2020 has been a trying year. Everybody is trying to keep their heads up above water when in reality you just want to give up. I’ve always been a somewhat sickly person but I always managed to take care of myself despite what bodily ailments I go through. This year with COVID-19 running rampant all over the world it just seemed like another blow when I tested positive for it. The medical bills are high. I am mentally and physically tired. I need some help. I am not requesting an exorbitant amount of money and I am grateful for whatever is given to me. I just need a break. I don’t understand why these things happen. I would like to think that I am a strong person but there’s only so much a person can take. I am three months late on rent. My accounts are collections. I do work but I’m not making enough to catch up. My request is only for $1500 so that I can pay my late rent so that I don’t get evicted.I am trying but I am tired.
I am writing this on behalf of a Christian servant, who has spent his life trying to help others. For 30 plus years Bruce Pringlemeir has served God and helped others, as a minister and servant. He has also served his local community for 2 years in law enforcement. Whenever he saw a need, he helped out.
Since 2007 Bruce took care of his elderly mother who had Alzheimer’s and was a double foot amputee, despite suffering severe health issues and being disabled himself. His mother passed away on Father’s Day 2020 and now Bruce is being evicted due to a reverse mortgage. Bruce suffers from stress and depression ad nearly ended his own life in July fearing his future.
Friends tried to help him with fundraisers but the fundraisers failed. Recently Bruce was able to purchase a reliable retired ambulance to convert into a Tiny Home on wheels, using every cent he had and didn’t have. The actual ambulance at his home is pictured below. We need help with donations to convert it. We are looking at between $10,000 and $15,000 to have the kitchen, facilities, and power converted and placed in it. This will have to be done by professionals as Bruce does not have the skills or physical ability to DIY. This will ensure Bruce is not homeless, and in a safe and stable location after all the years of his service.
Despite being on Social Security, and only receiving $1030 a month, Bruce still helps others in need. Last week he paid a family’s rent of $1650 to keep them from being evicted, despite being in need himself. He does this often, as he feels that others are more important. He is fiercely loyal to those who need help. Can you now help this servant who is in need?
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Hi, so I was recently involved in an car accident last week. Someone was backing out of their driveway and came out just a tad too far. The other diver didn’t have insurance and in this time of Covid and reduced work hours I had to cancel my car insurance to continue to afford my more important bills. I know insurance is important, but I couldn’t afford it on my reduced pay, which is also too much to qualify for EDD, so no help there. I currently have half of the money needed and need another 1500$ to cover the expenses. Any amount that anyone is able to give is greatly appreciated and I thank you in advance. Well wishes to all and stay safe out there.
I was trying to get my boyfriend the ps5 that he wanted soo badly. And i used up all the savings that I had to try to get it for him. Was talking to a seller, let them know that i really didnt want to get scammed cause i had nothing else and that person seemed extremely sincere in conversation. I even spoke over the phone. I was scammed anyways and i just feel so defeated cause i went out of my way to do something for my boyfriend and used all the money I had. I used my whole check for that week and Im going to be scraping by these next few weeks. I’ve learned my lesson but I do need help.
Let me start by saying thank you for reading. I currently have about 4,000 dollars of dental work I need done. At least 3 root canals with crowns and about 4 fillings. I have been paying monthly to pay off previous work the Dentist graciously did but I’m still about $1,300 away from paying that off. In total to get my dental health taken care of, I am about $5,000 away. This is WITH insurance. I’ve always known dental health is important to every day health and I just want to be able to pay off what I owe and be able to finish the work I need. With Covid-19 I’ve been furloughed and unable to work while I stay home and watch my room mates children who are virtual schooling. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m now further in debt, and can no longer afford rent and get my dental work done. Any help is appreciated.
I am hoping that someone would help me out of the horrible situation I find myself in. My mom is a single mother, and one year ago she lost her job. Luckily she had money saved up and we were able to stay on track with the monthly payments for rent and bills. Her money began running out and then coronavirus hit. So I couldn’t get a job, neither could she because no one was hiring. So in order to keep a roof over our heads I decided to take out as many loans as I could, not thinking about the future and having to pay these Loans back. It was something I did with no hesitation in order to keep ourselves financially stable, especially through covid-19. I was able to get roughly $25,000 in total from online loan companies and hoped that it would be enough. Fast forward to today, there is barely anything left because I’ve had to use a majority of that money to keep up with the monthly payments of these loans. To put it bluntly, we are drowning and I don’t know what to do, I need help. If there is anyone out there who would be willing to give me $25,000, or anything close to it, I would greatly appreciate it. You would be helping not only my mom, but myself and my future since my credit is on the floor and everything is maxed out. If you see the attached photo, you’ll see the balance of my installment debt, those are the loans. And you’ll see my available credit, $10. That’s all I have. I would really appreciate it, you have no idea how much it would mean to my mother and I. Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you have a wonderful day.
I know this is a long shot but I really am trying everything I can to get help with fixing my teeth. My whole life I’ve grown up with crooked and uneven teeth. I grew up with kids making fun of me and not wanting to be my friend because of the way my teeth looked and they always told me that I look like a shark or a vampire. It made me go home and cry everyday. I always asked my parents how come my teeth looked this way and how come I couldn’t go to the dentist to get better teeth like all the other kids. They told me they were very sorry that the kids picked on me for it but they couldn’t do anything about it because we had a hard time affording things already as it was.
This went along years and years and I didn’t have friends growing up. At 14 years of age I even started my first job and helped my parents pay bills so we wouldn’t get kicked out and live on the street because my father was now getting sick and couldn’t work really and it got worse over the years. We struggled more and more everyday and seeing him getting more and more sick I couldn’t just sit there and see my family like that. He passed away in 2015 and my mother was left in a lot of debt because of the struggle along with myself. I got jumped and beat up over and over again over the years and my teeth got worse. Chipped and more and more crooked. I had to go to the hospital because I was in so much pain from it and it left myself in debt with hospital bills. I hated even leaving the house because people would look and me and see my teeth and would just give me this look. I’ve gone to the dentist and they went through a bunch of listing in which it would cost me way too much to even do anything. I’ve been trying to save money to try to do anything I can but I’ve been having money taken out of my check and my wages garnished from my paychecks in order to pay of debts so I havnt been able to even save up anything. I can barely survive paycheck to paycheck. I got kicked out of my girlfriend of 4 years after she found someone else who she says is better than me. I had no where else to go but back with my mom and pay her for rent to stay with her. When I’m at work people say I need to smile more and then when they see my teeth they go oh now I see why you don’t. I’ve had to walk away and cry at times because people were so mean to me about it. I still to this day can’t even really go out in public without people asking what’s wrong with my teeth and why I don’t just don’t get them fixed. I still have people make fun of me when I go out. I’m depressed everyday. It hurts not feeling normal and being neglected from people for something I can’t help. I look in the mirror and just want to have a better smile some day. I’ve worked so hard to fix my life already over the years and try not to let it bother me but even when I look at my mouth it makes me so upset and depressed feeling like I’m so ugly. I can’t even smile in a picture because I hate it so much and afraid more and more people will just bring me down and make fun of me. I’m really goofing I can really get the help. I’ve been trying for years and years doing research on how I can try to get help but haven’t been able to find anything so I’m hoping this time something good will happen for me. I pray everyday for a miracle so please.
The Covid19 Pandemic has brought a lot of hardships to many. I am a Special Education Teacher, and I am very fortunate to still have a job through all of this, though my heart aches for my students as they just aren’t able to access the education in the way they so desperately need. My fiance was supposed to start a new job on March 16th- the first day of lockdowns in California. We like many others, had to also forgo wedding plans, but that really seems small in the scheme of things. Overall, we managed, but had to eat through our savings in order to make it the few months without his income.
In May, we were hit with a heartbreaking discovery- Our dog, Gary, had aggressive cancer that seemed to take control over night. After two days back and forth with emergency services while waiting to see our personal vet we were prescribed a very hard pill to swallow. Gary would have needed his leg amputated and several weeks of radiation treatment after. He was an old man that lived a great life, but we couldn’t bare to put him through the pain of the procedure and radiation treatment, knowing there was no guarantee- there were already other lumps appearing in other parts of his body. We put our sweet boy down and unfortunately were left with $2,000 of emergency vet bills. Fortunately we were able to put this on a credit card, unfortunately we haven’t had much success paying it down with the impact on my fiance’s job and interest has been accumulating.
The week after we put Gary down, we did discover some wonderful news. We are pregnant with our first child- a baby girl due the beginning of February. The positive news continued for a while- my fiance was able to return to work full time, and we got an opportunity to welcome a new puppy into our lives. Things started to look up, and we started to make progress on paying down our debts.
However our puppy, started piling up vet visits of her own- Blood in her urine, prompting a last minute vet visit- no biggy, just a couple hundred. Then our energetic playful puppy started losing balance in her hind legs one day. Her back legs kept collapsing under her. she became severely lethargic and stated drooling so we rushed her, yet again, to the emergency vet. At this point we had just signed up for Pet Insurance, we learned after Gary. Unfortunately the insurance had a 15 day waiting period before they would cover any expenses. The emergency visit happened 8 days after we signed up! So another $1,000 added to the credit card. Then came her spay surgery, which we had anticipated- $400. 3 Days after her spay she started crying out in pain, practically screaming, when she tried to pass a bowel movement- another trip to the vet, another $400. This I have submitted to our insurance, but $158 of it is the exam cost, which isn’t covered by the insurance.
Debt started piling up, and it still does. For every 2 steps forwards it feels as though we are taking 20 backwards. I also have hefty student loans from my credential and Masters program, in addition to a car payment. Those who are familiar with the San Fransisco Bay Area know how ridiculous rent is. Teachers do not make anywhere near the cost of living and while my fiance found a great construction job that is consistent work- it doesn’t pay near enough, especially given his qualifications. A lot of the higher paying jobs request the workers have their own trucks and tools. He has some tools, but no truck. It really does cost money to make money! So for now, the job with consistent work is what is best, unless we can manage to get enough money to both pay off debt and get a truck. We want to do all we can to pay down our debt so that we can afford child care for our baby once my maternity leave ends. Right now, I just don’t see how that will happen.
I struggle to reach out for help when I know there are so many with needs greater than my own. Everyone I know who has had kids, repeat the same old saying- it takes a village. We reach out to you now in hopes of that support and truly appreciate any bit of help we can get.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story!
Hello, to whomever this may concern,
My name is Jacob Klingensmith. I am 25 years old. I am studying for my Bachelor’s in Mass Communication and working part time at Walmart. I am writing this letter because I am needing to get serious about preparing for the future and I don’t want anyone close to me to worry about my funds or finances. So any contribution will be greatly appreciated.
The biggest needs I have financially are all about preparation: I will be graduating from college next year, so I will need to get a leg up on paying off my student loans and debt. I also set a goal for myself to move out of my parental home next summer, so I would appreciate any donations to help save up for rent on an apartment, as well as weekly gas and grocery expenses that come with it. I will be turning 26 years old next year, and thats when life gets interesting, because everything will be in my own name: health insurance, dental insurance, car insurance, etc. I would like to be able to pay for these things with no issues. I also would like to have some emergency money stored in the event of, well, an emergency.
Because my request has some variety to it (student loans, rent, emergency money, etc) I am labeling it as uncategorized, since the money I receive will be going towards a lot of different things. I thank you in advance for taking the time to read this and considering donating to help me prepare for my future and for my career plans after graduation, which include pursuing broadcasting opportunities in both radio and television, as well as hobbies like filmmaking and podcasting.
I am not looking to achieve easy wealth or notoriety, but I am looking to receive enough money to not only live my life but to also help me start pulling my own weight in the world. My family has been good to me, but I am ready to move on and start my own life and career path. I implore you to please consider my case, and I promise to save every donation that is received, only spending it on necessities. If I were to make it big in broadcasting, it would certainly be because of your contributions. If I am able to find a good place to live, I will be forever grateful to you all.
Thank you :)
My Car Is Our Home. This journey started almost three years ago when we had our own place. I lost my job due to an incident at work and it all went downhill from there. It was hard to find another job and my girlfriend couldn’t take on the payload on her own so we ended up sleeping in the car. One of my teammates invited us in his home and after about a month of working we ended up getting put out by his girlfriend and pretty much been state to state and city to city living with strangers. Along the way we lost our first car in 2018 and now we are relying on the people we are living with for transportation to and from work. It always work out for the first couple of days and then boom… They are not taking us anymore and a job is lost. It was a repetitive cycle everywhere we were for two years. We just ended up hustling up money to get another car and I was staying with my dad. We got put out because his wife was about to leave him for cheating. It’s been about two months since that happened. We’ve been sleeping in the car at truck stops and at local Walmart stores in Alabama. Just this past Sunday on November 1st 2020 we decided to just drive to Georgia and do it here and try to see if we could find a job quicker and be able to make some money quicker… That wasn’t the case all the money we had saved went on the trip. On the way here we had a mishap with the car also. I think my rotors and bearing are scrubbing really bad after hitting a large pothole and my car acts weird now. I’ve been begging for money since I’ve arrived to keep gas in the car for us to keep warm and to job hunt. I need to get my car fixed because that is our home and also trying to get into an apartment. We have gone 2-3 days without eating and I hate to ask but it’s getting harder and harder to do it out of this car with no support. I am just asking donations to raise money for a hotel room and car maintenance because that is our home. And gas money for job searching. I am trying my hardest to get us out of this hole that we are in but it’s hard with no support. I really appreciate you all listening to my story it I feel a little better being able to let that out to some of you. Thanks in advance and may the Lord be with you .
My name is Irene. First and foremost, I want to thank you for taking the time to read my story.
I am 57 years old ad the mother of five grown children; my youngest is 19. During my 23 years of marriage, I worked a full-time job, as well as a part-job. I filed for divorce in 2003 and raised my children alone and on my own,
I worked my way up from being a reception in a law firm by working late and attending seminars, as well as o the job training, and eventually became a paralegal. I also attending classes on the weekends and after 8 weeks, obtained a certification as a nursing assistance. I was offered a job as a PCA at a hospital. For 6 year I have worked two full-time jobs and could finally support myself all on my own.
This summer, I was involved in a terrible car accident. I sustained severe bruising to my left arm and rotator cuff, injury to my right knee, injuries to my neck and upper back, as well a traumatic brain injury. To make things worse, my neurologist referred me to a neuo-optic specialist due to severe headaches and nausea, and I was told my left eye is not functioning nor is focusing in conjunction with my right eye which is making it hard for me to see correctly. There is hope in fixing this problem and I am praying for the same.
I have been unable to work and have been living on $325.00 per week (short-term disability). I have exhausted all of my 401k monies and I am now finding myself with no monies to pay rent, food, and utilities.
I was to begin school this coming year for a licensed nurse, and have not been told that I will not be able to do so if I cannot pay the $350.00 owed from a class I was unable to complete due to my accident.
At this, point I am facing eviction, as well as possibly having to seek new employment due to the fact that I may physically not be able to work as a PCA due to my injuries.
I often find myself crying at times feeling sorry for myself. I no longer have a car or the funds for a new down payment for a vehicle that runs. I have always very hard and have taken time to help others. Last year, I bought gifts for a family and their children, I also provide an entire turkey dinner. I try to do things because I was in a better place in life after suffering a marriage involving domestic violence, drugs and alcohol.
There are some many people worse off than I am. I believe in paying it forward and I am hoping that there are others out there who believe in it too. Thank you again for taking the time to read my story.
I am 39. The past 5 years of hell started with what I thought was a good employment move. I was fired from a nursing contact, because after being hospitalized myself, they either allow for an accommodation. An accommodation I stated I don’t need, but had to share because a Dr. wrote it on my going back to work instructions. I complained to DFEH, who accepted my case and included EEOC. My company stated they would keep me in the hotel I was in until payday Friday possibly longer because they thought I’d get a contract quickly. I was kicked out the very next day after I told him I was going to make a complaint to the government about the hospital firing me illegally. I was left homeless. Very burned out from nursing I traveled to Texas to stay with a friend and I did legal nurse consulting. 6 months from hospital work, I felt the fire to be a nurse again in that capacity. called up my company that I’d worked with prior and they weren’t really willing to work with me. little did I know that at this very moment in time the EEOC and dfdh had included my company in my complaint and they were being investigated . This company has had many issues in the past with the government and this is one of the last things they needed. But I didn’t know that period so I convinced him to let me come back as I’d always been when the highest earners and the person who opened up new hospitals to this company. I demonstrated my value and they brought me back on but gave me a horrible recruiter . He sabotaged a contract that I had interviewed for. after numerous contracts where I was offered contracts at 1/5 of the price I was making before and they weren’t including housing which is the norm. so I interviewed and the woman asked me my price I stated it she accepted it I happily accepted the contract. My company called me up the next day so that they balked at the price. confused I did something I would never do before I called back the hospital to ask if this was an issue for real because you asked me to State my price and you accepted. The woman on the phone stated your company called me and said that you weren’t going to be happy with it because you weren’t getting paid enough and I was upset because I had offered you the chance to State your price. At this point I knew my company had been lying. so I took the contract but I went with a different company and I submitted my resignation to my previous company that day. The very next day unbeknownst to me they submit to the Arizona board of Nursing that I had a positive drug test. they didn’t submit to the California board of Nursing where I was currently working where I was going to get a contract and where I was living. They sent it to Arizona and I didn’t hear about it until 6 months later. I had malpractice but I have a lawyer that should have lost his license based on his actions. I gave his retainer fee and two days later he demanded I double it or else he wouldn’t help me you submit the form that was due in 2 hours to the board of Nursing period that kind of power struggle is how he played it and then eventually he quit in December leaving me to my case on my own. But the very next day after he submitted his wife’s Nation to the board of nursing that he would no longer leave my lawyer he received from the board of Nursing that my trial date had been scheduled and it was the very next month . Did he let me know about that? No . He left me with the understanding that my trial date was going to be about 6 to 12 months away. but I still faithfully looked at the board of Nursing website weekly to see if they put announcements up about my trial date. because my case I could fight on my own it was an easy lie to show to the board of Nursing . The test in question was a 14 panel test. I submitted and I have the paperwork for a 10 panel test that I gave period even if they wanted to do isomers for the metabolites it would never equal 14. There’s no way that wasn’t my test and I knew it. I don’t do drugs I’ve never had a positive test and I’ve done over 30 drug tests for my contracted career of Nursing. The board of Nursing posted my announcement of trial for January in May, also in that letter I saw that I’d lost my license because I didn’t show up. I haven’t worked but I’ve been fighting for myself period during this time I wouldn’t personally blind him when I from a contact lens infection that was faux bought from a very reputable source. not knowing that it was a full contact lens my other eye became infected about a year later and that one also went partislly blind from the infection. It’s due to corneal scarring over the lower half of my pupil. Fighting with medical to get my eyes fixed is a challenge and I’m still working on it because there are doctors who can see me that most likely can fix this . Medical’s choice for me is I can go to toric contact lenses. one I never want to put anything in my eye again too when you have gotten used to twerk lenses you can use them for up to four hours a day at best. That’s not a lot of productivity. And they have a significant chance that you could become actually fully blind from using them period so if I fail from those and don’t be combined I could try Cornell transplant which the chance of rejection is 10% and the chance of going blind there is 40% if you happen to be part of that 10% rejection rate. The way my luck is going I don’t like those chances. The EDD has failed to pay me for the pandemic pay period and I sit here struggling more hopeless now than ever. But I’m a fighter and I’m an advocate and I cannot wait to turn this around in some fashion so that become a tax paying citizen again. I would have before never called pay taxes a luxury but once that opportunity is lost you understand how luxurious your life really was. Humbled by my situation and where I was before my advocacy for myself is very strong . I wish it was better spent on patients who need me. I also had a slip and fall in my knee was injured and I had surgery but I’ve recovered from that somewhat okay. I took in a person who needed help with wound care missing my nursing career I wanted to help. They were a felon but they lied and said that they were innocent, my fault for believing them without verification. that slowly turn into a year and a half of me being almost what you could call kidnapped and abused. But I won that situation he’s in federal prison, awaiting a trial and looking at a 10-year minimum sentence. So what I want to do now that I’m free again I would love to get to appointment with Dr Gaster in Los Angeles. It cost $600 just to see him and Medi-Cal won’t cover it but medical can cover the surgery if it’s possible to fix me. We’re presently is the trial for my abuser is in December and I have a car, which I know he would like to claim as his but it’s mine legally. he will come after me if he gets released December 4th period no question about it. I’ve had a gun to help my head he’s threatened me with knives he burned me raped me drugged me beat me lied to me and I don’t feel like revisiting that situation again. The car is needing a major tune up and maintenance. Transmission flush, front headlight, shocks, struts and brakes all need to be tended to. when I’m able to make money if it’s not all spent on gasoline or dog food; I’m watching YouTube videos and I’ve been teaching myself how to do the car repairs myself. But some of those things noted I cannot do on my own. I’ve changed the oil, I’ve changed out the spark plugs and I fixed the back left door which was dismantled by the abuser. I have an OBD reader and I troubleshoot codes. I’ve learned that I can be so resourceful and I can do so many things for myself that I didn’t think I could do before. So my fight has remained strong in these past five years. Since losing my nursing license in 2016 I haven’t had a day where it hasn’t hurt me emotionally period but that hurt gets turned into fire and I’m ready to fight and in 2021 I’m eligible to fight to get that license back. that’s going to take Arizona lawyers California lawyers in a federal lawyer and money to pay for them period so those are my three desires. 1) I would love to get the car in good shape, especially if he gets out of jail. He told me himself he was snitching and trying to make a deal so it’s possible. 2) I want to fix my eyes so that I can see safely while driving. See the abuser if he was coming at me, because I can’t see anybody and recognize them until they’re about two feet from my face. And it’ll be eligible for other jobs which I’m not now. I’m not eligible for disability. that $600 would give me an appointment with the right doctor possibly the only one in America who can help. 3) I would love to be able to fight the fight that I should have been able to have in 2016. I want to stick it to the board of nurses get my license back in both States and off the national practitioner database board of restricted people. That last part has been the biggest prevention of me ever getting a job again in the future. It’s virtually a loss of your livelihood. I’ll will give all my best work to help thousands of patients in the ER and ICU like I did before.and this time with a more thoughtful approach to some people’s situations now that I’ve seen the other side. I have ideas for resources that no hospitals have had before and I probably could help them out in many many ways. And then my final dream will come true. I could afford housing again, stop living in my car and become a tax paying self-sufficient citizen who is part of humanity again.
Hi, I’m Alexus Mercedes and I am looking to expand my horizons and create a better future for myself by taking the next big step to become an actress. Performing is my passion, it’s when I feel most at home and happiest. I am hoping that in reading this letter you may find it in your heart to help me in achieving my dreams.
Life has a funny way of testing our limits, unfortunately I have had health problems along with anxiety and depression which has been my challenge. To overcome these challenges I began performing, signing, and acting, mostly on the internet thus far though I have had the pleasure of singing at the Mount Baker theatre here in Bellingham, Wa. Performing has given me a place to escape to, a place of solace where nothing else in the world matters and I can express myself. .
With encouragement and support from those close to me I have decided that I am ready to take this next leap in my acting career, finding an agent. In my search for a good fit I first found that many of the largest talent agencies made me feel like a grain of sand in the desert, with hundreds of clients and little guarantee for work this was clearly not the right place for me. Eventually I found Talent Inc, this agency feels right, they support their talent, they are more personal and they are excited to have me as a client
The agency I am looking at working with holds classes to train their clients about the industry from behind the scenes to the best way to pose for the camera. They provide comprehensive 1-on-1 training with agents, managers, and casting directors on how to handle PR, and auditions, how to take directions and they will help me in refining my skills to adapt them from the stage to the screen. After the classes are completed they will be taking me to attend a talent showcase in Orlando, Florida which brings agents, casting directors, managers and more from all around the world, to scout talent. I am excited for the opportunity this provides as this has been my dream as long as I can remember.
Unfortunately due to Covid and my various health problems it is hard for me to hold a 9-5 job and while my wonderful husband supports us in our everyday finances, this is something I wanted to do on my own. Considering the current economic situation for many people, I understand that it may not be possible for everyone to donate. However, every penny counts and every penny is greatly appreciated. I have set up a go fund me to crowd source the funds I need in order to move forward with this, $4,500 for my classes, travel to and from Orlando, nicer clothes for audition, and to help with some of my doctors bills.
My life has become more than I can handle. And I’ve thought about ending it many times because I just can’t cope with everything that has happened. All my problems started in 2007, when I met a very physically and mentally abusive guy. I didn’t know this at the time, because he tried to conform to my family. Who everyone assumes is extremely wealthy. My father works extremely hard for everything he has and had given us. I eventually moved into a house , with that boyfriend and another couple. I did not realize what hell was about to begin. And stick with me forever. One night, my ex boyfriend went insane and just attacked me. Punching me well over 40 times in my face and chest. This traumatic event caused the doctors to diagnose me with panic disorder, ptsd, and social anxiety disorder. Speeding ahead a bit I was finally rescued by a county sheriff who told me she doesn’t want to see me dead in the street. This hit home, coming from a police officer who was a woman. The doctors then started prescribing me adderall for my add. Somehow thinking, this would calm everything. Over the years the flashbacks just kept coming. I couldn’t even be around a person who got too close . I would freak out and cry. Eventually my psychiatrist prescribed me Xanax. Which helps wonders with the panic attacks. But both quickly controlled my life. Because I was so terrified of feeling and reliving the experience. Fast forward a few years, and my addiction made me not realize who I was hanging out with and how dangerous they could be. Just this June I was kidnapped, forced to give up my money. And forced against my will for 3 days . Without, my cellphone to call for help. Eventually I convinced this guy, who apparently everyone else knew was a gang member except me .That my dad would start looking if I didn’t answer his messages. This thank God made him nervous so he finally headed back towards my home. I thought it was all over, but he refused to give me my keys. Prior to this, he forced me to ride around with him while he robbed people I care about and almost shot them . I grew up in a Christian school, I’ve never seen a gun that close. When he returned to my house he Punched me in my face and shoved me out of my own car. That was the last I ever saw my car, till an arsen investigator called me and someone from the news had captured a photo. It was then, that I realized my addiction to these pills and getting them. Could’ve possibly killed me and kills me inside every single day . I want desperately to go to rehab, and take my life back. So I can let my dad retire, and stop hurting myself and my family. And , mainly because I’m scared of certain events happening in my city. It devastates me that I can’t afford to go to a rehab that could help my psychologically and physically. Because the physical withdrawals are the worst and I’m stubborn. But I still couldn’t overcome them I was extremely sick. I’m reaching out, because I’m miserable. People rob me, hurt me, threaten my family. And I want it to stop. Please, if anyone could give just a little. This could help me go to a good program with detox and counseling. May God please soften the hearts of whoever may read this. As, I don’t know what else I can do. It’s taken over my life . Please help me. This is my desperate attempt to save my life. Because, I also developed psychogenic blackouts. Which completely messed my life up more . Anything helps , I’m praying God will save me.