I have always been a empath. I can feel everything in other people. Growing up professionals said I was autistic. Maybe that’s how I got into a relationship with someone who has Lyme disease. I see things differently. They deserve love as well. I see human beings for what is inside of their hearts.
I feel like I used to be what is a lost soul. Wandering searching for the meaning of life. Then I experienced someone beg for their life to end because they couldn’t live their life to the fullest.
Through my own breakdown I now know that life is for Joy. Life is being what you love.
I know why we go through trauma.
I guess it’s true. We can rise above it all. What did I learn from it all?
The more we love ourselves the more we can give to the world.
I learned to love who I am. For that to happen I had to be destroyed by circumstances that revealed who I truly am.
And now I’m ready to give to the world.
I managed to acquire my own apartment. This is my starting point. I moved in with a suitcase. And a laptop. I had $24. I am situated In a isolated region. Yet, I managed to sell my writing skills by creating a business proposal for one client; generating $500. When I made that money. I knew that I could survive anywhere. I still realize life is more than simply surviving.
I brought a comforter because I sleep on the floor on a rug I was fortunate enough to be gifted from the group home I left.
There was a point I did not have a cell phone. No modem for Internet. the cheaply made cell phone that are acquired free from the government had suddenly stopped working because of a short in the charging port. I didn’t let this stop me from continuing my purpose.
I prayed. I read a book I kept from the homeless shelter I was in previously called A Duke by any other name. Great book.
I did not have a heater so I slept with the oven open. Because I arrived in December. I know that’s dangerous. But I know for sure I am here to survive preserve, thrive and give light 🕯️ to others.
Money purchases me:
Furnishing my entire apartment (Bed, entertainment center, pots and pans, sofa)
New laptop
Vehicle (I am in mountain terrain.)
Groceries
New clothes
New footwear
Payment of a debt (parking tickets)
local vacation getaway ( a month in a hotel to alleviate the pressure of the tasks at hand or a resort to just enjoy something for change.)
give money to my baby sister who lives in a shelter now hoping to get housing assistance. I feel guilty for not being able to help more. I swore to myself that after I surmounted my own obstacles mentally and financially I would assist her.
spa and wellness centers ( sound baths included)
party (I will throw a deep house mix party in a mansion as a celebration for myself and others. it’s important to give a safe space to people to just let go. deep house music is great for the letting the spirit fly.
I want others to experience a meditation through music)
Take a trip to people dying of terminal illness; talk to them. Hold their hand. Let them know someone cares.
Donate a small amount to my favorite charity. I’m leaning towards children/ adults who are blind and disabled in other ways.
Gardening ( I developed a love for plants. flowers and plants give me a the inspiration to grow. I know just from watching them that we as human beings grown and bloom at different seasons and in different ways. The color schemes and shapes akin to our personalities as well as distinct journeys.
while it’s good to feel the motivation of resurrection. It is even more important to be prepared for such a large undertaking. this preparation is multi dimensional. The body must be invigorated. The spirit must be involved in endeavors that will bring it joy. Yes, I have reached this state of joy with no money in my pocket. I understand that its more conducive to do so with the funds to do so.
Peace is state of mind.Yet, it still costs money to facilitate.
Lastly my first initial creative endeavor will be a tv show centering around Love, relationships and adventure.
I have next to nothing right now. It was all worth it to get to where I am now.
“if you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.”
-African Proverb
I realize life’s just one big journey. Somehow I already am connected to you. And you to me. The only difference is I’m aware of it now. I understand where I fit in. This allows me to contribute.
$150k
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