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Financial Hardship Help

We often hear “I need money now” for rent, food or bills – not an easy situation to be in. See our advice below.

Emergency Rental, Food, and Bills Assistance Programs

How to get help with rent?

At times, many families find themselves homeless, or unable to continue to occupy the premises of their choice. This may be due to fire, accident, storms or many other causes, but often it is merely a problem in paying the rent. Illness that forces a breadwinner to stay home, or loss of a job; any and all of these conditions can put a family in need of temporary assistance to tide itself over until the members of the family find themselves again in a position to pay their own rent without the need of subsidising or other rental assistance.

Agencies have been set up in many parts of the country to help in this regard. Non-profit organizations, these charities, such as The Salvation Army, as well as some governmental agencies are often able to offer emergency rental assistance for families who are being evicted by a landlord, or who simply have no way to pay their rent at the moment. Realizing that landlords, despite the old cartoon imagery of a rich greedy person feeding off the work of renters, the vast majority of landlords are not really making a profit at all on the current tenant. This is only a stopgap so that the landlord may pay the monthly house payments in the hope of some future profit if housing increases in value some years later. If the tenant can’t pay the rent, the landlord may soon find himself in the same position with regard to the lender. Lenders do not want to hear sad stories.

Although these different programs for rental assistance may be available, much depends upon the funding at the moment. Some programs quickly run out of money and are simply unable at the moment to provide further help to persons in need of assistance.

The vast majority of families in need of temporary rental assistance are those to be found in the low-income range; seniors, disable persons and children are among those most often affected. Others too, faced at one point or another with a temporary emergency may qualify for assistance in these cases.

In most cases, those in need of longer-term assistance, persons who have not been gainfully employed for a considerable length of time with not prospects for the immediate future may not qualify for rental assistance under these temporary emergency programs.

Those more likely to receive aid are persons who are able to convince interviewers of their willingness to do what is necessary to get back on their feet along with the ability to do so. Since emergency funding is considered a short-term “fix” for a crisis situation, the grants may be only issued for a few days, perhaps to defray the cost of a motel room, pending the applicant’s ability to find other lodgings.

Therefore it is important, in most similar cases, for the applicant to show the interviewer the imminent possibility to become self-sufficient.

Most non-profit agencies as well as other agencies attempt to work closely with rental assistance applicants to help them with any additional support as needed depending upon each applicant’s situation. Often applicants are further given counseling and referrals to other agencies that may be more helpful to an applicant.

In such cases, any additional services rendered are free to the applicant in crisis. This may include lack of employment and such other problems that may arise such as medical emergencies. Most agencies participate in these endeavors as well as teaching applicants the processes involved in applying for governmental programs, immediate rehousing and how to apply for Section 8 vouchers as well as information about low income housing, and assistance in paying the security deposits that are almost universally demanded by today’s rental market.

Since the goal of all similar agencies to to render aid to persons in immediate need of emergency housing and other crisis situations, the funds issued to applicants for rent or other necessities is only meant to allow the applicant extra time to deal with the emergency. However, at the same time, applicants will normally be provided with support in the long term to guard against similar future emergencies.

If you have an eviction notice or expect to be unable to pay the rent in the immediate future, or even realize that you need to find less expensive living quarters, now is the time to apply for assistance. Often with early application, money may be available to catch up unpaid rent as well as other options that may be explained to you.

Assistance may also be available to help with the security deposit, the initial rents and even moving costs. In some cities non-profit agencies may offer other emergency assistance to those in crisis. These funds are normally paid out on a one-time basis. Depending upon the location, resources that may be in place for housing crisis families can be wide-ranging.

Potential applicants are advised to find the telephone numbers as well as any other information available to them and educate themselves about the different programs that may be able to help with emergency assistance.

Not only non-profit private agencies, but many governmental agencies, are able to provide interim assistance, depending on the locality. Massachusetts has a program called RAFT, while in Texas a rental assistance program called TDHCA is available. Florida has a similar program called EFAHP and in Connecticut their program is called RAP. Many other government programs around the country also offer assistance to pay rent or a portion of overdue rent in their ongoing efforts to reduce the growing threat of homelessness in their particular communities.

Another program, called the Federal Stimulus Program is a little-known program through which our federal government provides billions of dollars across the nation to provide rental assistance for qualified applicants. These funds have become invaluable to families that find it increasingly difficult to keep up with the rising costs of rent and other housing needs.

HUD the Housing and Urban Development, agency works throughout the country as well. A number of families approaching two million are able to use this program, a program that can not only help those in need to pay their rent and/or security deposits, but HUD can issue vouchers to provide temporary housing as well as providing assistance to senior citizens and the disabled to keep up with overdue rental payments.

These programs not only offer grants to help pay rent, but the government Rent Voucher Program aids applicants to seek housing in the privately owned housing market.

These agencies can, generally, offer legal advice to those facing eviction. Every year millions of people receive free legal advice and assistance to educate them with the eviction process and their rights as well as responsibilities. The government provides funded Legal Services Corp. which provides attorneys who may mediate a solution between landlord and tenants in addition to advising tenants of their rights as well as help them apply for Section 8 or other assistance and another positive aid they offer is help and counseling on housing discrimination.

Counseling may also be provided to help applicants apply for government and/or private grants. Money is available for many of these crisis situations.

It is the goal of these agencies to prevent evictions wherever possible. The federal government as well as the many non-profit private agencies strive wherever possible to help applicants remain in their current quarters without the fear of being summarily evicted. Often these agencies are able not only to prevent evictions, but subsequent lawsuits that may be brought against a tenant. Alternatively, the agency may be able to find more suitable and affordable housing for an applicant facing eviction.

Many churches too offer funds that can help those in short-term financial difficulties. United Way and The Salvation Army are only two of the better-known charitable institutions that may be able to offer help when needed. Generally they give priority to those living in apartments and facing short-term financial crises.

A good number of other national and local charities are ready to help with the expenses of rent and other essential needs as well as providing case management and many other social services. No all charities have ready money all the time, but even those may be able to help by helping an applicant with information about other resources and assistance in applying for free grants to pay overdue rent.

Other agencies that often provide help might be, for example, Catholic Charities, Social Service Offices, United Way, the American Red Cross, the Legal Aid Society and as mentioned earlier, The Salvation Army. Aside from these examples there exist many other emergency aid agencies for those who are able to become informed.

While most of these programs provide only short-term emergency aid, they are designed for the most part to tide a family over until a longer-term solution becomes available. Often these same agencies will be able to direct qualified applicants to resources that may assist them in finding an apartment or house for more permanent security.

It is important however, during these times of crisis, to keep in touch with creditors and the applicant’s current landlord so they understand what you are doing and what you expect to accomplishment. It is important that the applicant be extremely honest with everyone about the situation and it may sometimes be possible to have monthly payments temporarily lowered, or even be allowed to skip a monthly rental payment. Other plans may be devised and put into place to avoid being evicted.

It is well-understood that not only landlords but other creditors too are much more willing to cooperate with persons who are up-front with them, honest in their discussions and show a willingness to cooperate and do whatever they can to improve with situations.

How to get help with bills?

Ask The Energy Company

if energy bills are the source of the hardship, then the energy providers’ own in-house programs are often the quickest way to help rearrange and meet repayments.

LIHEAP: Low Income Home Energy Assistance Program

This national program’s focus is on subsidies for repairs, weatherproofing and utility bills that families cannot afford to pay.

LIHEAP covers any energy related home repairs for low-icome families, including seasonal expenses like air cooling systems and winter heating bills. The local LIHEAP office is the first point of contact for those in need of energy or utility assistance. Eligibility varies from state to state.

WAP: Weatherization Assistance Program

The WAP is a federal grant organized by the Department of Energy that helps needy families improve their homes’ energy efficiency, and has assisted over 7 million households across many states, territories and Native American tribes since its inception in 1976.

According to the DOE guidelines, a household with anyone over 60 is eligible for the WAP, as are legally recognized disabled people. Most states make families with children eligible, and the website for the WAPTAC (Weatherization Assistance Program Technical Assistance Center) can advise others if the grants are available in their area, and whether they qualify.

LifeLine Assistance: Free Cell Phones

Americans in need of a cell phone plan but without the means to maintain one can get assistance from LifeLine Assistance‘s free phone program. This is indeed a lifeline as daily life and business in particular is practically impossible without a mobile phone.

LLA is an FCC mandated scheme offering a free cell phone with at least 250 monthly minutes included. It’s available in the 49 states, Washington DC and Puerto Rico, and typically requires a household income below 135% of Federal Poverty guidelines. For some states it is below 150%. Eligibility varies across participating states, with slightly different rules around qualifying income.

Other sources of help are available at state government level, or many national and local non-profit and charity organizations, and the energy companies themselves.

How to get Food For Free?

It doesn’t always require money to eat, and there are many ways to gain free food without adding to your debts or joining the 10% of Americans who have resorted to shoplifting. Ask people you know, or traders and restaurant and store owners.

Above all it’s important to explain why you are asking for food: because you can’t afford to eat. And not to be critical about what food you eat. Without a certain amount of money, there is no longer the choice of what to eat. So meat may become harder to get or if meat’s all that’s on offer and you are a vegetarian, it’s best to accept it with thanks.

Grow Your Own, Share With The Community

The most sustainable – and satisfying – way to provide free food for yourself is to grow it, and you can start with just seeds if you live in the country or with just a small space in the city. Guerrilla gardening is an interesting urban option, more organised community gardens and allotments can share space and expertise for growing, and seed swapping communities among gardeners are a good source of materials and encouragement.

Ask A Farmer

Out in the sticks there won’t be the option of stores and restaurants as a source of food, but ask any farmer and there’ll be some left on the fields that they didn’t or can’t sell. Many will let you pick these leftovers.

Food Banks

A rapidly growing movement in the United Kingdom and US is the organized and charitable distribution of food to those who can’t afford it. Most of the food is donated, and food banks are one of the easiest ways to obtain some nutritious food. Many banks have conditions for who they can give food to, but there is no need to be ashamed about visiting one.

Links to Food Banks in various countries

United States /United Kingdom /Austalia /Canada /Ireland /New Zealand /South Africa

Offers and coupons

Online and direct from the stores, many coupons are available to promote new products. And companies across the United States send out free samples of new products. They’re unlikely to provide a healthy, balanced diet on their own but could supplement free food from other sources.

Waste Food

In an affluent country there is an abundance of unsold or waste food, and a little social interaction and resourcefulness can unlock access to a surprising amount of it.

Ask at the market

Often around closing time, stall holders will sell off any remaining stock for next to nothing, and it’s always worth telling them you have no money and asking if they’ll give you something for free. You can often pick up some fruit or salad, and if they can’t offer anything, thank them anyway and ask at another stall.

Free Supermarket Food

Ask at the big stores and you’ll be too far down the chain of command: “My boss doesn’t allow us to do that” will be the usual answer. So smaller supermarkets and neighborhood stores are a better option, where you can talk to that boss. You may find warmth and generosity among Muslims and immigrants to the West who run stores.

Restaurant Leftovers

It requires some patience, a little nerve and a bit of practice, but it’s possible to get free, professionally prepared food, even a table to sit and eat it at. Restaurant districts in cities are obviously the best place to try this, and expect a success rate around 5%, so it requires persistence, but will sharpen your bargaining skills, and who knows where else that could lead?

Turn up at a restaurant after the busiest time but not too late, and explain that you have no money and ask if they have some left overs in the kitchen. It can help to have a container such as a plastic box ready in case they do have something, and if they’re friendly and can’t offer anything the first time, maybe they can put something aside the next day.

Searching and Foraging

It grows on trees, on the ground and some seasons there’ll be abundant fruit and tasty plants such as dandelions or chickweed. Even cities can produce some tasty wild food, and anyone near downtown Seattle has access to America’s first Food Forest in a major city.

Dumpster Diving

Growing media coverage of the colossal food wastage at supermarkets and restaurants has made it much less weird, and more popular, to search through the dumpsters in search of some quality food to turn into a meal.

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We have no food and no money for medication after the lockdown left us with half of our income

I just created a post but forgot to add my paypal link and I have no idea how to find it or if I can’t edit it. I’m a 30 year old chronically ill woman (I have severe Interstitial Cystitis, suffer from psychiatric issues and a bunch of other health problems) who is unable to work due to her condition and I live with my mother who has heart problems, has had heart surgery, suffers from severe hypertension and depends on medication to live, I also can’t stop taking my medication. We have always struggled to make ends meet but ever since the lockdown started things have been really hard to two people who struggle with chronic illness and can’t make ends meet on a regular basis. My mother refused retirement because she would get even less money, she has worked the same minimum wage job for 20 years at a big supermarket here in Europe. She gets around 650 euros as a salary, our rent is 360 euros, with electricity, water, gas, internet (we have the cheapest package) medication we are left with around 100 euros, if not less, to eat and to pay for any medical emergencies that my happen ( when you are chronically ill there’s always a medical emergency, I’m going through one right now, two infections and I have no money for the cleaning supplies to keep it clean and avoid losing my finger and the trips to the doctor by public transportation). Thankfully I don’t have to pay for the doctor appointments or my many ER visits. We often don’t have food and have run out of essential medication. Due to the pandemic the shelves are empty, what’s left behind are the more expensive brands and we had to buy those because we needed to eat, I will give you an example, we used to buy this no brand rice that costs 90 cents, it was gone, all that was left behind was the very expensive rice that costs 2 euros, the same thing happened with milk, cereal, yogurts, canned goods, toilet paper and basic hygiene and cleaning supplies. That left us with no other option than to buy those and be left with no money to buy foor or medication for the rest of the month of march and april. I attached a picture of some of our medication, we have run out of some of them, there’s plenty missing because they were in another room, they are mostly heart related medication, blood pressure medication, medication for my bladder condition, psychiatric medication and other medication I use to deal with the symptoms of some of my conditions. I was also going to attach some pictures of our bills and pharmacy receipts but you can only upload one picture. Any help would be great, even if it’s just enough to buy rice and bread for the day we would be happy. Thank you.

Here’s the link to our paypal:

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Broke, behind, on the verge of homelessness

Hello. I’m broke and on the verge of homelessness. I’ve been separated from my dogs (can’t stay where I am any longer) and miss them very much. It’s made me quite depressed and I want to see them again. I’ve gotten very behind on my bills and owe a lot of people money, including the person I am staying with. Because of this, I don’t know if they will continue letting me stay with them for much longer and I have no where else to go.

I don’t normally ask for money but in my current situation I don’t have much choice. I have a job that I could get, but it is in another province and I need at least $2500 dollars to fund the move (vehicle, gas, damage deposit, etc.). I can not save any money right now because everything I get goes to the people I owe money to, food, and gas. I’ve been selling all my possessions just to get by, but not only are they hard to sell, they are also running out, and it’s still not enough to get me ahead.

All I want right now is to get a job and work so I can help out the people I care about, pay everyone back that I owe, and stop being such a loser who can’t take care of himself. Most of all, I want my dogs back because I love them and miss them. It’s an unfortunate situation, and there is no work in my area, but I really have a job already lined up pretty much in the province next to me. I just need to get there, but doing that is expensive.

So, in my desperation I am reaching out to random strangers on the internet for help. IF you can spare some money, it would be tremendously appreciated. Anything will help, even if it’s only a few dollars. I just need to get out of this hole and I’ll be able to get my life on track. Normally I’m a hardworking, responsible person, and I have taken care of myself for years, but it’s just recently that things have gotten out of hand for me and I need help.

Here is my paypal: paypal.me/aphid408

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Getting my family through tough times.

Hello, my name is Gina. I’m a mother of four beautiful children ranging from 1-9 years old and I have a wonderful fiance who loves us dearly. It’s taking so much for me to swallow my pride and ask for help but I am to a point I don’t know what else to do. Currently our family is going through so much and our lives have been thrown into a tornado. My fiance works third shift and he works long hard hours for us to get by, I stay home to take care of the kids, my oldest has autism, dmdd and adhd, my second child has adhd and I recently lost my only trusted daycare provider who can handle my oldest and didn’t have much choice but to leave my job and try to take care of it all. After that happened we found out my fiances father has cancer, it’s liver cancer and has spread to his pancreas. He’s going downhill fast and can no longer work he had to close his business and on top of that has not had health insurance in a long time. I am spinning my wheels trying to help him and my fiances mother get by with food and what small things we can do. Then my father lost his job and had to have hip replacement surgery, he’s now probably going to have to foreclose on his home and will probably have to move in with us which will not only be hard financially but the stress of trying to find room for him in our home and still give our children the space they need (my son is very hard to handle and has to have a place to separate from everyone and our home is not very big for having 4 bedrooms). If that weren’t enough I had to admit my mentally ill mother to the hospital for two weeks because I thought her medications were upsetting her memory, just to find out that it is not her medication but that she has early onset dementia. She will also no longer be able to work or drive, her living situation is questionable right now she is with a friend but we don’t know how or when we’ll be able to get her into a assisted living facility, and her friend is such a sweet woman but she is in her seventies and has had four heart attacks she shouldn’t be caring for my mother, I just don’t have much other choice. I have filed papers for all three of them to start collecting disability, one has been rejected and two are still pending. I have reached out to lawyers, I have also applied for housing for my father and mother. My van broke down and we are now down to one vehicle and with me having to run around constantly taking parents and children to appointments and everything else it’s wearing down our only vehicle and with that when my fiance is at work I have no vehicle if there were to be an emergency I am stuck at home waiting and praying I will be able to get a hold of someone to not only help with a ride but with sitting with my children as well. I’m doing everything in my power to take care of everyone physically and my fiance is trying to work as much as he can to take care of the finances, but overtime has dried up and with the virus and stay at home order there is a possibility of him being laid off soon. We are struggling so badly right now and I just so desperately want to be able to squeak by. A dollar goes a long way for our family any help would be more than appreciated. Thank you for reading this I understand is long and probably sounds like I am whining, I hate doing this, I just want our family to get through this storm with our home and family still in tact.

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COVID-19 Airline Career Halted before it began

The coronavirus is affecting the world on an unprecedented scale. I was extremely optimistic about 2020. I knew I would leave the Marine Corps after 20 years of service. For the first time in 20 years, I felt hope regarding my financial situation. I would be able to work in the private sector, knowing the harder I worked the more I would be compensated. I was going into the airlines. I am a helicopter pilot and managed to get a fixed wing multiengine license. I had job offers with several commuter / regional airlines. I was hopeful. With my retirement plus a new career as an airline pilot, finally I will be able to do more than just breakeven or fall behind.

Every regional airline I had job offers with called and said, “Sorry but due to the coronavirus….” I lost my job before I even got started.

I understand many people face difficulties every day. I am asking for help. I have struggled with my finances since getting divorced in 2004. I found myself in massive debt after making poor decisions 15 years ago! I have never declared bankruptcy, but I am still drowning in 15-year-old debt. I am still $50,000.00 in the hole just in unsecured debt, this does not count my mortgage and my wife’s inherited student loan debt. I thought I could do some things to bring in extra money. I tried different online programs, and even authored and illustrated a children’s book. “Heli the Helo Goes to the Air Show”. The book has twenty-five, five-star reviews on Amazon, but unfortunately made no impact on my financial situation.

I am relentless, I am a hard worker, I have a purpose in my life to provide my daughter the best possible home life I can provide. But that life is now under an even darker cloud of financial stress. Because of the Coronavirus I will be without a job in a very short amount of time. I want to discover the version of myself that doesn’t worry about financial stress. I know that I have a lot more to offer society and my family, however there is always this constant reminder that I am not free. I am not working for family or to make the world a better place. I am a slave to my bills. I am not really asking for money as much as I am asking for my freedom. I am asking for my LIFE. I am asking for someone to give me a second shot to be the superhero that I know is inside of me.

I am a Hamster on a wheel; I am trying to move my life forward. Like the child that is trying to reach for the cookie jar at the top of the counter I just need a little boost to reset my finances back to a zero balance. If I can raise 200,000 dollars, I got it from there. I am changed. I just need some help escaping the past and moving towards a purpose driven life. A life that is pulled from a vision of what the future could be instead of one that is pushed from my past. I can only hope that my cry for help falls on ears that are willing and able to help. Thank you for your generosity. You can also help by purchasing a copy of my book on Amazon.  I included an image from my book here.

Kind regards,

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Dad trying to get my life back on track and get my kids back.

Where to begin. I am struggling just to survive. I have cried out to God over and over. I apologize in advance as this is lengthy. I divorced a few years back and that is where things went from good to bad. I virtually lost everything. My kids, The home I paid on for 10 years and basically all the contents, even my dog. My ex remarried 8 DAYS after our divorce was final. We we’re married 10 1/2 years. The divorce only took 9 months and she remarried 8 days later, something was up long before I left the home. The only things I received were the clothes I left with, most of my tools and my truck. Thankfully my truck was paid off so that wasn’t a burden for me. I ended up losing the job I had also. I had worked there for almost 10 years, but when I was going through my divorce, my type 1 diabetes got out of control due to the stress. I lost nearly 60 pounds, from 200 down to 140. All that came off in less than 5 months. I couldn’t work because my blood sugar was so out of control, it would spike and bottom out. I went to the doctor many many times trying to get help with my issue. Needless to say, I lost my job due to missing work too much. Even with FMLA, I lost my job. With all that, job loss, excessive medical bills and trying to start over, I ended up getting behind on my child support for my 3 kids. I have been summoned to court on several occasions because of being behind on child support. The court district we lived in is completely biased as my ex’s family has a lot of clout there. I am an outsider, no family here and I am from another state 1000 miles away. The female judge ordered me to serve 120 days in jail for failure to pay child support. That cost me the last good paying job I had, one that could sustain my child support payments and provide me with the basics, shelter and food. At that time I had been working there for three months and my child support was being deducted and paid, but the judge still ordered me to jail because I was behind, costing me my job and forcing me further behind on my child support. I was even denied unemployment because they said I was at fault. That I didn’t go to work and lost my job due to attendance. Duh! Yes, I lost my job because I wasn’t able to come, so hence no supplemental income. Unemployment insurance that I earned. This is a vicious cycle that many divorced dads face everyday. Jailed for failure to pay, preventing them from working, trying to pay because they are in jail or keep getting ordered there. What happens in the long run, they are prevented from seeing their children because they either spend a ton of time in and out of jail or they have to leave the state to prevent being served again and again and ordered to jail over and over. While in jail do you think your ex would at least bring the kids to visit? Heck no! I haven’t seen my children in over a year because my ex is so vindictive she keeps pushing the courts to serve me and lock me up.  The only way I can remedy this is pay my back owed child support, which is now several thousand dollars and keeps increasing. This is almost impossible to catch up on without a miracle happening and coming upon a large sum of money to stop the cycle. Adding insult to injury, while in jail, they were not treating my diabetes properly, thus causing them to take me to the ER. They took me twice to the ER on the same day because my blood sugar was reading over 600 and or bottoming out under 40. I’m walked into the busy ER, in her hometown, a small town where everyone knows everyone. It was as if I was on parade, wearing a yellow jumpsuit, shackles on my feet, cuffed hands with chains around my waist. I was paraded and escorted as if I was a mass murder. How humiliating all for being at the time a little over $3,000 behind on child support. Then I was informed that I am responsible financially for those ER visits, how am I responsible because of their negligence and failure to provide me with medication, proper treatment and proper diet. Then when I was returned to the jail, they put me in solitary confinement because they said I was eating sweets and candy from the other inmates. They kept feeding me a regular diet, (i.e…peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and foods loaded with carbs…carbs turn to sugar!!!) even after I told them this wouldn’t work. Unbelievable. A little while before all this, I found out from my 7 year old daughter that her new step brothers were touching her inappropriately and beating on my two younger sons. The step brothers are much older than my kids. They were 17 and 13 at the time. The grace of God kept me from going there and finding my own justice. I sold the only thing I had left to hire an attorney, my truck and have had no vehicle since. All of this was in vain because like I said her family has too much clout in the City and County we lived in. I even contacted DSS and got them involved, played and provided them the recordings where my daughter was telling me about what happened, vivid details, things a 7 year old couldn’t make up. They said they investigated and the case was unfounded. This happened because my ex wife previously worked as an investigator at DSS and she coached my daughter what to say to the investigators. She was then investigated by her former coworkers and bosses. Conflict of interest huh! She found out that it was me that filed the complaint and thus has had a revenge vendetta against me causing all the additional court summons and being jailed for back owed support. Thus I have had to give up on this problem and feel that I have simply failed to protect my children. I have been at the losing end of this from the beginning. I have received help from my family for my divorce, attorney fees, money for gas, food and shelter. I have all but used up all that they have and have even put my parents in a financial strain as they are in their 70’s. It is hard just to simply have a place to live. I ended up getting evicted from two places because I got behind on making my rent payments. Now it is almost impossible to rent anything anywhere because of the evictions. That said, I have been living in a motel for over a year now. Since I am a veteran, I went to the VA for assistance and I qualified for housing assistance. I had to requalify after 90 days. With having two evictions the search lasted more than 90 days, as it is difficult to find a landlord willing to accept me. During the 90 day period, I got the last good paying job I have had before being order to jail. Because of that job, I made too much money to continue to qualify for the program. Thus losing this housing assistance from the VA for three years. Since those days I have not been able to secure a good paying job, even though I am drug and alcohol free. I never abused any substances, I just smoked cigarettes before and quit when my first child was born. I have worked for many temp agencies, small odd jobs for homeowners and even washed dishes at a pizza place just to have food to eat. I have been to social services to try to at least get food stamps, but the hoops that have to be jumped through are astounding. I filed almost 3 months ago and have recently been denied all because they cannot verify from my last employer (temp job) that I no longer work there. They say they need a separation letter. I called the employer and they said they use a third party for that. I call the third party, they tell me the agency requesting the letter has to call and request it, that I cannot. I cannot provide the information the agency is requesting. How ridiculous. They provide me the numbers for them to call. My case worker calls and said that the contact number is not valid. I get them the contact numbers again. Same thing over and over. I give the agency the number I called and spoke to someone on. The case worker said he tried and couldn’t get the required information so my case was closed. What is going on! I don’t understand how so many people out there receive assistance and food stamps and here I am, virtually homeless, no car, no job, no income and I do not qualify. I don’t get it. I have nowhere else to turn. I have had a few churches assist me in paying for the motel room for a few weeks and have visited the food pantry. All the state agencies, the VA and 211(United Way), everytime I call one of them, they refer me to another agency. One would refer me to the other and then the other agency would refer me to another and then they would refer me back to the original agency I contacted. They keep sending me around in circles. I am at the end of my rope, I don’t know where else to go. This really is a summary of the way things been going, it does go deeper. I’m just at the end. If any of you reading this could help me in any way I would greatly appreciate it. My hope is in the Lord to see me through. May God Bless you all.

 

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Hotel holding my last $100 during coronavirus

I am attaching a Facebook comment that partially explains the personal hell that the Quality inn in Dayton Ohio has put me through the past two weeks, mainly the past couple days.the lack of compassion and understanding that they have shown me the past couple of days make me feel like they need to be exposed and given the, they deserve before this happens to another person. I can only message you a quarter of what I have gone through trying to get the last hundred dollars I have to my name back after placing a security deposit on March 9th that was supposed to be back into my account by the day after I checked out because if I were to list everything that has happened  I would be here all night… I have cried so much and this has caused so much unnecessary stress right in the middle of an already highly stressful and terrifying time for the citizens of our country. I have been in contact and emailed corporate and everybody I could find information on and haven’t received any answers nor any help… So I’m reaching out to possibly see if anyone would be willing to help me get the money I need to feed my family during quarantine..
(Following statement is copy and pasted from my Google review giving a brief summary of the story)
on March 9th I stayed at the Quality inn address at 71205 Miller Lane in Dayton Ohio, I put down a $100 deposit for the room through a PayPal card,I have been trying since MARCH 10TH to get that deposit back. I have called numerous times have been spoken to rudely by almost everyone there, I have begged them to send the fax explaining the importance of that 100 during this time because that is the only guarantee my family and I will eat during quarantine only to be told and I quote “your sob story is keeping me from my job…the managers not here and I’m sweeping” and got hung up on afterwards.that same employee answered the phone when my husband tried to call and immediately after picking up the phone started YELLING at him about how our hundred dollars was going to be taken care of and when he asked how she knew that was what it was about she said “I have caller ID ” hung up and then ignored our calls the rest of the afternoon. I’ve given them the information that the fax needs to contain a multitude of times, I have been promised a call back and never received it multiple times, and I feel like I am being led in circles, I am given false information on when a manager will be in, resulting in me staying up until 11 p.m. at night to call and she wasn’t in at 11 p.m. at night, and I feel like they are not taking it seriously and trying to get me my money back.I have lost my job due to the coronavirus and that hundred dollars is all I have to my name and I cannot even spend it because of their lack of diligence and sending the fax or even wanting to listen to a customer. I am losing my patience and I’m wanting to go to the highest possible power that I can to get this resolved because it is not only affecting my stress level is affecting my way of life at the moment because I was supposed to have that money 2 weeks ago and I have been living off of dollars a day…. The stress on its own is causing me to feel sick because of me worrying if I’m going to be able to eat after I run out of the very little food I have or if my husband is going to get his vital medicines that are overdue for pickup… I have been given no answers but have wasted hours of my life by now begging for 5 minutes of someone’s time to send a fax that will ensure I can take care of my family a little longer during this quarantine

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Struggling Mentally & Financially

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know a lot of people use these kinds of ways to get help and take advantage of it which ruins it for others who truly are in a crisis. I’m an 18 year old girl, and I can’t describe what’s been going on with more than saying I’m desperate. I have debt that I wasn’t expecting to happen as I was going down a good road until medical issues blocked me. I have severe anxiety & depression. Always trying different medications and coping skills. I wish it was something people understood. It affects so much… it takes away your happiness in everything you do. I have a horrible home life. My mother is an alcoholic. My step dad relies on poker games for money to pay rent, to provide basic necessities we need and he’s always borrowing money. Don’t get me wrong, I am blessed and thankful for what I have. But it’s so toxic for me. Not knowing if I’ll be able to make it to a counseling appointment because I don’t have gas. There’s a lot of unknowns that an 18 year old shouldn’t have to worry about. I have this vision of me being in Miami Florida. Random place, yes. But I’ve always imagined seeing myself there. Loving life and myself which I don’t remember feeling. There’s so many opportunities there.. it gets me so excited and happy to think about being there on my own. Having a cute little apartment, having a job working in the mall or for a resort. Just simply striving. However, my vision just digs me a deeper hole as it’s nearly impossible. I have debt from trying college and then having to withdraw as I was in the behavioral health unit at a hospital. From using a credit card I thought I’d be able to make payments on. I was doing so good and then my mental health went dramatically down hill. There’s so much sh*t that’s happened to me. And there’s only so much I can say otherwise you’d be reading this and wouldn’t get done till until a few days later. I’m desperate. I want to be better, feel better and have a better life for myself. I’ve calculated and planned out how much I’d need, to an extent. And honestly, it’s close to $7k. Before hitting the road, I need to get a few outfits as I’m re wearing the same clothes. I don’t even have a bra. And I’m w sting a pair of shoes that are worn out. I’d need to get personal hygiene products. I need a new phone charger, I’m overdue on an oil change. I’d need gas to get there, money for hotels as it’d take me several days. Money for food. Money for an apartment. Money to spend on doing fun things. There’s so many factors that go into this and it’s overwhelming and daunting which brings me back to square one. Hopeless. I just need help getting on my feet and to make this goal of mine more achievable. Hell, it might be a miracle and I could have all the expenses covered. But right now I’ll take anything. Anything to help me not give up. To make me feel like people out there care and want to help me. I’m sure I’ve left things out and this may seem choppy. But I appreciate the time taken to read this. Even if I don’t get anything out of this, I hope people try and give back.

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Act of Kindness

Hello, my name is Bella. To any of you who may be reading this there comes a time when every individual on this earth will need assistance from their fellow human being, unfortunately right now I am one of those individuals. I was a victim of a car accident where I unjustly wasn’t given a settlement and from that accident, I sustained multiple medical injuries including neurological, muscle atrophy, and long term memory issues, I still have glass particles from the car window shattering and glass being inserted into my forearm.

During the time that I was hospitalized because of the accident I had multiple surgeries done and which have left me with medical bills that I no way can be able to pay off. Because I was not able to pay my medical bills on time, my medical bills were turned to collection agencies.  I am struggling to find another job, and right now that is near impossible. I have maxed out the credit cards paying just for basic needs rent, electricity, food and medicine and right now I am not sure how I will pay the bills next month and take care of my family basic needs.

I truly will appreciate any contribution that can be made of any amount, as any amount will be able to alleviate the financial stress and burden that this unfortunate situation has impacted on me and my family. In concluding this I know that I am some stranger that you have never meet and are probably wondering as to why should you even help me but as I said in the beginning of my post, everyone needs a helping hand once in their lifetime and I will be paying it forward as soon as I’m on my feet. God bless, stay safe and thank you!

This is my paypal link : paypal.me33Bella33 and https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/my/profile

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$3000

Hello, My name is Lisa, and this is very weird for me as I have never begged for money. However I seem to of hit an all time low. I apologize ahead of time for this is very difficult for me. I have a 12-year-old daughter she’s almost 13, and it’s just her and I. Last October I look at some of her sketchers in her sketchbook. That’s what she used as a journal. And several of her sketchers she was killing herself including hanging herself. Upon asking her many questions and looking over her conversations on her phone, with her permission I found out this was very serious. I got her into counseling, as well as cat classes to help her and I deal with the situation. I went on unemployment and it was tight but we were able to make it I felt like I needed to be home with her as much as possible. My unemployment insurance ended two weeks ago, about the same time that the coronavirus was in full force. I have been unable to get a job because many corporations are on a hiring freeze. I simply have no money this month at all. My account has $45 in it. I did ask the state for help with food, but I still have rent utilities car payment insurance, dental bills, Etc. Again, this is a very difficult thing for me to ask for money.  I didn’t even know about this site until I was online looking for any kind of loan. Of course getting a loan without income is virtually impossible. My daughter is doing so much better now, I feel like taking the time to be there for her, volunteering at her school, and getting her the help she needed, was important in keeping her alive. This is definitely one of the most trying times we both face together. I’m sending a picture of her and her happiness now. If you can help in anyway this month for my bills, Michael is to be employed by the middle of the month so next months bills will be taken care of I’ve been applying to many Positions that work from home for now. Thank you for reading this and thank you for your time.

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Lost my health, and then home, custody, family, fiance, abusive new bf, and most recently the car I was living in…

I don’t want to go into too much detail, as it’s a long sad story that’s really hard to tell. I finally had my right where I wanted. Started a business that was going really well working for myself, rented my first house step up from the tiny apartments. A 6 year custody battle seemed like it finally had settled we were both mostly content with the schedule. I was sharing life with a man who made me smile, had my back, and loved my son. His name is Danny. I kept fighting the feeling that it was too good to be true because I’d worked so hard to get there. Lost so much, and finally crawled my way up. Then I got sick, hospitalized for over a week with c diff, I nearly died. I lost my energy almost completely. Unable to work the only way I know to earn money,  I lost my house. Moved in with family sharing a tiny room with my son and Danny, we all slept in a bunk bed. His dad sued me again for custody and I had no money to pay the lawyer and got steamrolled at trial where I sat on the stand for 2 whole days. That was march 11 2019, I’ve seen my son once since then. I beg his dad tonlet me see him but his wife has a protection order against me that she lied to obtain so I can’t even attend his sporting events or school ceremonies, nothing. The sorrow of missing my son, that I had cared for mostly on my own since his birth, began to sink in. I started using drugs to numb the pain and a year flew by like a month. Two weeks after I decided I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself and get my life back together, two weeks clean from drugs, my family literally threw me to the streets. They didn’t even let come in to get a single belonging. I walked away with the clothes on my back and the bag I had been carrying that day. No money, no clothes, no shoes, a dead cell phone, and a car that still today doesn’t run. Danny and I slept in my uncle’s truck for a couple weeks and then we’re on the street. One night a big storm was rolling in and I called in the last favor I had, my best friend Jorge. Hanging out for the weekend quickly turned to 6 months ending with Danny cracking under the stress of our lives and sobriety. He had been unavailable emotionally for some time by this point, as well as pretty severely abusive mentally. He disappeared, for so long I thought he was dead. I called and texted and emailed but nothing. I searched for him by car, on foot, with help of friends and his family to no avail. I moved in with a friend who had also recently escaped an abusive relationship. Things got romantic, and then very abusive. Physically, emotionally,  mentally,  financially you name it. Just as I had really started to allow myself to entertain the thought of giving up completely,  and was doing nothing but sleeping and crying….Danny finally contacted me. One very bad night after getting bruised up and called every name accused of theft and and more, Danny came to my rescue. He took accountability for everything he had done to hurt me directly and indirectly. Though I have forgiven him, I’m not ready for another romantic endeavor at this moment. He took me away from that place, but had no where to take me to. We had been living in his car, until last week when it was hit and run. It’s now in a parking lot in alkaline area Austin Texas. We’ve been trying to save to fix it,  but it’s been so cold we keep spending money on hotel rooms.  My credit is crap from all the medical bills.  I feel like I’m circling the drain now….I have a few ideas I’m sure would be continuously lucrative,  but I can’t seem to catch my footing.

Please help me get my life on track, and my son back,  and this medical debt off my back :(

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Fibromyalgia has caused Hardship

I would like to start off by saying that I am so so very embarrassed and ashamed to be in this predicament in December of 2019 my then-boyfriend announce that he was leaving he said he was leaving in three days so he was leaving and also my assistance financial assistance from him was leaving I later learned that she had been planning this for 3 months this was very unexpected and unforeseen it has caused Xtreme havoc for my home life . I have had to do without basic necessities and have fallen behind with my utilities and also food I really don’t care about if I eat but I have two resue chihuahua’s and before I could get them neutered they had 4 babies and I just did not have the heart to break up the little family I have reached out to all my local food pantries and had very little or no success I went to the EAP thru my job and had a counseling session .

In which I was told that I was not a candidate for there Financial assistant program due to the fact that I have a chronic illness and this was an ongoing condition. Their suggestion to me was that I needed to find another position within the company so that I would not be so stressed out and having flare ups . What really upset me about that whole counseling session or meeting is that I had to collect all of my bills all of my recent bank statements check stubs I had to look out and get old income tax return receipts printed out and also attended a Debt Management course and bring the certification showing that class was completed.

Getting all of that together took me literally weeks because of the fact that my health is so bad and I don’t get around like I used to and to look for all that stuff all those documents and after all that be told you that I wouldn’t benefit from their program . Because I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia about 3 years ago this condition has really been so painful and I suffer in silence l am aware that one of the main triggers for flare-ups to my condition is stress. With that being said I had been stressing very very much and on January 15th .I had to take off of work and I apply for FMLA which I’ve not getting paid for because I have no additional available time and I have no savings or 401K put up like I should I know .

I just can’t believe that here in the United States I couldn’t get any sort of assistance. It felt almost like I was getting a slap in the face. I have had nothing but doors slammed literally in my face from all the agencies and groups that are out there to assist people in need such as myself . Middle class caught somewhere in the middle . I can’t get any kind of government help because of the reason that of course I have a job that I’m not going to right now but in the meantime I have no income. I need to go back to work. I’m trying to go back to work. I have two prescription medicines at the pharmacy that I have not been able to get filled because of the co-pay I know it sounds crazy that I can’t afford the basic simple needs that everyone takes for granted . It’s for my own well-being. Of course because I have insurance no one will assist with money for copay..dont get me wrong I am very thankful to have a job and insurance. I’m just odd person out.

I’ve done without food and that’s okay .I had my cable and internet cut off last month but that’s fine I sit here with no TV and no internet and that’s okay I have internet on the phone. I know it’s a lot to ask especially in these trying times if anyone reading this can find it in your heart to make a even if it’s a small donation anything helps I’m really at my wit’s end . Asking for assistance is believe me not been easy to do . In fact it’s been very hard to get myself to write this I’ve been putting it off for days but I would rather be embarrassed and feel ashamed and like such a failure then to be to be with no lights and no phone ETC.

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Dad trying to get my life back on track and get my kids back.

Where to begin. I am struggling just to survive. I have cried out to God over and over. I apologize in advance as this is lengthy. I divorced a few years back and that is where things went from good to bad. I virtually lost everything. My kids, The home I paid on for 10 years and basically all the contents, even my dog. My ex remarried 8 DAYS after our divorce was final. We we’re married 10 1/2 years. The divorce only took 9 months and she remarried 8 days later, something was up long before I left the home! The only things I received were the clothes I left with, most of my tools and my truck. Thankfully my truck was paid off so that wasn’t a burden for me. I ended up losing the job I had also. I had worked there for almost 10 years, but when I was going through my divorce, my type 1 diabetes got out of control due to the stress. I lost nearly 60 pounds, from 200 down to 140. All that came off in less than 5 months. I couldn’t work because my blood sugar was so out of control, it would spike and bottom out. I went to the doctor many many times trying to get help with my issue. Needless to say, I lost my job due to missing work too much. Even with FMLA, I lost my job. With all that, job loss, excessive medical bills and trying to start over, I ended up getting behind on my child support for my 3 kids. I have been summoned to court on several occasions because of being behind on child support. The court district we lived in is completely biased as my ex’s family has a lot of clout there. I am an outsider, no family here and I am from another state 1000 miles away. The female judge ordered me to serve 120 days in jail for failure to pay child support. That cost me the last good paying job I had, one that could sustain my child support payments and provide me with the basics, shelter and food. At that time I had been working there for three months and my child support was being deducted and paid, but the judge still ordered me to jail because I was behind, costing me my job and forcing me further behind on my child support. I was even denied unemployment because they said I was at fault. That I didn’t go to work and lost my job due to attendance. Duh! Yes, I lost my job because I wasn’t able to come, I was in jail, so hence no supplemental income. Unemployment insurance that I earned. This is a vicious cycle that many divorced dads face everyday. Jailed for failure to pay, preventing them from working, trying to pay because they are in jail or keep getting ordered there. What happens in the long run, they are prevented from seeing their children because they either spend a ton of time in and out of jail or they have to leave the state to prevent being served again and again and ordered to jail over and over. While in jail do you think your ex would at least bring the kids to visit? Heck no! I haven’t seen my children in over a year because my ex is so vindictive she keeps pushing the courts to serve me and lock me up.  I miss them so much. I cry to the Lord to protect them. The only way I can remedy this is to pay my back owed child support, which is now several thousand dollars and keeps increasing. This is almost impossible to catch up on without a miracle happening and coming upon a large sum of money to stop the cycle. Adding insult to injury, while in jail, they were not treating my diabetes properly, thus causing them to take me to the ER. They took me twice to the ER on the same day because my blood sugar was reading over 600 and or bottoming out under 40. I’m walked into the busy ER, in her hometown, a small town where everyone knows everyone. It was as if I was on parade, wearing a yellow jumpsuit, shackles on my feet, cuffed hands with chains around my waist. I was paraded and escorted as if I was a mass murderer. How humiliating all for being at the time a little over $3,000 behind on child support. Then I was informed that I am responsible financially for those ER visits, how am I responsible because of their negligence and failure to provide me with medication, proper treatment and proper diet. Then when I was returned to the jail, they put me in solitary confinement because they said I was eating sweets and candy from the other inmates. They kept feeding me a regular diet, (i.e…peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and foods loaded with carbs…carbs turn to sugar!!!) even after I told them this wouldn’t work. Unbelievable. A little while before all this, I found out from my 7 year old daughter that her new step brothers were touching her inappropriately and beating on my two younger sons. The step brothers are much older than my kids. They were 17 and 13 at the time. The grace of God kept me from going there and finding my own justice. I sold the only thing I had left to hire an attorney, my truck and have had no vehicle since. All of this was in vain because like I said her family has too much clout in the City and County we lived in. I even contacted DSS and got them involved, played and provided them the recordings where my daughter was telling me about what happened, vivid details, things a 7 year old couldn’t make up. They said they investigated and the case was unfounded. This happened because my ex wife previously worked as an investigator at DSS and she coached my daughter what to say to the investigators. She was then investigated by her former coworkers and bosses. Conflict of interest huh! She found out that it was me that filed the complaint and thus has had a revenge vendetta against me causing all the additional court summons and being jailed for back owed support. Thus I have had to give up on this problem and feel that I have simply failed to protect my children. I have been at the losing end of this from the beginning. I have received help from my family for my divorce, attorney fees, money for gas, food and shelter. I have pawned almost all of my tools and most of my other possessions. I have all but used up all that my family has and have even put my parents in a financial strain as they are in their 70’s. It is hard just to simply have a place to live. I ended up getting evicted from two places because I got behind on making my rent payments. Now it is almost impossible to rent anything anywhere because of the evictions. That said, I have been living in a motel for over a year now. Since I am a veteran, I went to the VA for assistance and I qualified for housing assistance. I had to requalify after 90 days. With having two evictions the search lasted more than 90 days, as it is difficult to find a landlord willing to accept me. During the 90 day period, I got the last good paying job I have had before being order to jail. Because of that job, I made too much money to continue to qualify for the program. Thus losing this housing assistance from the VA for three years. Since those days I have not been able to secure a good paying job, even though I am drug and alcohol free. I never abused any substances, I just smoked cigarettes before and quit when my first child was born. I have worked for many temp agencies, small odd jobs for homeowners and even washed dishes at a pizza place just to have food to eat. I have been to social services to try to at least get food stamps, but the hoops that have to be jumped through are astounding. I filed almost 3 months ago and have recently been denied all because they cannot verify from my last employer (temp job) that I no longer work there. They say they need a separation letter. I called the employer and they said they use a third party for that. I call the third party, they tell me the agency requesting the letter has to call and request it, that I cannot. I cannot provide the information the agency is requesting. How ridiculous. They provide me the numbers for them to call. My case worker calls and said that the contact number is not valid. I get them the contact numbers again. Same thing over and over. I give the agency the number I called and spoke to someone on. The case worker said he tried and couldn’t get the required information so my case was closed. What is going on! I don’t understand how so many people out there receive assistance and food stamps and here I am, virtually homeless, no car, no job, no income and I do not qualify. I don’t get it. I have nowhere else to turn. I have had a few churches assist me in paying for the motel room for a few weeks and have visited the food pantry. All the state agencies, the VA and 211(United Way), everytime I call one of them, they refer me to another agency. One would refer me to the other and then the other agency would refer me to another and then they would refer me back to the original agency I contacted. They keep sending me around in circles. I am at the end of my rope, I don’t know where else to go. This really is a summary of the way things been going, it does go deeper. I’m just at the end. If any of you reading this could help me in any way I would greatly appreciate it. My hope is in the Lord to see me through. May God Bless you all.

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Our Life Keeps Crumbling Around Us

Me and my family have been through more things than we can count. My fiance and I both grew up in the never ending cycle of poverty, watching as our parents scraped by and as a mother of a two year old I find out in the same position. My child’s spiteful father taking me back to court, concocting lies that made my child lose her health insurance and the food stamps we so desperately needed for nearly two months. During that time I was still caring for her four days out of the week, even though a court order stated that I wasn’t even supposed to have her in my care (due to the lies my child’s dad had spread). Two months of paying for food and medical expenses out of pocket meant that we couldn’t afford the low income apartment we were living in.

We had to leave in November. Yet the entire time there remained one man in my life who worked day in and day out to provide for me and my daughter, and that man was my fiance Chris. We were a long distance, online relationship that blossomed into what I can say is the most secure, loving, and mature relationships I as a 24 year old have ever been in.

But there’s one other person we haven’t mentioned, who also affected our lives greatly. My fiances ex-wife. After she mentally, emotionally, and physically broke him down for over ten years of marriage, paying her way for everything she could ever want or need, dealing with her pill addiction and neglect of their son, he had the courage to leave, intending on returning for his son once he had the money saved for a divorce. Over time she tricked him into believing they could work things through.

Everything was amicable between them, until she found out he was with someone else (at this time she was already with the man she had an affair with). Once she did, there was nothing stopping her from running to the police station, taking out a false protection order claiming my fiance had harmed her, their child, and even killed a dog of theirs (this dog is proven to still be living. In her care.).

Months went by with us hearing through the grape vine of his son being brainwashed, told his father didn’t love him, that he had abandoned him, and that’s why he never called. But in reality if my fiance had tried to contact his son, he would have been locked up. Over the months she stole his taxes, committed fraud through food stamps by using his name, and collected $60,000 through the New York Times which she squandered on season passes for all members of her family to Disney World.

Now I can finally get to the part, where I ask for the help of strangers on a website..

His ex-wife petitioned for a dissociation of marriage, asking for my fiance’s rights to be terminated, that he be required to pay child support, as well as $250 a week in spousal support. She did this during a time when me and my fiance are struggling to get our footing back, and now we have to travel down to Florida within 20 days. Or he will lose rights of his son. Forever.

I suppose I should also say that she is pregnant by the man whom she had the affair with. Asking my fiance to pay the way so that she and her current fiance can live a cushioned lifestyle without any work put in.

My fiance and I have no vehicle, we have no home, we have one income, we’re staying with my parents who live paycheck to paycheck with a two year old that has health issues of her own, and a difficult father that I struggle to coparent with.

We need a way to Orlando, Florida. Every ticket I’ve looked at is $145 and rising. We can’t afford this trip, not when we have bills of our own to pay, a savings we’re trying to put together to get an apartment, and a toddler to care for. So we need help. If anyone..please can help..we would be most grateful.

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I’ve never been given a proper opportunity

So let’s start this off by saying I am writing this at 12:45am in a rehab, this being one of my last options until my insurance kicks me out where I will have no where to go. I have struggled with a really nasty battle of addiction, but I have come to terms with it.

I have been in the state of Florida since August of 2019, it is now March 21, 2020 as I’m writing this. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II and ADHD, neither of which are not easy to keep under control, a lot of times they take control over me, before I know it I’m finally feeling the severity of one last dumb decision I am about to make before it changes my life.

I never would say I had Bipolar, I was diagnosed with it when I was 19. But as I have been sitting in my last rehab before I am homeless, I realize something about my last outburst. A little backstory, I ran off with a girl and hotel hopped for 6 days until the ATM ate my credit card.

I’ve always held back those feelings until I am numb to that 1 decision that gets the ball rolling. My parents shrug their shoulders at me and say oh well to my situation, not to any fairness of me. I understand I have struggled with addiction, but that should be no excuse to use me as your own scape goat because you finally got your life together as I was tearing down mine. I never had any resentments towards my parents until now, as I have done a lot of work on myself and realized a lot that I ever did growing up.

Let’s just say I didn’t grow up in a normal household by any means. We were poor, and nothing ever happened. I was always alone. So I had my imagination to my disposal as of course I did whatever came to me or a friends mind. I now sit here feeling the numbness of my psych meds, absolutely dulled to the thought of how I am going to pull this off.

I never deserved this. I always lacked opportunity and love and understanding, I grew up to my mom saying “well figure it out,” or watching her close her eyes and ears and yell that “it’s all fine.” So I ask out of utter desperation for any help for a place to stay so I can get a job, and start saving up for a car, then eventually my own apartment.

Thank you so much for taking your time to read my story, as I am just a non-existent person who has no affect on this world good or bad that’s as good as it gets..

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