Hello, I am 40 years old, married, and a father of 3 beautiful daughters. In March of this year I was a passenger in a car that was in a car accident and I broke my collar bone and a 3 ribs, along with cuts and severe bruising and a concussion. I had only been at my job for 1 month when I was in the accident and since I could not report to work they filled my position and let me go. Needless to say we are way behind on bills, rent (2 months behind), and even getting food in the house. Since my doctor cleared me to be able to work again I have been interviewing every place that has a for hire sign up. I was just offered a job today and they want me to start on Monday June 24th. This is where I need the help. The new job is 40 minutes from our home and since I have been out of work I wasn’t able to keep up on the car insurance payments and I am 2 months behind and for this new job I need to show I have car insurance because I will be traveling between 4 different facilities. With the payments we are behind and late fees we owe $544.37 I know it’s a lot but I only need $344.37 to get fully caught up and get my insurance activated again and I can get back to work and get my family back on our feet. I am willing to pay every dime back once I have a few paychecks come in but I can’t get the car insurance taken care of then I won’t be able to start this job next Monday.

The last year has been hard with one of my daughters having some health problems, we were already living check to check and we have been down to one car for 8 months so this vehicle is our life line even beyond this job. Any help would greatly be appreciated, I really need to start this job before we get any further into debt than we already are. My whole world revolves around my girls and I need really need this to start being able to take care of them like a father should.

Thank you for taking the time to read this I hope this works, and God Bless. If you do give and would like to be paid back put it in the notes on paypal when sending the money and I will repay as soon as I can.

paypal.me/mwarren327

I write this from a motel room while my children sleep, and I’m trying to think of anything that will keep us from sinking even further.

I am a Mother of 2 great boys who have been traveling a bumpy path last few years, but appreciate being alive and the blessings we do have.

Rewind 6yrs and you would see I owned a great home that I worked very hard for, as well as every we ever had. I am a Nurse by profession and couldn’t imagine doing anything else.

Long story short….

My youngest was a surprise while married to my husband at the time. I extremely hard pregnancy, and when I had to go on bed rest for 7mths, unable to work, well he was gone. I was gifted a child that I was told the whole pregnancy would never make it.

Moving fwd, 2 yrs ago I was diagnosed with brain tumor, after blacking out on way home from work, and found having seizures. I After wasn’t allowed to drive, work, or even take a bath unless supervised. Three rounds Gamma knife, and chemo was the extent of public interactions. Sadly, when you soon realize the people you helped, or needed things from you soon disappear. You really learn who is real in your life.

I wasn’t able to work for 1 1/2 years and  we lost our home (foreclosed), watched our car get towed away, and accumulated a never ending stack of medical bills.

We moved to a very modest 1 bdrm rental and we had been making the best of it for we still had eachother, and I always stress to the boys that we never give up, and work hard for what we want to achieve.

Although hard to admit, I’m not what I used to be for my body is still healing. Before I would hold no less than 2 jobs and would push myself as hard as I could and was the one who helped others, and couldn’t ask others for any kind of help. Pride and independence not always great personality traits.

Well today, although very humbling, I need help. The rental, our home was completely destroyed along with our belongings, with exception of a few clothes we packed.

The owner has basically been a ghost, and has lacked any character to put it kindly.

FEMA stated due to the property type, the owner would have to iniate the clean up and claim per his insurance.

I would like to say I had rental insurance, but since we are starting over, that was a luxury I    wasn’t able to afford yet.

We stayed at church shelter for a bit and then we received motel vouchers which was very kind. Tomorrow, Saturday, June 15th at 11am we have to check out. I am asking for help to secure at least 3 weeks motel so boys will be safe, and  I can get back to work. My oldest is 17 and can watch his brother who has Asbergers and I couldn’t leave alone at shelter for it was causing great anxiety, not to mention his biggest fear severe weather and he had just lost another “safe haven”, his home.

So, even though I am falling apart on the inside, they don’t know. I haven’t said anything about tomorrow being the day we have to check out, or that I have around $7 to my name.

I am asking for around $800 for a room and I will get right back out there to support my family. Without a doubt, it will be paid fwd once we get up again. We don’t have anyone left here, just us but we are alive, and that is a blessing.

I thank you for your time and wish good health, and peace for you and yours.

paypal.me/JulieArr

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Hi my name is Brent and I am in a situation that I (to my knowledge) can’t get out of. I have managed to stay afloat for nearly a year, but this might be the final blow if I can’t come up with a solution.  I am around 1,100 dollars of debt that needs immediate action and probably around 2,500 total at this time. The problem is that the 1,000 of immediate action will prevent me from being able to do anything for myself if I can’t find a solution. I will explain the best I can in the third paragraph.

I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, severe anxiety, and depression and have been going to both a psychiatrist and psychologist for around 6 months now. The medicine and sessions has me feeling capable and ready to get back on my feet, but I feel like I’m completely stuck and can’t get a job because my property I need to use to maintain one is in threat. This isn’t out of me not being qualified for one or the lack of not wanting a job. All I want is to have one and feel financially sound now that I feel like I am better. I lost my job around 10 months ago, and I have been living off of what I had in my bank account and what I could come up with at bill time. I have the things I need to survive, but I can’t use them due to my position. I know this is exhausting to read so I will try to quickly go through what is holding me back.

• I have a phone, but it has been disconnected recently (30 days no payment) and I cannot follow up calls to jobs that I have been receiving e-mails from. I’m assuming the voicemail will be full if and when I can get it turned on, its only been 5 days disconnected. This costs around 150 to get turned back on.
• I have a car, with no gas. The bank was calling everyday before the cell phone was turned off. My lease is 25 days past due at this point. I still have the car but I have 8 miles left on my gas tank. I cannot go to any interviews.  I’m afraid the car will be taken soon. This costs 290 to catch up. Going along with that bank account that the lease is on I owe something like 40 dollars on my credit card. So as far as the bank calling I would owe them 330 dollars.
• I live in an apartment, no one has asked me for the money but I am 5 days past due. If I can’t pay I don’t know long I will have before I would be evicted. I have a roommate, I assume he will start complaining if I don’t have a plan soon. We split the rent. I pay 375 for the apartment and 125 for utilities. I owe 500 for this total.
• My insurance is due on the 19th, I am not worried about this at the moment because I would have 10-20 days to pay it after the bill date its 117.
• I have about a day or 2 of food left at best. I have no gas. I can’t put a number on this but if the bills are paid that is all I would need to survive until I get a job and a paycheck coming in.

So my total goes to 1,100 to be out of danger. If anyone could help me at all I would appreciate it. This is a vital time for me. I’m recovered, on medicine, still planning to see the psychologist and psychiatrist long term (I have assistance to pay for this and my next appointment is on the 24th). Before this year my symptoms were never this bad. I have a degree, I have good work experience, and even 12 months ago I had a great life. Depression hit me really hard a year ago and it took a long time to climb out of, but I’m ready to fight and own it but I don’t know how if I don’t have any tools. I would appreciate any advice or financial support. Sorry this was so long, I just wanted to be detailed and honest.

I have attached the bank account image for an example. The money I owe is half of what it shows. It is just showing the past due and current due amount.

• Paypal – paypal.me/brentsa

In April, our duplex was sold and the new owners want us out.  This was our home for 18 years.

The stress gave hubby a heart attack and two days later a massive stroke. I’ve been disabled with crippling pain for 20 years so this was scary for me to not know how to care for him.

Since he was released to a local nursing facility, I had to rush over to that facility to make them do their job. They’d “forget” his meals, over work him in PT and he was injured and the final straw was on Memorial day, he told his nurse he “felt weird” at 6 am and by 8 am when I called to check on him before getting ready to go see him, he told me he didn’t feel well but the nurses were ignoring him. I tried calling as I dressed and drove over, but no one ever answered the phone. When I got there, nurses were standing around near his room but not one of them even looked in on him. I demanded the resident doctor look at him and was met with a rude denial. I had to call 911.

After spending the day there having tests and scans, Thank goodness he didn’t have another heart attack or stroke, the ER couldn’t get anyone to answer the phones so they could release him back to them, which is the law. After 30 minutes of constant calling, they finally called the physicians line and got through.

Needless to say, I pulled him right out of there, was made to sign an AMA document and took him home.

Now, I’m his “nurse” , the only one who is packing, looking for financing because his job was our only real income aside from my $675 monthly stipend, look for help moving closer to my daughter who is 2000 miles away and the only family we have. Plus try to keep our utilities on.

My daughter wants me closer to her so she can help me with the day to day things that I can no longer do and after this last couple of months, I’ll need her help more than ever since I keep re-injuring myself trying to move and pack heavy objects.

I’m quickly losing traction on everything.  No one that we know can or is willing to even help with the packing. Finding assistance in any form has been horrific. All I’ve gotten is some food stamps. And getting financial aid to just pay my utilities is a joke. All I get is, “we don’t have any funding”, given a list of other places that can’t seem to help for one reason or another.

I am desperate and have lost almost all hope of being able to get to keep anything including my daughter’s and Grandchildren’s family heirlooms and items I’ve kept for them through the years.

I’m asking for some help with the costs of this move. We don’t have a choice in staying even if we could afford the rent here. And now we’re two months in arears since the new owners told me they wouldn’t charge us rent considering my husband’s health issues, but now are demanding the back rent plus next month’s rent.

Plus, physical help with going through our stuff to sell, donate or trash what we don’t need and help with the cost of a reliable moving company. Again, my daughter can help with storage helping us move into a new place there and has even offered to go look at places for me to let me know which ones are acceptable for our needs when we get there. If we stay in this area, the rents are too high and there is nearly no financial help for us. We will be homeless.

This all happened all at once and every day I’m more painful and stiff than the day before. Our debt grows and my depression and hopelessness grows too.  I’m petrified I’ll get sick from all the demands put on us and then my husband won’t have care, we’ll lose absolutely everything including our companion kitties which could quite laterally kill my husband.

Please, please have compassion or pity on us and help us! I’ve always been the helper and have tried my entire life to give more than I get so this is not an easy thing I’m doing here but I can’t find any other avenue open to me.

No matter what, I send you blessings and humbly appreciate your time and if you have questions or want proof of my story, please email me and I can send snap shots of the paperwork and answer any questions.  =^-^=

Born in Chicago. Thank God my parents taught me if you want something, you work for it. Working since 13. 62 now. Need some help. Please and thank you.

I have a couple of disabilities that make me unable to work. Issues with my hands is one of them.Painful. No disability assistance for 4 to 6 months they say. I won’t get my retirement social security until August. In the meantime, I’m scraping right now. Living on a public campground in a tent. Homeless.
I’ve been working since I was thirteen years old. Started pumping gas at the family service station. Took over the station after I got married and had a son. EPA underground storage tank regs took care of that. Opened a carwash with my pop and brother. Did nothing but rain every weekend for a year. Told my brother to run it while I find a job. Instead of closing it, I wanted him to keep it going. That was 28 years ago. Carwash still open. Beautiful house my brother has. My brother has worked very hard. Pop passed in 08 from lung cancer. I sold cars for a lot of years. I did ok. Recession and all the new bells and whistles took care of that. I couldn’t keep up with all the new technology. I bounced here and there for a few years. Rented rooms. I even survived without a car, working full time at a hot warehouse for a few years. Using public transportation, my two feet and a bicycle prove to myself that it could be done. A big problem for me that a psychiatrist once diagnosed me with Fight or Flight syndrom. To avoid stressful situations I will run or quit a job. When I first got married it was very stressful. No excuse for hitting my beautiful wife but I did. I finally stopped after learning to walk away (run) or control my temper. I was usually fine 5 minutes later. We stayed together for 30 years. That pain I caused her haunts me til this day. My children being molested at a very young age by my younger brother. Losing my family through divorce. Losing my home and investments. The psychiatrist said years ago that it was a wonder I wasnt in a institution or dead. I dont drink. Dont smoke. No drugs. Never been arrested. Good, God fearing man. Enjoy time with my granddaughter when I see her. I’ve been trying to keep my stress level down. When things get stressful I get going. I wont fight anymore. I love both my children very much. I have helped them financially more than I should. But of course I will when I can. I will be 62 next week and I need just a little help. Please?

A few dollar donation to my pay pal account would help a lot. Some gas, phone and food money totals about $400 or so and I will be in the clear. God Bless you. I will pass it forward when I am able which will be soon.
Any help would greatly be appreciated. Thanks in advance.

John Norman

paypal.me/jnorman657

My mom, sister and I have fallen on hard financial times, and we need your help getting back on our feet.

My sister, who was making the majority of our income, got laid off from her administrative job at a real estate company, in July 2018. We then got evicted from a subletting living situation we were all three in. My mom gets a small social security check, which is not enough to sustain even one person, let alone three people.

We sustained a motel for about six months, before we drained all of our resources, and ever since March 2019, we have been in and out of motels, spending a lot of time directly on the streets.

Life on the streets is not even life at all. It is merely just existing.

It is a struggle everyday, just to survive.

There is the physical aspect of this plight, which is constantly lugging all of our possessions around, which is physically taxing on our bodies. We are also constantly harassed by police, security, business owners, and neighbors, who constantly tell us to leave wherever we are.

As long as we are all alive in physical, human form, we all have to have our physical bodies somewhere.

Experiencing this plight is traumatic enough on its own, but the harassment, judgment, the lack of compassion and understanding, and just the overall mean treatment we receive from a hostile majority, because of the stigma attached to this condition, makes functioning like a normal human being nearly impossible.

We are at rock bottom.

We don’t currently have any transportation to store any of our belongings, nor to travel anywhere we need to go, so with our belongings with us at all times, the horrific treatment we receive is magnified tenfold, as when many surmise that you are homeless, you are treated worse than the gum on the bottom of your shoe.

When outside, we are sleep deprived, devoid of showers, a bed, warmth (as our body temperatures are never regulated properly, so we are always cold, even if it’s sunny outside), and we aren’t eating a lot either, as our food supply is sparse. All of these things not only exhaust us physically, but cause us to be weary in spirit.

We have also discovered that organizations don’t get you housing, unless you are a single mom with small children, a battered woman, or you are disabled in some way.

Everyone else is on their own.

Most of the people we know are either willing, but not able to help us, or able, but not willing to help us.

We need the love and support of those who are both willing and able to contribute to helping us get back on our feet.

My sister, as I mentioned earlier, does administrative work, and has been on many interviews since being laid off, yet hasn’t landed a new job yet. She is very much wanting to land full time employment again, to be self sufficient again.

I am a musician https://store.cdbaby.com/cd/clrand, and I am also very astute at doing numerology readings (combined with astrology), and I seek new, exciting opportunities in these areas for myself, to make a decent living.

We are just a loving family, who have temporarily fallen down, and just need assistance getting back to life, so we can feel human again.

Even when we are in motels, we are riddled with constant anxiety, because we know we have to check out again a couple of days later, so we never get to truly relax, get good sleep, and we have no sense of stability and security to function from.

We need a new home.

We need stability and security.

We need a stable base to operate from.

When you are in survival mode only, with your basic needs being unmet, it is extremely difficult to do anything else.

We are not nomadic, gypsy spirits.

We want, need, and love having a stable home.

We just need some help right now, as we all need help in this life, as none of us makes it alone in this world.

Our intention is to raise $70,000, as “7” is a very spiritual number in numerology, and also, because, when you are starting over from rock bottom, the costs, just to get back to feeling normal, can add up rather quickly.

I have listed a pay pal link below, but I just created it, and I don’t currently have a bank account, so we can access your kind donations much quicker and easier through my sister’s pay pal account, as she already has a bank account.

You can donate to her pay pal account by using her e-mail address, mmr09loves animals@yahoo.com. That’s ZERO (the NUMBER) 9, not “O” (the letter) 9. You can put her name on it, which is Melinda Rand.

Thank you for taking your time to read all of this.

We greatly appreciate it, as well as your understanding, compassion, and financial assistance.

Sincerely,
Charles La Vett Rand

So, where do I start? I guess I should begin with the 7 kids part. Together my husband and I have 3 children. About 5 years ago, my sister fell into addiction she birth 2 children within a years time (June 2013 and May 2014) and both were born with drugs in their system. The older baby was born with many problems including an underdeveloped gestational system; when he swallowed he aspirated (the milk went into his lungs instead of stomach) therefore, requiring him to need a feeding tube for almost the first 2 years of his life. The younger baby showed no physical issues, however was born with drugs in her system. Child services tried to work with my sister but they had had enough, they took the 2 babies away from her as well as her 2 older children. The 4 children share 3 fathers, all of whom are incarcerated and their extended families are not connected with them. My mother was ill at the time and could not handle caring for young children. My husband and I couldn’t bear to see the siblings separated from each other or from their cousins (our children) so we took them in. At that time the children were 3 months old, 14 months old, 6 and 8. I always have worked and so has my husband, during the holidays we have even taken on extra work. We have never really needed to ask for help and always made things happen. But, around this past Christmas (Dec. 2018) I experienced a near death situation that caused me to stop working. In November 2018, we found out I was pregnant, at first we were scared but we thought at this point what is one more? A month later, I was experiencing pain and bleeding, I thought I was miscarrying, something that I had never experienced in the past. I went to the ER only to find out I was experiencing a rare ectopic pregnancy where the fetus was attached to my scar tissue from my previous c-section. The fetus was pushing into my bladder and putting it into distress. Had I ignored the signs and took this for “implantation bleeding” of common early on spotting, I would have died. I spent Christmas Eve undergoing an operation to terminate my pregnancy as well as completely sterilize me for risk of the same issue reoccurring due to more scar tissue developing after the operation. On top of it all, because the condition was so rare, the doctors did not 100% know what to look for; they called specialist from through the country who have dealt with it and came up with the best treatment plan they could, but there was no guarantee that I would successfully survive the operation. The likelihood that I could be leaving 7 children and a husband who needs be behind was unreal. The whole situation was terrifying and heartbreaking for me and my husband. After the operation I had to visit the doctor for 8 weeks, 2 of which I continued methotrexate injections (chemo medicine, cell reducers) to ensure all of the pregnancy was diminished. The medicine made me super sick and weak. To this day I have an special place in my heart for cancer survivors and those with rheumatoid arthritis or anyone who has to take that drug regularly or more consistently than I had to; you honestly feel like your dying although you’re getting better. Not to mention, since I received a hysterectomy at the age of 31, my body is experiencing early menopause. I am blessed to be alive and I have to count on that as the future continues to unravel. I finally returned back to work March of 2019 but only on light duty. I work for a fast paced wholesale produce business. As time progressed, my boss wanted more from me and I just could not handle it, even with a doctors note, he decided he had to hire my replacement and let me go. So after 3 months of no income from my end the bills had been piling up. My husband’s income alone wasn’t cutting it; he borrowed money from family as he could, but people can only lend so much. And the one month I worked from March to April only helped us to catch up but so much. So now we are in June and facing shut off notices for water and electricity. I was able to borrow some money from a friend to keep the water on, but it’s still behind. And the electric is almost $500 dollars behind ($456). I’ve tried community centers within my county, but no one will help us because they say my husband’s income is not within the poverty range. He nets $1200 every 2 weeks and our rent alone is $1600. We have been getting help with food stamps since I’ve been out of work, so thank God the kids are not struggling to eat, but $800 is hardly enough to pay bills and buy household items which cost cash as well as gas for the car. I am starting a new job at daycare center on June 14th, which I am very excited about, I hope playing with babies will make me feel better. But, the electric is scheduled for shut off on the 10th. My husband and I are hard workers, we have never needed any handouts until recently. If we could just get a little help to carry us over this rough patch, we will soon be earning what we need to push us out of this hole and get back to normal. We’ve been doing so well all of these years and suddenly it’s like every odd is just not in our favor. We just need a little help to put us into good standing and we will be able to maintain that standing.

https://paypal.me/miamyselfand9

Hello, and sending thanks and blessings to whoever is reading this!

I am in a desperate bind, and it seems that no matter how much I try to take two steps forward, I end up needing to take three steps back when it comes to my financial woes.

My 3 children and I need to move out by August, and we are in the process of getting a new home, which is great! However, I keep getting hit with these unexpected costs for bills and other financial hiccups. My water bill is outrageously high, due to my downstairs toilet running continuously and falling behind a few months in payment. My water was just shut off today!

It would be such a blessing if this bill could be paid! I have already taken out 2 payday loans in the past, which just resulted in another bi-weekly cost of about $500.00 and I can not afford to take out another loan as I am working on my housing situation. In all honesty, I truly wish that I could get my slate wiped clean with my bills so that my children and I can move freely without the burden of needing to pay off so many bills.  However, I continue to count my blessings, and I am just PRAYING for a miracle that I will receive the financial help that I need because it seems like I am drowning in debt right now!

I know that when I get on my feet financially, I would definitely show my appreciation by paying the blessings forward by helping others financially in any way that I can. I pray that I will soon be in a position to do this. As of right now, I am just hoping and praying for some help! Please! I would be so grateful! Thanks so much in taking the time to read this and again blessings to you!

http://paypal.me/angelj202

Hello My Name is Felicia.  I’m the mom in the picture of 4. My husband and two beautiful girls make up the rest of what what our happy Christmas last year.  The other picture of the beautiful older woman is my mother.  Her name is Ruth.

My mama passed away 03/30/2019. She was tired and had been fighting a loosing battle for about 5 yrs.  Kidney failure and congestive heart failure took my mama way too early.  She would have been 69 this month on June 19th.

She was an amazing woman and she only ever cared for other.  I can’t tell you how many times she gave homes and meals and clothes to my friends who has nowhere else to go or even to strangers who even looked like they needed help.  She was basically a saint.  Even after she had passed her body went to help others and she donated everything she could down to her last breath and beyond.

The day she passed I couldn’t save her.  I tried so hard until the paramedics had to pull me off of her.  They tried but that day the world lost one of the greatest treasures it ever had

I’m almost 30. Everything was going good.  I was taking care of my mama getting her better.  My kids had their Nana with them.  I own my home and my car and I have  a decent job.

Since my mama passed I had to take care of everything.  Which I wouldn’t of had any other way.  It kept me somewhat sane to be busy.  I maxed out my credit cards and used my savings to make sure she had the ” Party” She deserved.  My mama didn’t want people crying at a funeral,  mama wanted a party and wanted all of us to be happy and loved.   She had a life insurance policy for 20,000 so I didn’t mind spending 10,000 for everything including the party.  Well apparently she’s only had that policy for less than a year so it didn’t pay out.

Now my family is drowning.  I’m $10, 000.00 in debt and the monthly paying of everything is getting more and more.  My husband and I work as much as we can and even overtime but it’s like we can’t get ahead.  I don’t know what else to do.  I can’t get a loan cuz my credit it terrible from all my maxed cards and I have no rich family to fall back on nor anything of worth to sell.

Thank you for reading our story.  Even if you can’t or don’t help.  At least you got to meet my mama in some sort of way.  She IS truly amazing no matter where she is.

https://paypal.me/Whiskigrl91?locale.x=en_US

♥ Please help if you can ♥

I could really use your help with some consideration, kindness and your generosity.

I am obviously here because I am very pressed and in great need of financial aid but I really don’t feel very comfortable asking a stranger to simply give me their hard earned money but I would feel much better about my request if I can ask you for a loan (with interest) instead of asking for a donation or financial gift. I have been trying to find loans from various sources but with bad credit and no recent employment history it’s basically impossible to obtain. Please read my story especially near the end that should give you something to consider. Anything you are willing to do is greatly appreciated. At the very bottom are options, information and details for doing a loan if you are willing to make a loan to me. I will accept a donation of course if you really prefer to do that, perhaps for tax reasons or for other good reasons that you want to bless with. It’s all appreciated very much whichever way you want to go about it.

My name is Patric and I am a middle aged man living in Southern California trying hard to overcome my terrible circumstances for my family and myself. So far I have had no luck and wondering why so many bad events have occurred in my life. So now I turn to this website in hopes of finding help from some kind and caring people.

My story

Over the last few years I have suffered some various losses. A trusted family friend absconded a lot of money from me which set me back a great amount, he went to jail for eight years and there were many victims from his ponzi scheme. This was a very great loss for me and my family and of course loss of friendships.

Then a couple years ago I suffered thefts of property including vehicles and most of what I owned which included important tools and supplies I use for work and with the police department mishandling the situation I lost almost everything to thieves, it’s a long depressing story and this was also a very great loss.

I suffered a loss when my truck engine blew up on a job I was doing out of state in very bad, cold and dangerous weather so I had to start renting trucks to do my work. Then I lost my truck due to a repossession on a title loan I had on it. I had to rent trucks because my truck was broken down and with my work being slow at the time, I was not able to keep up with the extremely high interest rate and many other expenses I have so I lost my truck altogether.

I suffered another loss not long ago due to another theft when a friends trailer I was using for work was stolen even though the hitch was locked and it had my tools and equipment inside, nothing has been recovered and it’s the same police department. As you might imagine I don’t live in the best city and I want to relocate soon as possible.

A while ago I suffered a leg injury that prevented me from working for about two weeks but I’m mostly ok now in that regard.

I suffered another loss when a truck I was renting from a very well known car rental company caught fire on the engine and somehow they determined I was responsible. My insurance paid a large portion of it luckily but I still have the deductible to pay. I did not pay it yet as I don’t have the funds but also because I plan to challenge why they determined I was responsible for their equipment failure when they provided me with a defective truck. Until now they refuse to rent to me of course so I have lost out on some job opportunities because of it. Other trucks I have to rent are more expensive and difficult to get due to availability.

And another loss that just happened recently has more or less clinched my financial fate it seems. I was in a serious traffic accident that caused major losses and stress. I was towing a trailer with a lot of my customers personal property inside and a large semi truck with its trailer flew by me at a very high rate of speed and the wind turbulence  from it was so extreme it caused my rented trailer to fish tail out of control and it rolled over including my rental truck which was a private rental, both the truck and trailer were totaled. Luckily no other vehicles were involved and I was not injured but some at the scene said I was lucky to be alive and they saw how fast the trucker past by me, and no, the trucker did not stop. I was able to complete the job by transferring everything to a much more expensive and large rental truck and this caused delays. Of course there was property damage and my insurance company found a way to avoid payment as seems to be the habit with a lot of insurance companies. So whatever I would have earned was used for the losses and my losses far exceeded what I would have earned so I am very much in deep debt and way behind on many bills at this time and now about to face eviction and there will be more losses for other bills and things I still have. But the worst thing if all this is not bad enough is that my work flow has stopped so I am not getting customers now and I think it’s because of the website I am using for finding work has made major changes recently that benefits them but not the users like myself so the work flow has stopped. Otherwise I would probably be getting by ok at this time. 

My plan now is to get into other work by becoming an employee for a company that will pay well and there is a strong need for them to hire. The thing is that there is a school I must attend and after that some orientation and then finally on the job training which is when I can start being paid and after the training period I will then be paid good wages. I can not start until I have sustainable funds as this will take about one month before I can start bringing in an income again so I need funds to get me by in the meantime and to take care of the critical bills that are severely past due. Hopefully I can accomplish this goal and with your help I can accomplish it. After I begin to recover, I will work on my credit ratings to get those repaired. Please give careful consideration of my situation and for my financial request which is shown below and I will appreciate it very much and I do thank you for the time you spent reading about my story. Below are a couple of pictures from my accident. Below the pictures is information you will need if you will be helping me. 

If you want to make a loan I would be happy to pay a simple 10% for whatever amount you want to send. The amount I need to get me by for my past bills and to sustain me and my family for the next month is $4000 USD. What I need right now, today if possible is $800 of the $4000 I am requesting. Any amount towards my goal is very much appreciated even a dollar or two is helpful at this point. In regards to the 10% interest, that would normally be considered on an annual basis but I plan to pay any loans back within six months and perhaps sooner and I’ll be happy to pay the 10% on it. So if paid in six months it is effectively a rate of 20% since it is paid in half the time. I am willing to pay the interest on any funds of $20 or more. If the amount sent is less than $20 I will consider it as a donation instead. If you send $20 or more but want it to be a donation instead of a loan then please add a note or message that your financial gift is a donation. On PayPal you can add a note to let me know. For those of you who do not have PayPal but do have a bank account with the Zelle service which is used for secure bank to bank transfers that you can do on your computer. Zelle uses an email address to process transfers so you can send a message to me at the email to indicate the amount you sent and to let me know if it’s a loan or donation. You can ask your bank if you are not sure about the Zelle service. Just ask them about Zelle transfers or check your online bank account if it has that service. When I recover enough I will begin sending monies back to those who made a loan to me with 10% interest added unless you indicate you made a donation and not a loan. In either case I thank you very much and even more so if you donate instead. I do appreciate all your help and for taking your time to consider my request. Whatever you decide, yes or no; thank you and God bless. Have a very good day and take care.

Patric

PS: I will delete this request once the goal of $4000 has been met.

PayPal:     paypal.me/PatricD

Zelle:        s5rpexp273@liamekaens.com

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At 18 I joined the Forrest service with a dream of becoming a smoke jumper I’d never been so proud of myself or worked so hard for something at 22 I was applying for a fire chief position when I got a call that my niece passed away,she was only a few months old,I got on a plane and headed home to support my sister in her grief,I missed out on my dream job and then worked odd jobs to get by until I found my passion even more so then the Forrest service,I had a job working with hospice patients in small care facilities,I worked extremely hard and loved every bit of it so much so that for the first time in my life I was a higher up with out the pay of course,I was in charge of 4 buildings 70 residents and many care staff I was in charge of medication passes also and one building alone took 7 hours to get through,not ever did I have a patient that suffered a fall or injury,I could remember every detail about each resident I came across,my life was just perfect,I eventually decided I’d like to start my own company with a few employees doing in home hospice care,I had the money saved up and two potential workers that was until one day I going about my business when I felt pressure in my side and upon waking up the next day I felt pain that was truly the worst pain of my life,I was stuck hunched over and could not walk more then 5 feet and my legs gave out,i was 33 years old I went through many different procedures but basically was stuck in bed for almost a year,was not able to work and moved back in with mom,I was suicidal and hopeless,my mom asked me to move out because I wasnt able to pay rent or bills,I guess she thought I was faking I’m not really sure,but I was broke and had 3 days to find a place,I found a free room to stay in as long as I watched the place and during that time applied for disability and got it awarded several months later,with the money I bought a small 5th wheel trailer and have it at a trailer park with cheap rent,of course I live 15 feet from the train tracks but I’m not going to complain,I’ve managed to live there almost 5 years now but the owner of the park sold it and the new owners now want everyone to pay water,sewage,garbage and that is $150. extra per month that I just dont have my disability check is being garnished for student loans so I receive about $700. a month,my rent is $356 electric is about $70,utilities $100 phone bill is $60 that doesn’t leave me with much for necessities like tampons,shampoo,t.p,dish soap,and food the last two week of the month I’m usually looking for a way to eat,my clothes are old and my car is falling apart and I’m driving without tags or insurance,I have no choice as my back still wont let me walk much,I live with chronic pain and depression is running my life,all I want is to be able to have a little extra cash for new underwear and dress some food and maybe take my mom out to eat and for once not have to feel like a failure and loser,I’ve never asked for help and with my time I help others in the little ways I’m able,just recently what I thought was a good friend borrowed my car to pick up her husband and was to return that day ended up stealing my car and it was found a month later absolutely destroyed,I cant sell it after the horrific damage she did to it and I would love to take her to small claims court if I had the money to file a claim,I treated her with love and kindness and got my car stolen and destroyed for it,its only the right thing to do to make her pay for it,with that I’m begging for some financial help please help me please..thank you for your time,have a lovely day.

Hi, My name is Keshia. I am writing to ask for help financially for my family. I am a single parent and I currently live with a family member but is interested in obtaining my own place. I have been suffering financial hardship for a year now. I lost my job last year and was jobless for about 4 months. ( march-July 2018) I collected unemployment but that was only $275 a week. During that time I still had a carnote that was due, phone bill, daughter needed school clothes at the time, gas for car, food, etc. I took out loans that I now am behind on. Due to all this I am still playing catch up and it is very difficult to catch up. This is why I am having a hard time saving money to get my own place for my daughter and I. Also I not only need my own place, I also need money to fully furnish that place. I have nothing right now. I am entitled to child support payments but the father of my child will not obtain a job to satisfy that responsibility. Not having my own place is really stressing me out and depressing me. I reside with some family who I rarely get along with. Every day I come home I feel like I am not wanted here. I feel a bunch of tension. That feeling makes me uncomfortable. I have been actually told that I was not suppose to be here that long and that I should have moved out already a long time ago. I am just in a very tight bond at the moment and I am requesting financial help to satisfy my current needs. The amount I am requesting is at least $14,000. I think that amount will pay off all the excess loans AND still get me a place and furnishings for my place. I would very much so appreciate any amount but $14,000 is what I am asking for. I am trying to make it to where I am NEVER in this kind of bind again. Thanks in advance. My paypal link is paypal.me/keshiachism

I used to be the reliable one. I had an 820 credit score, a great house, a husband, and I was hoping to have a child or two one day, also. I was the person who wouldn’t hesitate to give to those in need. I’d hand a $50 bill to a woman outside the grocery store with a cardboard sign. When one of my coworkers was diagnosed with cancer, I put $500 into the GoFundMe account his family started for him. I donated my vacation days from my pre-military job so others could take emergency time off. I always figured the universe would balance and I’d be okay if anything ever happened to me.

But I lost my husband. I came down with crippling rheumatoid arthritis. I lost my military career to a medical evaluation board, but only got awarded 50% disability, about $800 a month. I tried to cut back on everything, but the bills piled up. I haven’t seen a dentist since 2013 because I just can’t afford to, and my teeth are chipped in the front and crumbling more and more and I’m starting to get the kind of pain I felt right before I had to get a root canal while I was still on active duty and had my dental needs covered by the military. My credit cards have been maxed out and some are already in collections. My car is about to be repossessed, which will be devastating since it’s currently the roof I over my head.

I feel like a complete failure, so much guilt for not being able to rise above, especially since my grandmother’s health has begun failing. I’ve always felt it was a duty for the young to care for their elders, but I’m in no position to do so, living in my car and just scraping y and surviving day to day.

This is truly my last resort. I never imagined I’d be pleading with strangers on the Internet to help me get my life back, but here I am. Anything would help. My credit is dismal and I don’t have the money to pay a deposit in a rental. Due to PTSD from sexual assault while living in barracks, I can’t sleep in a shelter. I am on a waiting list for housing assistance, but I still have to get approval from a landlord, so paying off my credit cards and repairing my credit is important. But I’m afraid I won’t be able to hold off on dental work much longer. I don’t have to pay for my arthritis medication because the VA covers me for it, but they do not provide dental and the pain in my jaws and up to my ears is getting worse and worse.

Thank you for taking the time to read about my situation. I really appreciate anything you can spare, and I hope one day I’ll be back in a position where I can make the same kind of difference in someone’s life that you may make in mine.

Hi my name is Jason Bredahl, and I am writing this letter to whom it may concern. I am lost right now don’t know where else to go or who to ask I got in contact with any of my immediate family my father and mother have passed away from lung and liver cancer and interrupt aneurysm. My fiance is 4 months pregnant my current job doesn’t have medical coverage and her employer doesn’t that great of health coverage for her. I currently working construction and due to the rain this year in California I was put out of work quite a bit how to sell my second vehicle and everything else I own just so that we can stay afloat now since she’s getting more towards the due date the bills are getting higher for the hospital and doctors appointments so all their extra money is going to that. I like so much work this winter that every paycheck goes straight to payment don’t have any left for gas to even get to work anymore I think I was let go from my job because I wasn’t able to arrive to the job site and my company would not help me out at all after working over a year there I have other job interviews but don’t have the gas to get there today my storage unit is dude that I’m going to lose and all our stuff cuz all we live in a tiny apartment that we have to store a lot of our stuff there that’s $100 my car payments two weeks past due that is $200 car insurance past due had to take a payday loan that’s past due now I’m just lost now and don’t know who to ask or where to go never been down this hard I pray every night for a miracle which is probably never going to ever happen for me all I want to do is be able to get to a job and support my family which is hard right now. I’m an awesome guy I do everything I can to help anybody and everybody with anything that I can, when I am at work I’m one of the hardest workers there from the start to the finish I’ve asked my current employer if they would be able to help me out at all and they set a solely not it will not help me I don’t understand that how I work so hard for them and they won’t help me. Right now all our money is going to rent barely have any food my car is totally on E can’t get to any job interviews and afraid that my car will be repossessed in the next week to where I can’t even get to a job I guess I’m asking for a miracle to happen I’ve never prayed so much my entire life. Just worried about my fiance’s pregnancy about a year-and-a-half ago we were expecting twins unfortunately we lost almost 4 months and a procedure for that is over $6,000 ain’t going to get any help. I make good money when I am able to get to work but being I had such a bad winter it was the only able to work one or two days a week for a while after my child support got taken out of my check we really didn’t have much left. Sorry if my letter doesn’t make any sense I’m just confused and worried right now Navy Kissimmee I’m balling in tears as I’m writing this I’m afraid that we’re going to be raising a baby on the street. I was able to get any kind of help with the bills and car payment and storage when I’m able to get back on my feet I will help anybody that would be in the same situation than I am right now cuz I know how it feels and it’s not worth going through do anything that I could to help them. I just want to thanks to whom it may concern for taking your time they read this letter and God bless

Hello, my name is Milka Ortiz. I met my husband when I was 16 years old. Had my first child at the age of 18. Married at the age of 19. Had two more children by the age of 27. I did not realize my husband had a very bad habit of cheating. And was only with my because he felt obligated to our children. He would go on to have multiple affairs through the entire marriage. He came down with colon cancer in 2016. I spent seven days on a cot taking care of him only going home to shower and return. He was released seven days later. Only for me to intercept a message from his latest mistress about a week later. He lied about the affair and we started marriage counseling. Only to realize that he was still with the other woman. We tried four marriage counselors which he would go to for a few sessions and not return. Later he revealed that I was trying to hear from these marriage counselors that our marriage was repairable which it was not. On our anniversary on 6-8-17 I kicked him out he moved in with his mistress and her teenage son. I don’t know what happened but he would come crying back four months later. While he was gone I had met someone. Which I believe is why he came back. Oh by the way I forgot to mention since 2008 I have been mentally disabled because of all the mental abuse he put me through. He could not get over that I was with someone else for a brief moment. His logic was that he was in a relationship and all I had was a sexual encounter. He believed that what I had done was millions times worse than all the affairs he had. On 2/26/19 after finding out he was still with his mistress I kicked him out. Not realizing that he was going to cut me off financially. I have a 26 year old son who lives with me because of my frail mind and because I am unfit to take care of myself   I lost 19 pounds in two and a half months. And I am a prisoner to my own home because every Pennie the comes in goes to bills. I had to turn to legal aid to start divorce process I started a week after he left and here we are almost in June and my paperwork is still not complete. He hired an attorney and filed for divorce on 4/9/19. My problem is that he has not served me yet. But has placed an injunction on me that I cannot sell anything in the house including the house. He wants the house auctioned off. If not for the help of friends and family I would have defaulted on my mortgage by now. He is to make my son and I homeless. I have to go to food pantries to put food on my table, beg family and friends for toiletries cleaning supplies and laundry products. I cannot leave my home only in cases of emergency because I must save my gas for my vehicle. I find myself in deep depression because of this. My son and daughter had to stop furthering their education because they must help provide. I only get a small social security disability check once a month which does not come close to our bills. I have cut down to the bare minimums. But it’s still not enough. I would like to come up with the funds to not have to continue to beg for help and the funds to buy my husband out of his part of the home. Please take into consideration because of my mental help I cannot work. I have tried through the years but have been unable to hold a job. My psychiatrist tells me I should not be trying to work because of my mental health. He feels I am unfit to work. Please help to put a stop to my husband trying to destroying me any further. My children and I did not cause this. He did.

I feel like I’m drowning. I can’t keep up with payments, my credit just hit a low. I can’t get approved for a car, rental properties. I’m trying so hard to start my life but every time I try to get a loan or credit, I can’t because I already in debt. I have 5,000 in credit card debt and I pay 500/mo in student loans. Please help me if you can. I need to begin my life, but I’m struggling so much.

I am a father of two, recently divorced.  My ex-wife took all of my money in our joint account and left me with a ton of debt. She also got most of the household items. I have over the last year incurred substantial debt as a result. I was also put out of work for a while with a kidney stone and can not pay the medical bills from it. I am asking for help to get back on track. I am in need of $3000.00 to get clear of most of it. Most immediately I am short on my rent and need $825 of the $3000 as quickly as possible. I hope someone out there knows the struggle. May you be blessed. Thank you.https://www.paypal.me/AWG7711

Hello my name is Lisa, I am a 22 year old college student. I really don’t know where to start but thank you so much for clicking on my story and giving me the time of day.

I have been stuck in a cycle of climbing out of the negative every month. I’m currently in the negative and can even pay for gas to work.

This all really started when moving out for the first time with my sister. We both were not ready. After we moved out 3 months in my sister began switching jobs back to back. This put me in the position to pay all the bills. For the rest of the lease I had to cover everything she didn’t have. I was paying my half of the rent plus all utilities and other expenses. I wanted to everything to not get an eviction on my record so young. I took out credit cards and paid everything  myself.

After a year we moved out where got a boyfriend and moved in with him and I was left with no money and in debt. I had no choice but to move in with my mom.

With school, work and having to try to dig myself out of debt I have fallen deep into depression because I just feel like I have no way out. I never thought I’d be begging on a website to get money but I don’t know what to do.

My monthly income falls short every money putting me in the negative. Every month I get fees $36+ pushing me further and further into hopelessness.

I really don’t know what else to say. I feel defeated by everything. I just hope and pray someone reads this and wants to help me. I don’t know what else to do. I’m working and I’m trying to get another job, but I can’t keep going without any money. I’m drowning.

I can’t go back to school until I pay of the current balance. And I can’t get a loan because my credit keeps getting hit.

PayPal.me/lubso

Please help me.

Hi, My name is Susan. Thank you for taking the time to read about my problems.

 I am currently in Texas and desperately trying get to the east coast as my Dad needs my help and I fear for his health. He is 78 and all alone and his best friend recently died. He just had some concerning test results. He already has had a triple bypass and has a bad infection in his foot.  He is having trouble with his doctors and I need to be there as he is not wanting to or able to go for treatment because he has no one to drive him and cannot afford to pay people. I fear he is giving up. Assisted living is not an option as he wants to stay in his home and I promised I would care for him in his old age. He would rather die than lose his home and his pets and I completely understand how he feels.

 I lost my Jeep Grand Cherokee in a bad accident and the insurance company took so much time to settle that I was unable to get another vehicle with the money because I had to use it to pay bills that were incurred due to my inability to work without transportation.

 I came out to Colorado 8 months ago with a friend to continue my foundation which I had just started and has since closed because one of my partners betrayed me. That ripped my heart out. I then came down to Texas with another friend intending to work and get a vehicle and head back out east but due to my location and lack of transportation I have been unable to get work. I sell things online but that just covers my food and otther basic needs and just barely as I am running out of things to sell.

 I need a vehicle to get back out east and where I am going is also a rural area with no public transportation. I will need to be able to drive my Dad to his appointments and to run errands.

 The last couple of years have been very hard since the accident. Losing my foundation which was my future and recently my best friend. I just need a helping hand so I can go take care of my Dad. I am afraid I will lose him if I don’t get there soon. I don’t think I could ever forgive myself if I lost my Dad because I was not there to care for him. He has helped me all of his life and is my closest friend.

Thank you for your time and consideration,

Susan Malone

I know I am asking for a miracle.

A vehicle that will make it cross country will cost 2-3000 dollars.

Plus registration and insurance another 150.00.

And enough money for gas and food to make it 2300 miles about 5-600.00 dollars.

I can sleep in the vehicle at rest stops on my way.

Around 3500-4000 Dollars which to me is a fortune right now.

  I have been asking around if anyone can donate a car. even posted on CL but have not received any responses. I checked out the websites that will give you a car and reddit but all require votes and time which I just do not have time to secure. It takes months. My credit is damaged and I do not have a job so I cannot get a loan. I have no family or friends who are in a position to offer any help. I have looked for online employment and found mostly scams or sites that want you to pay. I cannot afford that.

paypal.me/ManyThanks2You

My name is Sandra and I am a single mother of 3.  My two oldest are young adults and live in other cities. So it is just my 9 year old Skye and I.

Even though, Skyes, father and I share custody, he is completely out of the picture. He has chosen to stay away and even though we live in the same city, he has not tried to see Skye in over two years. This has affected Skye a lot as she grows and is able to understand more. My little girl and I have been through so much. Skye is intellectual and legally blind.  For that reason, I find it very hard to think of myself as a woman and I just focus on being a good mommy.

I have fallen into a depression and now I don’t find interest in anything. Since I work remotely from home, I don’t ever have to leave my apartment. I don’t visit family or friends and I feel I am just getting worst. This is affecting not just me, but Skye as well. As she can sense when I am not ok.

I was able to get a good used car for us to move around, after years of not having a car.  Since, I didn’t have to worry about my car registration, I didn’t remember I had traffic tickets.  So, when my Driver License expired and I tried to renew them, it was denied because of some tickets I owed from seven years ago.  I honestly, did forget about those tickets when I started working and clearing my debt.  I didn’t have a car for years. I went to go see the Judge and even though he wanted to arrest me on the spot, with the grace of the all mighty he gave me a 45 day grace period to pay $1800. He was clear if that was not taken care of, there will be a warrant for my arrest.  This has me so worried, I know I cannot come up with that amount on my own in such a short period of time.  I am so afraid of what will happen to my little Skye if I am put in jail for these tickets.

Skye, and I will be starting therapy soon. Hers will be OT, PT and speech.  Mine is emotional and anger I have for her dad for leaving me to care for her alone. I have always been a very strong woman and don’t feel right asking for help. I have always felt like there must be someone else who needs it more than me. So, I always think of something, move payments around and we always seem to make it. This, I know I will not be able to take care of.  It’s simply too much. I am praying for help and that I finally get a little break to move forward and continue to take care of my little girl. Please help!

paypal.me/MyPurpleSkye

Hello, my name is Faith, and I am in massive credit card debt. This debt has finally affected me and everyone in my household. The debt is causing us to penny pinch in all possible ways one can. I need my debt paid off so that me and my family can live comfortably. I will need $15,200 to pay off all my credit cards.  My bills every month are more than what money I have coming in. I am having to rely on credit cards more and more, in order to survive, which is adding to my debt. Conquering this debt will change me and my family’s life forever. We would be able to eat better and more nutritious meals, which adds to our health and well being. When this debt gets paid my family and I can get a house that provides us with comfort and warmth. We could make much needed repairs to our car. I could handle my student loan payments after my credit card debt gets paid. But right now, as it is, we are in despair. We are hoping to have our air ducts repaired, but my debt is causing a road block. I am having trouble keeping gas in my car. We would be more than ok financially if my credit card debt was paid in full. If left as it is, as time goes on, I know we will get to a point where we have to give up more and more simple life necessities. Helping me with this debt will make a huge and positive difference in the lives of the 4 of us dealing with so much financial burden together. I need this burden lifted from my life, that way our lives can go back to being happy and healthy. I would love to keep my car repaired, and to have a little more freedom financially. This debt has cost a great deal of time and frustration. But we needed all sorts of real life necessities using those credit cards. It’s time to pay them off. The credit cards have given me and my family some of what we need, at a great cost. I can’t wait for the day those credit cards are paid off. It means so much for us, its hard to describe in words. It’s more of a feeling of immense relief. We will appreciate any money that can be spared for us. Thanks everyone.

paypal.me/missfaith912

Mother of 6 and awesome family of 8. Times has been so strange for my family and me. My mother is my all and i will do anything for her .My 6 kids are a handful yes but having Fraternal Boy Twins 1/9/18 Jayden and Jaylen are a whole ball game compaired to my only girl my daughter who is 4yrs old she is my little Spit Fire. Her little body has gone through so much dealing having Awful Powerful Astmah Attacks and strong for coming out of each one but more has been on her little body to add i just found out this year she is allergic to Nuts ALL NUTS. and she really LOVES PBJs lol. My sons Julian 13yrs old,Julius 10yrs old and Jacob 7yrs old. My Jacob he has a Mental Emotional Disorder. Like you and me we know how to project our emotions but Jacob who also is Speech inpaired somethings i can understand but others i dont know. i get disability for him but its not enough to buy a home or provide enough of what we need. Right bow we are homeless and living out of a hotel in which i wanna work but my sickley mother is the only one i trust with my children. I need help with getting a home. Financially im dying of caring for them. Please Help!

My name is Tiffany, I am 36 years old and I am married to a very abusive detective and have been for 3 years. Throughout the years, I have been stripped of everything. My job to support myself, my vehicle and my dignity. I have left before and have always been found. I have went to my local police department and due to my husband’s position, I’m always made to look crazy even when my face is busted open and staples in my head. My husband even told his male counter parts that I hit myself with the pan he hit me with and put my own hand on the burner and burned myself.

I have gone to lawyers, I have sought help from shelters here in Atlanta and the help either fails me or I am found and get a beating that is always worse than the last and I am afraid that one day, I’ll end up with a tag on my toe instead of a wrist band.

I have no family, I actually think that is one of the reasons he married me. He knew I would have no where to turn.

He wasn’t always like this. We were together 2 years before we got married and would have never picture him hurting a fly until the first time he punched me when I didn’t get off the phone fast enough when he got home from work then told me I made him do it. As a matter of fact, that is always the first thing he states after he attacks me. “See, look what you made me do”. I still don’t understand.

I have left 3 times. The first time I went to a local battered women’s shelter. As soon as my husband had his detective friends come, the shelter said there was nothing they could do. The second time, I went to my sisters before she died from cancer and he found me and threatened to kill my sister before the cancer did. That was over a year ago. This last time, I found a attorney to help. He actually put me in a hotel and was gone for 3 days. He told me he could point me in the right direction to get a new identity and a safe house until I could get on my feet but on the 3rd day, the day I was supposed to be leaving, he told me he could no longer help me and told me to go home.

I felt hopeless. I still do. I am going to try this again, but on my own. Without the assistance of people who can be bullied or threatened.

I found a organization so to speak that can provide me with what I need to disappear so that he can not find me but it takes money and a car, neither of which I have due to be controlled and monitored, this “organization” can help me get the essentials but just like everything in life, it comes with a price tag.

I know if I don’t leave, he will end up killing me and the sad part about it, he will get away with it.

It’s hard to trust anyone when you realize how crooked law enforcement is. When you can’t even seek help from those sworn to protect and serve even when they know a woman is being used as a punching bag.

Being a punching bag isn’t even half of what I deal with on a day to day basis. The mental anguish of having to walk on egg shells, fear of making a mistake, nightmares of my death and being forced to offer sex on demand. Sometimes it is more than I can bare.

I know i am taking a big risk with putting my life on the cyber world knowing I’m not allowed on the internet and even more afraid of someone he knows seeing it and telling all.

God led me to do this and all I can do is just know that I am in Gods hands and good always prevails over evil.

So I believe I’m on my last bit of hope. Making money wasn’t the issue for me, keeping it flowing for a long time was. I thought I was over this but I’m not. When I dropped out of High School I thought it was the best thing for me at the time, but about a year later I’m back where I started. My first job at 16 gave me hope and the financial freedom I never had. My mom kept the lights on but that didn’t stop the fact that I was wearing clothes from 3 years ago. Fast forward to now I never gave up my schooling in fact, I take the last part of my GED test next month 10 days before my 20th birthday. The reason I’m here is that I have been job searching like crazy. My hair is a mess. I can’t even look at my bank account it makes me sick. I’ve been trying so hard not to fall to my lowest, but I’m there now. I’m not asking for much anything is good enough. My plan is to get one of these interviewers to hire me while I’m waiting on this test. I’m all alone. My mom can’t help my dad is a dead beat. I’ve had jobs my first job lasted 3 years just don’t want to work fast food forever you know? So I left to finish school and now look I need to dig myself out of this I got myself in. I’m not sure this will work, but if you’re reading this what you can do to help can honestly change my life. I can fix myself up and be on my way to a new job in less than a week. My heart is pure and I’ve been through a lot. I always believed that if I give one day I’ll need it and it will come back to me. I have a big heart and big dreams. I’m smart and I’m going places. paying it forward will do some good and that’s exactly what I’m going to do. Being depressed didn’t do me any favors and I’m trying so hard not to fall into old ways and yes I am medically diagnosed with Depression and Social Anxiety I’m not just saying that for a rise. I’m willing to show that this made a difference if you donate leave a note to let me show you that this isn’t a get rich quick scheme I need to get out of here.

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