Thank you for taking the time to read this, I have never done anything like this before and it’s taking a huge chunk out of my pride to do so!
Where do I start? I guess the last two and a half years since my dad passed have been the worst of it. I mean no one has a perfect life and I get that, But I feel like the poster child for Murphy’s Law at age 50! Between running back and forth between here (NC) and Florida to help my 75yr old parents when dad had cancer, losing my job because of it along with the time and money spent traveling and not having a spouse to pick up the income slack I started a hole, or avalanche that just won’t stop no matter what I do. I am their only child so there is no sibling to fall back on. And anything saved is gone….
Once dad passed and mom was as settled as she could be under the circumstances, I tried to get back on my feet. What a project! I was able to find employment, only for the owner to retire and sell the business 6 months later. The floors in my 80yr old house were supposed to get a minor ‘patch’ of a fix, but the person went ahead and took off the WHOLE kitchen subfloor! (after being told not to, just fix the 2 bad spots and be done). This was right after losing the job! Unemployment took 4 months to go through because they couldn’t get straight the new company’s headquarters was in a different state and my job was made obsolete here.
(that’s the short version…. I get the feeling this whole thing is going to be a story I need to shorten)
It took months to find employment, my house was torn apart (the appliances and everything were in the Livingroom so basically me and the dogs were staying in my bedroom all summer last year! I had to live off puny unemployment and credit to get the kitchen put back together.
This January a family friend became ill and had nowhere to go, so I had taken on caretaking for her in my home, since she literally has NO family. I was employed in long term temporary positions on and off because I was raised that something is better than nothing. My car has needed multiple repairs, one of the wires in the attic started melting/burning and almost started a fire. My HVAC had to be repaired in this over 100-degree heat, my lawn mower is essentially scrap metal… I’m trying to keep it all together, finish getting her out of my house, I still can’t find permanent work, definitely not for lack of trying! Now my car needs work again, my lawn looks like a jungle, my bills are behind, I can’t pay the utilities let alone the debt that accumulated, my cabinets and fridge are bare. So far this year has just been one thing after another, and I can’t seem to get my head above water no matter what I try!
I have explained most of what’s going on but there are other things too, I am trying not to make this a novel for you to read but at the same time explain my situation.
I’m babbling, my apologies! Look I need some help PLEASE, I have anxiety which as you can imagine is through the roof, and all of this is exceeding my medication!!! I’m behind on my bills, my house, car, yard and my mind are falling apart. I want nothing more than a job and never in a million years did I ever think I would have to resort to asking for help like this!! I have always been self-sufficient but now find myself physically, mentally & emotionally exhausted.
Any kind of help would be appreciated more than you could ever imagine, I’m so embarrassed I am even doing this!