I know many people have different views on addiction but mine started when I was around 17 years old when I was having anxiety attacks regularly. No medications helped me and I began to get even more depressed with each passing year. This is when the first doctor prescribed me a well known anxiety medication Xanax. Xanax began to be my only coping mechanism and eventually spiraled.
My college degree is in nursing and I gained a job at a well known hospital. I had worked there for over a year, my dream job, until I looked myself in the mirror one day and realized taking this medication to feel normal began to be a problem.
So I told my manager and that I needed to go to rehab.
She told me that as required by law for me to get disability she needed to telling the licensing committee for nurses.
I went to rehab and completed rehab. I felt great…
until the nursing board told me that since they are aware of my problem I must be monitored and not allowed to give narcotics for 6 months. EVEN though they checked the medication Pyxis which showed I had never taken anything from the hospital, only my prescribed medication.
I work on an acute oncology floor who gives narcotics 20x per day since they are in a lot of pain. Now my job has told me this would be implausible for another nurse to give the medications for me as it would burden them too much.
So the solution was…. I was to no longer be employed at this hospital.
Now I have bills to pay while I am looking for new jobs hoping to find one in an office where I don’t have to give narcotics.
Addiction is not always who you think. And not all of them are were sleeping under a bridge. My drug dealer was a doctor, and now I’m unemployed for trying to get help.
Please help me and I will pay it forward when I get back on my feet.
Thank you for listening to my story.
Provided is a picture of me after recovery =]
And just one of my bills that I pay monthly.
My rent is 900, my lab fees from rehab is 250, my weekly classes for rehab are 10 and my electric and gas is also 83. Anything will help.