I’m a 29 year old mother who has lost everything.
I was adopted as a child by a family who has never cared for me. I was there food ticket. At a very young age I was raped by my sisters friend. She told lies saying it was consensual and made fake posters with me on them and completely ruined my life. No one wanted to be friends with me, well besides boys/men. I have been off and on homeless since 2007. I have been beaten by ever man who has dated me. My family won’t help me out, I have people not friends in my life that will take every last thing for me and not help me when it’s a dire need. I was doing well since 2014, with a stable job, place to live, even a car. My ex-fiancé took me to his hometown in Bakersfeild in January of 2019. Worst decision ever! He all of a sudden became someone else. He locked me in a room for 2 weeks. He held a gun to my head and forced himself on me and allowed others to sexually assault me. He starved me and stole everything from me. He told my job I died by committing suicide and told my family I was never coming home. I finally escaped mid February. Where I tried to make a police report, but they didn’t do anything.
My ex was arrested and released early April. He some how tracked me down and took me again to Bakersfeild. This time he tried to kill both of us by trying to crash my car into a tree. Luckily the underside of the vehicle was scrapped and dented.
Im asking for help from hopefully a kind human somewhere out there is willing to help me. I’ve lost my kids, job, place to stay, family, friends, everything. I do need t qualify for and county assistance. No shelter will take me in, I can’t get any food, clothes, gas, money nothing from county services.
I started going to therapy, and visiting with other health professionals to get me back on track again. I was told to go on temporary disability while my mind body and soul healed. But the only doctor who can treat or sign off on the papers didn’t. So since January 15, 2019 I have struggled to make it.
What I need ASAP
-Help with a place to stay. I do have camping gear and will camp for the rest of my life if I have to.
-My car payments, insurance, registration, and phone bill are 3 months behind. If I loose my car then I’ll have no where to go, or a way to commute to get a new job.
-new tires, oil change and any other automotive maintenance needs
– I also need all toiletries for basic hygiene purposes
-I have over 600 contacts in my phone and on social media that live all around the US. But for some reason not one person will text back, answer their phones or help me with anything.
Im tired of struggling to survive, when all I want to do is live. I have so many people say they love and care and will help me, but don’t in the end. I would like to get away and start fresh and new and be successful. I just need help. I’m soo lost depressed and alone in a huge world.
If you can spare anything at all to help out please do so. Please give me a little hope that there are good people in the world. From an infant till now at 29 years old I have had nothing given to me, no help with anything, and no people to catch me when I fall. I feel like I have nothing more to loose.