My name is Dale, I’m 28 years old.
It has taken alot courage to explain my situation on here. It brings me comfort to tell my story without actually using words out of my mouth, which is sometimes hard for me to do.
My story begins with my own anxiety from a small boy, I never had much luck as a kid growing up. Bullied, hardly fed. my mother left us when I was 6 years old. My father had to try his best to bring of us up. My 3 brothers and my young sister. My dad found comfort in gambling which suppose helped him distract away from that. I remember getting my first job, I used to give glad my wages to my father to help pay Bill’s, food. I helped my sister brush her hair & get dressed, iron clothes, take rubbish out, Hoover, polish furniture etc.
I still find comfort in doing all this things when I feel scared or anxious. Just when I was then.
My mother was a alcoholic, had a drug addiction. She was in my life one minute then out again. It was hard to find myself growing up. My last memory of her was punching my face because I didnt want her to leave the house drunk. But still, it didn’t work.
I have been with my current partner for 4 years, the first year was brilliant, felt contented, looking forward to our lives together. We had a lovely home, our little boy Dylan on the way , which he is 3 now.
Then within a blink of an eye.. my partners drinking etc came with a bang. Its a nightmare. She has turned into a different person then I might. Accusing me for her depression, drinking problem, blamed our own son. I would get punched, kicked, hit with things, anything she could get her hands on. They verbal abuse hurts me more then physical. Brings up my past. Like quote “your a fuck up like you mother ” your deluded. You’ve past it on to our son! Just horrible things you’d think someone couldn’t say.
I’m currently getting CBT therapy to help me cope. Deal with things without worry.
I need to put a deposit down on this house that is perfect for me to start again. Its £90 for the application form. Which I have already had the viewing. They’ve want £480 deposit with a months rent which £375.
I have until the 8th june 2020. To get the funds to the agency.
Thank you for having time to read this. I feel better expressing myself.