When my husband and I got married 19 years ago we were living with my parents. Then in 2000 we both lost our jobs so my husband went to work for my dad. My dad owned his own heating & air conditioning business. My husband worked for him for 15 years. Things were really bad we still lived with my parents. In 2004 our son was born and in 2005 our daughter was born. I stayed home with them and worked part time. In 2004 my dad hurt his back and my husband had to take of everything. It tore all of us apart the turmoil between all of us was unbearable. My dads business starting shutting down we barely had enough money to live. Even with my parents. In 2010 my husband started an electronics recycling company. it has been really hard because whatever money came in we had to support our 2 kids and us and my parents and little sister. In 2013 i was able to get a full time job. Then my mom had a hip replacement on 2014 and had to quit her job and go on disability. then that November my dad had a stroke and a massive blood clot. My husband and i have tried to move out so many times but because of my family needing us and my husband and I barely making enough to pay our car payment, rent, (my parents rented the house we lived in and we split the rent) cable, cell phone, and food for 7 people. We never had enough money. Well the landlord wanted to sell the house and July 2016 we all had to move out. So yes finally after 21 years my husband and I finally moved into our own home which we rent. But since we moved our business like stopped. We have been trying to build it up but it’s hard when you have no money for marketing. Since we moved in we have been behind on all of our bills except the car. We were 3 months behind on rent until we got our taxes and caught up. June and July’s rent have been paid. But because we had a really hard year our landlord will not sign a year lease we are on month to month now. So if we are not on time we could be evicted. We also are really behind on Comed and Nicor we just got shut off notices. My husband has no work coming in. He has tried to get a job but no one will hire him because he has been self employed for over 17 years. But he want’s to continue this business because he is so passionate about recycling computers and other electronics. We are trying to get into businesses but it’s very hard. I have asked for help from churches and salvation army around my house and they helped use when we first moved in and they can’t help until September. I have reached out to our township they were very rude and no one even the state or government can help us because I make too much. I can’t even get food stamps. I make 37,000 a year and pay for health ins for my husband and I. we were lucky to be able to keep the kids on Medicaid ins. Please we really need to help to pay Augusts rent and our utilities. My husband is waiting to hear from a really big job but we won’t find out until the middle of August. that is why i am reaching out for help. I also really need help to get my kids clothes, shoes and pay for their school fees from last year and this year. We can’t get help for that either because i make too much. We need like 4,000 to be able to catch up and be in a safe place with our bills. Rent 1300, Comed 400, Nicor Gas 400, Water 200, School 500, Cell 700, car 500. Comed, nicor, water, cell and car are over a month behind. We really need to get help. Here is my pay pal link paypal.me/LynnLesniewski
Emergency Rental, Food, and Bills Assistance Programs
How to get help with rent?
At times, many families find themselves homeless, or unable to continue to occupy the premises of their choice. This may be due to fire, accident, storms or many other causes, but often it is merely a problem in paying the rent. Illness that forces a breadwinner to stay home, or loss of a job; any and all of these conditions can put a family in need of temporary assistance to tide itself over until the members of the family find themselves again in a position to pay their own rent without the need of subsidising or other rental assistance.
Agencies have been set up in many parts of the country to help in this regard. Non-profit organizations, these charities, such as The Salvation Army, as well as some governmental agencies are often able to offer emergency rental assistance for families who are being evicted by a landlord, or who simply have no way to pay their rent at the moment. Realizing that landlords, despite the old cartoon imagery of a rich greedy person feeding off the work of renters, the vast majority of landlords are not really making a profit at all on the current tenant. This is only a stopgap so that the landlord may pay the monthly house payments in the hope of some future profit if housing increases in value some years later. If the tenant can’t pay the rent, the landlord may soon find himself in the same position with regard to the lender. Lenders do not want to hear sad stories.
Although these different programs for rental assistance may be available, much depends upon the funding at the moment. Some programs quickly run out of money and are simply unable at the moment to provide further help to persons in need of assistance.
The vast majority of families in need of temporary rental assistance are those to be found in the low-income range; seniors, disable persons and children are among those most often affected. Others too, faced at one point or another with a temporary emergency may qualify for assistance in these cases.
In most cases, those in need of longer-term assistance, persons who have not been gainfully employed for a considerable length of time with not prospects for the immediate future may not qualify for rental assistance under these temporary emergency programs.
Those more likely to receive aid are persons who are able to convince interviewers of their willingness to do what is necessary to get back on their feet along with the ability to do so. Since emergency funding is considered a short-term “fix” for a crisis situation, the grants may be only issued for a few days, perhaps to defray the cost of a motel room, pending the applicant’s ability to find other lodgings.
Therefore it is important, in most similar cases, for the applicant to show the interviewer the imminent possibility to become self-sufficient.
Most non-profit agencies as well as other agencies attempt to work closely with rental assistance applicants to help them with any additional support as needed depending upon each applicant’s situation. Often applicants are further given counseling and referrals to other agencies that may be more helpful to an applicant.
In such cases, any additional services rendered are free to the applicant in crisis. This may include lack of employment and such other problems that may arise such as medical emergencies. Most agencies participate in these endeavors as well as teaching applicants the processes involved in applying for governmental programs, immediate rehousing and how to apply for Section 8 vouchers as well as information about low income housing, and assistance in paying the security deposits that are almost universally demanded by today’s rental market.
Since the goal of all similar agencies to to render aid to persons in immediate need of emergency housing and other crisis situations, the funds issued to applicants for rent or other necessities is only meant to allow the applicant extra time to deal with the emergency. However, at the same time, applicants will normally be provided with support in the long term to guard against similar future emergencies.
If you have an eviction notice or expect to be unable to pay the rent in the immediate future, or even realize that you need to find less expensive living quarters, now is the time to apply for assistance. Often with early application, money may be available to catch up unpaid rent as well as other options that may be explained to you.
Assistance may also be available to help with the security deposit, the initial rents and even moving costs. In some cities non-profit agencies may offer other emergency assistance to those in crisis. These funds are normally paid out on a one-time basis. Depending upon the location, resources that may be in place for housing crisis families can be wide-ranging.
Potential applicants are advised to find the telephone numbers as well as any other information available to them and educate themselves about the different programs that may be able to help with emergency assistance.
Not only non-profit private agencies, but many governmental agencies, are able to provide interim assistance, depending on the locality. Massachusetts has a program called RAFT, while in Texas a rental assistance program called TDHCA is available. Florida has a similar program called EFAHP and in Connecticut their program is called RAP. Many other government programs around the country also offer assistance to pay rent or a portion of overdue rent in their ongoing efforts to reduce the growing threat of homelessness in their particular communities.
Another program, called the Federal Stimulus Program is a little-known program through which our federal government provides billions of dollars across the nation to provide rental assistance for qualified applicants. These funds have become invaluable to families that find it increasingly difficult to keep up with the rising costs of rent and other housing needs.
HUD the Housing and Urban Development, agency works throughout the country as well. A number of families approaching two million are able to use this program, a program that can not only help those in need to pay their rent and/or security deposits, but HUD can issue vouchers to provide temporary housing as well as providing assistance to senior citizens and the disabled to keep up with overdue rental payments.
These programs not only offer grants to help pay rent, but the government Rent Voucher Program aids applicants to seek housing in the privately owned housing market.
These agencies can, generally, offer legal advice to those facing eviction. Every year millions of people receive free legal advice and assistance to educate them with the eviction process and their rights as well as responsibilities. The government provides funded Legal Services Corp. which provides attorneys who may mediate a solution between landlord and tenants in addition to advising tenants of their rights as well as help them apply for Section 8 or other assistance and another positive aid they offer is help and counseling on housing discrimination.
Counseling may also be provided to help applicants apply for government and/or private grants. Money is available for many of these crisis situations.
It is the goal of these agencies to prevent evictions wherever possible. The federal government as well as the many non-profit private agencies strive wherever possible to help applicants remain in their current quarters without the fear of being summarily evicted. Often these agencies are able not only to prevent evictions, but subsequent lawsuits that may be brought against a tenant. Alternatively, the agency may be able to find more suitable and affordable housing for an applicant facing eviction.
Many churches too offer funds that can help those in short-term financial difficulties. United Way and The Salvation Army are only two of the better-known charitable institutions that may be able to offer help when needed. Generally they give priority to those living in apartments and facing short-term financial crises.
A good number of other national and local charities are ready to help with the expenses of rent and other essential needs as well as providing case management and many other social services. No all charities have ready money all the time, but even those may be able to help by helping an applicant with information about other resources and assistance in applying for free grants to pay overdue rent.
Other agencies that often provide help might be, for example, Catholic Charities, Social Service Offices, United Way, the American Red Cross, the Legal Aid Society and as mentioned earlier, The Salvation Army. Aside from these examples there exist many other emergency aid agencies for those who are able to become informed.
While most of these programs provide only short-term emergency aid, they are designed for the most part to tide a family over until a longer-term solution becomes available. Often these same agencies will be able to direct qualified applicants to resources that may assist them in finding an apartment or house for more permanent security.
It is important however, during these times of crisis, to keep in touch with creditors and the applicant’s current landlord so they understand what you are doing and what you expect to accomplishment. It is important that the applicant be extremely honest with everyone about the situation and it may sometimes be possible to have monthly payments temporarily lowered, or even be allowed to skip a monthly rental payment. Other plans may be devised and put into place to avoid being evicted.
It is well-understood that not only landlords but other creditors too are much more willing to cooperate with persons who are up-front with them, honest in their discussions and show a willingness to cooperate and do whatever they can to improve with situations.
How to get help with bills?
Ask The Energy Company
if energy bills are the source of the hardship, then the energy providers’ own in-house programs are often the quickest way to help rearrange and meet repayments.
LIHEAP: Low Income Home Energy Assistance Program
This national program’s focus is on subsidies for repairs, weatherproofing and utility bills that families cannot afford to pay.
LIHEAP covers any energy related home repairs for low-icome families, including seasonal expenses like air cooling systems and winter heating bills. The local LIHEAP office is the first point of contact for those in need of energy or utility assistance. Eligibility varies from state to state.
WAP: Weatherization Assistance Program
The WAP is a federal grant organized by the Department of Energy that helps needy families improve their homes’ energy efficiency, and has assisted over 7 million households across many states, territories and Native American tribes since its inception in 1976.
According to the DOE guidelines, a household with anyone over 60 is eligible for the WAP, as are legally recognized disabled people. Most states make families with children eligible, and the website for the WAPTAC (Weatherization Assistance Program Technical Assistance Center) can advise others if the grants are available in their area, and whether they qualify.
LifeLine Assistance: Free Cell Phones
Americans in need of a cell phone plan but without the means to maintain one can get assistance from LifeLine Assistance‘s free phone program. This is indeed a lifeline as daily life and business in particular is practically impossible without a mobile phone.
LLA is an FCC mandated scheme offering a free cell phone with at least 250 monthly minutes included. It’s available in the 49 states, Washington DC and Puerto Rico, and typically requires a household income below 135% of Federal Poverty guidelines. For some states it is below 150%. Eligibility varies across participating states, with slightly different rules around qualifying income.
Other sources of help are available at state government level, or many national and local non-profit and charity organizations, and the energy companies themselves.
How to get Food For Free?
It doesn’t always require money to eat, and there are many ways to gain free food without adding to your debts or joining the 10% of Americans who have resorted to shoplifting. Ask people you know, or traders and restaurant and store owners.
Above all it’s important to explain why you are asking for food: because you can’t afford to eat. And not to be critical about what food you eat. Without a certain amount of money, there is no longer the choice of what to eat. So meat may become harder to get or if meat’s all that’s on offer and you are a vegetarian, it’s best to accept it with thanks.
Grow Your Own, Share With The Community
The most sustainable – and satisfying – way to provide free food for yourself is to grow it, and you can start with just seeds if you live in the country or with just a small space in the city. Guerrilla gardening is an interesting urban option, more organised community gardens and allotments can share space and expertise for growing, and seed swapping communities among gardeners are a good source of materials and encouragement.
Ask A Farmer
Out in the sticks there won’t be the option of stores and restaurants as a source of food, but ask any farmer and there’ll be some left on the fields that they didn’t or can’t sell. Many will let you pick these leftovers.
A rapidly growing movement in the United Kingdom and US is the organized and charitable distribution of food to those who can’t afford it. Most of the food is donated, and food banks are one of the easiest ways to obtain some nutritious food. Many banks have conditions for who they can give food to, but there is no need to be ashamed about visiting one.
Links to Food Banks in various countries
Offers and coupons
Online and direct from the stores, many coupons are available to promote new products. And companies across the United States send out free samples of new products. They’re unlikely to provide a healthy, balanced diet on their own but could supplement free food from other sources.
In an affluent country there is an abundance of unsold or waste food, and a little social interaction and resourcefulness can unlock access to a surprising amount of it.
Ask at the market
Often around closing time, stall holders will sell off any remaining stock for next to nothing, and it’s always worth telling them you have no money and asking if they’ll give you something for free. You can often pick up some fruit or salad, and if they can’t offer anything, thank them anyway and ask at another stall.
Free Supermarket Food
Ask at the big stores and you’ll be too far down the chain of command: “My boss doesn’t allow us to do that” will be the usual answer. So smaller supermarkets and neighborhood stores are a better option, where you can talk to that boss. You may find warmth and generosity among Muslims and immigrants to the West who run stores.
It requires some patience, a little nerve and a bit of practice, but it’s possible to get free, professionally prepared food, even a table to sit and eat it at. Restaurant districts in cities are obviously the best place to try this, and expect a success rate around 5%, so it requires persistence, but will sharpen your bargaining skills, and who knows where else that could lead?
Turn up at a restaurant after the busiest time but not too late, and explain that you have no money and ask if they have some left overs in the kitchen. It can help to have a container such as a plastic box ready in case they do have something, and if they’re friendly and can’t offer anything the first time, maybe they can put something aside the next day.
Searching and Foraging
It grows on trees, on the ground and some seasons there’ll be abundant fruit and tasty plants such as dandelions or chickweed. Even cities can produce some tasty wild food, and anyone near downtown Seattle has access to America’s first Food Forest in a major city.
Growing media coverage of the colossal food wastage at supermarkets and restaurants has made it much less weird, and more popular, to search through the dumpsters in search of some quality food to turn into a meal.
Dear Sir or Madam,
I am really not in the habit of asking for money. I was a hard worker, a teacher and a waitress, for many many years. I brought up two boys on my own as a single mom. I was very good with money. I bought one house for us, it doubled in price, I sold it and bought another one in Oregon where the air is so clean. My boys grew up well honored and our self-sustaining, independent people. They’re happy as well. They aren’t wealthy but they have their own businesses and do OK getting bye and happy. As for me I got cancer and they try to help me a bit because I was no longer working in because my Social Security is quite small.
Some of my family trying to help me through some of my bills after my operation. But they have their own families of their own lives. I had a very hard time after my cancer was removed from my breast. I have what they call costochondritis. That means that I get inflammation of the rib cage which causes excruciating pain. This disabled me to the point where I couldn’t go back to work. So I found a solution. I have travelled in my younger days to Asia’s so I decided to go back hoping it was cheap enough that my Social Security would sustain me. I am now in Vietnam. I went to different places where my Social Security was not enough. Then I found Cambodia and Vietnam and realize that these are the best places as far as my income goes. But for the last year of travelling I went to places that were a little more expensive and I got into a little bit of a financial bind. I had some money taken from a website that offer to housing and got a little bit behind. This put me behind on some credit card bills, I have two credit cards. I had good credit before, but I rented out my house in Oregon and my renters stopped paying suddenly on the first of this month. My Social Security was all going for bills that I used to fix up the house so that I could rent it, like putting in a well. My spring have been wiped out by a flood which FEMA didn’t cover. So my renter who was on a lease to own agreement because I wanted her to be responsible for the repairs, didn’t pay me because the septic backed up. But she didn’t tell me about it and she didn’t tell me she wasn’t going to pay it so this is been quite the shock. Because I was just on my way to the north of Vietnam to get a job paying 3000 a month as an English teacher.
I’m starting to feel well enough to work. The thing is I’m in Ho Chi Minh. I need to get to the north to be in Hanoi. It cost $55 to get there. I also need $1500 for the new septic tank and 1500 for labor to put it in. Right now I have shabby clothes. So I need interview clothes. It’s less humid in Hanoi and The humidity makes my chest swell which gives a lot of pain. So that’s why I want to go up north to get a job instead of staying here. Right now this minute I have four dollars to my name. if I can get the septic fixed my renter will pay me., it’s in she have the septic comped she won’t be able to pay me until August 1. If I have enough money for a skirt and blouse and shoes because I don’t want to interview in rags and if I have enough for food for a week and housing for a week I should be able to get a job. The job I want has accommodations free if I get that particular job. So if I get another job that doesn’t have housing I would need housing and food for a month because teachers get paid every month year. Living expenses here would be about $500 to 600 a month. So to round out a figure of about 4000 would set me up here so that I could be self-sustaining myself and not try to get money out of relatives who can’t afford to help me. It would be so helpful and I would be on the road to total independence again. Plus I would be forever grateful. I have a PayPal account. PayPal.me/kaygillett4000. I am a writer as well as an English teacher. I have been working on a book to help women and men as well who are in domestic violence situations. Please help me get on a clear path again. I apologize for not seeing a picture, but they weren’t accepted.
About 3wks ago my father in law was diagnosed with extensive small cell lung cancer . The cancer is terminal and has spread to his liver and other vital organs . He is a Vietnam vet and has always been a great father and grandfather . He did his first chemo treatment and a week later was rushed into surgery with a huge blood clot . The dr’s were able to remove the clot and he’s now stable for the time being . I’m the wage earner in our household as my husband has heart issues & copd and the dr won’t release him to work this has been going on for about 3yrs and normally isn’t an issue because I love my husband and don’t mind taking care of him and our 3 children (12, 15, 16) ! But I’ve missed so much work the last 3wks spending as much time 3 1/2 hrs from home with his dad as we can before he passes And I cannot pay my bills or buy school clothes and supplies for our kids because I’ve used all my assets including pawning my valuables and maxing out my credit card ! I’ve cried and cried for the loss my family is experiencing and the fact that I just can’t make ends meet at all due to the unexpected emergencies with my father in law . I don’t know what to do or where else to turn if I don’t come up with $380 for my lights in one week they will be cut off the total bill is $800 , my car is a month behind $340 , my phone will be disconnected in 4days $50, my trash service has already been stopped $48 ,I can’t even afford to buy a $12 bag of feed for my chickens!! All I can do is cry & pray that some great miracle will happen so that we don’t loose everything while we loose my father in law ……. If there’s anyone out there who can help us please please do we will be forever grateful and promise to pay it forward and do the same to help others out when we get back on our feet!!
I lost my job as a teacher, and I have been waiting for unemployment for weeks. My husband and I both have chronic medical conditions that require ongoing medical treatment. Between rent, bills, and car payments (as well as car insurance) we have no money for food or medical care. We can’t afford to get to and from our doctor or to pay for our medications (we take over 30 pills between the 2 of us per day, morning and night). The copays plus all the medications we take cost over $150 a month. Then you include blood tests to insure that the medications haven’t caused any organ damage/failure and that month is over $250, even with health insurance, prescription plans and dental insurance.
My husband’s molar cracked, and pieces of tooth are still embedded in his gums because it wasn’t a clean break. We just moved to a new apartment, but it required 2 months of rent to secure it. We knew money would be tight, but we were living in a gang ridden neighbourhood for over 1 year to survive financially. We need to feel safe in order to maintain our “health,” and it is a daily struggle; so moving was imperative. Living in that dangerous neighborhood has taken it’s toll, so we moved once we found this new place.
After waiting this long for unemployment, and with no guarantee of securing it (even though my position was eliminated and I am eligible to receive it according to all the criteria) we have exhausted any and all savings we had. There is one to borrow money from except each other; so now we have no food money. We were homeless years ago because I was too sick to work. But we came back from it stronger; we found a place to live and a modest vehicle to get me to work. My husband can’t work due to his disability. Please help us out. Crying over this has wreaked havoc on my health and my eyes are swollen. I can’t watch my husband lose his will to fight because homelessness and hunger seem to be inevitable again. I fought so hard to pull us out of that ditch, but I’ve run out of hope. Please spare anything, even change; it’s much better than the nothing that we currently are facing.
Thank you and please keep us in your prayers.
It has come to this I see. A once proud, confident and capable man. Arrogant, some would say. And rightfully so. I was. I deserved to be. I served proudly in the U.S. Army for 10 years. In 2 wars, a foreign occupation, and 2 peace keeping missions. I defended the innocent, thrown myself into harms way, protected the innocent, and held the dying in my hands because of the genocide that ran rampant through their country. I have bled and wept for this honor. The physical wounds have healed, their scars only a reminder. It’s the mental wounds that leave me in anguish. That never seem to heal. That have finally taken a toll, such that I am left nearly defeated.
It has come to this. PTSD. An evil, creeping, unseen and misunderstood wound. It manifest in many ways and can take years to develop. And it has its claws deep in me now. I have been unable to work for over a year because of flashes of anger. Fear rules my days, and dreams torment my nights. Days at a time without sleep and depression often make me lose a job. The anxiety, claustrophobia and paranoia have done that as well.
It has come to this. The machine that is the V.A. is very skeptical to grant disability for mental disorders. Even though one of their own psychiatrist diagnosis it. Same with Social security. I have fallen so far behind on my bills I am now at risk of being homeless. I have already lost my car and sold everything I own to keep moving forward. None the less I am at rock bottom.
Now it has come to this. On the bright side, my Dr. has done well for me. Her therapy and compassion has put me on a path that will lead to wellness. It will be a long and hard road, but I will make it. I feel confident enough to have an interview this week for work. I may be down, but not out. But in order to make it, I need a battle buddy in the worst way. I need transportation to this job, and living in a rural area, public transportation is not an option. I also need a place to sleep, shower and exist until I get my self squared away again. Any help in helping me heal and move on would be greatly appreciated. It would not go to waste. A warrior may hurt, but a warrior will never give in no matter the cost. I will make it, but I need a little help. I thank you for your time and consideration.
A Soldier in Distress
I’m 22 years old. Now I live and work in the city. Making bad decisions I’m in money problems. I wanna return to my country side to my family and start all from zero. I want to help my parents and work in the agricultural sector, growing plants, vegetables, and animals.
For a long time, I was thinking what I want to do in my life, but now I have understood. Always I knew I return to my parents to help them, and I should start it as soon it’s possible. There is much work to do and the house is big to live there.
I have seen part of my life visions and I know what to start with. I’m thankful for what I have and I will be thankful if you help me.
I need pay cash debt in the amount of 4000€, I need to solve this problem fast to make my next steps for better life. To do it by my self it takes a long time because my salary is small, this problem makes my days really bad. I hope for your support, any donation will be worth to get back to my road.
Best wishes for all.
Please help my children . To begin with I’m going to lose my house. I am seeking legal help which is not cheap so it’s on hold for now. My ex fiance walked out 1wk b4 Chrissy last year leaving his 6yr old and myself plus my 2 other children in alot of financial debt. We have a mortgage to pay but unfortunately being on a single parent pension with other bills, food and everything else in life it’s not easy. With my age and fibromyalgia it’s really hard to find someone to employ me. My 6yr old loves to dance but that comes with fees. I’m trying my best to provide for my children even to the extent of putting a ad on a site just to make ends meet. I am at my lowest of lows and I’m asking please help my children. Thank you for taking time out to read my story. God bless x
I am a mom of four beautiful children asking for some help for my family and I. We have been in a financial crisis ever since my husband lost his job and we had to relocate to a very high cost of living area when an opportunity for work arose. We moved 12 hours away from any family members who often provided support for our family in times of need. The relocation and mountains of student loan debt have made it very difficult to get ahead. My husband works 12 hour days and has little time to enjoy his family. I work part time (yes I will go full time as my children are bigger but I have 2 very young children and one who has significant needs that make working full time hard for our family) so most of my salary is poured back into childcare. We are living paycheck to paycheck and if any crisis comes up…a sick child, a car issue, therapy for our youngest, or an unplanned expense we just dig deeper into debt. I have had to use credit cards to cover month to month expenses and those have piled up. My husband has a father who basically dropped him from his life as soon as he turned 18. In turn he took on a ton of student loans to complete his college degree. Then as he finished school repayment was in issue. He was not ready to pay the loan back and did a few things that still affect him today. We both have student debt that takes about $1000 dollars of our monthly income. My husband has poor credit from not paying on these student loans in the initial years of repayment and in hard times. He also has very little credit history. We just need a break. We have done all that we can to better ourselves…we both graduated from college and I even have my masters degree. We haven’t ever been on a true vacation, we rarely eat out unless it is fast food because we cook most meals to save money, we aren’t out shopping for the latest and greatest, we buy what is needed, and buy things for our children only on birthdays and holidays. The problem is we look like we make enough so we don’t get any help anywhere. We make enough on paper but our student loan debt is choking us. We would love to buy a home, but we don’t have a down payment and do not qualify for a decent loan. If we could even get a home versus paying an obscene amount in rent in the area we live that would leave us with a great deal more a month. We would love to pay down our debts to so that we can live more comfortably and have money to save for a home. We are both in our forties with young children. At this rate, I will be working until I am in my 80s trying to pay back my debt and care for my children and their education. We are the working middle class family who is struggling. We are working, contributing to society, caring and loving our children, and helping those in our community by giving of our time. My dream one day is to be financially fit enough to use my income for freely to help others. I just hope that in the present time I can feel a bit less suffocated by debt. If you are looking for a family to help we would forever be grateful. We are the everyday family who is struggling to make ends meet.
Hello I was in a car accident June 1 2016 and due the injuries i had sustained it caused me to lose my job. I was attending physical therapy 3 times a week with 2 of my children whom were in the car with me for 8 months. When I filed a claim with the insurance company they denied everything and I had to get a Lawyer to file a Suit which has been ongoing. Without being able to work I had got behind on my bills so every little bit of money I received was going towards a bill well I finally got a Job in April but in May after my training and 4 days before Memorial Day of this year they told me that I was not one of the Candidates who they choose at the moment. So here I am again at a lost cause now I have bills due and No way of paying them on top of that 3 children that I have to raise on my own. My Water bill was due on the 6th of June I contacted them to see if I could make some arrangements and was told No the payment is due if not paid within 2 days that the full amount will be due, well I didn’t have it so on the 26th of June they came and Shut Off my Water I have been out of Water for 11 days now desperately trying to seek help if there is anyone who can help me in my time of need I will forever be grateful. I am in dire need of help please any and every little bit will help. Thank You
Have you ever felt like you were trying to dig yourself out of a hole and the dirt is just falling down on top of you? That is where I am at this point. In July 2015 I found out that I had a blood cut in by leg from the knee to the ankle in an artery and I had an 8 pound tumor on too of my uterus that was causing me to bleed out. From then until November I had several blood transfusions and surgeries. The bleeding out stopped, they restored a little blood flow in the leg. Then told me I have several blood clots in the arteries under my lungs and one in my aorta. I then developed an infection in my abdomen which required a wound vac and eventually another surgery. I missed a lot of work and am the sole provider. Any money saved was gone to co-pays and bills while no money came in. Things began to look up and then November 2016 I was layer off and was not hired again until March 2017. And in March my landlord raised the rent 200…We moved in May to a much smaller place to reduce bills but are behind and struggling to hold on. I lost one car already and have sold anything I can to keep lights and water and rent paid. Everything is seriously behind and I have used every extension I can. I know others may have it worse but I am falling and need a little help to get back on track. Due to losing my job in November I also was uninsured so have been off my medications as well, I could keep on but even I can’t believe all that has happened this last year and a half. The stress is overwhelming.
Hello and sorry for my bad English.
I’m in a difficult situation because the online company I worked for closed up.
For months I have not seen the salary and I need urgent help to pay for water, energy and gas bills.
I also have pets that have been living with me for many years and they are all my life.
I urgently need within 10 days because they will cut off my home energy and water. I waited until this moment because I was hoping the money would come. The company, on the other hand, is unable to pay because of the problems of the crisis.
For months I don’t work and in September I will be without a job.
For me it’s not easy to find a job because I have important physical problems (but I don’t have any retirement for this). Here in Italy unfortunately social assistance does not work at all. Besides, I have a small house, so according to the law I do not expect any subsidies.
The situation for me at this time is really serious as I can barely buy to eat. So I ask someone who can afford to give something to help me deal with a moment I consider tragic.
I had thought of selling the house, but it’s very old and for crisis period it has little value, so I would end up staying without money and even without a home.
I talked about my animals before. I could not get away from them as they to me.
Any donation to me is very important because I have to be able to carry on until September when I should have a new job if everything goes well.
I apologize for the urgent request but I absolutely have to find the money by 15-16 of July. The electric company does not accept any further referrals.
If necessary I can prove to anyone my need. Among other things, it is difficult to ask for me because I have never been in such a situation and I would never think that I was facing such a serious problem.
Unfortunately, my age and my health problems do not allow me to find easy work offline and in Italy very few companies offer serious online work.
I would also like to ask if any of you have the opportunity to offer me a serious job.
I thank all those who will help me to deal with this moment. I know that I will never know you to thank you personally, but please help me.
Hello to everyone out there and thank you for taking the time to read my story. I’ve faced many problems throughout life, but I am currently at an all time low. I’d say the bulk of my problems began when I started college 4 years ago. College started off great. I met new people. I had a 4.02 GPA at the end of my first year. It seemed as if everything was on track and the next 3 years would be a breeze. I was wrong.
As a first generation college student, I wasn’t prepared for some of the trouble that would come along. At the beginning of my sophomore year I was raped and held hostage for over 24 hours and from that moment my life hasn’t been the same. I began to suffer from depression and anxiety which as time went by it got worse and worse. I cried out for help, but no one listened. Eventually I suffered a nervous breakdown and ended up in a mental institution.
After regaining my mental health, I wasn’t just going to sit and let that stop me from accomplishing my goal of being the first in my family to graduate. I picked myself back up,got back to school, worked 2 jobs, and maintained my own apartment. Obviously with two jobs plus school, stress levels were high, but I was doing pretty well will managing my anxiety. But that’s when the evil forces returned.
My home was broken into. They completely destroyed my home and even tried to blow it up. The gas lines were tampered with. The batteries were removed from the smoke detector. And the patio door was left slightly cracked to let the smell of gas air out. Unfortunately, police never found who did this to my home. I was told that I had to move out immediately. Just a week later, I was told I was being laid off from my job due to budget cuts. This left me homeless and jobless. On top of that, I have ran out of scholarship money and was forced to drop out during my last semester of school. Here I am, left to face all of these problems alone because my whole family recently relocated to a new state and couldn’t afford too take me along. Being 22 years old, I was pretty much told just to figure it out. Currently, I work but I only make $80 a week. Its certainly not enough to afford an apartment, so I use the money for food and gas and just sleep in my car. I have been on a job search and hopefully will have an offer come in soon. With all that is going on I have become severely depressed and anxious again. I spend most of my days (outside of work) in tears, begging god for help. I have even had multiple nervous breakdowns in the past few weeks, but cannot afford to seek medical attention for them.
This is an all time low for me and I just need a little help getting on my feet. Any donation will help, even if it is just a dollar. Please find it in your heart to donate.
I’ve never made anything like this before but then again I’ve never been in a situation quite like this before.
My name is Joanie and I am a 61 year old widower. My husband died in May of 2015 unexpectedly. I am also disabled. I have had a stroke and been paralyzed before therapy and hard work gave me the ability to walk again with assistance, I have had cancer, and emergency heart surgery and most recently I have had a partial amputation.
The costs of this funeral plus all of these medical bills and prescriptions are exorbitantly high and since my husbands passing and my inability to work the debts and bills have mounted. Due to these medical bills I have a horrendous credit score lower than 500. This means I cannot get a loan anywhere. I have the money to pay it back over time just not the credit score to receive it.
I only have one vehicle that I use to get to my doctor’s appointments and to get groceries and pay my bills and it was repoed last week due to late payments.
I owed less than $5,000 on it so they refuse to refinance with me. To get my vehicle back I must pay it in full along with their fees which add up to $5,300.00 I barely have $100 at the moment and that’s spoken for by the electric company.
Please I need some help. I need $5,300.00 before July 9, 2017 I would definitely be willing to set up payments to pay you back for any help provided. I am in desperate need. Please anyone that can, please help me.
Thank you and blessings,
Hi I am Lisa. I am 19 years old. I need a bit of help though! Growing up my mom and I never had a good relationship. We fought everyday and she even got abusive. I came out as bi to her in 2013, and she did not like that. Her and my brother used to call me names, hit me with their hands, fists, chairs, etc. With all this happening, it put me into a deep deep deep depression. I was in and out of mental hospitals, foster homes and i missed a total of 109 days from school my junior year. I would love to go to college but i have multiple mental disabilities such as depression, anxiety, ptsd, bipolar 1, border line personality and a learning disability in math. I cannot work, I have tried to but not many places will hire me with my disabilities. My mom kicked me out and I am struggling to make ends meet. I don’t have clothes and when i ask her to help with clothing or food she turns me down and shuts me away. Being adopted by her i would hope she would be different. I really need someone or some people to help me financially until i can get ssi approved. Please let there be a caring individual help me, the money would go towards housing, clothing , food and counseling. Thank you for reading! Have a good day. My paypal me is paypal.me/lisapraz
Hi, I’m a 47 year old male. I have type 2 diabetes, bad knees, bad shoulders, bad back, and bad luck. I’ve been looking for work for the past year and a half with only two job interviews to show for it. I’ve had my resume on Indeed for some time now. My employment insurance ran out 3 weeks ago as of this plea, and I have no income. I honestly would like to give up this life but I believe in God and if I do give up there is no way I can be with God.
I haven’t paid my rent this month. I just tried to get help from social services but was denied. I was denied because I still live with my former fiancee. She and I are great friends and we had a living arrangement to reduce costs for both of us. She is going to have her gall bladder removed later this month and she had to book two weeks holidays to have the surgery. We live in a community where the cost of living is very high. I can’t live off of her income as she makes very little as a dishwasher. I just overheard her on the phone looking for a home for herself.
In 2003, I worked for a mobile sign company. I injured my back when a gust of wind blew a sign on top of me. The injury is a compressed disc in my lower back. In 2012 I was a dock worker and would occasionally shunt trailers. One night I was getting into a truck and I tore the ACL in my right knee. I continued to work, causing injury to my left knee due to being overworked as I was favoring the right knee. It took months to have my knees looked at and I finally had my ACL replaced. They still don’t know what is wrong with the left knee but I’m in pain daily. I have no idea how I injured the shoulders but an MRI showed I have torn rotator cuffs. The diabetes started shortly after the knees as I had put on a lot of weight.
I just got my first notice from my landlord for non payment of rent today. I’ve been praying for God to help me find work but am still unemployed. Every night now, I pray for God to take me from this world so I can start over in a new life. I don’t know what else to do and have nowhere else to turn. I don’t drink, don’t do drugs, and am considered a nice person. If the shoe were on the other foot, and you were asking for help, I would help instantly. Unfortunately, I’ve never been in that position. If I ever won the lottery, my dream is to find other people in my situation and help them out.
I had a decent vehicle up until about 6 months ago but a front strut bearing seized and I kept driving it because I could not afford the repairs. Eventually, the front spring broke making the car un-driveable. Instead of giving the car to a scrapper where they could profit, I gave it to a young father in my community. He repaired the car and sold it. I bought a 500.00 car in hopes of finding work. Now that car has over heating problems, and worn wheel bearings, high mileage, and is sure to break down soon. Therefore I can’t sell the car as it has no worth.
My last job interview was 2 weeks ago and I went for a drug test, and a driving test. It was for a P and D driver position. I was told they would let me know either way and I was so excited. I haven’t heard a peep so I called, and the manager is currently on 3 weeks vacation. I didn’t get the position.
I know there are a lot of scammers out there and if you think I’m one of them, feel free to contact me and I can verify everything I’ve written. I wish this life was over but it’s not. I’ve never been the type to rely on others but I don’t know what to do anymore. Please help take the burden off. I continue to pray.
Hello everyone. Firstly, I’d like to thank you for clicking on this page, and I apologize, I’m not very good at writing posts such as this. Please excuse any foolish mistake that I might make in this post, English is not my mother tongue. I disdain being in this position, asking people for money, but I’m afraid I don’t have any other choice… I’m Michael, I’m 18 years old and I grew up in a poor family of 6 people in terrible conditions. We used to live in a tiny apartment, which we later abandoned due to debt issues. Currently, we live in another house that is in a bad shape, it’s 50 years old and it has construction issues, it lacks thermal, fire and impact insulations and a handful of walls were riddled when we first purchased it. The house is big, sustainable for our family and paid at a relatively small price in instalments, which is why we stuck to this one. My father suffers from bipolar disorder and is taking medication and visiting a therapist (Which costs around $6,500 each year in total), my mother has problems with her legs and requires surgery (I apologize for not having enough information in that regard, I’ve tried to ask her multiple times but she doesn’t want to talk about it, her surgery costs several thousand dollars), my older brother is struggling to find a job, my older sister now has a child and she and her husband do need money from time to time to raise my nephew, and my little sister is often bullied in school because she does not always have everything she needs, like new clothes. I’m suffering from depression for a couple years now due to this and the fact that I’m unable to help them. I’ve tried multiple times in the past without any success. I’ve tried looking at part-time jobs, but I was unable to find any at my age (At the time). I graduated in computer science, and I want to become a game developer, but I do not have a computer anymore, I’m typing this from my friend’s computer. Our computer was wrecked last year and it was powerful enough to sustain my needs. I wanted to help them so badly and I stumbled upon this website. I do not ask from you to help pay my financial issues… I’m begging you, please, to donate to me $400. If you’re wondering why I’m asking for such a small amount of money in comparison to our debts, the answer is this: I’m done being a bargain, unemployed, jobless. I’m tired of seeing my family suffer. I’m tired of seeing our debts increasing, and my mother struggling to spare enough money for us to survive. I want and wanted to take action at a very young age. I found an offer online to purchase a good workstation for $400, and from that I’ll start as a freelancer programmer, write programs, create webpages, etc… Whatever pays. I have the motivation to work for 16 hours straight. I do not care what happens to me. All I want is to help my family… Deep-down they are great people who have taught me many things. I’m sick of being in this helpless position. I believe there’s good in humanity, that people do have the kindness to help other people, otherwise this website would never exist… I’m terribly sorry I’m asking from you money… Please believe me, I’d never do that if I didn’t have to. I realize some of you might be going through the same, and/or perhaps even worse… If you do, please, I encourage you to create a page on this website. I’m not an advertiser. I’m sure there are people that have the good to help other people…
This is my mother’s PayPal.me link. I don’t have a bank account yet. http://www.paypal.me/kgmike
I apologize for the long state of this message, I’m sure you understand… Thank you very much for reading, and I’m sorry for the sap. I couldn’t contain it… I’d really appreciate it if you could help me. Thank you once again, I wish you the best in life and peace. Much love.
I am a 24 year old female who works 40+ hours a week at an assisted living home. I will be completing my bachelors degree in psychology at the end of the year with intentions to become a social worker. I work very hard at my job. I take care of the elderly and I really love doing it. I have a passion for providing people with good personal care and helping maintain their dignity at the end of their life. I love the relationships I have built with my residents and how much they depend on me to help them daily. I unfortunately don’t get paid very much, but I manage to survive. Between my tuition, car payment, rent and bills, I don’t have much money leftover to save. Yesterday, my car was repossessed while I was at work. I had missed a couple payments at the beginning of the year when I was in the process of moving. I have been paying down the debt in small amounts over the past few months. I was in contact with my loan provider who warned me repossession was possible, but unlikely since I hadn’t abandoned my payments. When I called yesterday after being told by a coworker my car was repossessed, they told me after 45 days of being late, they send my information to the collection agency and my car can be repossessed without warning. Without my car, I cannot get to work or school. I am hoping somebody would be kind enough to donate whatever they can to help me get my car back. The loan provider told me I needed to pay my loan in full in order to get my car back. That is around $15,000. It is a 2016 Ford Focus that I worked very hard to purchase in the first place. This repossession has really shaken me up and I have nobody to ask for help. Any amount of donation would be helpful. I am really hoping there are kind and wealthy people who are looking to help somebody like me. I’m doing everything I can to make as much money as I can to retrieve my car, but $15,000 is a lot to earn in 15 days. I am a good person who puts out positive energy into the world not only by helping my residents, but by helping anybody I can in any way. I believe in “paying it forward” and karma. I am hoping and praying a miracle can be made for me on this website. Thank you for taking the time to read this and if you donate, an even bigger thank you.
Here is my PayPal account:
I was raised by a strong woman who taught me to be independent and ward working, but life has gotten the best of me and now I am asking for your help. I know there are hundreds of people online asking for financial help, and you may be wondering why am I different. Well honestly, I’m not. Life has its ups and downs, but I find myself in a hole that I cannot get out of without asking for assistance.
My grandmother adopted me at four days old out of a bad situation. She worked two jobs to make sure I had everything, and stopped her life to raise me. As I got older I realized all she had done for me and promised her that I would care for her myself and never put her in a nursing home. We both know that abuse and neglect can happen and I would never want her to be unhappy or in harm’s way. I moved from Connecticut to Colorado in search of a new and better life, where I could work and provide for her. I started working a great job, but it was through a staffing agency and was only temporary. I thought that I could easily find another job with my educational background, and I did. However, because I am my mother’s caregiver and she was getting ready for heart surgery, she had a lot of doctor’s appointments. My employer ended up firing me because I had to come in late to take her to the appointment; and since I was employed through another staffing agency I was ineligible for unemployment.
Things after that got worse. I put in dozens of applications daily, but no calls. I started getting behind on my rent, utilities, and my car. I tried to stay afloat but I just couldn’t. My mother and I were evicted and she kept my security deposit, so we were homeless for two months until I could save for a new place. Although, I was and am working my car has been repossessed and I have to walk 5 miles to work, work a 9 hour shift as a custodian, then walk back home 5 miles. I leave at 2:00 p.m. and return home at 4:00 a.m. I can’t take her to her appointments because we have outstanding medical bills, we have no food in the house because we cannot afford it. We usually eat popcorn and Raman when we can afford it for substance. I tried to get her on food stamps, but her social security is “too much” at just over $1,000 a month. We have lost everything and I have no family to ask for help since they disowned us when she adopted me. All my friends have families of their own to take care of, so it is just the two of us.
I am asking for your help, so I may get back on my feet. I have never asked anyone for help, but I don’t know what else to do, I am at my breaking point and have hit rock bottom. Anything you can donate to food, rent, and helping me get transportation again would be so appreciated that words cannot describe it. Just taking the time to read my story means so very much to me. I never thought I would be in this situation, but now that I am I am asking for help. Please, help me keep my promise to my mother, and help us stay home.
The picture you are looking at is what my current rent is for the month of July.
So, I need some help.
I am a mom of 2, I go to school full time and work 2 jobs. I am trying my hardest to save money to get out of the situation I am in, but paying for school on minimum wage plus bills is killing me.
I need to get out of my boyfriend’s house. I signed up for section 8 and applied to low income housing, but the wait lists are insane. I won’t be done with school for 3 years, when I’m done I’ll be making good money as an RN (I am in the process of getting my Bachelors of Science in Nursing.) But until then I am barely scraping by.
I went to go to the women’s shelter but it is full, and they told me even if they had an open spot most of the other women are meth addicts and are high almost constantly and I don’t want my kids seeing the things they told me these women do.
I am now facing 3 surgeries this summer to fix damage done to me by my boyfriend, who I obviously am breaking up with asap, but can’t leave until I am afraid of what will happen if I break up with him before I have somewhere for my children and myself.
I can’t take this anymore, I’m constantly terrified, and I really don’t know what will happen next, every time something happens it’s worse than the time before, not to mention I’m afraid my grades will slip if this stress continues. It’s impossible to focus on my studies when I have all of this to deal with, but if I get less than A’s and maybe a couple B’s I will lose my spot in the nursing program, because they give the spots to people based on their grades and the competition is fierce.
I just want a safe home for me and my children, I feel so defeated and stuck. We deserve better but I don’t know how to get it. I’m trying everything I can think of. I really need out, I need a safe home for my children. I hate asking for help but I fear staying any longer.
Please consider helping me get some money up to move and help cover bills until I am on my feet again.
Hello, I am currently facing a very stressful time as I am still very young and new to the hardships of trying to live independently and to make matters worse I got a charge for marijuana possession while in Myrtle Beach. I’ve completely acknowledged that I shouldn’t have had any illegal substances on me and I should have exercised my rights when being pulled over but I made a terrible mistake and it is putting me in extreme stress.
I want to pursue an education and I am currently going to school for Information Technology and finding a career in this field would be difficult to attain with a criminal record. I also need a clean record to be able to receive Financial Aid for next semester and so I am very much in a state of panic and tribulation. I want to make my mother happy and I don’t want to bother her with MY problem as she already does so much for me and I can’t let her down while she is working so hard. I want to be able to finish college and make both my parents happy as they sacrificed so much to come to the United States and it took this entire ordeal for me to finally appreciate what freedom and peace of mind I once had.
The best lawyer I spoke to is charging me around $1000 and I am confident they will be able to have my case dismissed and later expunged so that my record can be clean. I currently just started working a job but as of now I won’t be making enough money to cover the costs by the time of the trial which is around July 16th-22nd (Would rather not be specific on the internet) and so I am asking if anyone would be so kind hearted to give me a chance to set my life straight as I have now learned from sitting in jail that I should not be wasting my time and effort on things that won’t take me anywhere.
Please, Anything would help
Thank you so much for taking your time and bless you.
Yes, I understand how ridiculous this sounds that I am actually asking money for a new phone.
But, let me explain the situation my dear. I live in a family where we don’t have money basically at all. Even though my parents wanted to make me happy and bought me the iPhone 7+ with 256 gigabytes, that is 1100€?! My mom doesn’t even make that much in a month and she still bought me the phone.
So, I was robbed a few days back and I lost all my cash and of course the phone. Due that, I have been crying and been depressed since I don’t know how in the world can I tell my mother about it. She would of course buy me a new one but with what consequences? That we would have no money for food or she has to give up something herself?
My request is that I could get in total of 1100€ so I could go and buy the phone and keep my mom happy and show her that I am the most happiest person in the world with my new phone!!
Just give what you can if you just may! 10cents? That is lovely. a grand? Just as lovely as the 10cents.
You don’t even have to give anything but I hope you would share this! <3
Thank you <3
PayPal.me : paypal.me/lucahammr
As I sit here writing this, it is out of complete desperation- I have no tears left and sadly it has come down to praying that the kindness of a stranger may show me that karma isn’t completely imaginary. I have no idea if anyone ever actually looks at this site, but had to take a chance.
I was recently in a car accident that destroyed my back and I had to give up my dream career because I am physically unable to do it anymore. I have three kids, and my oldest tonight asked if we would be able to get groceries, and I just broke down crying. We have no vehicle, only liability on the car that was totalled in my accident because we couldn’t afford proper coverage.. extremely far behind on all my utilities… I have the most ridiculous student debt that is being demanded to get paid back, tax refund was offset.. and to be honest I often times feel my kids would be much better off if I wasn’t even alive, because then they would be able to stay with someone who could provide them with the comforts that I will never be able to give.
I’ve tried so hard to give them a good life and be a mom they could be proud of, but I feel at this point there’s no coming out of this enormous debt. I just want to be able to feed my family and not have this guilt anymore.. I can’t even drive to a food shelf without a vehicle, just don’t know what to do. I assume not many people will see this, but even if one person does who could help even just a little, it would restore some faith. I don’t want this for myself, just the kids. God bless anyone who takes the time… PayPal link paypal.me/Heidi756
Hello, my name’s Valentina and I’m from Chile. I’ve never asked people on the internet for help but I think I really need to do it now.
My mom has been unemployed for months and it’s been hard for her to find an stable job (in our city job offers are low lately) and I can’t work because I’m studying (I still don’t finish high school because I got behind due to depression) my dad has been helping us but it’s not enough, and our family almost doesn’t help us (we don’t really have a “close” family, bad luck I guess) so we’re stuck in a situation where we don’t really can buy food or pay the bills. We’ve asked for money to everyone already so we owe them already so we can’t ask again. I wanted to see if there’s anyone who could help us with a little bit of help, anything counts as long as we can save up to pay the bills and buy some food at least for the time being (my mom is still job hunting)
I can’t really attach any bills on here because they’re in Spanish and I doubt they can be read by the readers of here. But if I have to I will if I’m asked.
I will share a pic of my cat because I also need to buy food for her. Thank you so much if you help/read this!
My paypal.me link: paypal.me/Valentina78
I know the true value of life are the memories and moments that can’t be bought or sold. However, as a single mom working two jobs and still struggling to stay afloat, I also know those memories and moments – as valuable as they are – don’t pay the bills.
That’s why I am leaning on the kindness of strangers. Due to a series of unexpected expenses – a surgical procedure, several costly car repairs and emergency dental work – over the last year and a half, I have fallen farther and farther behind on bills as I try just to stay afloat paycheck to paycheck. As a result, I now owe back rent on the condo I share with my daughter, a condo that provides a safe and happy home, a home I don’t want to lose.
The problem is – there is no way to get caught up when you’re caught in this cycle. I work very hard 6-7 days a week. I do not believe in handouts. And I wouldn’t seek assistance if I wasn’t in such immediate need. I consider this a hand up – a helping hand to pull me out of a difficult situation. If I am able to rise above, I will reach my hand down, in turn, to help others who are reaching out in hopes of the same kindness I am asking you to show me.
Thank you in advance for your consideration.
VERY LONG. BUT I SHARED MY WHOLE SOUL, IN AN ATTEMPT TO PROTECT MY SOBRIETY. Hello, my name is Courtney and I’m an addict. ( LEADING UP TO MY PRESENT DAY HELL. ) My profound lack of a solution has led me here, to plead for mercy from strangers for my daughter, family, my two most loyal, best most lifesaving friends Sophie & Mu ( My little beagle & my 100+ lb Hippie Pitbull. Without them, I authentically and unapologetically can share TODAY that I would of been another sadistic death statistic related to heroin addiction here in the Mid-Ohio Valley. Those dogs became my purpose to endure, yes and suffer, yes. But, to forfeit my worsening unrelenting belief that suicide was the only option & that it would be such a service to my loved ones, suvh a weight lifted. Abandoning the plan, I did that. But, the thoughts? The beliefs? They’ve never went too far out of my mind, which is why im allowing myself to take the advice from someone who truly wouldn’t of wasted her time, or invested emotionally with helping me to carry as much of my baggage as she could over the years, despite her being 700 miles away, which her love for my daughter & I has been a blessing to my existence. For that? I am following her guidance and following her faith that, “The truth shall set,” me “free.” She last said regarding this. When so frequently, people in my life chose to disturb my mind, my heart and recklessly alter my entire journey from adolescent life, continuing into present day, at 31 years old with this disgust for myself, that has manifested into my making destructive, phenomenally disturbing decisions that after marinating several years, crushed with the weight of abuses, horrific luck, perpetually experiencing worsening blows to my STABILITY, mentally and otherwise – and ultimately there came an over abundance of damage after having my own daughter which caused me to recognize the gross negligence from many adult people, who could have helped protect and preserve my chance at becoming a woman much different than what I am today. But, instead here I am today, 31 – being “raised,” FINALLY, but I have a incredibly supportive 10 year old daughter, Gabi – thats life has been regrettably damaged as a direct result of my lack of knowing any authentic COPING, mental or life skills, my having a belief in my mental diagnosises being something to be ashamed of, and hide. I fought the “diagnonsenses,” ( as I called them. ) never wanting to accept even more flaws, that only contributed to my sabotaging myself, never believing I deserved any different. I’m from Massachusetts, and got kicked out around 16 years old, to West Virginia. Here, I continued to experience as many different head changes ( i.e. – getting “high,” altered state of mind. ) Realizing, it silenced my distractingly LOUD truth, of my mental health issues, being something legitimate and silencing the “issues,” and drugs became my treatment plan, and it helped me really to believe I WASN’T that girl, with that history, with that damage – with THOSE diagnosises. On drugs, I mostly liked myself, or appeared to. Socializing sober, wasn’t something I often did, because for several years, I was just “partying.” Until, heroin. ( PRESENT DAY, HOPELESSLY DOOMED .) Had my kid, and was an every day Mom Almost 7 years. No family to help me to keep a roof over my head, a scary reality that resulted as a direct consequence of a truly disruptive mother-daughter fight and ultimately, exposed me to such a different drug world than what I’d known up to that point. Heroin? “I’d never put a needle in my arm,” – I’d say. But looking back, I also never thought I’d do heroin, or take risking my life as far as I have. I have essentially studied my journey, journaling and blogging since elementary school – believing my life story absolutely would get concluded as a SUCCESS STORY – that I would be so proud to tell my story, LOUD and CONFIDENTLY…. lessons learned, applied & a harnessed health & happiness that I always believed was just a little out of reach, but I religiously BELIEVED I would get there and each time I would take an attempt on my life, or each time my contagiously destructive disregard for my injesting excessive amounts of drugs would cause my overdoses in combination with a string of paralyzing life experiences that embedded within me, the several mental health diagnosises I’ve been handed the last decade. Some peoples drug issues, cause the mental issues they have. With me, a few doctors collectively believe my mental issues, created my drug issues – essentially, putting me in therapy as a child definitely wasn’t even considered, even tho, looking back – just one person deciding to protect me from the unavoidable hell and mental anguish that my rollercoaster with medication, behavioral health trips, all types of abusively unjust & harmful hits my life has taken, the going to treatments, nut wards, my failed marriage, my lack of any unconditional and present SUPPORT, the hateful judgement and the unimaginably cruel parts people have played in my story, failing my daughter ( who said “you’re only a failure if you quit trying, mommy. “- the damages of My 19 year drug experimentation that sparked the sabotage of my soul, and ultimately ALL OF THAT, the cause and effect, the outcome? DESPITE being left for dead, during the worst, most difficult time of my life, withdrawing from a heavyweight use of heroin, being cut with a tranquilizer 10,000 more potent than morphine. A year ago this month I was on top of the world, I was healthy, happy, into yoga, fitness and TRX, I wasn’t a good mom damn it I was a GREAT MOM… After all those years, now, with 3 years of I.V. drug use under my belt, id found a cocktail of meds and life style changes that brought me to a place I once BELIEVED to be a myth, I was happy. I saw the light. Someone related to my daughter, unsure EXACTLY what Happened, but they decided to steal my medication, influencing the breech in the contract I’d signed that allowed me one of the major key meds that assisted me in becoming someone who authentically loved herself – for the first time, ever. At 30. They decided to deter me from regaining my position with my kid and in life and it is and my experiences allow me to justify my regarding that theft as the most cold blooded rape of my life, diminishing all willingness to believe there ever being a light at the end of this tunnel, becoming allergic to sustaining, becoming disenchanted and more severely disturbed by my heavyweight heroin habit that resulted in several different attempts to end my life – WHICH EACH TIME I WOKE UP, ALIVE – despite my best, most unsettling attempts – I realized maybe it’s because there really is a PLAN for me. Maybe the people from my website and Facebook are onto something, maybe I am designed to survive this and heal those that I can sympathize with, due to my own experiences – knowing going at them alone, is scary and not something I would ever suggest. My older brother is currently at hospice, he’s dying of cancer – at 33. I in WV. He’s in Florida. I have no family here. I am about to lose my house. Selling everything I own to at least get something helpful from the loss, opposed to the bank taking and trashing everything. I went to treatment the end of May. I went to see my brother the first week of June. I. Currently without any available help with my house, or the sale, minimally eating, I am always alone which isn’t healthy for an addict in recovery, no transportation and no running water, which makes me seek someone to ALLOW me to shower at their house, which sadly, has greatly limited my hygiene. My family is so far away, not knowing how dangerously close I am to falling backwards from this overwhelming and debilitating stress of having no chance or way, or hope of uncovering a way out of my eventual unraveling, back to where I began. I just want a chance. I have seeked my same medical plan and medications through places in Florida and they have a substantially Large addict in RECOVERY community and resources all over the place, unlike here. HAVING no Friends or FAMILY as my SUPPORT network, that are around my life or local – is a factor that nearly doomed me from the start, but meetings and forming my new Florida plan, helped me move forward – I began accepting my getting on my feet and taking part in another line of helpful treatment somewhere that my SUPPORT network is heavily populate by family. When combining the clean slate, the family support and my medication and treatment plan WITH my REGULAR continued inspiration being supplied by 2 things, the love of my dogs and the uncanny, absolute necessity within my soul to mend and rebuild what my addictions and decisions have caused my own daughter. I’ve been very honest with her and she is a phenomenal kid, she doesn’t deserve any of this. I fear my expiration will ultimately occur, as the last of my little stability dismantles. I fear she will never know that this time I finally reached an understanding of the lifestyle changes that are now REQUIRED to protect me in my recovery and in my future. The knowledge of my planning to complete “The 12 Steps,” and learn how to live, from people who have clean time under their belts that has inspired me to BE TEACHABLE by them. Accepting I know absolutely nothing on how to live, feel or treat myself – and knowing by following the direction of such a great and supportive Nationwide group of people like me, who have showed me just how TRUTHFUL addiction being a DISEASE IS. It BEGAN as a stupid, harmful decision – that manifested into a life altering disease. Like if you have diabetes and fail to change 1, 2 & 3, you’re gunna be in hot water or worse. As an addict, it’s the very same. I MUST do and REQUIRE these PARTICULAR things to be included with my continued recovery OR, It’s just a matter of time, before I finally succumb to the weight of that soul crushing GUILT from failing to reach the goals of healing…. healing MYSELF, so that I know how to heal my daughter and then together, we can heal anyone we are given the chance to be helpful to…. I know one thing, that happy ending won’t happen here. In this haunted and evil home with some gruesome and upsetting memories happening here, where I always am, alone – unable to inspire anybody but one woman to bother assisting me with protecting my life from this impending disaster….. She I’d a saint. Her name is Tina, and if we were a raised by a Tina, there would be world Peace. She’s amazing, full of grace and has helped me to sort so much of my “stuff” within me all the way out- She didn’t let me die, and knew I was close – Despite my not being her responsibility and despite her Having do many responsibiles already, she has still made time to do what she can to help my continued survival…. But….she’s only one person and I hate disturbing the life of someone so incredibly rare and only deserving of the greatest in life, with my dark and contagiously gloomy reality. I just don’t want my brother’s impending passing ( 12 days to 2 months they said one month ago, yes he’s in hospice… Horrible… He’s 33.. ) to directly Inspire mine too. I just want the chance to salvage my things, to get to Florida and begin my treatment plan and get my footing a bit more stable and better have “my poop in a group,” additionally being seen for my mental health issues as well – and it took me MONTHS to get some one to babysit my two dogs so I could seem treatment this year… For less than 10 days…. I couldn’t Inspire anybody to REGARD me as DESERVING that, no matter how good I stayed to so so many, despite how badly they treated me, with stealing from me regularly while I lay, deteriorating – using my truly scary physical state, give them the freedom to pillage through belongings and things that would of been of value to my current situation. CONSIDERING, I have no money. I have nothing, other than this future yard sale. And this attempt with getting donations. Help me reach my BLESSED plan, and for each dollar donated, I will personally GUARANTEE that I will commit to that # of meetings being numbered and attended, captured and subsequently shared online as A way to show my appreciation…. For helping me stand a chance and for helping me to be able to truly help myself…. If for anyone else, my daughter. She is doing everything amazing in the world – my biggest supporter + I NEED THIS HELP, I’m I’m desperate need of making my plan a reality because it’s worked before, but was cut short by such a terrible PERSON and their selfishness. Please, I know I’ll die here, if there was more hope for my situation, I wouldn’t be BEGGING stranger’s. Here’s my websites – www.BOXMYPANDORA.com and www.facebook.com/itsboxMyPandora ( link to blog from BoxMyPandora.com – ) “What you let feed you, you also let starve you. ” “A setback is Just a setup for a comeback.” Help fight addiction and help recovery not relapse by generously participating in my plan that allows me the chance to keep strengthening my soul and it’s all necessary for my making all of this up to my kid, the rest of my life – and for my future in the Fellowship which I know if given this help, I’ll be in attendance the remainder of my life and I am absolutely great with that… Please don’t tell me I am too late to see this become a reality…. Please..
We are a family based in Nottingham in the UK. We have an 8 year old boy and 19 month old twin babies, Etta, and Albie.
Since our twins were born, they have both had many allergies have been showing an intolerance to certain foods. As a result of this, they have been under paediatric care thruogh the hospital for their entire lives.
Unfortunately last October, our daughter, Etta, was admitted to the hospital when she contracted a tummy bug, and was quite sick. In the hospital she couldn’t manage to keep any fluids down, and after a long process, we were advised that the doctors would be fitting her with an NG (Naso Gastric) feeding tube, which goes in through the nose and down into her tummy.
Etta has had the tube in ever since October and has started to gain weight, which is positive. However, after much deliberation, we have opted for her to have a Gastrostomy, which is basically a surgical procedure to insert a feeding tube directly into her tummy, through her body. This will make things much easier for her feeding, and not have to go through the trauma of having the NG tube passed into her, which gets her extremely distressed.
So basically, not only is it hard for us to manage twin babies financially, when both of us used to work full time, now we are forced to share the childcare and work between us. This has been extremely hard, coupled with Etta’s on going hospital appointments, visits and admissions. We have been ‘just getting by’ for the last two years. But now with Etta going into hospital for her operation, we don’t know how we are going to get through the next month.
We really have enough to worry about with Etta’s operation and all that goes with it, without having the constant never ending worry about how we will pay our bills.
So I am basically asking for any donations, that will be very, very much appreciated in our time looking after our daughter.
And once we are back on our feet again, I will be regularly returning the favour for other people in need.
Thank you very much if you got to the end of this post, and if you do donate, I will contact you personally to offer my sincere gratitude.
Here is the link for any donations: https://www.paypal.me/jjp1973
I need 50000€ to fix my life. So many stories have been written, so I will just skip writing my own sad story.
I have steady job and i have been donating money for many years but now I need help.
As soon as I get on my feet I will start donating again.
Thank you for reading
I’m, a widowed single mom of two girls. Despite being a widow I don’t receive benefits because my husband was unemployed at the time of his death. I have recently been displaced from my home. I’m currently staying with a friend and her husband until I can find a way to come up with deposit money for an apartment. My car recently completely broken down due to needing a new transmission and the power steering went out. I was able to get into something used but can’t afford the downpayment of $1200 they wanted down. I am in desperate need to correct this financial downward spiral I’m in. I can’t get a loan due to my credit. My work doesn’t offer programs to assist those in need. This is more or less a last resort.
I need help trying to give my daughter a good life. I moved out at 17 to save my dog from the pound. My family went through bankruptcy and we lost our house. They had to find a place fast but that ment no more pets. My dog was apart of me. I needed her. I moved in with my fiance and worked a part time job. It was the only thing I could get while doing school. We lived in an efficiency apartment. My fiance got in a car crash and totaled our car. We had to move to get closer to our job. In the process of moving I found put I was pregnant. I worked up until I have birth. My job wouldn’t give me maternity leave. My fiance was in his 3rd year of college when I got pregnant. He has one more year to go. We can’t afford a babysitter so I becam a stay at home mom and opened my own business. I work once a week at a farmer’s market selling baked goods. My daughter is 1 years old now. My fiance works full time night shift and is a full time student. His job screwed him over and cut his hours then his pay. We are struggling to pay rent and pay off our car and insurance. And in a year we will have to start paying back his student loans. I dont know how I will be able to take care of my daughter if I can’t afford food or diapers. I just need to get out of this debt. My business is working out fine but all the money I make off of it barely covers the cost of basic needs (toilet paper, baby food, diapers). If we could get out of this debt then we can give her a good life. Pay for school, good books, cloths. Right now my bank account is negative $500 or more and my car payment goes through in 2 days and rent is due in a little more than a week. I need more then $10,000 but I will take what I can get. I just want my daughter to grow up living well. She is everything to me.