I lost my wife 2009 and was left alone with three small children, whom I promised that we would make it.
I had to work as hard as I could sparing none of me of all these years.
Keeping the mask on for the children so they would not see how broken I was inside, how much all the work was taking toll and financial troubles were eating my brain.
As the life could not get any harder, I was diagnosed with cancer 2016 and went to emergency surgery immediately.
That was almost the end of me, but I fought back literally from the dead, just for my children, to me be there for them.
Finally, we really made this fart, they all are wonderful children, young adults, studying and coming great members of our society.
But as this year I have been diagnosed again with cancer and this time it will be the end of me eventually.
I have had nothing much on life for me, and my only hobbies are poetry and nature. I have been trying to write my book for years but never have real time for it as I had had to work so much.
I’m in great debt as raising the children and surviving cancer was out of my reach otherwise.
Now I put my old mask back on every day to show happy face for outside world, scaring that the end of me will happen at work trying to survive and pay my debts, not never being able to write my book and really spend time with loved ones and support my children to the end.
Every night coming home waiting something that I know will not happen.
All the help is appreciated
Sincerely, yours
Sami
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