To the lovely person reading this,
My name is Nina. Growing up, my father struggled with PTSD, which, when triggered, led to violent outburst that were often directed at my siblings and I. I completely sympathize with those struggling with PTSD, which made it even harder to grapple with the treatment my family endured as a result of it, including abuse I had endured at the hands of other people that they failed to address. Despite it all, I have healed over time, forgiven my father and myself, even though he remains unrepentant to this day.
I’m a junior music composition major in university. As a commuter, I continued to live with my family through school. Despite the strained relationship I have with my parents, I didn’t believe it was necessary to “escape.” That changed a few months ago. Even though my father stopped physically abusing my siblings and I in our early/mid teens, the emotional abuse and manipulation was relentless. One day, I physically felt my spirit break at the horrible way he would speak to me and my sister. I couldn’t take It any more. I took whatever money I saved, found a steady enough job, and the first apartment I got approved for I took.
Throughout this whole process, I have been very blessed in many ways. The fact that I was approved for an apartment swiftly was a miracle in and of itself. It’s not lost on me that my situation is more fortunate than many that have gone through similar. I thank God constantly for how far He’s brought me. Including the people who have helped me along the way.
I’m still doing alright, however, I wasn’t completely prepared for life on my own. I’m determined to stay strong and not resort to unhealthy and unsafe methods of getting by. But with regular living expenses, university payments, needing a car, etc. I need help to get on my feet. The money will be used for a reasonable car down payment, living expenses, and everything necessary so I can feel some sort of relief while I’m finding my way as a young woman newly free from emotional abuse.I have done so much work on myself and continue to work to make sure I’m in a position where I don’t pass my trauma onto my future children. The next step for me is being able to remain on my feet. I would graciously appreciate any help.
God bless
– Nina
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