I am in need of help to get my vehicle back from the finance company.  It was repossessed because I was behind on payments.  My husband has had brain cancer and is not able to work. I am the sole provider for our family.  He also recently lost his health insurance because of my income.  I struggle to make ends meet. I need my vehicle back so that I can make it to work every day and so I can take my husband to his doctor appointments.  I have applied for personal loans but have been denied every time.  Any help would be greatly appreciated. https://www.paypal.me/FloraPruett

Hello thank you in advance. My name is Charlene I am buying my first home its a fixer upper will I’ve been in the home now a year but Procreate it two years ago Had to get it cleaned out first before it could get worked on. I started on the bathroom first and a few small minor things My setback was we had a Tornado come through town and a Hurricane I called my mortgage company to let them know of the damages done to the home. I was told to pay a $1000. For my deductible and the same breath. I was told I was still responsible for the repairs. I have went back-and-forth with the company. Trying to get things done to the house. But to no avail I don’t have the funds to repair all the things that need to be done to the  home and my insurance I have only covers my personal things So I’m asking for help to repair my home I had a quote for the repairs and the cheapest was 15,000

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I am the Founder of a company that focuses on accessibility. Our team works hard to support and provide accessibility for senior adults, the disabled, and the injured. Ever since 2014, our team has been serving North and South Carolina to help families stay in their homes longer and safer.

I started this company to help people. My background has been in ministry and chaplaincy. I also started this company partly because of family issues and illnesses at the time. My heart was to help people. My passion has never been business, even when it’s designed to help people. My most passionate work has been as a Hospice chaplain and serving in local small churches. That calling has always been at my center.

Running a business has never been my strong suit and skill. For the last 9 years, I have done my best but have done a poor job. With no degree or training, I failed but did what I thought was best. Today, we have debt and a continuous cash flow problem. I know this is because of me. I have just a few employees. One young man and a few veterans have worked hard for my company. We have made payroll most weeks, but occasionally, we have had to postpone it a week or so.

We have a debt based on the loans we received from the SBA (COVID) and some taxes. We can keep limping along, or I can leave. My leaving has two benefits: The guys who work for me can take over the business and do a better job, and I can return to hospice chaplaincy and local ministry work. Both are my heart’s desire.

To do that, I would want to leave the company debt-free and stable. I’m not looking for a golden parachute or be rich. I want to set up the company for success and return to where my heart is, in hospice work. To cover the debts and set them up for stability and long-term success in helping seniors, the disabled, and the injured is my heart’s true wish. This money would stay with the company. I’m not looking to come across as greedy or deceptive. I want to erase all debt and give them a solid foundation with money in the bank to move. My goal is to raise $500k. I have someone I could leave the company to who could run it much better and more profitably than I can. They can serve people who need our service more effectively and better than me.

I’m asking for your help. I am at the point where I am not smart enough to pull the company out of its debt, and my heart is pulling me to hospice work. If you could help with a donation or gift to help, I would be grateful. This isn’t a scam; me trying to get rich or grab a golden parachute. I simply want to leave my company on a good foundation and return to hospice work and local ministries.

I would be glad to discuss further details or verify any information. This is not a scam, bot, or fraud. Thank you for your time & consideration.

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Please help me start over with a clean slate.

For the last decade and some change I survived by doing and was addicted to sex work and sex-related work to get out of big debt, keep the bills payed, and stay out of debt while living in NYC and San Diego.

It worked initially in getting me out of large debt (while cater waitering and temping), on much smaller levels a couple times since, and generally got me by for  those ten years (sometimes barely and needed help).  However, I found it really hard to quit for good and replace the income without skills to land a job that would pay enough to allow me to support myself – not to mention the toll hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of clients and that lifestyle took on on me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually (the therapist and healers were not cheap but I’ve made great progress this year on the healing front).

Prior to becoming a sex worker – I had been a working performer, cater waiter, and temp through my 20’s in NYC.  My BFA is in Musical Theatre, my only two part time jobs of my life so far were in retail, and the last one was twenty years ago.

Last November I made the brave and right choice to take down the escort ads for good and of course there was a significant financial fallout after that ‘faucet’ of income was turned off (though I feel so relieved being free of it!).

I was able to host massage clients at home for several years here in SD and then had to move out of that place a couple months ago as the rent hike made it unaffordable.  I’m to unable to host clients in my new place, so my income was once again slashed significantly and more of my expenses had to go on credit.

I was doing mobile massage when I hurt my wrist and was unable to work for almost three months.  During that time I was able to make ends meet through a few generous friends but the debt continued to amass with medical bills that I had to pay out of pocket as I’m uninsured in addition to the lost income during injury recovery.

I took down all the massage ads for good on Labor Day because I promised myself I would and I know it was the right thing to do but the income from deliveries and dog walking just isn’t cutting it and the debt balance continues to climb.

Your generosity in helping me pay off this debt would help me move forward without my credit score getting ruined (important for leasing my next car and having to move again end of year) and without having to carry forward a heavy financial burden from of an era of my professional life that’s now happily over.

Even though I don’t exactly what’s next I know I’ll figure it out and will do what I need to do to move forward in the best possible way.

I’ll be 42 in February and need/want to start a new era of my life NOW.  I’m actively looking for a new professional opportunity/way to move forward and your generosity would help me make a clean and total break from my past and move on unencumbered by this large, stressful burden.

Thank you in advance for however much you choose to contribute to my clean slate.  Every penny is a blessing and greatly appreciated.

My PayPal link is paypal.me/matthewkirk21357

Hello, My name is Arlene and my husband Angel who is 51 years old has been a hardworking guy since the age of 16. We are asking for a helping hand in paying our bills. Angel works as a boom truck operator, but has not been working since he suffered a stroke on July 7th 2023, which affected the right side of his body. He was hospitalized for two weeks due to the stroke. During his hospital stay the CT scan showed a mass in his lung, that was determined to be lung cancer. On September 18, 2023 Angel had Lung surgery, which they removed 40% of his left lung. Two days after his surgery the doctors had removed the chest tube and thought he was good to go home, a couple of hours after taken the chest tube out his oxygen levels dropped and his lung collapsed. So they had to re-insert the chest tube back in and put him on oxygen. The chest tube was taken out the next day and he was discharged from the hospital. Angel was having lots of pains in his chest area and coughing uncontrollably, the doctors said it was due to the surgery and it was expected. Two weeks after the surgery, Angel had a follow up visit with his doctor and had a Xray done. The Xray showed that he had some space between his lung and chest wall and the doctor wanted to do another Xray the following week just to see if there was still some spacing. All the while Angel was experiencing lots of pains in his lung and chest area and continued to cough. We went back to the doctor the following week and the Xray showed that the spacing got larger. The doctor told Angel to come back the next day to do another Xray, but that night he started having trouble breathing so we ended up go to the emergency room. Turns out that Angel’s lung collapsed again and had to get the chest tube put back in and is still currently in the hospital.

We live paycheck to paycheck and always managed to get by, but since Angel has been out of work and Disability is only giving him $150 a week, we are struggling to keep up with the bills. He has been using his credit cards to pay what he can with them and now they are all maxed out. He is now backed up on his car note, loan and credit card payments.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story.

Any help would be greatly appreciated.

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Hello. I’m putting my pride aside and doing something I rarely do. And that is asking for your help. I’m a disabled father of two boys Hunter who will turn four on Christmas day and William who is one years old. My wife is a full time mom and student. We bought our home just prior to the pandemic. I was hurt in automobile accident several years before that and received a settlement for my injuries. I’m now permanently disabled and receive SSD. I was able to purchase our home with the funds we received from the settlement. It’s a modest home but it’s warm and cozy and it’s ours. After we purchased it I hired a contractor to do some renovations. What followed suit is a nightmare at best. The contractor Conan Gentile started demanding more money and was aggressive and intimidating . He showed up at our rental property as we were not living in the purchased home at this time as we needed the renovations to complete prior to moving in. He said he wanted 15000.00 dollars as he was doing more work than expected. This was not part of the contract and when I told him I didn’t have it he pulled a gun out and told me he had killed four people in the past and didn’t mind making me the fifth one. He told me I had two days to get it and said if I went to the cops he would kill me and my family. This was all done in front of my terrified wife and one year old son who was crying hysterically. He left abruptly and I told my wife I would figure it out and kept a calm face about me. I was very fearful but did not let it show in front of them. The following day he called and said he would be coming by the next day and again asked if I had the money which I explained to him again I did not. He said we could work something out and even though he was not owed any thing I did not want to risk our lives over the house. It was easy to see he was a sociopath and I had hired a contractor who was a conman and later found out to be a lifelong criminal. He showed up and said we could sign over half of our deed to him in lie if not having the cash. At this point I was to fearful for my family and asked my wife to sing it and I signed it as well. I did not have any further contact with him after that and was informed by the neighbors that he was staying at our house around the clock with his gf at this point. This was also not legal as we did not have the occupancy permit yet and it was stipulated in the sale to get one after the work was done. We did not go to the house as we did not want to encounter Conan. A month later he shot his gf at the house and had a standoff with the police before being taken into custody. At this point his name was not added to our deed. I figured he had gotten scared to file it as he knew it was signed under duress of having had a gun pointed at me and being told he would kill me and my family prior to us signing. After being in Jail for several months he did have it filed and we were dismayed to learn he had added himself and his gf whom he had just shot added to our deed. We had to file stay away orders on her and as he was in jail waived having one on him. He was just sentenced to eight years for this after almost three years sitting in the county jail. He is going to be facing additional murder charges(2) unrelated to this case that he ave since come to light. Although he will likely spend the rest of his life in prison he was able to find an attorney to take his case pro Bono to land court in Boston. Forcing us t ok pay for an attorney to represent us and save our home and being forced to sell it and pay this criminal money he wasn’t owed and never earned. Not only has he created a very costly hardship due to mounting legal fees but he never commented the work he was paid for and instead did over 16000.00 dollars in damage to the home by gutting the copper pipes and heating system punching holes in walls and breaking brand new windows and pipes bursting from no heat. Kitchen and bath faucets etc. The legal fees are over 12000.00 as of now and expected to cost us around 25 thousand at the end of the land court case. I very strongly believe the judge sees through this and it will end the way it should with them being removed from our deed. He had claimed we sold him and his gf half of our home for 200 dollars. But nonetheless he conned an attorney into believing his lies and dragged us the victims into court this making us fight to save our home. Our only income is from SSD disability benefits every month and we are trying to keep afloat but the legal fees are severely putting us behind with our cost of living budget and bills. We are now behind 10 thousand on our property taxes and one of our two vehicles was repossessed . Im not one to ask for handouts but our home is all we have and my wife and young sons deserve to have a home and stability. Any help is and will be greatly appreciated and best wishes to everyone wether you can or cannot help our cause. Thank you for taking the time to read this and I’m keeping the faith that it will all work out for the best in the end. Sincerely Tommy, Gab, Hunter, and William. Paypal.me/tommyw0228

I hope this message finds you well. I have worked in manufacturing for many years, striving to make ends meet and build a stable future for myself and my family.

However, life had a different plan for me. A few years ago, my mother fell seriously ill, necessitating my immediate attention and care. In a heartbeat, I made the decision to take Family and Medical Leave Act (FMLA) leave from my job to be by her side. This compassionate choice, while absolutely necessary, had significant financial consequences. FMLA is unpaid, and as a result, I faced mounting bills and financial strain.

To make matters even more challenging, while caring for my mother, I suffered a severe back injury. The injury left me unable to return to work for a considerable period at reduced pay due to medical restrictions. This financial setback added another layer of complexity to my already strained situation.

Over the past few years, I’ve worked tirelessly to rebuild my financial stability. I’ve taken on extra hours, worked overtime, and made sacrifices to pay off the debts I incurred during those trying times. Despite these efforts, I find myself struggling to fully regain my financial footing.

Recently, I approached my bank with a request for a consultation loan to consolidate my debts, streamline my financial commitments, and embark on a journey toward a brighter future. Unfortunately, my request was denied.

Today, I am turning to you with a heartfelt plea. I hope to raise $25,000 to settle my remaining debts and finally achieve the long-awaited state of being debt-free. With your support, I aim to pursue a dream that has been burning in my heart: starting a small business to supplement my income and secure a more stable financial future for my family.

I understand that times are challenging for everyone, and I genuinely appreciate your consideration and compassion as you read my story. I am determined to work hard and make the most of this second chance.

If you are able to assist me in any way, I would be immensely grateful. Your support would not only help me repair my finances but also enable me to create a brighter future for my loved ones.

Thank you for taking the time to hear my story. Your kindness and generosity mean the world to me, and I am forever thankful for any assistance you can provide.

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Everyone needs help sometimes, right? I have been running into unfortunate events back-to-back. I have explained in more detail below the events leading up to the position I am in now. all the sleepless nights and being emotionally drained and just exhausted. I need help to get out of this horrible downwards spiral I seem to be stuck in. I’ve been struggling with a mice infestation at my apartment which used to be my mom’s I got to keep it after she passed. This infestation has affected my kids, my mental health and well-being. the landlord solution has been to place sticky trapes. She has placed a total of 8 over a 9-month period. My apartment isn’t mine. The mice ran into my apartment. You see a mouse at least once every 5 min 24/7. My son can’t crawl safely without mice dropping everywhere. Hès 11 months old and isn’t walking yet. has been bitten by them, I as well have been bitten. I have found dead mice in my bed random places in my apartment, along with 8 baby mice in my daughters shoe. They have ruined my bed and my couches they have chewed holes in the cushions. You can hear them squealing running through/ under my couch. My furniture was brand new. These are just a few of the events that have happened. I don’t have any place to go. My mom has passed away in dec 2022 and my grandma passed on 0ct 7 2023. I don’t have any more family. My friends you may ask? I’m barely getting out of an abusive relationship. Ims till trying to successfully escape. He terrorizes me whenever he feels like it. The abuse ranges from him just being mean to breaking my jaw. In order to move I need to pay the rent that my mom was unable to pay when she had her stroke. I was making payments on it up until my car got stolen in June. My car was to old to be covered if it got stolen. Its been extremely hard being without it. Id goes to the swap meet on the weekends so I could have an income. No car= no income. I cannot keep groceries in the house. It is beyond difficult to get to Dr. apt. In Feb 2023 I had to get all my teeth removed. I received a pair of dentures that don’t fit in my mouth. I’m only 28 yrs. old. It’s beyond embarrassing. I really need some help. I would be forever grateful for your help. To be able to be comfortable and in a healthy environment, just to be able to sleep without worrying that the mice are going to get my kids. What would mean even more is moving to a new place we all wouldn’t be looking over our shoulders for my ex. To be able to feel safe would make a big difference with my daughter’s ability to adapt to change. I could never thank you enough for changing our lives!
If I’m able to be sponsored I will take care of the past due rent move to a new place and purchase a car so my family can be back to self-efficacy.

I had my youngest daughter in oct 2019 and watching her grow I begin to notice she is not meeting her milestones. So, at 9 months we went to the Dr., and she was too young for treatment or evaluations for any sort of disability. She would walk sideways, and she did not point at things, nor did she talk. At 2 years old she barely said 10 words and would not always use the words she did know and seemed to forget the words. She would wake up screaming, not just crying, a skin crawling scream at least 3 times every night. She has night terrors every night this has been happening since she was born. We are still trying to figure out a solution for the night terrors and she turns 4 on oct 14 2023 and she has come such a long way.

On March 3rd, 2022. I had finished fixing my mom’s car, so she headed home to get ready for work. She made it upstairs to her bedroom and collapsed, she had a stroke. Lucky her boyfriend was there and was able to help her and called me, so I was able to get within 6 mins. The paramedics took her to the hospital. She lived, after sleeping for 2 weeks without any medicine to keep her sedated, she awoke to realize she no longer could use the right side of her body. During this time, I find out I am pregnant with my 3rd child and the months leading up to this I had just finally got my life together. My own apartment got my mom’s old car on the road, so she gave it to me, a relationship, kids are happy. I was happy everything was going well. Well, she had a stroke and went to a specialty hospital. Where she was treated very badly. They left containers of pee on her nightstand. The nurses did not respond to the light. My mom then realizes she has lost her independence her mobility ND now has to depend upon others for her daily living needs. She spends 4 months between the nursing home and the hospital. She is finally able to return home but needs care 24/7. Of course, I do what any person would do for their mom. I pause my life and go to take care of her. I kept my apartment for 2 months and it just wasn’t sense able to keep it any longer since I wasn’t really able to leave her. Well So now it’s me pregnant with my son, my two daughters, my children’s father, and my mom living in a two-bedroom apt. The apt is not suitable for my mom. The shower is upstairs and now we have to stay in the living room since the bedrooms are upstairs also. We had to put up a tiny tent on our porch so she could shower. My mom quickly declined and the conditions we were living in really didn’t help. (we will come back to the conditions in just a sec) my mom would end up in the hospital monthly she couldn’t breathe right and just was not improving. I had to call an ambulance on dec 1 2022. My mom was making animal sounds and just acting very strangely. When the paramedics arrived, they did their assessment and during the assessment my mom went limp. They put the oxygen on and all of a sudden, she inhaled but looking at her I could tell there was something seriously wrong. They transport her to the hospital, and she’s put on life support. They admitted. her as a trauma patient, and I was unable to find her for 2 days… I finally get threw and find her and the Dr gets on the phone and asks if we had talked about comfort measures. My mom had brain damage and couldn’t breathe on her own. I get a second opinion make sure there is nothing else that could be done. She passed on dec 10 2022

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Hello,

I am reaching out with a courageous heart and a determined spirit. My name is Feli, and I am a survivor of domestic violence. The path to healing and justice is not easy, but I am committed to reclaiming my life.

I have taken the step to break free from an abusive situation, and now I am navigating the legal journey towards a safer and brighter future. However, legal costs can be overwhelming, and I am reaching out to you, my community, for support.

I have initiated this fundraiser to raise funds for my attorney fees, ensuring that I can secure the legal representation I need. Every contribution, no matter the size, makes a difference in helping me regain control of my life.

Together, let’s stand against domestic violence and empower survivors to rebuild their lives. Your support is not just financial; it’s a lifeline that helps me move from victim to victor. Thank you for being part of this journey towards healing and justice.

With gratitude,

Feli B.

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MY NAME is Carlos j silva ,i reside in Modesto California and i am 62 years old .I am on social security disability, I have Chrons .I have 2 holes in the large intestine near the rectum and  I lost 3 feet of small intestine in surgery, I don t have a colostomy bag I have drains in planted near the rectum for release of liquid going trough the holes ,the doctors gave the option of a bag or drains but all the surgeries and drain maintenance has to be performed at Stanford hospital located at 300 Pasture DR in Palo alto and i live on 1910 celeste Ct apt b ,Modesto California 95355 its around 110 one way ,and i travel there every other month and hospital emergency  and i need to replace my car ,i have a 1999 Honda CRV with 285,000 miles on it ,the engine froze due to lost of all oil ,the oil filter came loose and the oil went out of the motor, I  ,need help buying a used car for 4,000 to 5,000 dollars, i can not afford to make payments i go broke aroud the 20 th of every month  and i have  a 500 credit score due to my divorce, PLEASE HELP ,i can provide paper work to everything i stated, medical ,rent expenses , income and identity, drivers license, and social security so you can research me my cell is 2094188475 please leave message

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     My name is Christina Watkins. I am a 36 yr old mother of two beautiful daughters, Jewel Lynn-14 and Aria Noel-9 and I was recently widowed 2 yrs ago now, after a 13 yr marriage to their father who died of a heart attack at 39 yrs old right in front of me in our home. Watching someones soul leave them and the life leave their eyes is hands down the HARDEST thing I think I have ever had to experience and unfortunately for me, it’s not even the first time I have had to experience it, because when I was 21 yrs old, I held my grandmother in my arms in the nursing home she was a resident at and I had to watch as the same thing happened with her. It haunted me for many years, and I never understood why I had to go through something so horrible at such a young age, until the day my husband died and in that moment, when he took his last breath and I knew he was gone, I finally got my clarity. Regardless, I wish that I never had to go through any of it at all, but it is what it is, I suppose and “everything happens for a reason.”

I met my husband in 2008, and it was directly after my grandmas passing, only by a few short months and within 4 months of meeting him, I was pregnant with our first daughter and mind you, I was a virgin still at 21 yrs old and I have always been so proud of that, but the fact that I was so isolated growing up was just as much a bad thing as it was a good thing, because I was just so damned naive and I feel like I have missed out on a ton of stuff that most people/kids get to experience in the ages between highschool and adult hood and I literally went from being a young bright-eyed dumbass for lack of a better word to a mother and wife, living a life of struggle and hardship overnight and I was “stuck on 17” the entire time I was with him I guess you could say and then at 35 yrs old, he died and I was spit back out into the world and I have had to start all over again and go through the motions of life and its experiences, not having even gotten to have ever lived in the first place, so I’m learning and experiencing things that all kids do in time, except I am almost 40 now and I have 2 little humans I am responsible for and it has been anything but easy. In the 13 years I was married, it was a long road for sure. One day I was a young vibrant girl,  fresh out of high school and ready to explore the world and the next thing I knew, I woke up one day and I was a mother and a wife and I was already past 30 years old and trying to figure out what the hell had happened and how I had gotten to where I was, and I mean, it literally felt like it happened overnight…in the blink of an eye and I guess its just crazy to me, just how fast time flies once out in the real world. Anyways, I spent years taking care of not only him, but his mother as well because they were both full blown diabetics, they both had congestive heart failure, and they both did not take care of themselves at all and they were probably some of the laziest people I ever met lol, but that is besides the point, but on top of all that, my husband was also a black out whiskey alcoholic and when he would get like that, which was quite often, he would get very mean, an mostly it was with his words, for years it was just the emotional and mental abuse, but then later came the other and so my girls and I spent years and years living like that and because I was raised that the only way to work your problems out was to stay married and stick by their side no matter what, because of he vow two people take before god, I chose to stay and I did so and stuck it out till the very end and then one day just as quickly as he and his family entered my life, they were just gone and it happened all at once too. At the end of January beginning of February in 2021, we took his mom off life support and then 11 short days after her passing, we got the call that his (step) dad, the man that raised him (cause his real dad was in prison his whole life) but we got the call that his step dad had shot and killed himself, and then it wasn’t even a month total after both of their deaths, that my husband passed of a heart attack on the morning of March 18, 2021. That day, my daughter’s and I left and we didn’t go back until about 3 months later when I couldn’t take living at my parents anymore at the time…My mom and I clash quite a bit, so things get heated sometimes and it was just added stress at the time that we did not need, so I chose to try and go back to the house. We were there for a couple weeks, but after a certain point, it ended up being much more difficult than I thought it would be and especially for my girls, my oldest in particular, because unfortunately, our oldest daughter, on their way out the door of the house, saw her dad on the floor that day with all the machines on him, trying to pump life back into his heart and this was all traumatic enough on me, so I can only imagine how hard it has been for her, for both of them for that matter, because they are so young and they never asked to be born into that kind of life and they didn’t deserve it, and I know they are hurting so badly and deeply and they are angry, sad, confused. If I could take all of their pain onto myself, I would in a second, but I can not, so I just have to set back and watch as they struggle from day to day with it all and try as I may, I haven’t been able to ease their pain yet and it literally KILLS  me. So after we were home for a few weeks, things were going slow and we were all in a daze and then one day, my youngest came running in and I see her with cuts or bites…They looked like puncture wounds at the time, all over her shoulders, on her right breast area, all down her arms and even under her arm pits!! All I saw was these holes in my baby and there was blood everywhere and she was screaming. I finally got her to calm down enough to tell me what happened and she told me that she had seen a dog (a 6 month old St. Bernard) attacking and hurting a chicken so she decided to take it upon herself to set that damn chicken free, and well of course this dog attacked her, but I’ll be damned if she didn’t get that chicken from it and save it, and even managed to get the dog off of her by herself, and got halfway back to the house before I saw her and I scooped her up and ran her across the street to my neighbors, and we got her to the hospital and they fixed her up and by the time she was done, she had her entire upper torso wrapped in ace bandage like a shirt with sleeves and she was holding both of her arms up like she was some body builder giving the meanest face her cute 8 yr old self could give, and she had that shit eating grin on her face, the one her dad always used to give me. I’ll never ever forget it and I still have the picture to this day and at the time it was nothing other than terrifying, but today when I think about it, it still brings a tear to my eye, but a smile as well.  Now that incident in itself was enough to have anyone on edge, mother’s especially, but my little Aria being the very active, outgoing, dare devil that she is, was at my sister’s one afternoon with me and her and my niece and nephew were all playing and running through the house and out the backdoor, and all of a sudden we hear a crash, glass breaking and then a scream. So I come running in and meet my sister with Aria half way in the kitchen, and Aria is holding her hand out with her other arm crying and yelling and shaking her hand all over the damn place (probably from the pain) and blood was going everywhere it could go, I mean it was on the ceiling, the walls, the fridge, it was smeared and flung all over the backporch and the bathroom doors, on the washer…I’m telling you, it was definitely NOT a pretty site and I shit you not, my sisters house looked like a freaking murder scene!! So anyways, I finally got out of her in bits and pieces what had happened in between her cries and screams and her and her cousin (and they are only 3 weeks apart these 2) they were running in and out of the back door and he had came in and shut it behind him and they were both pushing on it and one of the glass windowpanes in it broke and her hand went through it at an up angle and then of course naturally, she tried to pull it right back out and it sliced both her ring and her middle finger tops just about clean off and it was HORRIBLE. So I wrap her hand in a towel and we all pile up in my sisters car and from the time it took us to get 15 miles, that towel was bright red. We finally get to the hospital and after 2 hours of waiting, they finally take her to x-ray to make sure there was no glass in it and then they got ready to stitch her up. It took myself and 3 other people, plus the doctor, to hold that child down to have her fingers stitched back on and the blood-curdling sounds that came out of my baby that day was enough to bring any mother to her knees and I literally almost couldn’t take it, but we finally got through it and 27 stitches later, we were on our way back home and luckily for Aria and I, she hasn’t gotten herself into anymore accidents thank God, knock on wood lol. Okay, so a few more months go by and life has not changed one bit for us and mind you, my husband and I had just filed our taxes probably a month or less before his death, but somehow and don’t even ask me how cause I honestly still to this day have not got a clue how it happened, but I guess right before we were to receive it, he had passed and he was on Social Security, and they report all of that stuff and they are on top of that shit, so it had ended up kicking our tax form off into a different section and it took me MONTHS to even find out that it was because someone listed the wrong freaking death year on his file, so I spent literally the next whole year fighting the IRS and having to prove that I WAS his wife and that I had a legal claim to OUR money. It was absolutely a horrible, STRESSFUL, long, drawn out process, but eventually I did receive it, and I was so damned excited, cause I had been waiting to buy a new car for us. I finally had the money and I found a car pretty quickly. It was a 2006 Chevy Trailblazer, and my girls loved it, as did I and it did us good, but only for a few short lived weeks, because not even a month after I purchased it, before I had even had time to send the title off  and get it all in my name, the damn thing threw a rod through the motor and left me and my 8 yr old at the time stranded on the side of a highway for 5 freaking hours until someone could come get us, and then after I finally was able to get it towed back, it sat in my parents yard for 9 months or more even maybe, I can’t really remember, but it was almost the better part of a year and I was out the $1500 I had spent on it and once again without a vehicle. So finally all the months later, I had finally saved up enough to be able to put towards a new one, along with the money that I got for junking the Trailblazer, which was only $500 but hey, it was better than nothing. So I signed that check over and got a car from someone that was going to allow me to make payments and I take off in this car and everything is great…For about 2 weeks, and then I shit you not, the damn thing broke down on me and I had to drop a new radiator in it, and all the while, I still had no title to it, so I couldn’t even get it legal. That went on for a couple months and I made a couple more payments towards it, each time thinking I was going to get the title the next time I made a payment, like was agreed upon, but low and behold, each month I’d come to pay, there would be some reason or another for why I still couldn’t get the title and I don’t even know how many tickets I have gotten in it since, I know right now, most recently, I have 2 that are coming up that are both $300 and I DON’T have it, but I’m gonna have to figure something out. So anyways, finally, I got sick of it and I am also having to put 1-2 gallons of transmission fluid in this damn car, a day if not more so I am out the cost for that too, and now, yes I have a title to it FINALLY, but turns out, I was sold a vehicle with an OPEN TITLE and now I can’t even get it legal in my name and the piece of junk is stuck broken down once again at my parents and I am what…YEP!! You guessed it, I am without a vehicle once again AND I’m also out ANOTHER $2000 for this car that has been broke down more that it has ran, and has done nothing but make my already crap life even crappier. SOOOO…That brings us up to date I think to about right where I am at in life in present day.

So like I said, it’s now September of 2023 and I am still without a vehicle and still without a home that my daughter’s and I can call our own, but that isn’t even the least of my worries at the very moment, because just this last Thursday, my fiance whom I started seeing 1 year after my husbands passing was taking me to see my daughter’s at my parent’s that night and I could’t get that stupid ass car to go, so we had just switched seats, and no sooner do we pull off the county road and get on the highway which is the highway my parents live on, I’ll be damned if a cop doesn’t get right up behind us, and go freaking figure, it’s the same one that we have been seeing so much of recently. But anyways, yep, we pull onto the highway, and he sees us and knows immediately who we are, and he pulls us over. It was a giant freaking mess and it resulted in my fiance being arrested, because he was driving with a revoked license I guess, and that in turn violated his probation, for something that he had already taken care of back I think 4 or 5 years ago, but regardless, it landed his ass in jail where he still sits today, because I do not have the money to help him and God I wish I did, because he does not deserve this at all and they have been violating every single one of his constitutional rights since he’s been in there. They won’t let me see or talk to him, they won’t let him call me, every time I go for a visitation, they tell me it’s cancelled, and I even downloaded the app they said I had to use and I wrote him a letter, that took 5 days to get delivered, just for them to tell me after I got the email that it was delivered, that they can not get letters in there, so they didn’t even give it to him!! I’ve gotten to talk to him probably 3 times total and other than that, it’s silence and they have set his court date for a freaking MONTH from now, so because I am broke as broke gets, and mind you, I have been trying to get a job religiously this entire time, but I can’t seem to find a damn reliable vehicle to do so and I had one job, but because of the vehicle problem, I lost that job and I have yet to find one since and I am just at my literal wits end at this point and I am probably lower than I have ever been in life before, and I am a literal “Rock Bottom,” ya’ll and I have exhausted every last single option that I have had at my disposal. I have applied for every type of loan or financial assistance there is in our state, which is Missouri, and it has gotten me literally NO WHERE except smashing into wall after wall after wall. I have tried to get a loan so many times that there are even some online loan companies that have actually banned me from their sites LMAO!! It’s freaking embarrassing as hell lol. Not to mention, one of the loan places that I THOUGHT was going to be my saving grace a few months ago, sent me a letter in the mail one day, stating that they had been cyber attacked and that my personal information was out there now and at stake, and that resulted in me being put on some “Early Warnings” list and the freaking FBI was investigating that loan company, and now the only thing that came of that, is that I can not even get a damned bank account and I am plum stuck, lost, can’t for the life of me dig us out of these horrible messes and I am losing hope by the second and am just SO desperate to get to that place that I have seen for so long. Our happy life, that I know exists, and it’s always just right within my grasp, but no matter how hard or fast I run at it, I never get any closer and it’s always just a little bit too far out of my reach and I’m all but ready to give up at this point honestly. I had my fiance, and he was my support…The only support I had, but now he is gone for at least a month and I am so sad and lonely. He was actually a good friend of my husband and I’s and I have known him for as long as I knew my husband and he was even in our wedding!! I know, small world right, but anyways, I don’t know why I had to meet my husband and go through what my girl’s and I went through all those years, and it was pure hell, but I would do it all over again, because if I had not, then I never would have gotten my girl’s and I would do ANYTHING for them, and as for my fiance. Before, when I was married, I think I was just some young, naive kid that didn’t know any better, who then got married to a man that got her pregnant and then after that I was just stuck, because I simply didn’t believe in divorce, it was just how I was raised I guess, but I’m not sure I ever even actually loved the man. I mean, I of course had/have love for him…he is the father of my children, but I know now that I was never “In love,”  with him and I didn’t even know what that was until I got with my fiance and he is my soulmate, my life, my everything and besides my daughter’s, he is my whole world and I just want to help him, so we can take care of this mess and move on and get to that happy life that I’ve envisioned for so damned long, but even more so, I want to help my daughter’s, by being able to provide for them a home and by getting us a good, reliable, safe, LEGAL vehicle, so that I can provide for them the life that they have more than deserved this entire time, and so I can step up and be the mother that they need.

     So everyone, now that I have told you the very “simplest” version of my story…and I know it’s quite alot, I apologize for that, but none the less. It is with all the hope that I have left in me, that I reach deep, and gather every last bit of courage and strength that I’ve got left, and I swallow my pride and I reach out to you all, that I ask for your help in getting my trainwreck of a life back on track, for my daughter’s, for my soulmate and for myself.

     I am needing at least $3000 for a place, probably $3000-$5000 for a good, decent vehicle, so I don’t have to go through some shady character a THIRD time that is only going to rip me off again and add to my problems, and last but not least I am needing at least $7500 so that I can hire the lawyer that I have found that will take my fiance’s case. I have researched and researched and researched, and he is the cheapest that I have been able to find and I highly doubt that I will find anyone cheaper than that, so in total, I believe, will bring it all to…$15,500.

I am more than aware that this is a HUGE ask and I also am aware that it is a massive long shot, but I have got literally NOTHING left to lose at this point, so it can’t hurt to try, and this is my last “Hail Mary,” if you will, and I am going to just cross my fingers, and pray to God and give it to him, and HOPE with every last thing that I’ve got in me, that someone out there will come across this, read it, and show me a little sympathy and choose to help me and I am begging, PLEASE, someone help me. I have tried for so long to do it on my own and I have only failed time and time again, and now I need nothing short of a miracle, and I guess if nothing happens, then at least I’ll know I gave it my best shot and tried and I thank whom ever takes the time to read this, for doing so.

  Thank You,

 Christina Watkins

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