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Last Updated: April 7, 2020

Importance Of An Education

Peace and blessings,

My name is Salil Gomez, and I thank you for taking the time to ready my plead for assistance. I was fortunate enough to be in the METCO program, that I was able to attend a wonderful high school. I graduated from Newton South High School as a legacy scholar with high honors. I am currently a freshman in college at The University of Massachusetts Boston. I am studying development and business management. What I hope to achieve by obtaining this education, is to become a developer for low-income areas to provide not only affordable, but safe and healthy housing for those like myself, who are less fortunate. A little bit about how I became interested in this, and made this my mission is because of my trip to Detroit. I visited some family in Detroit, where I witnessed living conditions that just were not okay with me. Abandoned streets. Abandoned homes, broken windows, cracked and split streets. This is what I want to change. I want to rebuild, and reconstruct these homes. These streets. I aim to rejuvenate the energy that these communities lack. Bring back the positivity and joy there once was in certain areas. This is a goal that I am determined to accomplish. Though I seek help. I was able to pay for my first year of college, through a few scholarships, some financial aid, and with the majority of my own earnings. However, due to a recent decline in my fathers health, I can’t afford to work anymore. I am required to provide for him and the household of just us two. I come home after school, to care for him. He is disabled and retired. I do what I can, because that is how I was raised. I was taught to care for my parents, how they would for me. The little income he does receive, is something which is better than nothing, though does not help much. The fees for the medicine that his body requires is not covered by insurance. I have sold jewelry, furniture, any materialistic possessions that have value and are not necessary for sustaining our health and lives. Though, I believe that one way or another, I shall prevail. Either through the help of a or many generous people, or through the works of God. I have worked hard to arrive at the position I am currently at with my life and journey. I refuse to allow this to hinder my goals and hold me back. I also refuse to put my goals first over my father’s health. Which is why I am seeking help in any way possible. May God bless you all, and reward you for your kindness and understanding. Thank you.

Respectfully,

~ Salim Gomez.

PayPal.Me/salimgomez

Last Updated: March 31, 2020

Importance Of An Education

Peace and blessings,

My name is Salil Gomez, and I thank you for taking the time to ready my plead for assistance. I was fortunate enough to be in the METCO program, that I was able to attend a wonderful high school. I graduated from Newton South High School as a legacy scholar with high honors. I am currently a freshman in college at The University of Massachusetts Boston. I am studying development and business management. What I hope to achieve by obtaining this education, is to become a developer for low-income areas to provide not only affordable, but safe and healthy housing for those like myself, who are less fortunate. A little bit about how I became interested in this, and made this my mission is because of my trip to Detroit. I visited some family in Detroit, where I witnesssed living conditions that just were not okay with me. Abandoned streets. Abandoned homes, broken windows, cracked and split streets. This is what I want to change. I want to rebuild, and reconstruct these homes. These streets. I aim to rejuvenate the energy that these communities lack. Bring back the positivity and joy there once was in certain areas. This is a goal that I am determined to accomplish. Though I seek help. I was able to pay for my first year of college, through a few scholarships, some financial aid, and with the majority of my own earnings. However, due to a recent decline in my fathers health, I can’t afford to work anymore. I am required to provide for him and the household of just us two. I come home after school, to care for him. He is disabled and retired. I do what I can, because that is how I was raised. I was taught to care for my parents, how they would for me. The little income he does receive, is something which is better than nothing, though does not help much. The fees for the medicine that his body requires is not covered by insurance. I have sold jewelry, furniture, any materialistic possessions that have value and are not necessary for sustaining our health and lives. Though, I believe that one way or another, I shall prevail. Either through the help of a or many generous people, or through the works of God. I have worked hard to arrive at the position I am currently at with my life and journey. I refuse to allow this to hinder my goals and hold me back. I also refuse to put my goals first over my father’s health. Which is why I am seeking help in any way possible. May God bless you all, and reward you for your kindness and understanding. Thank you.

Respectfully,

~ Salim Gomez.

https://www.paypal.me/salimgomez

Last Updated: March 30, 2020

Tossed out like trash

To whom it may concern,

I am one who never ask for help but I’m lost and have no clue how I can make my situation better. I was a houseman and chef for a prominent family for 10 years and I thought I was a part of their family. I learned the hard way and was tossed out like trash as soon as my boss died. No severance pay, no benefits just tossed out right before the holidays. I’ve used up my savings and I am trying my best to find employment but this coronavirus is not making it easy. I don’t qualify for unemployment as I was a at will employee and am not covered. Please please anyone I need help. My belief is that when I am able to help someone I hope some one can help me.
Bless your heart

paypal.me/andoestabillo

Last Updated: March 30, 2020

You’re the one.

Hello, friends. My name is Nicolas, I am from Siberia. An orphan and single father.

This is a difficult moment in my life. Now I really need your help. My wife left me and left me with my little daughter. It was a very difficult period. But did not give up. Until his daughter grew up, he sat with her until she went to the garden. During this moment, all the accumulated money ran out. My wife did not send money to support the child. He went out to several jobs on which he worked for days. This has greatly affected my health. He started to hurt. I had to look for better options for work. It seems that everything has started to improve. After the daughter went to the garden, she began to get sick a lot and had to sit at home with her. A lot of money began to go to medicines, bills and products. I got into big debts and loans. Since now, in connection with the pandemic, quarantine has been announced, sent home. There is simply no money left for simple living and payment of loans and debts. Again, my daughter and I became very ill. Medicines are very expensive for my daughter, but I try to do everything for her. I’m not talking to myself, I hope everything goes well. Even while at home I try to work from a computer. But very little money comes out of this and is often deceived.

For the first time in my life, I’m just in such a difficult situation. From which I can not find a way out. The options are over. In all civilized countries, deferrals of payments or remove payment of bills give all this. Helping people in such a difficult moment. They are treated with the understanding that you are raising one child and it is very difficult. Give payouts. But with us, everything is complicated. People just don’t give a damn. We survive as best we can.

Of course I’m not discouraged, I have a ray of light that moves me. This is my daughter. For which I try to give the best. For the sake of which you go for everything. But I can’t watch her get sick. Like any other loving parent. And scolding myself that I can’t give her more. This makes me hard. But hold on.

I know that in our world there are still those people with a good heart who can help. That’s why I appeal to you, friends. You are the people on whom the world rests, the world of good. I hope and I will be lucky with you, who once found themselves in a difficult situation. But they found help, in the person of other people. Your help will make my life easier. In the future, I can also help another person. And make his life brighter and calmer.

I apologize for not writing the message correctly. I am learning your language.

Good luck to you.

paypal.me/senatorio

With respect, Nicolas.

Last Updated: March 25, 2020

Streamer/Musician with Mental Illness

Hi. I am Zen. I am a hip hop artist, edm producer, beatmaker, DJ, video game streamer and much more.
Now you might ask yourself, why is this guy here when he has so much going for him?
Well, without blabbing my life story I will explain it as simply as possible.
I suffer from extreme anxiety, agoraphobia, depression, panic disorder, and the list goes on. I wasn’t always this way, only int he last 5-6 years has this happened to me.
I use to believe mental illness was nothing. I believed people made it up for others to feel sorry for them.
Maybe this is Karma. But I digress.
The reason I am here is because Making music, gaming, streaming, creating art in general is my passion and my only escape from the hell I face every day. I have been denied support from the government as they claim my illness is not real in their eye’s, yet the same government will help drug addicts who refuse to get treatment while I can’t even get treatment due to having full blown panic attacks every time I try.
My illness prevents me from getting a job and I’ve had my fair share of online jobs turning me down over the past 5 years.
To add to all of that, I was robbed a few months ago.
My gaming systems, tv’s, clothing, food, cash, gold I had been collecting, everything gone. And because my computer was too heavy for them to carry efficiently, they just ripped out the video card which destroyed my motherboard in the process.. No trace of anything stolen has surfaced and probably won’t unless they end up in a pawn shop. I have bad credit due to a ex gf racking up a phone bill which I am working to fix now, but just to get a TV and Phone I had to finance though MDG as I can’t even afford a used tv and phone.
To add even more to all of that, Covid-19 has caused a global pandemic and the little money I did have went directly into food and health items. I managed to get a motherboard and graphics card from a friend but the card can’t even handle streaming medium quality games which has driven people away from my streams. :(
I have never in my life asked for a handout or anything else for that matter. All I hope to accomplish with this campaign is to replace some of the items stolen from me. I use to make decent money from my music but in the last couple years there has been such a huge decrease it’s hard to get by let alone afford to make music videos with a tiny budget.
I have idea’s to start my own company called Zentopia which will be everything from fashion/entertainment to flipping houses and creating natural health beverages. Sadly with bad credit and no means to get a job, that will never happen. I have done what I could and launched a Record Label and Skateboard company (Without licences as they are expensive) however there is not much money in the music industry unless you have money to promote. My music has gained me around 4 million views across platforms and I am almost at 1800 followers on twitch, 1600 youtube subs, etc.. just from using platforms like facebook to promote with no budget.
Again, I have never done anything like this before. I think I tried patreon but not even a single penny was given.
But to wrap this up

I don’t think anyone will help me, as I have reached out to all my followers and friends with little to no interest in helping me.
I just hope and pray that someone out there knows what I am going through, knows what it’s like to be petrified to walk outside, to go numb and feel like you’re dying on a daily basis.

Any and all help is not mandatory but appreciated. Even if you can’t help me financially I would love to see you drop by my streams or my social media’s. I will always lovingly respond, interact and follow back. It’s the least I can do. I Love helping people and always put others before me but I need a little love back at some point.

My info: paypal.me/SpiritScientist
@ZenStarwalker (instagram, twitch, twitter, facebook, soundcloud, youtube, etc..

Last Updated: March 21, 2020

Any help would be appreciated

Hello,

I am a young adult who has been spending the past few years without any income after being laid off of my previous job. I have been finding it difficult to find a new job given my limited skill sets, my lack of contact with people who can vouch for my skills, and until this year, didn’t have a phone number to be contacted with. While I am searching, I have been living with my family, who has been providing me with water, a meal per day, and a place to sleep. Unfortunately, taking care of me has made it more difficult for them to meet their bills, so I try to keep myself from doing much more than eating and sleeping and costing my family money.

I’m in a relatively okay spot right now, but I’m still looking for resources to help me apply to a job, and provide me with extra money so that I can afford my own little meals and other necessities that my family don’t have the money for. For example, all of my shirts and some of my pants are ripped, which would make it difficult for me to present myself when applying to a new job.

My aim is to work in a field related to computer science or work with hardware, but I haven’t been able to reach these fields as I ended up dropping out after my first year at the University of Washington, after having a deficit of high school level English credits for graduation. I have tried to gain these credits multiple times, also going to a community college to attempt to get the credits, but unfortunately continued to fail the English classes and felt the amount of money being spent on my education was being wasted on continuously failing.

I think a part of the failure was a result in me not reaching out and asking people for help. My main focuses have always been to make sure I made it to class on time and just taking the assignments. I rarely spent time at school when hours weren’t in session, and I didn’t reach out to tutors when I needed it. I stopped going to school and managed to find a job thanks to a special agency that aided me in locating one. Unfortunately, I only managed to stay there for a year as I couldn’t perform at optimal performance in comparison to the other employees.

Now I’m hoping to work on my skills with technology while I am looking for a new job, such as getting various computer parts so I could practice putting computers together and getting testing devices together to look into their functionality. I currently have a single laptop I use for a couple of games and checking E-mails, which might not be good enough for testing environments.

If at all possible, I’d like to look into doing streams as well to see if I can make anything off of that. I’ve seen many people being able to live off of streams, and having the resources to give that a shot would be incredibly helpful as well. I do have a mic and headphones for this already, so all I would really need is recording equipment to give that a shot. Though I do want to focus more on the other things before I look into this.

Overall, I want to try to improve myself and improve my chances of finding a job while I am unemployed. It would be great to let off some of the stress on my family so they can focus on themselves and I can focus on supporting me. If I end up getting any donations, these are the things I’ll likely spend it on:

Clothes – Such as Shirts, Pants, and some Underwear.
Food
Soap
Bus payments – I do not drive, but transit is very accessible. I’ll need it if I look for job opportunities.
Doctor/Dentist Appointments, if needed
A new mousepad and Mouse for my Laptop
A capture device for some of my devices
Some cheap Computer parts for testing and experimenting
A more powerful computer to help compiling times and streaming

These are the things that come to mind right now. I do want to focus on resources that can help me improve my skills, though I’m uncertain what I’d need to purchase – if anything – to help with those improvements. But at the very least having these things can help me with some of my hobbies and I may be able to find opportunities with them.

I’d appreciate any help offered, and hope everyone has a nice day.

payments can be sent here: paypal.me/ComProcessing

Last Updated: March 17, 2020

Help save my house, my father left us with nothing

My name is Iván Meza, I am currently 25 years old and I have worked with my mother since I was 13 years. Im the older son.

The business as such is around 120 years old and this step took several generations with the Marín Barrientos family. The business is known as “Pulperia” as a Costa Rican culture.
Thanks to this we managed to choose a loan to buy the business and our house, the problem lies later.

My mother went into depression because my father was cheating on her, we noticed that some clients and close friends were commenting on me and it also turned out to be true. I decided to take over the business and the family.

My father left home about 2 years ago and left us with nothing. He took all the money we were saving for our project at that time, we applied for another loan from the bank to expand the business, but with the economic situation in Costa Rica, sales fell by 60% and product prices have increased disproportionately and customers are not consuming.

Our project consisted of expanding the business, improving the infrastructure and providing employment opportunities, but we were not successful since my father took all the savings we had for the project, including the money for any emergency. Now we cannot pay the bank and they want to take everything from us, we have nowhere to go.

We asked our “family” for help but it turned out that they made fun of us … so there is no family … they say “if you want money you have to pay taxes”. But how? We don’t even have to pay our monthly payments with the bank.

My family is my mother, 2 sisters, my cat and me.

I have been looking for a job for a year and a half, but it is too long and the little I get is not enough. My sister and mother will take over the business when I find a job.

With new government-approved taxes, services became more expensive and products became disproportionately more expensive.

Our current debt is $ 160000 and the business only gives us to pay expenses like water, electricity, telephone, internet and food. Our monthly payments with the bank are around $ 1700 per month adding our expenses its around $3500 per month and we only give small payments to our debt and we only give small payments to our debt.

I do not want to see my family on the street.

Our store is located in San José, Costa Rica.

https://goo.gl/maps/4ebvmgkRmHC3QHBx8

Thanks for your support.

Atte: Iván Meza

paypal.me/gimu94

Last Updated: March 16, 2020

Trying my hardest but I’ve been thrown a curveball…..

Hello and thank you for taking a few minutes to read my story.

I went through a divorce in 2014 from my husband of 14 years. We had been raising my granddaughter since her birth in 2006 so although I took her with me to love I never denied him access to her. I understood that he was the only father she’d ever known. I love my granddaughter so much she’s a beautiful soul.

In 2015 while driving down a country road on our way to meet my ex for a weekend visit, my Grandaughter and I were chatting…she was upset that I had insisted she change clothes prior to our departure as I deemed them too short, when all the sudden she stopped talking mid conversation and I watched in horror as her whole body began to pull inward as if she were curling into a fetal position. I repeatedly shouted her name with no response on her part. I raced to the nearest ER and that was the beginning of her journey with Epilepsy.

Since my divorce I have had one romantic relationship with an old flame of mine. At first it seemed like one of those things that is just meant to be. Fate had brought us back together again and we were so happy. I moved both me and my granddaughter a few hours north and began trying to build our lives in a new location. I hadn’t taken anything from my divorce including alimony,etc…but I had money in my Vanguard I could draw on (401k) if necessary.

I found it extremely difficult to find work as my work history was not a common one and it was challenging to find jobs that fit my skill set and not knowing anyone made it almost impossible in this world of online resumes where your just another “applicant” in many. I went through my entire 401k and as I was doing so the relationship I was in deteriorated as well. It was about at this time that my granddaughter asked if she could try out living with her dad and I was grateful as it would prevent her from having to go through yet another break up in her home and it would keep her stable as I transitioned yet again.

The break up was very ugly and as a result I decided to go visit friends in Oregon for a month to let things die down before I come back and pack up my stuff to move. When I returned from my trip the home I’d been living in was boarded up and empty!! Frantic I began making calls and found out my ex had moved and all of my things were GONE….ALL OF THEM…every sentimental item,…all my furniture…all my office stuff…EVERY SINGLE THING….not to mention I was thrown into a situation of homelessness immediately.

I was in a state of emotional and mental shock at this point …but at least I had what I’d taken with me to Oregon and a little money…and my car.

My car that I’d been so grateful for because now it was my home as well as transportation….began to have issues within a week of my return from Oregon…first thing that happened was a broken transaxle. I knew it had been making noise but I hadn’t had repair money and eventually it broke. Thankfully a good semaritan I’d met in my newest endeavor offered to assist me with rides to parts store and such. They even agreed to allow me to take all my worldly belongings with me as not to leave them in my broken down car to be stolen.

Needless to say I was feeling pretty grateful to have found a nice person when I needed help more now than I ever had in my entire life. I thanked them profusely on the way to the parts store…even getting a little teary eyed as it was such a relief that someone actually cared and was being nice to me. I plugged my cell phone in to charge as I grabbed my wallet out of my purse and headed into store with promises of hurrying as not to make them wait long.

Little did I know they could’ve cared less if I hurried or not as they would not be there when I emerged from the store regardless. I was horrified as it began to sink in what had actually just happened. They had conned me…and essentially just driven off with literally everything I had in this world…down to my last pair of panties…laptop…cell phone…etc… I’M SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!

I roamed around town trying to flag down a cop and when stores opened in the am…(yes I spent a night on street with homeless population …technically I was one of them now) I began to try to explain my situation to a few store people to ask to use a phone as they called me a dirty vagrant and kicked me out of their store treating me like some pesky stray animal they were trying to scare off. I was OUTRAGED….HELLO PEOPLE I’M A VICTIM HERE…..nobody believed me or cared….

That was probably my lowest point and I’ve been digging…clawing….fighting my way up this mountain of reclaiming my life for awhile now. I’ve been hungry…cold….hot….in despair…but never gave up as my granddaughter still needs me. I draw strength knowing that no matter what I have to keep going because she needs me.

Recently….less than a week ago…my ex dropped my grandaughter at my neices house and doesn’t want her anymore. I was afraid something like this would happen someday because I had been told by no less than three different former marriage counselors independent of one another that he exhibited strong tendencies for narcissistic personality disorder. I allowed him to continue his relationship with my granddaughter because he was the only father shed known and also because it was recommended by a therapist I had my granddaughter see. It would’ve been detrimental for me to forever be the bad mom who had taken her daddy away…he had to sink or swim on his own…well he sunk but at the worst time!

I’m asking for help. I need money to get a place for me and my granddaughter. I need to buy her a bed at least. I have an interview for a position with a busy veterinary office for office manager which pays well but I need to get my granddaughter now before she is forced into the system and I need a home to take her to. I hate asking for help but I really need help right now. I dont qualify for housing help or anything really because I dont technically have her with me ….I could just really use a hand up to get me jump started. I promise to pay it forward when I get back on my feet.

Thanks for your time in reading this and for your consideration and generosity. It is much appreciated.

Last Updated: March 16, 2020

IRS Relief

My name is Paula Raymond. I am a elementary teacher in Keller, TX.
I am 64 years old and I am a single.
I am the mother of two grown children who are good citizens, one is married with two children and the other is married and also a teacher.
I have been through many trials and hardships in my life but I have always fought them and some how come out on the other side. I have been able to provide for my family through these hardships as well as for myself.
I am now facing 65 with a Teacher Retirement that will not cover my daily expenses. And I live in a state where I can not draw my Social Security or my passed husbands Social Security. This is something the state of Texas calls a Windfall and so because I am a member of the TRS for teachers, you can’t have both even though you paid both.
Ten years ago I decided to try and get an SBA to open a franchise to maybe build me a second income to continue with teaching.
Well, that was very difficult. I did it and acquired a sandwich franchise. On the day I opened my mother had a stroke. I spent most of my earnings on getting her in home medical help as her teacher’s retirement was not enough to keep help in her home due to her limited ability to help herself.
I am not complaining about my life. I hope you can understand that. I have had joy and happiness in my career. I have a small home that I love dearly. I also have two granddaughters that make my life happy. And most of all my line of work has always sustained me with a sense of accomplishment as I love to guide young people in the best direction of their dreams.
And here comes the but…but I am in debt with the IRS and it is for an accumulation of reasons
But it is time to pay the fiddler and I do not have the money. My greatest fear is losing my 1700 sq ft home. My place of security.
There are several reasons I am in this place and I would be glad to explain them to you. I do not have an alcohol or drug problem and I am in good health for my age.
I just need help. I have been to several specialists in these situations but I find I cannot afford their services.
I am lost. I have no family that can help with such a situation and I have exhausted any and all resources that I can find.
I could sell you my home as a second mortgage for the help as I do not qualify for such programs through my bank and /or mortgage programs.
Seriously, I know the chances of you seeing this email or even being told about it are almost impossible…but that’s where I am, swinging for the impossible…the dream that there may be help out there if I just ask.
If I don’t ask then my answer is inevitably the same.
I have climbed many hills and mountains in my short life and I am proud to say I have always helped others but I need help now.
To save my home and my only true personal belonging, I am asking for help and guidance.
If by any chance you should ever read or even have knowledge of this email I would just ask for your advice and guidance as I try to overcome this financial situation so that I might have a chance at retaining my home.
I know they are things that help larger and more significant problems. I understand that completely and admire it as I read about your concerns and accomplishments. I am hoping though that maybe if we met and you could see a single person, a real person trying to navigate the day to day existence of life…well maybe you could help me keep my simple life in order and give me a second chance at just regaining peace from this financial burden.
Just want to smile and laugh again,
Sincerely,
Paula Raymond

Sent from my iPhone

Last Updated: March 15, 2020

One-time support for a family

Hello Everyone,

We are young family living in Italy and my husband lost his job last year. More than a half of my basic salary goes to rent and the bills, we had good times as well and we had a lot of times without food. Luckily, we already found jobs in another country however we don’t have enough money to pay our tickets, rent, furniture, pets expenses to take him with us. We only need some support to be able to move a new better life and work together to support each other.

I honestly can’t believe that I’m writing here but I just wanted to stay faithful that something can happen. €2500 will be enough for everything we need and we are hoping to pay back by donating here for those who in need in one year.

Thank you very much for your trust and for your donation.

Sincerely,

https://paypal.me/betto8

Last Updated: March 16, 2020

Financial Help Needed

This is not something I would usually do, but it was mentioned by a few so I thought it would be no harm in trying.

I dont want to get the I feel sorry for you but I do want everyone to know my story and why I am in the situation I am in.

My name is Georgina and I am 29 years old, I didnt have the best of start in life, I ended up in care by the age of 6 due to abuse from parents, physically and sexually. I went from home to home to eventually settle down with a foster family at the age of 13. Dont get me wrong I had a great bring up in the end in care and am very grateful.

I left home to be as independent as I could early on, i had no family, no financial help, studied at college in equestrian, and then worked with the disabled for 4 years before then leaving and getting a job working in care looking after end of life patients. I have always worked, however to the start of my life living on my own was very hard financially and got myself in a lot of dept.

3 years ago I got married to the love of my life, however this was a situation where unfortunately that I fell in love with someone that was already in financial crisis themselves, I took a loan out in my own name to pay for the wedding and to help with my husbands to be financial crisis, I was to nice, and then a few months later we found out i was expecting our first child, during my pregnancy we had to find a house to rent of our own, so we ended up getting another large loan out to help with rent for a while and the new baby once he was here, but now its hit us, i could only take 11 weeks off on maternity as my worked oy payed Stat pay so I couldn’t afford the full leave, again here we suffered and didnt get that family time like we should have. My son is now 2 years old, we are a very happy family however financially we are in crisis.

I have also been recently been diagnosed with a condition called fibromyalgia, But i still have to work 8 night straight 12 hours nights then 5 off, either me or my husband are working every single night of the year and we never have any family time, I am really struggling with my health and need to cut down my hours but I simply cant because of this large loan we have to pay for the next 7 years. We also wish to have another baby before my condition worsens, but I just cant see an end, I dont know how to cope.

Will I ever leave a legacy for my children when we are not around because of the dept, I literally feel like what everyone says foster children always turn out just like there parents, I never wished for my son to be brought up in a financial struggle that we are in, I feel like a failure, we try so hard, we have always worked but it’s such a struggle. I do not wish to not work, but I just wish to clear some of our debts which is totaled at over 24000, just so that we can have that little bit extra a month to do less hours, be a family and enjoy life.

Thank you for listening, any more questions just ask. I cant believe it had come to begging.

https://www.paypal.me/georgienic90

Last Updated: March 14, 2020

Need freedom and go finally “home”

Hello dear someone, it’s difficult to start but as many people here I think I am stuck and totally depressed.

My life story is not all sun and flowers. I am middle child of three, father left us when I was 4. years old. Thanks to god or someone else that this happened. He was heavy drinker and very violet person. He was destroying everything around him and even us. As I said I am middle child I have 1 year older sister and 5 years younger brother. We were living on farm of my grandparents (grandpa died when I was 4 with leukemia) so we stayed there my mom, her mom my grandma and my aunt and of course my evil father. I don’t know what was the reason but he was very violet specially to me, it’s very difficult to say but I will mention just few things what he was doing…. one morning that as every working day my mom woke me and my sister to get dressed around 5am as she and my sister opened the door of the room the window throw one flower on floor my father wake up still drunk he started to get aggressive I was so afraid of him to get bitten that I pee in my bed, he saw me and yes this was even worse… One day he come home, after few days of drinking I had a fewer because my ears were in pain, he told me that it’s because my ears are dirty, he started to clean my ears so blood come out… I was so scared of him I was hiding most of the time… he was also threatening to my mom all the time when she tried to protect me, even with a knife on her neck.
all of this and many other things were happening during my childhood. Then finally war comes and he decided to live is and go in Bosnia. At the same time my mom discovered that she is pregnant with my brother but at home everything was already too late. Grandma decided to literally throw my mom with her three children out.

My mom took us in the best place as she could. Place had a roof and beds for us. We were frizzing all the winter. Me and my sister were really small but we support her as much as we could, brother was a little baby at that time.

Soon we had to go to school it was still even more difficult to survive. We were every time it was possible try to get some extra money. When others were on vacations we need to work. We went to work on farm helping to pick up the vegetable and do different work on fields.
I didn’t know how sea looks like till the day mom took us for one day on the sea side. It was magical I had 9 years.
I finished school, get a job, and I can say I am healthy, but as the years are passing, I still cannot see a bright future that I could have the opportunity to have something that I want the most my own home.
I am trying my best to save some money but anyway my wish seems to be so far away. Even if I would wanted to take a morgue I cannot, salary is too small, risks are too big to lose everything even the things I don’t even imagine I could have, I don’t have anyone to ask for help.
This is the reason I decided to share my story. I am desperate to start a new life my life with my own home. For my home I would need around 140.000€.
I know I’m a good person and I would like to feel safe and free, I just need help. If there is someone who can help me.

I have hope and believing that also I have a chance for being happy and that there somewhere is someone who make my wish come true.

Thank you for reading.

With open heart love you all.

Get out from underneath

Hello,
I am a hard-working busy mother of 3 like many others out there. I have come a long way in the last 10 years. I am married. I have gone through school from an Associate degree to completing a Doctorate degree while having 3 kids and dealing with my husband being deployed on 3 occasions for 1 year at a time. I had my oldest at the age of 21 and did not want that to stop me from achieving my goals. Honestly, I make good money now but during those years, I did not make great choices to get where I am at I now and have debt. I pay that debt on time every month, but I am strapped. It causes issues in my marriage and causes me a lot of stress. I want some freedom from all the issues that I have ultimately brought on myself without taking out another loan.
I know many people are in my situation. I am not more special than others asking for help. I work in health care taking care of patients with terminal illness. My husband is a solider we have been married for 15 years. I fear that this ongoing situation I am in is going to have a negative impact on us and I don’t know what else to do except be honest and ask for help.
I have had my ups and downs like anyone else. I have no excuses except those years were hard and I have had to learn the hard way about consequences. I was trying to raise kids while dealing with multiple deployments and keep going to school. It was challenging, emotional and I felt like I was still growing up myself.
My debt is credit card debt and a high interest loan from my past. I am on time with my payments but it’s hard because I did not care about interest rates at that time of my life. I have been learned so much and have woke up and committed to making better decision in the last 3-5 years for my family and I moving forward. Everyone has a story and while I am grateful mine is not worse It would feel great to get out from underneath this dark cloud. Please consider helping normal person climb out of a deep hole, I will eventually pay it forward in some way. Thank You for considering.

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Last Updated: March 12, 2020

Debt relief and life restart.

My brother and I have an amazing bond. Of course, we have known each other for our whole lives. We never fight about anything, we get through every situation together, we always had each others backs. I could go on about our history but it would take months. The memes we have stem from absolutely every game/show we’ve ever played/watched. It’s like I can’t do something without thinking about something stupid we have done. It wasn’t until 2 years ago when that changed. He was doing better being split up with his ex wife. I mainly moved in with him to help my parents out and my niece/his daughter. It was a hard situation for all of us, but it gave me the chance to finally move out of my parents place. While living with him I was able to get a better job to get more money. Things were fine without the extra money, but of course more is better. Eventually not only did his ex still haunt him and annoy him every message she could, things changed at his job at tmobile. It became a major toxic place to work and everyone started quitting, but he stayed for the health insurance for his daughter. This was one of the main causes of his depression. That being stacked with his ex being an increadibly toxic person, he fell into a deep state of depression. He had something with work where he didn’t go to work and wasn’t getting paid, but could still keep the job as in he still had his benefits until he felt better enough to go back. He did get better for a few months and started working again, which was right when we renewed our lease. Unfortunately, his depression really came back strong and he stopped working for pretty much a year. I wasn’t making enough money so I had to use my emergency credit cards to keep up with rent. What was making it worst was he would say he was going back to work to pay me back, but never really did. I was also helping him with his child support money which he kept saying he was getting money within the week to pay me back, but again it never happened. He started lying to me all the time about having the money to pay me back, but of course I always believed him because he was my best friend. When he was let go from t mobile and still wasn’t looking for a job, that’s when I finally kicked him out. To cut this story shorter, my brother had a great chance to get his life back on track with a post office job, but after suddenly quiting and still not looking for another job, it’s time to let go. I don’t see myself being worth anything to him anymore and it’s devastating. I hate that life has forced him into this and I want to still help him recover, but it’s not happening anymore. The person I can be most comfortable with for my entire life is no longer here. My cousins always wanted the both us to be around because of how we are together. That’s pretty much how we are known. Now my other half is lost and I can’t find my way forward sometimes. My mom doesn’t want to see us be on bad terms either. I don’t want to have to break her heart, but I need to be free of what has become a toxic relationship. That brings this story to today. My brother has put me in about $10,673 worth of credit card debt split between 3 cards. He owes me way more than this with the child support I paid for and my savings account emptied, but right now I just want to be debt free. The way things have been going, I’ve only been able to pay the minimum payments each month which add up to about $200 a month. Interest on the cards is high so it seams like it will be 10 or more years till I’m debt free. I recently got promoted at work, but only a 50 cent raise came with it and my rent is about to go up significantly when my lease renews in a few months. Scrounging the best I can, this debt is severely hindering my future. I don’t even think putting this up will help, but I’m desperate. Anything helps and god bless anyone that donates. It means everything to me. Thank you.

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Last Updated: March 12, 2020

I need to see my Family

It has been a really though year and it is only the 3rd month of 2020.
My name is Andreina and I am a 23 year old female student. Last year was one of the tough years for me because a lot happen in such a short amount of time. I moved to Canada in 2018 from Curacao to Study and get a degree. I was a big change but I knew that I was working toward my dream. I felt home sick a lot especially because I am alone and I do not have any family members here. College is going great and I have a 4.0 GPA. I also work part time to pay my bills but it is hard. Because, I go to college 5 times a week and work 3 days a week so I basically busy to whole week. But that does not take my mind of everything that has happening and how it is affection me. During the month of April, I found out that my mother had Lupus. Lupus is a long-term autoimmune disease in which the body’s immune system becomes hyperactive and attacks normal, healthy tissue. Since that day a lot has change and I was very worried because I do not want anything to happen to hear. She has to go to the doctor a lot and takes a lot of medication. She is doing good but someday she does not feel well and she is in a lot of pain. I pray everyday that good can watch over her and her health. the 2nd incident happened in July. I got a call from my older sister telling me that my younger brother had a stroke and he went in comma. That affect me a lot especially because I was not there. He got worse and a part of his braid died. At this moment the doctors knew that he would not make it so told us start saying our goodbyes. I was not there and that was very hard for me because I wanted to be there. My father was waiting on his paycheck to buy me a ticket. He past the day that I got my ticket so I did not got a chance to say goodbye. I was literally flying the back home the next day and I told him to wait for me but he didn’t make it. I know that I did not process that properly because I do not like thinking about that because I think it is really unfair. he was only 19 and full of life. My life kept taking turns and the 3rd incident happen in October/November. This one is more personal and I can not talk about it. All of this added up. I went home for the Holiday in December and I had the best time ever. Since I came back a lot has change. I notice that I am more depressed than usual and I think that my depression is kicking back in. I am scared because I get a lot of strange thoughts and a rollercoaster of emotion when I am going through it.
I am scared that something might happened and I do not have the courage to tell my family what is happening cause my mom is already sick and we have been through a lot.
The reason for this letter is to ask for financial help so that I can go home for at least 2 days so I can hug, talk a be in the company of my family. I know that there are more request that may be more urgent that mine but I really need to go home. I do not want this depression to get the best of me.
I will finish college in April and My parent are saving up to come in June for my graduation. right now, I am not financially stable especially because all of the money that I earn working goes toward rent, transportation and food. Please help me out so that I can go home for at least 2 to 3 days. I will either miss a few days of college or work but I know that it all will be worth it.
I am asking for 1000 Canadian Dollars or 800 us Dollars that includes the roundtrip plane ticket from Toronto Pearson Airport to Curacao Int. Hato and also some money so that I can rent a car a drive home from the airport. I am just asking for enough money to pay my trip and transportation. I will try and take care of anything else that I need. I hope that I wrote enough info and I hope that I can get help as soon as possible because, I am not willing to let my depression get the best of me.
Thank you so much for trying to help me and all the other people that you might have help.
Andreina
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