I’m 40 years old feeling like I’ve finally woke up for the first time. Throughout my life I’ve worked very hard for everything I’ve had. I had the white picket fence life, and lost it all to alcoholism after my dad- my hero/best friend/ my everything passed away in 2007. I’ve found the love of my life and would love to marry her one day soon, but financially I think it will always remain a dream. We have 3 absolutely beautiful grandchildren who were trying to find a home that 7 of us can live in together, without success because it takes job history and right now I’m having a hard time finding a decent paying job because of poor choices I’ve made in the past. I’ve always dreamed of running my own business, owning a home with my family, having my own truck, and living comfortably. One of my passions is to help others. I love helping whoever I can and I’ve recently been scammed out of over $3,000.00 that we put on a house but I can’t even afford to take him to court now because he kept our money. My fiance, Angie and I are living in a horrible motel, paying over $800.00 a month on a place that should be shut down. There are leaks, mold, drugs, murder, bugs, mice, and we can not and will not bring our babies here because it’s not safe one bit. We need to get out of here and into a home that we can grow old together in and watch our babies grow up. Its breaking my heart because I feel as though I’ve let everyone down, and I’ve become a failure to myself and that’s not who I am. I don’t give up, or quit. I’m a fighter, but I’m not 18 anymore, I’m having major knee issues and can’t go to the Doctor because I can’t afford any more debt. I can barely get up and down anymore and my knee is swollen so bad it’s not funny. The youngest of the grandkids and I are very close. That gorgeous baby has stolen my heart and I never knew this kind of bond even existed. She has made me realize a lot, and appreciate a lot more, and love, respect, and value life itself. She is my breath of fresh air and she doesn’t know it yet but my life saver because I was giving up on everything until she was born and that amazing, kind, loving personality of hers is so contagious that I couldn’t give up……I had to get up! I’m asking, begging, pleading with all my heart and soul please help me give my family a safe, loving home, and know you will be an angel to me for the rest of my life. Thank you for your time.