My nephew, was our Mother’s first Grandson. He has always had anxiety and was horribly picked on in school. Kids always called him gay, even before he knew what that meant. He was a very handsome kid and young man. As it turned out later, he did claim to be gay. We all accepted him for what he was. He was always very private about it… unlike today’s kids who are told that they can be gay if they want to and should tell everyone about their sex life, especially to those who don’t want to hear about it… and even for those kids who don’t even have a sex life yet. He was for real, and very mannerful, deep, respectful, loving and kind! He had such devotion and love, and that always made him vulnerable to being broken hearted and depressed.
Everything about this is an immeasurable amount of sadness, but to think about how he was never able to have and to hold a lifetime companion that was worth living for, but only ones that were worth dying for… robbing the rest of the world decades of the pleasure of his presence… is a sadness of another level.
The devastation of the loss of a child is numbing, and shocking to the point of just sitting and staring in disbelief. And, after a strong and incredible urge to click ‘backspace’, ‘Esc’, or ‘Return’, or ‘go back’… is instinctively and instantly attempted, we go back to sitting and staring in disbelief… continuing dehydrating our bodies by way of an unstoppable river of tears.
My Sister, his Mother, and his Father, run a little hobby farm on the side. She works for the county, and he just got laid off from one of the auto manufacturing companies… I don’t want to put their business out there. My Nephew, Good God Bless His Soul, was between jobs and had no assets. Sure, work gives you a certain amount of days off for the loss of family, but how can anyone go back after this and not break down? I would love to be able to them out with their bills so that she can take off work with unpaid days without worrying about bills.
Please help donate for the funeral, and financial help with bills.
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