hello. ok first off i’ll tell as much of my personal background as it will let me. ok i had been a drug addict since i was 15 years old. im 42. and im n0t making this up, these are just the facts of wats going on. when i was 18, had a lilm sister that was only 15. we had a horrififc automobile accident, i was driving,, another friend in passenger seat and my lil sister in back seat. the roads were wet, i lost control of the car, we fish tailed the back end of an old pick up truck, which caused us to flip in the air, 3 times in the air i was told by witnesses. during the process lil sister broke thru back windshield, landed 10 feet from the car. we were air lifted to a bigger hospital. i woke up fine next day with a half shaved head with 50 staples and lil sister was in a sleep coma. she had suffered severe brain damage. they didnt if she would ever wake up, or whatn kind of shape she would be in. 2 months ltr she opened her eyes, but the part of her that suffered the most damage was the mobility side of her brain. she wasnt paralyzed but she no longer could walk, talk, & had a feeding tube put in. just 15 years old. you can imagine the amount of quilt i deal with daily. well long story short, when she turned 21, we had no other choice but to place her in a nursing home. doctors they had did all they could for her & she probably wouldnt live past 7 years. well for one she was one heck of a fighter, she just sadly passed away about a year ago at the age of 37. during this time, in 2010, i lost both my grandmother & mother to unfortunately drug addiction on the same day same year. all i wanted to do for years was numb my pain, the wrong way. up until about 4 months ago, i finallly had enough, went to treatment out of state, loved it & am still clean now & gonna continue to stay clean. theres only one thing, i live in a very small town where everyone knows everyone & theres always shootings, and the people here make the enviroment for anyone to stay clean. its impossible to change your people, places, & things here. i have a small income coming in every month, but not enough to support wat im wanting to achieve. i know i need a change, different location, people that dont know me & people i dont know. ive never made a change like this before but i believe in myself. and ive prayed so much about this, god & i know wat i need to do to keep the cycle broke for good. ive got to move away from here, i could afford the monthly rent & utiilities every month. but since i do live paycheck to paycheck, i cant afford a first months rent & matching deposit & $75 application fees for every application i fill out. not counting the gas, a 11 1/2 hour drive, & mover fees cuz lord knows i cant do it by myself. its jus me now, i have no other family. period. they have all passed on now. i want to get out of this god forsaken town where i can have this one chance to live my life the right way. i try to help anyone i can along the path in my life cuz i always told myself, i never knew wen i might need help. but now the time has come that i need help & cant get it & ive tried any & everything. I hope this touches the hearts of maybe someone that has been in my shoes before or maybe has a loved one thats experienced addiction. thank you for your time & GOD BLESS!!!!!
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