well for almost 16 years. It wasn’t 3 days and i received a letter from his boss i had to move out of the apartment by the end of September. I am 63  years old and on disability. My son that is 33 years old lives in the same building but a different apartment with 4 kids under 11. He was also told he had to move by then as well.  not sure why he had to move except he had a discounted rent because my husband worked there.

My son had to move all my stuff and his in a storage unit by himself. we had no one that would help us at all. We pulled our money together and just barely scraped enough together to rent a very small house. Of course this took away from getting my husband out of jail. But he told me use the money that i saved for bail and get the house so the kids are safe and taken care of. When he told me that it made me realize what a great man i married. He always thinks of everyone else no matter what his position is and spent another 3 weeks in jail for doing that.

I stayed with my son till i bonded by husband out but now we have nowhere to live and no friends to stay with. We were never able to save money because of low pay and of course bills now days are unreal. Now we need a place to live and do not have money for a deposit and first and last months rent. We have tried trustees and agency’s all over looking for help with housing and its just not out there without a 3 year waiting list for income to rent housing.

The amount we are asking for is to cover renting a place so we can get our life back together and a roof over our head for the holidays.

My husband and i have been living out of our van and staying at cheap dirty motels when we could get a few bucks together from selling our stuff. Never in my life would i think i would be homeless. I wish this on no one it is the worse feeling in the world having no where to go or know where you might stay and sleep and what your going to eat.

My husband is going to be starting a new job soon and with my disability  check of $854 and what he will be making we can afford a place to live again and have the grand kids over. We just need help badly with the deposit and first and last months rent. it will take 3 to 4 months to save that much and we need a place before it gets to cold out.

Thank You for reading this and God bless

Paulette & David

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When I was younger, I would always tell people that my favourite superhero was my mom. I would say that because I know how much of a fighter my mother is. She’s survived cancer, emotional abusive relationships, discrimination and corruption in both the United States and 3rd world countries, near homelessness, and so much more. Yet, not even once, did she stop fighting. She got her Master’s degree, supported me all through high school and some of college, and remained optimistic  despite the worst of challenges. My mother is a fighter, dreamer and one of the most amazing women I know. I wouldn’t be the person I am without her. And, I desire to do whatever I can to help and support her, as she has done that for me for as long as I can remember.

Currently, my mom is in a difficult situation. Due to some issues, she is unable to pursue the career she wants so as to be able to adequately support herself. She is unable to have a lot of things that, if purely based on her character and skill, she would have easily gotten. This past year has been one of the hardest for her, as she constantly moved, had some of her things stolen, switched jobs, etc. This has affected her emotionally and physcologically. But, my mom – being the superhero she is – hasn’t stoppped fighting. She is still faithful that everything will work out. And, so am I.

Yesterday, my mom lost about $770 dollars that she had previously retrieved from the atm, when she was rushing to work. This is the money she was going to use to pay her rent for her new place, as she needs to move out of her current location by Sunday. She checked her place tirelessly but found out it was gone. We believe it was stolen. Right now, she is emotionally tired and overwhelmed.

I am tryng to be optimistic. But the truth is, I’m concerned. I am a full time student, I don’t work, and I cannot afford $770 dollars. But, I’m determined to do whatever I can to support my mom. And that’s why I’m trying to appeal to any of you to please help me help my mom.

She has locked her accounts as hr card and other important documents were stolen

Here is my PayPal.me link:

https://paypal.me/jessaminah

Anything helps. Thank you all in advance! Have a blessed weekend!

Dear reader,

My name is Avery,

I’m embarrassed that my life has brought me here. Months ago i had money and opportunities but it’s been a strange series of unlucky events.

I was excited and wanted to get into welding, automotive or something hands on. I was applying to every possible entry level job that was even relatively related. I finally found a company that was small and developing. I related to this they told me I’d be trained and then hired after a week and i had money saved for this. Everyone was kind to me and respectful. I worked with a family oriented man who knew a lot and i worked hard every instance i could. The first week passed and nothing came of it i had payed for everything and even gave up on other opportunities to get experienced. Two weeks passed and I asked when I would be hired. I got strange a response of uncertainty. I should have just left then and looked for legitimate work. But I  stayed for 3 weeks and blew through most of my money trying to get experienced in the diesel Technician field. Later it came to light that the company was facing a lawsuit and hadn’t filed taxes for 2 years! I was discouraged and disheartened to say the least.

I left and looked for new work and found myself at a Chevrolet dealership working as a technician everything was going alright until they left me alone after a week. I was pulling a car in but the shop was set up in a fashion that there was a tight corner. I scraped a truck’s bed bad. The people in the shop said they had seen worse and even made it seem like nothing would really come of it. I was dismissed from the shop for 3 days waiting to hear when i could come back in. They called me in when the manager arrived. I was fired on the spot.

The month following I struggled to find work and finally went back to the temp agency i had been to many times. I found a job that was simple. It gave me time to clear my head and even gave me new friends. I had fun it felt stable. Meanwhile three people were talking behind my back. I had felt so confident and felt happy like i could slowly get my dream of becoming a musician together. I was buying a few things on my credit card and thought i could pay it back quick because everything felt alright. I was fired and had little room to pay my bills. I now have a speeding ticket on top with no way to pay it.

I’ve lasted a month now, no one is hiring me. I’ve sold some of my equipment. Even if i were to sell everything i have right now. I wouldn’t have enough to make it. Even if I get a job Monday. I can only get to next month…maybe.

This is embarrassing and I’m hurt I did  this to myself. I hope someone out there is reading this and can understand.

Best regards,

Avery

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Hello,

it’s extremely embarrassing for me to have to beg for assistance, but over the past few months I’ve endured some serious life altering events that have put me in a financial mess.

Let me start off with a little background. I’m a single mother of a wonderful 3 year old boy.  We’ve been able to get by just fine, even without the help of his father, who has chosen to not be involved. In fact he’s disappeared leaving no contact information whatsoever. I’ve been in the HOA Property management industry for a few years now and had a very decent salary that was enough to support us without the need of additional assistance.

Things began to go downhill when my child was diagnosed with autism. The medical bills for out of pocket expenses on things like neurologist, hearing exams, speech and occupational therapy and many other specialists started to take a toll on my finances, even with medical insurance.

Things got even worse as my grandmother’s health began to deteriorate. My grandmother was my caregiver while I worked, but a few months ago it became very apparent that she could no longer manage to take care of herself, let alone a 3 year old with special needs. With that said, I had to make the decision to go part time in order to lessen the burden on her. However, she just kept getting worse and worse.

My grandmother was eventually diagnosed with desmentía which meant she was in no way able to continue to care for my boy and I was faced with the decision to quit my job to care for both.

Her illness deteriorated even further soon after and I was forced to place her in a nursing home, which of course the insurance only agreed to pay a portion of.  Unfortunately, my grandmother ended up passing away recently, which left me with additional debt.

So my rent, utilities, car note, car insurance and other expenses were put on the back burner. Thankfully my landlord has been understanding through all of this, but they’ve been patient long enough. I now owe $4500 in rent and utilities and on top of that have fallen behind on my car loan and I’m currently driving around with no insurance.

I’m asking for $7,000 to pay what I owe in rent as I’ve received a notice to vacate and to also catch up on my car loan as I’m on the verge of repossession.

Please help me get back on my feet and maintain a stable environment for my son. This is all we have left and on top of everything he’s been through I can’t even imagine putting him through more uncertainty. Stability and a routined lifestyle are extremely important for a child with his needs. Living in a shelter would be extremely difficult for us.

Please, anything you can do to help us is extremely appreciated! Thank you!

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Hello to whomever is taking the time to read this, thank you for taking the time. 

Here’s a brief description of why I’m where I am. 

After working for this company where I experienced almost two years of bullying I was forced to quit before getting another job. My health was declining and no amount of taking care of myself (especially on the weekends) and changing what I could to stay employed was able to help my situation. During my time there I wanted to keep my job so I worked towards making changes, direct communication, reports to HR, changing my schedule etc but none of it made a real difference. I’m the only black employee amongst 40+ employees and everyday biases, underestimation etc from coworkers and sometimes customers was very demeaning and heartbreaking. It was to the point my boss felt helpless and would constantly apologize to me. I knew quitting would cause me financial struggle and I prepared for stability for 3-4 months out hoping that’d be enough time to get a job but unfortunately that hasn’t worked out in my favor. I’m still not giving up and looking for a job fitting for my qualifications and pay with the environment that doesn’t have excessive racism or unfair identity based treatment. That’d be nice. 

Asking for help has been rough for me but I’ve humbled myself. It’s a very vulnerable space to be in.  But I’ve been reminding myself everything passes and hope I can pass it forward. I’m used to taking care of everything but I know life happens and it doesn’t hurt to ask especially people I don’t know personally. I’ve asked my loved ones but I no longer want to add more burdens since I know none of them are fully financially comfortable or comfortable enough to help me multiple times. 

To be direct, I need two months of rent $2500 total to breathe again, pay off credit cards $1500 (that alone would give me a lot of wiggle room to pay other bills), and $400 for monthly bills & more (phone, WiFi, electricity, cat annual vaccinations & cat food-I have two adorable ones). This is all racking up for me and I feel like I cannot catch a break. I always work tirelessly to guarantee stability and it’s not because of lack of trying or hard work that I’m here. Sometimes you end up somewhere and you gotta accept, learn and ask for help while making better choices. Whatever amount or kind words would be appreciated! Thank you. 

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Swallowing my pride and asking for help. Bottom line is I lost my job in July due to a surgical procedure that would keep me out of work for two weeks and it was not covered under FMLA because I was not with the company for one year. This affected my attendance in a negative way.

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I was working towards catching up which is all overhead paying rent, utilities, Auto insurance, car payment, gas, food, etc…  I have very minimal credit card debt but have roughly $170 minimum due a month mostly on care credit And two Visa cards that I utilized to pay what I could. They are maxed out but thankfully I owe less than $5000 total. I took care of a lot of financial matters for my father between 2009 and  2016 which put me and a hardship. My tax refunds helped tremendously temporarily. My father took his life three years ago and I haven’t been the same.  The day my father did this is  also the day of my sons birthday. I have mom and stepdad in another state And I talk with her 1 to 2 times a day. They have their own financial hardships and at my age I feel I should be preparing to take care of them. I also have one child who is away at college. Thankfully my ex-husband started a college fund and there should be minimal student loans. Two years is better than four years of owing to school. He has a job and   And pays for his responsibilities as much as possible And I am proud he has such a strong work ethic and is not one of a millennial or generation Z Who feel entitled. I’m very proud of him but feel like I failed him as a mom because of the situation I find myself in. I have a job starting next week, but it will not pay enough to cover my basic necessities. I have a major depression disorder with generalized anxiety and this has also caused hardships financially. The tax refund I received paid the bills however is now is depleted . Everything else will have to wait. My first paycheck will be on the 21st.

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My concern is the car payment is going on two months past due and want to avoid additional Fees And repossession. I don’t want to cancel my auto insurance because it’s Required by law and unfortunately I live in the county that has the highest fraud rate in the United States. Therefore it’s three times as high and I have no points or history of accidents. Knowing that this job I will be taking will have opportunity for overtime and a shift differential for working evenings and weekends well hopefully be enough to break even monthly. I am college educated with a degree but I am in my 40s and will be starting an entry-level position. I have no choice but to take it and it is a good opportunity to grow. I Have never done this before and if you can help feel free to pay directly to my rent, utilities, auto Insurance, car payment, gas card, etc. I just want you to know I am not a drinker, never have tried drugs and do not take any narcotics And have no other addictions. I’ve been divorced for 10 years and I have zero savings. This new job will be the start but I know it’s not financially possible being behind already. I know there are probably requests On here That are not genuine and I would be hesitant to help if I were in your shoes. I am looking for a side job in between the hours And days off I will have with a new position. I tried Uber and Lyft but I spent more gas than I made and did not want strangers in my car. I have always put other people first. This time I need to put myself first and swallow my pride and ask for help. I will take any photos I can upload of bills so you can see for yourself. I would post a photo of myself but I feel embarrassed to be asking strangers for help. Thank you for reading my post. I know things will get better But right now if I don’t get things under control I will lose my car, get evicted, and lose a new job at the same time. Thank you for anything you may provide.

Hello folks:

I typically don’t ask for help like this, and thought I would give this site a try this time. I work a part time job, and I am currently looking for a new and better paying job. I would like to ask for help mainly catching up with rent, and bills and loan payments so I can get everything caught up to current. Anything more then getting caught up with bills and rent will go towards my student loans and/or helping others on this site. I pay as much as I can on all my bills, and rent out of my own hard earned money.

Once I have a new job and have things under control again I’ll delete this post. Thank each of you in advance to who ever helps. It’s greatly appreciated.

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Hi, My name is Jilly I am currently 22 years old about to be 23 on the 21st of November  and the past few months have been one hardest times in my life. Prior to all of this I was living with an ex boyfriend, his roommate, and our cats. Things were going good until he decided to stop paying the electric and didn’t tell anyone and it got shut off. We lived without power for a few days while one of our cats was pregnant, she gave birth while the power was out to 5 small adorable kittens. Sadly one did not make it and I asked him to stay there while I got home from work which would of only taken about 5-7 mins for me to get back but he decided to leave and never come back. I stayed with this person for much longer than I should of. I found myself in my first abusive relationship and was controlled by someone. The day he left I realized that was my day to be free but I couldn’t leave my cats in a house with no electricity like he did. I stayed with them for several days after while the power was still out, I found out a temporary home for the mama cat and her babies. And found homes for the other kittens. Then it was time to find myself a home. Very confused and didn’t know what to make of things. I stayed with my roommate and his friends for a bit but that was just temporary. After that went we were left with nowhere to go and wasn’t able to find an apartment yet so our only option was to stay at hotels. Over the past two months his former roommate and I have been staying at hotels which pretty much range from $65-$130 a night depending on what day of the week and the location that it is in. I work in a downtown city area so I have always been one to take the bus to work, but the hotels in the city are far more expensive than staying on the outskirts. The only thing about the outskirts sometimes it’s harder to get into the city. Because of my anxiety and depression and losing everything from that relationship and how hard it was to get to work I missed out on a decent amount of work so what money I was making from the shifts I was working was just going to the hotels. Luckily I had a blessing and was able to find an apartment that was decently priced with my roommate and now that I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel I feel like things may start to fall into place once I am moved into the apartment but I am still short for my rent in order to move in tomorrow on the first. I am just looking for a few hundred to help me cover the rest of my half of the rent. Then I will have no issue getting to work and working all the time like I used to. I made some mistakes in the age of 22 but it was all learning to me and I hope to make 23 much better.

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To whom it may concern,

I am a 58 year old veteran, I served our country from 1980 to 1986 and have recently applied for Social Security disability benefits due to the severity of my COPD/Emphysema. I have been working full time since the age of 15 but have not been able to ever get much beyond living paycheck to paycheck.  I worked as an auto mechanic for most of my life until in 2007 a lower back injury ended that line of work. This situation affected my relationship and my wife of 20 years chose to end our marriage. In 2009 I applied for admission to the University of Maine.  I accepted Federal financial aid and student loans to return to school in hopes of earning a degree that would allow me to reenter the workforce. I earned a Bachelor degree in Human services in 2014 and have been working as a case manager in the mental health field. I met a beautiful woman and remarried after a 2 year engagement. Our life has been wonderful together. We both enjoy the outdoors and have had many wonderful adventures.

I have been unable to work since 3/12/19 due to exasperation of my chronic pulmonary condition. At that time I was hospitalized at the nearest inpatient VA facility but have not recovered fully. The prognosis for my condition is poor, I am not expected to recover much of my breathing capacity if any, it is more likely to continue to worsen. I have come to the end of my savings, credit and other financial resources. My wife is a 30 year old full time student and is approximately six months from earning her masters degree and licensure as an Occupational Therapist. It is our hope that we can sustain our current living situation until she can provide the financial stability and earnings from the pursuit of this career and my claim to receive my Social Security benefits are approved. We are both extremely anxious and concerned, I have been able to support us up until recently and this situation causes severe stress in our relationship and day to day life.

This is a very difficult thing for me to do but I have hope that someone will respond. I have come to what feels like a crossroad in my life and I am doing my best to remain positive. I am grateful to have enjoyed life and experienced many things that have given me joy and happiness.  I realize that my situation can become much worse in many ways. I am grateful that I have not been reduced to homelessness and for the moment have a comfortable apartment, a loving wife and hope for the future.

Our rent is $850 monthly and is due on the 1st of November. Our utility bills are approximately $350 monthly. There is credit card debt that is going to be defaulted on. Again, we have a plan and hope for the future if we can just get through this. I have not shared this yet with my wife. I am scared, please help.

Thank you for viewing my request.

Sincerely,

John

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If nothing else, thank you for reading. I am from NYC and currently stuck in Portland Oregon. I have been on this site previously when the situation here was uncomfortable. Now it has escalated and I feel extremely unsafe!

I had working been in the Chicago area a few years ago when the entire team was “downsized”. Soon after I developed osteoporosis but did not realize what it was at the time. The pain and limping it caused coincided with job interviews and I feel that this greatly impeded potential employment opportunities.

I then moved back to New York and when my knee pain started increasing I decided it was time to have it checked out. First it was diagnosed as gout but it soon became apparent to the doctor that something else was going on and then it was confirmed to be osteoporosis.

Still unable to find employment or move easily,I was deemed eligible for Social Security Disability which I continued to receive until last year when Social Security kicked at age 66.

I have never felt comfortable not earning a living so I decided to explore other employment avenues that would not require the use of my legs much and under the terms of SSD I was allowed to make a small salary.

I have always been an anglophile and thought I could do a “passable” East London accent so I had a voice over demo done and took a huge risk and moved to England. The risk unfortunately did not work out in my favor in those pre- Brexit days so I had to move back to the US.

At that time I was not aware of the subsidized housing scheme in New York. I have friends in Portland and it was less expensive than New York. Had I been made aware of the issues here in Portland at the time I would have avoided at all costs.

I live in an area that grows more dangerous by the day. There was a shooting nearby, the public transportation system (MAX) had a stabbing incident last year and  been several incidents closer to home.

There are public elevators that I use daily that constantly have people “living” on them or smoking (cigarettes or marijuana) or “shooting up” tossing their discarded needles on the premises as well individuals as using the elevators as a bathroom.

The worst, thus far, happened in my building. Despite having armed guards around the property, a fellow tenant was brutally assaulted in the lobby in front   of his wife and granddaughter!

It has become such a nightmare that I am almost afraid to go out. Before that happens I would hope to get home and be among family and friends for  mental support.

I am now registered with a site called NYC Housing Connect but having an out of town address puts me low on the list.

Under normal circumstances I would be content to wait but as I have illustrated these are not normal circumstances whatsoever.

I am not asking for millions of dollars  but the  current rent costs, without the benefit of a subsidy, are beyond my capacity to pay.

In addition  to Social Security I receive two minor pensions which is a grand total of $2000 a month and rents, as far as I can ascertain are an average of $2000 or $3000 a month!

I am desperate to leave this area as soon as possible.  I am not trying to amass a fortune, I am just trying to go home!!

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Hello lovely people,

I am normally not one to ask for help or assistance in any area of my life. I am usually the one helping others, whether it’s physically, financially or just as an emotional supporter. I love people and I love helping people. I am currently working towards getting accepted into a nursing program with a local college, but have not had the time or finances to follow through.

I recently lost my job I was at for seven years about 6 months ago. i worked so hard there but was taken advantage of, treated poorly, and not properly compensated for my position as a General Manager. I was always too humble to push the issue, giving the owner the benefit of the doubt that maybe he could not afford it. That ended up not being the case.

I obtained a new job shortly after with a family that owns their own business who are the sweetest people you would ever meet. Unfortunately, my income is based solely on the success of the business, and their business is not doing well. I have been helping them to build their business back up, but it has definitely taken a toll on my finances. I have looked around for a second job, but do not have a lot of extra time. I also do not have the heart to leave them and the business. Although, if I am able to get back on my feet, which would require me to make rent in the next couple days of $645, and also pay off some outstanding bills… I would be able to put forth the time and effort in helping build this nice families business back up.
The start of this debt goes back about 6 years. I was young and depressed and did not have my life together at all. I drank a lot and ended up acquiring 3 DWIs in the span of 4 years. I have spent close to 40,000, loans, credit cards, the whole bit. I have since then gotten my life together and have been sober close to 2 years now. I would love to help other people who struggle with the same issues that I did. I am 100% in a different, better place in my life right now, apart from my finances.

I had a plan paying off this debt without the help of anyone else, but after the loss of my job I have felt as if I have constantly taken 1 step forward and 2 steps back and eventually have found myself in this hole that seems impossible to get out of. I have gotten to a point of desperation, and found this site and figure I would give it a try. I am so excited for my future in helping others, but hay future just seems to slip further and further away with the series of unfortunate events that seem never ending.
I am “begging” for some assistance from anyone who thinks they can help me in this financial crisis I am in, so that one day, hopefully in the near future, I will be able to do the same for others. Thank you and God Bless!

paypal.me/tarabrooke210

          Hello, my name is Connor and i just turned 21 a couple weeks ago. About 2 years ago i got a job as janitor at a local elementary school. And the job sucked but it was nothing i couldn’t handle. Fast forward to 3 months ago i quit that job. The reason i quit was unfair treatment, but most importantly it was because of safety concerns. A new boss came in and had us working with chemicals that cleaned grout in the bathrooms. This stuff was commercial grade and acidic. Which was okay at first but then 2 people got sent to ER. 1 was because of poisoning and the other one was inhaling too many fumes and being unable to breath and passing out. Yet they never changed what we were cleaning with, and we were unqualified to use it. We never were given mask, no safety measures were put up to keep our workplace safe. i spent a whole summer around that chemical everyday and eventually started getting pains in my lungs. i notified my boss and she didn’t do anything but tell me to be more careful. So i told her a week after that, that i will leave if something doesn’t change. Nothing ended up changing so i quit my job.

          I quit on July 30th 2019. I had “a lot” of money saved, so i was okay on bills during my job search. Here is where my problem comes into play. I was a knucklehead kid that didn’t care about my future. Which resulted in me dropping out of high school. I live in a rich county in Indiana, i’m originally not from here but moved here to stay with my mom 5 years ago. The reason i say this, is because finding a job to take you in, with no diploma in a rich county is not easy. I did it to myself at the end of the day but i deeply regret not continuing school. I’ve been on the job hunt since August 1st 2019. It is now October 24th 2019 when i’m writing this. I have applied everywhere i can and no one will call me back. I’ve had 2 interviews and they never called me back. I also don’t have a car anymore so i’m limited to where i can apply. I do have a bike but Indiana winters are harsh so i cant get a job too far away.

Its hard for me to ask for help. I’m the figure it out myself type. I live with my girlfriend of 4 years in a rented house. She can pay this months bills then that’s it. Then we are 100% broke. I need money fast. I have been trying everyday, re-applying and talking to mangers at stores but i’ve yet to have luck.

Thank you for the read and Thank you weather or not you decide to help me financially. In case your wondering my bills cost, here they are….Rent $950, Water $30, Power $120, Wifi $100, Gas $40 and Phone $60. Thank you. Have a good day.

paypal.me/CMatt98

Hello reader,

My name is Christopher Seigle, I worked as a Computer Technician apprentice/contractor. Recently I was working through the school district and found short notice that my contract will be ending shorter than expected. A contract is annually and usually 3 years total but I only served 2 due to a change in my company’s policy.  I’ve been laid off from work going 3 months now desperately searching for job opportunities. I continue to search today. Unfortunately, I’ve exhausted all my savings trying to keep the bills paid. It’s extremely difficult to do this on my own.

I tried to reach out to family but I have a terrible history with my family. I was brought up through a lot of abuse as a child into my adult years. I came from a deeply religious Muslim household living with my mother. Her husband kicked me out because I violated a religious house rule. I got caught urinating standing instead of staying seated. It only took one time, and before I knew it I started living with my grandparents by age 11. Into my teenage years, I’ve experience a lot of neglect and lack of essential needs like clothing and sometimes food. I became friends with my buddy louis. His mother provided clothes for me and helped me out a lot. The older I got, the more challenging life got for me. My grandparents didn’t want me around despite me being active and working. I’ve always stayed in school and always stayed out of trouble. Despite the constant bullying and fights as a child, I overcame that and became a Peer Mediator for my school for two years. I never been in trouble with the law once. I graduated high school, and was promised to get help to go to college but the promise was withdrawn from my grandfather, he didn’t believe I legitimately graduated. He always called me a failure and I would never succeed in anything, he believed I haven’t accomplished anything. I was told this for years. I found myself house hoping from family member to another. Ultimately I became homeless. Too old to get help from youth programs, and too young for any other program geared towards older people. It took everything in me to get off the streets, and all of this was prior to becoming a Computer Technician. I managed with the remaining patience I had bringing myself out of that situation and became what I am today. I absolutely must stay away from toxic family members, it’s no way I can get help from them.

I just want to continue doing what I love and help people. Currently I’m backed on rent two months and just need enough to get through while I continue my career search. Any contribution would be more than satisfying. Thank you for taking the time to read my story.

https://paypal.me/Cseigle?locale.x=en_US

Both me and my girlfriend have been trying recover our finances since I was the unfortunate victim of a scam loan. Our finances have already been ruined due to the scam I fell victim to and all of our bills got behind. We currently have a title loan out on our only vehicle and it has fallen behind because of constant repairs needed. We had to forfeit paying our credit cards to make sure we had money for the essential costs rent, gas, food, electricity, ECT. I have two major loans we had taken to even get the place we are currently staying. Happily I was able to cut a deal with Opportunity to lower the bi-weekly payments and get it back on track. My other loan unfortunately has not had the same luck. Despite me informing them of the dire financial troubles and constant offers sent out to lower the monthly payments and make it current something has come up every single time that diverts money away from it. My credit score that I had of over 700 has now been completely ruined all because of this extreme bad luck as well as my girlfriends even higher credit score. I am only 29 and she is only 24 and my son is freshly 9 and in K-12 online schooling. This week was supposed to get us back on track we both put in long hours all week. Even though we both have good paying jobs and are doing quite well life always seems to happen. We recently tested out Chime bank at the same time their entire system went down. This resulted in my direct deposit from my work being returned and her deposit from her work being unavailable.  I had to contact my place of employment and have my weeks pay redone via check. Unfortunately this will not arrive until about mid week 3 days after our rent is due. At the same time this happened while my girlfriend was out working for Instacart someone turned in front of her. This resulted in her having to take action to avoid hitting them and though she saved the car from being wrecked it still cost us $300. She had to drive up onto the sidewalk to avoid hitting this idiot who could not wait for her to pass by to complete a turn. During all this my girlfriends mom had to move in with us due to her landlord wanting to move her own son into the unit she was renting. Unfortunately despite her mom being young arthritis has hit her hard and she is wheelchair bound and my girlfriend is her caregiver now. I myself am trying to supply for my son as well I have custody of him from my divorce.  A run of extreme bad luck just will not let us fix our finances. Any generosity is greatly appreciated. paypal.me/raks10

My name is Sambi Ajeali. I am in need for urgent help financially. I lost my job 4 months ago and have been doing everything possible to get another. I now find myself in an untenable position. My house rent would be due by month end a I do not have the money to pay for. I would also need money to get myself a second hand car so I could start uber and broke this cycle of unemployment. This would help me take care of my family’s medical, nutritional and housing need.

I come to you today on bended knees begging for $45000 to urgently take care of the above concerns.

Below is my paypal account. Thanks for helping

ajealim@gmail.com

I don’t know how to start this, and I don’t know what to put in here without it sounding sappy, cliche, pathetic, and weak. I’ve been sitting here for hours trying to wrestle if this is even a good idea, but I figure this won’t even work and I’m now at the “fuck it” phase…so here we go…

I’ll start out by being straightforward and saving you from having to read this all. I’m asking for help. It’s now safe to click on to the next post.

I’m also not going to drop specific names or locations because I am a very private person so putting this out on the internet is very jarring for me. Even if only 1 other stranger reads this is already giving me anxiety. :/

I am a veteran and was in the Army for 7 years; straight out of high school. I specialized in IT systems analyst but I was basically just a glorified helpdesk tech for the generals. Don’t get me wrong, I knew my shit and was usually one of the best at it whatever duty station I was assigned to. I loved every second of it, but after two deployments in Iraq and hurting my back during my last tour it became impossible to stay in and was honorably discharged but I got screwed over in the process due to the uniqueness of the injury. The problem was that the doctors couldn’t actually figure out where the pain was coming from. Almost 2 years worth of constant scans, pokes, prodding, medication, referrals, physical therapy and a whole mess of other stuff I can’t remember and they weren’t any closer to diagnosing me properly without doing extreme invasive surgery which had the very real possibility of permanently disabling me instead of just living with the pain. So, the ultimatum I was given, as a soldier, was get cut or get out. I feared the thought of never being able to go for a run/march ever again so I had to get out. The part that screwed me over was the category I was given for the honorable discharge. According to the VA, it did not entitle me to much of a continued disability pay, even though I could barely walk, couldn’t stand for more than 5 minutes in a formation, couldn’t march, and I think you guys get the idea. A good friend of mine was also in the process of being honorably discharged for migraines and the VA allowed him the highest coverage they could. Now I’m not bitter at my friend. We weren’t competing, but I’m just showing you guys how crazy the system is and what they deem worthy of a disability.

Fast-forward a few years. I had been holding down a few jobs, was doing moderately fine but nothing that would give me a ”career”. Fast-forward a few more years and I got a good job at a fairly new company. They were small but they were expanding fast. Expanding as in their client base, not their workforce. I started out as just a level 1 answering phones and asking clients ”did you try turning it off then on again”. Once I was integrated into the system and processes I excelled at it. Picked up quickly on the inner workings and started taking on tasks that the level 2 engineers were supposed to do. I was good at multitasking so was doing double/triple the work I was expected to be doing. Was eventually promoted to Level 2 and workload tripled again. Now remember, this is a small company, but we had, I would say, over 400 clients/systems and only three level 1s, and two level 2s. The pressure was immense but I have always excelled under pressure and absolutely loved it there. That wasn’t the issue with the company and why I ultimately had to depart. I don’t want to bash the company and most were awesome to work with, but the CEO was the ultimate reason why I had to leave. I know what you’re thinking, ”but that’s all bosses and CEOs. They are usually all dicks and you should be used to that from being in the Army for so long.” True. I was used to it, but there I had no choice except to just turn the other cheek and ”soldier on”. Now this guy was a delight. I am using that term sarcastically for those confused. He was constantly saying misogynistic, homophobic, bigoted comments and micromanaged us to the point that we couldn’t send an email to a customer without his approval first, but he would take weeks to reply/approve at which point the customer is fuming we haven’t helped them and he then sends company wide emails demanding why he hasn’t been helped. He talked bad about anyone behind their backs and sometimes directly to them, and the worst part of it all was that he had HR under his finger so whatever you say to HR gets directly reported back to him and that just meant he would talk more about you behind your back to literally everyone else at the company with no repercussion. Can’t tell you how many times I would overhear him in his office ripping on my coworkers and myself. He had even called me a fag to my face a few times, then just laugh it off. The awkward part was that I am actually gay and he knew that. The final straw of it all was an impromptu meeting he called one early morning. Sat the support team down and started going off on us about things like “we shouldn’t be working here if we expected to make more money” or “No one will be getting a pay raise because none of us deserve one due to our inability to resolve client issues in a timely manner”. Mind you, the entire time I was working there, even though all my performance reviews were excellent and never had a personal client complaint, and I was doing the job of 3 people, I never asked for a raise and never asked for a promotion. When I WAS offered the one promotion, I did take it, but the pay increase did not reflect the position title or the work I was actually doing even though our ticketing system tracked our day down to the second and I always had well over the required 8AM-5PM timestamps. Another thing to note is that since day 1 of starting, people had been quitting/getting fired left and right. Every week was an adventure to see if any of us still had a job. So getting back to the ripping we were getting at 5AM…he finally gave us the ultimatum of “If you are only here for the money then leave now or shutup and do your jobs better.” I thought on that for a few days, got my resume in order then quit.

Boy, was that the wrong move.

Looking back I thought I was standing up for myself, my values and beliefs by getting out of that toxic environment, which I was, but I did it the wrong way. What I SHOULD have done was get a job BEFORE I quit so I didn’t have to go through the living hell of the last almost 2 years. It was a stupid move to just quit. I know. Live and learn?

The day after I quit I started applying to any and every job I could find that suited my skillsets and in driving distance since that was a big factor because I live out in the boonies. The awkward part of it all was the IT company I just quit from is in a specific field of IT Support, so the systems/programs I had been busting my ass for the last few years to learn/manage/maintain/troubleshoot/implement only gave me a small window of companies I could apply to. Some of you may have put it together already and see the dilemma here. My previous employer, since they were expanding quickly, knew all these companies that I was applying to. And what do employers do when they consider someone for a position in their company? They call previous employers to ask about the applicants work ethic, dependability, professionalism, etc. Like I said before, I don’t want to talk bad about the company and this is complete speculation on my part since I had no real evidence, but there was one company specifically that I was in communication with that practically guaranteed me the job and told me I was unofficially hired already; setup a “start date” to sign some final paperwork and they would see me in the office that day. Few days later I get a call from them and the one statement I clearly remember them saying was “We do apologize for the mix-up but we have decided to go in another direction with our hires and unfortunately you have been taken out of consideration for this position.” That stung. That call made me dizzy and I was practically in shock for the remainder of the call and a few days after that as well.

After a few weeks of not being able to find any jobs, I had no option but to move back into my mom’s place (no not the basement), and I continued the search for a job with only my savings and extremely small VA checks coming in to sustain myself. Obviously I had bills to pay so savings ran out quickly since I was trying to keep my car so i could get a job, and now I was only on VA. Remember, I was now living out in the boonies where the closest town of 300 people and biggest attractions there are a gas station and bar, was 2 miles away and a car was a necessity to do/go anywhere. Eventually I had to relinquish the car back to the bank/dealership, but still had some to pay off so now only had VA check to help with that. All this time I was living off of ramen and rice and man did I find some interesting ways to cook those bad boys.

Things could be worse right? Well, they got both better and worse. I’m trying to stay positive through all this, but it got overwhelming at times and I have been through some major depression ruts that have been extremely hard to get out of when everything has turned against you and I couldn’t see a way out. One way I got out of the most recent rut was I started working out and running…a lot. I could never have admitted it at the time but I had gained a LOT of weight since leaving the army. I have always hated getting my picture taken, so I never really had any to do a side by side comparison but I remember once trying to fit into an old army PT uniform and I could barely get it over my head. That was a rude awakening for me. So I started running. Luckily my mom’s house had an older treadmill so I could run in private without the embarrassment of going to a public gym. Also the fact that I had no money or a gym anywhere even close to where I was. I dropped 40lbs in less than 2 months. The change to how I felt was as clear as night and day and I was finally starting to shake off the depression.

But this isn’t the end of this long winded story. There’s only, what I hope, one more part before the end. Our family has always been lower middle class but when my dad died when I was in high school and he was the bread winner, my mom took up the mantle and got a nursing degree to get a job to provide. She got a decent paying job to sustain herself with house payments and all that, but it has been slowly draining her savings over the years and it has gotten to the point that we had no other option but to leave the house and move into an apartment in a nearby town. Things seem good now right? Smaller payments, in a town to finally get a job, seems to not be depressed anymore. Well, the problem is that we had to borrow the money from our uncle to even get the apartment, and during the move I hurt my back so bad that I was bed-ridden up until a few days ago that I can now finally start moving again. During that time I have been applying to all sorts of jobs, even non IT just to start getting some income. I have a few promising replies and even have an interview later today at a retail store, but I won’t be able to make enough before the end of the month to cover rent.

This is the part that, if you are still reading, most of you will click on to the next thread, but I can only hope there are some of you internet strangers that can help. If I can’t figure out a way to get this money before the 1st of next month, then we have a very real chance of becoming homeless, which is just a crazy, devastating feeling that I could never possibly have thought i would ever be in this situation. I also am not only asking for a handout. A freebie. A lazy way out of this. I plan on paying every single one of you strangers back when the money comes in. Being in the Army, I have always prided myself in the honor and integrity values to not go back on my word, and that promise will be kept. The absolute minimum needed is $850, but that is only for the rent part. For food, gas (moms vehicle), and hygiene products, to get us through the month is closer to 1k, but literally any amount would be overwhelmingly appreciated.

This post is already long enough and I don’t know if it’s going to be seen by anyone. I also don’t know a way to even collect the money, if anyone even wants to, besides paypal so that’s the only link I can provide. If there is something else that I should be using, let me know. Also should DM me so I can keep a list of those that helped so I can contact you when I can pay you back.

paypal.me/wibblywobblysoldier

I am also now in an area that has good enough internet where I could potentially stream/post to youtube so I might start doing that during my downtime. I will play any and every game because I love them, but I really only have Rust or League of Legends and those communities are already overwhelmed with streamers so my chances are probably slim, so if anyone has any recommendations, let me know.

If you got to the end, then I appreciate you getting here. Typing this is probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and I would be deeply humbled by any help.

paypal.me/wibblywobblysoldier

Hello, and thank you for taking the time to read this. I have never had to do something like this before, but circumstances have left me with little time and not enough funds to move forward. I am a hard working man 40 hours+ at my job and i’m doing the best I can even taking side jobs like door dash to make some extra money on the weekends.  So after 31 years of my life I found a girl that I want to spend the rest of my life with. We met online and have been talking for awhile. about two weeks ago we met in real life and sparks flew. We spent a week together and everything was amazing. The day we had to leave each other was really hard for me and her she started to cry as I got into the uber and I started to cry knowing that it would be awhile before we could see each other again  So we talked about it and both decided that we wanted to be together, we though maybe a couple months to save up and get our own place. but due to certain circumstances she is being kicked out of her home in California. I can pay for the plane ticket to get her to me but my roommates right now want me to find my own place and they are only giving me close to two months. I need a little help getting the down payment  for the apartment they want 1600 for down deposit and first month’s and another 500 pet insurance for my cats. If i had more time I would not have to resort to asking for help from the kindness of strangers. I have some of the money already about 400 but some of that is for plane tickets now. Anything that is giving to me I will be very grateful. I will continue to work hard for my dream of living with this woman and someday raise a family. So to anyone willing to help I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Altogether I need to save up 2100 to get into the apartment. Once I am in I can take care of myself and I can afford all the bills and utilities. I just need help getting in. I thought I would be alone for my life but she proved me wrong and I will do what I can to make her happy and her me.

Thank you!  paypal.me/Swizz3l

Hello,  my name is Jasmine.

I’m a college student living in a 2 bedroom duplex with my brother, sister, and mother. We are currently 2 months behind on rent, and I just found out that our rent increased to 1,250 dollars . My mother isn’t working because  of a surgery she had on her hand, and for some reason, the government won’t grant her any disability. My brother lost his job a couple weeks ago, but recently found a new one. But of course, he wont be getting paid anytime soon. My sister works minimum wage with bad hours, and for me, I was planning on being a full-time college student and try to help my family with scholarships and financial aid but I’m currently looking or a job as well. I grew up in a low-income household my whole life, I don’t think there was ever a time where we didn’t have a financial emergency. But even so, I don’t want to be homeless another time.

I’m trying to get my associates in psychology, and then transfer to a better university. In the future, I hope to get my doctorates and open my own family practice. I really want to finish school so I can get a better job with better pay so I could help my family. But lately, I’ve been thinking that I should take a break from school and just work.

I’ll be forever grateful for any help provided for my family and I.

Hello,  my name is Jasmine.

I’m a college student living in a 2 bedroom duplex with my brother, sister, and mother. We are currently 2 months behind on rent, and I just found out that our rent increased to 1,250 dollars . My mother isn’t working because  of a surgery she had on her hand, and for some reason, the government won’t grant her any disability. My brother lost his job a couple weeks ago, but recently found a new one. But of course, he wont be getting paid anytime soon. My sister works minimum wage with bad hours, and for me, I was planning on being a full-time college student and try to help my family with scholarships and financial aid but I’m currently looking or a job as well. I grew up in a low-income household my whole life, I don’t think there was ever a time where we didn’t have a financial emergency. But even so, I don’t want to be homeless another time.

I’m trying to get my associates in psychology, and then transfer to a better university. In the future, I hope to get my doctorates and open my own family practice. I really want to finish school so I can get a better job with better pay so I could help my family. But lately, I’ve been thinking that I should take a break from school and just work.

I’ll be forever grateful for any help provided for my family and I!!

paypal.me/cookiejas

I am posting this on behalf of my dad- any donations are his. This story is missing many important events, but I do believe my brain has suppressed those beyond my reach.

The wreck happened late Sunday night, my dad was coming home from a late shift on his motorcycle when a drunk driver plowed through a red light and hitting my dad in the process.

This is so hard to even think about. I haven’t thought this much about what happened that summer night in 2009, in forever, it might actually be the first time im acknowledging it head-on.

I remember my mom waking me up in the morning and she seemed different. It wasn’t our usual rush-to-get-ready morning. There was a certain calmness over everything and very gently she said “hey sweetie we’re not gonna go to school today- dad got in a wreck last night…” After that my mind went into a haze, I don’t know what else she said. I just stopped to think about the last words I heard.

My whole life for as long as I can remember I have bottled my emotions. I thought showing emotions was a sign of weakness- I never did it. So as soon as I walked into his hospital room I built the biggest, strongest wall around me to make sure I wouldnt burst into tears. Which is exactly what I wanted to do. He looked miserable and was barely conscious. His right leg was propelled and covered in a lot of gauze. When I think about that moment, I see my dad’s leg propelled up, that’s about it.

I think I’ve mentally blocked out many of the days after that because I don’t remember much.. I don’t know how long he was in there. I don’t remember his first day home. I’m not sure when my next memory is…a few days after he’d gotten home maybe. I was looking for something in the kitchen and opened a drawer full of $100 bills! I thought dang, theres plenty I can have one or two, not grasping what was inevitably going to happen in a few years. I later found out that my dad’s co-workers at CRMC (Cookeville Regional Medical Center)(My dad was a full-time ER RN)  had a bake sale for him and raised thousands of dollars. I’m so thankful for that, not just the money, but how loved he must’ve felt.

Its amazing how your brain can suppress traumatic memories. I feel like I barely remember anything from 12-16. Which were by-far our worst. When dad came home, he was in a wheelchair with almost no feeling in his leg, and none in his foot. They were being hopeful something would miraculously happen and he would be able to walk on that leg again, but it never happened. A few months later, he had to get it amputated.

Mind you, this whole time he’s at home, rehabilitating. He’s on disability and draws around $2,000 a month. Our house payment was around $1,500 alone. We had a lovely A-frame house on a private lake. We’d go skiing on in the summers as kids. My dad loved that house. For 3 or 4 years after the wreck he was able to keep the house by using up his savings. But after that ran out, we had nothing. We lost the house. I hate how unfair life has treated him. He tried so damn hard to keep that house. He wanted my brother and I to have  a vacation home to inherent. Life kept kicking us while we were down. First: the wreck, Second: his eventual amputation, third: foreclosure- we lost not only the house, but everything else. We went from your average family, to nothing, seemingly overnight.

After the house foreclosure it becomes a blur again. Almost like after every big blow I shut down and it took me some time to restart again. I do know that about a year or two later I was sent to a reform school. I had become so depressed I was missing a ton of school and on top of that, totally rebelling. Not because I wanted to be some cool bad kid, I just didn’t know how to deal with my emotions, and the pressure of having to grow up so fast.

While I was in reform school, my dad started working again!!!! I was SO happy to know that he was able to start walking pretty good, to the point where he could work 12-hour shifts in the ER. When he did start again, he used a travel nursing agency and did travel nursing for a few years. Now he is working a regular full-time I guess you’d call it, cause it’s not a travel job. It’s a short drive from home. (It took 4-5 years of pain& tears for him to work again)

He is slowly trying to build his life back together. Right now he does not have a home. My mom (his ex-wife) is gracious enough to let him live with us here. He has a car that’s paid for. The burden of medical bills and regular Dr visits and prescriptions still plague him & always will. So I am here to ask for help in rebuilding my dad’s life to give him the normalcy and stability he deserves. When he ever has enough saved up he is moving to the US Virgin Islands and is gonna work there…(actually worked there a few months in a travel program that paid his travel expenses and lodging.) He has what I think is a great business idea. After moving and securing a job, he plans to open his business, a kind of health-care insurance for travelers, they pay a daily-fee of say, $10. and for that, if anything happened to them that they thought needed medical attention, they call and one of the businesses own practitioners would do an in-home or in-hotel visit and be able to tell the patient what the problem is without them going through All the trouble of going to the ER. He could explain it a lot better!

I am asking on behalf of my warrior Dad, who was dealt a very unlucky hand, for help in raising/saving enough money for him to buy or rent a house in the Virgin islands and maybe have some left over to start that business up! Thank you.

I am posting this on behalf of my dad- any donations are his. This story is missing many important events, but I do believe my brain has suppressed those beyond my reach.

The wreck happened late Sunday night, my dad was coming home from a late shift on his motorcycle when a drunk driver plowed through a red light and hitting my dad in the process.

This is so hard to even think about. I haven’t thought this much about what happened that summer night in 2009, in forever, it might actually be the first time im acknowledging it head-on.

I remember my mom waking me up in the morning and she seemed different. It wasn’t our usual rush-to-get-ready morning. There was a certain calmness over everything and very gently she said “hey sweetie we’re not gonna go to school today- dad got in a wreck last night…” After that my mind went into a haze, I don’t know what else she said. I just stopped to think about the last words I heard.

My whole life for as long as I can remember I have bottled my emotions. I thought showing emotions was a sign of weakness- I never did it. So as soon as I walked into his hospital room I built the biggest, strongest wall around me to make sure I wouldnt burst into tears. Which is exactly what I wanted to do. He looked miserable and was barely concenious. His right leg was propelled and covered in a lot of gauze. When I think about that moment, I see my dad’s leg propelled up, that’s about it.

I think I’ve mentally blocked out many of the days after that because I don’t remember much.. I don’t know how long he was in there. I don’t remember his first day home. I’m not sure when my next memory is…a few days after he’d gotten home maybe. I was looking for something in the kitchen and opened a drawer full of $100 bills! I thought dang, theres plenty I can have one or two, not grasping what was inevitably going to happen in a few years. I later found out that my dad’s co-workers at CRMC (Cookeville Regional Medical Center)(My dad was a full-time ER RN)  had a bake sale for him and raised thousands of dollars. I’m so thankful for that, not just the money, but how loved he must’ve felt.

Its amazing how your brain can suppress traumatic memories. I feel like I barely remember anything from 12-16. Which were by-far our worst. When dad came home, he was in a wheelchair with almost no feeling in his leg, and none in his foot. They were being hopeful something would miraculously happen and he would be able to walk on that leg again, but it never happened. A few months later, he had to get it amputated.

Mind you, this whole time he’s at home, rehabilitating. He’s on disability and draws around $2,000 a month. Our house payment was around $1,500 alone. We had a lovely A-frame house on a private lake. We’d go skiing on in the summers as kids. My dad loved that house. For 3 or 4 years after the wreck he was able to keep the house by using up his savings. But after that ran out, we had nothing. We lost the house. I hate how unfair life has treated him. He tried so damn hard to keep that house. He wanted my brother and I to have  a vacation home to inherent. Life kept kicking us while we were down. First: the wreck, Second: his eventual amputation, third: foreclosure- we lost not only the house, but everything else. We went from your average family, to nothing, seemingly overnight.

After the house foreclosure it becomes a blur again. Almost like after every big blow I shut down and it took me some time to restart again. I do know that about a year or two later I was sent to a reform school. I had become so depressed I was missing a ton of school and on top of that, totally rebelling. Not because I wanted to be some cool bad kid, I just didn’t know how to deal with my emotions, and the pressure of having to grow up so fast.

While I was in reform school, my dad started working again!!!! I was SO happy to know that he was able to start walking pretty good, to the point where he could work 12-hour shifts in the ER. When he did start again, he used a travel nursing agency and did travel nursing for a few years. Now he is working a regular full-time I guess you’d call it, cause it’s not a travel job. It’s a short drive from home. (It took 4-5 years of pain& tears for him to work again)

He is slowly trying to build his life back together. Right now he does not have a home. My mom (his ex-wife) is gracious enough to let him live with us here. He has a car that’s paid for. The burden of medical bills and regular Dr visits and prescriptions still plague him & always will. So I am here to ask for help in rebuilding my dad’s life to give him the normalcy and stability he deserves. When he ever has enough saved up he is moving to the US Virgin Islands and is gonna work there…(actually worked there a few months in a travel program that paid his travel expenses and lodging.) He has what I think is a great business idea. After moving and securing a job, he plans to open his business, a kind of health-care insurance for travelers, they pay a daily-fee of say, $10. and for that, if anything happened to them that they thought needed medical attention, they call and one of the businesses own practitioners would do an in-home or in-hotel visit and be able to tell the patient what the problem is without them going through All the trouble of going to the ER. He could explain it a lot better!

I am asking on behalf of my warrior Dad, who was dealt a very unlucky hand, for help in raising/saving enough money for him to buy or rent a house in the Virgin islands and maybe have some left over to start that business up! Thank You.

Hello to you all and thanks in advance

My name is Gary. I am 56 years old and my wife is 65 with multiple health issues and disabled. I am looking for help with rent, utility bills, and most important my title loan car payment.I’m about to get my only vehicle repossessed. Life has decided to screw me and my wife.I have a job but not enough work hours available. I am not going to be able to pay my rent or title loan. If I can’t pay for my car I lose it. If I lose my car I lose my way to work and the means to take my wife to her multiple doctor’s appoinments.

I am so depressed by the state I am in. I have been looking for a better job for a long time, but due to the economy have had no luck. I am finding myself more and more depressed, having trouble getting up and facing the day. I have no one to help me financially and of course my credit is screwed. I know it seems pitiful. It really is. I am so embarrassed that I can not provide these basic things for my family. There seems to be no way out for me. No matter how hard I try. No matter how hard I work. No matter how many jobs I work, I feel inadequate. Well any ways if I could get some help that would be greatly appreciated. My PayPal is
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Please help me. I am going to be homeless very soon. I have had my rent money stolen twice and then my Google pay account was hacked into and over 500.00 dollars was taken out.  Then I was scammed trying to get a loan to pay my rent so I would not be evicted. They ended up taking over 1000.00 dollars. I have tried  everything  I can to get this money. I cannot  get any help from anyone and my credit  is not good enough  to get a loan. I work full time as a mechanic and the money I make is not enough  to to make up how far I have fallen behind. I have never done this before. I have not had to ask for help in the past this is a first for me. So if you could help with just a little bit  it would  be greatly appreciated.  I hope there are people out there willing to  help

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Hi, my name is Colby Newton. There is nothing special about me and short of 4 young boys, my life doesn’t impact anyone else’s. This past January, those boy’s Mom, in what seamed like little more than hours, went from being my wife to someone else. 20 years gone and forgotten with out a single reason, just a request that I give her “some space”. Well, the moment I gave her that space, she immediately moved her boyfriend in, used what savings I (we) had to pay off bills and take my name off everything. Things did not fair any better as I sank into a depression and was let go from my job where the new owners kindly told me I was no longer qualified to perform the position I was in for 2.5 years and then fought me on unemployment. I spent time on couches, in my car, and offered beds for several months, all the time falling more and more into a dark depression. I finally, by the help of a friend, found a place to stay temporarily. My health, happiness, and credit score have all been broken and I need help.

I am 48 years old and had built a life around her and that is now all gone. I have managed to find a new job, but can not manage to save anything to find a new home or apartment. There is a trust issue, and rightly so, where landlords and home owners don’t want to work with people to help get them into a place. First, last, and security deposit is asked for or in other words $1200 up to $3000 just to move in. I need help. Help to try and start a new life. Help to become a new me, someone I never wanted to be, but now have no choice. I am not asking for money to buy a huge home, but I have found some very reasonable modular homes that I could get into if I just had $5000 to put down. I have learned a lot about my friends and what family I have left over these 8 months and  it’s unfortunately not a supportive group of people around me. I have spent many off night in a dark place in my mind fighting for a tomorrow, believing there is some heavenly plan, just something to give me hope. My values are seriously taking a back seat with me asking (begging) for help like this, but I have tried every avenue and turned over every cushion and have not found anything. Do you believe in second chances? I have always been a “pay it forward” type and now I find myself in that need.

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