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plz help me buy my antidepressants

 

Hello there, I suffer from anxiety and clinical depression since 2011. I make 500$ a month which hardly cover rent and bills. I just need some to pay for my medical expenses(antidepressant and doctor visits) which I cant afford and I struggle so much without them unfortunately. they cost exactly: 479 $ a month. which is almost my entire income. so, I have 2 choices either I spend my monthly income to cover my medical bills and live on the street or pay my rent and bills and stay without medical support which is very hard to handle with my severe anxiety and depression. I hope someone can help me out.

I just want to have enough money to pay for the basic stuff in my life but its really as a student with depression the next semester is my final semester from college then I will hopefully graduate. but I cant focus in my studies without having my basic needs as a human being. thats why I need your help. I want to beat my depression and succeed in life but its extremely difficult in my circumstances

If I have my basic needs then I will be able to focus on my studies but without my antidepressant its super hard to study. I hope none of you suffer from it. and I won’t wish it to my worst enemy.

life is painful with depression. I don’t have any social life or friends. the things I use to enjoy doing I no longer do. sometimes I wish I was never born and think of some dark things. I wish if someone would donate 2k-3k and I’ll be relieved from having to find money to pay for my treatments and can concentrate on my studies only next semester and graduate.

If I get the proper support I really feel like I can beat this thing or at least make it better. Depression is different from any other disease, most diseases when u get them you are afraid to die but when you get depression u wish that you die so you don’t feel the indescribable pain you suffer from.

I hope some kind hearted people can sympathize with my situation and help me out.

depression has paralysed my life completely it makes the easiest things you do the hardest things for someone with depression. no one can understand the pain that I go throw on daily basis. my days are the same, the only difference is the scale of depression that I have that day some days are worst than other and some days are better. but even at my my best days I still feel depressed and want to do nothing but lay on my bed.

I feel like my life has stopped since I got it. I don’t feel my self growing or maturing at a personal level because you got to have experiences in life to grow and mature but I got no experiences since Im always avoiding socializing and always alone and never go out of my home unless I have to.

I hope you can help me out and hopefully one day I’ll be the one who helps people out

https://paypal.me/helpmetreatmydepprsi

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Seeking Financial Aid, Recently Divorced and Orphaned Single Mother of Four Beautiful Bright Children. Please Help <3

hi :) I am a recently divorced, single mother, as well as recently orphaned by both my parents deaths. I had a terrible miscarriage right before the divorce and was alone in hospital to deal with it alone. I am deeply still processing the grief brought on by the four events.

I have four beautiful intelligent children, two in primary school and two in highschool. They are what has kept me alive and given me hope to keep striving. I wouldn’t be alive today if it wasn’t for their existence on this planet. They are my heartbeat!! I love them with all my heart and soul.

I was married for 18yrs.  Mentally abused and gaslighted. Manipulated into believing i was mentally ill by my ex as a way for him to cover up his multiple affairs with other other men throughout the marriage.
My mother passed away before the divorce from sudden death where as my father passed away after the divorce, due to his cancer coming back in the brain. Be them both together in bright warm light.
I was a stay at home mom for 15yrs and started working my first job two years ago. I have been struggling to hold on to a job because of post traumatic stress as well as high anxiety. I am still learning how to be independent and mentally strong again. It has a been a slow progress but progress nonetheless.
As i have four children to care for, I must keep financial stability while trying to get back on my feet. It has been a huge emotional and mental struggle but I feel I have made progress.
I recently became unemployed due to the Covid-19 pandemic. I now have to go home to my parents house and start clearing everything out and do it alone as my children are currently staying with their father, due to my financial situation. My family has also migrated back to the USA, leaving me alone here in Malaysia.
I am broke. I have no income or financial aid. I am greatly worried and concerned for the future of the children and mine.
I would deeply appreciate some financial help from anyone who is willing to help me get back on my feet and gain the confidence and mental strength to repair and clear out my late parents home. From there I plan to rent out the house so I have passive income. I can then rent a small apartment and my kids can come live with me again. Please, help me.
I feel lost and hopeless and in a state of panic because of my situation and not being able to be with my children. Everything i do or achieve feels pointless when I cannot have my children under the same roof as me.
Any financial help you can provide  me will be deeply appreciated and paid forward when I am able to reach my goal of passive income from renting my late parents home.
Thank you for your time reading about me, this was very hard for me to do but I just dont know what to do anymore. I hope someone out there can help me. Please take care of yourselves and keep safe.
PayPal.Me/aznahmoen

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Start afresh

Hi to all kind souls who’re reading this,

Without being told, we know this site is about helping people financially.

To be very honest, I have a job, and I’ve been working 7 days a week, except public holidays where work place is closed. Problem is, I don’t earn enough.

Family debt has been part of my life since before I was born. After my parents passed on, nothing was inherited except for the snowballing debts. Only then I realised, I’ve a long way to go.

I’ve decreased an almost 100 thousand dollars debt to below 10 thousand dollars now. The sun seems to shine bright again, yay! But there’s a new issue, I’ve no money to pay for house deposit.

Getting a house of my own has always been my dream. However all these years, all the money has gone to clearing debts.

Housing cost here in my country is sky high. I’m not poor enough to get subsidised housing type, neither am I rich enough to get a house.

“Just rent a place!” Some said to me. I’ve been renting my whole life, and have moved 11 times because rented place is never permanent. I’m hoping the 12th time moving will be my final move. I’ve waited too long, and would really want to get a house this year.

A moderate house here cost about 400 thousand dollars, deposit will be 100 thousand dollars, which makes me at my wits end. Been living paycheck to paycheck, and I’m not getting younger, who knows how long more I can work non-stop like always?

100 thousand dollars is a lot of money, hence I’ve no choice but to seek help online.

But please, help only if you really have extra cash to spare. I can fully understand that urge to help someone even if you have only 2 dollars in your pocket, but don’t put yourself in a difficult position to help others.

Thank you for your time.

https://www.paypal.me/letlifebegreatagain

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CRISIS INTO A PANDEMIC CROSSED OUR LIVES.

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My name is Saodat Khalmirzaeva. I own a small advertising business, am single mother of three children (6 years old. 8 years old and 13 years old.)

A year ago, a black streak began, there was a lull in business, in attempts to shake up borrowed money, took loans from individuals, at rather high interest rates, gave it back, then borrowed again.
It seems that at first I got out a little and began to develop and took a more serious amount in debt, and during the pandemic, the business sank completely, with the cargo under which the debt was taken, they cheated. After that, I was ill, but I continued to work to improve the situation, but now the General situation on the market does not allow me to do large projects, because such projects were lost due to the pandemic, and creditors can no longer tolerate it, and I found myself in a very difficult situation.
i’m afraid for myself and my children because I get threats. As a result, to date, debts have accumulated by $ 500,000.

I am not a fraudster, you can check my page here on the site https://www.linkedin.com/in/sao-khalmirzaeva-63862749/ . I’m just a person who is in a difficult situation, and already out of desperation looking for help wherever possible.
I’m not stupid, my business has been generating revenue for 3 years, and I can still get up and get back on my feet, but now the pressure that is going on does not allow me to gather my strength.
I asked for help in many places, but I didn’t find it. There is little hope that You will pay attention to me, but perhaps a miracle will happen and you will agree to help me.
No matter how small it is, please donate it, it will help

paypal.me/saodat55

Best regards,

Saodat

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NEED YOU HELP IN DIFFICULT SITUATION – LAST HOPE

I own a small advertising business, single mother of three children (6 years old. 8 years old and 13 years old.)

A year ago, a black streak began, there was a lull in business, in attempts to shake up borrowed money, took loans from individuals, at rather high interest rates, gave it back, then borrowed again.

It seems that at first I got out a little and began to develop and took a more serious amount in debt, and during the pandemic, the business sank completely, with the cargo under which the debt was taken, they cheated. After that, I was ill, but I continued to work to improve the situation, but now the General situation on the market does not allow me to do large projects, because such projects were lost due to the pandemic, and creditors can no longer tolerate it, and I found myself in a very difficult situation.

I’m always in fear for myself and my children because I get threats. As a result, to date, debts have accumulated by $ 500,000.

I asked for help in many places, but I didn’t find it. There is little hope that You will pay attention to me, but perhaps a miracle will happen and you will agree to help me.

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Want Her to Smile Longer

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Just had a word with the doctor and he said she won’t have much time left to live. Those words. Damn you pulmonary embolism, f*** you blood clots.

I was chatting with her just a moment ago. She said “take a picture of me, the sunrays are beckoning”. I took a photo of her, hoping is a memory I can keep even after I lose her, to keep me strong. But her smile, her gaze towards the brightly lit windows. It seems that she knows.

I don’t have much to spare now after selling my car and prized valuables. So much to pay for and I can’t bear to let you go. Now the hospital bills are stacking up, $136,800 in total… F***ING SH*”

I wana spend more time with you Hazel Lee, please don’t go.

Any kind soul, please, just help with what you can. I will be utterly grateful.

https://paypal.me/aiyeo

Thank you and God Bless You.

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Help Our Family to Live Together

Dear Sir/ Madam.

I am sorry to approaching you this way but thank you very much for the kindness to read my letter.

My Name is Chaminda Janaka, my home country is Sri Lanka and currently, I’m in the UAE. I have three kids and currently my wife, my mother, and kids live in Sri Lanka.

I was a businessman and I owned a Motorcycle Sales, Service, and Spare part shop and I performed well. Before three years ago I put an advertisement in a newspaper to recruit an employee to work in my workshop and that destroyed my entire carrier. After seen this advertisement on of the gangsters called me and asked some money to pay him and if I am unable to pay that he said he will kill me. Most good businessmen perform well most of the time face this kind of situation in our country. As requested by him I gave that money to him and did not inform the police as per his orders.

After a few months again he contacted me and asked for more money. It was a big amount and I was unable to pay that amount. After that, he started to threaten me and tried to kill me several times.

Finally, I stopped my all business, relocated my family in a safe place and came to the UAE in March 2018.

That time the job market was down in the UAE and I was unable to find a job for a few months. Finally, I joined an Advertising Company in Dubai as a Storekeeper and due to the crisis they also unable to pay us properly.

Now I work as a restaurant supervisor in a small restaurant and due to the Covid-19, I did not receive our salaries for the last five months.

I started my business by mortgaging my house to the bank. Due to the situations, I faced in the last few years I was unable to pay loan installments to the bank. Now they going to auction my house.

I need to overcome this situation somehow to save my house and live together with the family rest of my life. Any help you can extend to me can make a huge difference for me and my family.

Thank you very much for your kindness.

This is my Paypal Link: paypal.me/gettogetherall

Sincerely

Chaminda

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GIVING MYSELF A THIRD CHANCE

Hello Everyone, I’m a 19 year old girl who is tired of living. Sorry about my English as it is not my first language. I know this sounds like an excuse but It’s not. Let me tell you how this all started. I just turned 15 when my life went downhill. My head was filled with suicidal thoughts and I was just so scared of death. I thought my life turned into rainbows and unicorns when I was sixteen but no, at my birthday I locked myself in the bathroom and stared at the running water in the bathtub, wanting to drown myself but my thoughts about my future stopped me. What will my kids look like? How would my husband treat me? Will I be happy? Will I get a good job? That was the questions in my head that time so I stood up and fought my desire to die for the second time.

 

I went to Japan when I was Seventeen. I admit, I was so happy. I got a job, I went to school at night time but after a few months, even though I worked and went to school, I could not buy what I wanted. Even though I got paid. My mother is a nice lady to everyone’s eyes. My two younger siblings are very much adored by everyone. I was jealous. Since I am a minor, I could not hold the money I earned. It all went in my mother’s pockets.

 

I was okay with it at first because she’s my mom. She is the reason why I’m in this world. My younger siblings got all the things they wanted and needed, expensive goods, delicious foods.. compliments and love from people around them, especially the woman who gave life to them.

 

While me? working my ass off and receives a question. “How much is your salary this month?”, “Why do you have to buy such expensive phone? Do you know how much that costs monthly?”, “I don’t have enough money for the rent and bills.”. It’s funny right? I’m also her daughter, why can’t she treat me the same?

 

I was in 2nd year highschool (age 18) when I finally attempted to end my life. no more questions and just went through it. In my school’s comfort room, I picked up a cleaning liquid and drank it but one of my friends entered the CR just a few minutes after I drank the liquid. My throat was burning and I could not hear well but I saw the look on face. She was horrified and she looked at me with pity. I hated that.

 

I don’t like it when people pities me, It just pains me even more. It made me feel so worthless. I got rushed into the hospital and my mother went in my room with a blank face. She asked me why I did it and why I had to cause trouble in school, saying how much the hospital bills would cost and what to do with my job. I was so stupid to think that she was worried that time.

 

The second time I tried to kill myself was this year. Just after my birthday. June 16, 2020. I bought sleeping pills in a pharmacy. Even though the pharmacist told me that it would give me headache if I drink two tabs in one day I ignored it because I was planning to die for real anyways. no one could save me if I die in my sleep.

 

like every other people, I want to graduate, have my own car, build my own house, have a beautiful and loving family, learn everything I want to learn but this hole in my heart just keeps preventing me from dreaming.

 

I took all the tablets and went to bed that day but I still woke up on June 18th, 2020 around 3 pm. There were calls and messages from my work, asking why I did not get their permission for taking a day off. No messages about my well being. My mom who lives with me did not even notice I was asleep for two three days and two nights.

 

I want to give myself a third chance and maybe give myself hope. I don’t want to work to give the wants of my younger siblings. I think I already gave them enough but i’m tied up. I can’t do anything since my mother got her fingers around my neck like a dog chain.

 

From the country I was born and raised, Age does not matter. Mothers are always right. I want to believe that GOD wants me to live a little longer but I don’t know…Giving up is the only thing I’m good at.

 

I know this is shameless but please help me. I don’t want only money but also advice. I tried looking for a sugar daddy, hoping he could take me with him to another country and just escape from here but the thought of selling my body horrifies me. I want to be spoiled too like my sisters who got it all.

 

Sincerely, A girl who’s hopeless.

Paypal.me/manoroncejomoc

 

 

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New phone for soldier

Hello, so I am currently in Korea quarantining. South Korea is my duty station, I arrived in South Korea 3 days ago I’m in the army. On my way to here I completely destroyed phone. It’s a purple iPhone 11. Yes my phone had a couple minor cracks here and there but while traveling my phone had enough drops to be on the edge of its funeral. The back has cracks and the front of the screen is completely shattered… like there’s portions where there is no glass on the screen. And it also has random blacks splotches that don’t allow anything to be seen. Aside from this the phone is non stop glitching the screen shows three different things at the same time. Like I’m viewing three different apps. Overlapping or taking up different portions of the screen and it shakes. The bottom quarter of the screen also shows the top half upside down. There are also green lines going both vertical and horizontal along with grey and white lines. As you may have gathered my phone is broke. And being in the army anything less than an nco you don’t make anything. I’m broke and would like to communicate with my family to keep sane during my time here in quarantine and currently that’s impossible any money would help truly I greatly appreciate it I’m advance. Again this is so I can communicate with my family. I have never lived away from home and because pf corona virus I haven’t been able to see my family since December and my phone was the only thing that allowed me to communicate with other them. Please help me stay in contact with them. All I want is enough money to buy the phone I had. I want to emphasize I didn’t drop my phone on purpose but I had 3 big luggage’s to haul around and a back pack and that definitely didn’t make it easy when I was asked to show something and things would start falling out of my pockets. Make this be your act of kindness doing so would make me eternally grateful I can’t imagine not being in contact with them for 14 days. Adjusting to being in a Different continent is hard enough and not being able to say goodbye to loved ones only makes it harder. My phone was the only thing keeping me sane during this time and I know it’s going to crash soon everyday it gets worse like it loses sense of touch or won’t turn off I just want to address the issue before it gets worse. Also here’s a picture of what I saw on my seat since I can’t take a picture of phone.

Paypal paypal.me/TrejoKaren

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A Struggling Low Income Immigrant College Student with a Mental Health Problem.

A little bit about myself and my background story.

I’m an art student from Taiwan, gonna graduate next year soon, but I really have a very critical economical issues ever since I moved to Taiwan around 9 to 10 years ago. It was never any of my intentions or my will to move here, I was basically forced to move here because my dad were used to be a drug dealer who’s been wanted by the police back then at Indonesia, he was very abusive and problematic especially towards my mom, he often took my mom’s money without her permission,she worked 3 jobs and all of the money just like that GONE, because my dad always took them and from my judgement, he used the money to buy drugs, it was not a safe place for us back then, the last 2 weeks before we moved here, it was the last time when my mom finally decided she had enough of these abuse, after my dad left again at night right after the huge fight happened between them, my mom immediately took me to ran away from home and had to sleep over at different places of my mom’s few friend’s house because my dad literally tracked us down not wanting us to leave. It was a tough 2 weeks until finally my aunt from Taiwan sent us the plane ticket and we left first thing on the morning.

School Bullying and the Start of My Mental Health Problem.

I was raised not only with 1 languages but 3, Indonesian, English, and Chinese. When I first came to Taiwan, even though I can understand almost most of the conversation in Chinese, but I wasn’t as fluent as I am now back then, when I first came here, I was already two weeks late from the learning the basic Chinese, but luckily I was able keep up with the lessons and my speaking skill still decent, I struggle a lot because I had to adapt with new environment while facing bullying problem for about a year, I’m very introverted person, rarely ever talk, the only thing I had that time is my passion for drawing.

School fees were still affordable at that time because school gave us low income financial help, it wasn’t actually allowed because we don’t have Taiwan Residents ID. When you don’t have Taiwan Residents ID, you had to pay full for the school fees which is very expensive, me and my mom barely could pay for the fees, I was lucky I could even still studying at college right now.

Now back to when to the day I first studied at High school. I was finally able to study art here, at that time I didn’t even know mental health was a thing because my family strongly against people with mental health and they accused those people is just “crazy”. I knew I had problems but I never told anyone because I was too embarrassed about it, I’ve always been suicidal since I was 11, I thought it was normal to have that kind of thoughts until I was tired of it, my art teacher noticed it and told me to go to seek a professional help, I went to my first therapist session at 16, I didn’t tell anyone about it other than my teacher, apparently I suffer from MDD and needed to constantly seeing my therapist. I spent almost all of my savings to treat my mental health, when I graduated from high school, I barely had any money left but I still need to continue studying at college in order to stay at Taiwan.

 

Financial problem and Dark Times.

Since my drawing is decent, I started to open for commissions when I graduated from high school to get some money, It doesn’t worked out well since I’m small artist and I don’t have much followers, but I still do what I do, my mental health problem has gotten a lot better but not for long, I’m 22 now, still on med and often had to go back to my therapist, it’s getting more and more expensive and I could barely even pay for my treatment and my college tuition, my mom were still in huge debt because her work here right now is not enough to support all of our needs, we are in total debt of around 80.000 NTD (which is around 2700 USD), school tuition for the next semester is coming up soon which we had to pay around 50.000 NTD, we don’t have that kind of money to pay it all, I’m graduating next year but I’m afraid if we can’t pay it, I’m not being able to graduate next year or worst, huge possibility to be send back to Indonesia which isn’t very safe right now, and we don’t have place to live there. I’m in very much in need right now and I’m terrified to look on to the future, I had never enjoy my own life in peace, non-stop bills kept coming it and we worked almost all of our time out but never get to clear our debt and we almost ran out of money.

 

Asking for help.

Please, help us to pay for our debt or at least pay for my college tuition for next semester. Now I myself as an artist, I actually also offered you to visit my store website, I sell one of my newest art there that can be printed out as a shirt, hoodie, tapestry, etc, I don’t want to just asking for money, if I can somehow pay back for your support, buying my merch would probably be the best way to get something back from supporting me. But if you were also very genuinely wanted me to pay for my debt or my school tuition without wanting something back, it is very appreciated and I thank you from the deepest part of my heart.

Thank you for your time to read, I’ll leave my website store link below where you can buy my art design and support me there.

https://www.teepublic.com/t-shirt/12049475-high-as-fuck?store_id=416058

 

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I need urgent help

Hi. This is the first time in my life I ask for charity. I didn’t imagine I will reach that point. I don’t know what to do. I lost my job. I have big debt credit cards and checks. I sold everything I have. I may go to prison. I have one baby and don’t even have money to bring basic needs. I’m choking. Lost any hope. No one I can go to. I didn’t ask for charity in my life but things changed. Now I don’t even have money to take my baby to the doctor. Please help me. I just need get off loans (and checks) so I don’t go to prison. I hope I can stand on my feet again and support my family. My baby and my wife is all I’m thinking of
Thank you

paypal.me/eme287

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Money for school

Hi im 18 this year and my parents arent doing too well.. i need some assistance with alittle money for food and transport.. any type of donation is welcomed :) please try to help as i’ve been working part time and i do not have enough time to make enough to support myself.. thank you for your time

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Help mother with operation

My name is Hertzel, I live in Israel. I just wanted to ” get out of the darkness” and share this with you… I know its not good begging/asking/etc.. but i am really in a mess… I live with my mother alone (no sisters or brothers and mother not working because of health problems..) I try to stay positive most of the time , but it is hard with all of this covid-19 thing.. i was helping my mother a lot with food/bills/rent and also paid my stuff too. But now I’m already 3 months at home, no work because of the covid-19, i dont get any money for anything, and I cant do anything to change things… Also i do not tell my friends about my problems, because they have to deal with their life as well like their parents, sisters and brothers and some of them have babies.. Right now im the one in need, my mother is at the hospital and have to deal with 3 operations to try and improve her health… The operation price isnt low and the medicines i will have to buy afterwards is pricey as well… that’s ehy im here writing down my story to try and get some fast help…

 

My paypal account is :

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Help needed to repay loan for University fees

Dear Sir/ Madam,

I would like to thank you for taking the time to read my message in advance. I greatly appreciate it very much. I am writing to you because I believe that you can help me.

I am Lincoln Ng, a 23 year old student who is currently studying in Nanyang Technological University (NTU) in Singapore. I started a delivery business to deliver food to students within NTU every night to earn my pocket money for my University’s fees and expenses.

However, I have lost this source of income due to Covid 19 where all of us were forced to move out of NTU Halls. This has caused me to be facing difficulties to pay my fees.

I am really ashamed of the bad decisions I made due to this situation and greatly regret my actions. However, there is nothing I could do now to turn back time. As I am unable to get any jobs, to make up for the amount that I need, I went to play online Poker. This was the worst decision of my life which resulted me in falling short a larger amount that I originally needed.

I have stopped playing and thinking of chasing loss since then. I am determined to earn the money back the right way as soon as I am given the opportunity. I promised myself never to touch any forms of gambling again because this really screwed me over very badly. The amount I earned through months of hard-work that is supposed to pay my fees just vanished in minutes.

I knew I was wrong and I plan to influence and share my experience with others to ensure that they do not fall into the same path as myself. I am very fortunate that I stopped at S$5,000 (the amount that was supposed to be used to pay my university tuition fees) and did not end up in any debts.

I plan to help people get out of the vicious cycle of chasing loss and borrowing money to gamble resulting in debts. I understand the addiction that people are facing. One of them is being unable to accept the fact that the money is lost. After all these, I realised the only thing to do is to move on and not go deeper.

I would share my story (printed out and attached) with the food that I am delivering in NTU when the starting next Semester. I will set up a group beyond my current delivery group to help people who face similar situations like myself. I will also take up any opportunities where I can do public speaking about gambling problems to the masses as well.

I really hope you could kindly help me pull through these difficulties that was self inflicted by myself with any amount you are comfortable with. I would be willing to do any form of work/ job from home (due to lockdown) if you have any to make a living the honest way. I promise to do my utmost to give back to the society to help people who face similar problems as myself in future.

I truly and deeply regretted my actions and hope that you would give me a helping hand. I ensure that I will not repeat my mistakes again after this painful lesson and look forward to hearing from you.

Feel free to contact me at my email below if you need any form of verifications or clarifications. Thank you very much once again.

Best regards,

Lincoln

paypal.me/lincolnng

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Wish to by my own two-room apartment for 100,000$

Hello stranger!

Hope you feel good! Just listen my story and then decide should you help me or not. My story begins at early 89’s, when I was born in racist country called Kazakhstan. Almost every day of my fucking life I was raped by Kazakhs, just because I have no this Mongol face and eyes. I have European face. No, I am not a racist, I even neutral to gay, transgender and other “freaks”. However, why me? Every day I ask myself, and find no answer to this question. Nowadays nothing belongs to me. I have no car, no home, nothing! All I have is some little money in my pockets and a huge dream. To buy an apartment to myself. It costs 100000$. Yes it sound like too much. However, all I want is a place where I will feel myself safe and calm. I do not want a house for 1 million dollars; I do not need 300k dollar apartment, I am here telling truth for you like a baby before its mother. Now I live with my parent, yes it is true. However, if you think I do not work to get my American dream you false. Now I work in two good companies as a programmer and even this not getting me close to my dream. Every day I work for 18-20 hours, and at that short time, I sleep a wake up in a sweat of horror because to get my dream I need to work like a slave next five years. I even wrote a poetry in one of these sleepless nights.

When you swim in the light of the sun,

I cry at night,

When you have with your friends too much fun

I sit alone in a dark side

Nobody needs me, no one tell me even a word

Sometimes I feel like I am alone in this fuck’n world

When you feel you are a human

I feel like I am a sheep

with no rights and no future except

to be shoot somewhere in deep

I am very rich inside but very pour outside

Do not come pass by Please give a home sweet home tonight.

I will happy to any help that you can to do for me! All my life is a revolution. Every day I fight for my rights, for my place in this world. And if sometime I open my eyes in my own apartment that costs only 100000$ It will change everything! It could even change all my life forever! Now I have 20k$ and I need 80$. If you can please help. For me money are just a way to the dream. Just one dollar from million people can make a human millionaire overnight!

Here links to my dream apartment. Links to the same type of apartment.

https://krisha.kz/a/show/57649361

https://krisha.kz/a/show/57411033

You can send money to paypal. https://paypal.me/MYENBAKHTOV