PLEASE? PLEASE? PLEASE? This is my only hope and my last attempt to salvage our lives! www.paypal.me/brokenbella Please help me? Anything, any amount, any at all is going to help us so much!! And THANK YOU SO, SO, SO MUCH!
I was married for 30 years to an extremely violent man who has broken both of my eye sockets at once, ribs, arms, pressed knives to my throat and his last act was to point a loaded shotgun at our son who has TBI, (traumatic brain injury), told him he was going to die, and pulled the trigger. The only reason my son is still alive is because the safety was latched on that gun. I have had him arrested at least 10 times and now my husband is in prison for 4 years for all of his abuse and violence. I spent 30 YEARS trying to make our marriage work and until he was removed from the house, I honestly had no idea of just how bad I was living. When he was gone, it felt like this super huge relief went out the door with him. Only now I’m stuck in an aftermath of three decades of his irresponsibility and neglect. He left owing a ton of bills and I managed to catch up on a lot of it, but for three decades I was completely dependent on him and never knew he lied and didn’t pay the bills, and while I have been trying my best our truck was repossessed and I have to walk everywhere. I don’t complain about walking, but people don’t really understand that it is extremely time consuming and I have many life issues that need 100% of my attention and I am spreading myself very thin trying to do it all alone. With my son’s condition we spend days walking to doctor appointments and I’ve been working very hard trying to get him disability, but it takes a bit of time. He’s so close to approval, I just need somehow to get some help until it goes through shortly. Then they said he will get a lump sum and his monthly benefit. My big problem is here and now though. I owe my landlord money and if I can even get some of it, he will work with me through to the point of Mikey getting disability but he wants some now and I have nothing. Once disability happens we can go forward with life. My son needs my care constantly and it’s really been rough trying to balance everything. I have been juggling all of the money problems with the small income I have and now I am going to be homeless by Christmas, with a disabled son and not even a vehicle to sleep in, and I’m just lost! I am so scared and worried, I don’t know what to do. If we are lucky we get one meal in a day, and I am not exaggerating, we only get to eat supper if it’s a good day. I have no shampoo, detergent, toothpaste, nothing and I have to wash our clothing in the bathtub. I can’t pay to use the washer and dryer where we live, I just honestly don’t have a quarter. We don’t have t.v. or any luxuries at all. The only way I can do this and be on the Internet is because I get a small bit of data each month on my free government phone. I have no family left to turn to because my little brother passed away in his sleep when he was only 39, two years later, my grandma, and a couple of years ago two days before Thanksgiving my mom passed away at her work from an aortic aneurism of the abdomen and she was only 63. I never knew my father and my oldest son is literally on the other side of the world, on a ship because he is in the Navy. I’ve called Catholic Charities, Salvation Army, DPSS, domestic violence programs and agencies, and there is literally no help out there. All of the domestic violence agencies give you a list of phone numbers and when you call those numbers you get new numbers, until it goes full circle right back to the initial person you called seeking help. This is exactly what happened to me. I called 211 many times, Salvation Army gave us some food, and the Community Pantry gave us some food, but everyone is out of money until 2018, and by then we will be homeless. I am only asking because ” I HAVE TO”, I have no choice but to beg or I’m going to lose any little bit I have left of life. I have tried to help my community too. I’ve volunteered for Salvation Army serving holiday meals, at our public libraries request I went to city council meeting and spoke in support of keeping their doors open. I’ve written to congress for them as well, trying to get some state aid so they didn’t have to close. I also volunteered unloading trucks for a food bank called HOPE. I honest to goodness try to be a good citizen. I don’t use drugs, I’m not a criminal, we need help. We are good people and stuck in a bad spot, is there any hope at all? We can’t fix this life unless someone helps us, and then someday I want to help others. I don’t want to loose this little home, I want to make it a home now that the violence is gone. I want to help other people, I am by nature a caretaker of everyone, but if I don’t get help it’s just going to get worse and worse and harder and harder. I would like to get our lives fixed and start a program that has actual funds available to fix these types of situations for others. If my life ever gets going right, I want to take courses at our college so I can make a great impact in the community helping others. There are literally no domestic violence organizations in my city or near me at all. I truly am at your mercy, begging for your help, I really am. Please let me know if you can help. I’m doing everything possible to keep us protected too, the district attorney got us two orders of permanent protection served to him in prison. I want to divorce him while he’s there so I may never have to see him again. Or our son. There is an order of protection for him too. There is no Thanksgiving or Christmas to look forward to this year, we are not that lucky, if we get to stay in our home we would be blessed for every holiday to come. I’ve been trying to think of how to handle my eviction when the court tells me I have to go, I wouldn’t even be able to pay and store the little belongings we have left and pay for motels. We will end up on the streets. Please, please, please, please, please let me know. I already have the 3-Day Notice and if I don’t get rent money, they said the next step is a court date. I’m so upset! Thank you so much and be blessed to every single one of you all!