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I don’t hope anyone can help! but i will tell you my life story!

So i have 26years! in my childhood my parents stand out and i raised with my grandparents! they mean me a lot, they are like my real parents! they always gave me all i ask them! the worked all life hard and every day with no holidays, only 1day a week they get a rest! now they have 86years! 9 years ago they revealed parkinson’s disease to my grandfather, and now he is not in good situation ! nobody know how hard it is to live with that! but my grandmother help him how she can! i just want to say that i love them and i want help with money, they live with 400eur a month, they have hard times now! i started live alone from 19years! i have a wife and daughter now! my life not so good to to help them with money, i left my country to work and get more money to help them! but its not so easy to do that if you have family ! i can’t even go back to home to meet my grandparents, we talk only to phone! And now with this times with CORONA my wage reduced! because often now work! i not ask to help me, i ask help my grandparents to better life!  I will be grateful for any donation! but if you can’t donate then share please!

All the best, and Thank You!

My – paypal.me/UgisP

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Dark days taking it’s toll

My name is Mark, I am 45 years old, I am married and have 2 daughters aged 10 and soon to be 13.

Before I tell you of my personal circumstances, I truly reach out to those whom are going through tough times, no matter how big or little your problems may seem to others, it is important to you and that is what matters.

In recent years, I have suffered from mental illness, being diagnosed with clinical depression back in 2007 and recently being diagnosed with Bipolar in 2019. Over the last 3 years things turned for the worse, as in 2017 I was first admitted to a psychiatric ward in Reading called Prospect Park in a ward called Snowdrop, following a major house renovation and being made redundant from my IT job at HP for almost 20 years I had a nervous breakdown.

Although it was a traumatic experience I got to meet some people who had different mental illnesses and in a way I felt some comfort that I was not alone and there were people whom could understand more than most people how devastating it is and something we battle with most days. When I got discharged the first time, it took a few months before I was able to work and my wife had to support me the best she could. My daughters were 7 and 10 at the time and although they were so loving at the time I know it left a scar, which is heart breaking as a father.

Unknowingly a few months into the new job as a postman I went through a mania episode, which resulted in me causing emotional harm to my family, losing my closest friends and losing my job due to gross misconduct. At the time I like so invincible and self-righteous that I disregarded anyone’s opinions. I felt like I had an invinity with the moon and felt I was on a higher religious level. I felt so high, my brother’s friends though I was on cocaine.

Not having any contact with my friends, family and not having a job, it all came crashing down and I started to hit rock bottom. I hardly left my room and just did not want to wake up anymore. I had an emergency appointment at with a psychiatrist at the end of December and due to my mental state I was readmitted to Prospect Park.

I refused to let anyone come to see me as I felt is was all my fault and I didn’t want my family to suffer or be subjected to it, especially my 2 daughters. After 2 weeks I did get visits from my wife, daughters, sister and nephew, though I felt so down.

Eventually I was discharged and appointed with a new psychiatrist. After a long review he diagnosed me with Bipolar last year and I have been prescribed lamotrigine and quetiapine ever since. My family were given the opportunity to attend a careers meeting to understand how to a support a loved with mental illness. 

Although I was more stable at first, with the recent events I have spiraled back in a dark place and I am very scared. This has caused a huge financial strain and we are continually borrow more and more money. I hide as much as I can from my wife as I don’t want her to worry.

As with some others I did not know this site existed, but due to desperation it lead me to this site.

I hope this does not come across as me needing pity, but I wanted to be honest with my circumstances. I just want some help and support to get me through these dark days, so I can at least ensure my family is financial supported, whilst I can get back to working and continue to fight my battle.

The pandemic has affected so many people and I dread to see what impact it has as it develops. All I can do is try and fight for my family. My current debt is reaching £3,000 so any donation you can provide will make a difference and get me back on track.

God bless

paypal.me/battlingon

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Family in need of help with their home

Hello, My name is Erica. Currently I am a stay at home mother of three children, ages thirteen, six and five. Luckily my husband is still working, however work has been slow for him. Obviously, slow work means low income. He travels an hour and a half one way to work each day. And yes, the gas bill sucks especially with him not able to bring home his regular pay checks. Thankfully he has family that lives close by his work that he can stay the night there if we don’t have the money for gas for him to get home until payday. About two years ago my husband and I bought our first place together, nothing big a simple three bedroom two bath mobile home. Which at the time was great for us, our girls would share the bigger room while our son had the smaller room to himself and of course my husband and I had our own room. But seeing how there is a six year age gap between our girls, lets just say everyone needs their own space. We had started remodeling the back side of our home so that each of our children could have their own bedroom. During the demolition process our vehicle broke down. Seeing how we the vehicle is a necessity; the money we had set aside ended up going towards fixing our vehicle. We’ve even lost the storage unit we were renting out to store the children’s things. Now we have half of the house torn down with minimal supplies to rebuild it. Which is also over crowded with the furniture from the storage unit. What we couldn’t fit in the back we’ve got scattered through the house. (I was going to upload a picture of the mess that’s back there, but this is embarrassing enough, so I’ve included a blue print that I’ve drawn up with a Floor Plan Creator App.) We’ve sat down and looked back over our supply list; we’ve figured out the cheapest materials we could use that would work best for the remodel (rounded it to $800). As of right now the main materials we still need is wood, insulation and drywall for the walls, pipes to redirect the plumbing from the old bathroom and hot water heater, and hinges for the bedroom doors. So basically, I’m here “begging for money” to help finish building the back side of our home so that our children have a place to sleep that’s not the sofa and we can get the rest of our home back. My family and I would greatly appreciate the help.

If you are able to help my Paypal.me is Paypal.me/VioletJewelsUS

Several years ago I used to have my own jewelry business, hence the name, but this is the only paypal account I have. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and many more thanks to those who are able to help us.

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Broken

I am not sure if I can compose adequately enough to receive any type of response. I’m so overwhelmed for the first time in my life I feel helpless and incapacitated. At the beginning of 2020 I was only focused on the future and it was optimistic and hopeful. Unfortunately that didn’t last long once the pandemic hit and I was suddenly out of a job. The effect on my lil family was a harsh reality that we were definitely not prepared for especially at this length. Rent quickly becoming an expense that was no longer feasible we had to make heartbreaking decisions. Our only light in the tunnel was my fiance was considered an essential employee so we still had some room to work with. We decided to send our daughter to stay with her grandparents. It was not a decision made lightly but it was in her best interest to be safe and have a sense of stability and routine. Our price was the distance and the emotional toll that had changed our family dynamic. My fiance traveled a little with work so his company offered a per diem to compensate the cost we decided to make the best of it and keeping only the essentials we began living out of motel rooms. The adjustment took time but we eventually settled in to our new lifestyle. For awhile it felt like everything would be ok in the end if we could tough it out. Once again we were blindsided, with no notice my fiance was laid off and we didn’t have long to find a solution. Still unable to get back to work I filled for unemployment which I’m still waiting on, through odd jobs my fiance was able to get we spent about another two months in motels while he began his unemployment claims and we tried to find a way to get back on our feet. Much easier said than done. We lived in our truck for two weeks. Luckily a dear friend of mine offered us a place to stay. She having her own struggles like most everyone did have a house that had plenty of room. And we decided to benefit everyone we would all work together to make it through this. Everything seemed to be looking up, my fiance had spent alot of time and effort into another job and the possibility of getting a new one with a relocation assistance in tow was just a matter of the details. I felt like I could breath again and a little weight had been lifted. I had no idea the nightmare that was ahead of me. 3 1/2 weeks ago it was a quiet day. Not much to do that day I danced with my fiance in the kitchen while I made breakfast, toiled around the house on nothing of any importance and even spent some time talking about our future wedding. I looked at flowers and dresses while he asked a friend to be his best man. We weren’t back above board but for the first time in a while I felt like I could see that light at the end. Then I was destroyed…. just hours later after my fiance said he was going for a walk I ventured to the basement looking for (I can’t even remember) I found my fiance passed away….he had committed suicide. My entire world and myself had came crashing down. Along with the man I love beyond any description my entire future is unimaginable. When every plan, hope, and excitement of the future was wrapped around “us” I haven’t been able to look past the present to what a future would be without him. Now I find myself with no job, still no unemployment, no future past this exact moment and no one to reach out to. My entire family other than my daughter have passed years ago. The three of us were our family. We only had each other and with my daughter still residing with grandma I feel truly alone and invisible. I have bills to pay that I can’t a truck that I can’t drive (it broke down) and no place to call home. I don’t know what or how to move forward I feel like giving up. At this point anything would help.

Paypal.me/jmllr1004

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I really need help!

The situation that I am in is very crazy. One of my friends was put in jail last night for violating his probation. Before, he may have made some bad decisions but now he is trying his hardest to work his way up since he is only 20. It is not entirely his fault since his probation officer really did not contact him nor inform my friend of the schedule of the information that was to be given out. My friend had contacted his probation officer and told him that there was no way for him to be able to get transportation to and from the destination, since he was low on money. He has had many life traumas from being adopted by a family who does not care about him to him walking about 20 miles to and from work every day to his own adoptive parents taking his hard earned money from him to him buying his own first car, sadly it has broken down. Finally, at 18 he decided to leave and left with only some clothes and the shoes he had on his feet. He found a room he could rent, which was cheap, but with his job, he could barely afford rent most times or he is late to payment. He is a pizza maker at a restaurant and works from 4-12 every night. Around last week, he was offered a job and attended the interview, but they have not sent him any information yet. My friend is really struggling and so are his sister and me. We want to help so bad, unfortunately his sister puts all her money into college, and I am a student without a job because of different circumstances. He is one of the sweetest and nicest guys ever and, when he can, he will offer to pay for dinner or anything. I just want to be able to help, like I normally do, but since I cannot I am asking for others to help me so I can help him if possible. Please help us. This friend means so much to me and I just really need help with this situation. I do not even need that much; I just need around $500 to get a bondsperson and the rest I will figure out. If I were working and had the money, I would not be begging for this. In the photo, it is a screenshot of what I could do instead of paying the full $5000 by getting a bail bondsman and paying the $500 fee. I need this money as soon as possible please and thank you to who ever chooses to help me.


PayPal.Me/mmthao27

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Drowning in debt due to Covid in a new country alone with no options of help.

I find myself in a state of disbelief writing this. I’m not the sort of person who has ever begged or borrowed money off people. I have always worked hard and despite coming from a poor background I have always managed to make things work, yet living hand to mouth on a low income, and then as a mature student studying. However this year I have found myself in a desperate situation and for the first time in my life I cannot find a logical way to get myself out of my debt ridden situation and am having very dark thoughts, anxiety and feel ill with stress. I researched crowd funding sites and this website came up and I am going to have to swallow my pride and ask for help. I moved last year to a new country and began working various jobs to live. I was initially promised paid work when I arrived but got to the live work accommodation and found it not to be the case- just volunteering in exchange for board. I arrived with virtually no money as I had been caring for my elderly mother for six months and had been a student for the 5 years before that. Within the space of a year, my three elderly dogs all got very sick and had to be put to sleep calling for thousands in vets bills. I worked various jobs in order to earn enough to pay for registration costs, buy a car and insurance and rent a place but as it was a rural area, the work dried up at Christmas. I found myself jobless and had used all my money to pay for the vets bills and subsequent euthanasias. I was then offered a job setting up a business for a lady on the promise of a good wage, contract and profit share. I went about creating an Arts venue and cafe- recruiting nearly forty local artists and makers and holistic therapists who wished to exhibit and rent rooms at the venue. I did everything. The decorating, marketing, recruiting and worked in the kitchen cooking and baking. The opening party I advertised attracted hundreds of people but I found myself if a vulnerable situation as the woman who owned the business was very unbalanced with clear mental health problems and I discovered she had no intention of giving me the contract that she told me was coming continuously. Then, less than two weeks into opening, Covid peaked. We were forced to close and I was told I was no longer welcome in the building that I had been living in while creating the business. I moved into a small gite down the road but was unable to pay the rent so moved into a small chalet of a lady stuck in the UK who needed someone to feed her cat during lockdown. I don’t know what I would have done otherwise as I had nowhere to live and no money. I found myself in a strange country with nothing and then could not find work during lockdown. I spent three months out of work but when lockdown ended I managed to find small odd jobs to pay for tax declarations and work needed for my car which needed a new timing belt and nearly 900 spent on it. As work was so scarce here I set up my own business using the contacts I had established with the previous venture. Covid however has decimated everything and now because of the costs of setting up the business, finding deposits and rent for the building, I am now drowning in debt and feeling completely overwhelmed and depressed. I am desperately trying to make the business work and am branching out to selling online shortly but I need to find a way to clear my debts as I am spiralling more and more out of control and am terrified. I have been so anxious I want to go to the doctor to get medication but that would in turn cost more money that I can’t afford. If I could find away to eliminate the debt I am sure I would feel much better in myself anyway. I have been to the bank and asked for help but there is nothing they can do. I also asked if there was anyway I could get a small loan to buy a home here so I could have some security but they cannot do. I feel like i’m drowning and there is no way out. I am looking for donations from anyone that is in a position to help. Even a loan that I could pay back in a few years time would help. Anything really. It is humiliating to write this but I have to find a solution rather than have a breakdown. If anyone could help please let me know. Thank you for your time.

My paypal me link is:

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Young raped model needs YOUR help

Hi, I really appreciate you reading these lines, after all they could change my life.

This is my situation:

I grew up in a fairly wealthy family until my father, who was our main source of income, left my mother, my sister, my dog and me behind without supporting us in any way.

After my sister’s brain tumor surgery and proton radiotherapy we are of course relieved to have her back with us but all these treatments cost us all of our financial resources. Yet my father is still not willing to help.

Apart from saving money for my Business Course, I am also just starting out as a model (despite my low self esteem) and I used to work full time until this one day it happened. I was raped. Police have been informed.

Apart from the psychological effects, the rape was very brutal and caused serious trauma to my vulva. It hurts to see it and be reminded of the rape constantly which is why I desperately wish to have reconstructive surgery to make everything look the way it looked before, which is also quite pricey.

Now I need time to heal and focus on not letting this incident permanently damage me long term. My mental resources are all used up due to my sister‘s illness and my father who left us.

I am 22 and the youngest of our small family of three. Everyday I try my very best to help my mum and my sister but I see how everything is slowly falling apart do to the lack of strength from my side. I am very ambitious, hard-working and give 110% everyday but at the moment that’s not sufficient.

 

What I need:

Specifically what I need from you are three things:

  • USD 2‘500 to pay one last bill from our lawyer.
  • USD 4‘000 for reconstructive surgery
  • Any amount of financial support to cover my course fees and to get my family through this time until I am healthy enough to get back to work full time.

 

I deeply appreciate every single cent. I am well aware there is a person behind each donation who worked extremely hard and smart in order to be in the fortunate situation to make donations.

PayPal.Me/elleboss

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

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in need of help.

Well hi, I never thought I’d use a website like this but here I am. Please don’t feel obligated, this is only if you’re able to. I know things are very hard right now in the world, and I wouldn’t want you to give me your last dollar.

As of now I’m about 7 1/2 to 8 months pregnant, my husband works at a fast food restaurant, & we live with his relatives. I have gestational diabetes, which means that I can’t have a high amount of carbs or sugar, & were currently struggling with getting groceries as well as getting things for my daughter who’s soon to be born.

My husband doesn’t want me to work due to Covid, as well as me being pregnant, but since the beginning of my pregnancy it’s been hard to watch him be the sole provider to our little family. He’s a hard working man, helps his family out with more than half of his checks, never says no to his relatives when they need something & also tries his best to buy the things we need for our little pebble for whenever she’s here.

The thing is, his hours have been getting cut. He works hard with basically 8 hour shifts, comes home and also helps here in the house, and then takes time to relax which usually isn’t until about 10 – 11 pm at night. His car also broke down earlier in the year, so he’s been trying to fix it, but so far he hasn’t had enough money between helping pay bills and also get our daughter stuff for when she’s here.

Whenever he was younger (he’s currently 22) he got into a bad four wheeler accident with his cousin. His cousin had a broken collar bone, but my husband had a lot of trauma to his heel as well as to his back, and his arm had broken. He had to go to therapy for a year and eventually recovered, but his body has never been the same. His body hurts, and since the major thing other than his broken arm was his heel being immensely damaged, its caused him to have a lot of pain in his leg as well as his back now that he’s working hard.

It’s hard to see him go through these things alone, and although I try to help he refuses it. He donates plasma twice a week, but it all goes to gas because his relatives take him to work. He’s been trying to buy a truck off of his relative, who’s selling it for $1,500, but has been struggling to save up due to gas trouble, grocery trouble, and trying to get what is needed for the baby.

So please, I don’t ask for much. Even a dollar would help go towards helping us get what we need, I just want to find a way to help him. Its been hard seeing him struggle on his own, and I know I shouldn’t be stressing about it. I can’t help it, its hard to see him go through these things the way he does. I feel bad that I can’t do more for him.

I don’t have a PayPal, but I do have a CashApp. Please feel free to message me through there, and if you can please help me and our family. Don’t feel obligated to send me a crazy amount, I wouldn’t want you to. Thank you for your time, I appreciate it. May God bless you all.

 

CashApp: $ElizAvalos64

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I am turning to you for help. I am embarrassed to be this honest and ask for help.

Hey thank you for making the time to read this. I’m not sure where to begin as I honestly never saw myself get to this point of desperation! I am 34 years old with 2 beautiful girls and an amazing husband. I will try and keep this to the point. We are struggling badly financially and I feel like I’m drowning. My husband is a proud hard working man and has an amazing job but sadly he hasn’t asked for a pay rise in 8 years which would definitely help our situation today if he was paid more. We had been fortunate enough for the last 2 years with having a bunch of savings that would be there for payments to mortgage/bills/credit card but that of course doesn’t last if you owe more than you put in the bank. For the first time ever we missed our mortgage payment. And we have a maxed out credit card which I have always been one top of and making sure it’s paid off in time and not be charged interest. Thanks to the COVID-19 outbreak it’s made my husband feel even more uncomfortable asking for a pay rise.
So now it’s come to this moment in my life where I don’t know where to turn or who to ask for help.
I came across this website this morning while googling how to get money fast. I’m not sure if this is going to work but I am that desperate I am going to give it a go and hope that someone, anyone with a dollar to spare can help me and donate some money. Just typing that out makes me feel so sick as I am a giver not a taker but here I am today asking for money to help pay my debt off my credit card and also help with my mortgage payments and the constant intake of bills coming in.
I am a full time mum and I love that I am here for my girls. Sadly I am unable to work as I have bi polar affective disorder which unfortunately gets in the way of life. I have a lot of supports I am in contact with fortnightly. Also I have my parents who help me out a lot. I don’t want to use this as an excuse but it’s my reality and it’s challenging everyday. I make sure I take my medication to keep me stable but that costs money and it adds up so fast with all the supports and medication I need. The financial strain is definitely taking a toll on my mental health. I see my doctor weekly at the moment as I’m struggling badly with headaches he even sent me to get an mri scan on my brain thankfully there isn’t anything serious there! But due to stress it’s causing these awful headaches.
I have been asking my mum for financial help and she has always been there to help and loan me money and I’m struggling to pay her back. She doesn’t work anymore due to having a stroke well over 1 1/2 years ago. So she isn’t really in a position to lend money.

I really am grateful that you have taken the time to read my post today. It’s not easy at all opening up and being honest about my financial struggles I’m sharing with my husband. It’s such a scary position to be in not knowing if we will be able to keep our house or have to sell just to pay off our debts. I truly am thankful for your time spent to read this and also ever so grateful if you are able to spare a dollar to help me kick start me paying off my debt.
I’m so sorry if I waffled on.

Thank you again for your time and to anyone out there happy to help.

Take care and enjoy your day!

paypal.me/kbava85

 

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New mummy overwhelmed

Hello,

My name is Samantha, I’m 22 years old and 9 months pregnant with my first due in October. A bit of background as to why i’m looking for help:

I was in a very controlling and abusive relationship (cliche i know) for 3 horrendous years, 2 of them i was reluctantly engaged to him. He made me take out a credit card, and as i had good credit i was granted £3.5K on the card which he maxed out, buying himself a car (which he never drove) and just spending it on games, junk food etc. I didn’t see a penny of it, not that i wanted to anyway. Where he maxed the credit card, he then forced me to increase my overdraft until they stopped allowing me to do so. This put me in a total of £7K debt with the bank. Bear in mind, he had a job with his own income which he spunked and used mine up as well.

I finally decided to leave him at the end of 2017 which felt amazing! But at the same time, he walked away debt free and left me with this huge burden which i STILL haven’t been able to get rid of. He changed all of his contact details and blocked me and my family so i haven’t been able to squeeze anything out of him to get this paid off. I’ve been doing it myself but i’m at a standstill. I haven’t been in the clear of my overdraft since he put me in it and it’s causing my credit to drop. I’m constantly living in my overdraft, even when my wage goes into my account. I’ll be honest, i earn £1.3K a month but i don’t see that amount in my account where it goes onto the overdraft, i can only ever put the minimum required amount onto my credit card debt. I lease my car which is £230 a month, then there’s insurance, tax, food shopping – i’m currently living with my partner who has a 3 year old. I’m the breadwinner as he had to quit his job to look after her – birth mum chose drugs over her daughter at 6 months old. So he’s on council benefits, currently living in temporary accommodation and will soon be moved to a permanent location. So he gets in very minimal money to cover his bills, i pay for the food shop each week etc. It’s worked out pretty well thus far but my debt is always on my mind.

 

We’re expecting our daughter to be born in October which of course is another added expense – please don’t shame me for getting pregnant; i was told for years by doctors that i’d NEVER be able to have children of my own and i took it for gosple. She is my miracle baby and i would never have gotten rid of her.

 

Anywho, with all of this constantly going on; i had my MOT and they have said my car needs a new turbo! I was originally expecting to pay about £250 for the MOT, getting the tyre, brake fluid and wiper changed. Not a new turbo! Because of this, the total cost has skyrocketed to £2.1K :'( they offered me the option to pay monthly with a deposit of £525 and then 12 monthly payments of £197 which i simply cannot afford. I can’t do it under warranty as that expired in July of this year (typical), i have also contacted my leasing company to see if there’s SOMETHING they can do to help.

 

From November, i’ll be on maternity pay which is a measly £600 a month which is barbaric, it’s less than what an apprentice earns! So from that £600, i have to pay £200 for the repair, £230 for the lease, £100 for insurance, £150 on credit card debt – this already puts me on a spenditure of £680 a month – that’s without the weekly food shop and anything that the baby may need; especially if she requires to be formula fed. I am full of anxiety about this which i shouldn’t be, being pregnant it’s not good!

 

So that’s my story – a long one so i apologize. Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read the entire thing! I’m not really expecting anything to come from this, i had a moment of desperation and did a google search which led me here and thought i’d give it a go.

 

If anyone has come this far and would be generous enough to help me out, here’s my paypal link: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/sammieblackman

Picture is of my current bank balance.

Thank you.

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Please help to pick me up and be the Father my children deserve again.

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Ill start by saying hello and I hope you are well and I appreciate anyone taking the time to read this massively, helping people can change the world I believe.

My name is Jon and I am 32 year old man with  three Children. Up until 5 months ago I was working as a fisherman out of Newlyn Cornwall on a fishing boat named Stelissa pz498 I had been doing this for 10 years that is until I started to suffer with Serious mental health problems. Up until this time I had always suffered with depression and Anxiety  after a severely traumatising childhood where I experienced different kinds of Mental, Physical and Sexual Abuse Throughout. I never wanted the experiences of my childhood to hold me back in life and I swore to myself if I ever had children I would never allow for them to suffer a childhood like I had. Through life I had always struggled with depression and as I got older and the doctors learnt moor I was finally diagnosed with ADD, Borderline Personality Dissorder, Sever depression and Anxiety. I managed to handle this fairly well as I got older and ended up taking fishing courses and becoming a commercial Fisherman on a big boat with a great crew. Through fishing I was able to provide my three boys with everything they needed I felt better than ever and although me and there Mum have separated we still are great friends and care for the boys more than anything else. About 6 months ago I started to feel my depression getting worse and worse this continued to the point I couldn’t go to sea for fishing trips and got so bad I eventually couldn’t eat rite couldn’t get out of bed or leave my home everyday I was waking up to a feeling of complete despair and fear my life had begun to fall apart. My then Partner who I had been with for 2 years tried her best to stick by me but it became to much for her and she eventually left this sent me much deeper into my depression and i felt unable to cope anymore at this point I unfortunately made a terrible decision and tried to end my life by way of an overdose I spent a while in hospital recovering before being sent to a Mental Health unit to recover. During this whole time I had no income and rent, council tax, bills and my overdraft just all got left to the point I have quite a large amount of debt built up. I have had to move into a tiny studio Flat and just haven’t been able to work again since my Mental Health has become a massive issue for me I don’t no why it suddenly got so bad or how I ended up in this position but it has left me feeling weak and drained and ashamed of myself for not being the Man I feel I want to be for my children and the people I love. I lost my car My job my Future wife and my health all in one swoop and ended up with piles of debt That I cannot even begin to look at and it’s become a catch 22 as I feel so desperate to get out of this situation but the situation brings my mental health down I cannot cope with the stress and pressure of not working having three kids I want to make happy and provide for  Having piles of debt I just feel like I’m always taking 2 steps back now it’s dangerous for me to do what I love anymore and I’m unfit for work currently I need a boost something to help me get back on the road get out from under this pressure a bit release some financial pressure I just feel like it would give me a bit of space to breathe and I would have a much better chance of getting through this and becoming me again so I can be a Decent Dad and just a good man again I want to be back at work making something of my life and just do the very best I possibly can to make sure my children get the life they deserve they are the most Amazing three boys so well behaved never any trouble polite all the time it breaks my heart that I’m not the Man they deserve at the moment and as much as I want to be and have the dedication in me I feel like there’s a mountain I’m trying to hold up and it’s crushing me I just need that pressure to release a bit so I can focus on my health and getting better. I don’t no what to expect from this but if you can find it in your heart and have the means to help me then please consider my plea for help. Thank you for taking the time To read about me and what’s going on. I wish you every happiness

paypal.me/jonjarrett

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Debt, anxiety and infertility

Hi, I’m not sure where to begin to be honest. I’ve never asked for anything even remotely like this.

But I’m sinking. Slowly but surely sinking into debt, despair and depression. I’ve learnt alot about myself the last six months. I’ve always felt different but thought it was just me being an introvert, but what I’ve realised is I’ve been living with anxiety all my life. It’s always been there, I’ve just never identified it. The second guessing everything, never thinking I’m good enough, blaming myself when I’m treated badly. It’s gotten so badly recently I avoid conflict by ignoring the bad things that happen around me. Especially in my family.

I found my dream job 7 years ago, after quitting a long term career due to bullying, and started loving my professional life again. It played to my strengths, was fast paced and I honestly felt so much pride doing it! Over time, I noticed my new boss wasn’t the angel people said they were, running from the new bout of bullying I quit again, and in telling the truth about why I was leaving, acting in a moment of bravery, only to be manipulated into staying and suffering the worst anxiety panic attacks I’ve ever had in the year after. I was whittled down to nothing and I felt like nothing. The work load was heaped onto me and I started staying an additional 5 hours a night to try and keep up. I drank pepto most mornings to settle my stomach and survived on a broken 2 hours of sleep a day. My relationships suffered and days before I bought a house with my partner I was made redundant. It was a blow but ultimately I felt free.

Unfortunately the nightmares continued and my self confidence saw me change into some other person. It took me a year to get another job because even going outside became worrisome. The new job was a very standard, no responsibility type of job. To protect myself I chose a job I hated do I couldn’t get hurt again. I quickly found that following the guidelines set out by HR in this company to look after their staff was ignored my managers and I soon found conflict over hours/information and contract changes. I fought back alot but it got to the point where even those who listened before turned their back on me. After some sickness leave due to a physical injury I returned and was immediately poorly treated and found that I couldn’t even take my medication without problems. After a particularly bad panic attacked after a confrontation with a manager, I quit there and then.

It’s been two years since then. I’ve learned alot in the last 6months about anxiety and don’t feel so much like a freak. I’ve noticed the times in my past that can be attributed to my anxiety taking over. It’s good to have answers to why but unfortunately it’s something I think I’ll live with for a long time yet. One thing I’ve managed to do recently is say I LIVE with my anxiety I don’t SUFFER with it.

I’ve been keeping busy the last two years. Renovating our home, learning new DIY skills and transforming our garden. We have gotten married and want to have a family soon. We found that I have PCOS, something I’ve known for over ten years but finally got my Drs to acknowledge. It’s more severe than I anticipated and so far the help has been lacking. The past 10 months have been a blur of drugs, scans, blood tests and appointments. And I don’t seem to be any closer to having a baby.

To fill my time and head with something good I’ve been doing small DIY projects and work one day a week doing some maintenance work. It doesn’t amount to much, it pays my phone bill. Otherwise it goes onto my credit card. I’ve racked up a sizeable amount of debt in the two years I’ve been unemployed. Just under £4000. Before lockdown I was confident I could whittle this down. Now I’m getting really scared that it’ll build and build with interest that I can’t make a dent in. I can’t tell my husband I feel so ashamed and everyday I worry he’ll find out and that this secret will split us up. The worst thing is, if I told him, he’d get a loan that he can’t afford, just to pay it off. He’s stressed enough with his job and own health, and yet I’m always his priority. He literally does everything to support me. He may not understand my anxiety but he listens everytime I lose my mind. Lockdown has been particularly challenging mentally. I’ve been trying to learn how to drive so I can visit family and friends during the week to have some form of contact while my husband is at work and build my confidence back up to find another job. The learning is slow because when I make a mistake my self-determination fails and I retreat back into myself. Money is also a factor. It seems to always be the case.

Keeping the debt a secret is weighing on my mind and I’m starting to have dark thoughts like I used to. I contribute nothing to my marriage. Can’t even contribute a child. How can I find my own fertility battle when I can’t get past this debt?

I’m stuck in this downward spiral and I come across this site last night. I don’t know if anything will come of it. I guess if I can get help it will be the push I need to move on. The anonymous nature of this site gives me some confidence already. I don’t have to see your face while I tell this story. The kind of face I dread to see on my husbands.

He saves me everyday. But I’m scared. I’m scared that one day saving me will become a chore and then I’ll lose him.

paypal.me/zwatson018

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Drowning in Debt

Hello, my name’s Lisa.

To start off, I am currently 19 and already managed to get myself in a huge debt. I lost my job at the beginning of the pandemic and now I am in desperate need of some money. I live in Canada, and I am sure you would say “why not get some help from the government?”. Well, I have, and I used the money for living expenses such as rent, groceries, and for paying my other bills (phone, internet, gas etc).

To add to that I also would spend money on whatever my family needs even if I do not have the money, which just made the debt worse. I do not want them to find out what I got myself into, because I know they would be extremely angry at me. You may say, “why not explain it to them or asked them for help?” Then, I explain to you that my family has a lot on their hands already. My mom is a single parent who raised me and my younger brother. She has her own bills to pay for (not credit cards), and she spends her money on my little brother who is autistic and needs the extra support/help in learning and communicating. I don’t want to burden her more.

Right now, I need to pay off $7,000 on my credit cards. At the start of the year, I made a plan to pay it off, and get back on the right track. As the months went by, it started to become worse and worse. Everything kept pilling up, having no money to pay off my bills. It got to the point now where all I have on my mind is money, and how I can get money.

I have tried applying for other jobs, but nothing worked due to the pandemic, and stores needing to have a certain amount of people working at the same time and can only afford to pay very few people. Soon the stores started to reopen, but still even my old job did not hire me back.

Another thing I’ve tried was taking out a loan, but I got denied by all of the loan companies I applied to just because I either had a low credit score or I didn’t have enough income.

If anyone could help me, even just a little I would be forever thankful and would definitely take this life lesson to heart and stay on the right track.

 

Paypal.me/123LMT

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Help me start fresh and build a small farm for the community

Thank you for reading this. It took a lot for me to come to this point. I have prayed many times on it and come to accept that pride has always been my greatest downfall. I have never been good at humbling myself and asking for help. But the universe works in interesting ways and somehow brought me here. I don’t know where to start really so I will just explain.

A LITTLE ABOUT ME

My childhood wasn’t bad by any means. My parents were not meant to be together at all, but tried very hard to love each other for 20 years, which bred resentment and the toxic relationship affected me directly. From custody battles and being yanked out of class to be transferred to foster care in a different district. They made a lot of mistakes but my parents love me and I’m proud of them for the progress they’ve made while separate. But I was not at all sheltered. I became very familiar with many truths of the world that I had no business knowing. As a result I have always kept a small circle, being careful who I trust.

I was also among the children in the 90s that got the miracle drug Ritalin, which I don’t think I needed, because it caused depression later on in my teens. All of these factors made for a perfect medical cannabis candidate. But I never lived in a legal state, so I felt guilty for doing something that made me feel normal, and I didn’t understand. Now I see how much the world is changing and becoming accepting of this and realize I’m part of a large number of people that have reason for using it. Naturally, I fell into the only industry that would take me, the kitchen world. I’ve done fast food, dive bars and diners, classy joints, meal prep, management, recipe and menu development and design and I love it. But life has taken a turn and changed my goals.

 

THE LAST FIVE YEARS

In high school, I had one good legit friend. We were so close I never even considered making a move. Time went on and life happened, we went our separate ways and while I had been a loner stoner working towards a career in hardcore food…my best friend had fallen victim to a terrible lifestyle. I bumped into her ten years later to find her stripping, and staying with her drug dealer. I was appalled but at the same time after being reunited, an intense spark of affection emerged between us. So I did what anyone else would do. I told her to run away with me. And to my surprise she said yes. I don’t think anyone had told her she could or been there to offer. She then moved in with me started serving, and got clean cold turkey.. which was pretty rough. We decided we needed a fresh start so we packed up and moved to south Carolina where my grandfather and cousin lived.

A year later my grandfather passed, and since then, the money from the will has gone missing. Many of my family suspect my cousin who was with him closely in his last weeks somehow took it. That’s not important, but it caused a little tension. We had found a cozy trailer for $600 a month, perfect for a chef and a server. At this time I was making just enough until my car blew up on me forcing me to sign a lease surrendering $300 of my income to a car I didn’t want. Okay. That’s normal. So I work hard, and get a raise which gives me a little wiggle room. Just enough to upgrade to a car I’m comfortable in, a 2010 Camaro, which was perfect until my girlfriends work schedule demanded a second car. Still…okay. We make adjustments and adapt.  Two years go by and we are getting by, and have adopted a handful of rescue ferrets who are now our babies.

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Enter 2020. My girlfriend is now doing great. She worked her way to assistant manager and hasn’t looked back once. I am one year away from paying my car off, and the household is stable. We are fine. Then things start to shut down. In May my restaurant slowed down and dropped most of the staff including me. We were hopeful covid wouldn’t actually be as devastating, so I put off calling unemployment for a couple weeks, until my savings were depleted. Well, the phones were tied up for about a month. Once I get through, the sweetheart on the other end of the phone mistakenly (I assume) filed me for the wrong type of benefits. The result of which, was no unemployment relief until June, which turned out to be another mistake by the department and it was requested that I pay the $800 I received BACK.

-so now I’m randomly in debt $800 to the unemployment office- July comes and I’m able to return to work only to catch covid due to my staff being negligent. So I’m left to quarantine until august when things really get bad. A week after my return to work my car springs an $800 leak in the cooling system forcing me to take one single day off work. This is enough for my manager of five years to fire me without hesitation. Three weeks later. Here I sit. Funds depleted, in debt behind on car payments all while my beast of a girlfriend continues to work overtime to hold the household down.

MY GOALS

Since my parents separated my mother has become somewhat of a prepper. Which of course evolved into homesteading but she wasn’t able to keep up with production. I used to think she was crazy until my work in the kitchen revealed the value in small local farming. Over the last ten years she has taught me so much and inspired me to work towards this. Its been five years away from home and we are ready to start a new. There are now many new local restaurants in my home town that stimulate the market I aim to work with.  I want to make this girl my wife, and settle down where we grew up.   I propose that we buy or even rent a small house on the outskirts of town with a decent amount of land and start a homestead. Enough room for me to utilize everything my mother has taught me and grow food for these local restaurants, and the needy people of my community.

This is simply not at all possible without a decent amount of funding. And as far behind and down as I am, I don’t see anyway to reach my goal in time.. I watched both my parents work themselves directly into massive health issues and resentment for their passions and I do not want to follow in their footsteps. So, I’ll use my connections in local kitchens to network and gain clients, and my experience in graphic design and marketing to brand my produce, scale and grow. I already have knowledge of the market and will be starting with mixed greens lettuce, arugula, cherry tomatoes, hot peppers, and micro greens, chickens, and goats.

We would then live from our land and be able to give back to our community in ways we never thought possible. This would in turn help fund my end goal, a non-profit rehab organization called Growing For Good that will target drug torn areas of my home town, find those in need of a second chance, employ them in a community garden and with the help of licensed cannabis physicians and counseling get them clean and save lives. They will then be educated on how to become involved and help the mission.

I am not asking for funding of this operation, but funding of our move back home and start up costs of a small homestead famr. This is bigger than simply giving my future wife the life she deserves. This is about giving us the opportunity to build something, a legacy we can be proud of. By helping me you are indirectly helping so many more. Plans to change things from within broken communities often fail due to the lack of actual planning. Which is why I am taking this one step at a time and am certain that a regenerative food production system is the path I want to take.

WHAT IT WILL TAKE

It is with great humility that I ask of you for help building my dreams to help others that have been forgotten. This is a great investment for one, but perhaps for many it could be possible.  Coming current on bills alone will cost $1000. The move itself should be able to be done on less than $1000.  The tough part is going to be finding the right property for this. But if my housing market friends are telling the truth I should be able to find something right for about $20,000. Leaving the only the actual startup costs of the farm, another $5000. This includes processing, branding, licensing, farming equipment, fencing, seeds, animals, a small truck and storage containers. The grand total I am trying to raise to change my life and those of my community is $27,000. I could not possibly imagine this actually working but all I have left is hope!

I thank you all so much for your interest in my story whether you choose to donate to my cause!

If you send me a way of contacting you with your donation I will keep you updated on my progress so you can see the difference you are making! Thank you so much.

paypal.me/Crawford265 I may change the paypal information as I had an issue with my account being limited trying to set this up but if this link is still posted assume its working. Again thank you so much for listening and God bless!

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How I intend on earning your valuable Ongoing Financial Support

So many of us need money, and like others, I am stuck in a weird place.

I am without a job and without much except a child and wife who keep me going, but also costs of living.

However being almost 40 years old and with a feeling that I have wasted my life away on pointless things.

I’d like a chance at changing that around. I want to design a new me, create a new person from this pathetic shell and useless core.

My idea is to raise money for two pet projects that are rather ambitious, but both should see me both serve you and others like me and you.

My first idea was to create a website that provides a listening service. I have no professional experience in this area, as my prior experience in life has been in the trade and later in various slimy sales roles that have left me sour from the corruption and pathetic practices I witnessed. Here is my site https://yesbheard.wixsite.com/bheard

If you don’t feel like supporting me financially, maybe use this service and who knows, it might help you work through some things. I know I sometimes need somebody to just listen to me. It was certainly part of my inspiration to do something for those that don’t have someone who will listen to them.

The second idea is a bit more grandiose

I’d like to raise a significant amount of money to set up a crime and corruption finding entity. And sure at first glance that sounds crazy. However I don’t know about you. But I have witnessed and had many people tell me about corruption of officials, authorities and people in positions of power. And that is just to scratch the surface, you may have heard worse. I know I have.

Wouldn’t it be nice for us ordinary people to have our own resources capable of running our own investigations, collect evidence and share it with the world, allow undeniable proof of criminals and corrupt individuals to circulate and force the police and military to intervene?

I have started a social fund here https://social.fund/uunzas/?sw=1

I may not have all the skills necessary, but I know we need good honorable people to stand up and begin doing what needs to be done to clean up the corruption in our world. And I believe for that to happen. We need to pool our resources and work for it. I am happy to get the ball rolling, I am sure some of you out there will be able to help in some capacity, or you know someone who can.

So I am begging you. Help me where you can. I cannot do this alone.

I wish to serve humanity, however I do need the funds to get it all going. And with your running start, I am confident this can grow into something truly worthwhile for the world and its people.

If you cannot provide funds, then simply help me spread my two projects to others that will see it. That alone can be huge. I certainly am not that knowledgeable when it comes to marketing, but i know the power of word of mouth and sharing something you believe in deep in your heart. That is how I intend on living my life going forward. So help me where you can. And as much as it hurts to beg for this. It has to be done. I don’t know any other way. And I am not that proud that I cannot admit it.

Thank you for your time.

PayPal.Me/Bheardtoday