I’m in tears writing this. I’m so embarrassed. I just want to be a good mom and provide for my kids.
I was swimming in debt with my old job so I had been studying hard to get into IT for the past year. I was so happy when I landed an internship in the career I wanted and was even HAPPIER when they offered me full time not even halfway into my three month internship. I should’ve been smarter about it, but they had offered WAY more money than my current job so I took it right away. Well the job was for a position I had no experience in, which they knew, but the position was needed to be filled right away and I was excited to be offered to stay with the company.
They had promised that if I took the position, they would find a place for me in the company once the position I was in had a candidate with experience. They had promised to continue training me which was really the best part. So I got into the company full time, worked this position until the position was filled, train me in the field, and they would find me an entry level position so I can really start this new career.
Well, the training didn’t happen AT ALL. In fact, I had been denied access to the course I originally was taking during my internship. And when I asked about it, my boss told me “I want you to focus on your current job.” That should’ve been the red flag, but I was stupid.
I’m guessing they found a better candidate because they fired me a month and a half later… And when I begged for the PROMISED entry level position, I was told “Our employees have years of experience and dozens of certificates. We don’t have an entry level position and never will.” I was devastated I was completely lied to. And all it did was cost me more money because of the further location and all the expenses needed just to work there.
I’m trying so hard to find a job with what knowledge I already had in the IT field, but no one is taking people on my level. I was hoping being with the company would boost my resume, but now I have to pretend it never happened because of how brief it was.
I just don’t know what to do. My credit cards are close to maxing out, I have been denied benefits, and worst of all, I had to postpone my schooling because I can’t pay for it anymore. Well, let’s not even talk about how disappointed my children were after seeing how happy Mommy was, only to be completely crushed a little over a month later. It was heartbreaking telling them that Mommy won’t be going back to work.
Please, if you have the heart, anything helps. I was hoping this would finally be the holidays I could treat my kids, but the Universe had different plans for me.