Please help me start over with a clean slate.
For the last decade and some change I survived by doing and was addicted to sex work and sex-related work to get out of big debt, keep the bills payed, and stay out of debt while living in NYC and San Diego.
It worked initially in getting me out of large debt (while cater waitering and temping), on much smaller levels a couple times since, and generally got me by for those ten years (sometimes barely and needed help). However, I found it really hard to quit for good and replace the income without skills to land a job that would pay enough to allow me to support myself – not to mention the toll hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of clients and that lifestyle took on on me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually (the therapist and healers were not cheap but I’ve made great progress this year on the healing front).
Prior to becoming a sex worker – I had been a working performer, cater waiter, and temp through my 20’s in NYC. My BFA is in Musical Theatre, my only two part time jobs of my life so far were in retail, and the last one was twenty years ago.
Last November I made the brave and right choice to take down the escort ads for good and of course there was a significant financial fallout after that ‘faucet’ of income was turned off (though I feel so relieved being free of it!).
I was able to host massage clients at home for several years here in SD and then had to move out of that place a couple months ago as the rent hike made it unaffordable. I’m to unable to host clients in my new place, so my income was once again slashed significantly and more of my expenses had to go on credit.
I was doing mobile massage when I hurt my wrist and was unable to work for almost three months. During that time I was able to make ends meet through a few generous friends but the debt continued to amass with medical bills that I had to pay out of pocket as I’m uninsured in addition to the lost income during injury recovery.
I took down all the massage ads for good on Labor Day because I promised myself I would and I know it was the right thing to do but the income from deliveries and dog walking just isn’t cutting it and the debt balance continues to climb.
Your generosity in helping me pay off this debt would help me move forward without my credit score getting ruined (important for leasing my next car and having to move again end of year) and without having to carry forward a heavy financial burden from of an era of my professional life that’s now happily over.
Even though I don’t exactly what’s next I know I’ll figure it out and will do what I need to do to move forward in the best possible way.
I’ll be 42 in February and need/want to start a new era of my life NOW. I’m actively looking for a new professional opportunity/way to move forward and your generosity would help me make a clean and total break from my past and move on unencumbered by this large, stressful burden.
Thank you in advance for however much you choose to contribute to my clean slate. Every penny is a blessing and greatly appreciated.
My PayPal link is paypal.me/matthewkirk21357