I don’t know how I found myself here but here I am. Everything was going so well, I had worked hard to get my dream job as a performer and was loving life. I had moved to a new city and country to work and for three years everything was amazing. Then a family member was given a year to live and I made the decision to take a year of leave from work to return home and help my family with what we were facing. Suddenly about 5 months after I returned I became ill myself. I had got myself a job in a nursery but had to go home with a migraine one day. After a week of being unwell I finally went to the doctors who sent me to the hospital. There I had a scan which showed a suspected bleed on the brain so the doctors decided to do a lumbar puncture. Eventually I was given the all clear and sent home. Except once home I suddenly couldn’t sit up or be upright without excruciating pain. Several trips to the hospital and doctors it was decided the lumbar puncture had caused a leak of my CSF fluid. I had a procedure called a blood patch to fix it but unfortunately it failed. Several months later I finally got my second patch. It still hasn’t worked properly. I am hardly able to do anything without coming out in hives, I can barely walk to the local shop which is devastating considering I have always been so active. I can only just about manage to work two hours a day, sometimes this isn’t possible. I am waiting now to see a specialist in London. I had to resign from my performing job as my return date got extended for a further year but that has now been and gone.
To top all this off I am not entitled to any help from the ESA benefit from the government, despite working my whole life (I am 31 and have been working since I was 15) because I dared to work in a different country for one of the past three years.
I am now on my parents sofa. I can’t even afford to get a bed. My mum had a nasty fall last year on some uneven paving. She is currently unable to work herself whilst she waits for a final operation to shave the bone in her wrist and insert a plate. She is a health care assistant and has spent her whole life caring for others. We have always tried to do our best as a family and support each other but now she can’t help me and I can’t help her. We literally have £10 to our names, have taken out loans and still can’t get through the month. I don’t have a certain amount to ask for, anything, however small would really help.
I can’t thank you enough just for taking the time to read this. Any donations would be so so appreciated and I hope one day when I am in a position to I can pay it forward.