Several months ago I lost my job, they lay me off and just told me that I’m not fit for the role. When I asked them why, they refused to specify to cover their side legally so that I couldn’t take them to court. I worked in customer service for years and so when I finally landed a lower level corporate job, it finally felt like I was making it in life as a 25 year old. They let me go right before my probation period ended, and did not have any sort of discussion with me as to whether I was underperforming.
It really brought me down as it was the first time I got layoff for a job I actually enjoyed. The rejection hit me hard as I couldn’t identify why they let me go, doubting my abilities and it lead me into a deep depression. I have finally managed to change my perspective and understand that them letting me do was a huge blessing. Rejection is redirection. It just means the universe was trying to guide me in a better direction that I deserve.
I have been applying to all sorts of jobs, but haven’t had much leads. I have been applying through all sorts of platforms and messaging employers via email and Linkedin but so far, nothing. I am running out of time with my employment insurance (ei), only 2 and a half months left on ei.
Ei does not cover all my bills, so I have been collecting debt just to pay for my basic needs like groceries and public transit.
I am a single South Asian woman who moved out of my parents place 2 and a half years ago due to abusive parents. I now struggle with C-ptsd due to early childhood trauma, and ever since my parent became physically abusive with me, it pushed me to move out and live on my own. I tried living with roommates to lower my costs, but it didn’t work out as that too became an unhealthy environment for me to live in. The landlord/roommate sub-leaded the room to me, I didn’t find out till my contract was nearly up with them that they weren’t even the owner of the house. This would have been very important information to have known in the beginning. On top of that, I wasn’t aware that their partners would come over nearly everyday, and lets just say the walls were not sound proof. Constant arguments between the couples was very triggering for me. I don’t mean bickering, but screaming, cursing fights. Even when I had conversations with them, they still couldn’t keep the noise level down. Thats when I decided that it was just best for me to live safely on my own.
The cost of living has gone up due to inflation and I cannot simply move back in with my parents as most people have considering my parents are not safe individuals to live with. I have been in therapy for years to work on my mental health and learn to work with my triggers and traumas, eager to change my life and turn things around. To end the cycle of trauma in my family. However, now that I am unemployed, I now struggle to pay for therapy too.
I cannot go to other relatives for help as they all gaslight my situation, they refuse to believe my parents are abusive (parents pretend to be on their best behaviour). They refuse to accept the abuse, neglect, and sexual trauma I have experienced for several years. I have accepted that I am the black sheep of the family and that I’m ultimately on my own.
There is no room in the homeless shelters in Ontario as they are overcrowded. There are many individuals such as refugees living on the streets. It gets super cold in the winter time, which makes the homelessness crisis in the GTA even worse.
I am determined to keep going, but I need assistance to pick myself backup. I kindly ask for a donation of $10,000 in order to pay off the debt I’ve collected and to cover my basic needs like rent and groceries.. I know that’s a lot to ask for, therefore even any smaller donation such as $5 is greatly appreciated.
I have fought this long to survive and fight for my freedom, I owe it to myself to keep going but I need financial help. God bless anyone kind enough to donate.