My name is Cece, I went from being a wife and stay-at-home mom to becoming a divorced single mom. The year I filed for divorce, I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, also known as UC.
In June 2014, I received diagnoses of multiple mental illnesses, including severe depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety, and panic disorder. Later on, I was also diagnosed with PTSD. At that time, I had a job, but I found myself unable to return to work.
I applied for SSDI (Social Security Disability Insurance), and despite assistance from an attorney, my initial application was denied. However, after a second attempt, we were fortunate that it got approved in 2016. By then, I hadn’t worked since 2014, and my savings had been depleted.
In October 2018, I was fortunate when I was blessed with a job at Amazon as a seasonal employee, which then continued beyond the peak season. This job’s flexibility was perfect for me, allowing me to manage my mental illness. I only needed to work five hours a month to maintain the flexible schedule, which eased my worries on challenging days.
I am a suicide survivor and I realized that being around other people sometimes help me feel less isolated and reduce my thoughts of suicide.
My job at Amazon covers expenses that the SSDI checks couldn’t, such as Uber, which is how I commute since I no longer have a car. I‘ve had to rely on Uber and Lyft for transportation, which has become significantly expensive. This situation is even more challenging due to my panic and anxiety attacks.
Between 2019 and 2021, I ended up in the ER several times due to severe flare-ups of my Ulcerative Colitis.
Without friends or family to assist me, everything comes with a cost, even the help I‘ve offered in the past.
Where I live everything is spread out and often too hot for walking, I have some family here. However, the cost of using Uber or Lyft to reach them is prohibitive. With my own car, transportation would be far more efficient and cost-effective.
Though I work as much as possible, I still can’t afford car payments. The additional burdens are taking a toll on me mentally and physically, leaving me exhausted.
Having a car would grant me peace and the freedom to come and go as needed. I could attend church, visit the grocery store, or treat myself to a meal without relying on Uber or Lyft. The money I currently spend on rides could cover car insurance and gas expenses. The car does not need to be new, I will be grateful with a certified used car.
As a survivor of suicide, it’s crucial for me to meet people and make friends.
Recently every time I step into a Uber my anxiety skyrockets, particularly at night. Having a car would provide me with independence and significantly reduce my anxiety. At present, my life revolves only around work and home, with no in-between. I‘ve been praying for a car, uncertain where it might come from, until someone on YouTube mentioned this website.
I will be eternally grateful for any and all donations, whether large or small. I extend my heartfelt thanks in advance.