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Everytime I post something like this on social media I get embarassed because I get attacked! I’m tired of this! And I barely raise anything! It doesn’t go viral and I delete the post! This has got to stop!
I have been offered a job a few times making a lot better than I am now but I don’t have money to move there! To another city Nashville on the other side of the country! I have got to do this now! I keep staying stuck! I don’t think God wants me here in Arizona anymore! Something has got to change!
My mom finally got tired of my dad’s wickedness and anger and narcissistic ways tonight. He got really pissed off when he asked her if she voted for Trump. He keeps verbally insulting her and attacking her. Me in the past defending my mom got him mad at me and stopped keeping his word! Screaming like a maniac on the phone too! He threatened to come over with his mace and handgun and shoot me and sue me a few times! He has threatened to cut my mom off several times even though legally she is supposed to be get divorce settlements from him decided in court! Yes they are divorced but she is retired with macular degeneration in her eyes! We need prayers and help! My mom loves Jesus she needs healing and I need to get a good paying job I keep getting offered and would like to move to! I want to help her every month! We all make mistakes in our life! It feels like the only mistake we made is to let my dad back in our life and helped lead him to Christ. He hates Christians and Conservatives and Trump support and has actual serious anger and rage and narcissitic ways big time! Cutting off from him and getting him out of both of our lives is good but it’s going to hurt my mom financially! He keeps sending her nasty texts and she keeps ignoring it she responded tonight “I don’t want your money” You would think he would be happy. He goes “I put you in a category like Greg” and he is mad. My mom realizes because he holds it over her as control! Apparently according to my mom he emailed me again the other day and threatened to sue me he made sure to send it to my mom too. I never got it because his email address is blocked I haven’t talked to him in awhile but I keep getting pissed hearing what he is doing to my mom! He had many times in the past to make right with us and change! This is something we have been dealing with for quite sometime!
Original Gofundme: I’m at the end of myself and life. I can’t do this anymore. I have been through 4 years of trials. This all started during Covid and my dad. My dad is a narcissist and a drug addict and threatened to shoot me. I spent two Christmases alone in a hotel. Christmases previously sucked and my dad made it suck. I have no family support and very few friends. Churches have let me down over and over again and Christians have let me down over and over again! I try raising money online before with gofundme or givesendgo and very few people see it and I get attacked. And people say nasty things like get a job. I have a job part-time. But I still barely make it every moth. I’m on disability. Any type of housing I can afford is waiting lists. I spend most of my money every month in hotels. I end up starving and going hungry the rest of the month. The system is not great like people believe. I have gotten the complete run around from the system. My insurance doesn’t think think I need a group home. I’ve been dealing with that going to and fro for the last year. I did finish my degree but I have no work experience in that field yet. I have been offered a job in Nashville a couple of times I tried raising money online a couple of times to help me move and I raise like $50!
I can’t seem to get a good job here. Doors seem shut here. I do want to move and start over somewhere like Nashville but never enough money to move! I’m facing another dilemma come the 1st of February I won’t be able to afford this hotel anymore and I will have no where to go. I’m just summing up what I have been through. but I had a lot of money stolen from me. I got beat up. I was in a car accident. No longer have my car. I’ve been in the hospital a few times. I have literally been through Hell on earth for the last 4 years and I can’t do this anymore! I ask God to help me and pray to Him and He doesn’t seem to answer me anymore. I don’t get it. I have no bad sin in my life and I never have. I know people who were drug addicts, sex addicts, etc who God turned their life around. I just had generational curses of bipolar in my family and a bad family. I have been through deliverance and healed and the past should be the past but in our system it often isn’t. I have very little work experience but I’m trying. I finished my degree. I know I have a calling for ministry on my life. I don’t know why God isn’t answering me anymore. I’m done with life and these trials. I need a miracle from God. I’d like good Christian people to be there for me wherever I move to. I don’t need any more attacks and rejection. This is my last effort and attempt. If nothing happens with God and/or this I’m done! I’m a good person who has been through enough! Prayer is appreciated too.
My Paypal: https://paypal.me/gregloucks