Begging Money

Financial Hardship Help

Last Updated:

Rebuilding My Life

I am seeking assistance during a personal emergency situation that I am currently facing. I find myself in a desperate need for financial support to help me overcome the challenges I have encountered in my life.

Allow me to share my story with you. I recently emerged from an abusive relationship, where I found myself entangled with a man addicted to alcohol. I loved him so much I thought I can help him to heal his addiction! But we got pregnant and I was only hoping that starting a family would help him overcome his addiction, Tragically, I suffered a miscarriage at 12 weeks, followed by another miscarriage four months later. It was during this time that my partner’s drinking escalated, and his behavior became increasingly violent and unbearable.

However when we found out about the first pregnancy we made the decision to move into the house I inherited from my parents. We used the money he obtained from selling his studio apartment to contribute towards the renovation of my house so we could move in as it was in a really bad condition .

As he was drinking more and more, my father passed away I lost the rest of my strength and I felt like I couldn’t help him anymore ! It was too much stress everyday! When I finally found the strength to leave the relationship, we signed an agreement stating that I would repay him the money he had spent on my house. The total amount owed is 10 million Hungarian forint, equivalent to approximately $25,000, to be paid over a period of three years.

Currently, I reside in this family house, which comes with its own set of financial responsibilities. Additionally, I have taken on the responsibility of caring for our two dogs and three cats, whom I deeply love and cannot bear to part with. They helped me to survive this terrible time and I need them just as much as they need me if not more!

As a result, I have been struggling to make ends meet and have accumulated significant debt, approximately $3000, in unpaid bills.

Despite my efforts to secure a mortgage, unforeseen circumstances, such as losing my job just as I was about to finalize the process, hindered my progress. I have finally found employment as a delivery person, which requires me to use my own vehicle. However, I am in dire need of financial assistance to invest in a car, allowing me to generate a stable income that will cover my expenses and help me regain control of my life.

I understand that everyone has their own financial obligations, but I humbly ask for your support during this challenging time. Any contribution, no matter how small, would make an immense difference in helping me meet my immediate financial needs and relieve the burden of debt that weighs heavily on me.

If you are unable to provide financial assistance, I kindly request your understanding and ask if you could share my story with anyone you believe might be in a position to help. Your support in spreading the word would be greatly appreciated.

I genuinely believe that with a little help, I can rebuild my life and provide a safe and stable environment for myself and the animals I cherish. Your generosity would not only offer me a lifeline but also restore my faith in humanity.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story .I am eternally grateful for your consideration and support.

My PayPal link:

paypal.me/eszter4134

Warmest regards,

Eszter

 

Last Updated:

help my husband for medical treatment

Hello, kind people, I would like to ask you for financial support for my husband, who has had health problems for 5 years, after a coma caused by tuberculous meningitis, he needed an emergency operation on the breathing tube, trachea. during the operation, the trachea was damaged, inflammation occurred and he was already put into an artificial coma, the carotid artery was damaged during the next operation , doctors had to cut through his sternum, after which it took two more operations to close his trachea.
When we thought that the illnesses in his life were over, he suddenly had a transient ischemic stroke. He is only 37 years old. He lost his speech and has paresis in his right hand and leg. He needs long-term therapies in order not to remain bedridden forever. The family has exhausted all financial resources. The debt of the hospital is increasing every day.

By supporting each of you, means giving hope to us to continue fighting for his recovery.

Thank you for your kindness and support.

paypal.me/toto6725

Last Updated:

A cry for help

Dear benefactor,

This year 2023 has been the most challenging of my life, which was already very complicated.

This year, I (female) turned 31. I lost my husband of nearly 10 years, along with the house we lived in and had plans to start a family in the coming months.

I invested a lot of money in the house that I had bought with my ex to make it more comfortable. Unfortunately, we had only owned it for 2 years, and I lost a significant amount of money when I sold him my share of the house, not being reimbursed for all the money invested. I can’t blame him for no longer loving me and wanting to find happiness elsewhere. It’s good to have that hope for his life, even though things could have been handled better for me. I’m almost grateful for being left without having a child to take care of on top of this. I have also gained experience, mental strength, and self-confidence after battling a severe depression with all my might.

Despite everything, I had to return to the family home that I had fled due to constant physical and verbal abuse throughout my childhood, adolescence, and young adulthood, due to a lack of money to get my own apartment. This household was violent, and I was raised to serve and be silent. Besides the daily insults about being a failure, single without kids at my age, who converted to christianity, who only brought debts home and regular humiliating slaps, I am occasionally beaten with a belt. A few months ago, it was my father – the buckle side – on the eve of starting a new job to try to regain financial stability. I had dared to ask him to stop yelling that he wanted to see my pregnant sister crawling at his feet in the mud or the sudden death of her baby, all because of a traditional outfit incorrectly worn at her wedding.

My uncle also lives under the same roof, uses drugs, and often brings in men, sometimes prostitutes, to do drugs with him when my father is not at home. Not to mention the contaminated syringes lying around everywhere and sometimes in my belongings, leading to situations of extreme violence where I had to take him, bloodied, to the emergency room, putting me in danger as well. I don’t know by what miracle these men haven’t laid a hand on me during these confrontations. Maybe God is finally a little bit with me after all.

I decided to put a lock on my bedroom door to ensure some safety and privacy, unfortunately, it was forced when one of them decided to search my room to take some of my belongings.

My mother, a cleaning lady who left home when my sister and I were late teenagers, is unable to help me financially or provide me with accommodation. She prays every day for a miracle to happen that would allow me to get out of this situation.

I’m not telling everything, I can’t. The situation is so surreal, and the events I’m experiencing are so unbelievable that I thought about pitching a scenario to Netflix. I can’t take it anymore. Every day brings a new problem on top of the previous ones, and I can’t talk to anyone about it without bringing suspicion that I’m lying to attract pity/attention. If only I could be without a story, boring, how beautiful it would be to have that peace.

The only things I own are my cat and my car. Even the computer from which I am writing to you belongs to my job. I thought about selling my car, but I really need it to go to work, and honestly, I can’t take away the minimal comfort I have left…

I was quite good at school and completed the normal curriculum. I have always worked, from part-time jobs at the age of 16 to entering the workforce at 21. I work hard and am recognized as someone people can rely on both at work and in private life. I don’t use drugs, and I also volunteer for a local association that takes care of stray cats.

I am far from perfect, even though I try every day to be a good and better person. Unfortunately, I stopped university because I preferred to work for money and leave home, when a little more patience would have allowed me to have a job with better pay today. I didn’t save money, and it took me a long time to reach a certain level of maturity that would have helped me not be in this situation today. I don’t want to be a whiner; I want to get out of this. I don’t want to be seen as a victim.

I even feel a lot of pity for my father, whom I know is very unhappy and very frustrated, unable to envision life without hatred and anger, unable to feel responsible, like a lost child. I am unhappy for my uncle, sick and feeling like he has accomplished nothing in his life, fallen so low even though he has always been upright and just in the past. I am so sad that Mom feels powerless but glad she is far from all this nevertheless. And I am so afraid that if anything happens to my sister or her baby, my father will be somehow responsible, and I haven’t been able to calm the situation…

Life is not black and white; I have also had good moments with each of the people mentioned above. But the traumatic and bad memories always take over, and it’s impossible for me to project into the future with serenity. I feel like I am hopeless, and abandonned. No one encourages me, even though I feel like I’m devoted to my father and uncle despite all of this.

I even feel guilty to not have the courage to stay and help them. But I also realize that they need to want to get help first, and that I need to take care of myself before being able to help them.

I know what I want in life now: peace. I want to move forward and finally imagine that I have the right to devote myself to my cat and me. And who knows, find someone who’ll love me despite all of this.

If anyone has the heart to help me financially to get out of this, or even a kind encouraging word, or wise advice, I would be eternally grateful.

Thank you for reading, for giving me a bit of attention.

PS: I can provide police reports or any other document attesting to my situation if needed.

https://paypal.me/sorayaela?country.x=FR&locale.x=fr_FR

Last Updated:

Help for depression and suicidal thoughts

I’m a 26 year old woman who feels like she hasn’t gotten as far as she could in life. This makes me very depressed from time to time and sometimes I just want to give up on life. Everytime I go on social media, I see younger people who are on bigger pages than I am. I want to work on myself and become more motivated in life and my goals but It’s so hard to even go to work when I feel like this. So, I’m here to ask for money so I can go to therapy and get treatment, but also a little money for my daily life because I have not been going to work as often because of my depression. I would be grateful for life if someone could help me with 1000 usd

 

My paypal is

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/sarahkingoro

Last Updated:

A DIFFICULT SITUATION

Good afternoon and thanks if anybody reads my message. My name is Isabel  I have never asked for money to anybody and it is still taking me a lot to write this text. I am a divorced woman two children and since 2009 I was diagnosticated Fibromialgia which has changed everything . I have always been working and I  have had  no problem of incomes.;but these last years have been awful for me. I had to leave my home because I had no support in fact my whole family always telling me I was lazy ,why don’t you get up and do something ?those were the best words they told me. Things at home were getting worse and I couldn’t even get up or move my arms, my whole body was in pain and actually is at the moment.  Doctors didn’t know what to do or which medication to take so my life just changed from one day to another and no support from my family.  My actual situation hasn’t changed but it gets worse and I have no incomes, the government doesn’t help me in this case and I do have a disability but I have tried to get a little help but they tell me there is no help for me. I am desperate it is hard for me not to work but I just can’t. I wish somebody knows about this illness it is hard for me not to be able to do anything at all. Pains are killing me, and I don’t know what is  worse my financial situation or my illness I am struggling to pay my medication, this month I haven’t been able to buy them but I think It’s the least of my problems I owe three credits and have nobody at my side to help me not only financially , no one really is interested in my illness people around me no family support and nothing I can do I try every day to write or get a job online but It is hard for me to even sit in front of the laptop for nearly an hour. Idon’t know what to do who to ask for help or how to get out of this difficult situation. If anybody is willing to help me to get out of this situation I would appreciate any help!!! my credits in total are about 3000 euros if I pay them on time that is by the end of this week that is why I am so desperate. By the way my family doesn’t know anything about my financial situation if they aren’t even interested in my health well I just wanted to let you know about it.  Thanks a lot for reading me and  for helping me I will give any further information if anybody needs it , my medical reports or my financial situation, anything thanks a lot. paypalme/Annabell5266

Last Updated:

Need help for a down payment

Hello,

I hope you are having a great day. I am a mother of three small boys who desperately need to move and need some help with the down payment. At the moment, I live with my kids in a family home I fixed, but a family member wants me out to give the house to one of her children and is making my life miserable. She can’t kick me out immediately, thank God, but for my and my family peace of mind and since they live next door, I need to have something on my own and get away from them. Life is too short to waste it arguing.

I am a freelance worker and work hard while taking care of my kids. Fortunately I earn enough money to support all of us, but between expenses and debts I haven’t been able to save for a down payment, which is keeping me from buying a house.

My plan (and dream) is to pay out all of my debts, save some money as an emergency fund, and buy a house with a mortgage I can easily pay every month.  That’s why I need a helping hand to start anew with my family in a new house. With no other debts but mortgage, I would be able to pay back any money given to me. I understand people work hard for what they have, no matter how rich they are, and I am not trying to get advantage of anyone. Among all, they brought me up to be a nice person who loves people and making new friends.

And if you can’t help but are in need of a friend or a crying shoulder, don’t hesitate to reach out to me and I would help you in any way I can. At the end of the day, people and connection are what really matter in life.

Thanks for reading me and have a lovely day.

My PayPal link

https://paypal.me/IdNav?country.x=ES&locale.x=es_ES

Last Updated:

Study financing

My name is Julian. First of all, I apologize for my english level, I don’t speak it very well. I am a student from Colombia and I am studying human sciences in France; I started my studies in France in 2018 and if everything goes well I will be finishing them in June 2025; I say if everything goes well because life in France is very expensive for me and sometimes it can be quite difficult to find the financial means to cover the necessary expenses to continue my studies. The decision to study in France is because the academic level is much higher compared to the options in my country and in this way my goal is to be able to receive a very good academic training in order to be of great help to people and to society. A few years ago, when I began my studies, it was easier to find the financial means to cover basic needs, however, since the 2020 pandemic, everything has become more difficult and it is equally difficult for my family to be able to help me with financial expenses. I deeply appreciate the people who can help me finish my studies, now that I am close to finishing them, taking into account that the most urgent expenses are related to books and other necessary study material (for example a new computer, because the one I currently have is from 2012, so I think it would be good to buy something newer and more functional), as well as the pension to be paid monthly in the place where I am currently residing.

May God reward good-hearted people who wish to help this cause!

https://paypal.me/JBarrero815?country.x=CO&locale.x=es_XC [Read more…]

Last Updated:

Vet bills

Hello,

I have been rescuing cats and dogs from the streets of Romania for 8 years.
If you don't know the situation of the animals on the streets in Romania, please let me tell you that it is a terrible one. They are expelled, poisoned, beaten,
abandoned in desolate places without food and water..
There is almost no legal protection for them,
authorities do not get involved..
I don't have a very big house, so I mainly only take in cats from the street (less puppies, but I also take in some of them).
They are treated at the vet, sterilized, tested for viral diseases, vaccinated. dewormed and promoted to find a safe home.
I don't have an organisations, I only act as an individual strictly from salary and occasionally from a secondary job.
Until this year I managed and saved and helped with sterilization as much as I  could
but this year, due to inflation, prices have increased, including for food and veterinary medical care, and they will continue to increase,
but my income has remained the same.
For this reason, I fell behind with the payment of my debts to the vet, until now I have a debt of 3000 euros that must be paid by the end of the year.So please, wonderful people, help me to pay this bill to help next the innocent and helpless souls on the streets..

So please, i begg you  wonderful people, help me to pay this bill to help next the innocent and helpless souls on the streets... we assure you of our full gratitude, because this help is priceless, for sure.
Thank you!

paypal.me/ALozinca

Last Updated:

Please Help Us

Dear Donor, Please Help Us !

Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
We need to pay for the loan we had to take during the corona , remaining debtamount of 8200 euros, in order to survive.Got into debt.
Good people who are willing to help me (72 years) and my muse (76), we are retiree, unfortunately we cannot afford covers the costs of residence, food and treatment, we have no means Thank you to everyone who can help To get back on my feet .
For 2years, I wallowed in the failure, got depressed and lost my identity.
I have learned from my mistakes, never again a loan.
Recently watched an interview and the guest said she’s been down so many times, but she’s always risen like a phoenix. This greatly inspired me. Posting this request is my first step towards rising again.

I believe with your kind help, my renewed vigor and God on my side,
I am writing to you today with a heart full of hope and a humble plea for your support in this crucial chapter of my life. I hope my words will impact your heart to give not only to help pay my loans but even bigger ” a hand up” to help get me back on track and to stay there”

Your kind contribution will make a huge difference in the trajectory of my life and I’m very hopeful, that when I get out of this rut, I will pay it forward by helping others also. Thank you very much

I am writing to you today with a heart full of hope and a humble plea for your support in this crucial chapter of my life. I hope my words will impact your heart to give not only to help pay my bills but even bigger ” a hand up” to help get me back on track and to stay there”

Life journey often leads every one of us through unforeseen valleys. And I currently find myself amid one such stretch. Circumstances have placed me in a position, where meeting my monthly basic needs have become an uphill battle. Yet within this challenge, I see the opportunity to create a brighter future with the fire that burns within me.

I believe the hearts i’m speaking to or reading this right now, you hold the power in your hands to help me illuminate my path towards and stability.

I know you get lots of appeals, and I am genuinely grateful that you chose to read mine. Please know that your generosity will extend far beyond me,. So I ask you to open your hearts and your pocketbooks and give with the purpose that .By lifting others, you will rise even higher” Thanks so much. My gratitude is overflowing towards you.

My paypal link is PayPal.Me/majana222

Merry Christmas and happy new year !

Last Updated:

HELP ME, I Feel Desperate …

I’m a woman, single-parent mom, who’s been through a lot, most of it hard, and yet I had to beat them.

I managed to survive a rape, a dangerous beating at the same time, that in my struggle to survive, to come back and not to deny my life, I was also the victim of serious medical mistakes.
In surgery I was slaughtered gynecologically, I was in danger of dying in the operating room, and after I managed to survive, I had to live with many accompanying medical health problems, which led me to have from the age of 37 years inability to become a mother again, severe osteoporosis to the extent that I lost many times my bone density from the spine with the danger of permanent disability, and a little later I began to face serious problems of autoimmune diseases, these monsters that eat my body, life and mind.
The first autoimmune disease from distress was Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, a devastating disease that affects many organs, since it essentially mimics other diseases.
After some time, not only did I not get well, but the autoimmune increased, I also acquired Fibromyalgia, and Rheumatoid Arthritis. Both of these diseases affect muscles, tendons, nerves, bones, all tissues, all organs. I ended up being examined in University Hospitals, where they gave me the corresponding diagnoses, but they left me untreated, suffering from the pains and very often not being able to support my neck and body, being necessarily bedridden.

I live every moment of my life with excruciating pains all over my body, with pains that drive you crazy and no one understands them. And no one would stand them.

The diseases I mentioned aren’t the only health problems I’m dealing with. I have a spinal tumor and I don’t have the money to do the travel, the necessary health tests, and the treatment of the tumor with radiotherapy. I don’t know how it’s turned out. Also, I have automatic spinal fractures due to osteoporosis. Once, it was necessary to have spinal surgery and I was asked for 25000€, which I still need, I never had the surgery, of course.
I have stopped going to any doctor for some time, I don’t have a picture of my health anymore, because I don’t have the money to see if and how long I will live.

Of course,
My marriage is broken, too. But I had , fortunately, a little child, a precious girl, a few years before I lost my ability to be a mother again, at the hands of doctors, and before I lost another child.

This little child, my daughter, did not grow up on the offer of both her parents. My daughter did not see her father near her, she did not grow up from his financial help, she only experienced deprivation, financial, emotional and moral.

I fought and I’m still fighting to raise her. Now she is 17 years old, I have to find the money to help her study, get through to university and already it is all very difficult.
At the moment, only my daughter’s tutoring classes cost 600€ every month for the preparation of the Panhellenic Exams, I often don’t have to give her a single euro anymore, I can’t pay for these tutoring classes, I can’t help her to study, I can’t even take her to the doctor, i can’t help her to grow up, because I have NOTHING.

I was an educator for 18 years, but when I got sick and struggled for many years, a year and a half ago I had to quit my job, because the diseases I mention to you, especially Fibromyalgia, makes you unable to bear the voices of children, because the pain gets worse.
Then I tried to work a lot of jobs , I tried a lot, but that I can’t stand standing, or that I can’t stand the pain, has always been a serious problem, which leaves me out of work.
I have months where I don’t even have 10 euros , they are hosting us, I feel ashamed because we will have to leave here anymore. I have borrowed a lot of money that I cannot repay, and that is to learn to offer a service , to attend some seminars, so that I can work. However, I did not manage to finish them, because they are all very expensive, and I have no right to “study” myself when my child should be studying.
I am very ill, and when you see me, I only smile. I don’t know if I’ll be okay for a long time.,
but I have so many needs, I have so many needs to satisfy, to raise the child, to find money for tutoring classes, then for her studies, for my own doctors, for medicines, for medical tests that I have to undergo constantly, to pay back what I borrowed, to help my parents who have serious health problems…even to eat something.

I never imagined that I would come to the point of begging for help from some people whose magnanimity might allow them to offer me financial assistance.
I always said ” Don’t give up! Not now!”
And this ” now ” is full of moments when I didn’t give up. But I’m on the edge, abandoned by everyone.
Please, if you please, help!
I wouldn’t want to get help with any quid pro quo, please, it’s not what I can offer.
I need a lot of financial help, it’s all I can ask for, even now!
Thank you for reading me, thank you that if you can, you will help us, as if you were angels!
I’ll never forget it. Because you’re going to help a little kid who is dealing with so much financial and moral deprivation, and then help me!

For anyone who can offer, I give you my PayPal account, along with my gratitude!

My debts already reach many thousands of euros and I do not have the mental strength to ask you for a specific amount, I feel ashamed! However, the more money raised, the better we will live, but even if I do not live long, I will go away in peace for the help in my child’s life.

PayPal:
paypal.me/filianfeel

Last Updated:

Trying to get back on my feet

Here is why I am asking for financial help. For the past few years, my life turned into an absolute hell following the loss of a loved one. I became clinically depressed for a very long time, was jobless and made decisions that I am not proud of. But now, I am trying to get back on my feet. I just got a great job with an average salary, where I intend to excel and succeed.

However, I have so little money in my bank account that I do not feel secure. If I end up with medical complications, the bills could get high and I worry that I could end up homeless! By medical complications I am talking about my eye health in particular as my eyes have several issues.

Another reason why I am asking for money is so that I can enjoy life in a way I have not been able to, back when I was clinically depressed. Any financial assistance will be much appreciated.

Paypal: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/RaphaelJPottier

Last Updated:

Need a car to get by in life from college to my sick dad

Hi everyone! Hope you’re having a great day. I’m trying to raise 10.000$ to buy a car and help my dad.I need a car so I can more swiftly manage to get between my college and my sick dad that suffers from cancer and needs help every so often. Also I’m raising the money to help my dad out to get him more comfortable so he can spend his days a bit better not just on the couch and the bed. Before he got sick he loved to travel now the only thing he can do is just what I described to you. A car would help me get by much easier to get his medication and also to finish up school as well as make his life just like before with a lot of travel.

Also sorry for maybe a misleading picture but my dad wants to stay anonymous and doesn’t want his image to be out there. Hope you understand.

Thank you for your time and donations. I’m very grateful for any help. Even a penny count

PayPal: @Danielschatterfeld

Last Updated:

Young father in desperate need of help

Hello everyone my name is Mihai

I’m originally from Romania but I live in Germany since 2019,life took a hard turn on me and that is because of my crucial financial mistakes I made….

I now have a family my girlfriend(soon to be wife) hast a daughter and we have a son tougher he is 10 months old

I made crucial financial mistakes leading me into a debt of 30.000 euro’s and as expected I can’t get trough them….

I know it’s all my fault and I learned my lesson

I am now in a really bad position because living in Germany is already strict enough and I already tried everything but couldn’t get anything done…

I’m ashamed of myself that I can’t provide anymore for my family and I am ashamed for this mistakes I made

i am here to ask you kind people to maybe lend a hand and help a young dumb man who is trying to start his life again and provide for his family

I believe in the power of second chances and i believe that there are people who can make a difference

Thank you for visiting my request and I hope you are all well and healthy

@MicMihaiGeorge is my Paypal account

Last Updated:

Brokers Market Investment Funds- 5000 USD

Greetings,

I hope this message finds you well, my humble request is not the ordinary type, thank God that I`m good health and in working shape. I make this plea to any investor that would smile upon my desire to gain financial freedom. I come from humble beginnings, was raised right but unfortunately with little to none financial education. I want to break this curse and I believe that with Your help, I can achieve that. I have recently joined the brokers market and also a group that handles data analytics, Unfortunately, my capital is not where its supposed to be for me in order to achieve this dream. I want to specify that I have a job, but it is not enough for me to gather enough capital in order to make significant investments. I earn about 700-1000 USD/ month and I still have to pay for food/ bills / Medical expenses for my mother. This invest of $5000 would not be in vain, I would more than happily pay back every penny once my capital has reached 50000 USD.

Please consider this, this would make my life boon with happiness and opportunity. I thank you and have a blessed remainder of the week!

paypal.me/investmentfunds5000

 

Last Updated:

Divorce, three kids, Debts – and a dream

Hello,

I am a german father (45 years old) of three wonderful kids (11, 13, 17) and I went through a lot and still travelling. I’ll explain it topic by topic.

Divorce:
Years ago, my wife tricked me into having our now 17 year old daughter as she purposely lied to me telling me she uses birth control. We dated a few months before we realised that we are not made for each other so we broke up. A few weeks later she came up with the news that I’m gonna be a father.
What a bummer. I love my kids to death and would never anybody do them harm. But at that time I didn’t know what to do. Well we went through everything together. Pre labor, labor, birth. I was always by her side because it was my girl being born. We tried to raise her together but it’s been hard as she got a new boyfriend and I was jealous. Long story short. A few years later I had a bad knee injury and needed surgery. I moved in with her in that time as she drove me to the doctors appointments, physical ed and more. We got to know each other more during that time and decided to marry and have a sibling for our daughter. Which both happened and my other love of my life was born. And 1.5 years later my son.
Now the real issues began. Remember as my wife tricked me into having a kid? Well that was because of her psychological illness. She suffers from borderline alongside everything like depression and more. The situation got more and more tense, resoluting in her driving to a bridge on evening. She wanted to commit suicide as she couldn’t handle 3 kids plus a job plus maybe me. I called the police and they saved her as I knew where she was. She was sent to a closed institution where she was taken care of. It was tough for everyone of us. I had to handle my full time job and the 3 kids and maintain positivity. They had questions. Once she called from the closed institution and told me that I should leave her, get a new wife and be happy. But I’m no jerk. Of course I wouldn’t let her down.
Well time passed by, she eventually got released and sent to therapy. Which was again tough for the kids as they couldn’t see her mom. Only on the weekends. After some time she got released and sent to ambulant therapy. She was home again but as really some time went by, she had to basically get to know our kids once again. They were quite drawn to me as I was always there for them and always will be. That was though. Time went by and her “borderline” spasms were absolutely fierce to manage. But I handled everything. She eventually went back to her job and did well. She kinda drew herself into work, as this was the thing she was good at.
The final chapter. She was handed promotion and we talked about it. I told her it was too early with 3 kids and working full time and because I had a realistic approach to her medical history. But she nevertheless took the promotion with the outcome that she worked even more, leaving the kids and of course me, way behind. The kids knew who to come to if they had a problem and it was not her, the kids knew who to talk to. That created a huge gap between and us 4.
Besides that she drinks an unusual amount of alcohol every freaking day which results in bad memory and more.
My feelings for her were at an all time low because she didn’t do anything for the kids or me. I had a full time job, I cooked, I cleaned, I took care of homework, I cried almost every freaking night.
One evening she asked me if she should move out and that’s when we got to talk about everything. 3 weeks later we decided that we can’t be together no more.
We still live together, because we don’t have the money that she can move out.

That leads me to the next topic:
Debts
I always was a worker. I got my exam from school but that’s it. I am not proud about what happened in the years between 14-20. I was an idiot.
I went to an actors school after regular school but couldn’t finish that.
I worked as a waiter long time but all the money I made went straight into the gambling slot machines. I smoked weed. I almost threw my life away, was a gang member, stole my fathers gun and went to a huge brawl with it. Things could have gone south pretty quick.
But I managed to escape that. Got a job in  a marketing agency, a really well paid one. That’s when my finances were good for once. Tbh, I never was good with money. I know I always work hard and I think I earn my share. As I made good money and lifted my standards, life struck, the agency was shut down and I had nothing. Went back to being a waiter but I made less money than before but still lived that lifestyle. I went to the army, after that got my first job as a sales manager. And I stuck with sales. I am good in talking to people. That’s where actors classes pay off. I worked long years for a huge company before they released the sales force. My finances were still poor at the time, having debts all along.
I always worked for my money and that’s what I hate. Not that I worked for it, but that I don’t have any of it. Then we got the kids, a house (rent) and overall costs. My debts got bigger. I switched my job occasionally because e.g. my boss had a diagnosed bipolar disorder and I couldn’t handle that at work and my borderline wife at home. I got a good job now and earn my money, but everything got so expensive, I just can’t keep up. In addition to that I got scammed online and that hurts the most. But I wanted to take the chance. And lost.
My first thought in the morning and last thought at night is debts and how I should pay everything. The bank don’t give me money no more.
So yeah, I work a freaking lot for my boss, my kids but I still have no money.
It’s frustrating. So I needed another income.
That leads me to the next topic:
Dreams
My dream is a financial independency. I tried so many things that are thrown at you nowadays. Dropshipping, affiliate marketing, fba, closer and so many more.
But none of them worked for me. I built a website, tried to create travel blogs.
I invented an advent calendar for kids (but nobody wants to have it – 5 sales in total) and a halloween book that nobody cared about. All these projects I realised at night. After work. After the kids went to bed. I learn something new everyday.
I worked with chatgpt, nightcafe, canva, wordpress, Woo and so many more things. I tried social media as a marketing tool, but failed, I put so much time and effort in any possibility to make money for me and my kids. I want them to have everything they need.
My latest project is a book for kids. “How the Easter Bunny saved Christmas”. I’m very proud of it as I didn’t use any AI to create it. It’s all mine and I will release it next week after I got the cover done.

So that’s my story shortened. I am a beaten man and mentally on the edge. I just need a success and steady money for a better sleep and a better future for my kids. I need money for me to still be creative with my books and projects (I have a huge book in the pipeline but can’t deal with it right now as I need a financial success now and this projects takes very long to realise – but I’ll get it done some day…promise).
My Paypal.me:
https://paypal.me/sidbackunltd?country.x=DE&locale.x=de_DE