I am in a very severe bind. I tried to turn to other people including family for help but have been turned down. When I say “no one to turn to” I mean no one. My life is definitely going to spiral downwards when it comes to my finances.
In 2017, I was working for Microsoft for 2 years and it was wonderful. Great people, great pay and things were finally starting to look up. However, tragedy struck in 2019 when I was diagnosed with epilepsey and could no longer work. Prior to 2017, I have been consistenly in therapy and psychiatry and on medication and have since returned in order to get my life back on track and improve my relationships with others and coping skills. Thankfully, that has been the case and I even have been able to befriend more positive people instead of the negative people I once had in my life.
My whole life I endured intense mental, emotional and verbal abuse from my father. I know that is why I had low self-esteem and why I allowed so many negative people into my life to hurt me the way he did. I stopped all contact with him and them and had my last name changed due to not wanting to have anything to do with the man. My mother has been disabled since she was 36 years old and is now confined to a wheelchair. I’ve been getting some money from social security as well as taking various jobs to at least pay down some of my debt that came from buying necessities on my credit cards and student loans in order to get an education as my father cheated my mother out of child support when my brother and I were small. He refused to work because he knew he would have to provide the support to her so did that just to spite her. My grandfather always helped us all the time until his passing in 2012 with necessities. I look up to him and miss him still to this day.
However, it is just not enough. I am really hurting and I am desperately seeking any amount of contribution. I always believed in paying it forward and helping others. It is something that has held me together for many years while struggling to make ends meet and still does to this day. Even though I am unable to help financially at this point, I always have helped others with what amount I could because I believe no one should have to struggle on a daily basis.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I appreciate and am grateful for you in doing so.