Good Evening and welcome,
As of today July 24th 2024 I find myself in a place in life where I am possibly days away from being escorted out of my apartment (warrant of removal) as a result of not being able to come up with the remaining balance of my back and upcoming rent payment totaling almost $4,400 which includes over an additional month worth of intentionally inflated court fees charged to me as additional rent because they can. Then followed by another rent increase amount with my re-newel offer, yet still they weren’t the overall problem.
My industry was hit pretty hard the last 4, 5 years along with pretty much the rest of the world I would say, so similar to many I’m sure i haven’t really worked in or out of my field really off and on since 2022. Hard to land work outside the industry that you’ve been in for over 16 years without other current experience history specific to the job in question. Some require some types of certificates so I did a few to widen the search.
I also own 2 start up companies both single-member LLC’s that I have been fighting to get back up. One started in 2018 initially was struggling mostly because of the high costs of efficiency at the amount needed in to bring in more business, which lead to loosing business. Then given that my job industry was also 99% of my business clients when my industry got hurt so did i, twice. The other company hasn’t made any funds as yet, it was an initial attempt at helping to salvage the first company but both still has potential once i get through. So both still remain to be my best options at finally having the opportunity to build and properly helping my family as well as others that may also find themselves without options but remain with the best of intentions and energy…
My car insurance lapsed 2 days ago, long over due inspection due to costly mechanical issues, parking / toll tickets mainly from past interviews. No income at all currently but
what makes it so interesting is that I actually have an interview tomorrow for a job, manifested! lol. Sometimes to help balance the pressure I try to see certain situations as more comical just to ease the tension of the reality:). My phone was off this morning because I wasn’t able to pay a previous payment but was given a short extension so again I am appreciative.
Outside of back rent, over $40,000 in debt from my a combination of my personal credit cards dumped initially to get the first business up and running. Made a little money but was learning business as I went while playing catch up right into the slow down then full stop. With no real funding and missed my initial window to explore business credit and even worse later due to lock downs, then a bunch of internal issues with my industry things just got pretty dark. Those added issues lead to lack of business and work at the same time. Eventually leading to not being able to stay a float both personally and professionally. That debt also includes business taxes and loans gone bad given from good friendships and family that I would very much like to repay and mend for supporting my business and or helping me survive and progress in any way. I don’t party, go out, mostly have been this way growing up but 100% since starting my business, and especially since things with my family has gotten a bit more serious…so i focus on creating brighter days.
Just trying to stay positive:), shake off the headaches, hold the tears back from the memories of the betrayals, and negative energy by staying strong minded and grateful as best i can for all because even the negative situations have taught and inspired me, but after I have a choice as to which direction to go with that inspiration and knowledge. What feels human to me. Doing good and amazing things in the world and helping amazing people, sometimes especially if they’re not aware of how amazing they are. That feeling is unexplainable. This I still believe, so I hold my frequency and stay as strong as possible for as long as possible, even though you know most of the time more will be requested of you, and a lot of times without you having the right to ask for help if needed yourself… At a time I would beat up on my self because of course it’s my responsibility as an adult but not allowing myself to have a set back rather than a failure or bypassing rather than celebrating at each goal post, that was what I had to stop feeding because although there will be stormy days along my journey there will also always be better days as well:)…I like to think the blessings that the universe has in store for me are infinite, but I could never dare put an amount on the kindness of you all reading my huge rant lol, but thank you and I appreciate you for stopping by and reading why:) Blessings to you and Thank you:)
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