Firstly I’d like to thank anyone who takes the time to read this, it’s not something I’m comfortable with but I’ve got to a point that I’m left with no other option.
I am a father of two children, financially things have got very bad and unfortunately it’s only getting worse. We are behind on several bills, I’m personally not eating properly, my car is unsafe due to worn brake pads and my MOT is about to expire meaning I’ll have to take it off the road. I’m stressed, not sleeping well at all and it’s all having a big impact on my health condition.
In 2013 I had a kidney transplant which amazingly was donated by my mum who has just turned 72. I have to take a large amount of immunosuppressants on a daily basis to stop my kidney from rejecting – this works by lowering my immune system which has associated risks. To keep my kidney going as long as possible I need to stick to a good routine – eating a similar amount daily is very important as otherwise it impacts the level of the immunosuppressants in my blood – if the level is too high or two low it damages the kidney. This is unfortunately now being jeopardised as I’m having to make choices – my kids never go without but I’m sacrificing my own meals to keep costs down.
The situation I’m in is having a huge impact on my mental health, I’m now constantly making excuses to not do things – even seeing my family and friends, everything has become a struggle and I’m becoming more aware of the fact I’m in a dark place. I tend to block things out and even pretend to myself that things are ok but they’re not and I’ve realised accepting this is essential now.
My daughter who is currently 13 has anxiety issues and in October last year we decided to take her out of mainstream school. She was very unhappy and struggling with many aspects of school and due to lack of support within the school, we strongly felt we were left with no other option. We are currently homeschooling and although this is generally going ok, it could be much better and our current financial situation really isn’t helping. We’re left with limited resources, a dated laptop and no opportunities to go on educational outings which is such a shame.
Due to homeschooling responsibilities, employment options are very limited. In my spare time I’ve been learning how to make and market websites, particularly SEO (search engine optimisation) which long term I plan to offer to clients which I could do from home. This will be great once in place but finding the motivation and even the small amount of funds needed to get this off the ground is currently not possible – I’m in a catch 22 which isn’t going to change unless something happens to get me through it.
Having access to anything more than we have now would be life changing, it would give me the chance to eat properly, get back on track with bills, improve my physical and mental health, look after my kidney properly, improve my daughters homeschooling, allow me to get my car fixed and overall significantly reduce stress.
I’m not sure if I’ve explained everything properly but if this speaks to anyone and they are willing to help I would honestly be overwhelmed and that’s an understatement. Life has got hard and it’s made me aware of how things can unexpectedly change in people’s lives. In the future when I’m in a better situation I will be donating anything I can to help people as it’s something I feel very strongly about.
If and that’s a big if, anyone is in a position to help I can’t express in words how grateful I would be. I can only say thank you so much in advance.