Hello, my name is Reynhard. I am a student in university and i am in the process of doing my bachelors in mechatronic engineering. I am currently struggling to finance my degree.
The only person who has hope left for my future is me and i would genuinely appreciate any help. I have overcome my depression and am try to see the beauty in everything. When i sit outside and see the colorful sky; i tell myself to not lose hope, because if i keep trying everyday then the sky might look even more beautiful tomorrow.
I was never rich or spoiled growing up, but i lost my dad a few years back, 2023, and it completely devastated me, and made me feel like nothing was worth it anymore. Due to my dads hopes and dreams for me, I used the funds he left me to financed a year of my degree. My older brother also got a smaller amount of money due to him being older. Then (mid 2024) he asked me if he could borrow money because he was not doing well at the time, because he said he will pay for my college and support me when he gets back on his feat, this kept on for a while because i had trust in him. At the end of 2025, he kicked me out of the house and the reserve money i kept aside is currently paying for my food and lodging close to the campus i study at, but i have no way of paying for my college tuition and the only person i had that i could’ve relied on was my brother for money. My other family are all also selfish people and my mother was an alcoholic since i was young and had never supported my upbringing, the only person i had to rely on my whole life was my dad.
I am coping with the enormous everyday anxiety of what to do and how to make money. I have tried making content videos, but ultimately it was not worth most peoples attention. I have also tried asking my college if there are any financial aide or alternatives i could try and they just shunned me off because i was failing in a few modules and said most people won’t support failing students. This was devastating because studying and working fill-time will only cause me more setbacks, or this is how i feel. This won’t stop me from trying every possible way of supporting myself and i will work everyday after school making content, reviews or even if it is necessary getting a full-time job and taking my studying slower.
I have never wanted a lot and being rich wasn’t one of them. I just want to be an engineer. I just want to be able to keep trying. Life can also sometimes be beautiful as long as you wait out the storm. paypal.me/ReyRey0206