Single Female Relocating from OR to TX

Dear Friend, first and foremost, I want to express your tremendous impact on my mission at RentzDewRoseCity, my little online fundraiser shop, and how your continued support fuels my drive and empowers me to enact positive change in my difficult circumstances. My story is long and depressing but I would share it with you, if you wanted me to.

Today, I write to share a harrowing personal experience that has driven the purpose of my fundraiser to new heights. Portland, Oregon, renowned for its stunning roses and deep-rooted community, has transformed into an environment where safety is often a fleeting luxury rather than a fundamental right. As a single woman navigating this city, the reality of escalating violence and sex crimes is frighteningly visceral. It is not a question of “if” an assault will occur, but a matter of “when.” With law enforcement scarce, streets filled with apprehension and filth, help seemingly is out of reach, the once thriving Rose City has become a battleground, third world wild, wild, west.

Against this backdrop, the mission of RentzDewRoseCity finds relevancy more than ever. I have been selling my jeans and exercise equipment online for years. But now, with it harder and harder than ever to learn the new job and resume aplicant tracking systems, small bits of unemployment are now turning into years long suffering. My guiding ethos, “Please set me free,” resonates with every individual striving to escape the tormenting cycle of lay-offs, wrongful terminations, violence and fear, calling for liberation from the chains of uncertainty and insecurity.

I am without any support. People that know me, know how isolated I have become, without complaint, I have scared off everybody here that I ever knew. People here are troubled. Men would rather live with men and women with women. i still would like a man and a partnership before it’s too late! I obsess over giving up, if I could just get ahead! I have been declining rapidly the last 4 years.

For close to 20 years now, I go about once a week to behavioral health counceling. I take my medications, im signed up for TMS. But I really need help this time.

Thanks to your generosity, my will to keep going, layoff after layoff, would push me over this obstacle. I have very little income moving forward especially with 9 week minimum TMS program. I need to survive on being my own boss right now. But right after this 9 week TMS treatment, I want to get out of here- following my family cross country. Like, “The Oregon Trail in Reverse.” See, my folks are selling their home here in Oregon and getting out as well. They were in Wyoming tonight. I don’t want to be left alone here after treatment.

I’ve been able to help numerous people I have met while in my 20’s and 30’s in Portland, Oregon. Never, have I ever asked for help this desperatly, or even at all. I’m surrounded by poverty here, just to keep an apartment as an independent woman, you can’t do much else. No one that I have financially helped would ever be able to return the favor. Portland’s hostile environment, has been killing me for a few years now. I don’t fit in here. My folks already bought their new house but I need to stay behind a few months to get this TMS. The states I will be moving to, definitly are not likely to be as medically generous as Oregon.

Help me get this one, just this one fight over with, and to the other side, where I can get my groove back. My committment to my folks needs to stay strong. I know I could go with them in the next 3 months or so. They are leaving my brother there to watch the new house this week! I am not behind, but I fear it and see it coming. My hair has strted to fall out dramatically and anxiety of interacting here makes my tummu turn. Portland remains unwavering, the severity of this battle necessitates additional support. No act of kindness, no matter how small, can ever be wasted. Anytime you pour into the heart of another, that’s never wasted. As I continue to strive for a future free of fear, debt and poverty, I humbly ask for your donation.

Any amount you donate will directly support my initiative, amplifying my self esteem and voice so I can further heal my brain and get back to work, in a whole new state. Since 16 years old, I have worked to ignite my future. This states, culture and people in it, are diminishing my light.

I believe in the power of unity and the change that heartfelt compassion can create. Afterall- my folks are still together and while they cant help me this time, I need to stay close to them. So, let me continue my noble fight against fear and violence here in Oregon. Help me build a future where hardworking- brutally honest women don’t have to live in fear, and where I can start living my second half. “Please set me free.”