I was married for 12 years to the Pastor’s grandson. During these 12 years I suffered mental, emotional, financial, religious and most recently physical abuse. Everything he did to me, was kept a secret from the congregation and was ignored by his immediate family. During my last pregnancy in 2022, I suffered severe postpartum depression which lead to him locking me in our room (we lived in one bedroom for 12 years- I didn’t realize till now how abusive THAT was alone, just to live “for free”) during that week, he deprived me of water, food, showering, my cellphone, and most importantly my kids. He and his brother took turns watching me, and when I tried to escape I was beat by both of them while his Grandfather (the Pastor) and his parents (also in ministry) sat there watching him drag me up and down the hallway by my hair, beating me and recording me while laughing. At the time I thought I was being punished for talking back, for being scared of him and his family and for wanting to get away from them. It took me a year to realize that what they did was wrong, I now suffer from extreme PTSD. I moved out of State away from them, filed restraining orders and divorce. I am struggling now more than ever financially trying to take care of our kids, pay the bills, buy food, and maintain the borrowed car we have. Its taking every ounce of strength not to run back in fear of being homeless. I am not asking for a handout, I am asking for humility. Please help us, my bank account is -750.00. Rent is due on the first, groceries are running out, I have a full tank of gas but the car shakes horribly if I go above 50 miles an hour. It has new tires but the axel needs to be fixed. I am trying my hardest to keep my PTSD under control so that I can live a normal life but I am in fear all day every day of everyone around me except my kids.