I never thought I would actually have the courage to ask for help nor did I ever think I would be in this position to ask for help. I have always worked very hard and worked as a salaied manager in the grocery and restaurant industries beginning at the age of 17. I never depended on others for me or my children. Everything changed the year that Covid hit in 2020. I had to stay home with my children as they were on remote schooling. I even took this time to continue my education and obtained another college degree online. During this year the father of my twins(who are now 12) pasted away. We were not together at his time of death, I had discovered he had some demons with drug use that did lead to the end of his life. I felt horrible for my twins. I also lost the house I was buying, two cars, and an unknown amount of cash that was all due to his drug use before I discovered what was happening. As soon as I discovered his drug use we were not together, I did not want to put my children in danger, I do have 2 older children with my exhusband(a daughter in college now and my son just turned 14) I still worked during all of this and eventually got past these hurdles and purchased a house and car. Life was getting back to normal. I worked very hard to provide everything my children needed and also made sure the received counselling after the death of the twins’ father and have always ensured my children were well taken care of and happy. They were all doing well and all are involved in sports and extracurricular activities. While I was not working due to the Covid school issue I sustained severe back injuries as well as many torn ligament in my knees and ankles. I am also blessed with inheriting arthritus in my hands from both sides of my family. I tried tp go back to work and even tried other jobs but am still unable to work. I have been going to doctors and specialists to try and treat my injuries. I have tried to do some remote work from home and then something unexpected happened. The twins paternal grandparents filed for custody of my twins. They did this with paperwork that I have proof to be untrue and all their allegations are false but I could not afford a lawyer for my hearing and did not even meet or hear from my court appointed lawyer until we were entering the first hearing. I gave her all my paperwork that showed their claims are false but unfortunately she never even tried to give them to the judge. I have only been able to have supervised visitation with them twice a month and I have yet to get a full session of the limited visitations because the grandparents would schedule for activities and I have gotten 45 minutes at best during my limited visitations. I am still unable to work but have some savings to pay my bills but there is no way I can afford a lawyer. The first hearing was in September and they scheduled the next for early December. It is only a few weeks away and I have reached out to my lawyer and cannot get a call or even message from her. When I met her as we went into the first hearing she said she had been busy helping her parents move. I understand the importance of family, but I want and deserve to have my twins home again. I hate asking for help but I would appreciate any help I could get, I would even set up a way to pay anything back over time. But today is Thanksgiving (Nov 28th) and my next hearing is December 9th. Today I made the decision to ask for help, I have tried to avoid this. But I miss my girls and I need a lawyer so I can get them back. I am a good mom. I love my children and give them my time. I do not date or go out with friends, I focus on my children. I want to add I have never been in trouble ( never even received detention in school) I worked for 2 companies and had the same boss for 22 years. My injuries have been a huge problem finding a job that I can perform. I am college educated and have always been a good mom. The grandparents have been trying to do this for while I think and I honestly do not know why they did this. Let me add the grandmother(actually a step grandmother) work for the board of education and used her position to fake some of the complaints filed against me. The complaimts are so easily proven false that I could sue them for defamation of charactere. I just want my girls back and I need help. So many other things happened like losing my mother and father in the previous year but this is already a very long post. I feel horrible asking for help, but I love my children and want them back home. If anyone can help I would be extremely grateful. The next hearing is coming so fast, but not having them for Thanksgiving pushed me to finally ask for help. Thank you for reading my story and I apologize it is so long, this is actually the shorter version. I hope you will find it in your heart to help me. I am posting my PayPal link. https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/my/profile