I’m writing this message from a mental hospital. I’m here because my mom kicked me out of the house because I don’t have a job. So I ended up on the streets and after staying on the streets for 32 hours in cold without sleeping I decided to go to a mental hospital and tell them about my situation. They hospitalized me but told me they can’t keep me more than 35 days. Here I have 3 meals per day and a bed where to sleep but I’m worried about what will happen when I’m going to be released. I’m 26 and had 6-7 jobs in my entire life but didn’t manage to keep one more than 2,5 months. I’ve taken psychiatric pills since the age of 13 and ended up with my brain messed up, liver problems, kidney problems, hormonal problems. I have very weak muscles and am unable to lift heavy weights. I have very low endurance and get exhausted very fast. My diagnosis of paranoid schizofrenia doesn’t help aither. Also have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and asperger. I’ve been refused a few jobs because of it, don’t know how many because they didn’t told me ‘we don’t hire you because of your diagnosis’ they say ‘in case you are being selected as an employee we are going to call you in the next 14 days’. And I never know if they didn’t hire me because of my mental handicap or because I’m not right for the job. My parents beat me for years when I was a kid. I hit my head on the asphalt once when I slipped on a soccerball. I felt from a tree together with the branch. My father stompt on my head when I was 7 because he thought I wasn’t doing my homework(althow that was exactly what I was doing). My mother grew me in house arrest, didn’t allow me to visit friends or to get out of the house except for school. A so called friend forced me to drink a cup of gasoline. It’s not my fault I’m unable to work. I’ve tried, did the best I could again and again. I ask to whoever has the heart to contribute with any amount of money so that I can move in rent and stay in rent for at least 4-5 months until I manage to make money with blogging or my writing skills. I have some creative abilities but need a silent, stable place in order to make something tangible with them.