Hi,
My name is LaKeisha and I came upon this website after coming across a post on YouTube while I was looking up “How to make money without money” and I was curious so I clicked on it. This was one of the first sites they mentioned and I must say I was a little taken aback by the site’s title but I figured I would take a chance. The situation that I am in isn’t one that I caused myself and I am a woman with a lot of pride so asking for any help is hard for me but “begging” being the title jabbed at my self-pride. However, last night and the look on my son’s face changed everything and I am completely humbled today. I have been working on getting my degree in college now for the last 2 years I went from studying nursing to Business Administration with a concentration in Hospitality since I was working in the casino industry with hopes of moving up the corporate ladder eventually. I had been working for the casino for 5 years and truly loved my job, my greatest joy was interacting with the guest. My personality and desire to entertain worked well with the many guests.
In life, everyone has a story and mine is not one to be proud of, unfortunately. I made some dumb choices when I was young, thought I had found forever love with my first relationship, and wanted to do any and everything asked of me because I thought by doing so that was how I had to prove my love and loyalty. Long story short it led me into the world of drugs and very soon I became dependent on it. Which was followed by several arrests, and ultimately years on probation. Two years after my youngest son was born, I was arrested again, and being away from him was all I needed to through myself at the mercy of the court I begged to be allowed to join the drug court program, and after several letters to the judges, I was accepted into the program and completed it. I have not returned to that life since, and I have no desire to ever again. However, the choices I made in the past continue to haunt me 15 years later. Lately, it seems as if no matter what I do or how hard I try to get into a stable and secure situation I can’t something always seems to happen that brings me down to my knees. I am a good person and I am kind, I am always willing to help people, and they say good things come when you do good things. I don’t know if I am not doing enough good things or what but it’s almost like there is a curse upon me that I can’t get out from under.
I say that because I was working a full-time job, and going to school full-time. Taking care and doing my best to raise my son on my own. My son was diagnosed with mild autism and that was tough in the beginning but today he is a super smart wonderful kid. He deserves so much more than I can give. I can’t explain the pain I feel knowing I can’t do better for him. So here is my situation, I have been clean and sober and have had no problems with the law for over 8 years now. I was working a low-paying job but was able to survive somewhat okay, but this year that all changed when I injured my back caused me to be unable to stand for long periods which cost me to be let go from my job. Since then everything has fallen apart I got screwed over by unemployment due to a comment I made on y weekly claim, which caused them to deny me, I appealed and explained to the judge exactly what I was trying to say, even with witness testimony to confirm they denied me again, I again appealed and was denied again. I was unable to pay any of my bills I lost my cell phone access, my car, my insurance, everything. I have had to survive on my son’s disability check which is less than 1000 a month. I am back on food stamps, and I have applied for more jobs in the past month than I have in my entire life, and still, not one door has opened for me it almost seems unreal. I am a hard worker and have always been awarded or praised for my work ethic, so it crushes my self-esteem when I can’t find work. My grades started to fall in school, and I have fallen into depression. My son is suffering the most and last night was Halloween which is one holiday he loves the most we were on our way to go trick or treating and I forgot his trick-or-treat bag but they had some people selling buckets for a 1.00 at the entrance to the place we were going and my son with excitement on his face was like look mommy we can get one here and I held back my tears as best I could but had to tell him we would have to find an empty bag or something because I didn’t even have a dollar. The look on his face almost killed me literally, my heart was destroyed.
Now things are so bad I couldn’t get a bank to loan me 20.00 let alone any amount to help me get on my knees, let alone my feet. I am a super smart girl and would be a great asset to any company, I had been working with the Small Business Center here in my hometown to help me build a business plan for a business that with all the research we had done for it has the potential to be a very lucrative one, but was told due to my credit and criminal background history it would be hard to get anyone to approve funding. So again another jab to my self-worth, by saying I will never be good enough to succeed no matter what. I can’t accept that even though every attempt has been proven to be just as they say. I don’t want my son to be left with that memory of me never being able to achieve anything worthy. I want to one day be the mom he can be proud of.
If this site is as they say it is I can only pray for a blessing of ANY kind. I am a person who believes in Karma and I feel that I have already paid for my wrongs. But I believe that blessings are always returned when given genuinely maybe mine are still on the way and I just haven’t gotten it yet. I refuse to believe I am not worthy. All I can do is hope and pray, and take anything blessing given let my gratitude show my success. So if this site isn’t as they say well then I have lost nothing but the time it took to write all this. I can only guarantee that your gifts will not be wasted. Thank you for your time if you decide to keep reading to this point. May God bless you!
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