To whomever may read my post,
Hi and thank you for taking time to read my post.
i dont no where to start so ill start where i suppose my life took a turn of loss, heart break, anger, sadness, lonleyness, lost, just nowhere to turn. On the 25th of may last year 2024 the man whom addored me and i adoéred more then i had ever know passed away from septaesemia.
Two years prior his passing. He was diagnosed with heart failure and was given two years left if he maintained his lifestyle. so this devastating news we went home and cried for a very long time but with all this being said he was my hero and next day he asked me to take him to the clinic where he gave up heroine and never touched it again. Yeah you might see the word heroine I think no way am I gonna have junkies, This is a man that’s had a hard hard life. Heroin was the love of his life and he gave that all up so he could live a longer life with me. Time past and you could see him slowly deteriorating but he kept a brave face for me and my children. This is a man that showed my children more love than their own fathers so we went from this beautiful bright house with my four children and my partner to a dark yuck miserable lonely home with no one because he was so sick all my kids eventually left my youngest who is 10 went to live with their father so my attention could be on my partner. Prior a week before passing he was in hospital but as usual you came home with no more than what we already knew on the Thursday 23rd of May. I miscarried, Roye passed away on the following Saturday, 25 May 2024 we were supposed to get married on 25 May 2025 he was my world. I struggled that I’m still struggling now just to fight to live fight to be happy. Get out of bed.
with everything that’s happening at the time my head was just everywhere I didn’t know what to do or where to go or who to turn to. with all this being said I was told to wait for social worker to phone me who was meant to call me on the Monday, on Tuesday. I found out that somebody had walked into the hospital and took me off his next of kin I don’t know who or how but they did. I was beside myself then find out. I wasn’t even allowed to go to funeral but a lovely lovely lady fort for me to go. Mind you I was still misscarraging because I was haemorrhaging. My life had just turned upside down. Then not even a month after I was told I had to move out of my home of 10 years. it was our home and I had to move. There was nothing I could do. so after his funeral I came home and started to pack. I just wanted to die. I just wanted to be with the man that I love. Since then life has just thrown one thing after another but it won’t take me out. It’s like it’s like I meant to be here everyone to laugh at or feel pity upon life just loves kicking me when I’m down and I feel like there’s no getting up there times I wish I could’ve gone with him but then I look for my little girl and no that I have to be here for her.
so I helped out where Could with funeral expenses. I paid his debts off and I still try to help his 2 young children to where I find myself just struggling more and more every day. I couldn’t tell you the last time I had a proper meal. I couldn’t tell you last time I smiled. I really meant it. I can’t tell you that I am trying. I don’t even know where this is going but again thank you. I just tried to get some funds together. We haven’t had a car nearly 2 years spare bit of money we get has to go somewhere or something.
Tonight my daughter is staying with her dad because I couldn’t afford dinner so I asked her dad to have her until I can find some food for our house. Every day i struggle, some would say blessed others would have pity but yeah I’m still sitting here with nothing and no one by the time i pay rent electricity gas money on opal cards for transport I’ve left probably $29 a week and that’s to buy my kids food put money towards education. My kids have never known what Pocket monies is because I’ve never had it to give it so I’m just asking for some help so I can try a better mine or my children’s life. Get on my feet. Learn to be happy again. Learn to be your mum again just all in all want ti be able to give to my babies. so if you are able to give big small or even just a r you okay? Anything is appreciative so thank you again for reading my story. I sincerely thank you the bottom of my heart thank you.
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