Hello dear community,
after I have read some of the other help requests, I am not sure, if I fit very well in here, but I still want to witness this chance and tell you my story.
I grew up in very good, but simultaneously in very very bad conditions. The good? I am a very very talented and smart guy, thanks to my mother, who had put so much time in education, that I have skipped the first grade after a few days, but that is when all the bad things started. Mobbing is one thing, even though getting beaten up for 5 years each school day wasn’t the smallest thing that damaged me. Shortly before my first school day, I got a new „father“, who literally did the same until I got 12 13 years old and could somehow defend myself. Many many problems in family and in my normal days made me a drug addict, school skipper, and and and.
After I hade gone to a recovery clinic to get off the drugs, everything seemed good. I found an apprenticeship as a cook, didn’t do drugs, and even got a girlfriend.
Then, in summer, everything changed. Old friends laughing at me for dropping out of school, my parents getting even more worse to me, and I got into drugs and crime quicker than I thought. Right now, I am on a „good“ way, but only because of more and more trouble…
My parents are kicking me out the house, I lost my job as a cook because the Chefs needed me for the hard work only, I didn’t even learn something, and now I need to find a house, a job (if I’m not getting pranked I should start after few days), food (my parents only allow me basic things like water, using salt or herbs, but mostly I need to buy these things on my own, doing surveys online and with luck getting 5-10€ for one day on my PayPal, so I can get myself some flour and eggs, to cook me an omelet or to bake bread, and I don’t even buy clothes, because one jeans and a few t shirts do the thing. My job, which I currently don’t have, pays me about 4 to 5 Euro an hour, because here in germany apprenticeships don’t get paid by minimum wage, everyone has a wage of 1100€ without taxes, plus cooks need to pay 100-150€ monthly for being allowed to eat all the food. And I even need to find a little apartment with that money. And that’s not everything, explaining my whole situation could take me some days.
To be honest, begging is the least thing I want to do. Currently, being jobless I do nothing other than surveys, crypto, and having hope in an online crypto casino where I deposit some of the online earned money, because sometimes 20 30 cents in the crypto casino got me a full meal, but I also need to steal sometimes or do other illegal/unethical things, which I don’t even want to talk about. As for now, I’m having more discipline than ever, I even closed my eyes on buying and taking drugs, and I feel a lot better. But the „online“ working doesn’t make me more than 5 dollars a day, and because i don’t have money, I don’t have much options to invest, but if I had, I am sure I could do anything with it, that’s why I even need to cancel eating, going to the gym and dancing, which was a big part of me and one of the only reasons I was happy, and all other things people my age do, just to save up a bit and do something off of it.
But right now, unfortunately I am not in the state where I could really unleash my potential, which I’m sure I have, but right now getting pressured from every side, getting panic attacks, reality losses and not being able to normally go outside with friend, without having some kind of attacks. I really need help to find myself a little apartment, having some food money or something to invest into. Living without my parents, don’t getting beaten up and having enough to eat would really make me a strong man, and later I could be like you, reading messages from people in need . As I am young and still have a drive in life, I really don’t like to beg and want to do everything on my own, but after hearing of this website I decided to take a chance.
I will appreciate every type of help, I’m not asking for specific amounts of money, and will appreciate every type of help. As I am young, I will leave my telegram too, in case someone who was going through the same situation or just wants to help me in a communicative way, could talk with me.
Bless you all! Don’t give up no matter what happens to you! That’s the beauty in life, that you can experience all kinds of situations!
My telegram @tfdump
My PayPal PayPal.me/blyatsuk (sorry for the weird name)