Hey there friend.
I am coming here today in order to reach out for help with my property taxes; which total $1,002.44, due on April 30th.
To say this past year has been one of the most turbulent of my life would perhaps be a bit of an understatement, we may need more space than I have here to provide the full and expansive context. I come here in full awareness that there are so many out there suffering and struggling right now, all over the world, too. It breaks my heart that forms like these must be created in order for folks to simply get by and survive. I pray we can move into a world of connected community support and self sovereignty that allows for meaningful, impactful growth and change in order to create new systems and ways of being so as no being has to suffer for a lack of funds or resources. I hope to help create this world one day, and hope I get to live to see it happen, even if it’s in small ways.
Yet, here I am, humbled and online asking for help. There isn’t anyone in my life I can ask, my friends are all equally trying to stay afloat, and the only family member I have isn’t in a position to assist me.
My land is all I have. It is my home, my sanctuary, the place where all is right and good in the world when everything seems to spiral into the seeming abyss of chaos and confusion that is this dark night of the soul. I am so afraid that I won’t be able to pay taxes and I might loose this land I love so much and am deeply connected with.
I am currently in between jobs right now, working on my business, cultivating my homestead to live my dream as an herbalist, trying to work online task jobs, dealing with one unexpected expense after the other, while attempting to stay above water mentally, emotionally and physically. The moment I think I’m okay, that I might just be in the clear, something comes up and knocks the wind out of me. I am struggling so badly. I have given up food and basic amenities like shampoo and clothing, sold personal items, and done as many odd jobs as possible to try and save for property taxes and my monthly bills throughout the entire year and I am still in the negative. Six years ago I went into $20k worth of debt to escape an abusive situation, and it’s still haunting me today and preventing me from saving and getting into a more stable place. Up until this year I’ve scrapped by, yet this year has hit me so hard I can’t create any firm ground for myself and my future. This is all taking a toll on me, and I am asking for help out of a place to try and get ahead just a little bit until I can start my job, get the client base I need, pay off my debt and start my dream.
With the most heartfelt gratitude, thank you for taking the time to read this little cry for help. I sincerely appreciate your time and consideration, and hope you are well and taking care.
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