paypal.me/SashkaM619
I forgot to include my PayPal link in my last post, so I’m trying to repost.
I never thought I’d be begging for money from strangers online, but it’s come to this point in my life. I would not be doing this unless I knew wholeheartedly that I deserve help, kindness, and compassion. I was raised by a lower-income, single, first-generation immigrant mom. She escaped Russia to give her two kids a better life in the US. She left her family and everything behind to come to a foreign country (without even knowing any English) and worked day and night as a piano teacher and caretaker to provide for her two kids, make sure we received a proper education, and ensure that we had the tools necessary to live stable lives (unlike most people in Russia). I was accepted to all UC schools with a full scholarship back in 2017. I had dreams of developing a successful career, making my mother proud, and being able to later pay back my mother for her infinite sacrifices. Starting in 2018, I developed depression and anxiety due to the strong language and cultural barrier between my mother and I. She was struggling to pay for credit card debt, rent, gas, car insurance, life insurance, etc all by herself while ensuring chronic stress, financial hardship, and trauma from raising two kids by herself in the most expensive city in the United States. Due to the pandemic and continuing financial struggles, I have not been able to go back to university. My mother lost most of her clients when the pandemic started and I had to step in and work two jobs since 2021 to provide for the both of us while my older brother was finishing his rigorous graduate degree. I have since worked my way up in the restaurant industry – all while caring for my elderly mother, regularly paying her credit card debt payments, and almost single-handedly remaining fully responsible for both her and myself. I’m so burnt out emotionally and physically that I’ve developed involuntary muscle spasms from constant stress, overwhelm, and overthinking. I’ve been on Zoloft for the last 5 years. I love my mother deeply but she’s getting older and some of her own trauma is causing her to become verbally and emotionally abusive towards me. I know I am more than capable of being able to support myself in the future, but I need help paying off our significant credit card debt. I love my older brother, but he is not yet in a position to help us financially (he is finishing his residency to become a spinal surgeon). I worry for the overall health of me and my mother. We are decent, kind-hearted, responsible, tax-paying, law-abiding, Christian US citizens. We have never once abused a single drug, drank alcohol, or relied on welfare programs of any kind. Once my brother becomes a working surgeon, we can give my mother peace of mind and financial security. In the meantime, I am anxious, scared, and worried that my mother won’t make it to live to see any future grandkids or go on a first-time family vacation, etc. My mother is so brilliant, talented, angelic, wise, responsible, and Christ-like. I have done my best so far to work 60 hours a week, but the credit card debt that accumulated over the years from working tirelessly to remain afloat is keeping us from living more sustainably. I have always been a reliable, kind, understanding, and respectful worker who is appreciated at my high-pressure fine-dining job. I know there are plenty of scumbags out there making tens of thousands off of selling drugs, child pornography, etc. I know there are people with not even 5% of the moral character, decency, work ethic, talent, and capability of my family who “live large”. I have never and would never even think of starting an OnlyFans or degrading myself into relying on some random “sugar daddy”. We are $35,000 in debt. I will continue to work 60 hours a week without a single day of rest because I refuse to just abandon my poor mother. I know plenty of young people my age who would just give up and leave someone like my mother behind. If there is anyone reading this and who is willing to help a stranger out of the kindness of your heart, I would deeply appreciate any kind of funding. I can assure you this funding will only go directly towards basic living expenses and credit card debt. Thank you and God Bless.