I would like to start off by thanking you in advance for your time, kindness, & consideration.
It’s truly struggling hard to keeping your head above the water. Specifically, my youngest lives with me due to many of her lifelong health issues like esophagus & stomach polyps as well as 3 autoimmune diseases and a few other issues.
Additionally, I am disabled due to an accident and 8 surgeries from my cervical spine(neck),shoulder, 4 hand surgeries & wrist surgery. Some caused more issues and some didn’t change. I feel worthless due to I use to be really busy with OU college(15 hours)on call for and oilfield disposal site. Therefore, I’m no longer superwoman. It’s embarrassing to ask my kids to help open a jar, assist in washing my hair as I struggle with one shoulder that doesn’t want to go all the way up, and worst of all is when I dropped a plate full of Chinese food on the ground at a buffet; and my kids immediately went over where I was to help get everything of their tiled floor. I lay awake most of the time. I don’t like getting out for any reason as I get tunnel vision and feel like I’m going to pass out. I do have health issues of my own as well; blood pressure, cholesterol, nerves in my feet Med, pain in numerous places, change of life physical bodily wise, not to mention my anxiety and depression. I get an SSDI check but it’s being used to get caught up on my debt like: mercy hospital, ambulance service do to me having a seizure and my daughter freaked out, Best Buy card, Home Depot card, Wayfair card, overstock card, my overdrawn checking account with bank of oklahoma, Victoria Secret card. These cards have been like this for awhile now as I used them to help until I got my ssdi.
I can’t even buy a mattress(this king size has messed up springs)due to my situation of debt, toilet paper, laundry detergent, dish detergent, body wash, shampoo, lotion, pillows(as my neck hurts if I don’t get the right balance of pillows), food, fuel to go to my youngest daughter and my Specialist appointments, hospital, etc.
I’m miserable, but try to keep it together when possible as my youngest has health issues just as I have. Then there’s medical items and/or medications that insurance won’t cover for both of us. It’s a frustratingly overwhelming situation. An example of the medical insurance not covering steroid cream for my daughters skin, her birth control, her extra steroids due to her autoimmunity issue. Insurance only covers the script once monthly so any extras as per Endochronologist specialist are out of pocket, asthma I hate had to be switched because insurance wouldn’t cover that either, breathing machine(insurance only pays for 1 nebulizer machine wishing several months). Thinking Bout health equipment; sometimes the specialists will recommend stuff that could possibly help like an air purifier for my youngest daughter, a orthopedic operating bed with capabilities to electrically move at angles to prop the head.
Then if that ain’t all, my dependable suv still needs an engine so I can make both of our appointments, as well as groceries. My other daughter also stays here and has a Vehicle but is limited of when she can run me & my youngest daughter to the specialists keeping in mind that she works. Also, I don’t have family for say except all my grown kids.
Thank you for your time and consideration in regards to my dilemma at hand. I tried to keep it at a minimum as well as be brief on only the most important factors.
pics will include an engine missing from my suv, an old Fredrick window air conditioner that is locked up now(can’t use), windows needing replacement dye to them being old and 2 got broke accidentally this last winter; not to mention we have leaks, had to begin redoing 1 side of retainer walls due to the gully washers of rain we’ve received over time that caused the walls to fall down. The walls have to be fixed so the house won’t slide down as well.