First of all, before writing, I would like to sincerely thank Universe(Or maybe god or higher-self?) for letting me know these sites.

I’m 30 years old man who is from South Korea.

I grew up with a personality called feminine (From a spiritual perspective, we call it ‘Devine feminine’) according to conservative social wisdom.

I used to dance in front of my school teacher and friends since I was young, and I like to draw, and I was very active and creative student.

But maybe because of my feminine personality and behavior, my school days were not smooth.

When I was in 6th grade in elementary school, it was time to go home after all the classes, but I couldn’t see my shoes pocket, so I asked my homeroom teacher for help.

I’m writing this now, but I’m crying lol.

I don’t remember how long it’s been, but the teacher came into the classroom with a wet shoes pocket. Then, my teacher called the students who kept bothering me and told me to stay in the classroom after class, and after classes, teacher finally found a person who threw my shoes pocket into the toilet.

Also, I had the experience of getting spit on my face during PE when I was in middle school, and that’s when I felt humiliated for the first time.

I didn’t participate in P.E. class often on purpose because I was afraid that my friends would tease me for not being good at sports, and as a result, my physical education grades and athletic ability were really weak compared to my peers.

One day, when I took off my clothes to wash my school uniform at home and gave it to my mother, she was angry, saying, “What is this behind your clothes, who scribbled it?”

It was so hard because there were many strong friends who bullied me like this.

I had a friend(who is a girl) who has been bullied, and I started being bullied because I was close to her, and the level of bullying increased, and I was so afraid of school and even thought of suicide. Now that I think about it, the school days that I was alienated seem to affect my great anxiety now.

In addition, my father is a police officer who used to show scenes of fighting with my mother, not love, and only hurt me with violence.

When I was in my second year of college (about 20 years old), I had a task to make a magazine using Adobe Illustrator as a major in digital fashion design.

I often stayed up all night working on the slow computer I got from my uncle, and I was almost exhausted when I went to school.

Then one day I came into my room to see if my mother was playing a game with the door closed and got mad out of the blue. So I told her I was doing homework on my computer because of my assignment, but she got mad thinking she couldn’t communicate with me anymore. Then she came in with a long stick in the living room and tried to hit me.

And when I screamed and rebelled, she bring her husband, my father.

Now I’m telling you, the memory of this time was so shocking to me and I didn’t remember the order before and after because what I’m writing now might not exactly match the situation at the time.

I hit my head several times on the desk in front of my mother because I couldn’t bear it. Soon after, red blood flowed from my head, and I was so overwhelmed with extreme anxiety that I couldn’t stop crying like a severely ill patient.

Then my mother cried and hugged me, saying she was sorry, but I can’t remember if this was before and after I was severely scolded by my father.

What I’m trying to say now is the biggest thing I’ve ever been scolded by my father in my life, and I remember being scolded for doing something similar to what I just said.

My mother taught couldn’t communicate with me, so she brought my father and he suddenly hit me, and I was thrown on the floor, rolled, and was so scared that I peed without realizing it.

Unconsciously, I’m preparing for a school fashion show in a state of anxiety that remains too much of a trauma, and I’m starting to feel very uncomfortable and weird with the feeling that I’m not what I used to be, like the screws are missing.

At the same time, I’ve almost completely lost interest in what I had before, to the point where I can’t remember what I like.

 Having focused almost exclusively on academics without playing, I initially tied for fourth place out of 100 and received a scholarship, but then my grades gradually dropped.

From this point on, I began to feel completely disconnected from the world, and I began to live a life that seemed to be separate from my ego.

Not only did I grasp the flow of the world, but I was also not interested in my favorite artist, Lady Gaga and my idol Alexander McQueen.

I joined the army with all these anxieties and fears, and as expected, my military life was very difficult.

After three challenges, I worked as an auxiliary police officers through an 11:1 competition ratio, blocking various protests, and working for traffic safety, as well as security at embassies like United States, China, and Japan.

I got professional psychological counseling from a large university more than 10 times because it was difficult to adapt, such as being depressed and having bad thoughts, and I started taking psychiatric medicine.

One day during the night shift, I had a thought of hitting my head on a police bus, and I cried very often, and I was always scolded for being compared to other members of the team.

Then, a senior reported to superiors that it looked too difficult to join the team and that I should take a break, and I took a two-month break from military service and switched to a social service worker.

After completing the service that felt so long, I participated in the graduation fashion show late in the last semester, and I was passionate even in the midst of anxiety.

Then, I got a job as a salesperson at a direct-run Fila store, worked for a year and a half, collected my severance pay, and went to Lochcarron, Scotland, which was engraved on a scarf given by my grandfather, and traveled to Europe to see Alexander McQueen’s documentary film in London.

I didn’t get a job as a designer at the time because sales were easy and fast to enter, and I didn’t want to work in a design room in Korea full of copies.

After that, I originally wanted to work as a designer, which was my dream, but I couldn’t find anywhere I wanted to go, and I applied because I wanted to work at Alexander McQueen’s store, but I had no experience in luxury sales, so it was difficult to get a job.

That was 2019, when I met my boyfriend, who had lived in Russia, while playing games. Now that I think about it, I think I and he were in a relationship that was intertwined with Karma.

From the first meeting, he played Threesome without hesitation and liked to play. And he lost contact with his mother, who was providing financial support in Russia, and suddenly his economy got worse.

I lent him 20 million won through a loan, and the loan interest rate was 12 percent per annum. Now that I think about it, it’s crazy, and I thought love was everything.

After that, I quit my hard-working semi-luxury sales job, but I worked part-time at a distribution center to pay off my debt.

I worked in a cold freezer, and I usually finished work between 2am and 4am, but one day I felt so hard and sad about my current situation, and at 4am, when everyone left work, I was sitting on a yellow plastic box and crying alone.

At that time, a woman about the age of a mother who worked with me approached me and hugged me, saying, “Why aren’t you going home and crying?”

Then she gave me a ride home, saying that I should never come back to work, that it looked too hard.

In the meantime, my immune system weakened, and something wrong began to appear in my anus. When I went to the hospital and examined it, I was diagnosed with high-risk hpv.

I’ve already spent over 10 million won on herbal medicine to cure my anxiety, and I didn’t have any money saved in the bank, but when I heard that I got sick, the road ahead became so dark.

I was so surprised and in a hurry that I underwent unnecessary laser surgery, and I left a black scar on my buttocks. And even though I went to another oriental clinic for the ultimate treatment, the healing and interruption were repeated three times because it was difficult to continue receiving treatment due to the high cost of treatment.

After that, I had to find a new job, but I didn’t want to go to sales anymore. So I decided to go to an academy and study computer graphics to get a job in the designer field.

Luckily, I got a job with a knitwear manufacturer and started working.

Then one day, while she was cleaning my room, she came across the house documents I had given to her ex-boyfriend and naturally found out I had lent him the money. After the revelation, the family went wild.

After a storm, my father gratefully paid off my mortgage, and there were days when I couldn’t eat properly and went home crying on the subway after 11 p.m., but I’ve lived my life thinking time will solve it.

One day, I wondered why life was so difficult. I couldn’t bear it, and I saw a recruitment post on the shaman’s introduction channel on YouTube, and I was selected and received a free fortune teller from a shaman.

Before that, I had already been caught up in a romance scam a few years ago and sent about 100,000 won to Nigeria, and another romance scam almost sent 10 million won to an unidentified foreigner. Fortunately, it ended in a loss of 1 million won with the help of a shaman teacher.

At that time, I was so tired and lonely that I wanted to live on someone rich. So I almost went to America because of another romance scam, but thanks to the shaman’s words, I was able to escape the misfortune.

I paid my fitness trainer in advance and got scammed, but then I cannot connect him, and I think he probably gave himself up unfortunately.

With the help of a shaman teacher, the reality was gradually stabilizing.

In the meantime, I worked part-time for Hermes distribution centers, Fendi, and Gucci stores, and I learned men’s jacket tailoring, but it was so hard to learn something while making money because it was such a high-end, skilled lecture.

I also worked at a food court, and I wanted to follow in Alexander McQueen’s footsteps a little bit, so I thought about getting a job as a tailor. Also, at that time, I started to see lots of angel numbers and I know why I see it.

So this time, I applied for a state-funded education and learned men’s clothing making once again while serving as the class president, but even then, I couldn’t afford it, and I worked part-time in an opera costume room, and things didn’t go my way.

Then one day, with the intention of making a lot of money, I only heard about a shaman who recommended investing in stocks on other YouTube channels, and I borrowed and invested a lot of money, which was a big failure.

Then one day, with the intention of making a lot of money, I only heard about a shaman who recommended investing in stocks on other YouTube channels, and I borrowed and invested a lot of money, which was a big failure.

Fortunately, I changed my mind after that, and I didn’t get scammed anymore.

Meanwhile, a shaman teacher told me a book about Neville Goddard and the law of attraction, and I naturally learned spiritual content such as unconscious purification, meditation, chakra, and reiki.

Some days ago, my shaman teacher recommended me to look up YouTube or a book if I got stuck studying spirituality, so I found another YouTube channel that makes good use of meditation and the law of attraction. Luckily, I applied because I heard that there was a free lottery attraction class.

And with the help of that new teacher, I am grateful for everything, such as winning a small lottery ticket using the law of attraction, and I am trying and living with a rich mindset.

And few weeks later(Today), I saw one YouTube clip today, I saw there’s a fantastic site ‘beggingmoney.com’ that could someone that could help my wish come true!

I remember what shaman teacher told me the first day I met her.

“The process won’t be smooth, but later, I will definitely make it big, and that I will see her in the future sitting in front of her in a nice suit with gray hair.”

Yes, my dream is to create the best luxury brand in Korea and world peace since I was in middle school 3rd grade(about 15 years old). And one of the dreams is that LVMH Chairman Bernard Arnault and his son Antoine Arnault constantly try to contact me to take the Louis Vuitton creative director position.

Some days ago, when I meditate, I saw scene about soldiers from different countries crying together and hug each others…

I want to help people who are suffering a lot. Now I think I know why I’ve been suffering before. I think my goal in this life is to become rich and help these people and move toward world peace.

I also want to make community child center on Africa.

I learned from my teacher that I can help others only if I do well.

Now, I work for shoes repair technician in department store in South Korea, since March, 2024.

My daily work is add vibram rubber on outsole using machine and glue.

Repair is not easy because it is a very sharp and sensitive work.

And while I’m working, I’m reminded of my old trauma, and I’ve been in a lot of pain, so I’ve been sitting down and crying, but now I know I’m really coming up with a moment to be grateful for.

Because when I worked a few days ago, my client name was Savior in English. lol

Here’s the Wish List that I can show you, and I can give you is my phone number and instagram ID if you decided to be my patron.

I found myself lying in a villa in Scotland in the ‘Meet Me Before I Die’ meditation and was instructed to study English at the moment. So I currently paid 6 months of tuition to learn British English through video chat.

I think my next job or opportunity to learn will be in UK or where use english. Maybe it will be London’s Central St. Martins or Alexander McQueen Design Studio.

I am more confident in creating creative fashion than any other designer in the world. This is because I aim to become the best fashion creative director in the world, and what I dream of is beyond what seems real.

Chanel is known to feel treated by people who wear it, and that’s Chanel’s vision.

My future brand’s vision is to make the wearer’s heart beat and feel love.

If I prepare for admission for Central Saint Martins, I would like to receive college tuition and living expenses. Enough for me to stay in London without any worries!

And the money I urgently need now is 25,157,968 Korean won, which is the sum of my loan and card bills. Now I want to feel forever free from money. That translates to approximately 17,667 U.S. dollars.

Card prices include oriental medicine treatment to treat hpv, hair loss treatment, my living expenses, etc. FYI, I’m lucky enough to get better with these treatments.

I really want to get rid of the black scar on my buttocks during laser surgery.

And now I want to move out, but the house I dream of living in is a house with wide windows with a view of the moon! It’s currently about 5 billion won in Korean money. It’s close to 3,511,236 dollars in American money. In order to live in this house, the maintenance fee is 700,000 won a month, so I have to earn a steady income. So I would appreciate it if you could support my growth so that I can live in such a house in the future.

My sister is currently married and lives separately, and my parents and I live together, but these days, my mother keeps urging me to move out. LOL. I especially wish I could create a large, quiet house with piles of sewing machines, machines, high-quality mannequins and all kinds of high-quality fabrics.

And I want to restore my lost confidence by receiving not only hypnosis and treatment using Reiki, but also speech, interpersonal relationships, and image consulting.

That way, I feel I can create a new style of fashion that I haven’t seen before. Of course, I have to take advantage of the old ones, so it won’t be completely new!

When Italian fashion manufacturers came to Korea, I also met luxury brand partners like Hermes and Loro Piana in person. So I will request them to produce my brand products. Especially in the case of knitwear, the water quality of Scotland is really good, so I plan to request production from Scotland, and it’s thrilling just to think about it!

Besides, I want to go on a trip or go to a good restaurant, and there are many wish lists, but the writing has gotten too long, and most of them are fancy clothes from luxury brands, silk, cashmere, sea island cotton, Vicuña yarn and sweaters, and mufflers, crocodile skin, horse skin, new iPhone, iPad, so I’ll stop writing about them.

The content has gotten really long so far, but thank you for reading the long article.

A few days ago, I spent $90 on a job guide at a Hollywood movie costume production studio, and I never imagined I’d leave a PayPal link like this.

Thank you for meeting the savior through these sites.

I’ll make sure to repay you.