I will try to keep a very long story short for everyone’s sake and hit the highlights of how I ended up here. Well I am 54 a widow with one son. My childhood was typical and great I must say I had the best middle class family a person could ever wish for and for that for my family and the time I had with them all I am truly truly humbly grateful. I worked hard as I was raised and kept a good middle class life and career for years and never had to ask for help but maybe once monetarily that is. So I was married in 2001 to an amazing wonderful kind hearted man. We struggled to have children due to cancer I had beat a few years prior. We both worked I lost twins mid term and several other attempts at having a child but in 2005 we did it we had a son. We stopped there and up until 2017 we worked hard had good times, raised our son as best we knew how and had few complaints other than well the usual bills, free time etc… we made it through allot together and were stronger for it. Then in 2017 when at work I got the call that well changed my life forever. My husband who was never sick a day in his life was gone he died from a widow maker heart attack at 43 in his sleep while on the road for work. Over night our lives changed. Instantly ! I had to be strong for my son who was soon to be 12 years old and I was – I put my head down cried everyday to this day in the shower alone paid off what bills I could helped his mother financially paid off his sisters home and helped my brother who in typical fashion took off from his work for an extended period to help me get through the nightmare events one must face when losing a loved one. Fast forward to 2020 I had lost my father just before my husband and hard it was but expected at his age if 85 and before that my moms stroke as well for which she was never the same but she was thank goodness still there and by my side as well when he left us so suddenly. Again come 2020 and Covid 19 well just on the on set of that USA shutdown my mom had an accident trying to clean up water she spilt and fell and hit her head. With in less than a week she too was gone brain surgery could not save her. The best strongest warrior angel I now have in her one hell of a woman. An amazing amazing woman -My son struggled with this loss as well as his fathers but we had to keep going so I could not take care of my home properly alone and sold it at a break even in early 2021 and moved into the house of a new man friend x military man with ptsd but a gentle soul once you get past the hard exterior. He opened his home to my son and I and what a great man for doing so and my son now 15 really liked him as well. So I was also left rental property I could not take care of as renters destroyed it and they had to foreclose on it I just could not afford to keep it and I was still paying bills my late husband and I had accumulated. So I am still at my then almost 30 year job a good one and I worked around the clock. But started another small building clean out business with new man friend and it was doing well for a bit. So come late 2021 and I get another call out of the blue and it was my brother he was admitted to hospital in Chicago when working as a truck driver and was put on vent and died of COVID at age of 56 3 weeks later . He was it all that I had left of my small core truly loved family- they were all gone it was just me and my son . I thought my brothers wife who I love to this day I thought we would stand together but that did not happen they well let’s just say they don’t ever call or call back anymore as the same with all my other friends and family except for my late husband mom and sister they have stayed in touch and are just wonderful! So there I am lucky very lucky! So I tried to keep working and I did and helping with the new business but then in late 2022 I was laid off of my job if 30 years with out real warning. So I forged ahead with the business and put all i had left Into it and boom my partner/ boyfriend was put in hospital for diabetes and we almost lost him but did not thank god … but him work again soon was doubtful and I tried to run the business on my own but had an auctioneer rip me off of 26kafter selling my inventory and I could not recover it and had landlord in business building go up 3k on rent and then I was robbed so…. Wow okay what now … well I have applied for every job I can I am either over or under qualified and I took a retail job and kept business going by hauling and doing property preservation over the summer with my sons help and any gig I could get but I am now so far in debt I can’t crawl out!!!! I am still trying as I also have painted art for 30 years so I built an Etsy store with just a small bit of my art on there and some of the business items I am trying to resale and now trying to build a free web site to sell my art etc but I am struggling to get that completed and companies that could help want thousands and still trying to get a good job daily….I applied for Medicaid and got that but can’t get snap food help on unemployment I was on over the winter and now unemployment has ended and death benefit that we have survived on ends in two months and well I am now lost and just when it could not get worse whelp with my luck it did I was rear ended by a distracted driver doing 70 mph and hurt my back and my only hauler f350 truck well it’s done destroyed but hey I am hurt but alive so it’s a good day, right???!? I am sorry to be on this site and asking for help but I am so buried now I just do not know what to do and I hate hate hate to ever ask for help but my son is graduating high school and I had to tell him the trip we tried to save for to take for his graduation across country in rv for 3 weeks was well canceled cause all that savings had to pay bills because his mother had failed but I havenot given up the fight. Even if I can’t dig out of this monster debt about 250k with at least 65 of it from the rental foreclosure and if I can’t get another good job I will figure something out so he can go to trade school as I will not fail my son ever again as it broke my heart although he of course understands as he is one hell of a great kid and soon to be man! He has been through so much I lucked out he is a great kid just like his father. So I shortened this story for everyone’s sake leaving out the 6 other funerals and crazy life events we have endured in this time frame. And again I only ask for help to get back on my feet dig out of this financial hole so I can again try and make a life for me and my son, the hill I have been climbing has just gotten so damn big I am struggling. I thank you so very much for your time and for you being kind enough to read this – if you choose to help I thank you from the bottom of my heart and will take that assistance humbly and utilize any help in the best way I know how to get this string of years of bad luck behind us and I will take your kindness seriously and will be grateful until the day that I leave this earth. Thank you again from a woman that just needs a break and a little bit of help !! Thank you ! My cash app thingy is $ebw4444 I know that shows who I am but figure transparency is best thank you again and if you can’t help believe me I get it but thanks for listening 🙂 and as my son and I say life is hard but you have to M-BRACE IT which means
M- manifest
B- balance
R-resilience
A – acceptance
C- confidence &
E – empathy
to
I – inspire
T – thankfulness
it helps us remember we can if we try and remember it may be bad but there is always hope and if we keep trying we will one day succeed. Thanks again and I hope this world is treating you well today !!!